MINILOVER1's SparkPeople Blog MINILOVER1's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Back In A Rut Here I am again. Gaining weight. Eating everything in sight even though I'm not hungry. I do really well for a couple of days and then right back to binging!! I am not happy with myself at all and very frustrated. Losing weight is not easy but if I don't put some more effort into it, I will just keep gaining. There is no magic pill that will help. I need to gain more willpower and stop eating when I am full or not hungry at all. This is an uphill battle but it seems more like a up mou... Sat, 3 May 2014 05:37:27 EST In A Rut Stuck again a the same numbers -- 224 and 226. I can't seem to get out of this rut! My motivation some days is high and I have a great day but on other days I just can't seem to get moving to exercise. My barn chores give me some cardio but I have stopped doing any other type of exercise like strength training or Walk Away The Pounds like I use to do everyday. I know that I would feel more motivated if I would just get up and exercise but something is stopping me. Mostly my mind set that... Tue, 22 Apr 2014 05:43:28 EST Learning From My Animals We have a 8 month old miniature colt named Monty who is a real handful. He is stubborn, fearless and I think he may have ADD. I took him for a walk the other day trying to train him to walk nicely but he kept wanting to go ahead of me and pulling me. He did not know where we were going but he didn't care. He had no fear of the unknown. Watching him, I got to thinking that I could learn a lesson from him. Don't be afraid to go to unknown areas and out of my comfort zone (like being thinn... Thu, 10 Apr 2014 06:39:42 EST I need to make some changes now! I get so frustrated with myself every day because I do so well during the day but once I am home at night I find myself wanting to each everything in the house. I eat my dinner at 5 PM at work and leave for home at 6 PM. I drive an hour to get home so I am here between 7:15 and 7:30 if I run into traffic or a lot of frost heaves and have to take it slow. My husband is a trucker so is already in bed due to having to get up at midnight to go into work. I know that I am not hungry but I head... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 07:21:58 EST Are You Afraid? Are you afraid to set yourself a weight loss goal because you don't want to fail? No one wants to fail at anything they try but we have to get over that hump and just do it! I am 62 years old and I have wanted to lose over 80 pounds for the last 10 years. I start off great but then I get scared. As the weight starts coming off and I get closer to my goal, all of a sudden I start binging and not tracking my food or exercising. On come the pounds again! <BR> I asked a friend one day why ... Fri, 4 Apr 2014 06:19:04 EST Another Day, Another Step As I sit on the edge of my bed after turning my alarm off, I take a few moments to be grateful to be able to move my arms and legs and sit up by myself. Many people do not have the capability of doing and need help every day. Some days I just do not feel like exercising but then remember that there are others who can't. My joints ache but once I exercise, I feel so motivated and energized for the rest of the day. Just 15 minutes in the morning makes a big difference. <BR> Instead o... Thu, 3 Apr 2014 06:08:31 EST My Measuring Tape is My Best Friend I was starting to get bummed out whenever I stood on my scale and I still am stuck between 224 and 226 but then I did my Monthly Measurements. My body is shrinking! I have lost inches all over my body and did not even realize it!! My clothes are looser but I thought that was because they were old and stretched out but I was wrong. <BR> Whenever you feel like you are not progressing because the NUMBERS on the scale don't change, get out your measuring tape and take your measurements.... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 05:50:34 EST A Way To Prioritize Your Day Here it is April 1st already. Time just seems to fly. Not enough time in one day to do the things I need to do plus try to catch up on other things. I have realized, though, that stressing myself out isn't going to get anything done faster or make the day any longer so I need to do a Priority List. <BR> First thing in the morning, I will write down everything that needs to get done then number them. Like this: <BR> <BR> 1. Dishes <BR> 2. Laundry <BR> 3. Wash Floors <BR> <BR> Then und... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 05:38:32 EST Get Up And Do Something I use to procrastinate to get things done at home and on the farm but one day I realized that I should consider myself very blessed to be able to get out of bed every morning and do anything physical. Many people cannot do this. Instead of sitting in front of the computer playing games or being on FB, I get things marked off my To Do list. This gives me a sense of accomplishment and boosts my spirits. If you can physically move, get out of your chair or off the coach and work on your To ... Thu, 16 Jan 2014 06:30:10 EST Just Isnt Fair People have heard over and over that second hand smoke is worse them smoking itself and I am proof of that. I am 62 years old and was never a smoker. Last year I was having trouble walking up hills so I had my doctor run some tests. The result that he told me was that I have the lungs of a 75 year old man! I am SO mad and frustrated! Why should I have to suffer because other people around me smoke! My parents smoked, my friends smoked and my husband smokes(not in the house or in my truc... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 06:06:00 EST Staying on track Feeling a bit better today. Have to go to a miniature horse club meeting this afternoon then home to spend time with my hubby before he has to go to bed. He is a truck driver and leaves before midnight or around two in the morning. I am glad he is home every night but most of the time he is in bed by the time I get home from work so I eat supper alone a lot. This is when I wind up binging unless I really stay focussed and have the right snack foods handy. I have been reaching for a glass... Sun, 12 Jan 2014 08:26:23 EST Read Your Past Blogs. It was an eye opener. I just skimmed through all the blogs that I have written and just reading the titles I can see where my motivation was high and where it where it was low and why. I have a head cold and sore throat today but I am going to stay focussed my exercise and eating. We can do this! <BR> <BR> Fri, 10 Jan 2014 05:54:51 EST A New Year. A new chance to succeed. Hello, again. I am at the weight I was on 1/1/13. I guess that it is a good thing that I didn't have a gain but my goal was to lose at least 20 pounds for the year. That is in the past and now I am looking to the future. I can't change it so no sense in stressing out over it. With the help of my Spark friends and SparkPeople, I will do my best to stay focused on my goal. I CAN DO It!! Wed, 1 Jan 2014 08:35:12 EST Joining the "Starting Over Again" members Here I go again. Picking myself up and getting back into the game. Eating has been out of control and exercising has been almost nonexistent. Pulled three ligaments in my left foot so haven't been doing my Walk Away The Pounds DVD's but I have been getting the barn chores done. I have arthritis in my hands so have to go see a Orthopedic doctor this month. Tried to do strength training but I can't grip the weights with my hands. Too much pain. SO!!! I can sit here and just don't exerc... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 06:13:11 EST Emotional week This week has really been an emotional one for me. Saturday, I have to attend the funeral of a dear friend of over 30 years. His wife, who was my best friend, passed away last September. They were both wonderful people. On Monday, I sprained my ankle and now have to wear an ankle brace for awhile so no exercising like I use to do. Yesterday, our miniature mare lost her foal. She had 63 more days to go but I guess it just wasn't meant to be. She lost a foal last year too. We will not b... Fri, 14 Jun 2013 05:19:59 EST Just can't get it together!! Last week I lost a dear friend of over 30 years pass away. He was the husband of my best friend, Molly, who passed away on 9/11/12 from brain cancer. I had introduced Dan and Molly and they were married for close to 20 years. Now I find myself wondering when my time will come to go to the Lord. A few months ago, my doctor informed me that I have the lungs of a 75 year old man due to my being around second hand smoke all my life. I am 61 years old. I was never a smoker. Recently, I am fi... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 07:26:56 EST Write The Letter <em>335</em> I'm gonna sit right down and write myself a letter and make believe it came from you <em>335</em> How many of you remember that old song? Seems like centuries ago that it came out. On my way to work yesterday (an hour ride), this tune just popped into my head and it gave me an idea for this blog. Many years ago, I did write myself a letter when I was trying to decide what to do for a stressful and unhappy marriage I was in. One day, I took a pad of paper and a pen and ... Wed, 29 May 2013 05:41:22 EST I am very upset with myself Today has started off very frustrating. I couldn't find any pants to wear. All my size 22's are in the dryer and won't be dry for at least another 1/2 hour. I have to leave for work in 8 minutes. Searching through my drawers and closet, I found a pair of 20's that I could squeeze into but I will be uncomfortable all day long because they fight very tight in the waistband. The real part that makes me so upset is that I have 6 perfectly good pairs of size 18's that I can not fit into. I ... Wed, 22 May 2013 07:26:53 EST Back in the race I really need to get my head back into my goals!! I have not been journaling or blogging in over two weeks or more. Never realized what a different it makes to my weight loss when I do stay on track. Right now I am 4.25 pounds away from my goal for April. Bad choices in foods and not staying on my exercise program has really hurt me. I was using excuses for not exercising instead of staying positive. Went back and read alot of my old blogs and am now ready to start again. I will do th... Sun, 21 Apr 2013 08:32:47 EST Don't Lose It, Remove It I may have had a blog regarding this already but I feel that it is important to repeat it. When we are eating healthy, we say we are losing weight or we want to lose a certain amount of weight. Losing it is good but it we say we are removing it then it is better because if we lose something, we usually find it again (lbs). Working hard again to stay on track and focused on our goals becomes a little harder. If we say we are ""removing or have removed" the pounds, then it becomes a mindse... Sun, 31 Mar 2013 07:40:20 EST Why We Need To Drink Water I know that when I do not drink at least 8 glasses a day, I did an experiment to see if there was a difference in how I felt if I didn't drink enough water during the day and I discovered that I got tired in the middle of the day, loss focus on my work and my joints and muscles ached. When I drank my water, I felt refreshed, stayed focused on the task I was working on and felt so much better all day long. Try it yourself and see what a difference it makes to you. <BR> <BR> This link i... Sat, 30 Mar 2013 08:22:46 EST Making Healthy Choices at Easter time Chocolate M&M's, Cadbury eggs, Milk Chocolate Bunnies, Peepers. Wow! So many calories in all of those. Easter is a wonderful time of year but I know that I have to be strong and not eat any candy because I won't stop at just a little bit. I have worked hard to get where I am at and no bunnies, peppers or chocolate candies are going to sabotage my efforts. I will remember that special little word and keep repeating it to myself. No! No! No! Is one moment of chocolate on your lips and going... Fri, 29 Mar 2013 05:51:59 EST Give Away A Smile How many of us pass people in the hallway at work and don't say hi or good morning to? I have worked for the same company for over seven years now. I would not make eye contact with anyone I passed. Why did I do that? Probably because I had the fear of rejection. No one likes to be rejected! One day I decided that for that day I would look at the other person, smile and say good morning or hi. WOW!!! A whole new world opened up to me. The other people smiled back and said hi!! Now, I... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 05:43:23 EST Is It Worth It? A lot of times I use to binge after eating but my husband has helped me get over it. I told him that when he sees me grabbing for something more to eat when I had just eaten, for him to ask me, "Is it worth it?" This makes me stop and think about it. Is this moment of food worth all the effort I have put into exercising and tracking my food just to go over on my calories for a weak moment? NO! Nothing can taste as good as healthy feels!! It is not worth it!! Put the food back and give y... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 06:24:04 EST Was I being rude? A few days ago, I wrote a blog entitled, "My Boss Is A Saboteur" about my boss bringing food into the office that my co worker (and long time friend) should not be eating. Jeff, my co worker, is over 400 pounds, has high blood pressure, goat and bad knees. To give you an update, yesterday my boss comes out of her office and says, to Jeff and I "I'm buying lunch. What would you like?" Jeff perked up and said, "Chinese food!". He got the Crispy Chicken with all the sauce but that was all. ... Sat, 23 Mar 2013 06:51:20 EST You controlled the fork. Now control the weights. A couple of years ago, I did not exercise at all except for my daily housework and farm chores. My feelings were, "Exercise to me was a very naughty word!! Don't talk to me about exercising or strength training!! You can go do all you want but don't expect me to join you!! " But then the pounds started jumping on and I was getting very disappointed because I hurt all the time and didn't want to do anything. One day, when I was feeling sorry for myself, I realized that I am the only on... Fri, 22 Mar 2013 06:21:29 EST Do It For You! What are your reasons for wanting to lose weight? Is it because your spouse or DH makes remarks about your extra weight? Do you want to buy new clothes and fit into woman sizes instead of plus sizes? Do you want to impress your friends at a reunion or your family? Whatever your reason is, you must remember that the main thing is to do it for you! It doesn't matter what others think about your weight! What you do about it and how you feel is the most important thing. If you try to do i... Thu, 21 Mar 2013 06:37:07 EST Start each day with a positive attitude. We all have our good days and bad days but some of us let the bad days continue on and on and on until we have no motivation to want to track our food or exercise. I have done that many times and all it got me was more weight to take off then when I started. Sure there are days that I just don't feel like coming on to SparkPeople and tracking my food but if I don't, I have a large gain because I have no clue as to how many calories I put into my body for that day. Working twice as hard to ... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 06:24:44 EST A little voice told me off I did not want to exercise today! I'm tired and I have alot of things to get done before I head off to work. I don't have the time to exercise now. The dishes need to get done and then the barn chores. How am I going to do all of this and get to work on time???? Suddenly I heard this little voice inside of me that said, "Stop your darn whining. You can fit even 15 minutes of exercise in. The dishes aren't going anywhere and you can do them tonight. The horses aren't starving and besid... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 07:34:18 EST My boss is a saboteur!! Yesterday my boss (one of them) asked my co worker, Jeff, if he wanted pizza for lunch. He said yes and then she asked me and I told her no thank you. I have my planned salad and fruit in my lunchbox. Real snotty like she said, "Well, then. Be that way!" Now let me explain something here. Jeff weighs over 400 pounds and is trying to lose weight. He has high cholesterol, high blood pressure, gout and bad knees. He also has no willpower! He told me that his doctor told him that he sho... Sat, 16 Mar 2013 07:59:05 EST Sweat Is Good!! Lately, I have noticed that when I have been exercising, I did not sweat. This may sound like a good thing but actually it isn't. lol I have discovered that if I do not break into a sweat when I am exercising, I am not making my muscles really work. Today I increased the weights a little and worked out a bit longer and guess what. I am sweaty and I love it!! Not over doing it on the exercising either. Am in my heart range and not completely exhausted when I was done. Yes. Sweat is goo... Fri, 15 Mar 2013 06:23:43 EST Baby Steps Setting goals and meeting them are two separate animals entirely. When I sit down and write out my short and long term goals and really look at what I have written, I sometimes become overwhelmed with thinking that the goals seem so far away. Then I think that maybe they aren't! If I take one baby step at a time towards my goals instead of trying to do giant steps, these can be achieved. Break it all down into one day at a time. Today, I will track my food and get in at least 10 minutes ... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 06:05:43 EST Today Today, I am going to stay positive and motivated. Today, I will not let any negativity into my life. Today, I will smile and say hello to more coworkers. Today, I am blessed. Just one day at a time is what it is going to take and today is my new beginning. Make today your day to take care of you. <em>247</em> Tue, 12 Mar 2013 06:02:14 EST It isn't going to just drop off. If you want something to happen, you have to make it happen!! Weight is not just going to fall off suddenly!! It took a short time to put it on but will take awhile to get it off depending on how much effort a person puts into it. One day at a time and one bite at a time. I have to remind myself of this all the time. Don't expect to wake up one morning at your goal weight and looking 10 years younger. Have to put a great effort into your journey. Just do it! Mon, 11 Mar 2013 06:35:37 EST Hard time staying within calorie range When you lose weight, you have to adjust your calorie intake for the weight you are at. I am finding it difficult to stay within the range that I should be in. I keep going over every day. Tracking my food helps but sometimes I don't track it until the end of the day and I find that I am over. My main problem, I think, is that I do fine all day long with my eating because I pack a lunch and don't keep unhealthy foods in my drawer at work but when I get home is another story. Being tired ... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 06:57:47 EST Don't Fence Yourself In When I was growing up, I loved watching Roy Rogers and Gene Autry westerns. Been in love with horses ever since and own 6 now. There is a song called "Don't Fence Me In". I was watching my mares out in the pasture this morning, They were all looking over the fence out into the woods. I got to thinking that they may have been wondering what was on the other side and if anything was good to eat there but they couldn't go because of the electric fence. This got me to thinking that I have be... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 06:19:24 EST Change it up! Have you every noticed with your exercise program that you get bored? Doing the same routine over and over all the time without any change becomes boring and soon you just stop exercising. I try to mix my routines up a bit. Some days I do cardio and some strength training and other days I just do strength training or just cardio. When I do cardio, some times I will do a walking DVD or I will do a mile on my gazelle. With strength training, some times I use the weights and some times I u... Fri, 1 Mar 2013 06:28:04 EST Don't let your brain control you! Our brain (or mind) is a very powerful instrument. It controls our thoughts and our movements. Take for example the thought of eating something that we know isn't on our healthy eating plan but we want passionately. The brain does let us make our own decisions whether they are the right ones or the wrong ones. That is the complicated part! If the brain would just make the decision for us, life would be much easier, wouldn't it? Yep, it sure would but what kind of person would we be if t... Thu, 28 Feb 2013 06:59:41 EST Be an ant How many of us remember the song where the ant keeps trying to move the rubber tree plant but couldn't? Whenever I get knocked down or slip up on my diet and exercising, I think of the words of the song that says, "Pick yourself up, brush yourself off and start all over again." This motivates me to not let life's bad days ruin my journey to my goal. That is one good thing: We can always start over. Never give up on yourself no matter what may come your way! Do it for you!! Tue, 26 Feb 2013 05:55:23 EST Take 15 How much time do you use doing things for others? Don't you deserve at least 15 minutes to exercise each day? It will improve your attitude and health so what is stopping you? Don't procrastinate!! Take 15 for you! <em>311</em> <em>362</em> <em>224</em> Mon, 25 Feb 2013 06:28:17 EST Just Do It! Wasn't feeling too well yesterday and not much better today but I did do my exercising. I just have to tell myself that I need to exercise at least a few minutes a day because if I don't, I will slid back into the bad habit of not exercising at all. Excuses and procrastinating is easy but it won't make me any healthier or slimmer. My To Do List is a mile long but I know that the list will still be there once I take care of me. We must take time for ourselves to be healthier and able to be... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 07:42:16 EST Organizing It's Frriiidaaay!! WooHoo!! So glad the weekend is almost here. I am planning on organizing my cupboards and finding out just what I do have to eat healthy and cook good meals. I know that there are a lot of canned goods that I can donate to our local food pantry that I will never use due to their salt content. As far as my pots and pans, we inherited two households of them when my husband's mother and stepfather passed away so I have duplicates of just about everything!! After sorting ... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 05:28:12 EST Eat Like A Small Bird As I look out my window and see the birds at the bird feeders, I realized what the saying, "Eat like a bird", actually meant. Birds land on the feeder, take a few seeds or suet, and fly away. A little later on, they come back and repeat the same procedure. They do not sit there and gorge themselves until they are full like us humans do alot of times. Small bites, leave the feeder, come back for more small bites. Why do we as humans feel we need to shovel our food into our bodies as if it... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 06:06:08 EST Wrong choices for the day I have been home for the last two days due to not having a car to go to work and I was bored so guess what I did yesterday. Yep, I ate anything I could that wasn't tied down or frozen. Too much bread and carbs!! When I weighed myself on Tuesday morning, I had a 2.25 pound gain. I haven't weighed in yet this morning but I know I am probably up over the 230 mark again! Thinking back, I know I made alot of bad choices but today is a new day and I have to work harder now to get rid of the ga... Wed, 20 Feb 2013 06:19:30 EST Changes In my busy everyday life, I found it very difficult to have time for me. Time for me to work on my health or other projects that I had started and never finished. Many daily things have to come first. Like taking care of the animals, housework, working a full time job etc. There just wasn't any time or strength for me to exercise or get onto SparkPeople so one day I decided that if I didn't take time for ME then someday there may be no ME to do the things that need to be done. My physica... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 06:13:43 EST The Brain Argument Within When I get a craving, I find that I start an argument in my head about whether or not to give in to the craving or make the right food choice. I will open the freezer door of my refrigerator and look at that gallon of ice cream that my husband bought. Now, let me explain that my husband weighs a whopping 118 pounds and can eat anything in sight without gaining an ounce. As I stare at the ice cream, the argument starts. "Do I really want something that I will really enjoy? " My one side of... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 05:32:30 EST Very Very Lucky! I had a wonderful day yesterday. Exercised, did housework, caught up on a few things and was feeling awesome. UNTIL!! My husband called me and told me that he was at the end of our road and the motor fell out of the car!! We have put alot of work and money into that car this past year and now this. He had it towed to a friend's house not far from where he broke down and got a ride home. I was very upset because we have only two vehicles on the road and we both work different hours. The... Sun, 17 Feb 2013 05:53:15 EST Be like a sculptor of your body I was looking through a magazine the other day and came upon a picture of a marble statue which got me to doing some heavy thinking. It took the sculptor many months to complete his marvel. He did not just take his chisel one day and chopped away at the stone but took off small bits at a time so the result would be what he wanted. One shortcut could of ruined the stone and he would have to start over again. This reminds me that I can't keep trying to take off all my excess weight quickly ... Sat, 16 Feb 2013 05:08:58 EST Don't let your weekend become your "weak end". I have a a real good week and now comes the weekend. I use to go off my food and exercise plan on the weekends but now I stay on track and treat them just like the rest of the week. Weekends can not be an excuse to binge or treat myself to something that I don't ordinarily eat and gain weight. I won't let my weekend become my "weak end" of my plan. It will be my "tight end" where I will keep all my good foods "tight" and close to me so I will not be tempted to make the wrong choices. Exe... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 05:18:44 EST Results from Wellness Clinic Good news!! All went well at the Clinic and the Nutritionist who went over my numbers with me (Cholesterol, sugar etc) asked me if I was on any medications and I asked her why. (Being a little worried why she asked). She said, "You aren't taking any medications?" (Starting to get a bit more worried now). I told her that I am not on amy type of medication for anything. She looked at me and said, "You have the numbers of a teenager!. How do you do it?" (Big sigh of relieve now!!). I told ... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 05:05:50 EST