MKELLY72's SparkPeople Blog MKELLY72's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community 18-24 November 2015 Wednesday- <BR> Just hanging in there lately. I have good days and not great days. I just realized I didn't keep up to date on my last week long blog...I was busy I guess. I took last Friday off work, then had to play catch up on Monday. Tuesdays always seem to be busy, and today is a little slower, so I'm ahead of my usual schedule today. I'll check in later. <BR> Thursday- <BR> Got my youngest son delivered to the charter bus for the trip to Indianapolis for NCYC (National Catholic Youth... Wed, 18 Nov 2015 11:16:11 EST 7-13 November, 2015 Check back on Monday when I actually have an update. I'm sure I will have much to share about my retreat from this weekend. <BR> <BR> Saturday-Very full day, lots of food opportunities, and lots of discussion and a really good day. <BR> <BR> Sunday-Another really full day, more food, and more discussions. Great weekend, but I'm exhausted ;) <BR> <BR> Monday-My day has been really busy, and it's been speeding along. I have a meeting for CORE tonight to plan this coming Sunday class this ... Fri, 6 Nov 2015 15:53:13 EST 31 October - 6 October 2015 <img src=""> <BR> (my new school picture btw ^^^) <BR> Saturday - <BR> Got lots of sorting done this morning. Pants that are too small got weeded out to make room for the bigger ones I've gotten. The smaller ones will be brought back later. Pulled the trash out of the bags that my son used to clean his room this spring that had lots of "not trash" in them. Two bags of trash, one bag to donate to goodwill, and o... Sat, 31 Oct 2015 17:44:18 EST 28 October 2015 Just writing this for me--for accountability-- I want to stop ignoring my inner voice that knows that many of the choices I make (both food and activity) are not helping me to reach my goals. I keep giving in to cravings, especially for carbs, and I know this is not a good idea. I have also spent an enormous amount of time curled up on the couch playing electronic solitaire instead of things like---taking the dog for another walk--cleaning my house--reading. I am aiming to make a change in ... Wed, 28 Oct 2015 12:48:53 EST 14 October 2015 I stayed out of the junk all day yesterday! So far today--victory! It will be a long two days--conferences at school, so I'll be working til 6 tonight and 8 tomorrow. The starter on the car really had me bummed yesterday--mainly, because I depleted most of my savings over the summer paying bills til the new school year started and I would get a paycheck again. Starting off with at least a $300 repair bill is just sucking a lot! There are worse things though--at least my sweet fella agreed... Wed, 14 Oct 2015 12:55:59 EST 13 October 2015 I want to make some changes. I need to make some changes. I am fighting the urge for processed carbs everyday. Today is a new day, and I packed a better lunch today than yesterday. I skipped the pop tart in my lunch bag for a morning snack--It's a weakness I need to resist. It gives me zero nutrition, and I know it! It's a win so far today! Tue, 13 Oct 2015 12:03:50 EST 9 October 2015 We will be having an all school assembly to send off one of our teachers as she begins her second deployment to Afghanistan this afternoon. It is so awesome to see all the kids and staff all decked out in red, white, and blue in her honor today. She will be gone for a year, and is also married to another staff member, so we will all spend the next year missing and supporting her. <BR> <em>652</em> <BR> <img src=" Fri, 9 Oct 2015 13:49:25 EST 7 October 2015 Well--the last week has been looking better for me as far as my ravenous hunger issues. I know how to eat healthy, and I love to eat healthy foods! I grew up eating lean proteins, whole grains, fruits and veggies, so these habits are ingrained into my entire being, but when I have these stretches of time when I feel hungry ALL THE TIME, it gets so frustrating trying to figure out how to combat it---maybe I am just mentally fighting myself too much. I'm still getting in at least 10,000 step... Wed, 7 Oct 2015 12:47:08 EST 24 September 2015 24 September 2015 <BR> Grrr---I am not having a good time dealing with my food cravings! I have or rather, am trying the Advocare thing, and I am not impressed. $180 for some supplements that are not having any significant impact on helping with cravings. Lots of caffeine, I think, and I do not even know what else. I am going to keep taking until gone, and see what the results are, but I am not impressed. I just need to feed my inner strong girl---trust God to help me beat these cravings... Thu, 24 Sep 2015 12:52:57 EST better week <img src=""> I'm happy to report that I had a nice weight loss this week, and I had a pretty easy time staying better focused this week too. I'm hoping to have a nice active holiday weekend without overdoing it food-wize. Happy sparking to all! Thu, 21 May 2015 13:38:51 EST yay for today <img src=""> I got 10,000 steps in today, ate well, and got to spoil my grandson + it's Friday. Happy with my choices today, and I aim to build on that. I have a game plan to tackle small pieces of my house tomorrow too. I think I'll start with my son's room while running loads of laundry through. I have some yard work I want to get done too and at least 2 graduation parties to stop at over the weekend. I got invited by 7 students th... Fri, 15 May 2015 22:35:00 EST yay for today I got 10,000 steps in today, ate well, and got to spoil my grandson + it's Friday. Happy with my choices today, and I aim to build on that. I have a game plan to tackle small pieces of my house tomorrow too. I think I'll start with my son's room while running loads of laundry through. I have some yard work I want to get done too and at least 2 graduation parties to stop at over the weekend. I got invited by 7 students this year. ...more than last year and 2011...Both years I had kids of m... Fri, 15 May 2015 22:32:47 EST Thanks for the Support Yes--I think there is definitely some depression playing a part here, and I really appreciate all the great reminders to take it one moment at a time. Yesterday was better! I tracked everything, and ate better. Today is halfway over, and so far, the same is true. One success at a time. <BR> I'd like to blame my hormones---I haven't had a period for 14 weeks now, and when I have experienced that LOOOONG break before, I have had many of the same issues with myself. I went for a 3 month str... Fri, 15 May 2015 13:52:08 EST So Disgusted with myself! <BR> I have been eating and eating--and not tracking. I was tracking, walking, biking, and still gaining, and I think it just ticks me off. I was staying within my limits, but I crave sweets so MUCH! I am thinking about food all the time, laying in bed later and later in the morning--and I have frankly just checked out on caring about it lately....which would explain the 6 pound gain from last Thursday to today. I'm over 200, and I hate it! I am starting to have pain in my f... Thu, 14 May 2015 13:34:53 EST not even phased I got on the scale today for weigh in, and thought to myself....hmmm, I think that is a gain, but I'm not sure. When I recorded it, I found out, yes--I had a 1.1 pound gain this week. <BR> I was pretty active all week, so one might assume a gal would get all sad/mad about seeing that, but....first of all, I lucked out last week when I lost a pound after expecting (and totally deserving) a gain. I am just so much more energetic this week, happy, chipper--I think the weather (it's so beauti... Mon, 16 Mar 2015 15:40:33 EST pleasant surprise I actually lost a little weight this week in spite of the fact that my overall activity was less, I ate beyond my daily, weekly, and additional activity points (WW). Of course, I'm NOT going to get cocky and assume that I can do that every week and be blessed with a loss on the scale, but I am very glad for the gift <BR> <em>389</em> <BR> maybe it was all those trips back up the hill sledding yesterday:) <em>310</em> Mon, 9 Mar 2015 14:11:44 EST Attitude Is Everything I ate over my allowance this week....including my earned activity, but I'm not going to freak out about it, because it's not a weekly thing (anymore). Today is my Birthday, and I had the best time with my family. Made lasagna and we all went out and played in the snow for two hours. Tomorrow is weigh in day, and I know chances are good that I could have a gain, so if I'm fortunate enough to maintain last week's weight, I'll be super happy. On the other hand, if I gain, I will accept it and mo... Sun, 8 Mar 2015 22:16:57 EST New Medication A week and a half ago, I went back to the doctor to reevaluate my medications. I had been taking fluoxetine, generic Prozac, for almost two years, I think, but had decided to wean myself off of it in December, 2014, because I wanted to see if it was making it harder for me to maintain my weight loss and ultimately aiding in the weight gain I have seen over the past year or so. I did my research, and made the decision to be especially mindful of making sure I am getting plenty of magnesium, ... Fri, 6 Feb 2015 14:07:26 EST End of Week Re-Cap I gave in and decided to do the mobile WW thing again--hey--I have a smart phone now, so I can actually use it everyday now. That was a couple of weeks ago, and it was a Monday, so I decided I would take Monday as my weigh in date. Did pretty well the first week. Had a major binge last Sunday night on these really delicious cranberry orange scones that I made--and hit 200 by morning :( I have been dangerously close to it for a while, and so thankful that I didn't reach it. I have now, an... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 13:31:04 EST Maintenance mode to weight loss mode Pushing hard on 200 pounds again....I think I'm officially switching to weight loss mode.....Planning to be ready for maintenance again sometime this summer. Sun, 28 Dec 2014 14:54:30 EST Grr...lost much sleep last night But, on the bright side, today is the last day of work (school) for me until Jan 1, 2015! Fiance let the dog out in the middle of the night, and she took off across the yard after something--barking all the way. He bolted back to get warmer clothes and shoes to go after her, lights blazing...I went to the door and called her in while he was getting shoes on, and thankfully she came back right away--he was relieved..she's small, and could never hold her own against a coyote--or even a raccoo... Fri, 19 Dec 2014 11:26:03 EST Looks like I'm losing again! I'm going to officially say that in the past two weeks, I have experienced about 3-5 pounds lost. Having been a maintainer for more than a year, I had gotten into the habit of weighing myself everyday as a matter of proactive attention to big changes--then I stopped and only did it occasionally--and now, several months later--we have a sizable gain to deal with. Anyway--I am back to daily weight documentation. As a disclaimer, I will say that I long ago divorced myself from the emotional... Wed, 3 Dec 2014 13:49:07 EST Sugar Cycle Broken? Dare I say it "out loud"? <BR> I have recently encountered some research on gut health as associated with mood, and weight, and overall good health from various sources including Trudy Scott, Mike Mutzel, Carolyn Dean...after catching the tail end of the Anxiety Summit talks hosted by Trudy, and I have little by little put some of the habits to practice--like eating the bulk of my calories between getting up in the morning and 4 PM--sticking to just protein, vegetables, and healthy fats aft... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 15:51:59 EST Origins Movie-Must Watch! I watched a fantastic movie on YouTube a few days ago at the suggestion of a friend called Origins. It is available to view for free til 11/22/14. <BR> It's a really interesting film about how we have altered our way of eating/ food supply in detrimental ways, and how we really need to get back to a more sustainable way of eating, consuming, etc. <BR> <link><BR>KZXxn8 </link> <BR> <BR> Comment from a viewer: <BR> <BR> "ORIGINS" is an OUTSTANDING film... Tue, 18 Nov 2014 15:57:20 EST One Giant Hershey Special Dark Chocolate Bar Feeling super yucky now after eating the entire bar after having a pretty nice supper. I don't know what I was thinking. I feel like I could throw up, have a headache, and wish I had used better judgment. I usually try not to beat myself up about less than healthy choices like this, but I'm having a pretty hard time setting aside my regret this time. I have a couch2k training session on my schedule for the morning, and I hope I don't allow myself to back out as a result of my binge. <BR> Wha... Tue, 11 Nov 2014 01:13:15 EST Thanks for the Encouragement! Got some really nice comments on my back to basics announcement--thank you! I have made some observations... <BR> My ratio of fruits/veggies: everything else has dramatically shifted, and I know that my large consumption of fruits/veggies INSTEAD of choosing multiple servings of sweets and other starchy choices was one of my biggest success points before. I want to shift back in the direction I used to follow so well. <BR> Half the plate should be fruits and veggies---1/4 lean protein--1/... Fri, 30 May 2014 12:28:51 EST Back to Basics Ok--decision made--back to basics before I'm back to square one. Mission: Baby steps again! <BR> Thu, 29 May 2014 14:26:46 EST May 2014 May update- <BR> <BR> Still gaining pretty steadily. When I got on the scale the other day--I had reached 30 pounds over my goal weight :( I'm not excited about this, because I don't like the trend that seems to be developing. I know I'm not eating as strictly as I once did, and I'm not exercising as vigorously as I have sometimes in the past, but I am still making good food choices, and I don't feel like I'm eating way out of range all the time. I also stay at least mildly active--getti... Tue, 27 May 2014 13:09:55 EST April-2014 Let me catch up the best I can with my April--I have been continuing to gain a little each week, and I'm currently weighing in@20 pounds over my originally achieved goal weight of 148. I'm still calling myself a maintainer, because otherwise I feel like I've failed. I'm trying not to get too down on myself about this--there have been significant hormonal changes over the last several months that I'm still learning how to adjust to. Maybe it's not even reasonable for me to expect to maintain... Wed, 30 Apr 2014 16:08:27 EST Motivator of the week?? Really? How did this happen? I'm not overly active in the community...don't blog on a regular basis? Where do I see this on the site? Maybe I better check my sparkmail...maybe it's in there. <BR> <BR> Thank you by the way----I have been feeling more motivated myself lately---but have been seeking motivation more than I thought I was giving it :) <BR> Michelle Thu, 13 Mar 2014 13:11:55 EST Wonderful Surprise!! My darling sweetie gave me a box of WW ice cream candy bars for Valentine's Day :) What a darling...he knows how much I've been struggling lately, and he knows how much I love a good treat. He also gave me an adorable heart shaped piggy bank with America's classic sweeties smooching on the front (Micky and Minnie). I'm thinking it's all been presented, and I'm cuddled on the couch browsing through his new tree catalog that he'd picked up earlier that day....thinking about Spring in the mid... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 14:35:51 EST Dang! Double dang--actually. <BR> #1 weight up .4 , and I was really expecting a drop--I've been so good on both food and exercise--but moving on, we'll see what happens next week on the scale. <BR> #2 I forgot (because I know that I once knew it) that if I don't weigh in less than two pounds over goal at my WW meeting, I have to pay....I knew I wouldn't...could have waited til Feb, since I've already been there for Jan....but I forgot...thought since I already paid last week--I was good---not the... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 13:16:28 EST 1/2/14 Breakfast Started using the Simple Start method from WW today (also known as Simply Filling)--This was breakfast--all of which are Power Foods--so no tracking them :) <BR> Egg white fritata w/beans and brown rice, steel cut oatmeal w/ grapes and applesauce. Yum:) ...and a glass of skim milk. Sooooo filling, and so good for me :) Thu, 2 Jan 2014 12:11:25 EST Planning a Good Day Today is going to be a good day all the way around, because that is my plan! I will stay in my WW points range today with my eating, and I will get my goal steps for the day completed, even if that means a late night walk outside if I am falling short. I am getting back on track TODAY, and I am not going to keep this extra 13 pounds any longer! <BR> It's going to be a challenge, because there are still lovely sweets all around, and they have been my weakness lately. I will stop, and ask Go... Sat, 28 Dec 2013 10:31:24 EST Always reconsidering things I am now back-pedaling a bit from my last blog--Weight Watchers seems so comfortable for me, and it works--so, I am thinking that leaving that way of food tracking would be a mistake for me. I'm staying about 10 pounds over my goal these days--which isn't horrible--it's still a maintenance of 90 pounds lost--and that isn't anything to scoff at--right?? I've switched up my weigh in habits for the moment--back to once a week (weight loss mode) instead of daily (maintenance mode). I have sele... Wed, 18 Dec 2013 13:51:49 EST Aha Moment! I've been stressing out for such a long time about maintaining my Lifetime Membership at Weight much that back in February, I had officially increased my maintenance weight. The weight I have selected now (155) is still 5 pounds less than the top of the acceptable range--for Lifetime eligibility-except when a doctor determines that you can maintain outside of that window. Right now, I've never fallen out of that window for weigh in, so I've never had to pay for my meetings- Gr... Mon, 2 Dec 2013 17:57:56 EST Feeling Grumpy Feeling grumpy and a little blue--not sure why exactly--just thought I would blog it to see if helps--spent the night sweating and freezing. Went to bed last night about 7:30 and had to really convince myself to get up @6 this morning. Short walk with the dog after getting showered (at least I showered) and dressed for work. <BR> Will update as day progresses--back to my work for now. <BR> Michelle <BR> 10:40--I could be getting sick--got the flu shot tho about a month ago, and that worke... Thu, 21 Nov 2013 10:21:41 EST Not Today! I want something else to eat---so badly--I'm on the verge of foraging down in the teacher's lounge or the main office to see if anyone brought in some kind (any kind) of treat today...............I'm sure someone did....there is usually something to be found in a school ....I don't want to do I'm blogging that I've said it "out loud" to my SP peeps....I will restrain myself............right?? <BR> Michelle <BR> 1:28 PM update: Had to go to lounge to make copies...God i... Fri, 15 Nov 2013 13:27:14 EST 11/14 Check-In Thought I would do a quick check-in--been a few weeks :) <BR> Not used to the cold yet --I guess I have no choice tho, do I? <BR> The dog doesn't seem to mind it--it takes her at least 10 mins of walking for her to get her job done. I love her for it though--I was struggling to commit to 3 walks a week before--now it's three walks a day! They aren't more than 1.5-2.0 miles each though, and it has been good to get into tht routine! <BR> Have a great day and weekend! <BR> Michelle Thu, 14 Nov 2013 15:47:16 EST Fly-By Check-In I'm really enjoying the new start page. It has helped me regain my connectedness to the community :) It's so easy to pop in now and navigate to everything I need with one handy dashboard! I love it! <BR> Busy at work, and I enjoy it--makes the days fly by--double edged sword really--never get bored, but I wonder where the time has gone :) <BR> Looking forward to a great weekend of house work and yard work. I'm working on getting my weight back on the lower end of my maintenance zone--I'... Fri, 1 Nov 2013 13:20:36 EST Feeling a Little Disconnected I'm just feeling a little disconnected from the Spark lately--just still kind of overwhelmed at work most days--not a bad thing--just busy. I stay off the computer most of the time when I'm at home--busy with things at home--walking the dog, etc. Miss Maggie has gained about a half a pound since I got her--up to 9 pounds, and the vet wants to see her at about 12. If she gained what I did over the past weekend while we were camping--she'd be right on the mark :) I'm working on getting that... Wed, 16 Oct 2013 13:15:22 EST Meet My New Walking Partner Meet Miss Maggie: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> She is my new walking partner. I adopted her yesterday :) She is a real sweetie! This is the first time I have had a "house dog", and the first dog I've had in ten years. I forgot how much I love to love them! <BR> She has a GREAT pace, and she has such stamina! Tue, 24 Sep 2013 13:20:29 EST Finding My Groove yes--I'm finding my groove--slowly but surely. I still haven't figured out how to squeeze out more time for "Sparking", and I am missing my friends here, but I am feeling good--tackling my cravings a little at a time each day, and the small steady gain I was seeing before, has been a small steady loss again. <BR> I am thrilled with how I am just looking at that number every day and logging it--without getting all anxious/excited either way. It just is what it is, and I use the information... Tue, 17 Sep 2013 11:39:32 EST Sugar Beast @ Bay--today :) Thanks to: <BR> 3016DEBRA <BR> KELLIEBEAN <BR> GORIANA <BR> TATERCAT <BR> JODI404 <BR> DEBBYFROMMT <BR> KAYOTIC <BR> MEXGAL1 <BR> For your great comments to my blog from yesterday"Scale Creep" <BR> I'm feeling more in control today, and I like that! <BR> I think just being silently aware by myself was too much pressure, and going through the process of making it "public" helps to focus on the solution better instead of just feeling defeated and bad about the result of the choices I was making... Fri, 6 Sep 2013 13:08:34 EST Scale Creep Yep--been experiencing some scale creep lately--it's not fatal or anything, but none the less--it's occurring. <BR> I've been having recurring peanut butter, honey, and bread binges in the afternoons when I get home from work--for some reason I think I'm starving, and I intend to have just a snack--and it turns into an out of control binge! <BR> I've been journaling about it, and praying about it, and this morning I added a little extra activity to start DOING something about it. I got in ... Thu, 5 Sep 2013 14:34:10 EST Thank You! I am so overwhelmed by all the positive thoughts and comments posted to my page and blog recently....and I have been pretty much AWOL for a while. I am still out of sync with my new school schedule, but I'm hoping in a few weeks things will be well on their way to being routine. I didn't even realize I was featured as motivational member of the day a while back..that was a nice surprise. <BR> I've gotten some added responsibilities at work this year, and I'm excited about the opportunity,... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 18:27:55 EST Quick Update 7/17/13 Dear Spark friends: <BR> I'm still here, and I'm still thinking of you all. Went on vacation last week and returned last Thursday--had a wonderful vacation, but received some sad news after returning. My mom's oldest brother (only 61) has been battling cancer the last several months, and it has now reached his brain. Five tumors, whole brain radiation, so he can get some relief from the pain, so he can go home. He doesn't want to die in the hospital. <BR> Your prayers are so appreciated... Wed, 17 Jul 2013 14:26:11 EST General Update 6/24/13 My weight has currently been averaging 145 ish, which is a little lower than it had been. It's actually about where I had secretly hoped it would be, but I never dreamed it possible. I haven't been eating much for bread/wheat products lately, and I think that agrees nicely with me. I don't want to give up dairy, which is strongly recommended by the WomanCode protocol (from a very interesting book I've been reading with that title by Alisa Vitti) at least temporarily to rule out a dairy sen... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 18:00:43 EST SP Radio Interview June 5, 2013 I had such a great time chatting with Karen and Lily a little over a week ago, and for those of you who are interested and haven't yet heard my interview....... <BR> Here are the links to my Spark Radio interview with Karen and Lily!! <BR> <BR> <BR> Part I: <BR> <link><BR>arkPeopleRadio/2013/SP_060413/SP_06041<BR>3_IHEART_03.mp3 </link> <BR> <BR> Part II: <BR> <link><BR>arkPeopleRadio/2013/SP_060413/SP_06041<BR>3... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 12:37:43 EST To Track or Not to Track? Got this great idea from another sparker--Kayotic for tracking/not tracking food from day to day. <link><BR>YOTIC </link> <BR> <BR> Basically here's what I'm doing as inspired by her--I weigh myself every day (which I have done since I entered maintenance anyway-- to ward off major swings in the scale) I track the food I eat on the days that my weight is above what I have determined as my ideal goal weight that I want to maintain, and on days where I ... Tue, 21 May 2013 14:47:07 EST