MLKDUD's SparkPeople Blog

catching up on blogging, days 5 and 6

Thu, 7 Mar 2013 15:35:40 EST

5) What can you improve upon? Not being lazy! my laziness and excuse making rule my life!! they hold me back!
6) Do you need some motivation or advice? Ask for it!
I think I have plenty of motivation. I don't want to be fat. I know I need to lose weight and be healthy. I want/NEED to be around for as long as I can be for my daughter. I just don't know what is holding me back from getting off my ass and exercising!!!!

how I'm doing

Tue, 5 Mar 2013 13:42:26 EST

well, I have yet to do a full 30 min. work out this week. BUT, I have found some very positive encouragement from my sparkfriends! You guys definitely lift me up. and I do feel that I continue to eat pretty well. I do stay consistent with that. If I could stay consistent with working out I think I would see some consistent weight loss. I know the eating is going well because my diabetes is finally doing better and my health over all is pretty good. But if I got some weight off I could ...

what I'm doing to stay encouraged

Mon, 4 Mar 2013 20:21:35 EST

My problem is that I don't encourage myself at all!!! I don't do anything to encourage myself. No positive self talk. Nothing. In fact I've been pretty down because I turn 40 this month and had wanted to be near goal weight by now but I am still 130 pounds from there and pretty DIScouraged.

Catching up my blog for LTGL challenge this week

Sun, 3 Mar 2013 12:49:04 EST

1) What new habit you wish to develop? to exercise three times this week for at least 30 minutes

2) How will you do that? I will go to the gym after work or walk at the park down the street from the house

Maintain No Gain 2012

Mon, 19 Nov 2012 17:12:23 EST

My supervisor told me today that she can tell I've lost weight. Woo hoo! I've lost about 18 pounds now. Of course about the last 6 of that has been this last week while I've been sick!!! I still don't have much sense of taste or smell or hearing. I'm about done with the prednisone, but still have a few more days on the antibiotic. I did get out and walk this morning and it felt great. I'm trying to keep from getting nosebleeds. I've been having them daily since Wednesday, and they see...

Fast week

Thu, 8 Nov 2012 16:51:11 EST

We had an awesome trip to Colorado last week/weekend. Couldn't have asked for better. I however did not do any extra walking like I had planned to, and I overate more than once. But we did walk for 2 hours while at the zoo, and we had Greek food twice and Italian once. So I do have to say I enjoyed the food!!

This week has been crazy. We've been out of groceries but still managed to eat somewhat healthy. I've been tracking everything and staying within calorie range. I'm g...

A little off track

Tue, 30 Oct 2012 14:23:44 EST

So the last week was kind of rough. We went out for our anniversary on Tuesday night and I started feeling sick. The next day all three of us were home with a stomach bug!! Then our daughter's attendant had it, then my BFF who babysat for us Tuesday night had it over the weekend!!! Just as I was getting over that, I got a doozy of a migraine. The neurologist just cannot get me in before Janurary unless they have a cancellation. I hope January gets here fast if I'm going to start having ...

Thank you for all the wishes!

Tue, 23 Oct 2012 15:08:53 EST

For our anniversary! It is our lucky 13!! We have reservations at a local Italian restaurant for dinner and my BFF is babysitting. Really looking forward to it. It's been a crazy day at work, and the next couple of days are crazy too, but I'm looking forward to a relaxing evening.

Great numbers

Sun, 21 Oct 2012 15:47:11 EST

Got my results back from the endocrinologist and they were so much better!!! A1C is down to 7.5; triglycerides are 149!!! He did ok me to take fish oil for my cholesterol since I just can't take the statins. Yesterday and today are the first days I've finally started feeling good, pretty much no muscle pain! It feels great too! I am down another pound this week, making it a total of 11 pounds since August 13th. I haven't craved a pumpkin latte in about 11 days now. I have an organic re...

Good doctor appt.

Tue, 16 Oct 2012 14:58:58 EST

Saw my endocrinologist this morning. He is stopping the Crestor to see if it helps with the muscle pain I've been having. That makes me nervous about my cholesterol though, so I'm going to have to really watch the diet and exercise and stay on top of it. I just see it as another reason to be doing this. he did say depending on how my A1C is, he may start me on insulin at night and just have me take one oral med during the day. I'm really hoping my A1C is down enough that he won't do that...

Big thanks!!! But rough 24 hours

Fri, 12 Oct 2012 22:08:03 EST

I have to say that after I posted that I needed help with my latte "addiction", I felt better already! Then to see all the wonderful suggestions was awesome! I am going to be implementing most of those suggestions in one form or fashion. I have to say I have gone two days so far with no latte!!! I do plan to treat myself once a week at the most with one!!

So last night I had to have my husband call 911. I got real tingly all over and my right arm went completely numb on me. I...

I guess I need some help!

Thu, 11 Oct 2012 10:36:41 EST

I feel like I've done really well since August 13th on exercising, eating right, and losing an average of 1 pound a week. but the last couple of weeks I have been having a dang iced pumpkin latte every afternoon!!!! I feel that is such a big weakness of mine. but i've GOT to stop it! I don't know why I can't resist the urge to get one each afternoon. Then I get mad at myself because I overcame my other eating problems (fast food every day for breakfast and lunch), why can't I overcome th...

I'm a Teddy Bear!!

Fri, 5 Oct 2012 12:08:11 EST

Tomorrow is the start of the 5% Fall Challenge! I can't wait. I really feel like I can do this. I have a goal to lose 15 pounds in the next 8 weeks. I think I want to try and add some more exercise by getting a 20 min. workout in before work. I know I know, a few months ago I said I could never get out of bed to do such a thing, but now I feel like I might be able to!!! And I am now walking 15-20 min. in the mornings at work, and walking 40-45 min. in the evenings after work. I would l...

great blood work results

Thu, 27 Sep 2012 14:27:13 EST

I received the results from my blood work from my cardiologist appointment on Monday. They are SO improved!!!
Cholesterol 170 (was 190)
Triglycerides 162 (4 years ago they were 1500!!!)
HDL 31
LDL 106

This is the best those numbers have been in at least 4 years! I see my endo next month and my plan is to have those numbers all where they should be!! I'm so close. But I'm very pleased with this and even more motivated today to keep up the work!!!

Things are good overall

Wed, 26 Sep 2012 15:15:26 EST

Well, I've been staying on track for 7 weeks now! Still loving the book I got. I read my chapter each week and focus on what it talks about. Getting my exercise in and eating pretty well overall. Journaling everything I eat, blood sugars, and exercise. Making lists as prompted in my book. My weakness right now is pumpkin spice lattes! I love this time of year and all the pumpkiny goodness. So I try to really limit myself and get a small one when I do get one.

Saw the cardio...

Fall 5% Challenge Assignment #3

Thu, 20 Sep 2012 23:25:45 EST

Today's assignment is to list all the reasons you want to lose weight.
Live longer
get my diabetes under control so I don't suffer from complications
get my triglercerides where they are supposed to be
Keep up with my daughter
Better choice of clothing
Look and feel better in clothing
Look and feel better overall-no more pain!
Depression won't be as severe

What do you want to change?
My self esteem, ability to make better choices 99% o...

Female talk

Fri, 31 Aug 2012 11:40:02 EST

Yesterday I really lost my momentum, ate horribly, and didn't get my workout in after work. Was pretty disappointed in myself. Had a long talk with my husband when I got home. Then today my period starts, so now I know why my mood was horrible yesterday!! I've been out for a short walk this morning and WILL walk after work today!

This weekend we are going to a camp for our daughter. It's geared towards kids with special needs and their families, so I hope to be getting lots of...

Seeing some changes

Wed, 22 Aug 2012 14:21:56 EST

Well I have to say that the last few weeks have been really good with my husband's supporting me. I ordered that book and just started working thorugh it. I love the book. I am writing down everything I eat, my BS, and any exercise I do, and over the weekend my husband looks it over, helps me see patterns, praises me for the good things I do, and gives suggestions on how I can do things differently. He finally suggested we try out a gym membership. I joined the activity center on the col...

just getting it off my chest

Fri, 27 Jul 2012 14:55:57 EST

So I just need to vent. I think I’ve vented before about the same thing, but I’m frustrated, mostly with my husband. I know he supports me and wants me to be healthy, but I feel like he sabotages that for me. We had a long talk and he said he would walk with me, help me eat better, etc. So far we’ve not gone on one walk, and yesterday, as is his fashion, he brings home 3 different kinds of cookies, 2 different kinds of chips, and 4 bags of goldfish crackers. How is this helping me?? I k...

getting my motivation

Wed, 25 Jul 2012 15:39:34 EST

Wow, it's been a long time since I have posted! I started a new job in March and let's just say my stress is pretty much gone! I love my new job. It was a lateral transfer so I didn't have to take a pay cut or anything. Same benefits, I kept my tenure...it was perfect! I picked up on it pretty quickly so really only had about 2 weeks of training and following another social worker around. I'm with another state agency doing case management for children with special healthcare needs.

Brrrr...

Sun, 12 Feb 2012 11:24:38 EST

It is so cold out! No snow either. I don't mind the cold if snow comes with it! But I need to get out to the store. I am out of greek yogurt and we can't have that! and stuff to make salads. Other than that, today will be doing a little bit of housework, making my daughter's valentines for her class party, and some relaxing.

good/bad week

Sat, 11 Feb 2012 15:24:16 EST

Well, my week WAS successful...I lost 2 pounds! but I also got my lab results back from my doc and my A1C is at 8% which is not good at all. so, that is just further motivation to keep working hard. It's really cold out today and supposed to be tomorrow so no outdoor activities for us this weekend, which has me a little nervous, but I'm trying to keep us up and busy so we don't get bogged down with depression again. My friend brought her daughter over this morning and we helped the girls ...

Going strong

Fri, 10 Feb 2012 16:07:35 EST

So I feel really good from eating well this week. I feel less stressed too. Had that job interview this morning, and it went well. I felt very competent in answering their questions, so we'll see. Got blood drawn yesterday, and haven't gotten a call yet today, so hopefully my numbers weren't TOO bad and I'll just get a letter with the results. My husband and I don't have much planned this weekend so I'm nervous we will revert back to sleeping all day. I'm hoping the weather will be nice...

Fresh beginnings

Thu, 9 Feb 2012 14:04:37 EST

Well, it's been a long time, too long in fact, since I checked in here. I have spent the last 3 months gorging myself on fast food due to stress. Ugh. Work has got me SO bogged down. And stressed. My depression got worse, so I had to increase my lexapro. I am now at my highest weight ever in my life, even higher than the day I had my daughter. I see my endocrinologist for my checkup today. I'm sure my A1C is going to be horrible. But I hope he will believe me when I say I am working ...

Leafy!

Tue, 15 Nov 2011 14:11:20 EST

Well I have loved being able to eat all these leafy greens!!! I am eating pretty much on target now. Staying full, not having near the cravings I was having. Drinking even more water. My husband and I had a long talk last night. I had seen my cardiologist for a follow up and of course he told me yet again, I need to lose weight. Now I just need to get an exercise plan going and get up off my hiney and do it!!!

My fasting blood sugar is staying right around 165 this week so fa...

gain, loss, improvement

Sat, 12 Nov 2011 14:04:59 EST

Well, I did gain 1.2 pounds this week, but I expected more because I just totally gave up this week. However, my doctor gave me permission to stop taking coumadin now that it's been 6 months since my PE, so I am VERY excited! I can eat all the green leafy veggies I love!

My fasting blood sugars are slowly coming down. Running in the 150-170 range. Plus, I have been more consistent in taking it at least once a day, most of the times twice a day.

Yesterday I was o...

No loss or gain, ok with me!

Sat, 5 Nov 2011 14:17:40 EST

Well, no loss or gain this week weight wise, but I chalk that up to a victory! Now here's hoping for a loss next week!!

TGIF!

Fri, 4 Nov 2011 10:24:19 EST

I haven't been as tired the last couple of days. I am looking forward to a weekend of doing nothing! I am going to try to walk on Saturday and Sunday, see if I can get that started. My fasting blood sugars have been horrible, so hopefully getting some walks in will help bring that down. Otherwise, just trucking right along!

Good week so far

Wed, 2 Nov 2011 11:10:22 EST

This week has been going pretty well so far!!! I'm super sleepy and can't figure out why, but otherwise I've had no fast food, have cut back on portion sizes (especially at dinner) and have been getting a few more fruits and veggies in. My blood sugar is still kind of all over the place, but slowly coming down again. Work has been boring which isn't good because I really am a bored/stress eater. But so far I haven't given in to temptation. My husband has even cut back on portion sizes an...

starting over right?

Mon, 31 Oct 2011 11:39:39 EST

So yeah, haven't been taking care of myself, as usual. I had lost a couple of pounds, but I am back up those pounds and another. I have found that I just like to eat, and eat, and eat. And eat fried greasy fatty foods. No matter the consequence. And even tho the fast food starts to all taste the same, and not taste good, and makes me feel yucky after I eat it. Why do I continue to do this to myself?? I KNOW what it's doing to me physically. I can see that on the outside and my most re...

Not much to say...

Mon, 10 Oct 2011 16:51:10 EST

Still working on getting into a groove. I did lose 1.2 pounds this past week! I am doing an 8-week transformation challenge. I feel like I am really trying this time.

Got some things in my life finalized, like my mom's estate. Now if I could rectify my job situation that would be another big stressor lifted!!

Goals for the week

Mon, 12 Sep 2011 10:45:16 EST

No more fast food for breakfast or lunch
No more iced lattes in the afternoon
Get at least 10 min. of exercise 3x this week
Be better about drinking water-I usually have no problem with this but have been slacking lately and can tell!

I've got to do something to kick start my hiney!!

My baby girl is 4 years old today. Where has the time gone?? Apparently to my butt since I now weigh three pounds less than what I did the day I delivered her. Ugh. So emb...

Another day, another dollar

Mon, 29 Aug 2011 10:55:47 EST

Well last week not only did I not exercise, again, but I didn't eat well either. I guess the stress of work caught up with me. I WANT to exercise, but can't seem to get my lazy butt into exercise mode. I did gain almost 2 pounds.

I saw a new podiatrist last week. He says I have early signs of neuropathy in my feet and has given me a cream to help relax the nerves in my feet. I am starting to see some improvement already. My toes would cramp up on me a lot, but now they aren...

Guess I should update

Mon, 22 Aug 2011 17:18:48 EST

Guess I should give an update even though it depresses me to talk about it. Last week I found out my position at work was being reassigned. I am going back to a position I started out in here 11 years ago. I've been in my current position for 5 ½ years. I really did not see this coming, despite knowing the agency was making some major changes. I do have to say that I have not turned to food like I usually do when this stressed and upset. I just feel devalued by this agency. And like th...

Better, looking forward to time off

Tue, 2 Aug 2011 14:34:16 EST

Well, I am a little better than I was yesterday. My husband kind of had a meltdown (nothing to do with me, just life in general for him too). After that he felt better and I felt a little better, so we had a good evening. We are really looking forward to the National Down syndrome Congress conference in San Antonio this weekend. We leave Thursday morning. I took tomorrow off. We have plans for lunch, registering KK in school, and running some other errands. Even tho it's all work, it w...

Frustrated

Mon, 1 Aug 2011 16:17:25 EST

Without going into detail (it would end up being a book!) I am so frustrated with life...my marriage, my job, my weight, my health, my husband's mental health, my daughter's disabilities, my depression...it's just getting harder and harder to see positivity in life. Of course the only thing I'm NOT frustrated with is my perfect daughter. If it weren't for her, I just don't know...

Rock Star

Wed, 27 Jul 2011 14:51:28 EST

Today my daughter's "music" teacher (Ladeeda formerly known as Kindermusic) was having an outdoor picnic lunch at the botanical gardens where she was playing music and singing and dancing, so after KK got done with therapy I had my husband meet me over there. I picked us up burritos and drinks and we had a picnic then she got to see Ms. Celeste and do some dancing. It was a lot of fun! and a nice break from the office.

This Saturday Barney is in town and I got us tickets. I can...

over 2 weeks

Tue, 26 Jul 2011 12:42:48 EST

I can't believe it's been over 2 weeks since I had started walking again. My husband even asked me what happened to my walks?? I was loving them. but got busy and let life interfere. Traveled for work, then we just got back from a 4 day vacation. Although we did a LOT of walking during that-at the zoo, the aquarium, walking at the mall, and swimming a lot! So it was fun. I only gained 2 pounds in these last couple of weeks which was much better than I had anticipated. We leave again i...

Hot, hot hot

Fri, 8 Jul 2011 11:56:17 EST

I got another 35 minute walk in last night. It was SO hot and there was NO breeze tho. I took a nice cool shower afterwards! I won't walk tonight-we have a wedding rehearsal dinner to go to. Tomorrow night is the wedding (my little diva is the flower girl!) but I should be able to get a walk in early in the day.

Been hearing some not so good rumors today at work about my job position. So I did my weekly job hunt and one of the school districts is hiring a social worker, so I s...

Posturing

Thu, 7 Jul 2011 16:45:11 EST

I have been working hard on my posture. I think part of my problem with the back aches is my poor posture, especially here at work while on the computer and phone. It sure feels good to sit up straight!! When I walking in the evenings I focus on my posture too. It really makes a big difference!

So our plans last night got cancelled, so I was able to go for a walk again! I was able to go 35 minutes. I plan to go again tonight. I try to wait until it cools off some, but don't ...

realization

Wed, 6 Jul 2011 10:51:38 EST

I realized yesterday that I have some good people here at SP pulling for me. they never judge me, they are always positive and supportive, and offer encouragement. I felt like I was letting them down by being so negative and just using excuse after excuse for not taking better care of myself. So, last night, even tho I kept trying to talk myself out of it, I got off my butt and took a walk! I was aiming for 30 min. but only lasted about 23. Amazingly that was enough to make me feel bette...

a vicious cycle

Tue, 5 Jul 2011 16:48:10 EST

I feel like I am completely fine with being miserable and overweight and unhealthy. It's like I don't care. I know I've been fighting that feeling for awhile now. I would get off track in the past, but have no problem getting back on track. And I CARED about it. Now, I feel like I am perfectly fine with NOT caring. What is wrong with me??? I know HOW to be healthier, I know WHAT I need to do, I know I NEED to work out…why can't I do it? I know the path I am on right now will lead to a...

Just lazy

Thu, 23 Jun 2011 16:14:40 EST

That's what I am, just lazy. There is no other reason for not eating right, working out, or taking my blood sugar regularly, which I have stopped doing all of these!!! So, I have got to get back on track!!

It doesn't help that my husband and I have been eating out way more than usual lately. Why? Because of laziness! And we're going out on a date tonight, dinner and a movie. But we've already decided we want to eat light. I am excited about the date tho!

This morn...

Back on the radar

Mon, 20 Jun 2011 10:14:05 EST

Well time got away from me. I ended up asking my doctor for some time off work so I could just rest and get over the pain. He said it takes awhile for the body to absorb the blood, and boy did it. But that week off helped tremendously. I've been back at work for about 10 days now and doing ok. Still have to go in once a week for blood draws. I'm back on the coumadin and they are watching that closely.

I see my endorcinologist today for my quarterly follow up. I had a major s...

Doing better so far

Sun, 29 May 2011 17:24:02 EST

Despite having to go up to the hospital every morning for the blood draws, we're having a relaxing weekend. My blood work is looking a little better and I haven't had to be admitted yet! My pain is much better, of course that is with hydrocodone every 4-6 hours too. Our plans for tomorrow are to grill some ribs and corn on the cob and my BFF is coming over. I also got fresh strawberries, blueberries, some angel food cake, and whip topping for dessert. Let's pray my blood work is good aga...

Listen to your body

Sat, 28 May 2011 17:19:53 EST

So last weekend besides my foot hurting I started having horrible abdominal pains. Long story short, I finally saw my doctor yesterday (in the meantime found out my blood was too thin now so I had had a shot of vitamin K and stopped the coumadin) and he sent me for a CT scan right away. Turns out I have a ruptured cyst that has caused internal bleeding. Fun times. My blood is still too thin too. So he has me going to the hospital every day for blood work, and depending on the results of ...

Relaxing weekend

Sun, 22 May 2011 14:25:06 EST

Having a good weekend for the most part. Been pretty relaxing. I took a 2 mile walk yesterday, which surprised me since I was worried about my leg giving me fits, but it didn't. However, later in the day my foot on that leg started hurting pretty badly. I could hardly walk on it. I kept icing it and that seemed to help. Today it feels fine, but is a little sore on top and kind of red. I've had some pain in my leg too, that reminds me of the same pain I had when I had the blood clots. ...

Realization

Fri, 20 May 2011 10:00:15 EST

I have just been so sleepy this week, mostly at night. Which drives my husband nuts since he has a hard time sleeping! But I'm taking half the day off today and he and I are going to grab some lunch, handle some errands, maybe catch a movie, and then I have my hair cut at 4. They don't have school today so both he and our daughter are at home snuggled in bed together. I'm so jealous!

I have started writing down everything I eat again. I'm not necessarily tracking calories, etc...

turning out to be a pain

Wed, 18 May 2011 10:13:44 EST

I didn't eat so well yesterday. It was a combination of being on the go all day and poor planning. but I'm right back on track today. It was amazing how yucky I felt last night too. Monday night I was so tired. Not sure why, but I was. Today I'm feeling pretty good. Yesterday I walked 3 miles at my daughter's field trip to a ranch (another mom was wearing a pedometer and as we were leaving said we had walked 3.3 miles!).

Trying to find a new primary care doc is proving to ...

Still feeling good but...

Fri, 13 May 2011 10:18:46 EST

... the cramps have been bad. I've been trying natural remedies to help alleviate them. I am feeling a little better today though. We went out to eat last night but I ate pretty well. Probably a little more red meat than I needed, but it sure hit the spot. ha!

I've been getting up about every 30 min. and taking a short walk around my office building. I really want to try to do a walk and see how my leg holds up. I got my walking shoes on today and it's supposed to be pretty ...