MISSJACQUE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MISSJACQUE MISSJACQUE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Having A Social Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5259646 Yesterday my best friend got married. It was a wonderful family/close friends ceremony at their home with more like a dinner party atmosphere afterwards. It was fantastic. It was also the first time I've been out in a social aspect since I made the decision to change my lifestyle. We don't go out much to start with but I knew it was going to be hard as my friend and her new spouse eat pretty good but there are alot of processed/refined foods in their cooking. But no way was that going ... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 08:01:03 EST Back On Track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5251384 It took a week. It took a week of working through the cravings the crap I ate brought to the surface. It was a war raging and though I lost one or two of those battles, ultimately the war was won. I got back to eating basics - where I was in January, where I had so much energy and felt great and working my butt off (Turbo Jam and Kettlebells) to get the crap out of my system from the 7th when we celebrated my son's birthday. It took a week to get the weight back down and finally moving ag... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 09:45:18 EST An Apology To My Body http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5242522 Dear Body, <BR> We had a good run for the last 3+ weeks, eating clean and healthy, getting a good night sleep and waking and maintaining a happy/positive mood every day. <BR> I am so sorry for how I treated you yesterday. For not fueling you before we started out for the day, for putting garbage in all day. I understand why last night you decided to punish me. You were bloated, unable to sleep due to the gas, bloat, the depression I feel this morning and general upset system. For draggi... Fri, 8 Feb 2013 08:32:59 EST Quote For Today: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5241160 "When you cannot make up your mind between two evenly balanced courses of action, choose the bolder." <BR> – William Joseph Slim <BR> <BR> <em>386</em> Thu, 7 Feb 2013 07:04:50 EST A Little Inspiration This Morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5234108 Some people make a motivational poster, I have these posted in various places around the house as multiple daily reminders (every time I open the fridge I see them and am drawn to read them) <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1519746717.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l17637731.jpg"> <BR> <BR> These are taped to my treadmill: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1414233761.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="h... Sat, 2 Feb 2013 07:15:32 EST January Review http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5232806 January was a month of true change. My tendon tear and the need for the cortisone shot, made me take a hard look at my life and if this was the path I wanted to go down for the rest of my life. The short answer: No. And though I love my job if I don't do something about my arm and the rest of my body, I'm not going to be able to do this till I retire. I need to be in shape. So I pulled out those hard questions and made myself answer them. <BR> <BR> Why am I overweight?: I've used food ... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 08:22:15 EST Two Weeks Into the Journey http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5224112 Even with everything that went on this week I still lost weight AND I stayed away from the junk. Since being back on Spark (Jan. 11) I'm down 7 lbs! <em>244</em> <BR> I haven't had chips or other junk foods in just over 2 weeks, no pop in 2 weeks (the last one I had I didn't even like the taste of) AND I don't feel deprived nor do I crave the junk. It honestly rarely crosses my mind. Only once as I hadn't eaten most of the day and I was hungry but I pushed through it and had a quick h... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 09:27:09 EST Stress & Listening To Your Body http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5221129 The last few days have been very stressful and came to a head yesterday. And today will probably be full of the same. But I am proud of how I have dealt with it over all. I didn't head for the pop, chips or junk - didn't even cross my mind nor crave for it, instead I came to Spark and read some motivation blogs, an article or two, till I calmed down. Then with a clearer head I then started to look at/process and tackle some of that stress. I did grab food & drink - baby carrots and refil... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 06:37:34 EST How My Day Went - 01/22 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5218870 First let me just say it's cold out there (finally)! We started the day at -17C (1F) and a foot of new snow on the ground. Until Saturday we had no snow, our first snow fall had melted away. Temp high for today was -13 (8F) and they are calling for more snow tonight. <BR> I was suppose to go to the studio today. The battery for my car takes a charge and comes up fine while warm but it isn't lasting in the cold so to be safe and not stranded at the studio or worse on the road somewhere I ... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 16:08:29 EST Time On My Hands http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5217516 The day started great other than being the really cold out. I got ready to go out, went out to start the car, it didn't really want to start but it did, so I came back into the house while it warmed up. I went back out a half hour later to every light on the dash lit up and the radio and back window defogger not working. Shut it off to reset the computer (should mention my car is a Civic Hybrid), it wouldn't start. Okay after the last couple of days where it's been cold and high winds, th... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 19:20:26 EST I Can't Afford It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5215724 A visit to a family member today started a discussion that ended with us agreeing to disagree. And you can probably guess by the title of this post what our discussion was on. Now this is a couple that we have listened to complain about their weight, food costs, med costs (she's on fertility pills, he's on diabetic meds) for a long time. This was my first week of true healthy shopping, and this was what I learned this week. <BR> <BR> Like most people I set a budget every week for grocerie... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 15:05:37 EST Making Concessions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5214480 As I've struggled on this journey to a healthy me, I've never expected my family to join me but for the most part they do. I have always said I need their support but I never told them how I needed that support. And then in some ways I would blame them for my failure. But it wasn't them, it's me. I need to learn to use my voice and ask for exactly what I need and they need to tell me what they need in return. Now we have agreements in place and they are posted on the fridge. And they a... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 15:45:00 EST Celebrating The Small Things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5213178 Usually I buy the melons and such that need to be cut up before eating and think I'll do it when I want it - never happens, they go bad cause later never come. Also when I go to the bulk store I tend to buy lots of good things, then toss the bags in the cupboard where they then get torn and leave the contents on the shelves = food tossed in the garbage again. Bottom line money and good food wasted. <BR> <BR> So this week I made 2 of my weekly goals - 1. Eat 2 salads a day. I struggle with... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 14:34:13 EST Finally Back To Doing Some Exercise! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5208695 It felt so great to get on the treadmill today. I've been given the go ahead to do walking intervals and even run a little unless my elbow bothers me then I have to stop. I have been waiting to hear those words since August. My arm muscles are sore but my elbow is feeling fine. Now to work towards being able to get back into my strength training. I've been warned that will have to be taken slow as it can take a long time for the tendon to re-attach if it does. <BR> But in 4 days I've dro... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 16:22:59 EST Restart Numbers: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5205136 So I start 2013 at 239 lbs - up 9 lbs from last year this time. I hadn't even stood on a scale since last January. So I'm actually impressed, I thought the number would be higher. But I think I gained the weight since I got hurt at work since I was put on a restricted use so most exercise even walking was not allowed. <BR> <BR> I had already started to change my eating habits last year. I felt better when I did - limiting my processed food intake, limit the pop/coffee. <BR> <BR> My cl... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 14:23:24 EST Restarting With A Fresh Mind & Spirit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5205066 It is true in order to move forward in this weight loss journey you have to did deep into your mind and soul and figure out and forgive yourself/others for the multiple reasons that got you to the place where you allowed yourself to put on the weight and loose yourself. And that's what it is, we lose ourselves; the weight takes a toll on us and we become someone we are not and most of the time someone we don't like. <BR> <BR> I thought I was okay and liked the person I had become. But t... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 13:32:24 EST 01/08 - Improvements http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4666055 I'm seeing improvement. <BR> <BR> My energy is up - I've been getting in at minimum 20 minutes of hard/high intensity exercise a day. Starting tomorrow I can get back to using the treadmill - kids are back to school. I swear they wait til I'm on the treadmill in the middle of my workout and they have to start bugging - even after being told I'm going down to run, leave me alone. But now break is over and they will be back and I can get on with it. <BR> <BR> My asthma - is much better.... Sun, 8 Jan 2012 12:01:25 EST 2011 In Review http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4647311 Well, here I sit 2 1/2 hours from midnight. Looking over the ups and downs of 2011. Weight wise, didn't do well at all. Just over 10 lbs for the year. I gave up and fell down many many times over the year. At the same time I've discovered alot about myself and the people I keep company with (this includes close family members) - and I've been weeding them out. I discovered this year I love to run, I enjoy my own company, I don't hate strength training (lol), I love my job, I love being ... Sat, 31 Dec 2011 21:59:25 EST Switching it Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4631477 I haven't been using my food tracker but I've been staying good with what and how much I eat. But I did give many an excuse (which is no excuse) to myself not exercise. Over the last week or two I've spent way to much time on the computer - doing nothing productive, watching tv - doing nothing productive. And the scale shows it. Even though I'm eat good, without exercise I just maintain. Not good enough! I have a long way to go before June. <BR> <BR> So, I really need to make what ev... Mon, 19 Dec 2011 12:54:37 EST November is Done, December Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4605739 Snow is on the ground this morning. Glad to see the end of November. It's been a trying month on many levels. I have pictures in my soap room of spring flowers, boats on the water, the kids swimming in the bay, a print out of a large show I'm doing in June to try and keep me uplifted and looking forward over the next few months. The show one is really the push to exercise and I'm adding it to the wall beside the treadmill too as well as the fridge. My bigger goal is to be at a fit 170 fo... Wed, 30 Nov 2011 10:11:46 EST Feeling The Difference http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4591177 I've been up and down with staying on this path to a healthy me. It's been hard to give up alot of the bad foods and snacks. I can say now: I was a cola addict. And with the cola came the chips and cravings. With the pop gone from our house, my cravings are really low - once in the past month. The money I was spending on the junk I'm now spending on some of my favourite juices and healthy snacks. The kids don't seem to be minding either. They still get some junk for their lunches but ... Sat, 19 Nov 2011 10:44:36 EST A Run In With Food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4578982 The last couple of days have been stressful, frustrating, you name it that's been it. I've been dealing with it by using the treadmill till I'm to exhausted to reach for anything in the fridge/cupboard, but yesterday one phone call sent everything over the edge. I've never felt like that/this ever - lost, on the edge, dis-pare, I'm not sure how to describe it. <BR> Last night, I ate my way up to over 2100 calories. Looking at in in "writing" I'm disgusted with myself for dealing with ... Fri, 11 Nov 2011 05:42:11 EST Moving Forward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4539216 The last couple of months have been extremely hard. Hard to get through and adjust to going back to work. That "new" job I starting in August was so stressful and I was beyond exhausted when I would get home. I mean body too drained to even eat. But I have found a new position in another long-term care facility here in town and I love it! This is such a relaxed, easy going, so much less stress place. I get home and I still have energy to go for a short walk or play with the dogs, and e... Mon, 17 Oct 2011 07:46:14 EST Trying To Look Forward & Positive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4422318 We still have no answers on what's wrong with my husband. Somewhere along the line his testing got messed up. He had an ultrasound done - everything was good except he has a fatty liver. I question that as 2 yrs ago he had a full physical including an ultrasound and he was fine then. For what ever reason he was not sent for a CT scan which would show everything that is going on. Instead he's got another test scheduled for the end of September and really that's only a consultation, who kn... Fri, 12 Aug 2011 07:46:07 EST Monkey Wrench http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4385838 Just when things are starting to work, I get the stresses of my life almost figured out, a hugh monkey wrench has to be thrown into the mix. <BR> <BR> Three weeks ago my husband complained of pain on his left side. He blew it off as overeating on crap and that it would go away. Sunday morning I took him to the hospital as the pain was worse and well, it's been three weeks ongoing he just never said anything. The ER doctor poked and prodded, ran some blood and urine tests. They came back ... Mon, 25 Jul 2011 19:51:26 EST What's To Come http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4355887 It truly feels like things are finally starting to come together. <BR> <BR> Last week with all the hiking and such we did I logged 2768 calories burned. Not bad considering Tuesday and Wednesday I was pretty sore from Monday's hike. After Thursday's hike with the kids I haven't been sore at all. Today I started adding back my morning kettlebell workout. I haven't been eating a lot of crap and I've been trying to stay away from red meat. We eat way to much red meat, so I'm trying to ge... Mon, 11 Jul 2011 16:03:35 EST Getting Back To Nature http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4344101 I made a promise to myself last week that I will get out as much as I can on the nice days this summer with or without the kids. So we started on Monday. DD was at Canada's Wonderland with friends so DS and I went for the first outing together. We went to a park that hubby and I use to go to with our oldest when he was little and we were active. We use to mountain bike these trails. I was walking these trails questioning how the heck did I do it - there's a lot of steep up hill climbing... Wed, 6 Jul 2011 07:02:45 EST Time For Shoes... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4335925 Today we went shoe shopping. One of sports stores is closing and had a 40% off ticketed price sale happening. All the shoes are already marked down and then another 40% off - couldn't pass up seeing what they had. I needed new runners, my Asics 1140 have had it for working out in. <BR> I came home with 2 pairs - a pair of Asics 1150 ($60. reg. $120) and a pair of Columbia trail shoes ($40. regular $90). Seeing as I'm going to be spending alot of time outside hiking I opted to get a shoe w... Fri, 1 Jul 2011 18:54:43 EST Today Is The Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4329820 Today is the last day of school. Last night I was at my sister's. We were discussing where and what to do with the kids this year. We are considering getting DD a seasons pass to an amusement park. She has a friend that will be going almost weekly. DS is 14 and doesn't want to do much but hang with friends and go to the beach. I'm okay with that as long as he does spend some quality time with us. <BR> I was thinking more along the lines of no real cost except gas/food and more exercis... Wed, 29 Jun 2011 05:27:38 EST Quick Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4317068 Reason behind my update blurb today... <BR> <BR> Last year my oldest entered an idol contest for the town he lives in, he came in second. This year he entered again.....HE WON!! He called us late last night and then apologized for waking us up but he was so excited. We were excited for him but also excited (yes I cried) that he called us right after the competition to let us know. For those that know the heart ache and tough love we've gone through this year with him it was very emotiona... Thu, 23 Jun 2011 06:52:48 EST May In Review and Catch Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4295099 I had hoped things would slow down but it has yet to happen. This past week has been the worst. School trip, markets, soccer, hubby gone for 3 days on another school trip, meetings and finished off with a breakfast with friends and my volunteer time with Relay For Life. I haven't been doing a To Do List, tracking or anything and it's been showing. I'm not gaining but I'm not really loosing either. I haven't been purposely exercising - it has been part of something I've been doing like sp... Mon, 13 Jun 2011 08:40:42 EST May Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4205290 May Goals: <BR> <BR> 1. If I can't track it, don't eat it. <BR> <BR> 2. Use the recipe calculator more. <BR> <BR> 3. Walk everyday even if it's just around the block (2.2km). Rainy days, either suck it up and get wet or get on the treadmill. <BR> <BR> 4. Workout with Jillian's kettle bell DVD 3 times a week. <BR> <BR> 5. Sign up for a Tai Chi class. <BR> <BR> 6. Sign up for a beginner yoga class. <BR> <BR> 7. Keep striving to increase my water intake. <BR> <BR> 8. Add one ve... Mon, 2 May 2011 16:37:53 EST The Weekend In Review & Goal Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4203966 Wow another month gone. April took with it....3 lbs. Not great but considering things I was/was not doing it's to be expected. <BR> <BR> Friday evening DD and I went for a 4.86km walk. It was a push to finish and DD was struggling more than me but she kept trying and didn't complain. Once we got home and she recouped she said she wants to do it again. <BR> One of our neighbours/sort of friend (my kids have always done summer work for her) has some work she needs done and I offered. ... Mon, 2 May 2011 07:22:31 EST Weekend Over, Getting Back On Track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4188627 After an over indulging weekend it's time to get back on track and get moving. I've been good at staying away from the chocolate. Hubby said he's upset cause he couldn't think of anything to get me. I said it's okay, I'll stop at the gardening store and get a plant or two before I come home from my sister's today. <BR> <BR> My Goal Progress from last week: <BR> <BR> 1. Exercise for at least 30 minutes, even if it's just a walk around the block. <BR> *** Slacked at the end of the wee... Mon, 25 Apr 2011 07:51:02 EST It's Been A Busy Time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4173581 Things have been busy since soccer started. If I'm not at school for practices, my son and I are out in the yard practicing. <BR> <BR> The nettle infusions are going down well. I found adding ginger slivers to it helps cut the earthy/grassy taste making it easier to drink. I tried red clover infusion. That was hard to get down. I'm going to try blending the two together and see what that tastes like. <BR> <BR> I bought new shoes on Friday. I picked up another pair of my favourite ru... Mon, 18 Apr 2011 08:50:44 EST Trying New Things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4162743 Okay so this morning isn't going as planned but it's going better! Plan was to start the day at 8 am (everyone is gone by then) with tidying up the kitchen and getting dressed. Then at 9am go for a walk. <BR> Well started the day at 8am, kitchen done, dressed before 8:40. So instead of going on facebook and playing games, I switched on the WII, played tennis for 10 minutes, did the fitness test on it and then decided I needed punishment not a walk and dropped in Jillian's kettle bell wor... Wed, 13 Apr 2011 10:31:17 EST Great Weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4157340 Had a great weekend! Saturday, lots of outside work, played basketball and some soccer with my son. <BR> Sunday we went to the father in-laws, got in a 20 minute walk with the kids. I really need to keep my camera on me. I miss so many photo ops with those two. <BR> <BR> Plans for the week: to get out as much as the weather allows. It's suppose to rain most of the week. <BR> Today I have to go to the school for soccer tryouts. Not sure why hold them when we only had 13 kids sign up... Mon, 11 Apr 2011 08:44:37 EST In A Slump http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4151026 Since coming back to SP I have done great with my eating, not always with tracking what I eat but still I know the choices I've made have been good ones. But I can't seem to get moving. Yes, I've done a little here and there, or had a day or two that were okay but overall no. And I can't figure out why. The weather has been nice, I've had fun outside with the dogs playing ball. I can't get my motivation to go for even a walk. It's not that I'm online, or working, or even sitting in fron... Fri, 8 Apr 2011 06:51:39 EST Finally Movement! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4144196 Finally I got to see the scale move this week! And it moved down, not up. Just a pound but I've been struggling so much with everything. <BR> The test results are back. I'm pre-diabetic according to the doctor. He wanted me on pills right away. I refused. I have a pop addiction. And I know it will take time for the damage from that alone to be corrected. I WILL loose the weight and keep plugging way with changing my eating habits. It's getting easier the longer I stay off the pop. ... Tue, 5 Apr 2011 12:50:54 EST It's Been A Full Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4119043 It has been a long week. I've done pretty good though I haven't had time to track, I have to work on making that a priority, even if it's right before bed. <BR> I didn't get much exercise in, about 304 calories burned a day, I ate well though DD insisted on making cupcakes for everyone. She is such a good baker when it comes from a box, I need to set time aside to teach her to use recipes - I know I have some low calorie ones in the binder. <BR> Spent the week dealing with some parent co... Sat, 26 Mar 2011 05:56:40 EST Back To Walking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4105556 The weather has been okay here, still cold but when the sun is out things are melting. <BR> It's been great working downstairs with my daughter and her showing the excitement for learning. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/0/l406408310.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I didn't realize how many calories I burn during the day when I'm in the soap room. I was listening to Jillian Micheal's podcasts (she's back and down-loadable from iTunes!) while making more bath bombs ( lavender a... Sun, 20 Mar 2011 19:27:52 EST Surviving March Break http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4101316 The kids are at each other, but no one wants to go outside...ugh. It doesn't help that our days are shortened by having to be pick up the nephew after day camp and watch him. Both kids find him a pain and want nothing to do with him so it just adds to the tension. Thankfully back to school on Monday. <BR> I got the blood test results back, I go back on Monday for another round. Dr. doesn't believe the new results as there is to much improvement from 5 months ago. So, I'll do it again ... Fri, 18 Mar 2011 15:21:48 EST Ready To Finish http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4084319 7 months ago shortly after my lost blog, life went completely downhill. Long story short, I ended up in a deep depression (I have issues in winter to start with as I am barely ever outside), our oldest disowned us, which turned out to be just me cause I took over "his" room as my soap workroom, and to this day we still haven't spoken. I had some bloodwork done, numbers according to the doctor were just a smidgen high, but he wasn't concerned supposedly. And found out my husband was puttin... Fri, 11 Mar 2011 13:51:05 EST Went Better Than Expected http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3563398 Had a great walk today while at the father in-law's. Burned those 568 calories during a 53:27 walk. I walked around town, up and down hills and though my legs were screaming, I pushed on. The results are/will be definitely worth it. I walked past my grandparents' old house, hasn't changed at all. Actually not much had changed in the town - including the police..lol. I met up with the two on duty officers at the police station when I was walking by and was talking to them (walking/joggin... Sun, 22 Aug 2010 19:12:40 EST Ups & Downs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3560875 Stress levels were off the chart this week. I swear the oldest does and says stuff just to tick us (mainly me) off and get us worked up. Thankfully he's only here a few days more then off to settle in at university. <BR> <BR> I haven't been tracking/logging my food or exercise very regularly. I've been keep a better track at JM's site only because I'm eating mostly their meal plan. Today I burn 953 calories. Yesterday was high to. Reason being, I got off the treadmill and out into the ... Sat, 21 Aug 2010 20:45:59 EST Reflections http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3524765 The last 7 days have been amazing for me. So much learned, let go of and learning to deal with having no vehicle. Though it only registers as a 2lb loss here at SP, I actually lost 4 lbs as I had gained since I last posted my weight here. <BR> <BR> The learning part: I've added another avenue of support/motivation by joining Jillian Michaels website. I love it here at SP but found I needed more. So far food wise, I've been pretty much able to follow her plans and the family have been li... Wed, 11 Aug 2010 09:26:19 EST Time Flies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3508909 Can't believe I haven't been to SparkPeople since June. Falling off the wagon would be an understatement. It was more like I jumped off the wagon and ran the other way. Things that had been building got way out of control and I couldn't take anymore. Things are still bad in some areas, but we're working through what we can. <BR> <BR> One of the big stress issues was my mother in-law. Sadly but thankfully she passed away on July 31. She was in such pain in the last 2 weeks it was un... Fri, 6 Aug 2010 09:34:05 EST Quick Update on the Relay http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3325497 Thank you all for your encouragement and support. It really helped me get through the day. And all that anxiety and worrying was really for nothing. It went great! Right from the start I felt welcomed and part of the team. I also met up with some other parents and teachers from our school and was invited to join their teams next year. The hardest part was when asked if I had lost someone to cancer or was I a survivor and telling them about my MIL who is loosing the fight. <BR> <BR> ... Fri, 11 Jun 2010 21:04:43 EST I Need To Change My Mindset http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3323328 I hate my mindset. Over the years I have started to worry about what others think about me and that adds to the worry about embarrassing myself. I know when it started, it's slid in there over the years and took away from my confidence and self-esteem, and I've been trying to change it but it's so hard to get rid of that little voice. The one that tells you what others are probably saying about you, the one that puts doubt into everything your doing. I've spent so many years purposely a... Fri, 11 Jun 2010 07:52:50 EST Update... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3308800 Since the first farmers' market opened May 23 I've been super busy. I never thought I would sell as much as I have. Almost every week I have 1-2 soaps I sell out of. I hope my new soap mold gets here soon - it makes 30 bars at at time instead of the 9 I currently make with my main mold. <BR> Most days I can't tell you where the time goes. Over these last weeks I haven't gotten out for a walk. Didn't help we had a heat wave and I was pretty much stuck in the house. Even with my asthma ... Mon, 7 Jun 2010 09:42:05 EST