MISSB8604's SparkPeople Blog

What's Up With Miss B? - Week 113

Fri, 17 May 2013 12:09:32 EST

Bread Experiment = So far, so good. Need to get more fiber in though.

Nutrition = I've been eating terribly the past couple of months as I've mentioned on here. However, I have stopped myself from eating at 7pm on Saturday and so far, I've done that pretty well. I'm starting small so as not to sabotage myself. As long as I stop eating after 7pm, I can try to keep the night eating at bay. I've also done very well by not going back for seconds. I'm a work in progress and am doing th...

How Far I've Come

Mon, 13 May 2013 11:34:19 EST

I'll never forget how far I've come.

What's Up With Miss B? - Week 112

Fri, 10 May 2013 12:52:49 EST

Hey SparkBuddies,

I will not be weighing in until 5/31 so that I can focus on others aspects of my weigh loss journey. So far, I've got 469 fitness minutes under my belt and I am extremely proud of that. How I've managed to fit it in being in 3 shows (now 2, thank goodness) at once, I'll never know. I haven't been blogging as much lately because I've been journaling which I find helps me a bit more and gives me that aloneness I need.

293 Bread Experiment = So ...

Weigh Day - Week 111

Fri, 3 May 2013 16:36:13 EST

Bread Experiment = So far, so good. My energy levels are still pretty low, but I remain hopeful. I'm reading "Wheat Belly" and am really considering giving up all wheat products.

Nutrition = This past weekend was a mixture of bad and good. I did my best not to overeat, but I did anyway. This week hasn't been too bad at all though

Water Intake = Excellent, didn't drink enough on Monday though.

Exercise = Very good! I'm proud of myself!

NSVs:
1...

My Glutes Are A'Hurtin'!

Thu, 2 May 2013 11:49:21 EST

Mmhmm, you read that right! TMI indeed!
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SparkBuddies, kickboxing was AWESOME! My butt hurts but I don’t care! It was pretty dang awesome to punch and kick myself into oblivion. The class was really hyped up, which gave me that extra push I needed when I got tired. It felt fabulous! HA! It lovely to be able to regularly exercise!

Tonight, I’m doing the Body W...

My Liver Is Still Going Strong!

Wed, 1 May 2013 11:58:36 EST

2 years ago, my liver was in dire straights. My doctor was extremely concerned, telling me that I'd need a new liver eventually. I panicked, and the rest is history. Losing weight saved my life.

Check out the latest results, I couldn't be more proud.

What Do You Do?

Tue, 30 Apr 2013 14:14:00 EST

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What do you do when your body won’t do what you’d like it to do?
What do you do when your body is beginning to take shape in ways you’d rather it didn’t?
What do you do when you simply cannot restrict yourself as harshly as you used to do?
What do you do when ...

I Moved…Desks, That Is

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 14:41:00 EST

My boss was kind enough to let me move from next to some co-workers that were beginning to bother me a bit more than they probably should. The pestering has stopped and I feel so much more focused than I ever have. I’m able to work on my tasks in peace and get a lot more things done. It’s nice not to hear them talk about really inappropriate things around me and I feel like I’m in a good spot.

This weekend was a good but long one. I had a really rough morning on Saturday but was a...

Weigh Day - Week 110

Fri, 26 Apr 2013 11:50:37 EST

Bread Experiment = Starts today! Wish me luck! I've ordered the "Wheat Belly" book in order to do some more research on the subject.

Empowered Patient = I've also "fired" my current doctor, if she won't help me find a reason for my fatigue, someone else will. The woman has been obsessed with my weight and when I showed her my article in the friggin' Huffington Post about losing 100lbs, she didn't even look at it! I got a nod, and a small one at that. I have never felt fully suppor...

A Light In The Dark

Thu, 25 Apr 2013 13:37:24 EST

You’ve got to read MANDELOVICH’s blog. It is seriously amazing and has me in a lot of thought today.
http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public
_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5329548

What if 189-196 is where I’m supposed to be? It took way too much restriction to maintain 185-189 (as soon as I hit 185, I never saw it again) and it’s just not something I feel like I can do. There are so many things going on in my life right now, I know in my heart of hearts that I cannot foc...

Epic Fail…Again

Wed, 24 Apr 2013 13:24:01 EST

Yesterday was a pretty rough day to say the very least. It got worse and worse, blew up in my face and I subsequently freaked out. I’m talking crying, hyperventilating, chest pain and of course, binging. I ate ½ bag of tortilla chips, an entire Sabra tub of guacamole, ½ slice of cheesecake, ice cream and dark chocolate. All this was consumed after I also ate 1 cup of my mother’s amazing chili. I drove right past the gym, knowing that I would have love to go to Zumba; I course, didn’t go.

Is This GoodBye?

Tue, 23 Apr 2013 12:18:37 EST

For the past few years, I’ve had a lot of issues with fatigue. It doesn’t matter if I’ve slept 10 hours; I’m still just as exhausted as if I hadn’t slept at all. A lot of times, I’ll feel good upon waking and maybe an hour later, will be absolutely exhausted, ready for bed. To me, this is ridiculous in someone that’s only 26 years old. I’ve also been experiencing some breathing issues and lightheadedness too which at times is pretty alarming. This morning I was brainstorming with my BRITT831 ...

Step In The Name Of Love!

Mon, 22 Apr 2013 14:01:45 EST

**My blog title has absolutely NOTHING to do with the content. HA!**

Happy Monday SparkBuddies,

This weekend was a busy, but good one. The show went extremely well and was well received by all of our audience members. One woman even came up to us sobbing because she was so moved. This play has been a joy to do and be a part of; I’m truly grateful. Our cast is beginning to bond so nicely, and I love spending time with everyone at various points during the evening. A revi...

Weigh Day – Week 109

Fri, 19 Apr 2013 20:26:45 EST

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It's opening night for my show!!!!!!!!!!! The cast/crew are beyond excited!! Tonight, the theatre is throwing us a huge party to celebrate! The plan is for me to not eat ONE DANG THING at that party. I have no calories left for the day and would rather not. I can do this!
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Go Girl!

Thu, 18 Apr 2013 13:04:22 EST
I’ve successfully tracked for 3 days! To me, this is huge and I’m very proud of myself. I stayed within range yesterday too!

My boss was kind enough to give me tomorrow off so I’ll be catching up on my sleep and getting ready for the show tomorrow. Tonight is our final rehearsal, and we as a cast are beyond ready to have butts in the seats. My director was so moved by our performances he was brought to tears. I already love spending time with my cast and I think we’re going to hav...

Trial and Error

Wed, 17 Apr 2013 13:26:56 EST
The last few days have been killer, but good. I’m averaging 4 hours of sleep a night (not good I know), but have successfully tracked my food for 2 days straight. I’m proud of myself. I’ve been blowing through my calorie ranges which is extremely frustrating, but I have been practicing intuitive eating and trying to keep the freggies going. Yesterday, I got 5 servings in which is great.

I miss Zumba and the gym!

Now more than ever, I’ve realized that this weight loss j...

In Two Years

Tue, 16 Apr 2013 11:39:33 EST
Two years ago today was the first day of the rest of my life. I am in awe of how time has flown and of how far I've come.

2003, Show: Dorothy and The Wizard of Oz, Role: Glinda the Good

God has been so good to me and I've completely changed my life for the better. I never thought I'd get this far, accomplish so much and be so much healthier.

2007, Show: Beauty and The Beast, Role: Mrs....

Out From The Food Haze, And Into Tech Week!

Mon, 15 Apr 2013 12:08:13 EST
Happy Monday Sparkbuddies,

This weekend was a mixture of really bad and really good.

Bad:
I ate terribly pretty consistently ALL WEEKEND. It was bad guys, REALLY bad. I just stopped caring, simple as that. I’m pretty sure it has a lot to do with my Depression, but overall, I just have moments when I don’t care about my weight loss journey anymore. I’m exhausted by the whole thing which I’m sure isn’t going to help me be apart of the 1% or whatever the number is of ...

Weigh Day – Week 108

Fri, 12 Apr 2013 12:16:15 EST
Nutrition = Terrible. I’m tired of measuring, tracking and weighing my food. I’ve got to figure out a different way of getting the nutrition that I need without going food crazy. It’s frustrating that I can’t get back into that mode I was in when I was close to my 100lbs lost goal, it’s just no longer something that I can mentally do right now. I simply cannot devote 100% of my time to my weight loss journey as there is so much going on in my life right now. That obsessive drive I had just is...

The Birds Are Chirping In Their Victorian Boots!

Thu, 11 Apr 2013 11:47:56 EST
Morning SparkBuddies,

Why are the birds chirping in their victorian boots? Well, it’s because I got around 10 hours of sleep last night. Yes, you read that right. Yesterday I changed into my workout clothes at work, went to the gym (stairclimber kicked my butt AGAIN) and went to bed. It must have been around 7pm or so.

IT. WAS.AWESOME.

Is it bad that I can only do 5 minutes at a time on the stairclimber? I'm SO out of shape. I won't give up trying to do the ...

Zzzzzzz

Wed, 10 Apr 2013 16:16:10 EST
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Despite the fact that I’m completely exhausted (rehearsal got out at 11:30 and I got home at 12:30, woke up for work at 5:45am), I’m going to make myself do at LEAST 15 minutes on the Stairclimber. I’ve brought my workout clothes and have absolutely no excuse. Since we did extremely well last night at rehearsal (my director was in tears!), he was kind enough to give us t...

And It Begins…

Tue, 9 Apr 2013 12:19:47 EST
Morning SparkBuddies,

For the next 4 days I will be up until 12am because of rehearsals. Can we say EXHAUSTED? I’m going to do my best to eat well and drink plenty of water. I’ve given up coffee for a while until I can get my anxiety under control, so this morning I’m having a nice hot cup of green tea. Yesterday was an extremely stressful day and despite that stress, I went to Zumba and did some ST. Because of how exhausted I was, I just didn’t have the energy to really shake it ...

In The Next Room

Mon, 8 Apr 2013 12:43:43 EST
Morning SparkBuddies,

The play that I’m in opens in 12 days! Yeah, time has really flown. Rehearsals have picked up and slowly but surely things are coming to gether. Here’s a little bit of info about the show for those that are curious.

In The Next Room or The Vibrator Play:

Sabrina Daldry and Catherine Givings are sexually frustrated with their husbands, who creep quietly into their beds at...

Weigh Day - Week 107

Fri, 5 Apr 2013 17:11:41 EST
**Disclaimer: I refuse to believe that I won't be one of those people that keeps the weight off for life. I WILL do it. I have no doubt I will. There's no way in hell I'm going to be a size 24 again. I can do this. Yes, I'm close to being 200lbs again, and you know what? SO WHAT. I have lost 100lbs regardless of what the scale says today, and I refuse to take that off of my SparkPage. I worked my butt off (literally) for this and I won't give up. If you have ANYTHING negative to say, don't ev...

$1,500 Bag of Chips

Thu, 4 Apr 2013 10:53:47 EST
**I meant to post this last week but never got to it. Enjoy!**

Last week, my co-worker accidentally forgot to lock the brake on his very expensive car and subsequently came out of the convienence store to about $1,500 worth of damage. In case you're confused as to how that happened:

1). Co-Worker gets out of really expensive car to grab a bag of chips.
2). Co-Worker forgets to pull brake on really expensive car.
3). Co-Worker gets chips.
4). Really expensi...

Spanx/Shapewear Forever?

Wed, 3 Apr 2013 17:50:05 EST
I love Spanx. Seriously. They’re amazing. When I worked for Lane Bryant some years ago, I got them ALL OF THE TIME. In fact, they’re so good, I still have a couple of pairs!

I’m sure I’ve mentioned my belly here on Spark before, in fact, my belly gets on my dang nerves. It’s not as bad as it used to be, but good Lord I’m sick of it. There’s loose skin and remainder fat from being 285 that is going to take me forever to get off. As much as it gets on my nerves, it reminds me of how...

Ay! Ay! Zumba! Zumba!

Tue, 2 Apr 2013 11:15:17 EST
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I went to my first Zumba class last night.

IT. WAS. AWESOME.

I got a good sweat in, shook my booty and had a grand ol’ time! I’ll definitely be going back!

No workout this morning, so I’m going to make myself get in the gym tonight after having dinner with a friend.

Have a wonderful day SparkBuddi...

$50, Miss B and The Thrift Stores

Mon, 1 Apr 2013 12:16:11 EST
Happy April!
SparkBuddies, I cleaned up this weekend! I set a budget of $50 to use at 2 different thrift stores in my area and I came out with some great items!

Goodwill and The Salvation Army are my new friends. They’re very nice to me. HA!

Around 85% of my work clothes were all too big, and quite frankly, I was sick of wearing the same thing week after week. So, I budgeted my money and hit up the local thrift stores.

Altogether, I bought:
1 Pair...

Weigh Day - Week 106

Fri, 29 Mar 2013 11:14:18 EST
448 Nutrition = Moderate, yesterday was worst day.
448 Water Intake = Excellent.
448 Exercise = Moderate, could be better.

I honestly don’t get the human body, how is it that I ate ALL of that food yesterday but only gained 2 ounces but if I eat “perfectly” I gain 4? So confusing. I’m not complaining though, I’m really not. I’ve done fairly well this week though despite a lot of emotional issues/rehearsals/shows this week. The human body is a...

Darn You Laziness!

Thu, 28 Mar 2013 11:16:34 EST
Yep, that’s exactly why I didn’t exercise yesterday.

The show went VERY well and we got out around 8pm, which would have given me PLENTY of time to work out.

But of course, I didn’t. I went to bed.

I am going to make a promise to myself that I will do 45 minutes on the treadmill tonight. It’ll be a late night, but it has to happen.

Weighing in tomorrow…*sighs* I just don’t know when I’ll be back to my maintenance range, it seems so far away. Very d...

My Journey and My Matzo

Wed, 27 Mar 2013 13:22:05 EST
Morning SparkBuddies,

As much as I love the weekends, I also dislike them greatly. There are weekends when I’m right on schedule with everything and then there are weekends (like this past one, however awesome it was), where my eating/water schedule goes right out the window.
Nobody’s perfect right?

I haven’t been eating as well as I’d like, but have been tracking either way. I’ve also been exercising pretty consistently and do my best to get at least 30 minutes ...

Hob Knobbing With The Stars

Mon, 25 Mar 2013 11:25:06 EST
SparkBuddies, I had an amazing night last night hob nobbing with celebrities and my theatre family. The energy was positive, loving and absolutely wonderful. I shared a dressing room with some of the ladies from Hot in Cleveland, Roger Bart, Jane Lynch from Glee, Sean Hayes and various others.

IT. WAS. AWESOME.

Not only are they extremely nice, but they’re just regular actors, regular people with extrodinary careers. It really put the fuel in my fire for my craft even m...

I've Been Feautured In The Huffington Post For My Weight Loss!!!

Sat, 23 Mar 2013 13:07:00 EST
CHECK. IT. OUT.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/03/22
/i-lost-weight-brittney-s-wheeler_n_27
92300.html

I AM BESIDE MYSELF WITH HAPPINESS!!!!!!!!!

Weigh Day - Weeks 104 & 105

Fri, 22 Mar 2013 11:08:33 EST
Happy Friday SparkBuddies!

I was still exhausted when I got up this morning, but I did it! I did 30 minutes on the fitness bike and even practiced my songs for my musical theatre class while I pedaled away. Although I was a little disappointed with my weigh in this morning, I can’t REALLY complain because it’s NOT what it was on Friday of last week. I’m STILL disturbed by that weigh in. Soon and very soon I’ll be back in my maintenance range....and beyond it!

See this b...

Ah...Show Business.

Thu, 21 Mar 2013 12:26:45 EST
I’m on day 5 of my workout streak and I’m really proud of myself! As soon as I got home from work I ate dinner and did 30 minutes on the treadmill. I decided to change things up a bit by doing intervals at different speeds, running 1 minute and walking the next. Setting the treadmill on an incline isn’t something I’m going to be able to do until I get a handle on my knee issue. It just cannot take the pressure and although I know it burns more calories, I refuse to damage my knee further by o...

Eye on The Prize

Wed, 20 Mar 2013 11:51:03 EST
Hey SparkBuddies,

No workout this morning because I got home too late from class last night (and had the worst headache on the planet). Had I gotten up, I would have only had 4 hours of sleep which I know is NOT good. Plus, whenever I’m groggy I tend to hurt myself by using incorrect form. One thing I did notice was that as soon as I had gotten up (that extra hour did WONDERS), I wanted to go work out, but of course I didn’t have time. Pretty interesting stuff I would say. The plan...

Not Burning Enough

Tue, 19 Mar 2013 11:25:11 EST
Day 3 of working out was very successful, I even ran for a little bit! I was able to get a bit more sleep last night which is why I’m feeling pretty good this morning, but the next few days are going to be killer. I have my musical theatre class tonight which gets out at 11pm, and the next few days I’ll be getting out at 10:30pm because of my play rehearsal. I’ll be exhausted, but it’ll be worth it.

In the time alotted, I’m not burning enough calories for Spark. I really have only...

Monday Musings

Mon, 18 Mar 2013 11:42:40 EST
Hey SparkBuddies,

Good grief it was hard to get up this morning, but I did it! I did 30 minutes on the treadmill, got a good sweat going and was able to get everything done that I needed to. I’m starting to feel under the weather, so I don’t have as much energy as I’d like, but I am glad I got my workout done with for the day. I’m really proud of myself!

Rehearsal went very last night, and the show is coming along very nicely. I really look forward to digging even deepe...

Back to The Drawing Board

Sun, 17 Mar 2013 09:04:55 EST
I have decided that I will work out every day for the next 5 days (starting off small to give myself a chance to work up to it), whether I'm extremely exhausted or not. Because of rehearsals, I'll have to work out in the morning before work which is going to be extremely difficult. If I'm too tired to run, I'll walk but I WILL do SOMETHING. I usually get up around 5:30 or 5:45, so I'll have to get up at 5am every day no matter how late rehearsal gets out the night before. I'll sleep on my lun...

Facing The Facts

Fri, 15 Mar 2013 18:24:21 EST
I won't be losing any additional weight without putting some serious effort into my exercise regimen.

Ugh.

Trust Your Heart, Take A Chance

Thu, 14 Mar 2013 18:29:59 EST
“Trust your heart if the seas catch fire, live by love though the stars walk backward.”
¯ E.E. Cummings

Lately, I’ve been taking some chances with some huge issues in my life and because I took the chance, I felt like in some small way I was rewarded. Now, I know that this won’t always be the case, but as someone who never used to take chances, I can tell you that so far it has been extremely positive. Because I’ve taken chances and spoken up, I feel weight lifted off of me....

Soul Builder

Wed, 13 Mar 2013 17:33:42 EST

I Survived My Own Self Sabotage: My First 5k ALONE!

Sun, 10 Mar 2013 19:24:42 EST
The mind is a powerful thing, and it almost caused me to not show up to my first 5k which is something I had been excited about for a LONG time. The self sabotage started last night and worked on me up until this morning right as I was getting dressed. I had all kinds of excuses, all kinds of reasons why I shouldn't get up and go. The fear overcame me and my poor BRITT831 had to talk to me through it. I still don't know why I was so nervous, so afraid. It's not like I hadn't done one before, ...

Weigh Day - Week 103

Fri, 8 Mar 2013 11:26:02 EST
1lb lower than last weeks weigh in and I am proud of that. It's not perfect, but it's not horrible. This week was another hard week, but of course, that's not an excuse. I have no doubt I'll get back to my maintenance range, but right now it's going to be slow. The one thing that I have consistently done is drink my 3 liters of water a day, and my body is LOVING it. The main thing I have noticed is that my hands aren't as swollen, which is pretty cool. Each day is a struggle, but I won't give...

15lbs in 33 Days?

Thu, 7 Mar 2013 12:38:59 EST
Yeah, that sounds crazy, even for me. My goal to lose 15lbs by my 2 Year Weight Loss Anniversary in April just isn’t going to happen and I know that. Life has been tough and has certainly gotten in the way of my attempts at trying to get the rest of the weight off. I’ve accepted this and while I am disappointed, I’m not angry with myself. How can I expect to focus solely on weight loss when I’m trying to balance a full plate of responsiblities and activities? This by no means is me saying tha...

Not A Day Goes By

Wed, 6 Mar 2013 12:11:14 EST
In my musical theatre class, we’re studying Stephen Sondheim who is an absolute genius and one of my absolute favorite composers. The song that my teachers gave me is “Not A Day Goes By” from the musical Merrily We Roll Along. The lyrics hit home for me on so many levels that I had to share.

Not a day goes by
Not a single day
But you're somewhere a part of my life
And it looks like you'll stay
As the days go by
I keep thinking when does it end
Where's ...

It Snuck Up On Me!

Tue, 5 Mar 2013 13:53:25 EST
…my 5k that is. It’s this weekend. THIS. WEEKEND. Not only have I not “trained” for it but I’ve been eating terribly the last 2 months. I don’t expect to run the entire thing, but I will try to and will walk when my body tells me to.

All you can do is the best you can right?

Nothing Can Stop Me Now

Mon, 4 Mar 2013 12:40:37 EST
The title of this blog says it all SparkBuddies, I’m fired up and ready to conquer the world. I had a really deep conversation with my mother last night and it has given me the push I needed so badly. There’s nothing standing in my way anymore and I now can take my life into my hands. I can only go up from here.

Goofy and I!

Weigh Day - Week 102

Fri, 1 Mar 2013 14:57:52 EST
I'm not proud of this weeks weigh in, but then again, it's not like I don't know how it happened. I binged and overate. I cried and stressed. I did about 16 minutes of cardio and wasn't consistent with my water intake. I have no excuses, these are just the facts. Losing these additonal 15lbs is going to be harder than trying to take off 100, which was the hardest thing I've ever done in my life.

Happy March SparkBuddies! Time is flyin'!

Since it's Friday, I decided to...

Out of The Pits

Thu, 28 Feb 2013 13:57:37 EST
Hey SparkBuddies,

This week has been so hard, not only because of my depression but also because of work and the anniversary of my grandmother’s death. A new policy that the powers that be in my company was implemented on Monday (on the worst day possible for me personally) and my stress level went through the roof. I was so exhausted physically and emotionally that I went to bed at 6:30 that evening. Cut to today, where the policy has now been cancelled until the powers that be ar...