MKELLY72's SparkPeople Blog MKELLY72's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community not even phased I got on the scale today for weigh in, and thought to myself....hmmm, I think that is a gain, but I'm not sure. When I recorded it, I found out, yes--I had a 1.1 pound gain this week. <BR> I was pretty active all week, so one might assume a gal would get all sad/mad about seeing that, but....first of all, I lucked out last week when I lost a pound after expecting (and totally deserving) a gain. I am just so much more energetic this week, happy, chipper--I think the weather (it's so beauti... Mon, 16 Mar 2015 15:40:33 EST pleasant surprise I actually lost a little weight this week in spite of the fact that my overall activity was less, I ate beyond my daily, weekly, and additional activity points (WW). Of course, I'm NOT going to get cocky and assume that I can do that every week and be blessed with a loss on the scale, but I am very glad for the gift <BR> <em>389</em> <BR> maybe it was all those trips back up the hill sledding yesterday:) <em>310</em> Mon, 9 Mar 2015 14:11:44 EST Attitude Is Everything I ate over my allowance this week....including my earned activity, but I'm not going to freak out about it, because it's not a weekly thing (anymore). Today is my Birthday, and I had the best time with my family. Made lasagna and we all went out and played in the snow for two hours. Tomorrow is weigh in day, and I know chances are good that I could have a gain, so if I'm fortunate enough to maintain last week's weight, I'll be super happy. On the other hand, if I gain, I will accept it and mo... Sun, 8 Mar 2015 22:16:57 EST New Medication A week and a half ago, I went back to the doctor to reevaluate my medications. I had been taking fluoxetine, generic Prozac, for almost two years, I think, but had decided to wean myself off of it in December, 2014, because I wanted to see if it was making it harder for me to maintain my weight loss and ultimately aiding in the weight gain I have seen over the past year or so. I did my research, and made the decision to be especially mindful of making sure I am getting plenty of magnesium, ... Fri, 6 Feb 2015 14:07:26 EST End of Week Re-Cap I gave in and decided to do the mobile WW thing again--hey--I have a smart phone now, so I can actually use it everyday now. That was a couple of weeks ago, and it was a Monday, so I decided I would take Monday as my weigh in date. Did pretty well the first week. Had a major binge last Sunday night on these really delicious cranberry orange scones that I made--and hit 200 by morning :( I have been dangerously close to it for a while, and so thankful that I didn't reach it. I have now, an... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 13:31:04 EST Maintenance mode to weight loss mode Pushing hard on 200 pounds again....I think I'm officially switching to weight loss mode.....Planning to be ready for maintenance again sometime this summer. Sun, 28 Dec 2014 14:54:30 EST Grr...lost much sleep last night But, on the bright side, today is the last day of work (school) for me until Jan 1, 2015! Fiance let the dog out in the middle of the night, and she took off across the yard after something--barking all the way. He bolted back to get warmer clothes and shoes to go after her, lights blazing...I went to the door and called her in while he was getting shoes on, and thankfully she came back right away--he was relieved..she's small, and could never hold her own against a coyote--or even a raccoo... Fri, 19 Dec 2014 11:26:03 EST Looks like I'm losing again! I'm going to officially say that in the past two weeks, I have experienced about 3-5 pounds lost. Having been a maintainer for more than a year, I had gotten into the habit of weighing myself everyday as a matter of proactive attention to big changes--then I stopped and only did it occasionally--and now, several months later--we have a sizable gain to deal with. Anyway--I am back to daily weight documentation. As a disclaimer, I will say that I long ago divorced myself from the emotional... Wed, 3 Dec 2014 13:49:07 EST Sugar Cycle Broken? Dare I say it "out loud"? <BR> I have recently encountered some research on gut health as associated with mood, and weight, and overall good health from various sources including Trudy Scott, Mike Mutzel, Carolyn Dean...after catching the tail end of the Anxiety Summit talks hosted by Trudy, and I have little by little put some of the habits to practice--like eating the bulk of my calories between getting up in the morning and 4 PM--sticking to just protein, vegetables, and healthy fats aft... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 15:51:59 EST Origins Movie-Must Watch! I watched a fantastic movie on YouTube a few days ago at the suggestion of a friend called Origins. It is available to view for free til 11/22/14. <BR> It's a really interesting film about how we have altered our way of eating/ food supply in detrimental ways, and how we really need to get back to a more sustainable way of eating, consuming, etc. <BR> <link><BR>KZXxn8 </link> <BR> <BR> Comment from a viewer: <BR> <BR> "ORIGINS" is an OUTSTANDING film... Tue, 18 Nov 2014 15:57:20 EST One Giant Hershey Special Dark Chocolate Bar Feeling super yucky now after eating the entire bar after having a pretty nice supper. I don't know what I was thinking. I feel like I could throw up, have a headache, and wish I had used better judgment. I usually try not to beat myself up about less than healthy choices like this, but I'm having a pretty hard time setting aside my regret this time. I have a couch2k training session on my schedule for the morning, and I hope I don't allow myself to back out as a result of my binge. <BR> Wha... Tue, 11 Nov 2014 01:13:15 EST Thanks for the Encouragement! Got some really nice comments on my back to basics announcement--thank you! I have made some observations... <BR> My ratio of fruits/veggies: everything else has dramatically shifted, and I know that my large consumption of fruits/veggies INSTEAD of choosing multiple servings of sweets and other starchy choices was one of my biggest success points before. I want to shift back in the direction I used to follow so well. <BR> Half the plate should be fruits and veggies---1/4 lean protein--1/... Fri, 30 May 2014 12:28:51 EST Back to Basics Ok--decision made--back to basics before I'm back to square one. Mission: Baby steps again! <BR> Thu, 29 May 2014 14:26:46 EST May 2014 May update- <BR> <BR> Still gaining pretty steadily. When I got on the scale the other day--I had reached 30 pounds over my goal weight :( I'm not excited about this, because I don't like the trend that seems to be developing. I know I'm not eating as strictly as I once did, and I'm not exercising as vigorously as I have sometimes in the past, but I am still making good food choices, and I don't feel like I'm eating way out of range all the time. I also stay at least mildly active--getti... Tue, 27 May 2014 13:09:55 EST April-2014 Let me catch up the best I can with my April--I have been continuing to gain a little each week, and I'm currently weighing in@20 pounds over my originally achieved goal weight of 148. I'm still calling myself a maintainer, because otherwise I feel like I've failed. I'm trying not to get too down on myself about this--there have been significant hormonal changes over the last several months that I'm still learning how to adjust to. Maybe it's not even reasonable for me to expect to maintain... Wed, 30 Apr 2014 16:08:27 EST Motivator of the week?? Really? How did this happen? I'm not overly active in the community...don't blog on a regular basis? Where do I see this on the site? Maybe I better check my sparkmail...maybe it's in there. <BR> <BR> Thank you by the way----I have been feeling more motivated myself lately---but have been seeking motivation more than I thought I was giving it :) <BR> Michelle Thu, 13 Mar 2014 13:11:55 EST Wonderful Surprise!! My darling sweetie gave me a box of WW ice cream candy bars for Valentine's Day :) What a darling...he knows how much I've been struggling lately, and he knows how much I love a good treat. He also gave me an adorable heart shaped piggy bank with America's classic sweeties smooching on the front (Micky and Minnie). I'm thinking it's all been presented, and I'm cuddled on the couch browsing through his new tree catalog that he'd picked up earlier that day....thinking about Spring in the mid... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 14:35:51 EST Dang! Double dang--actually. <BR> #1 weight up .4 , and I was really expecting a drop--I've been so good on both food and exercise--but moving on, we'll see what happens next week on the scale. <BR> #2 I forgot (because I know that I once knew it) that if I don't weigh in less than two pounds over goal at my WW meeting, I have to pay....I knew I wouldn't...could have waited til Feb, since I've already been there for Jan....but I forgot...thought since I already paid last week--I was good---not the... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 13:16:28 EST 1/2/14 Breakfast Started using the Simple Start method from WW today (also known as Simply Filling)--This was breakfast--all of which are Power Foods--so no tracking them :) <BR> Egg white fritata w/beans and brown rice, steel cut oatmeal w/ grapes and applesauce. Yum:) ...and a glass of skim milk. Sooooo filling, and so good for me :) Thu, 2 Jan 2014 12:11:25 EST Planning a Good Day Today is going to be a good day all the way around, because that is my plan! I will stay in my WW points range today with my eating, and I will get my goal steps for the day completed, even if that means a late night walk outside if I am falling short. I am getting back on track TODAY, and I am not going to keep this extra 13 pounds any longer! <BR> It's going to be a challenge, because there are still lovely sweets all around, and they have been my weakness lately. I will stop, and ask Go... Sat, 28 Dec 2013 10:31:24 EST Always reconsidering things I am now back-pedaling a bit from my last blog--Weight Watchers seems so comfortable for me, and it works--so, I am thinking that leaving that way of food tracking would be a mistake for me. I'm staying about 10 pounds over my goal these days--which isn't horrible--it's still a maintenance of 90 pounds lost--and that isn't anything to scoff at--right?? I've switched up my weigh in habits for the moment--back to once a week (weight loss mode) instead of daily (maintenance mode). I have sele... Wed, 18 Dec 2013 13:51:49 EST Aha Moment! I've been stressing out for such a long time about maintaining my Lifetime Membership at Weight much that back in February, I had officially increased my maintenance weight. The weight I have selected now (155) is still 5 pounds less than the top of the acceptable range--for Lifetime eligibility-except when a doctor determines that you can maintain outside of that window. Right now, I've never fallen out of that window for weigh in, so I've never had to pay for my meetings- Gr... Mon, 2 Dec 2013 17:57:56 EST Feeling Grumpy Feeling grumpy and a little blue--not sure why exactly--just thought I would blog it to see if helps--spent the night sweating and freezing. Went to bed last night about 7:30 and had to really convince myself to get up @6 this morning. Short walk with the dog after getting showered (at least I showered) and dressed for work. <BR> Will update as day progresses--back to my work for now. <BR> Michelle <BR> 10:40--I could be getting sick--got the flu shot tho about a month ago, and that worke... Thu, 21 Nov 2013 10:21:41 EST Not Today! I want something else to eat---so badly--I'm on the verge of foraging down in the teacher's lounge or the main office to see if anyone brought in some kind (any kind) of treat today...............I'm sure someone did....there is usually something to be found in a school ....I don't want to do I'm blogging that I've said it "out loud" to my SP peeps....I will restrain myself............right?? <BR> Michelle <BR> 1:28 PM update: Had to go to lounge to make copies...God i... Fri, 15 Nov 2013 13:27:14 EST 11/14 Check-In Thought I would do a quick check-in--been a few weeks :) <BR> Not used to the cold yet --I guess I have no choice tho, do I? <BR> The dog doesn't seem to mind it--it takes her at least 10 mins of walking for her to get her job done. I love her for it though--I was struggling to commit to 3 walks a week before--now it's three walks a day! They aren't more than 1.5-2.0 miles each though, and it has been good to get into tht routine! <BR> Have a great day and weekend! <BR> Michelle Thu, 14 Nov 2013 15:47:16 EST Fly-By Check-In I'm really enjoying the new start page. It has helped me regain my connectedness to the community :) It's so easy to pop in now and navigate to everything I need with one handy dashboard! I love it! <BR> Busy at work, and I enjoy it--makes the days fly by--double edged sword really--never get bored, but I wonder where the time has gone :) <BR> Looking forward to a great weekend of house work and yard work. I'm working on getting my weight back on the lower end of my maintenance zone--I'... Fri, 1 Nov 2013 13:20:36 EST Feeling a Little Disconnected I'm just feeling a little disconnected from the Spark lately--just still kind of overwhelmed at work most days--not a bad thing--just busy. I stay off the computer most of the time when I'm at home--busy with things at home--walking the dog, etc. Miss Maggie has gained about a half a pound since I got her--up to 9 pounds, and the vet wants to see her at about 12. If she gained what I did over the past weekend while we were camping--she'd be right on the mark :) I'm working on getting that... Wed, 16 Oct 2013 13:15:22 EST Meet My New Walking Partner Meet Miss Maggie: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> She is my new walking partner. I adopted her yesterday :) She is a real sweetie! This is the first time I have had a "house dog", and the first dog I've had in ten years. I forgot how much I love to love them! <BR> She has a GREAT pace, and she has such stamina! Tue, 24 Sep 2013 13:20:29 EST Finding My Groove yes--I'm finding my groove--slowly but surely. I still haven't figured out how to squeeze out more time for "Sparking", and I am missing my friends here, but I am feeling good--tackling my cravings a little at a time each day, and the small steady gain I was seeing before, has been a small steady loss again. <BR> I am thrilled with how I am just looking at that number every day and logging it--without getting all anxious/excited either way. It just is what it is, and I use the information... Tue, 17 Sep 2013 11:39:32 EST Sugar Beast @ Bay--today :) Thanks to: <BR> 3016DEBRA <BR> KELLIEBEAN <BR> GORIANA <BR> TATERCAT <BR> JODI404 <BR> DEBBYFROMMT <BR> KAYOTIC <BR> MEXGAL1 <BR> For your great comments to my blog from yesterday"Scale Creep" <BR> I'm feeling more in control today, and I like that! <BR> I think just being silently aware by myself was too much pressure, and going through the process of making it "public" helps to focus on the solution better instead of just feeling defeated and bad about the result of the choices I was making... Fri, 6 Sep 2013 13:08:34 EST Scale Creep Yep--been experiencing some scale creep lately--it's not fatal or anything, but none the less--it's occurring. <BR> I've been having recurring peanut butter, honey, and bread binges in the afternoons when I get home from work--for some reason I think I'm starving, and I intend to have just a snack--and it turns into an out of control binge! <BR> I've been journaling about it, and praying about it, and this morning I added a little extra activity to start DOING something about it. I got in ... Thu, 5 Sep 2013 14:34:10 EST Thank You! I am so overwhelmed by all the positive thoughts and comments posted to my page and blog recently....and I have been pretty much AWOL for a while. I am still out of sync with my new school schedule, but I'm hoping in a few weeks things will be well on their way to being routine. I didn't even realize I was featured as motivational member of the day a while back..that was a nice surprise. <BR> I've gotten some added responsibilities at work this year, and I'm excited about the opportunity,... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 18:27:55 EST Quick Update 7/17/13 Dear Spark friends: <BR> I'm still here, and I'm still thinking of you all. Went on vacation last week and returned last Thursday--had a wonderful vacation, but received some sad news after returning. My mom's oldest brother (only 61) has been battling cancer the last several months, and it has now reached his brain. Five tumors, whole brain radiation, so he can get some relief from the pain, so he can go home. He doesn't want to die in the hospital. <BR> Your prayers are so appreciated... Wed, 17 Jul 2013 14:26:11 EST General Update 6/24/13 My weight has currently been averaging 145 ish, which is a little lower than it had been. It's actually about where I had secretly hoped it would be, but I never dreamed it possible. I haven't been eating much for bread/wheat products lately, and I think that agrees nicely with me. I don't want to give up dairy, which is strongly recommended by the WomanCode protocol (from a very interesting book I've been reading with that title by Alisa Vitti) at least temporarily to rule out a dairy sen... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 18:00:43 EST SP Radio Interview June 5, 2013 I had such a great time chatting with Karen and Lily a little over a week ago, and for those of you who are interested and haven't yet heard my interview....... <BR> Here are the links to my Spark Radio interview with Karen and Lily!! <BR> <BR> <BR> Part I: <BR> <link><BR>arkPeopleRadio/2013/SP_060413/SP_06041<BR>3_IHEART_03.mp3 </link> <BR> <BR> Part II: <BR> <link><BR>arkPeopleRadio/2013/SP_060413/SP_06041<BR>3... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 12:37:43 EST To Track or Not to Track? Got this great idea from another sparker--Kayotic for tracking/not tracking food from day to day. <link><BR>YOTIC </link> <BR> <BR> Basically here's what I'm doing as inspired by her--I weigh myself every day (which I have done since I entered maintenance anyway-- to ward off major swings in the scale) I track the food I eat on the days that my weight is above what I have determined as my ideal goal weight that I want to maintain, and on days where I ... Tue, 21 May 2013 14:47:07 EST So Ready for Summer!! The countdown has begun--8 days of work left including today until August!! <BR> Now to just keep my morning and lunchtime walks in my routine! Eating is never a problem for me--I pretty much eat the same things throughout my day as I do during the school year in my packed meals. <BR> I get lots of extra fun activity opportunities--gardening--going to the gym and shopping with my best friend--who also works for a school! It's such bliss! <BR> Have a great week, spark friends! <BR> Miche... Wed, 15 May 2013 10:03:06 EST Share the Good Things You Do With Others! A few days ago, my Spark Coach Daily Challenge was to invite someone else to exercise with me, so I formally (meaning specifically) asked my boyfriend to join me on a walk through his woods when he was finished changing the oil in my car. Is this an unusual activity for us?? No, it's not, so in some ways I almost felt like I had cheated on my challenge, because it was too easy. <BR> <BR> I have started walking every day before work--as many of you have already read about--and I have added ... Tue, 7 May 2013 08:17:41 EST Maintenance Week 61 Maintenance week 61 <BR> <BR> Still feeling like I’m having good results with my current meds, and it has been nearly a month. In fact, I should try to remember to order my refill soon. I only have 2 days left:) <BR> <BR> I am still getting to work early every day to walk before I punch in. That has been working really well, and I am so glad that I have added that habit to my day. Once school is out at the end of May, I hope to be able to continue the habit religiously. I don’t h... Tue, 30 Apr 2013 14:22:26 EST Thursday, Friday, and the Weekend I have really been continuing to enjoy my morning walks, and I'm finding myself looking forward to getting out of bed, so I can be ready for my day early enough to get at least a mile in before work. Who would have guessed this?? <BR> <BR> I got on the scale this morning for my daily weigh-in, and I'm 1.5 pounds below goal now!! I knew I would finally get back here as long as I continued to trust myself and the habits that I've learned over the past few years, but it's still such a relie... Wed, 24 Apr 2013 11:59:16 EST Morning Walks Today was the third day this week that I got to work early enough to walk a mile around our indoor track at the top of the gym--I keep asking myself why in the world have I not made this a habit before now?? It's so easy and peaceful. I don't even plug in my mp3 player...The gym is only semi-lit, and when it's raining--like it is today, I can listen to the rain on the roof. I can also hear the students out in the cafeteria getting ready for the school day. It really has been starting my d... Wed, 17 Apr 2013 10:22:12 EST Maintenance Week 58 9 April 2013 <BR> <BR> Maintenance week 58: <BR> <BR> I’ve been off the birth control pills for a week now--of course it is the same week I would have been off anyway before beginning a new pack, but I think psychologically it is making me feel better. My health care professional has started me on 10 mg of Prozac per day to tackle my mood symptoms now instead, since the first option I chose was not doing a good job of controlling my symptoms, and I had gained and maintained 5 pounds over... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 10:00:56 EST Sugar--Again This seems like a common theme for me lately--the sugar binging! I am focusing today on staying away from it all together--just for today--then I will tackle it again tomorrow. I am currently 7 pounds above my goal weight. I am one pound under my WW goal for my free lifetime membership--but I want to get back to MY goal. I got lazy over the cold months, and I'm getting better about activity again with the weather getting warmer, but I need to develop a strategy that works for me before th... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 11:31:39 EST 2013 Bicycle Debut and a Sugar Binge :) I got an Active Link at my WW meeting Thursday night, and I have it all set up online--doing my baseline data collection for the next week. <BR> <BR> My bike made it’s 2013 debut yesterday. I rode it to the Y for my ST and then to the grocery store to pick up supplies to make my youngest son’s Birthday cake--I sent him a text Thursday night while he was with his dad to find out what kind he wants---cheesecake!! Oh, how dangerous is that?? And I knew he meant real...baked...cheesecak... Sat, 23 Mar 2013 08:04:07 EST Great Birthday! I had such a great time for my Birthday weekend. I still have cake left over--it was really good, by the way--note to self the next time I make it though: When squeezing the juice from the lemon--use a separate bowl, and remove seeds before adding to cake batter instead of squeezing directly into batter. I really thought I had caught all the seeds, but I did not :) That is a little weird biting into a lemon seed in a cake <em>334</em> <BR> The dance I dragged my entire family to was on... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 09:53:18 EST Here's the Cake! Here's the cake I finished this morning: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> This was taken with my phone, so the quality isn't great. <BR> It's two layers of lemon cake, raspberry sauce in between the layers, frosted with butter cream icing--my first attempt at decorating a cake with some sort of flower type decorations. Sat, 9 Mar 2013 11:02:58 EST Visited the "Dark Side" yesterday Had a sugar binge yesterday--but today is a new day! <BR> <BR> I forgot to pack my two apples and two pieces of string cheese in my lunch bag for morning and afternoon snacking patrol--got into my girl scout cookie stash--was only having a couple--then it became a couple daughter stopped at Dairy Queen and brought me a Dilly Bar...couldn't save that for later--it would melt at work..finished that then finished off he pack of cookies too. Today is a new day though, and I will ha... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 08:33:53 EST Beginning Year Two of Maintenance -On to year two of maintenance!! How excited am I about hitting that one year milestone?? More than I could have ever imagined! I think it’s super fun that my maintenance anniversary comes at time of year when I get my tax refund back, so it’s not a burden to reward myself nicely :) <BR> -Last year, when I reached my goal, I gave myself a Pandora bracelet with a gold star charm--then added one with a key when I got my key charm for becoming a Lifetime member at Weight Watchers. I’... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 10:15:30 EST Am I Figuring This Out? I've been so frustrated the last two months since being prescribed birth control pills for hormone regulation, because my weight has been on an upward trend. My net gain since beginning them on January 1st is 5 pounds. I know 5 pounds isn't a lot, but it seems that my maintenance window has shifted up 5 pounds instead of that being the top of my window! I love the better mood control that the hormones are giving me, but I've been on a mission to figure out a way to compensate for the gain.... Tue, 12 Feb 2013 11:13:07 EST Closing in on One Year of Maintenance! Only three weeks remain before I will have the joy of celebrating one year of maintaining my 100 pound loss! I am so proud of myself, and so amazed at the same time. Never before had I maintained any substantial loss for more than a few days. I was either losing or gaining. I had only been able to maintain when I had reached my high weight of 248 a few years ago--I had pretty much stayed there for about a year--and that was only because I had given up on trying to lose weight after the la... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 14:03:15 EST