MMRLI11's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MMRLI11 MMRLI11's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I think is under control http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4801713 Ok... i can't say I have gone totally wheatless. Wheat is in EVERYTHING!!!! It's so annoying. I can say that I do feel better on the days I don't eat it. One other interesting thing has happened, which is mentioned in the "Wheat belly" book but I really didn't believe it. I stopped craving sugar to such a degree. I still want something sweet but unlike a few months ago I can have a few pieces and stop. I have never been able to have a few pieces and stop before. <BR> <BR> Also, I don't feel... Fri, 23 Mar 2012 17:46:24 EST No meat no wheat? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4779612 This week i'm trying something new. I've made some strong progress in terms of the binge eating disorder and have been doing well with my scheduled eating times. However, I'm having a lot of difficulty overcoming my sugar craving. I seem to NEED something sweet every day and once I have it I just crave it more. In addition my stomach still is not totally right among other things. <BR> <BR> i have been reading this book called "Wheat Belly" and it seemed to describe a lot of the symptoms I f... Fri, 9 Mar 2012 18:07:15 EST One battle at a time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4719388 Today was a very emotional day for me. I just felt drained like I had nothing left. Like I was hollow inside. In the past I have tried to fill this void with food, like most binge eaters do. I started of the day not even tracking my food and was setting myself up for failure (Maybe as an excuse so I could give up.) But I actually tried the positive talk thing I have read about on a sparkblog and stopped what I was doing and made a tracking sheet so as not to give myself an excuse to quit. <BR... Thu, 2 Feb 2012 21:40:27 EST Scale why do you hate me??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4700014 Ok for this self-help plan I have to weigh myself once a week. Today was that day. I couldn't do it. I was scared. i didn't want to feel they way I felt last week. What if I gained. I am currently at the heaviest I have ever been and feel utterly disgusted with myself. I don't think I could handle if I gained anymore. I mean how much worse could I feel about myself. So like a chicken I turned around and walked away from the scale. I was actually afraid of it. <BR> <BR> Later while I was tal... Mon, 23 Jan 2012 22:05:40 EST Working the plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4687527 Today I weighed myself and I am the heaviest I have ever been. I'm trying not to freck out since I know what my issue is. i have been doing this self- help program to deal with my binge eating. Step one was to write down what I eat the time and how I feel. Step 2 was to establish more scheduled eating times so as not to skip meals and binge later on. After three weeks of this I feel that I'm starting to get to the bottom of my binge triggers. <BR> <BR> The part of the program I hate is... Tue, 17 Jan 2012 18:54:32 EST Accountability and goals for this week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4557737 I just want to thank everyone who left me such wonderful supportive comments. I so appreciate and need the encouragement. It seems each day I have to work to over come my cravings and binge-eating. I can honestly say, although my eating is not as clean as I would like it and at times I still feel out of control, with the help I have received here I can pull myself back from the edge. <BR> <BR> Each day I learn something else about healthy eating and making myself truly accountable for what ... Fri, 28 Oct 2011 16:47:40 EST Coming clean http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4540309 OK not having such a good day eating wise. I went out with the family this weekend and took some pictures. When I went home I was looking through the pictures and was so unhappy with what I saw. I thought I did pretty well after having my son. But her it is a year later and about the past 5 months my motivation is totally gone. My eating is all aver the place. Some days I totally restrict my eating, other days I can't seem to stop. I feel completly out of control, unfocused and unmotivated. I... Mon, 17 Oct 2011 18:26:38 EST My eating disorder http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4253805 I have come to a realization, after doing some research and reading a few books, I discovered I have binge eating disorder. I think it is something I have suspected but did not know the name of for a long time. When I was given medication to drop weight after my first child that was the first clue that I did not have a healthy relationship with food. <BR> <BR> Recently, I admitted to myself (maybe for the first time) that the reason I am constantly hungry is not hormonal or physical, it is ... Tue, 24 May 2011 17:36:31 EST Still hungry http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4131800 I packed a really healthy bag today but eat almost everything in it before noon. When I'm at work I'm hungry all the time because I'm so bored. I need some advice on what to do. Please help. Thu, 31 Mar 2011 13:11:28 EST To much at one time!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2617232 After reviewing other sparkpeoples nutrition log,( namely vanyelmoon) I realized I am taking in way to many calories for breakfast and lunch <BR> I know this is because I'm at work and I get bored. I set two goals for myself to fix this problem. I will set specific times to eat so I don't constantly eat while at work. Most of the time I'm not even hungry I'm just bored. I will try to to eat before or after this times. Also I will have to monitor my calories much better because I'm eating all... Mon, 7 Dec 2009 16:17:21 EST Rambling about food..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2577423 I took some time off after selling my house and moving, but I know I need to refocus. My workouts have gotten more efficient but my eating is horrible. I'm not doing so well in terms of eating fruits and veggies and having a hard time resisting the sugar temptations. <BR> <BR> I decided to start by getting myself off of the Diet Coke, which I know was giving me migraines again. I'm starting to track my food so I can be more aware of my caloric intake but what I'm eating is pretty empty so... Fri, 20 Nov 2009 17:26:51 EST Selling house (yeah) don't know where to I'm going http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2189992 Ok I am a little stressed out and it has totally effected my eating and my tracking of what I eat. Come to think of it I don't think I consumed a vegetable at all yesterday. My house is currently under contract and set to close on july 29. I'm very happy about this, but (and here is the major stressor) I have no idea where I'm going to go... <BR> <BR> There are so many short sales and they take a long time to close. I know I will feel better after this month (at least I will have a plan) b... Mon, 29 Jun 2009 16:05:22 EST Getting back on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1570584 Ok I have been away from Sparkpeople for about a month or more and I know the good habits I had developed are slipping. I find myself looking for candy instead of eating the fruit I brought. After being sick with colds and what not I have lacked the motivation to exercise. Well, I plan to help my mom revamp her kitchen and eating and it would be a bit hypocritical of me if I keep snacking on bad foods and not exercising. <BR> <BR> So this morning I got up early and went to the gym and for t... Mon, 17 Nov 2008 17:19:21 EST I can't stop eating chocolate http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1454014 I don't know what is with me. I think because I am tired, and a bit down that I keep eating chocolate. I'm looking for comfort because I feel so crappy so I eat some chocolate. Wait let me rephrase that... I have an unending, insatiable craving for chocolate that doesn't seem to ever go away. So I have some but I still feel crappy and then I feel crappy about myself because I eat it and am going to gain weight and am not feeding myself right so I figure oh well I'll just have one more piece m... Thu, 11 Sep 2008 17:27:37 EST They fit!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1312165 Ok one of my goals for the month of June was to fit into my pre pregnancy jeans. I saved about 4 pairs. I Tried them on this morning and they fit!!!! Granted they fit differently then they did before, which everyone said would happen, but they fit. I am so excited. I felt like this day would never come. Thanks so much for all the support, help and guidance everyone has given me I can't thank you enough. Now I can us my whole closest instead of have "the clothes I don't fit into yet" section i... Fri, 4 Jul 2008 13:33:32 EST My husband's a jerk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1302359 I'm not sure what to do. It's 3:00 in the morning and I can't sleep. My husband is such a jerk. I spent sometime with friends today, which I don't get to do very often. When I came home ready to spend the evening with him and my daughter and he was suddenly mad at me. Why? Because I was scrapbooking for too long. He was upset because he felt like I picked them over him. Then he proceeded to yell at me how he is not going to see me the rest of the week and why would I choose to spend 6 hours... Mon, 30 Jun 2008 04:16:43 EST Up early with back pain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1241310 I'm up at 5 am so I figured I'd add a blog. The scale has stopped moving again. It's been about a month with no additional weight change or measurement change. I 'm OK with it though because I can see muscle in my body and I feel like I'm getting stronger. My abs are stronger from the VS awesome abs challenge and lifting my baby is not so bad. <BR> <BR> I am having some back issues though. I went to bed last night and could not lie straight without pain. Back pain sucks and is so limiting. ... Sun, 1 Jun 2008 05:21:05 EST It finally happened!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1185641 It moved , it really moved... The scale I mean.. I lost a pound and a half. After three months of nothing finally!!!! Thank you guys so much for being so supportive. I don't want to get my hopes up to much that this may be the start of some real weight loss but I'm just so happy to get out of the plateau. I never imagined Spark people would become such an influence on my life but I have learned so much and received so much encouragement thought this forum. I know I would have fallen back int... Sun, 4 May 2008 10:32:35 EST Still not moving... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1152967 Ok. Here's the deal. After I had my baby I was giving Loestrin birth control. I didn't think anything of it except it made me feel terrible and for some reason no matter what I did I could not lose anything. I even did some dramatic things like lowering my calories to under 1000 just to see if things would change. They didn't. <BR> <BR> I was tired all the time and I thought there was something wrong with me. Finally I went to the dr who sent me to an Endocrinologist who told me it was the ... Sat, 19 Apr 2008 10:33:26 EST Why won't the scale move!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1128253 Ok it's been quite some time since the scale moved for me. I thought maybe it was me coming of the medication I was on to get my metabolism back in order. But that was almost two months ago now. I have been eating healthier then I ever have in my life. Monitoring my calories and my fitness. I started to see some changes in my body but it seems like everything has been in a holding pattern for the past month. I have tried to change up my work out a bit. But I don't know how to break this plate... Tue, 8 Apr 2008 10:56:02 EST Last week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1071500 Last week was pretty tough, I missed both my workout times last week because my husband was stuck working late the whole week. It was very lonely and depressing. I have my baby but it was kind of hard to just get stuff done around the house or cook for myself. I found that I had difficulty getting the time to track my food and eat cereal alot. <BR> <BR> It wasn't all bad though. I learned that I have to plan better if I want to stay on track and have decide on Weds to make and freeze a few ... Wed, 12 Mar 2008 22:22:04 EST