MISSCATY's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MISSCATY MISSCATY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Good appointment yesterday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5753438 Good appointment...new goals.....now that I am in remission, it is time to work on this. <BR> <BR> Last night I walked around my apartment until I did the last steps to hit my goal for the day. <BR> <BR> I am tired of feeling this way....of not feeling my best. This may be the best motivator ever. Tue, 5 Aug 2014 07:59:01 EST How do you... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5699006 overcome a lifetime of training of putting other first....to take care of yourself...without feeling like a selfish person? Why does it feel so wrong? That is what I am thinking about these days. Tue, 20 May 2014 08:10:07 EST Yesterday was great here! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5687841 The weather was FINALLY nice here yesterday. Instead of doing the yoga DVD I had laid out, I pumped up my bike tires and rode to and from the library ... about two miles... to return books. <BR> <BR> Getting the bike up and down the basement stairs is part of the workout. <BR> <BR> All went well and I can hardly wait to go again! Mon, 5 May 2014 09:21:02 EST Lost Weight.....in Baby Steps http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5683321 Yesterday was my appointment with the "fat doctor." In six weeks, I lost 2 pounds. This is a small victory, but in a way a very large one. These two pounds came off through lifestyle change....small but persistent change. <BR> <BR> The Spark Activity Tracker keeps me aware of just how much I am moving (or not). This has been eye opening and helpful. The mental processes I am using around food are shifting a bit. <BR> <BR> I am pleased even though I know the road is long.....it is ... Tue, 29 Apr 2014 16:24:48 EST Letting go of stuff...physical and mental http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5679220 Do you have a time letting go of stuff? I am doing a bit of sorting at home. Last night, I gave away a lamp that I love as there is no place for it anymore. There are stacks of books. I won't talk about the yarn, the knitting bags, or some of the little things. It is not only the physical things....I play over conversations in my head that are YEARS old. Why is so much energy attached to events or things that do not help me move forward? I am not sure but am working it out. <BR> <B... Thu, 24 Apr 2014 07:44:38 EST Just thinking..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5678488 To lose weight.....one must lose a lot of other things....mental clutter (bad attitudes, grudges, mental patterns that are traps)...physical clutter......bad relationships. Whatever is not one's best self must be set aside, given away, recycled....and then the mental and spiritual weight loss will help with the physical weight loss. Time to clean! Wed, 23 Apr 2014 08:30:15 EST In the chair at the hairdresser's..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5676834 Saturday, I sat in the chair at the hairdresser's. In the mirror, I saw my father's face staring back at me. The sadness behind the eyes.....the sadness that never quite left. I am nearly at the age that my father was when he died. Sometimes I wonder if he just gave up. As I sat in that chair, waiting for color to process, I thought about the choices I made to get to this point....and the choices I can make to move away from it. It is in my hands. Mon, 21 Apr 2014 07:43:46 EST A Big Thrill http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668761 Last night, all the green lights on my tracker lit up. It was really exciting as I did not think I had really moved that much! Thu, 10 Apr 2014 07:32:14 EST OH AND... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667976 My post exercise BP was 130/80 on Monday...better than I thought it would be. <em>30</em> Wed, 9 Apr 2014 07:54:40 EST This Winter Nearly Did Me In..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667975 This winter was very difficult for me and for many others. I went off track and stayed there. Now, proudly wearing my Spark Activity Tracker, I am working on getting back on the track. I did go to the gym on Monday. I walked more yesterday. Still working on the food....... <BR> <BR> Getting moving is harder for me. I want to push on that first and do the best I can with food. I can do better about both. <BR> <BR> I have been reading books about other people's weight loss. C... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 07:53:37 EST The Dreaded Action Step http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5595578 Can't put it off any longer....I have to take the leap. Talked with my health coach yesterday and have small goals...smaller than baby steps. This I can do. Thu, 16 Jan 2014 07:58:26 EST Biometric Assessment Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5586638 I have work to do. That is not a surprise. It is not as bad as I thought it would be. Last fall I went through a very dark time. I am pretty much through it and resolving not to be back there. <BR> <BR> One of the hard parts of it is that I hit an all time high weight. A scary weight. When I weighed today, I was about ten pounds down. That was uplifting...especially as I have not been working as hard as I could have. <BR> <BR> Cholestrol 194; HDL 51, LDL 113, Triglycerides 14... Wed, 8 Jan 2014 09:28:56 EST Despite my best efforts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5396026 Yesterday, I got dropped off at the gym. I put in my half an hour. I did not want to....I really did not want to........ I walked out past the coffee shop and looked at the sweets. I wanted them bad. I walked past it. I walked past Davanni's and thought about their brownies....then into my mind crept the thought that "Those are really not good." I sat on the bus bench and thought about what would happen if I transferred at the grocery store. I chose the other transfer point a... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 08:00:11 EST Biking... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5391998 Yesterday was finally beautiful here....I took a couple rides on my bike. Part of the workout is getting the bike up and down the basement stairs. <BR> <BR> Today, I will do things at home. I need to get back on the food plan....and get things set up at home for my success. Mon, 17 Jun 2013 12:29:01 EST Progess...a little http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5385723 Yesterday, I walked out of the house without my cane. I was so focused on putting some things in recycling on the way to the bus, I didn't even realize I didn't have it. My thought...let's see how the day goes. It was okay until later in the day. I had to opt out of the gym BUT I did part of a workout DVD at home. <BR> <BR> For me, this is significant as I didn't just blow exercise off. I did what I could until I had to stop. I hurt today...but I would have hurt a lot more if I ha... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 11:07:28 EST OUCH! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5363124 Yesterday, I got up from my desk chair and heard something POP in my knee. This is not good. My cane is my little buddy again today. The change for me as a result of this.......my body is telling me in no uncertain terms to take intention to action. This morning I started food journaling again...I am going to hit the water....AND I am going to figure out what to do when the pain from walking is so bad that it isn't even stopped with the painkillers. <BR> <BR> My goal...move as much ... Tue, 21 May 2013 07:52:45 EST April was (THANKS SHAKESPEARE) a cruel month http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5358259 April was a challenge for health reasons.......the ENT was up my nose with a rubber hose. Things just feel apart. Good news....biospy came back benign. <BR> <BR> Caught a cold in the hospital and that was (HA) killer and am not quite over it yet. <BR> <BR> BUT!!!! I have been out on my bike twice. I have a friend who is super supportive.....got my bike up and running FOR me and did a repair. He told me that anytime anything went wrong with the bike he would fix it so that I ... Thu, 16 May 2013 08:00:20 EST Where I'm At http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5302909 I have decided to find more joy, move, more and concentrate on what matters. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I had a chance to get extremely snarky and irritated. Something in me shifted.....a light bulb appeared, glowing, above my head. THIS DOES NOT MATTER. Knowing that I can't change other people and can only push through the best I can each day.....that matters. <BR> <BR> This helped me hit the grocery store in a "easier" state of mind. I told myself I could have any treat I wanted. I passe... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 08:21:18 EST Still cranky, but working on it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5290733 The past few weeks have been more challenging that I really want to deal with....life is like that....I can't change some of the circumstances, but I can change my attitude. Saturday, I had a little mishap and had to spend yesterday icing it....... This morning, I missed my connection as the first driver dawdled in the bad weather and the connecting bus was prompt. I walked, using my cane, the six or seven blocks up from the transfer point. I got very wet, but it really wasn't bad. ... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 08:20:09 EST Must Shake Bad Attitude http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5278559 Yesterday and today, my attitude could use a good kick in the pants. One would think I would be doing better after seeing my psych. Instead, I am looking at one particular thing we talked about at length. It is, I believe, the underpinning of my downfalls in several areas. Don't want to detail it here but I know I have to face it and move through it. <BR> <BR> One of m goals is to use Spark more fully. The support has been tremendous! Fri, 8 Mar 2013 09:03:13 EST Back on Track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5272255 Today is a new day....I am back on track and working with my head about choices I am making. we are having snow...maybe a big snow.....and I am working through how I am going to deal with getting enough movement done. This will not be a gym day......getting home will be too hard. I can do things once I get home....and move as much as possible today. Mon, 4 Mar 2013 08:05:32 EST Progress, I Think http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5264365 Yesterday was a bit on the craptastic side. I succumbed to a couple of temptations early, and decided to make better choices later. <BR> <BR> Home late after making myself hit the gym, I was really in a terrible mood. Instead of eating things that would make the problem worse, I bought 1 skein of very nice yarn. Buying the yarn was not the best thing to do but I only bought 1 skein and ate a sensible dinner. That, for me, is a huge improvement. <BR> <BR> Need to get back to food jou... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 07:58:53 EST ARRRGGGGHHHHHH http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5258395 Life is a little too challenging right now. I am working through it. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I did get through the grocery store with what I needed and a HEALTHY treat. This was by accident...but I will take it! Thu, 21 Feb 2013 07:48:06 EST Went off the rails about but am back on the train this morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5246190 Over the weekend, I was not careful and ate some things that were not a good idea. Why? <BR> Overwhelmed...cranky...tired of the world. Slapped myself up this morning and I am back in action. Mon, 11 Feb 2013 09:49:37 EST Half Way http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5240811 Today, I ate brownies...shouldn't have but did. It was worth it..... <BR> <BR> Later in the day, I chose not to eat other things that I either did not want or was tempted by and said no..... <BR> <BR> I will take this as baby steps.... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 21:53:46 EST Thoughts on Flexibility http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5238319 This spark round, I am working on making this the lifestyle......the real thought that I can eat anything I want as long as I make adjustments to stay in the ranges that are good for my body. My rule this time has been, I have to really want what I am going to eat -- whether it is vegetables or cheesecake...and I have to be taking the time to TASTE it and enjoy it. <BR> <BR> This time I have not gone off the rails and stayed there .... not once. While it has been only a week, I have m... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 07:55:37 EST Made it through the weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5236701 Saturday, lunch out, made a decent choice for the entree but had cheesecake - I WAS at the Cheesecake Factory. Was it good? Yes...but worth 1080 calories...hmmmm no. Mon, 4 Feb 2013 07:49:43 EST Saturday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5234167 This week I have been doing a lot of thinking about food and my relationship to it...and habits surrounding it. Change your head...change your head. <BR> <BR> Today I will be going out. I have known this so have been banking calories to accommodate it. I won't "go nuts" out, but I will eat what I want to eat....BUT not beyond fullness and not without really thinking about what I really want at that moment. Sat, 2 Feb 2013 08:25:00 EST -12F this morning! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5232750 It is COLD this morning... -12F and a wind chill. Of course this morning my connecting bus was early....from half a block away I saw it streak through the intersection. No moaning. I just shrugged my shoulders and WALKED the six or seven blocks to work. I am still thawing and I will buy coffee this morning. I have earned it. <BR> <BR> A year and a half ago, I could not have walked the blocks to work. Working at the rehab gym has really, really helped. It is at times like this I see... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 07:44:40 EST Thursday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5231298 Yesterday, I was in the grocery store. What a trip fraught with peril! <BR> <BR> As I walked down the aisles rapidly, I was thinking about picking up snacks that I knew should not come into the house. The real eye-opener is how wired I am to do this. The unhealthy snacks foods are easy, no prep and what I eat too much of if I am not careful. The scary part is the ease of slipping onto this track in my mind. I did manage to stop. This time. One trip at a time. Thu, 31 Jan 2013 07:43:44 EST Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5229828 Things are going okay.....I am really thinking about what I am eating...and contemplating the mean of "full." Wed, 30 Jan 2013 07:55:07 EST Tuesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5228320 Still getting rid of a cold.....the chest congestion makes it hard to move and I am not going to the gym. Today, along with food tracking, my goal is to get up and move more at work. <BR> <BR> When I went to the dentist two weeks ago, he asked me to cut my Aleve and Tylenol consumption in half for the sake of my gums. That is has been a challenge....but I am doing it. Out of curiosity, I am going to test drive the extra movement and staying really, really hydrated to see if that helps... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 08:04:11 EST Getting up again..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5226677 Today I logged food for the first time in months. Did a lot of thinking over the weekend and am really at the point where doing nothing is more painful than doing something. Mon, 28 Jan 2013 08:08:05 EST Happy Thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4818082 This morning, I was late getting out the door.....that is unusual for me. I had to walk very quickly for three blocks to make sure that I could be on time for the bus. <BR> <BR> I was not even winded. I did not have to think about how hard it was. I did not HAVE to sit down when I finished. A year ago, this would not have been possible. <BR> <BR> The weight goal I had for this year has not been met. The absolute joy of being able to walk quickly for three blocks without struggle..... Tue, 3 Apr 2012 08:17:06 EST Sugar! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4776941 Okay....so....sugar........ <BR> <BR> I am a long time struggler with weight and eating issues.....all of my life. I am a smart person. I have lost weight several times.....large amounts of weight. Why do I put it back on? I don't change my habits. I don't make the way I need to eat to lose weight the lifestyle. I do have a big problem with sugar. Last night it hit me in the face again. My neighbor who shares my kitchen made cookies. I couldn't have just one....or just two....... Thu, 8 Mar 2012 08:20:45 EST Thinking about sugar..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4775049 Last night I did have a nice salad for dinner and felt fairly full.......but I still wanted something. I wasn't quite done. I had the last small piece of poppyseed cake and a little bit of ice cream and was satisfied. Could I have done without it? Yes. But I felt I NEEDED it. <BR> <BR> When I took the sugar craving assessment I was not surprised to see that I was out of control. Now, I have to work to change that. Part of the problem is, I know, emotional. I am working with a psyc... Wed, 7 Mar 2012 07:43:49 EST The Sugar Detox http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4773199 Oh heavens do I have a sweet tooth! It gets me into a lot of trouble. <BR> <BR> In order to get where I need to go, I do need to change this. The detox challenge may be a good place to start. If nothing else, I will know more than when I started. It can't hurt! Tue, 6 Mar 2012 07:59:07 EST I did it... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4726567 Last May, I watch someone use the elliptical with awe. I was afraid of it. Literally afraid to get on it. Yesterday, I hit ten minutes. Last year at this time, I could hardly walk a block with a cane, today I can walk five or six without stopping. I still can't stand for more than about ten minutes but that will come too...... Tue, 7 Feb 2012 08:03:01 EST Step by Step http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4690675 Sometimes the change is so small that I feel like I am standing still. The changes that I am making seem more in my head than in my body. I am choosing differently without really thinking about it. What I am choosing to do.....eating better foods, eating less, moving more...without thinking about it much just struck me within the last few days. This is LIFESTYLE. Thu, 19 Jan 2012 07:56:10 EST Progress.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4544562 Seeing progress is encouraging. I am figuring things out in fits and starts. The hard bits are the days I feel worse physically than when I was undergoing chemo. What, I ask myself, is that about? I am being consistent about going to the gym -- two times a week if not three. I am being consistent about being careful what I eat. The most consistent thing I am doing as making this a CHOICE and a LIFESTYLE rather than something I am only going to do as long as I have to do it. Sure, ... Thu, 20 Oct 2011 08:38:55 EST I have done something I swore I would never do... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4506288 Most of my progress these days seems to be stepping so slowly, I am stepping in place. If I did not know the meaning of baby steps before, I do now. <BR> <BR> The endocrinologist has put me on a drug. It is helping. I swore I would never do this. I should have been more open. Tue, 27 Sep 2011 08:46:14 EST What I am learning... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3764397 It has been six weeks since I initially met with the endocrinologist. She gave me directions and I have, for the most part, followed them. What I have learned in this process is interesting. I don't need as much food as I thought I did. If I am mindful when I eat, things that I think I like I really don't. I don't diet. Ever. <BR> <BR> Managing the lifestyle change is easier with Sparkpeople. The nutrition tracker keeps me honest. The articles and the people on the boards ar... Fri, 5 Nov 2010 14:42:51 EST Slowly but surely http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3696210 So far so good a week into the new plan. I am working with hunger levels and not giving in to urges to sport eat. Part of this retraining is the realization of how much I have turned to food for reasons other than hunger. Much of the time, I just like to eat. <BR> <BR> Each day is a new day. Each day is a new step. Each day is an affirmation of the promise that I can change and do things differently. Wed, 6 Oct 2010 09:51:07 EST A streak of one day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3678730 I am happy about a streak of one day. Why? Because I have finally started again and I finally feel ready. Wed, 29 Sep 2010 07:45:09 EST Beginning again... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3676102 I keep thinking of one of my favorite quotes that shows up on Sparkpeople.....success is falling down seven times and getting up eight. I am getting up again. <BR> <BR> Things have been hard but things are hard for everybody. We all do what we can do when we are ready to do it. Now, I feel ready. <BR> <BR> The concept of baby steps was always very hard for me. I have been working on that concept since April and making progress...very slow progress....sometimes backward progress. ... Tue, 28 Sep 2010 08:00:01 EST Maybe this time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3143842 It has been a tough year or so. I have kept off a very little bit of weight but more importantly, I am more interested in a healthy lifestyle. <BR> <BR> Why? Because I am scared of losing mobility and independence. Maybe that is what it will take to get me going.....that and PT next week!! Wed, 21 Apr 2010 08:31:08 EST Dismayed but not done http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1303549 I am amazed at how many ways I can postpone getting really started again in Spark. While I have faithfully been doing a half an hour in the morning (Katrina Fitness's "Ease into Pilates") for five and a half months, I am having a real struggle with food. <BR> <BR> Why, I don't know BUT I am figuring it out! <BR> <BR> Through this I am getting through tremendous feelings of failure and self-blame. Shedding those attitudes is as important as shedding the pounds. Admitting that is the... Mon, 30 Jun 2008 15:21:48 EST It's a new year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=888564 It is a new year and I am making a new effort. This time I am not looking at it as something that I have to do. I am looking at it as something that I want to do. <BR> <BR> My environment at work is candy filled. It is teaching me to peacefully co-exist with food that I have used to stuff feelings of boredom and anxiety. I gave away a box of Godiva, unopened, this morning. I don't need it near me. As I have been looking at some of the other things from which I can choose, I have been t... Thu, 3 Jan 2008 10:27:42 EST Adrift http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=618110 I am adrift. I can't seem to get it together to respark. Why? <BR> <BR> I have my suspicions. .....hovering depression......financial pressures......dealing with D.....I just don't seem to be able to get anything moving. <BR> <BR> What am I going to do? Start to move a little each day. Say no to myself once each day. Meditate. Be. Take time to touch who I really am to figure out what I really want. Fri, 22 Jun 2007 07:42:11 EST How I react to setbacks... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=150632 Okay, so let's tell the truth. The answer is not well at all. I am working on myself for this. Intead of looking at the first setback as evidence of the old habits being too strong to break. I am trying again. Here we are for a fresh start. This is what I want to do and where I am at.... <BR> <BR> Let's just do it. Tue, 18 Apr 2006 08:17:21 EST