MMBALMONTE's SparkPeople Blog

Yes it's been quite awhile

Mon, 4 Mar 2013 14:39:21 EST

The pounds are still off.. .and I'm working on still trying to keep it off and more. Life's stresses are not helping. And I know my hormones are partly to blame. And I know my hormones are a product of my overweight.

I know I need to work harder on working out. I've been putting other people first again. My friends sure knows how to treat me well enough (this is sarcasm) to remind myself they aren't as important as I put them. I could be ignoring the fact and rather focus on othe...

Balancing act

Tue, 24 Jul 2012 11:26:28 EST

I've been so busy but I've been tracking most of my day. I haven't been able to blog though. It's hard to find the time or to figure out what to write about it sometimes.

Things been manageable. The emotional part of my journey has subside a bit. Which is why I guess it's hard to blog. I've been working on taking things in stride. Drama has been happening.. I guess I'm not overly concern.

I took a pregnancy test and it was negative. I haven't cried yet. Or probably won'...

Must not forget to breathe

Tue, 10 Jul 2012 12:33:32 EST

A month until my vacation and that usually means... things get busy. It's like Murphy's Law or something. Every weekend is booked with meetings or events. And my day job is no different. We have our quarterly report due that usually locks us down a week from doing our routine work.

It's hard for me not to be worried how things will fall into place. I panic. Taking a relaxing class reminds me to take deep breath when I feel like that. When you breath you place a hand on your tummy a...

2 months out

Tue, 3 Jul 2012 11:45:16 EST

What a up and down journey in the short 2 months I've been working on "me." Trying to find that balance with yourself, family, friends, marriage, and work has been difficult. Right now I feel good. That could change tomorrow. But no matter what I'm going to try my hardest to find the good in my day. Being grateful everyday I'm here has been helping me with my progress.

I've seek help from a psychologist and so far... I feel like it's helping a lot. To let go my burdens, my obligati...

Is being sick a road block?

Wed, 27 Jun 2012 13:17:38 EST

What a long weekend. After the 5th person told me they were pregnant I started to look at things differently. I was ready to face my infertility fears and doubt and tell them *screw you*. The 5th person was told she had to had surgery and possibly not be able to bear a child and she's 8 weeks. How amazing is that?!?! She told me Friday.

Then the weekend rolls around. Ed and I thought we do our obligations and show up to a brunch, party, then hang with my cousin from Palm Spring. Ev...

Another curve ball.. but dodging the bullets

Thu, 21 Jun 2012 19:19:38 EST

Yesterday was our weekly family dinner out. As far as eating... I did well (pats on back). The couple that announced their news last week announced another big surprise they were working on... they were closing on a house... That I'm not jealous of. My family was a victim for a short sale. Husband and I agree although a house would be nice.. it's not in the near future. I have a lot of work to do on my finance.

However I realized... Our family dynamic is changing. They just announc...

Just when things start to feel normal

Thu, 14 Jun 2012 13:35:19 EST

And productive... curve ball. SIGH. I think I'm dealing with it better than I have in months.

I heard news... good news.. I wish it just mines to share. But whatevers no selfishness with coulda, woulda, shoulda. Only room for selfishness with my time for myself. Focus is the key. Take the upset in the workout room.

From what I heard... I kicked ass in boot camp. That was nice to hear. Especially facing my fears going with no one and expectations. Today they do my body a...

Relaxing

Tue, 12 Jun 2012 13:35:59 EST

Finally done with our biggest event of the year. No weddings until next year. And after discussing with my biz-partner I'll be riding the back seat most of next year. I'll show face but she and my other bff will be taking the reigns. I'll definitely will do some labor on the day of events and prep artwork for printing.

My focuses are on:
1) my weight
2) school
3) finance

Nothing else matters anymore other than those 3 things. Although I'm supposed to be e...

Feeling out of control

Tue, 22 May 2012 12:41:33 EST

I feel a bit out of control. Everytime I have a goal in mind and write it down it ends up being all changed. i don't know why. This week I planned to do things and so far 0 for 2. I did accomplish some cleaning thanks to husband but we've discovered Hide Beattle because it ate one of my lauhala weaved bag from Hawaii. This puts me in to be really stressed out. I'm trying my hardest to sleep early and CAN NOT! OMG. I'm acting like I have bed bugs. It's not that serious... but to me right now i...

Restless

Thu, 17 May 2012 03:47:19 EST

My husband was my hero again today. No really. Panicked during the time and now I can't sleep because I don't know if I'm acting appropriate. Let me back up a bit. There was fire and we were involved.

I wanted for days to do our laundry. They were mostly mines because no secret I'm a shopaholic . I was complaining all the time I never have time to it. So husband was so great today. He let me sleep because I've been up late working on a project, drove himself to work so I can go str...

Regarding article: 15 things you should give up to be happy

Tue, 15 May 2012 12:33:29 EST

These steps I really need to work on:

4. Give up your self-defeating self-talk

5. Give up your limiting beliefs

6. Give up complaining

7. Give up the luxury of criticism

8. Give up your need to impress others

I'm doing great. Haven't met my calorie goals yet but I'm not pressuring myself. Since I've started I've lost a total of 9lbs. Not bad! I really think I might've weighted myself at the wrong time of the day the first day b...

Another day, another dollar

Wed, 9 May 2012 15:54:11 EST

I finished 1 whole day of "week 1, day 1". It wasn't easy even jogging REALLY SLOW. Day 4 of constantly moving. So not a bad deal.

I made a lot of a home arrangements and feeling positive again. I bought Body by Vi.. I'll do it for 90 days. Then work on eating sensibly after my vacation. It's not a natural choice but I feel very behind my husband. He weighs less, he walks faster, and he's a diabetic. Meaning he can't drop the weight as fast as I could. I figure I catch up to him a...

Slow and steady

Tue, 8 May 2012 10:24:52 EST

We walked, I walked/jog using the C25k ap, this big park in 15 mins yesterday. I was pretty shocked. I did only half of the "week 1, day 1". I think I'm go back today and do the whole thing. I did this program before. I haven't jogged in 2 months. I have to start over. Usually I would feel like a failure to start over but no negativity talk here. I was injured after my last 5k. And I know why... I forced it.

My whole training before my 5k took place on the treadmill. Although it's...

Weekend full of moving

Mon, 7 May 2012 01:07:10 EST

Eating is still a battle but I AM making smarter choices. Salad with every meal. Portion is getting better. I'm trying to find slower ways to eat like cutting my food, plating smaller plates, and drinking a lot of water. All these might help me with the portion ... well.. porition :)

My husband and I walked on Saturday and did minor lifting. I couldn't lift too much because my right arm is still a bit sore.

Today I worked a flea market. I was on my feet for 5 hours. I a...

Trying to ease myself

Fri, 4 May 2012 18:22:05 EST

Taking it easy isn't... well.. easy for me. I've been busy for the past few months running around doing two jobs, going to all these dr appointments, and now... my brain doesn't know how to just chill.

Starting to track is disappointing me. I'm so embarrassed but I'm telling myself today... let's work on short term goals. Like my husband have been telling me... there are no instant results. And if there are they aren't permanent solution. So here I go.

Short Term Goals (...

Yesterday wasn't so great

Wed, 2 May 2012 10:09:23 EST

So I started tracking two days ago. The first day was awful! Yesterday was better but I got hungry and did a mini binge so I'm like 200 over my goal. This is hard. But at least I'm progressively getting better. I just have to remember my declaration:

I will be disciplined.

Discipline has always been a problem for me. Ask my parents. They tried so hard to control me as a child but I did what I wanted to do and there was no stopping me. I'm easy distracted.

I'm ...

I feel my anger is holding me back

Tue, 1 May 2012 12:02:17 EST

I've always been a nurturing type. Being a first born its like my sixth sense. Every group I've socialized in, except once I can remember, I've been the mom. My bff even called me mom for a bit.

This past weekend I'm realizing that I may have been taken for granted. Now I can't decide if I just have too much expectations or if it's really unjust. I'm not writing for anyone's judgements but just to vent.

Friend #1
It all started with helping her setting up a small g...

Trying for the 20th time

Mon, 30 Apr 2012 23:59:38 EST

Last weekend I had the honor of being Team Captain for Relay for Life event. If you don't know what Relay for Life www.relayforlife.org/learn/whatisrel
ay/index it's a 24 hour event where teams have at least 1 representative on the track walking during the duration of the event. As captain I try to learn all the tricks and trade of fundrasing, the rules of the event, and activites of the other t...