MISSCATY's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MISSCATY MISSCATY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Radical Positive Self Care http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6003141 I am going through a rough patch. One of the things I read recently about getting through tough times is to practice Radical Self Care. <BR> <BR> What is this for me? That is what I am trying to figure out. I know what it is not....no more menage a trois with Ben and Jerry's. No more short term, but destructive, feel good solutions. I am getting more sleep. Looking for the positives. Working very hard on not taking things personally and allowing what is happening to make me feel d... Thu, 24 Sep 2015 07:43:18 EST Back to it.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5999024 Went off the rails for about a month. Not in the way that I used to....but enough to make me think hard about where I was headed. I am in Day 4 of being back on track. I feel better. I am more resilient as the daily "excitement" comes up. <BR> <BR> My new goal is getting to my gym twice a week. Got it this week! Thu, 17 Sep 2015 08:44:44 EST 92 days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5961070 I am at 92 days in my latest Spark streak. Am I doing it differently this time? Yes. <BR> <BR> Why? This is something I have been thinking about. Because I am tired of being where I have been. I am tired of hurting. I am tired of not being able to do what I want to do because my body protests. So far this has been incentive enough. The carrot to continue is that I do feel better. I am moving better...I am walking better. <BR> <BR> Monday I walked across the Mississippi River ... Wed, 15 Jul 2015 07:36:28 EST Breakthrough on a Bike Ride http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5956790 Sunday something happened that set me back emotionally. What it was is not terribly important. How I worked with it made the difference. In the past, I stewed and ate. This time, I took a second long bike ride and moved through the emotions. I thought about what it really meant for me and how I really was feeling. As I pedaled, I teared up. I let the tears go and pedaled more. I worked through it and did not eat over it. Am I over it? Not yet. Have I eaten over it? No... Tue, 7 Jul 2015 07:43:37 EST BMI http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5952584 I did a BMI calculation this morning. It was 50.97. This was good news. It is lower than the last one taken. My goal for now...to get it below 50. It is a small goal. I like small goals because I meet small goals. I can do this. Mon, 29 Jun 2015 07:53:28 EST YIPPEE!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5949244 The scale at the doctor's office today made it official. I have dropped below 300 pounds. This has been something I have wanted for a long time....a really long time......more than six years. This is the first time I taken the action steps and followed through. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I had another exciting marker. I rode my coaster brake cruiser bike for an hour or so..doing errands. I took the long way because it was a nice morning. To get onto a really nice place to ride...a gree... Mon, 22 Jun 2015 14:45:41 EST Good Ending to a Bad Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5943323 Yesterday had some real stressors. Didn't eat over them AND went back to the gym. <BR> <BR> The gym has a "real scale." For a long time, I pretended it was not there. For three years. Scale obsession was a problem of mine. In order not to have the number make or break my day, I stopped using one whenever possible. Sometimes, even in the doctor's office I would not agree to be weighed. Now, it is pretty much just a tool. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I decided it was time to gauge progre... Thu, 11 Jun 2015 07:44:05 EST Taking Away the Power of Cravings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5941590 Food has been my best buddy for most of my life. This is a relationship that I am always working on ....always. Cravings for things---and you can bet it is not celery---have derailed me before. This round, I am trying to do things differently. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I gave in and had something I had been craving for two weeks. I ate it all. As I ate it...I thought about what I was eating. I concentrated on the taste and the texture. I concentrated on the emotional load that this ... Mon, 8 Jun 2015 07:53:07 EST Despite last week... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5938355 Okay...last week I did go off the rails a bit...not as badly as I might have in the past...but still off the rails. This time, though, I chose what I would eat and knew that I would be getting back on plan because I WANT TO do that. <BR> <BR> The payoff....weight going downward...the bigger payoff...I am wearing things in my closet that have not seen the light of day for years. My body talks to me when I don't move enough...my response to to move a little more instead of taking more Alev... Tue, 2 Jun 2015 08:50:49 EST Talking Myself Out of Things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5933387 This past week I have been talking myself out of things...not out of exercising as I usually do..but out of eating things that I normally turned to in moments of stress. I have, to kept myself out of the auto-feed bag, been promising myself something on Tuesday from a couple of places I don't normally go. The wait will be worth it. I may decide, on Tuesday, not to eat it. But until Tuesday, I am not going to settle for something that is not exactly what I want. <BR> <BR> Settling for... Sun, 24 May 2015 09:13:16 EST Another week into the streak! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5931218 There are days I take this a half day at a time. I have had a few rough moments this week when "the whispers" started. Instead of letting those urges grow and giving in to them, I worked through it and figured out a different way. This time I made a different choice. <BR> <BR> Have not been exercising enough but have been liking and looking forward to what I have done. That is real progress for me. Wed, 20 May 2015 07:27:09 EST Into Week Five http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5927409 Still on a roll. Yes. I do feel better. The food choices are not bad...and I am not at all unhappy with the way that I eat. Eventually I will have to start to cook again. <BR> <BR> I have gone out to eat a few times. Planning and research before I hit the restaurant helps. <BR> <BR> The exercise portion of our program still needs some work. I am making a effort to move more...getting up and walking around at work.....doing more things around the house. The weather has been help... Wed, 13 May 2015 09:24:01 EST Into Week Four http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5924107 This is a day at a time thing for me this round. I was surprised when I realized that I have slid into week four. No, I have not been perfect. Yes, I have done very well. I have been planning, planning, planning. I have been moving more. I have been to the gym more. When I can't get to the gym....I make sure I get my steps in.....do I always make the goal. No. Do I get close. Yes. <BR> <BR> This time, I am making it what I do. This time it is not a thing I am going to do for ... Thu, 7 May 2015 07:55:28 EST Finishing Up Week Two http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5918973 This is the end of week 2 of my "Doctor's Compliance" plan. The doctor I am working with is very good....and knows a lot about the psychology about why people eat...why people hold on to fat....and how to help people change their own minds about changing their lives. <BR> <BR> The carrot for me this time is that the more I move and the better I eat, the less my body hurts and the more joy I have in each day. Direct correlation. Pay off each day. Yes. <BR> <BR> Am I tempted each day? ... Tue, 28 Apr 2015 08:48:25 EST Spring is Always a Rough Time for Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5915638 Spring is not a time I enjoy. Many of the very difficult things that have happened in my life, happened in the spring. Spring is usually when depression is at its worst. This spring, I hit bottom. <BR> <BR> This spring I got back up. I decided my life does have to be different and I do have to do something else. This has to be slow and permanent. I have finished a one week streak of a healthy lifestyle change. Now I am going for today. My goal is to do it for today. Just t... Wed, 22 Apr 2015 08:30:40 EST Need to Move More http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5867685 Winter is harder on me than it should be. I know I need to move more and am working out ways to make that happen. One of them would be being a better PT patient! Mon, 2 Feb 2015 07:59:23 EST Little Changes Paying Off! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5846841 Got weight at the doctor's office today. Over Christmas and New Year's....I LOST WEIGHT. This is pretty remarkable to me as I have not been pushing at it...just making very small changes. <BR> <BR> Christmas Eve and into Christmas had a little medical trauma. It got me to thinking about how much I need to keep pursuing these changes. My body may not change tomorrow but over the course of a lot of tomorrows, I will see change. <BR> <BR> This was a great day for me despite the sub-zero ... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 16:40:05 EST Noting Changes...Small But Good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834992 The past couple of months have been busy and difficult. Good things have happened though. <BR> <BR> I got weighed at the doctor's office after Thanksgiving....and showed weight loss. This is a big deal for me as I have been making small changes in what I do but not pushing at it or worrying it....just doing it. I am not..dieting....I am life-ing. <BR> <BR> Late November, early December is the roughest time in my work cycle. This has NOT been easy to get through but I have not found ... Thu, 18 Dec 2014 15:39:25 EST Halfway through fall http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5801336 This has been (yet another) extremely trying year. Have I learned a lot. OH YES! Am I acting on it? Slowly but surely. I lost two pounds in eight weeks. Not through crazy dieting...not through doing odd stuff but through small, small changes and life style changes. <BR> <BR> I have been working on my head more than anything else. Yes, Sparkers, I am getting it. The Head must change before the body can..... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 08:28:34 EST Good appointment yesterday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5753438 Good appointment...new goals.....now that I am in remission, it is time to work on this. <BR> <BR> Last night I walked around my apartment until I did the last steps to hit my goal for the day. <BR> <BR> I am tired of feeling this way....of not feeling my best. This may be the best motivator ever. Tue, 5 Aug 2014 07:59:01 EST How do you... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5699006 overcome a lifetime of training of putting other first....to take care of yourself...without feeling like a selfish person? Why does it feel so wrong? That is what I am thinking about these days. Tue, 20 May 2014 08:10:07 EST Yesterday was great here! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5687841 The weather was FINALLY nice here yesterday. Instead of doing the yoga DVD I had laid out, I pumped up my bike tires and rode to and from the library ... about two miles... to return books. <BR> <BR> Getting the bike up and down the basement stairs is part of the workout. <BR> <BR> All went well and I can hardly wait to go again! Mon, 5 May 2014 09:21:02 EST Lost Weight.....in Baby Steps http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5683321 Yesterday was my appointment with the "fat doctor." In six weeks, I lost 2 pounds. This is a small victory, but in a way a very large one. These two pounds came off through lifestyle change....small but persistent change. <BR> <BR> The Spark Activity Tracker keeps me aware of just how much I am moving (or not). This has been eye opening and helpful. The mental processes I am using around food are shifting a bit. <BR> <BR> I am pleased even though I know the road is long.....it is ... Tue, 29 Apr 2014 16:24:48 EST Letting go of stuff...physical and mental http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5679220 Do you have a time letting go of stuff? I am doing a bit of sorting at home. Last night, I gave away a lamp that I love as there is no place for it anymore. There are stacks of books. I won't talk about the yarn, the knitting bags, or some of the little things. It is not only the physical things....I play over conversations in my head that are YEARS old. Why is so much energy attached to events or things that do not help me move forward? I am not sure but am working it out. <BR> <B... Thu, 24 Apr 2014 07:44:38 EST Just thinking..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5678488 To lose weight.....one must lose a lot of other things....mental clutter (bad attitudes, grudges, mental patterns that are traps)...physical clutter......bad relationships. Whatever is not one's best self must be set aside, given away, recycled....and then the mental and spiritual weight loss will help with the physical weight loss. Time to clean! Wed, 23 Apr 2014 08:30:15 EST In the chair at the hairdresser's..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5676834 Saturday, I sat in the chair at the hairdresser's. In the mirror, I saw my father's face staring back at me. The sadness behind the eyes.....the sadness that never quite left. I am nearly at the age that my father was when he died. Sometimes I wonder if he just gave up. As I sat in that chair, waiting for color to process, I thought about the choices I made to get to this point....and the choices I can make to move away from it. It is in my hands. Mon, 21 Apr 2014 07:43:46 EST A Big Thrill http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668761 Last night, all the green lights on my tracker lit up. It was really exciting as I did not think I had really moved that much! Thu, 10 Apr 2014 07:32:14 EST OH AND... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667976 My post exercise BP was 130/80 on Monday...better than I thought it would be. <em>30</em> Wed, 9 Apr 2014 07:54:40 EST This Winter Nearly Did Me In..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667975 This winter was very difficult for me and for many others. I went off track and stayed there. Now, proudly wearing my Spark Activity Tracker, I am working on getting back on the track. I did go to the gym on Monday. I walked more yesterday. Still working on the food....... <BR> <BR> Getting moving is harder for me. I want to push on that first and do the best I can with food. I can do better about both. <BR> <BR> I have been reading books about other people's weight loss. C... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 07:53:37 EST The Dreaded Action Step http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5595578 Can't put it off any longer....I have to take the leap. Talked with my health coach yesterday and have small goals...smaller than baby steps. This I can do. Thu, 16 Jan 2014 07:58:26 EST Biometric Assessment Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5586638 I have work to do. That is not a surprise. It is not as bad as I thought it would be. Last fall I went through a very dark time. I am pretty much through it and resolving not to be back there. <BR> <BR> One of the hard parts of it is that I hit an all time high weight. A scary weight. When I weighed today, I was about ten pounds down. That was uplifting...especially as I have not been working as hard as I could have. <BR> <BR> Cholestrol 194; HDL 51, LDL 113, Triglycerides 14... Wed, 8 Jan 2014 09:28:56 EST Despite my best efforts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5396026 Yesterday, I got dropped off at the gym. I put in my half an hour. I did not want to....I really did not want to........ I walked out past the coffee shop and looked at the sweets. I wanted them bad. I walked past it. I walked past Davanni's and thought about their brownies....then into my mind crept the thought that "Those are really not good." I sat on the bus bench and thought about what would happen if I transferred at the grocery store. I chose the other transfer point a... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 08:00:11 EST Biking... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5391998 Yesterday was finally beautiful here....I took a couple rides on my bike. Part of the workout is getting the bike up and down the basement stairs. <BR> <BR> Today, I will do things at home. I need to get back on the food plan....and get things set up at home for my success. Mon, 17 Jun 2013 12:29:01 EST Progess...a little http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5385723 Yesterday, I walked out of the house without my cane. I was so focused on putting some things in recycling on the way to the bus, I didn't even realize I didn't have it. My thought...let's see how the day goes. It was okay until later in the day. I had to opt out of the gym BUT I did part of a workout DVD at home. <BR> <BR> For me, this is significant as I didn't just blow exercise off. I did what I could until I had to stop. I hurt today...but I would have hurt a lot more if I ha... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 11:07:28 EST OUCH! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5363124 Yesterday, I got up from my desk chair and heard something POP in my knee. This is not good. My cane is my little buddy again today. The change for me as a result of this.......my body is telling me in no uncertain terms to take intention to action. This morning I started food journaling again...I am going to hit the water....AND I am going to figure out what to do when the pain from walking is so bad that it isn't even stopped with the painkillers. <BR> <BR> My goal...move as much ... Tue, 21 May 2013 07:52:45 EST April was (THANKS SHAKESPEARE) a cruel month http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5358259 April was a challenge for health reasons.......the ENT was up my nose with a rubber hose. Things just feel apart. Good news....biospy came back benign. <BR> <BR> Caught a cold in the hospital and that was (HA) killer and am not quite over it yet. <BR> <BR> BUT!!!! I have been out on my bike twice. I have a friend who is super supportive.....got my bike up and running FOR me and did a repair. He told me that anytime anything went wrong with the bike he would fix it so that I ... Thu, 16 May 2013 08:00:20 EST Where I'm At http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5302909 I have decided to find more joy, move, more and concentrate on what matters. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I had a chance to get extremely snarky and irritated. Something in me shifted.....a light bulb appeared, glowing, above my head. THIS DOES NOT MATTER. Knowing that I can't change other people and can only push through the best I can each day.....that matters. <BR> <BR> This helped me hit the grocery store in a "easier" state of mind. I told myself I could have any treat I wanted. I passe... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 08:21:18 EST Still cranky, but working on it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5290733 The past few weeks have been more challenging that I really want to deal with....life is like that....I can't change some of the circumstances, but I can change my attitude. Saturday, I had a little mishap and had to spend yesterday icing it....... This morning, I missed my connection as the first driver dawdled in the bad weather and the connecting bus was prompt. I walked, using my cane, the six or seven blocks up from the transfer point. I got very wet, but it really wasn't bad. ... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 08:20:09 EST Must Shake Bad Attitude http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5278559 Yesterday and today, my attitude could use a good kick in the pants. One would think I would be doing better after seeing my psych. Instead, I am looking at one particular thing we talked about at length. It is, I believe, the underpinning of my downfalls in several areas. Don't want to detail it here but I know I have to face it and move through it. <BR> <BR> One of m goals is to use Spark more fully. The support has been tremendous! Fri, 8 Mar 2013 09:03:13 EST Back on Track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5272255 Today is a new day....I am back on track and working with my head about choices I am making. we are having snow...maybe a big snow.....and I am working through how I am going to deal with getting enough movement done. This will not be a gym day......getting home will be too hard. I can do things once I get home....and move as much as possible today. Mon, 4 Mar 2013 08:05:32 EST Progress, I Think http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5264365 Yesterday was a bit on the craptastic side. I succumbed to a couple of temptations early, and decided to make better choices later. <BR> <BR> Home late after making myself hit the gym, I was really in a terrible mood. Instead of eating things that would make the problem worse, I bought 1 skein of very nice yarn. Buying the yarn was not the best thing to do but I only bought 1 skein and ate a sensible dinner. That, for me, is a huge improvement. <BR> <BR> Need to get back to food jou... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 07:58:53 EST ARRRGGGGHHHHHH http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5258395 Life is a little too challenging right now. I am working through it. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I did get through the grocery store with what I needed and a HEALTHY treat. This was by accident...but I will take it! Thu, 21 Feb 2013 07:48:06 EST Went off the rails about but am back on the train this morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5246190 Over the weekend, I was not careful and ate some things that were not a good idea. Why? <BR> Overwhelmed...cranky...tired of the world. Slapped myself up this morning and I am back in action. Mon, 11 Feb 2013 09:49:37 EST Half Way http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5240811 Today, I ate brownies...shouldn't have but did. It was worth it..... <BR> <BR> Later in the day, I chose not to eat other things that I either did not want or was tempted by and said no..... <BR> <BR> I will take this as baby steps.... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 21:53:46 EST Thoughts on Flexibility http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5238319 This spark round, I am working on making this the lifestyle......the real thought that I can eat anything I want as long as I make adjustments to stay in the ranges that are good for my body. My rule this time has been, I have to really want what I am going to eat -- whether it is vegetables or cheesecake...and I have to be taking the time to TASTE it and enjoy it. <BR> <BR> This time I have not gone off the rails and stayed there .... not once. While it has been only a week, I have m... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 07:55:37 EST Made it through the weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5236701 Saturday, lunch out, made a decent choice for the entree but had cheesecake - I WAS at the Cheesecake Factory. Was it good? Yes...but worth 1080 calories...hmmmm no. Mon, 4 Feb 2013 07:49:43 EST Saturday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5234167 This week I have been doing a lot of thinking about food and my relationship to it...and habits surrounding it. Change your head...change your head. <BR> <BR> Today I will be going out. I have known this so have been banking calories to accommodate it. I won't "go nuts" out, but I will eat what I want to eat....BUT not beyond fullness and not without really thinking about what I really want at that moment. Sat, 2 Feb 2013 08:25:00 EST -12F this morning! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5232750 It is COLD this morning... -12F and a wind chill. Of course this morning my connecting bus was early....from half a block away I saw it streak through the intersection. No moaning. I just shrugged my shoulders and WALKED the six or seven blocks to work. I am still thawing and I will buy coffee this morning. I have earned it. <BR> <BR> A year and a half ago, I could not have walked the blocks to work. Working at the rehab gym has really, really helped. It is at times like this I see... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 07:44:40 EST Thursday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5231298 Yesterday, I was in the grocery store. What a trip fraught with peril! <BR> <BR> As I walked down the aisles rapidly, I was thinking about picking up snacks that I knew should not come into the house. The real eye-opener is how wired I am to do this. The unhealthy snacks foods are easy, no prep and what I eat too much of if I am not careful. The scary part is the ease of slipping onto this track in my mind. I did manage to stop. This time. One trip at a time. Thu, 31 Jan 2013 07:43:44 EST Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5229828 Things are going okay.....I am really thinking about what I am eating...and contemplating the mean of "full." Wed, 30 Jan 2013 07:55:07 EST