MIZZLE2105's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MIZZLE2105 MIZZLE2105's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ No.... I'm not Dead! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5158407 Hello, fellow sparkers!!!! <BR> <BR> I'M BACK!!!!! <em>213</em> <BR> <BR> I had a really long hiatus from working out and eating right. One that I am sadly, not proud of. I even resorted to taking HCG shots and appetite suppressants. I ended up losing about 30 pounds but as soon as I stopped the shots, the weight came right back on. Now, I am going back to the basics. Eating right and exercising. I still have hope that I am going to reach my weight-loss goals. I am looking to reconnect ... Thu, 6 Dec 2012 16:17:49 EST My Inner Beast http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4299990 I have been thinking a lot about the animal that represents my Inner Sexy Beast.. My animal is.... A Tiger!! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/2/l923593887.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Here are the reasons why... I have listed these things before but I really feel like these things pertain to me. <BR> <BR> 1. Every single tiger in the world has their own distinct pattern of stripes. <BR> I am one of a kind just like the tiger! I can't be duplicated! I am strong, powerful and ... Wed, 15 Jun 2011 09:21:40 EST 50 Things about me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4270679 1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? <BR> Yes. My mother had a crush on this guy during highschool. He had a daughter named Melissa and she liked the name so much she named me Melissa. <BR> <BR> 2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? <BR> a month ago <BR> <BR> 3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? <BR> Yes... Left handed people ROCK!! <BR> <BR> 4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? <BR> Turkey <BR> <BR> 5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? <BR> Nope... Thank you Jesus <BR> <BR> 6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON W... Wed, 1 Jun 2011 17:49:51 EST I got over my slump http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4257177 I have been in a real funk for the past 2-3 weeks. I wasn't tracking my food, I stopped coming on SP and chatting with my friends and I wasn't exercising. I have been going through so much lately. This year already I have participated in 3 weddings, 3 baby showers and countless bridal showers and bachelorette parties. Also I had 2 deaths of close family friends and I am in the middle of a job change. Are these all excuses? No, that is LIFE!! <BR> <BR> While we are on this weight-loss journey... Thu, 26 May 2011 08:57:20 EST You are worth more than 30 pounds!!!! (some pix included) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4183315 So if you have been reading my previous blogs you would know that lately I have been really down in the dumps. I feel like this is a pattern that I have developed starting and stopping things in my life. I have always had the fear of losing thirty pounds and gaining it back. Because I never felt like I was worth the effort. Well I realize that I am more than mediocre. I am more than losing 30 pounds. I can lose 60 or 100 pounds if I want and that is what I intend to do. So for all of you out ... Fri, 22 Apr 2011 08:59:43 EST I am posting this blog to help me feel better(pix included) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4182966 So lately I have been really slacking and not feeling like my normal self. I have been really trying to work past this and get back to my old self. Well with the help of my spark friends and reminding myself that I am worth it. I finally feel like I am back on the path to reach my goals. I was going through some old pics and found a pic that really helped me appreciate how far I have come. I just had to share it with my spark friends. <BR> <BR> This pic was taken back in Dec.2010, I was arou... Fri, 22 Apr 2011 00:48:00 EST I am feeling pretty low right now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4177019 Sigh... I am feeling like a broken record right now. I am in the same vicious cycle of starting and stopping something. I am in this hole and I don't know how to dig myself out of it. I have been slacking so bad. I haven't been tracking, my workout regimine is slowly dying down and I am eating things I normally turn my head to. I don't know how to pull myself back. Everyday I get more and more discouraged. And the worst part of it all is I am slowly watching the scale get higher and higher. I... Tue, 19 Apr 2011 14:16:18 EST Reposting the Blog--- Compliments can play mind tricks on ya http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4165380 So I am taking a tip from SandiegoJohn. He wrote a blog basically saying that he understands that it can be frustrating when you write a blog pouring out your heart and you feel like it doesn't get the notice that it deserves. And he talked about self-promoting yourself. Well that is what I am going to do. I am going to self-promote this blog because I feel like this is the way a lot of people are feeling in regards to weight-loss. If I can help one more person feel better about themselves th... Thu, 14 Apr 2011 11:44:17 EST Slacking on Tracking.. Warning this blog is in amateur poetry form Lol http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4143567 The scale is up <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I'm not surprised. <BR> <BR> I know exactly why. <BR> <BR> I have the tools to succeed <BR> <BR> But food I see I must eat <BR> <BR> Can't keep account <BR> <BR> Because I'm not writing down <BR> <BR> Did I eat 10 or 30 of those cheetos <BR> <BR> Hmmm, who knows? <BR> <BR> I think I will just leave that part out <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> Pretend this never happened <BR> <BR> If I don't write it down then it was just a figure of my imagin... Tue, 5 Apr 2011 09:05:30 EST I have nothing to be ashamed of http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4128927 So BLC 15 has come to an end.. I had a goal of 30 pounds in 12 weeks.. Here is how I did <BR> <BR> Initial Weigh in – Jan 5: 316.2 pounds <BR> <BR> INITAL INCHES MEASUREMENT <BR> Bust: 53" <BR> Thigh: 32" <BR> Hips: 57.5" <BR> Waist: 55" <BR> Arms: 18" <BR> <BR> And after 12 weeks. This is how I did!!! <BR> <BR> Week 12 – Mar 30: <BR> Weight: 289.2 pounds <BR> <BR> Final INCHES MEASUREMENT <BR> Bust: 51 <BR> Thigh: 28 <BR> Hips: 53 <BR> Waist: 51 <BR> Arms: 16.5 <BR> <BR> 12 Week ... Wed, 30 Mar 2011 11:07:42 EST Time to start Streaking = D http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4126876 So I am going to be a bridesmaid on June 4th. Yesterday we went to try on our dresses. Here is a picture of the dress I am going to be wearing. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/5/l955892509.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I am freakin' out because it is completely sleeveless. I don't like my back or arms... Aaahhhh!!!! My solution is I am going to start a streak. I have two months until the wedding. So I am going to work on 3 things. 8 cups of water everyday, no fast food and no alcohol... Tue, 29 Mar 2011 14:50:40 EST Time to Practice What I Preach http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4114942 So on the front of my spark page I have an introductory title. That introductory title is what sets the tone for reading info about me. My introductory title says "Love the Journey Not Just The Results". These are very powerful words to me because my goal of losing weight and adapting a healthy lifestyle is a journey. It is filled with highs and lows. Ups and downs. Moving two steps forward and maybe one step back. Through it all, the thing that I stress the most when commenting on people's b... Thu, 24 Mar 2011 10:54:36 EST Sorry this may be TMI but....... TOM SUCKS!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4112871 It's that time of the month again... UGHHHH!!!! I have one week left until BLC 15 ends and I had a goal of 30 pounds. I need to lose 4.6 pounds this last week but I don't know if I am going to make it. Especially since I just finished eating fries and chicken... I am CRAVING salt..... OMG!!!! Then I am going to a wedding this Saturday and I have to try to resist carbs and cake..GRRRRR!!!!!! Sorry for this TMI Rant but I am really going crazy over here. Wed, 23 Mar 2011 14:16:21 EST One Word Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4110626 Stole this from my friend Tleventer.... This is too good not to try... He He <BR> <BR> Not as easy as you might think! Copy and Paste into your own blog, change the answers to suit you. It's really hard to only use one word answers. <BR> <BR> Where is your cell phone? <BR> Desk <BR> <BR> Spouse? <BR> None <BR> <BR> Your hair? <BR> Black <BR> <BR> Your mother? <BR> Rock <BR> <BR> Your father? <BR> Deadbeat <BR> <BR> Your favorite thing? <BR> Kisses <BR> <BR> Your dream la... Tue, 22 Mar 2011 17:15:50 EST Fitness Minutes and Challenge Points http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4100328 Fitness Minutes <BR> 3-16-11 30 minutes <BR> 3-17-11 30 minutes <BR> 3-18-11 90 minutes <BR> 3-21-11 75 minutes <BR> <BR> <BR> Challenge Points <BR> BACK TO BASICS CHALLENGE!!!! <BR> <BR> H20 - For every 8 ounces, you earn 1 point (10 points max) <BR> <BR> FREGGIES - 5 servings per day (1 point for each serving - 5 points max) <BR> <BR> TRACK - Record all of your food for the day, even if you go over (5 points) <BR> <BR> CARDIO - 20 minutes per day (5 points per 20 minutes - 15 points... Fri, 18 Mar 2011 08:34:31 EST BLC 16 Open to Newbies!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4098776 I LOST 25 POUNDS IN 10 WEEKS!!!!! Want to know how??? <BR> <BR> BIGGEST LOSER CHALLENGE 15 (BLC 15) <BR> <BR> A 12 week weight-loss challenge. Filled with encouragement, support from a team and accountability. Sign-ups for BLC 16 are starting right now. Here is the link for anyone that wants to join. It was the best decision that I made. <BR> <BR> <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i<BR>ndividual.asp?gid=49555 </link> Thu, 17 Mar 2011 14:20:22 EST Don't downplay yourself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4095908 So in the course of my weight-loss journey I have this horrible self-destructive habit of down-playing myself. Whether it be my weight-loss, my accomplishments and just myself in general. People give me a compliment.. I down-play it. People talk about my good qualities.. I down-play it. I look at my accomplishments and I down-play them too. <BR> <BR> Lately, I have been in a real funk. My motivation has been fizzling. I am eating a bite here and there that I normally wouldn't eat. I am dra... Wed, 16 Mar 2011 11:51:40 EST 30 pounds gone and losing (pix) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4090933 I just wanted to share with everyone a recent picture of myself. Since I started spark back in Dec 2010 I have lost 30 pounds and 11 inches <BR> <BR> This is when I started <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/3/l639383710.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> And this is now <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/0/l90927036.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> 30 POUNDS LOST AND NEVER TO BE FOUND AGAIN!!!! Mon, 14 Mar 2011 14:27:53 EST Good or Bad.. Depending on what viewpoint you are looking from! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4090714 In the course of my weight-loss journey I am really trying to learn how to focus on the positive and dismiss the negative. This is vital so I don't give up. There can be some weeks I don't see any movement on the scale but focusing on the good habits I am forming helps me to continue to push forward. This weekend I went out to eat twice and I went to a bridal shower. Normally the self-destructive Melissa would wallow in self-pity and reach for the nearest bowl of ice cream but where is that g... Mon, 14 Mar 2011 13:06:20 EST Week 10 Fitness Minutes and Challenge Points http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4081497 Fitness Minutes <BR> 3-9-11 75 minutes <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Challenge Points Thu, 10 Mar 2011 12:13:13 EST Either wallow in self-pity or pick my @SS up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4078481 Ok.. Lately I have been on this wallow in self pity kick.. Actually for the past couple of weeks I have been feeling like this. It seems that I hit a 30 pound weight-loss and started slacking. I have been feeling very discouraged lately. I haven't been tracking my food, I haven't been commenting on blogs the way I usually do and I haven't been exercising as intense as I know I can. So.... Here are my options... Either I can stay down in the dumps saying Woe is me and eat myself into emotional... Wed, 9 Mar 2011 10:09:01 EST Compliments can play mind tricks on you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4065533 I know that is a very weird title to start off this blog but that is really the case with me. But please let me explain. I have always been the over-weight girl but the type of girl that always took the time to wear make-up, do my hair, wear high-heels and find a relatively nice outfit for my size. I figured if I was going to be the big girl. I was going to be the flyest big girl you would ever meet. In my opinion, I already had being big against me so I was determined to overcome the stereot... Fri, 4 Mar 2011 09:30:47 EST Week 9 Fitness Minutes and Challenge Points http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4065417 Fitness Minutes <BR> 3-2-11 30 minutes <BR> 3-4-11 60 minutes <BR> 3-7-11 135 minutes <BR> <BR> <BR> Challenge Points <BR> 3-4-11 <BR> FF <BR> Salt <BR> Go 60 points <BR> <BR> 3-5-11 <BR> FF <BR> Salt <BR> Go <BR> <BR> 3-6-11 <BR> FF <BR> Salt <BR> Go <BR> <BR> 3-7-11 <BR> FF <BR> Salt <BR> Go 60 minutes <BR> <BR> 3-8-11 <BR> FF <BR> Salt <BR> Go <BR> <BR> WEEKLY CHALLENGE!!!!! <BR> <BR> STOPLIGHT CHALLENGE!!!! <BR> <BR> Challenge will run FRIDAY - TUESDAY! <BR> <BR> Track ... Fri, 4 Mar 2011 08:39:44 EST WHAT?? You want me to eat more???? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4063298 So when i first started spark I decided I was going to follow the calorie intake and fitness plan on the website. I started my fitness with 3 days a week at 30 min each with a calorie intake of 1400-1800 calories a day. I figured that was a decent amount of calories to eat. Well for the past two months I have been doing a lot more exercise than that 3-4 days of exercise at 60 min each. Well I got an alert saying that I need to change my workout settings on my fitness tracker and as soon as I ... Thu, 3 Mar 2011 12:29:34 EST Turbo Jam or HipHop Abs? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4062638 So I have been working out regularly for 2 1/2 months now. I am the type of person that gets bored very easily if I do the same workout for too long. My workout routine consists of classes at Bally's 2 days a week and training 3 days a week for a 5k. Well I made the decision that I want to purchase some exercise tapes. I absolutely love to dance. It is the one exercise that I don't view as exercise at all... My mom purchased the zumba tapes but they aren't for me. I am not a big fan of cumbia... Thu, 3 Mar 2011 08:52:54 EST Week 7 Fitness Minutes and Challenge Points http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4043576 Fitness Minutes <BR> 2-23 60 minutes <BR> 2-24 30 minutes <BR> 2-25 90 minutes <BR> 2-27 60 minutes <BR> 2-28 60 minutes <BR> <BR> Challenge Points <BR> <BR> CHALLENGE FOR THE WEEKEND WILL RUN FROM TODAY (RIGHT NOW) THROUGH MONDAY EVENING. this challenge is going to help us get ready for nothing less than: <BR> <BR> SPRING <BR> <BR> S - strength training, any kind - 1 point for each type of ST you do, doesn't matter how many sets, its the different ST's you do that get points. (5 max ... Thu, 24 Feb 2011 08:26:34 EST Re-Evaluating Myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4037771 For the past two days I have been in a real funk. I didn't want to exercise, track my food or come on here at all. I really don't have any rhyme or reason for why I have been like this. After 30 pounds and 7 inches off of my body gone you would think I would be signing up for the next 5k <em>246</em> And I have no deep explanation for why I do the things I do. I am an imperfect human and that imperfection gives birth to unwise decisions. <BR> <BR> But what I realize is that I have the fre... Tue, 22 Feb 2011 09:25:53 EST Week 6 Fitness Minutes and Challenge Points http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4025658 Fitness Minutes <BR> Wed 60 minutes <BR> Fri 60 minutes <BR> Sun 60 minutes <BR> Tue 90 minutes <BR> <BR> Challenge Points <BR> <BR> FEB Weekend Challenge <BR> <BR> This fun and easy challenge will run from 12:00am Friday to 11:59pm Monday, your time zone. <BR> <BR> F = Freggies (1 point for each serving, maximum up to 5 points/day) <BR> <BR> E = Exercise: Strength or Cardio (5 points for each 15 minutes, maximum up to 20 points/day) <BR> <BR> B = Breakfast : Include a good fiber sou... Thu, 17 Feb 2011 15:13:47 EST Ants In My Pants http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4024954 So I just had to write a blog... I have to get this energy out somehow. I hope this isn't too long or that I don't bore you to death. But if I don't get this out I am just going to burst.... <BR> <BR> I have ants in my pants <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> Yes you read correctly... Ants in my pants!!!!! <BR> <BR> A nervous tick that I can't shake <BR> <BR> I am sitting at my desk trying to be focused on work. Trying to get my job done but all I can think about is going outside and doing something... Thu, 17 Feb 2011 10:44:19 EST TWOSVILLE!!!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4021833 Yep!!! You read correct!!! I am a proud resident of Twosville!! I am glad that I am here. It is a beautiful town filled with sunshine and hope.. It's nothing like 300hell... That place was so dark, gloomy and filled with despair.. Yep!!! I think I am going to stay in Twosville for a while but up ahead in the horizon I see Onederland and I know I am going to get there one day but in the meantime I will just admire it from afar.... I'm coming Onederland!!!! <BR> <BR> <em>244</em> <em>252</em... Wed, 16 Feb 2011 08:59:24 EST I forgot about my sparkversary!!! And what I have gained from spark http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4020412 Yesterday was my two-month sparkversary and I completely forgot. Shame on me!!! Time has flown by. It is amazing how fast two months can go by. I have been taking some time to reflect on the way my life has changed the last 2 months. I broke them up into three categories... physical, eating habits and emotional/mental . <BR> <BR> Physical (before Spark).... When I started spark I was 324 pounds. I was always tired and fatigued. I had knee pain and prone to diabetes, heart disease and high bl... Tue, 15 Feb 2011 17:46:00 EST I need a good swift quick in the butt http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4008911 So I have been losing a good amount of weight and inches this past month.. You would think I would be hitting the gym harder and pushing myself further. Nope!!! Actually it has been the opposite. I see myself slowly slipping back into destructive habits. A bite here and a bite there... Sigh.. I don't want to gain my weight back or go back to my old habits. Why do I do that? Am I deliberately self-sabotaging myself? Do I think I am only good enough to lose 20 pounds? Am I restricting my own po... Fri, 11 Feb 2011 08:49:22 EST Fitness Minutes and Heart Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4008843 Fitness Minutes <BR> 2-11-11: 60 minutes <BR> 2-13-11: 60 minutes <BR> 2-14-11: 60 minutes <BR> <BR> Heart Challenge <BR> <BR> Friday 2-11-11 <BR> H <BR> E <BR> A <BR> R <BR> T <BR> <BR> Saturday 2-12-11 <BR> H <BR> E <BR> A <BR> R <BR> T <BR> <BR> Sunday 2-13-11 <BR> H <BR> E <BR> A <BR> R <BR> T <BR> <BR> H-HYBERNATE Get 6-8 Hours of sleep per night <BR> <BR> E-EAT 4 Freggies a day <BR> <BR> A- ATTEMPT A NEW TO YOU STRENGTH MOVE. The important thing is you have to report what ... Fri, 11 Feb 2011 08:21:57 EST Slim??? Me????? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4003822 So I have been really working hard to get this weight off and today I had to literally do a double take. I was at work and just going about my normal day getting my oatmeal and getting ready to start my day. Well I walk past my co-worker Mike and I said " Good Morning, Mike" and he says " Good Morning... Slim" <em>40</em> Ummm was he talking to me?!! I literally had to do a double take. He said "yes you. Your hard work is paying off. Keep it up". <em>334</em> <BR> WOW!!! I have never been ... Wed, 9 Feb 2011 11:32:31 EST My 1 month picture update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3999477 So I started on my weight-loss journey on December 14th.. I was 324 pounds. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/7/l271673812.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Then when I started BLC15 a month ago I got down to 316 pounds. I cringe looking at this picture <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l102206022.jpg"> <BR> <BR> After a month... I am down to 306 pounds and have lost 7 inches off of my body <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/5/l852645711.jpg"> <BR>... Mon, 7 Feb 2011 22:09:25 EST Non-Scale Victories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3998020 So I am taking a tip from my spark friend PSSN4FITNSS(Jamie). She posted a blog praising her non-scale victories. She is very inspiring.. So I was sitting her thinking of my non-scale victories as well. I do have a couple so I thought I would share. <BR> <BR> I have a lot more energy. I was at the mall on Saturday with a group of teenagers and they had me running through that mall( ok I was exxagerating) but it was a very brisk walk. Not only was I able to keep up with them but in some insta... Mon, 7 Feb 2011 12:54:54 EST Fitness Minutes and FOCUS Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3989345 Fitness Minutes: <BR> 2-2-11: 90 minutes <BR> 2-4-11: 20 minutes <BR> 2-7-11: 60 minutes <BR> 2-8-11: 30 minutes <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> WEEKLY / WEEKEND CHALLENGE!!! <BR> <BR> So we are almost half way through BLC round 15. It can be relatively easy around this time in the BLC to lose our FOCUS or lose sight of our goals. So this Challenge is to help with just that! <BR> <BR> THE FOCUS CHALLENGE!!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> F- Freggies- 5 a day is 5 points (must eat ... Fri, 4 Feb 2011 08:39:14 EST The Measuring Tape doesn't Lie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3983297 So I started BLC 15 on January 5th that is exactly a month ago from today. Here is my stats before I started. <BR> <BR> Initial Weigh in – Jan 5: 316.2 pounds <BR> <BR> INITAL INCHES MEASUREMENT <BR> Bust: 53" <BR> Thigh: 32" <BR> Hips: 57.5" <BR> Waist: 55" <BR> Arms: 18" <BR> <BR> AND HERE ARE MY STATS AFTER A MONTH!!!! <BR> <BR> Week 4 – Feb 2: <BR> Weight: 307 pounds <BR> <BR> Month 1 INCHES MEASUREMENT <BR> Bust: 52.5 inches <BR> Thigh: 30.25 inches <BR> Hips: 55 inches ... Wed, 2 Feb 2011 09:36:07 EST Weekend Evaluation- Weighing the Positives Against The Negatives http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3977130 So I am really trying to change my mindset in regards to my weekends. During the week since I am at work. I track all my food, drink my water, eat my fruits and vegetables and get all of my exercise in. But it seems like I bomb my weekends. It is really hit or miss. Sometimes I do what I need to do and sometimes I don't. I want to be just as consistent on the weekends as I am during the week. So this weekend was another bomb to my self-esteem. I am really fighting against the little pessimist... Mon, 31 Jan 2011 12:16:37 EST Spreading The Spark??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3965439 So I had a light bulb moment that I had to share with my fellow sparkers. I am at work and I have been sharing my latest achievements with my co-worker. She complimented me on how healthy I looked and my skin complexion. So today she says " Did you go to the gym this morning?" I smile and said yes. She said how she really needs to get herself back in the gym and start making some changes. I told her that she needs to start with smaller goals and work her way up. I told her start off with ju... Thu, 27 Jan 2011 10:05:29 EST Mizzle's Reward System http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3965253 So my goal for this year is to lose 100 pounds. I have made a reward system for every 10 pounds that I lose. I am almost at my first reward = ) <BR> <BR> Start Weight 316.2 <BR> <BR> 306 pounds... Buy a sports Bra <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> 296 pounds... Buy some piece of new jewelry that <em>248</em> <BR> signifies getting in the 200's range <BR> <BR> 286 pounds... New workout pants <BR> <BR> 276 pounds... New fitted running ... Thu, 27 Jan 2011 09:14:17 EST Week 4 Fitness Minutes and Weekly Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3963293 Fitness Minutes: <BR> 1-27-11: 40 minutes <BR> 1-28-11: 120 minutes <BR> 1-29-11: 60 minutes <BR> 1-31-11: 60 minutes <BR> 2-1-11: 30 minutes <BR> <BR> Weekly Challenge Points: <BR> <BR> Challenge begins tonite at midnight and ends Tuesday nite at 11:59 p.m. <BR> <BR> <BR> F - FIRST - YOU COME FIRST. Do something for yourself every single day. Even if it's only for 10 minutes. <BR> <BR> E - EAT healthy - 1 point per veggie/fruit - up to 5 pts per day <BR> <BR> A - ACTIVE - 1 poin... Wed, 26 Jan 2011 15:28:55 EST Unintentional Sabotage http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3955414 So this past saturday I weighed myself and it said that I lost 4 more pounds. I was ecstatic and on a real high. Then I left to run errands and my sis and her husband started grilling. By the time I came home I was starving!!! And I stuffed my face.. I am not exaggerating I literally stuffed my face.. I ate 2 hamburgers, chicken, shrimp and rice... GAG!!! I felt so sick bc I haven't eaten like that in a long time... So the question that I am asking myself today is... Am I unintentionally sabo... Mon, 24 Jan 2011 09:31:29 EST I get choked up just thinking about it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3949892 So lately whenever I go to the gym I have been posting statuses on facebook saying what I am doing.. Well one of my friends commented on my status and says... "Where are you getting your motivation from? I need some of it"... I instantly started smiling. I told her simply to check out sparkpeople.com.. <BR> <BR> I know for a fact that my success this past month has been from using this site and because of the connections. The friendships that I am building with people just like me pushing t... Sat, 22 Jan 2011 11:35:53 EST Week 3- Team Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3946638 TRACK EVERYTHING- Every bite, lick, taste goes into your tracker either on spark or wherever you count calories. 5 points/day <BR> ENCOURAGE YOUR TEAMMATES- Stop by a teammates page, give a teammate a goodie, post on your team thread, comment on a teammates blog. Each one is worth 1 point and you can do any combination you choose! - 5 points max/day <BR> AIM FOR THE STARS- For every 10 minutes of cardio give yourself a point. 6 max/day <BR> MENTAL RECOUP- Don't dwell on "failures" They are... Fri, 21 Jan 2011 08:59:44 EST The Scale Is The Devil http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3940013 So I had my week 2 weigh-in for BLC 15 and I had only a loss of .4 pounds.. I am not even going to lie I was a little discouraged.. Especially since I weighed myself earlier this week and it said I lost 2 pounds... The scale is the devil.. It sits there taunting you.. Wanting you to torture yourself with wanting to know if you lost a fraction of a pound on the scale. So I made a vow to myself!!! Starting Today!!! That I am not going to touch that scale until my weigh-ins on Wednesday. I am no... Wed, 19 Jan 2011 09:14:03 EST Week 2 of BLC 15 almost done http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3938054 Wow!!! I can't believe we are almost done with week 2.. It is amazing!! I am still going strong with my plan. I have a goal to lose 30 pounds and I am going to do that. I am trying to lose 2-3 pounds every weigh-in.. We shall see how I did tomorrow <em>40</em> Tue, 18 Jan 2011 17:09:51 EST Everyday is a fight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3933011 Everyday I am fighting... Fighting not to lose my drive and determination. Some days I have so much energy and focus and other days I just think I will never reach my goal.. It's so hard to focus on the big picture instead of right now. It's so hard to be patient when you want to see results now. When you look in the mirror and think this is what you were meant to look like . And for a brief moment you are content with complacency... Sigh... Then that contentment leads to a binge or gorging o... Mon, 17 Jan 2011 10:58:51 EST Whooooo!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3926127 Had a fantastic day!!! Went to the gym and got 2 HOURS of exercise.. Whoooo Hooo!!!! The endorphins are kicking!!!! Ready to really step it up this week!!!!! Fri, 14 Jan 2011 22:06:10 EST BLC 15- Week 2 What I have learned http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3922940 So I got through the first week of BLC 15.. It was very challenging!! I pushed myself to the gym and I even got sick but I was able to lose 3 pounds!! I am very proud of myself!! It was a lot of work.. I know I should take this loss and feel empowered to continue but I am just thinking about how much hard work that was. And it is only the first week. I don't know if I can make the whole 12 weeks. I know that I am going to try.. This is my problem... I always start something and then quit.. I ... Thu, 13 Jan 2011 21:32:48 EST