MISTTIQUE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MISTTIQUE MISTTIQUE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Okay, I'm encouraged. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4847527 I just saw an entry and looked at a page by someone names RAY. He showed 3 simple face pictures and weight and feeling statement. He went from 330 to 255 and it was amazing. I am encouraged. Maybe I can do it. Thanks, RAY Mon, 23 Apr 2012 05:15:36 EST Ugh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4847522 It doesn't get much better. At this point, I'm just trying to keep it from getting worse. Mon, 23 Apr 2012 04:56:15 EST Long time no see http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4838704 And I'm even worse than when I started, course what have I done. Not much. <BR> Maybe I start today, I hope. It can't get much worse. Oh yes it can. Tue, 17 Apr 2012 03:55:37 EST OH no! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4281241 Now I'm heavier than ever, the hurrier I go, the behinder I get! Mon, 6 Jun 2011 16:59:46 EST Okay I've been really bad http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4281119 Up to 296......oh my goodness! Mon, 6 Jun 2011 16:07:57 EST down some more! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3986023 10 more lbs, total of 21, now I'm back where I was last year, lol. Better than gaining and still on the move down. Trying healthier habits, nutrition tracking, smaller portions. Works well as long as I don't skip. If I skip snack etc. I want more the next time. Hanging in there. Thu, 3 Feb 2011 04:17:11 EST Friday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3968909 Doing well, feeling good, weigh in Sunday. Our group last week lost a total of 43 pounds, it's a fair size group and 11 lbs of that was mine. woo hoo, shooting for at least 5 this week, I hope. Fri, 28 Jan 2011 11:57:50 EST nutrition http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3936564 keeping my nutrition log, need to drink my water Tue, 18 Jan 2011 09:50:24 EST Trying again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3935874 Looks promising. Tue, 18 Jan 2011 01:34:29 EST Long time no see http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3933816 Been gone awhile, avoiding the site because I've been avoiding the issue. Joined a challenge, just started Saturday, weigh and measure on thursdays. Can't seem to motivate myself from within so maybe from without. I like a good challenge! <BR> <BR> It's a real mind set. I can't count the number of times in a day, I forget and almost jump right into some bad habit. But life goes on. Maybe this time. Mon, 17 Jan 2011 14:25:43 EST Ugh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3813724 I been bad. Tue, 30 Nov 2010 06:29:45 EST Sept 6, no progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3610560 I have a small calendar that comes up at the side of my computer when I turn it on and daily my life flashes before my eyes. It's amazing how fast the days go by. <BR> I need to fake it till I make it or something, I'm just not moving along at all. Mon, 6 Sep 2010 02:14:33 EST Sept 1 and still depressed. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3595335 Up and down, down a few up a few. Eat don't eat, ugh! To have all the knowledge in the world and do nothing with it. Not a good thing. Wed, 1 Sep 2010 07:01:24 EST Okay, so I've been depressed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3535593 Read sparkbook this morning and i talked about the downward spiral and it makes sense. I can see where I've done that most of my life. One thing goes wrong or I do one thing that makes me not like me and I go "oh well", and make it worse. Thanks to one of the Team leaders, I got a spark email this morning and drudged myself to the link, read a few posts, got a few spark points, eased my way back to my spark page, listedned a nutrition video, mentally committed to the nutriton site... just ... Sat, 14 Aug 2010 03:39:59 EST Denial? Acceptance? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3466717 I saved a blog in my email titled "denial got me here" for days because I wanted to read it, read it this morning and thought about it? I don't think I ever really denied anything, I just accepted that is how it is and felt helpless. I'm still feeling a little helpless but I'm thinking about it. <BR> <BR> Someone saw me buying a water with vitamines and colories yesterday and with a downturned lip made a comment about wasted calories. In retrospect, I've been doing no artificial sweetners... Sun, 25 Jul 2010 07:51:37 EST Tuesday and I woke with a thought! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3426458 Strange but I woke thinking about food and it hit me, I've never seen food as nourishment, just as something that I want and tastes good and what do I want now. Then I saw food as the enemy.. I shouldn't want it but I do.. oh gosh, what to do. I'm bad if I eat, I'm good if I don't. Blah blah blah. <BR> <BR> But somehow this morning I was able to define food as nourishment. Saturday I did a quickie sugar check at a table at Sams and my blood sugar was low because I'd not eaten from 8p.m. ... Tue, 13 Jul 2010 07:27:27 EST Monday morning again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3422532 Started my walking routine, I walk today. My granddaughter is more than excited to walk with me. Of course that will be after work. I'm not real excited about doing it today. I read something motivational that helped, I haven't weighed yet but I've reaffirmed my resolve to find a way to get this done and make it a comfortable successful part of my life. <BR> I've gotten good at drinking my water every single day, small step, but a step. <BR> I read things everyday for health, motivati... Mon, 12 Jul 2010 07:41:19 EST Perspective is Everything! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3420920 We learn wherever we go! I went to a farmer's market yesterday morning and met an absolutely wonderful 30 yr old who makes glass beads. I went to her vendor table and she had a few choice pieces of jewellery out for sale, not wonderful but not bad. No signs, nothing to signify who she was or what she did. Then she said "I make the glass beads". Wow! I told her I liked to do bead work and she pulled two boxes of divine hand made beads out from under the table where she had hidden them? I... Sun, 11 Jul 2010 17:33:17 EST Hard time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3414881 I'm at lunch eating veges with Mrs Dash, not that I mind, it's more than I usually eat. I usually don't eat or run to the local dump and get a million calories to make up for the days I didn't eat. I worried I'm getting depressed again but I don't want medication and I just feel so physically bad, it's difficult to walk. But I'm going to try and walk this weekend and maybe tonight, I need the mental clarity. Fri, 9 Jul 2010 13:38:04 EST Wasted time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3410008 I'm feeling really bad because I've wasted so much time. Even here, If I'd really gotten on it the last 6 months, imagine what I could have lost! On the other hand, I've read a lot, made a lot of better choices, almost have my foot into some exercises but so what? Story of my life, great plans and no action. Oh well, today is a new day.. "believe each day is a new beginning" Thu, 8 Jul 2010 06:04:23 EST Probably not a good time to blog! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3397209 I haven't blogged in a few days, haven't done well on a food plan, haven't exercised, don't feel really well. So likely not a good time to blog but I guess I need to start somewhere. Today is the fourth and a big party. I'll try and be fairly good today and I'm off tomorrow so I'll go buy me some walking shoes and do better. I really need to get on the stick and quit wasting my time. I'm feeling heavier than ever, maybe it's the heat but I'm walking slow, getting tired fast, achy all ove... Sun, 4 Jul 2010 07:16:50 EST Find the old person, recognize myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3369065 Sitting on the sidelines? Who is she? <BR> vibrant, fun, exciting.. wouldn't we all like to think so. <BR> Reality, she's worried and tired and not who she wants to be <BR> I'd like to think it's different... it probably isn't though. <BR> <BR> She's smart and reality based but is it enough? <BR> Not in this life when you only hear about how you look. <BR> All you hear is make-up and s... Fri, 25 Jun 2010 05:57:35 EST I'm scared??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3365818 I am scared, not only of my weight, weight loss etc. but of everything in general regarding weight. I just read someone's blog who weighed 110 lbs said they'd lost a lot of weight (10 lbs) and they were so scared they would put it back on? so scared it was almost all they thought about.... What are we doing as a society? I watch my grandchildren and it scares me. Why is food such an obsession, period. It's a part of life that we need to monitor and use in moderation just like everything el... Thu, 24 Jun 2010 07:55:34 EST Okay 2 a.m. Total Gym Infomercial on television! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3358379 aaaaaaaaaaaacccccccccccccccccccccccckkkkkk<BR>kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!<BR>!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Run for the clicker.........I can't take total gym right now. Tue, 22 Jun 2010 03:02:10 EST OK, so where the *!x*(*)*(! is it ??????? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3358361 It's 1:30 a.m. and I can't get back to sleep, I'm stressed and I heard there is a panic button for help but where the x.(**()*_) is it???? I had a cup of milk and I'm going to try to go back to sleep. I used to do this all the time, wake up in the middle of the night, haven't done it in a while but it's back! My diet isn't doing well and I'm feeling very anxious about a lot of things. <BR> No real reasons though, just being me. My eyes are too tired to read, only infomercials on t... Tue, 22 Jun 2010 02:41:53 EST Monday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3354623 Good thing I like my job. I can't imagine how awful it would be to go to a job I hate because just ending the week-end is traumatic for me. But I'm grateful in these economic times to have a job and to be able to work but the week-ends sure are nice! Mon, 21 Jun 2010 07:00:30 EST Impulse Control! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3351804 Read a philosophical blog on impulse control....uhhh, sounds great but I've already forgotten it. Impulse control, the observer, the doer.. can I devide myself? Back in college I could but these days I just don't think that deeply. I ate badly yesterday but guess what? I quit all diet drinks for about 4 months now, no artificial sweetners and I have to say I think it helps. I drink my water and I'm cognizant of what I put in my mouth... even when I do it. I've only dropped about 20 lbs but I ... Sun, 20 Jun 2010 02:44:24 EST There is something about the SPARKPOINTS! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3349507 I get something in the email in the morning, click a button and I'm there... sparkpeople. Do I want to be there? ehhhh, I want to do what's right but not sure. Then I click my sparkpoints, something about spinning that wheel.. gimme gimme gimme more spark points! Then I'm off, just 2 today, sheez......Lets earn the big ones... 3 points if I read an article.. okay... 5 points for water.....hey I can do that (put that in my mental track of what to do today). Read a blog "oh how sweet"... le... Sat, 19 Jun 2010 07:44:43 EST Put that in practice! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3339496 Set specific goals..........geez, advice and books sound so great but put that in practice. sheez! Would that life be so simple! <BR> <BR> Makes me wanna go put that where the sun don't shine! Wed, 16 Jun 2010 08:34:36 EST That's what I like about Sparkpeople.. makes me think! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3332033 I've got a little wooden sign in front of my computer screen that says Believe, each day is a new beginning. Yep, it's a Monday! <BR> <BR> I normally drop my grdkids off at school and school's out now so it's straight to work today! <BR> <BR> I always pride myself on being flexible, open minded, open to change but reality is, even small changes (temporary or permanent) tend to cause me conflict anymore. Decisions, decisions, decisions! <BR> <BR> Monday, a start of a new week. Back to w... Mon, 14 Jun 2010 08:26:45 EST Glorious Sunday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3328899 The one full day before I go back to work day! I have the whole day to be me, to enjoy everything around me, to plant a few plants, to make a necklace, to walk by the water! I am going to go look at fitting some walking shoes sometime today maybe too. And I'm going to enjoy my family. Sun, 13 Jun 2010 07:39:43 EST Time goes by and it ain't "slowly" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3326433 Begoniac, thank you for your entry. It does help to know that someone else is having similar feelings. In reality we are all alike. We come in different packages but truthfully human behaviors etc. are pretty much predictable. I made you my friend on Sparkpeople... I hope that is okay with you. I haven't participated much here because truthfully, it's most time consuming. <BR> <BR> But I look at when I started, about 6 months ago and wonder how my life has changed or not changed. I'm re... Sat, 12 Jun 2010 08:58:21 EST Uggh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3319769 Stressful right now and it's not even my stress. I just take it on. I don't know, maybe it is my stress. I need to make some decisions. Thu, 10 Jun 2010 05:38:15 EST Another day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3316156 Wednesday, another day. Off to work, grandkids are almost out of school, busy busy busy. No meds, overeating last couple of days. Back on track today, one day at a time. Wed, 9 Jun 2010 06:04:28 EST slowly but surely http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3288949 I've been bad here but in reality not so bad. I was very sick for a couple weeks and I felt so bad till I didn't want to feel bad anymore. When I got better I realize what I put in my system really effects how I feel more than I realized. I had an antibiotic that didn't agree with me make me feel nauseaus and headachy... danged.. everything effects me and I want to feel better. <BR> <BR> I'd done without diet coke at least a week when I got over being sick so I cut out the diet coke and de... Tue, 1 Jun 2010 13:43:17 EST Day: Who knows....Time flies! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2748072 I started to say bad week, but it's a bad 10 days? Whew, time flies and I just go day to day. Get up go to work, come home, go to bed tired. If I could just cut out the 2 sandwiches and half gallon of rocky road between the work and bed part, I'd be okay. A couple of changes though, I have been congnizant of all calories and intake, drank my water all day, and I haven't given up in my mind. So all is not lost and life goes on no matter what. Fri, 15 Jan 2010 06:23:15 EST Day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2696298 Slow day yesterday, nutrition better, exercise nill (it's cold), attitude possitive.Working on it. Tue, 5 Jan 2010 06:32:41 EST today, todayyyyyyyy, tooodayyyyyyyy singing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2690091 Today is the big day, or is it? Just like any other day, up and off to work but with an attitude change toward rewards in my life, self satisfaction, and what makes me who I am. Food serves a nutritional purpose for the rest of my life. Food can not make me feel better, solve my problems, or be my friend. Food is not a reward for when I'm happy, a pal when I am lonely, or a bandage when I am wounded. It's just food. Mon, 4 Jan 2010 07:28:39 EST tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow singing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2683920 The REAL tomorrow Sun, 3 Jan 2010 06:15:01 EST