MJSPECIAL's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MJSPECIAL MJSPECIAL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Getting too late? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5248540 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1581389210.jpg">It is now over a year I believe since my last entry. I am starting over. AGAIN. I feel vaguely more optimistic this time, as I have started using the treadmill with my youngest sons "coaching." I log my miles on a nearby calender and he, and the othe kids check my progress, usually giving me a high five or some other form or phrase. I do feel better, usually on the days I do walk. I try to do 6 miles a week. At least a... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 02:29:48 EST Getting too late? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5248539 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1581389210.jpg">It is now over a year I believe since my last entry. I am starting over. AGAIN. I feel vaguely more optimistic this time, as I have started using the treadmill with my youngest sons "coaching." I log my miles on a nearby calender and he, and the othe kids check my progress, usually giving me a high five or some other form or phrase. I do feel better, usually on the days I do walk. I try to do 6 miles a week. At least a... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 02:29:48 EST Time flies, weight can't get off the ground. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4418961 I'm going to ramble so be forewarned. I joined SparkPeople two years ago and haven't changed a thing. Same whines, same sizes. WHAT is it going to take??? "If I can do it, you can." I hear that. Yet, why can't I be the one saying it? Well, here I go yet again. I work with a woman doing weight watchers. She has her support system which includes family and friends that go to the meetings together. She has lost 42 pounds thus far. Every week I hear everyone complimenting her and singi... Wed, 10 Aug 2011 14:30:10 EST ARHHHHHHHH http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4365804 I just wrote a very long blog and decided to add an emoticon. Well that did it. Some how I lost the blog after that. :( Grrrrrrrrrrr. I won't even bother to redo it. I was up at 2:30 and it's now 5:00am. Getting tired I think. <BR> <BR> So, so irritated and depressed. Sat, 16 Jul 2011 05:08:05 EST Can't hide now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3969922 Hello... <BR> Last year I said I'd only do 12 diets. Said the same thing this year and I'm about to take on number 2 for 2011. What's different? I have two kids (left) living at home and they are on a health kick. Not just health..health, eating, and EXERCISE kick. The more they do it, the more I look even worse. Not just visual appearance, but my habits, the way I do anything. Or rather DON'T do anything. Is there something even less active than sedentary? My son is the worst. He'... Fri, 28 Jan 2011 18:34:59 EST Beyond Discouraged January 2011 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3958637 <em>39</em> WHERE IS MY BLOG...I hit spell check, finished. And now it's gone. <BR> I'm out to hunt for it. I just don't have it in me to write again. I am so depressed as it is. Tue, 25 Jan 2011 08:06:38 EST Number Four http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3141544 Well month four, diet four. Finally seeing some success!!! Another "new" number that I haven't seen in years. Still a member of the 200 club, but I'm closing in on getting out! <BR> Not sure what clicked, just hoping whatever it was or is can stay strong. I have hope. <BR> Rare that I do, but I feel better than I have thus far in this journey. Maybe I just got the head <BR> right this time. We'll see. Praying it's not just some short-lived fluke. <BR> <BR> One at a time, right? Tue, 20 Apr 2010 16:00:19 EST New Year, New Month http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2970027 Okay, it's 2010 now...and I said at the beginning I would only go on 12 "diets" this year. <BR> I have just begun number 3. The first two were in no way even near a success. However, <BR> it's March now, and time is ticking so fast. I have many reasons to lose weight. Health <BR> for one, appearance, etc. Now I have a new one, my son is getting married in Sept. I do not want to be the fat mother of the groom. I don't have all the much time to lose a lot, but I do have time to lose some... Sun, 7 Mar 2010 18:02:49 EST Another walk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2409963 Two days in a row now I've gone for a walk. And my calves hurt. I guess I haven't used them in a long time and they're letting me know it! But it still feels like progress so I'm going to keep at it, perhaps alternating with an exercise bike. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow, the 19th, my youngest turns 19. I gained weight when I had him and <BR> I think it's time I lose that weight. 19 years is a long time to carry around <BR> excess baggage. Never mind January 1. I'm going to start on HIS birthd... Fri, 18 Sep 2009 11:56:46 EST A walk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2404278 Well I shocked my body...and myself. I went for a walk. It was only 15 minutes up and down my driveway but I did it. The most I've moved in a year! Probably longer, lol. I hope I can keep it up. Okay I'm a little over excited here about one little stroll, but it did get my heartrate up and a mile begins with only one step. <BR> <BR> I tried on 3 dresses for a wedding, and only one is acceptable. The others were <BR> too small. Rather I was too large. It was a rude awakening but a... Wed, 16 Sep 2009 10:57:19 EST Help http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2304130 That's all I can say. Help. I'm gaining. I'm not staying the same, I'm not losing. I'm gaining. The more I do the more discouraged I become. I think I'm doing all right then jump on the scale and ta daaa UP! It's very depressing and I actually found myself in tears the last "weigh in." I need hope. I need prayer. I need something. I need to stop eating. I need to get honest with myself on why <BR> nothing is working. I try to eat right, and try to eat less. For snacks I'll ... Mon, 10 Aug 2009 18:18:59 EST Discouraged http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2209429 Well here it is almost mid July...I've seen nothing more than the same three pounds come off and on. I am discouraged. I am the heaviest I've been in my life and don't even want to leave the house anymore. Which just adds to the misery. <BR> I've set small goals, and can't even seem to accomplish those. I don't want to give up, but I'm having a hard time moving forward. Try try again, I guess. I'm eating a lot of fruit, but admit I've done nothing in the way of exercise. I know that'... Tue, 7 Jul 2009 11:12:31 EST Goals and a dress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2152768 Well I have a wedding to go to in October so I wrote the date down and the weight I would like to weigh by then. Then I wrote down every weekend between now and then and put down that weeks goal weight. Two pounds a week and I'll be there if I start now. So I have a goal weight and a place to write actual weight. I'll be able to see at a glance if I'm on track. And I have to be. I ordered a new dress for this wedding. It's beautiful and rather expensive, so I have to fit into it! T... Mon, 15 Jun 2009 14:21:35 EST June 1, 2009 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2112935 New month...we know what that means...new diet? New attempt at weight loss? OF COURSE!! 12 diets a year, right? NO.....change in lifestyle and attitude? Yes. <BR> Here it is another blog and I'm not doing much better. Can't even post my weight loss on that little Spark Page thingy cause I'm still UP. But....but....I have, after reaching ANOTHER all time high, lost 5 of it. Now I'm around my Spark starting weight, so here I go again. I've been neglecting "Spark" but want <BR> to keep ... Mon, 1 Jun 2009 14:37:52 EST Doctor Visit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2010869 I haven't been on Spark in awhile, and it shows. With a GAIN. Tomorrow I go to the doctor having not been seen for 2 years. I dread the "official" weight. <BR> I know it' s up probably 20 since my last visit with him. And I know the definition is OBESE. I can't believe this has happened to me. I never wanted to grow up and be FAT. And there's no denying I am. Tomorrow will prove that. <BR> I can only start from today and do better from here on out. It's too late <BR> to shock my doc... Mon, 27 Apr 2009 14:59:07 EST Starting over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1800322 Well yes I'm starting over. Again. It's not the first time I've started over but hopefully it'll be (one of) the last! I gained four pounds since my last "loss." <BR> I've since lost 2 of them. Not sure what it going on. I'm trying to watch what I eat, I drink a lot of water, but I don't exercise. I'm sure that's a key. And at the age I'm at it's harder to do it all, but can be done. Like I read today: <BR> A person who wants something will find a way.. <BR> A person who doesn't wil... Sun, 15 Feb 2009 13:40:44 EST Surprise Weigh-In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1737653 Well I dared myself to get on the scale ready for yet another disappointment. I was shocked to see I lost 2 pounds. Not sure what I did, though I am becoming more and more aware of what I eat, and why. Emotions and moods are a huge factor with me. Recognizing this is a key. I know it's only 2 pounds, but I figure I can't lose 5 or 10 or 40 without losing the first 2. I have begun! Sun, 25 Jan 2009 15:25:58 EST Set up to fail http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1732159 Okay here it is my second day with spark people. And what do I do? I make cookies? WHY? Why do I do such a thing and set myself up to fail. Did I really think I could resist a warm chewy cookie? I know things like that shouldn't even be in the house. I know this, but yet I still have to LEARN this. The only positive note is, I did not take the attitude (after eating 2 cookies) that I blew it and will ruin the rest of the day. I won't. I will just be more careful as the day goes on.... Fri, 23 Jan 2009 15:30:09 EST