MNNURSEKATIE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MNNURSEKATIE MNNURSEKATIE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ 5k PR, Planning to organize my first 5k run walk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4984518 After my last 5k which I felt was a fail, I was kindly reminded by my SP friends that I needed to give myself a break. You guys were totally right. After all, not too long ago, I would have never dreamed of running in races. <BR> <BR> So I ran another 5k a few weeks ago and got a PR of 27:10 yippee!!! I'm pleased with that. Now I am prepping for the next one in two weeks. Then I think my next challenge will be a longer distance. <BR> <BR> My newest experience is planning a 5k run/walk ... Tue, 24 Jul 2012 09:07:49 EST My 5k epic fail...& next race. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4948298 Last Saturday I "ran" a 5k in Hudson, Wisconsin. It was a unexciting course through their town streets on a hot humid day. I ran the first mile at 10:30min/mile with a friend who I got to do her first race. I figured I could pace it to finish under 29 minutes. Well, I got too hot & paced my last two miles too fast. I sabatoged myself. I have exercised induced asthma & it kicked in bad after 2.25 miles. Sadly I had to take walk breaks. I accepted a new goal of making it in under 30 minut... Fri, 29 Jun 2012 22:23:31 EST Beauty & The Beast~my life ; ) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4887335 <em>334</em> <BR> I have had a truly amazing past few years. Now you read this thinking I've had good luck right? It's exactly the opposite....I have been blessed with one trial & tribulation after another. <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> I can give a very brief run down of the past for those who don't know me. Ok so...May 2010 my brother-in-law died at 35 tragically & my grandfather died both within two weeks. Sept 2010 my sister-in-law committed suicide. October 2010 my husband's grandma di... Fri, 18 May 2012 13:48:12 EST How about some junk food with a side of crabby? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4845620 I wish I was on my PC not my laptop. That is where all my pictures from yesterday's trail run are. I will have to discuss the trail run next blog. <BR> <BR> This post is about PMS or PMDD even Premenstrual Syndrome & Prementstrual dysphoric disorder. <BR> <BR> Look those up on your own if you are unsure of exactly what they are. I am going to give you my own subjective version of my PMDD. <BR> <BR> It is a week of HELL. I am so irritable I want to physically harm those around me *sarca... Sat, 21 Apr 2012 16:59:33 EST If your happy and you know it....run your a** off? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4818440 Ha ha ha...Let's see. <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> Update since my March 14, 2012 car accident. <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> Recovery: chest pain from seat belt across my chest being what made my body go from around 55mph to 0mph in an instant. Besides that I am one lucky woman who appreciates every moment of every day even more than before. <BR> <BR> I have been struggling running because of my chest pain. I should specify that it isn't a heart issue. It is inflammation of where my ribs mee... Tue, 3 Apr 2012 11:33:30 EST My serious car accident (I could have died) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4789573 For the SP friends who know me, my life has faced a lot of challenges and adversity. Every time I fall (or get knocked) down, I dust myself off and get right back up. I am bound and determined to keep on going. Nothing is going to stop me. <BR> <BR> Yesterday afternoon, something almost stopped me....for good. <BR> <BR> It was just another ordinary day. I got up, brought my son to school, got ready for the day. My friend invited my over to her house. So, after running errands, I took ... Thu, 15 Mar 2012 19:33:35 EST A lot can change in 200 days! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4784391 Hi everyone I'm back, <BR> <BR> It's been 203 days according to my page since my last login. Two hundred and three days. WOW! <BR> <em>249</em> <BR> I am now back for day 1. Interesting enough, I didn't come back because I gained weight. I didn't come back because I have weight left to lose. In fact, I have maintained my weight loss for two years. <BR> <em>345</em> <BR> I came back because I miss SparkPeople. I miss the people I got to know. The blogs, the points, reading articl... Mon, 12 Mar 2012 20:15:13 EST Weight gain? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4438061 I am trying to keep my weight ON. Yes that is correct.....not lose weight. I am trying to stay at 125 pounds & it has been tough. <BR> <BR> I continue with health issues....but now they are random things. I fainted in July for the first time ever & hit my face on the coffee table going down fracturing my nose. I woke up on the floor in severe pain and having a major nose bleed. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/3/l731938032.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I re-injured my bac... Sat, 20 Aug 2011 09:50:47 EST UPDATE on my health. Sorry it took so long. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4263610 Let's see. Two CT scans. First suggested colon cancer.......2 radiologists agreed. This is mind blowing to me. Then I had to do a bowel prep & do a 2nd CT scan. Turns out my cancer was BOWEL IN MY COLON!!!!! SERIOUSLY. Two radiologists thought poop was cancer? <BR> <BR> So instead they find 4 cysts on my right ovary with the 2nd CT scan. Now I get to follow up on that June 20th. I feel like a walking health death trap still. Physically exhausted all the time. No energy. etc et... Sun, 29 May 2011 18:16:53 EST Doctor's appt. Monday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4185515 I get to go see a new OB/GYN on Monday as the next piece in my mystery pelvic pain puzzle. The fun part? It's out of town & we just got a little extra cash. I need Spring/Summer work clothes. So I am looking forward to that. I also have friends that recently moved there. Also fun to see them. <BR> <BR> Someone said something about seeing someone about my stressing over this. I think that it is a good idea to further discuss it in therapy. Pain is pain & it may not go away. I may nee... Sat, 23 Apr 2011 11:48:01 EST Not trying to lose weight. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4183570 Now I have lost another 2 lbs. in 3 days. That's 19 lbs. since Feb. & the doctors don't seem concerned? However, I am really concerned. Afraid. Scared. For someone who struggled always to keep weight OFF it's odd to be dropping weight like mad. <BR> <BR> My mom died of cancer at 31. I am 31. Of course that means nothing because she had stomach cancer & I just had a scope with of my stomach to small intestine & large intestine turn out fine (except my UC). I had the tubal ligation s... Fri, 22 Apr 2011 10:48:00 EST Getting back to semi-normal? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4178539 Yes, I still need to go to the doctor & keep racking up medical bills (ugh). Today though, I am heading to the gym for a light workout. Perhaps that & some of my compazine will spark my appetite & help my nausea. Worth a shot. <BR> <BR> Making an appointment with my regular doctor & I am going to ask him to check a couple of things via blood work that haven't been checked yet. <BR> <BR> Will keep working toward a solution. As for now, I want a little sense of normalcy again. Wed, 20 Apr 2011 07:39:50 EST Aaah now what!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4172183 I am happy to say I was offered my co-leader position back in the group I co-lead. That really made my day. <BR> <BR> I went out for breakfast with friends but got really UC sick & came home. I get the joint pain too which is misery. I get such bad abdominal pain. Plus I am freezing & chilled constantly. (It's Minnesota, we have snow & it's April 17) Not to mention I have inadvertently lost about 17 pounds since Feb!!!!! Twelve of those lbs. in the past three weeks. <BR> <BR> I get ... Sun, 17 Apr 2011 16:42:12 EST Biopsy results came today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4170341 All of the upper GI biopsies came back fine. The lower GI biopsy came back as ulcerative colitis still. However, the GI doc clearly states that none of this is the cause of my abdominal pain, loss of appetite, etc. In the mean time I just keep dropping weight & feeling miserable. <BR> <BR> I wish someone would find an answer. Now it's on to gyno #2 for a second opinion. Trying to figure out if something is causing pain there. Gyno #1 wanted to do a hysterectomy but I can't afford to ta... Sat, 16 Apr 2011 17:45:19 EST Ulcerative Colitis scope update! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4167062 Well this time I was wide awake for the whole upper & lower scope (yuck). WON'T let that happen again. He took 3 biopsies of my small intestine & one on an ulcer in my large intestine. Currently awaiting the results of those biopsies. <BR> <BR> The good news.....IT HASN'T SPREAD!!!!!! Fri, 15 Apr 2011 07:27:29 EST It's been a while so I want to post about my ulcerative colitis. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4155339 I have been pretty sick for awhile & actually dropped 12 lbs in the past 2 weeks. I go in on Tues. for an upper & lower scope. Oh joy. I am nervous. I of course, hate the prep, & always worry about being awake during the scopes. Plus my signs look as though it has spread pretty far : ( <BR> <BR> I am hoping for the best though. That's why I haven't been on SP much though. I have nothing to report. No exercise. Lost appetite. Extreme weight loss without trying & just being sick. Th... Sun, 10 Apr 2011 10:42:54 EST Happy camper here. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4034607 Hey doing well here. Have a new motivation. My parents invited us on a vacation next year around this time to the Caribbean. Hello bikini body....time to get you back ; ) <BR> <BR> I finally feel GOOD. GOOD took awhile. I am so so happy to be good again though. I have been using my Wii exercise games & Wii fit. The treadmill etc. I do miss the gym though. <BR> <BR> I got an iphone for Valentines day & I have SP on it which is awesome. <BR> <BR> Finally feel like the old optimis... Mon, 21 Feb 2011 09:22:43 EST Over surgery....almost. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4011608 Finally over the abdominal surgery. Laprascopic wasn't the cakewalk this time it was the first time. What sucks? My abdomen grew....I swear.....it expanded after. Like after they blew it up with the gas for the surgery they stretched it and it hasn't gone back. I look pregnant. It's funny. I also have different scars this time than the first. And it revamped my stretch marks from light silver to purple. Glad it's winter and this tummy hides lol. <BR> <BR> Just got off the treadmil... Sat, 12 Feb 2011 10:31:25 EST Back again!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4003521 It seems I don't have much "good" happening for some reason. I was surprised to look back through my blog & see my miscarriage was SUCH a long time ago. Time has kind of flown by and I work the 9-5 with hour drive. My life is basically work. Ugh. I have done good healthy eating but currently weigh 145 lbs & am getting a little squishy due to lack of exercise. <BR> I had laprascopic surgery the end of Jan. & recovery has SUCKED. I had it Thurs. Planned to be back at work that followin... Wed, 9 Feb 2011 10:03:47 EST One problem solved....many more to go : ) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3951979 Well I found a solution to our junk food problem. I did put all of the junk food for his lunch in the basement in a little 3 drawer thing. I haven't touched it since. It's the same 3 drawer thing we kept it in upstairs except I bought a new one. In my upstairs one I replaced the junk with Brother's freeze dried fruit, 100 calorie packs of nuts, luna bars, protein bars, green tea, fiber one 90 calorie bars, etc. <BR> <BR> I am bound and determined to get up early & get a little exercise... Sun, 23 Jan 2011 07:03:17 EST I lost my spark : ( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3943144 I am sad to say folks I have sort of lost my spark. While I haven't gained much weight I have not done much exercise. <BR> <BR> My leaving for work at early to & getting home late, having to cook etc have left little time for me to exercise. We are having a few financial issues so I cut down several things on our cell phones (we don't have landline). I also cut out my gym membership. I have a treadmill, a multitude of exercise dvds, Wii fit, EAS sports active. I don't need the membershi... Thu, 20 Jan 2011 07:19:41 EST 2011 & my goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3877715 Happy New Year everyone, welcome to 2011. For myself, 2010 brought many trials & tribulations which I thankfully survived. <BR> <BR> 2011 starts with my weight up about 10 lbs from what's posted on my tracker. I suppose I should change that but I dont want to lol. <BR> <BR> So, I bought a pair of running shoes today on clearance & I have my treadmill. We got a Wii for Christmas & it's a blast. I have my own personal library of exercise videos. I have a gym membership. <BR> <BR> What... Sat, 1 Jan 2011 17:30:59 EST Hot & sweaty!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3857244 Just ran a couple miles on the treadmill. Gonna do some final Christmas shopping & wrap presents. My son's Christmas program for kindergarten is this morning. So excited. Then I work the afternoon. <BR> <BR> So.....exercise good. Been waking up at night binging on junk.......BAD. And it's not because I don't eat enough during the day......TRUST ME. <BR> <BR> Gotta get back to those healthy foods I keep talking about & keep these cravings at bay. <BR> <BR> Take care everyone Wed, 22 Dec 2010 09:16:09 EST Binge & unhealthy eating. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3851867 Potlucks at work, candy dishes, office job, & no time to cook supper....how do you like my EXCUSES??? <BR> <BR> All problems have solutions & I know I am using these excuses to "enjoy" my binging on junk. I basically have been not eating all day & just chowing down all evening long. <BR> <BR> I get my "binge fix" & don't gain weight. However, I am unhealthy in doing this & feel I have definitely taken a step back in my journey to health. <BR> <BR> So it's time to go to the grocery stor... Sun, 19 Dec 2010 08:37:59 EST Skinny Girl shopping ; ) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3824037 I had a fun fun time shopping today. <BR> <BR> Let me elaborate a little on yesterday first. Yesterday was our five year anniversary. It was also the night of my work Christmas Party. We went out to the party & enjoyed socializing & a decent meal. We exchanged some very sweet cards & he got my a gift card to buy clothes.....I need SMALLER clothes...& warmer ones for my c-c-c-cold office. I finally bought a space hearter today for work. So anyhow, I got three cute WARM tops & a cute pai... Sat, 4 Dec 2010 18:07:36 EST Hey folks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3816157 Doing fairly well these days. Although my appetite sucks but I am working on that. I am down to 134 lbs yippey although I need to ST & get active again. The weather here in MN has sucked the past few days and my usual half hour commute has taken 1 hour to 1 hour and 15 minutes one way. Gotta love winter storms. <BR> <BR> We had a great Thanksgiving & Sunday was Kevin's birthday. Had a nice quiet celebration per his request. <BR> <BR> Friday is our fifth wedding anniversary & 6.5 years ... Wed, 1 Dec 2010 07:17:03 EST Update!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3793562 I switched doctors for my D&C. It was funny because it created a little controversy. I had my regular gyno do the D&C because he did my last one. I really like him & he is just a damn good doc. <BR> <BR> When I called my docs office they said they have been getting tons of complaints about the new OB doc....interesting. <BR> <BR> So this awesome doc talked to me on the phone himself. Got everything set up & even apologized that I had to wait til 3p.m. the same day to get in. I cant b... Fri, 19 Nov 2010 07:41:56 EST No such luck. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3787999 I hoped my ultrasound would go well. It didn't : ( Even after the cytotec & the miscarriage I have retained products of conception. <BR> <BR> I have a D&C at 3p.m. today. I have had one before but I am still really nervous about anesthesia & what not. <BR> <BR> Thought & prayers please. Tue, 16 Nov 2010 13:56:31 EST Life & tough times. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3782503 Hanging in there is an understatement. Hanging on by a thread is more accurate for me. After wanting another child for SO long (4 or so years) this miscarriage has hit me HARD. It also has to do with the fact that in less than six months my grandfather, my husband's brother, my husband's brother's wife, & my husband's grandmother passed away. <BR> <BR> I think the hormonal aspect of it alone is having a huge effect & that combined with grief over the loss has my emotions a little "messy... Sun, 14 Nov 2010 07:19:42 EST Time to run run run. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3769287 I spent the weekend feeling pretty dang depressed. Having a miscarriage is definitely not a pleasant experience. This morning I plan to get back on track. Yesterday I literally ate nothing but candy all day long. That was it. I also slept all day long. It wasn't a pretty picture. Today it's time to pick myself back up dust me off & get back on track. This morning starts with a run on the treadmill. I am up about 6 lbs from where I was before so I have some work to do. It will be goo... Mon, 8 Nov 2010 06:38:33 EST I guess I gotta get back on track. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3766514 Time to shift back to weight loss mode. Time to get my butt back into gear & exercise. So, how did that start today? I ate....& ate....& ate....& ATE. Yeah. I am devastated by the loss of the baby & I resorted back to binge eating. I am so sad I just want to eat & eat & eat. It's terrible to go back to that. <BR> <BR> My son is five years old. I have wanted another child forever. I don't think I want to try again though. I am 31 years old. I don't wanna be trying & trying & have a... Sat, 6 Nov 2010 19:10:41 EST Ultrasound today brought sad news. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3764502 No heartbeat. The pregnancy is not viable...had a missed miscarriage. Now have to use medications to complete the miscarriage. Scared about what that will be like. Anyone been through it? Fri, 5 Nov 2010 15:36:02 EST Hungry....ALL THE TIME ha!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3753450 Hello pregnancy....I am only 9 weeks or so & I find myself hungry ALL THE TIME!! Perhaps this has something to do with me gaining 60 lbs while pregnant with my first child? Oh and the fact that I literally ate any & everything & did no physical activity during that pregnancy. <BR> <BR> I am trying to make things different this time for sure. I am following calorie counts recommended by babyfit.com. Their nutrition tracker sucks though so I track here. I munch on lots of low calorie s... Mon, 1 Nov 2010 09:03:09 EST Got a treadmill yesterday. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3751636 Awesome it was really nice to get workout clothes on & hop on the treadmill instead of having to drive to the gym. It's going to be so nice to be able to hit the treadmill in my own home rather than trying to find time to get to the gym. <BR> <BR> I am excited & think this will help me stay healthy during pregnancy!! Sun, 31 Oct 2010 11:15:37 EST Feeling good!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3749061 The morning sickness has passed already & I am only nine weeks...thank God. I don't know how people can cope with longer lasting hyperemesis gravidarum. It's rough. So I have been doing good & hungry all the time lol. Trying to graze on lots of fruits & veggies. <BR> <BR> I have a little belly already lol....it really seems to pop quick with the second kiddo holy cow. I am trying to keep active still & try to get 30 minutes of cardio most days. It's getting pretty cold here in Minnes... Fri, 29 Oct 2010 19:01:01 EST Not enjoying the office job. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3734692 I am not so sure the 8-5 sit on my butt at a desk job is for me. UGH. It's so much sitting...on my butt lol. I am just getting disgusted with the drive time & the long days. I leave by 7:15a.m. & don't get home until 5:30 or 5:45p.m. A LONG DAY. My idea is to stick this job out until I have the baby & then while on maternity leave look for something more part time & closer to home. There is NO way I can spend over 10+ hours away five days a week from my baby. NO WAY. <BR> I am feeli... Sat, 23 Oct 2010 09:56:14 EST ER visit last night. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3715607 Because I spend the whole day throwing up every time I moved, I ended up in ER. I was having abdominal pain too so it was scary. Got IV fluids & some zofran. Had an ultra sound done. Found out I would have had twins....except one has already died. I am 6 weeks 6 days today. It makes my due date my birthday. Isn't that funny. I get sick just sitting up so won't be on the computer long. <BR> Thu, 14 Oct 2010 17:07:51 EST Well lets see... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3688810 Today I hit the gym & came home. Now I can't stop crying. Stupid hormones. I can't sleep at night & I feel nauseous 24/7. Somehow I forgot about all this stuff lol. Hope it passes soon. Sun, 3 Oct 2010 12:07:34 EST Pregnant!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3683932 Not sure how far along just got a positive test yesterday!!!! Calling the doc today!!!! <BR> <em>334</em> Fri, 1 Oct 2010 07:03:11 EST Not much http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3678651 WORK WORK WORK. <BR> <BR> It's an awesome job & I love it but all I do is work & commute lol. Great having weekends off. <BR> <BR> I have been walking on my lunch hour. I crave running though. Hmmm....can't really get all sweaty & then go back to the office. <BR> <BR> What's a girl to do. <BR> <BR> Wed, 29 Sep 2010 06:43:38 EST Just a little catching up. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3672444 Let's see.....Saturday was my sister-in-law's funeral. Then a good friend was getting married out of town. I was supposed to attend the wedding but I just couldn't do it. It was too much for one day. I did hit the gym Saturday morning & got a good workout in. Kristjan and I took a nice walk around a gorgeous local lake too that evening. Fall is in the air & the leaves look gorgeous. <BR> <BR> Today I hit the gym again & did some HIIT which was killer. Then I did my ST. I also walke... Sun, 26 Sep 2010 21:04:05 EST I woke up at 4:30am http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3663987 I did Turbo Fire. Yay!! Now I even have a little time to blog about the fact that despite now having a desk job I am managing to maintain & even lose 0.2 lbs. <BR> <BR> I figured out that I CAN drag my butt out of bed early & get a workout in. I feel better when I do. I also figured out there are plenty of healthy snacks I can stash in my office & the tiny fridge we have. So I keep 100 cal packs of almonds, walnuts etc, string cheese, protein bars, fruit etc hanging around for when I ... Thu, 23 Sep 2010 06:37:22 EST For those who judge mentally ill & those who take their own lives. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3659762 MENTAL ILLNESS. MENTALLY ILL. CRAZY. NUTTY. A FEW CARDS SHORT OF A FULL DECK. THE LIGHTS ARE ON BUT NOBODY IS HOME. <BR> <BR> Mental illness exists. It exists in my community & your community. It exists in the young, the old & everywhere in between. It knows no race, no color, no sex. <BR> <BR> It exists. It hurts & kills people every single day. People smile when they are truly dying inside. People hide it. Some are afraid to admit it. They fear the stigma attached to it. ... Tue, 21 Sep 2010 21:42:15 EST Today is a new day. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3653974 I may feel grief & sorrow & that's okay. I may even feel some illegitimate guilt & I will let myself. I think it is important to FEEL YOUR FEELINGS. So often people like me who have a history of binge eating did it to numb our feelings. I am proud to say that although Saturday I had a big binge I remained binge free Sunday & will continue to do so. <BR> <BR> Many beautiful things can come from a tragedy. When someone's life is taken much to young it reminds you to appreciate all the lit... Mon, 20 Sep 2010 06:56:36 EST I am very very sad. Just when things were getting better.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3651796 People who know me know that I have had a rough 6 months or so. My grandpa got sick & ended up in the nursing home I was working at. My husband's only brother died this past May & then May 31 my grandfather also passed away. <BR> <BR> I got bumped from my day shift position I held at the nursing home for 2 years & forced to midnights. <BR> <BR> Then things started looking up. I got a great new job. <BR> <BR> Last night we got a phone call. My husband's brother's wife committed suicid... Sun, 19 Sep 2010 12:02:20 EST Making up for lack of cardio during the week lol. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3649488 I did an hour on the stationary bike & 50 minutes on the treadmill. 110 minutes of cardio today. So am I making up for my lack of cardio during this busy week? Ugh. I need to get more cardio DURING the week. I think hitting the gym during lunch hour would be tough. Office attire & sweaty don't mix. Even if I bring clothes & change sweaty isn't good. What to do what to do. I need a plan. Help office folk how to you get in cardio. I SHOULD get up earlier and do it in the morning but ... Sat, 18 Sep 2010 12:15:37 EST Excited. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3645242 The other nurse at work wants to get an anytime fitness membership too & workout on our lunch hour or before work in the a.m. AWESOME. Thu, 16 Sep 2010 21:19:35 EST It's a whole new world. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3642986 Yeah my new job feels like a whole new world. I am in a new element of nursing & trying to learn about all of these new mental health meds. It has been very interesting. My son is having a hard time adjusting to kindergarten but it's finally getting a little easier. I am having a hard time adjusting to not getting home until 5:30pm. <BR> <BR> The ironic thing is that the girl who bumped me out of my position at the nursing home just quit. Which means my old position is open again. It... Thu, 16 Sep 2010 06:53:54 EST So busy.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3639675 Just a quick update to say that I have been very busy with my new job but I LOVE it. I work with a great group of people for sure. It's busy with the 8a-5p hours & 30 minute commute there & back. It sure reduced my stress though. <BR> Trying to adjust to my first full week of work now & it's only Wed. I feel better & have way more energy without the mids. Kevin & I are gonna build an exercise room in the basement this weekend which is AWESOME. I am psyched. Then hopefully in the near... Wed, 15 Sep 2010 07:08:31 EST How I stopped making excuses. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3618465 YAWN....I am so tired. My feet, back, _____ (insert body part here) hurt. It's too cold outside. It's too hot outside. It's raining. It looks like it is going to rain. I worked all day & now I am exhausted. I already get up early enough I can't get up earlier. <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I am exhausted just thinking of the excuses I have heard for not exercising. Somehow we can find any excuse in the book to avoid exercise if we really want to. I found a flaw in this however, I ... Wed, 8 Sep 2010 12:12:47 EST