MISSCATY's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MISSCATY MISSCATY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Life is (really) not a linear process http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6363930 For the past couple months, I have been going up and down the same 10-12 pounds. <BR> <BR> Yes, this is frustrating BUT it is a reflection of how I am dealing with the rest of my life. <BR> <BR> I am 60. It is not too late to do better. Fri, 19 May 2017 10:59:57 EST Dealing with "Not Good" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6330300 We all have those times in our lives.....stressed out, tired out, and attacked by the screaming foodies. I am sitting in the middle of one of those times. I am not dealing with it well. <BR> <BR> This is giving me real pause. If I want that different outcome, I have to do my life differently. Each day I have to recommit doing what is best for me in the long run. <BR> <BR> I may be failing at this moment...but I don't have to fail in ten minutes, in half an hour, in half a day. Each ... Thu, 9 Mar 2017 12:51:58 EST I tend not to check in...but back at it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6320842 Having to go through a second biometric assessment (the first one has not yet posted for the "points" to get a discount on my health insurance) has me thinking that I need to work harder to get better numbers. I have two months. <BR> <BR> Originally, I was supposed to see one of my doctors a week from Monday. Between worrying about work things (spikes my blood pressure) while I am out for that appointment and wanting to have made more progress, I have rescheduled that appointment for June... Fri, 24 Feb 2017 11:25:40 EST I have been, again, struggling.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6156940 For the past few weeks, I just have not been able to do it. Just...not. <BR> <BR> May 2 was going to be THE DAY. Instead, I am celebrating Cinco de Mayo by beginning to be careful and stay within food guidelines...and move more. 3, 018 steps by 11:18. That is more than I did all day last Sunday. <BR> <BR> I made an adjustment to breakfast...added an English muffin. That has helped. <BR> <BR> Right now....I am being assailed by donut fumes. Good donuts. I was looking at them with i... Thu, 5 May 2016 12:23:42 EST Yesterday went....okay http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6137679 Yesterday was a day of "considered" eating. I thought about what I really wanted..I thought about portion control. I followed through. <BR> <BR> Went on a date....for me this is very, very stressful and stepping massively out of my comfort zone....ate sensibly. I was still a bit hungry when I got home. I had some ice cream...but did not stuff. I did have a few KitKats earlier in the day...but did not go crazy. <BR> <BR> These small changes are very powerful for me...and more impres... Fri, 8 Apr 2016 08:15:12 EST Is it an epic fail if you learn something? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6136904 The past month or so has been hard on many levels. I looked, with clear eyes and honesty, at what I have been doing for a few months. The last month, I have been eating crazy. Why? Stuffing emotions? Yes. (Pssst! It doesn't work.) It is time to retool and get going again. Thu, 7 Apr 2016 07:42:59 EST Overdid It Yesterday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6110083 Yesterday, I overdid the walking and I really felt it this morning. I talked myself into one lap around the block at the transfer point. That helped get the kinks out. My goal is to move more during the day now. I can do this. I will do this. Having to go to Target to pick up one of my meds will help. <BR> <BR> Minneapolis is getting more spring-like. I hope to get out with the Nordic Walking sticks this weekend. It is a sign spring is almost here and it is time for the bike. <BR... Thu, 3 Mar 2016 07:54:10 EST After some epic food fails....set a goal this morning and made it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6109349 Yesterday was not a good food day. Think I know why...that is half the battle. This morning, I wanted to set a goal and achieve it. I wanted to try 3 laps around the block while waiting for the bus. Excitement! I timed the first lap...7 minutes. After the second lap, I had 10 minutes left before my bus was do. I moved quickly and did a third lap! I was gasping a bit as I moved quickly to make sure making my goal did not mean missing the bus. I DID IT!!! I did not get cold....a... Wed, 2 Mar 2016 10:15:05 EST This morning I chose... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6108301 This morning I chose to do two loops around the block that I wait for my transfer from my first to my second bus to go to work. I could have sat on the bench in the cold for 24 minutes and let my mind do my gratitudes and prayers. I chose to do one loop while letting my mind go free. I pushed myself to do a second loop even though I wasn't up for it. After sitting a bit when I completed the second loop, I did two trips up and down the block. While I really did not want to do this, I ... Tue, 1 Mar 2016 07:57:16 EST I have been struggling.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6107385 This is a rough time of year for me...and I can tell from the amount of struggle that I have had with food and with being willing to be moving. I am not doing well. That being said, I can do better. I have decided not to decide "today is the day" but rather "this is the moment." I can do a moment, a choice at a time. This will pass. I will make better choices. Mon, 29 Feb 2016 08:53:37 EST Valentine's Day had me pondering the nature of love..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6098236 Let's be honest....for me Valentine's Day is largely a nonevent. This year though, Valentine's day had me thinking hard about what it REALLY means to love myself. Old me (okay sometimes new me) would use this as an excuse to eat as much chocolate as I could hold...all month. That, like those bad boys we are all attracted to from time to time, is not real love. <BR> <BR> Real love is hard work. Real love is staying on plan with the right food in the right amount and moving the building I... Wed, 17 Feb 2016 14:02:22 EST Did pretty well on steps even for a Saturday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6083902 Yesterday, I went over 6,000 steps. Yes, I would have liked to have gone over 8,000 but respected my body enough to get the rest I am going to need to get through another tough week. I am determined that this will be a transformative year. I can do this. We can all do this! Sun, 31 Jan 2016 12:16:36 EST Steps Against the Cold! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6082149 I use transit. I have not had a car for nearly 30 years. In the winter here, it gets cold on bus benches. If I get cold now, I walk. If I can walk to my next stop, I do. If I can't, I walk up and down the block. This is really increasing my activity level....and painlessly. <BR> <BR> This makes me really happy. Why? Because not that long ago it was hard and painful for me to walk a block...with a cane. It is 7:20 AM here and I have 3,157 steps in.... <BR> <BR> Life...is go... Fri, 29 Jan 2016 08:22:21 EST What I did last night...and this morning.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6080786 Yesterday's trip home was a story of cold weather and hairsbreadth missed buses. At my transfer point, I had a 15 minute wait for the next bus home. When I felt the January chill...I got up and paced up and down the block. Once I got home, I looked at my friendly FitBit and saw how few steps were really left to tick over 7,000. I did it. I walked around doing small things until I hit 7,003. <BR> <BR> This morning....again I was cold. I paced. By 8 AM I had 3,000 steps. Making a ... Wed, 27 Jan 2016 16:07:34 EST It has been a struggle... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6079608 The cold temps....the things going on in my head....it has been a struggle to do anything except curl up and eat. <BR> <BR> Today, though, today I am making a choice to do what is good for me. I am moving (2,797 steps at 9:47 AM) and I am eating on plan. The Oreos ten feet away from me are not a problem. Donut hour today is not a problem. I choose to do something different. For me. Because I can. Tue, 26 Jan 2016 10:48:46 EST Baby It's COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLD Outside http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6067390 Never in my life have I been so glad of my knitting! This morning's trip in was -4F. That is without calculating wind chill. After being here nearly a half an hour, my fingertips have a bit of the frosted burn....and my cheekbones are a bit tingly. I had been very wrapped up or it would have been more painful. <BR> <BR> This morning I had a decision...I could wait for a bus at my transfer point or be moving and walk. Now the neighborhood I walk six blocks through can be a little in... Tue, 12 Jan 2016 07:26:20 EST Off track a bit but ready to be back on...why? Because I can... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6062015 The whole food and emotion thing is something that I am working on....daily. Being mindful has helped a lot. Revisiting what I like and really want has also helped. As I go through Target or the grocery store and am hit with temptation, I stop and think about what I really like and what I really want to eat. Nine times out of ten, that has been stopping me. Yesterday was the ten...and I don't like the way my body feels today. That is a good persuader. <BR> <BR> One of my quiet mant... Wed, 6 Jan 2016 10:21:43 EST Good Doctor Visit with a Bad Scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6061423 The scale at the doctors office weighed me 8 pounds over what I weighed the last time I used the Aria. I have not been careful...but not that careless! Okay, it was after lunch and I was wearing shoes and Minnesota January clothing...it is not like I can get naked in the clinic hallway. <BR> <BR> That being said, the doctor was really happy with my numbers. <BR> <BR> I went home and ate. Why? I am not sure. You can bet I am going to figure out this kink in my head...and stop the cyc... Tue, 5 Jan 2016 19:50:47 EST Went to the Gym! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6060889 My gym is a rehab gym that one of my doctor's sent me to a few years ago. Fairview's WEL Program is great. Without the WEL Program, I would not be walking as well as I do. <BR> <BR> The downside is that the hours are very limited...and lately I have had a horrible time getting there. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I forced myself to get there. I was there only a half an hour, but put the time to good use. <BR> <BR> With the weather heading towards subzero here, it may be a bit before I ... Tue, 5 Jan 2016 08:39:29 EST January..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6059800 January will speed by. As it speeds by me...I want to be moving at my own good pace. What does this mean? This means moving more at work and at home. It is that simple. I want to get up and walk the floor at work. At home, I can move and get things done. I don't care how I do it...I care that I do it. The plan is to fit it it wherever I can. <BR> <BR> The carrot for me really is the more I move the better I feel. This can be the year of feeling good! Mon, 4 Jan 2016 09:28:44 EST 2015 Draws to a Close http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6055918 New Year's Eve is a time of reflection for me....and oddly a day that I have despised for years. This year, the self-reflection gives me a lot more positives than it has in a long time. <BR> <BR> What are they? I am 100% happier than I was at this time last year. My battle with depression has more good days than bad days. The challenges that I am facing are no different but feel more manageable now. I am fitter, mentally and physically. I am afraid of less. <BR> <BR> How did this... Thu, 31 Dec 2015 08:01:28 EST Sunday Morning! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6036045 This Sunday morning, I needed to be in the office. The Sunday transit schedule is not that great. One of the nice things about where I live and the trip to work is that I have choices. One of the choices is a route I can use that gets me about five blocks, in one direction, to work. During the week, I wait for a transfer that takes a more roundabout route. This morning I took the walk. It felt great! Sun, 22 Nov 2015 08:23:34 EST My Fitbit is the Bomb! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6034312 My sister gave me a FitBit. I love it, love it, love it! There may or may not be a direct correlation but I am walking more...I may hit 10K a day! Wed, 18 Nov 2015 15:24:12 EST Anxiety.....drops me off the rails http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6019208 There are a number of things about which I am anxious at the moment. There are better ways....walking it out, writing in a journal (always intend this but don't do it), meditation, prayer....to work with this. I have to admit I have been using Red Vines and Baked Corn Puffs. <BR> <BR> I know, even as I do this, that this is not in my own best interest. I am need to get back on track. <BR> <BR> My gratitude goes out to all the Sparkers who are providing great inspiration and the knowl... Thu, 22 Oct 2015 08:16:02 EST Radical Positive Self Care http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6003141 I am going through a rough patch. One of the things I read recently about getting through tough times is to practice Radical Self Care. <BR> <BR> What is this for me? That is what I am trying to figure out. I know what it is not....no more menage a trois with Ben and Jerry's. No more short term, but destructive, feel good solutions. I am getting more sleep. Looking for the positives. Working very hard on not taking things personally and allowing what is happening to make me feel d... Thu, 24 Sep 2015 07:43:18 EST Back to it.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5999024 Went off the rails for about a month. Not in the way that I used to....but enough to make me think hard about where I was headed. I am in Day 4 of being back on track. I feel better. I am more resilient as the daily "excitement" comes up. <BR> <BR> My new goal is getting to my gym twice a week. Got it this week! Thu, 17 Sep 2015 08:44:44 EST 92 days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5961070 I am at 92 days in my latest Spark streak. Am I doing it differently this time? Yes. <BR> <BR> Why? This is something I have been thinking about. Because I am tired of being where I have been. I am tired of hurting. I am tired of not being able to do what I want to do because my body protests. So far this has been incentive enough. The carrot to continue is that I do feel better. I am moving better...I am walking better. <BR> <BR> Monday I walked across the Mississippi River ... Wed, 15 Jul 2015 07:36:28 EST Breakthrough on a Bike Ride http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5956790 Sunday something happened that set me back emotionally. What it was is not terribly important. How I worked with it made the difference. In the past, I stewed and ate. This time, I took a second long bike ride and moved through the emotions. I thought about what it really meant for me and how I really was feeling. As I pedaled, I teared up. I let the tears go and pedaled more. I worked through it and did not eat over it. Am I over it? Not yet. Have I eaten over it? No... Tue, 7 Jul 2015 07:43:37 EST BMI http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5952584 I did a BMI calculation this morning. It was 50.97. This was good news. It is lower than the last one taken. My goal for now...to get it below 50. It is a small goal. I like small goals because I meet small goals. I can do this. Mon, 29 Jun 2015 07:53:28 EST YIPPEE!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5949244 The scale at the doctor's office today made it official. I have dropped below 300 pounds. This has been something I have wanted for a long time....a really long time......more than six years. This is the first time I taken the action steps and followed through. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I had another exciting marker. I rode my coaster brake cruiser bike for an hour or so..doing errands. I took the long way because it was a nice morning. To get onto a really nice place to ride...a gree... Mon, 22 Jun 2015 14:45:41 EST Good Ending to a Bad Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5943323 Yesterday had some real stressors. Didn't eat over them AND went back to the gym. <BR> <BR> The gym has a "real scale." For a long time, I pretended it was not there. For three years. Scale obsession was a problem of mine. In order not to have the number make or break my day, I stopped using one whenever possible. Sometimes, even in the doctor's office I would not agree to be weighed. Now, it is pretty much just a tool. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I decided it was time to gauge progre... Thu, 11 Jun 2015 07:44:05 EST Taking Away the Power of Cravings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5941590 Food has been my best buddy for most of my life. This is a relationship that I am always working on ....always. Cravings for things---and you can bet it is not celery---have derailed me before. This round, I am trying to do things differently. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I gave in and had something I had been craving for two weeks. I ate it all. As I ate it...I thought about what I was eating. I concentrated on the taste and the texture. I concentrated on the emotional load that this ... Mon, 8 Jun 2015 07:53:07 EST Despite last week... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5938355 Okay...last week I did go off the rails a bit...not as badly as I might have in the past...but still off the rails. This time, though, I chose what I would eat and knew that I would be getting back on plan because I WANT TO do that. <BR> <BR> The payoff....weight going downward...the bigger payoff...I am wearing things in my closet that have not seen the light of day for years. My body talks to me when I don't move enough...my response to to move a little more instead of taking more Alev... Tue, 2 Jun 2015 08:50:49 EST Talking Myself Out of Things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5933387 This past week I have been talking myself out of things...not out of exercising as I usually do..but out of eating things that I normally turned to in moments of stress. I have, to kept myself out of the auto-feed bag, been promising myself something on Tuesday from a couple of places I don't normally go. The wait will be worth it. I may decide, on Tuesday, not to eat it. But until Tuesday, I am not going to settle for something that is not exactly what I want. <BR> <BR> Settling for... Sun, 24 May 2015 09:13:16 EST Another week into the streak! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5931218 There are days I take this a half day at a time. I have had a few rough moments this week when "the whispers" started. Instead of letting those urges grow and giving in to them, I worked through it and figured out a different way. This time I made a different choice. <BR> <BR> Have not been exercising enough but have been liking and looking forward to what I have done. That is real progress for me. Wed, 20 May 2015 07:27:09 EST Into Week Five http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5927409 Still on a roll. Yes. I do feel better. The food choices are not bad...and I am not at all unhappy with the way that I eat. Eventually I will have to start to cook again. <BR> <BR> I have gone out to eat a few times. Planning and research before I hit the restaurant helps. <BR> <BR> The exercise portion of our program still needs some work. I am making a effort to move more...getting up and walking around at work.....doing more things around the house. The weather has been help... Wed, 13 May 2015 09:24:01 EST Into Week Four http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5924107 This is a day at a time thing for me this round. I was surprised when I realized that I have slid into week four. No, I have not been perfect. Yes, I have done very well. I have been planning, planning, planning. I have been moving more. I have been to the gym more. When I can't get to the gym....I make sure I get my steps in.....do I always make the goal. No. Do I get close. Yes. <BR> <BR> This time, I am making it what I do. This time it is not a thing I am going to do for ... Thu, 7 May 2015 07:55:28 EST Finishing Up Week Two http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5918973 This is the end of week 2 of my "Doctor's Compliance" plan. The doctor I am working with is very good....and knows a lot about the psychology about why people eat...why people hold on to fat....and how to help people change their own minds about changing their lives. <BR> <BR> The carrot for me this time is that the more I move and the better I eat, the less my body hurts and the more joy I have in each day. Direct correlation. Pay off each day. Yes. <BR> <BR> Am I tempted each day? ... Tue, 28 Apr 2015 08:48:25 EST Spring is Always a Rough Time for Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5915638 Spring is not a time I enjoy. Many of the very difficult things that have happened in my life, happened in the spring. Spring is usually when depression is at its worst. This spring, I hit bottom. <BR> <BR> This spring I got back up. I decided my life does have to be different and I do have to do something else. This has to be slow and permanent. I have finished a one week streak of a healthy lifestyle change. Now I am going for today. My goal is to do it for today. Just t... Wed, 22 Apr 2015 08:30:40 EST Need to Move More http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5867685 Winter is harder on me than it should be. I know I need to move more and am working out ways to make that happen. One of them would be being a better PT patient! Mon, 2 Feb 2015 07:59:23 EST Little Changes Paying Off! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5846841 Got weight at the doctor's office today. Over Christmas and New Year's....I LOST WEIGHT. This is pretty remarkable to me as I have not been pushing at it...just making very small changes. <BR> <BR> Christmas Eve and into Christmas had a little medical trauma. It got me to thinking about how much I need to keep pursuing these changes. My body may not change tomorrow but over the course of a lot of tomorrows, I will see change. <BR> <BR> This was a great day for me despite the sub-zero ... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 16:40:05 EST Noting Changes...Small But Good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834992 The past couple of months have been busy and difficult. Good things have happened though. <BR> <BR> I got weighed at the doctor's office after Thanksgiving....and showed weight loss. This is a big deal for me as I have been making small changes in what I do but not pushing at it or worrying it....just doing it. I am not..dieting....I am life-ing. <BR> <BR> Late November, early December is the roughest time in my work cycle. This has NOT been easy to get through but I have not found ... Thu, 18 Dec 2014 15:39:25 EST Halfway through fall http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5801336 This has been (yet another) extremely trying year. Have I learned a lot. OH YES! Am I acting on it? Slowly but surely. I lost two pounds in eight weeks. Not through crazy dieting...not through doing odd stuff but through small, small changes and life style changes. <BR> <BR> I have been working on my head more than anything else. Yes, Sparkers, I am getting it. The Head must change before the body can..... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 08:28:34 EST Good appointment yesterday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5753438 Good appointment...new goals.....now that I am in remission, it is time to work on this. <BR> <BR> Last night I walked around my apartment until I did the last steps to hit my goal for the day. <BR> <BR> I am tired of feeling this way....of not feeling my best. This may be the best motivator ever. Tue, 5 Aug 2014 07:59:01 EST How do you... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5699006 overcome a lifetime of training of putting other first....to take care of yourself...without feeling like a selfish person? Why does it feel so wrong? That is what I am thinking about these days. Tue, 20 May 2014 08:10:07 EST Yesterday was great here! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5687841 The weather was FINALLY nice here yesterday. Instead of doing the yoga DVD I had laid out, I pumped up my bike tires and rode to and from the library ... about two miles... to return books. <BR> <BR> Getting the bike up and down the basement stairs is part of the workout. <BR> <BR> All went well and I can hardly wait to go again! Mon, 5 May 2014 09:21:02 EST Lost Weight.....in Baby Steps http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5683321 Yesterday was my appointment with the "fat doctor." In six weeks, I lost 2 pounds. This is a small victory, but in a way a very large one. These two pounds came off through lifestyle change....small but persistent change. <BR> <BR> The Spark Activity Tracker keeps me aware of just how much I am moving (or not). This has been eye opening and helpful. The mental processes I am using around food are shifting a bit. <BR> <BR> I am pleased even though I know the road is long.....it is ... Tue, 29 Apr 2014 16:24:48 EST Letting go of stuff...physical and mental http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5679220 Do you have a time letting go of stuff? I am doing a bit of sorting at home. Last night, I gave away a lamp that I love as there is no place for it anymore. There are stacks of books. I won't talk about the yarn, the knitting bags, or some of the little things. It is not only the physical things....I play over conversations in my head that are YEARS old. Why is so much energy attached to events or things that do not help me move forward? I am not sure but am working it out. <BR> <B... Thu, 24 Apr 2014 07:44:38 EST Just thinking..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5678488 To lose weight.....one must lose a lot of other things....mental clutter (bad attitudes, grudges, mental patterns that are traps)...physical clutter......bad relationships. Whatever is not one's best self must be set aside, given away, recycled....and then the mental and spiritual weight loss will help with the physical weight loss. Time to clean! Wed, 23 Apr 2014 08:30:15 EST In the chair at the hairdresser's..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5676834 Saturday, I sat in the chair at the hairdresser's. In the mirror, I saw my father's face staring back at me. The sadness behind the eyes.....the sadness that never quite left. I am nearly at the age that my father was when he died. Sometimes I wonder if he just gave up. As I sat in that chair, waiting for color to process, I thought about the choices I made to get to this point....and the choices I can make to move away from it. It is in my hands. Mon, 21 Apr 2014 07:43:46 EST