MINILOVER1's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MINILOVER1 MINILOVER1's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Saboteur #7 "I'll Start First Thing Tomorrow Morning" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6102608 Since you are going to "start first thing tomorrow" that means you can indulge one last time, right? Wrong!! You must remember that this day shall never come again. Think of this statement the next time you think or say "start tomorrow!" If something is truly important to you, why wouldn't you want to start it right away? How many of us have said, "I'll start tomorrow" prior to starting eating healthy or exercising? Did you actually get started? How long did it last? <BR> <BR> You have to ... Tue, 23 Feb 2016 06:14:36 EST Saboteur #6 Just a Little Bite http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6102045 Have you ever said to yourself, "I'll only have one bite" but it leads into two bites, three bites and goes on until you ate the whole thing? Sometimes just a bite is all we need to satisfy our craving. Here are a few ways you can have "just a bite": <BR> 1. Eat the bite slowly and enjoy its flavor, texture, aroma and taste. Think only of that one bite and savor the moment. Some say that the first bite is the most pleasurable. <BR> 2. After taking a bite of, say, a piece of cake or browni... Mon, 22 Feb 2016 12:20:51 EST Saboteur #5 Entitlement http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6101073 This one can be very tricky because it catches you at your weakest moments. Have you ever said to yourself, "I'm tired. I worked hard all day so I deserve this (enter sugar, fat, and calorie-laden treat here)." "I've earned this treat, right?" Maybe we are exhausted from the day, maybe we don't want to put in the effort to prepare something healthy, or maybe we just plain don't care tonight. <BR> When the saboteur raises its ugly head, it is time for us to take back the power. All you have ... Sun, 21 Feb 2016 08:27:21 EST Saboteur #4 Devil or Angel http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6100366 Have you ever been in a situation where you have to make a decision to eat something that is not healthy for you or to just leave it alone? I have many times. It's like having a little devil on my right shoulder saying, "Yes, eat it. You've blown your plan today anyway" and an angel on my left shoulder saying, "No, don't. Is it really worth it?" Decisions, decisions, decisions. "I want that chocolate bar because I already went over my daily goals anyway so what difference will it make." "But ... Sat, 20 Feb 2016 08:07:18 EST Saboteur #3 Other People http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6098319 You are trying real hard to lose your weight and be healthier but then you run into people who say to you, "I liked the old you. You use to go out to eat with me all the time." The problem with that is that we weren't happy with the old us. Being afraid of losing friends because we want to be healthy should not be something we need to deal with. I figure that I am doing this for me not for anyone else and if other people can not except that then that is too bad. <BR> How many of us have had... Wed, 17 Feb 2016 16:34:35 EST Saboteur #2 Eating Cues http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6097533 How many times have we finished eating, went into the livingroom, turned on the TV and a food commercial will come on from an fast food place, a store etc. We watch it and what happens??? We feel like we need to eat again even though we just ate 5 or 10 minutes ago. <BR> Another scenario: We aren't hungry but then we drive past a McDonald's, Wendy's, Dunkin Donuts and all of a sudden there it is again. That "I'm hungry" feeling but we are on our way home to supper. What do we do? I have an ... Tue, 16 Feb 2016 18:06:27 EST The 7Saboteurs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6096477 In 2010, I posted a series of blogs entitled " 7 Saboteurs" and in reading through them today, I thought that I would share them again since they really opened my eyes. hope they do yours too. <BR> <BR> Saboteur #1 <BR> <BR> Have you ever felt that you are being pulled into a thousand different directions from work, your business, your family and things that pop up when you least expect them too? Everyday life is what that is called. You can't avoid it and turn into a mushroom. We have t... Mon, 15 Feb 2016 12:55:26 EST The 7Saboteurs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6096476 In 2010, I posted a series of blogs entitled " 7 Saboteurs" and in reading through them today, I thought that I would share them again since they really opened my eyes. hope they do yours too. <BR> <BR> Saboteur #1 <BR> <BR> Have you ever felt that you are being pulled into a thousand different directions from work, your business, your family and things that pop up when you least expect them too? Everyday life is what that is called. You can't avoid it and turn into a mushroom. We have t... Mon, 15 Feb 2016 12:55:26 EST Starting training to walk another 5K http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6093323 For the past two years, I have participated in a <em>364</em> for Linda's Closet here in one of our New Hampshire towns. It is a beautiful walk around Granite Lake which consists of some paved road but a lot of dirt road and hills. <em>311</em> Now I am getting motivated to do my third one in September of this year. My <em>56</em> has decreased each year and I did come in ahead of 10 other <em>342</em> instead of being last the previous year. <BR> My plan is to do the 3... Thu, 11 Feb 2016 08:10:53 EST Making the right choices http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6091613 Many times I have made the wrong food choices when I am very hungry. Grabbing whatever is there or convenient to fix, is mostly what I would eat and most of the time it was not on my diet plan. Having to stop and think about what I really should be eating was a very difficult habit to get into but it does pay off on the scale. I am not always perfect with my choices but I don't beat myself up for eating unhealthy. It's over. I ate it. Move on. It isn't easy but thinking positive that I can ma... Tue, 9 Feb 2016 08:28:53 EST Shoulda, Coulda, Woulda http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6090643 Have you ever not exercised then say to yourself, "I shoulda exercised, I coulda taken the time to exercise instead of watching TV, I woulda felt better and been closer to my goal?" I am great for the shoulda, coulda, woulda's. Now I am trying to avoid saying those by getting myself going and exercising instead of procrastinating so much. I know that I feel more energized and limber once I have worked out on my stationary bike/elliptical for 15 minutes or more. I am learning to see my ex... Mon, 8 Feb 2016 06:34:31 EST Just Laugh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6089457 When you find yourself in a grouchy mood <em>234</em> , just laugh <em>334</em> . Laughter is the best medicine around and it is free. You can't be angry, frustrated or depressed if you laugh out loud. Laughing is good exercise for the abdominal muscles and your lungs. Watching your pets play or playing with them is sure to make you laugh. Just go somewhere by yourself or even with friends, take a deep breath and let out with a healthy laugh. Laugh until tears run down your cheeks. Yo... Sat, 6 Feb 2016 17:41:09 EST BE SELFISH FOR YOU http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6088148 When you are at a friend's house, are you afraid to say no when offered food that you know isn't on your food list just because you don't want to hurt someone's feelings? Do you fall for the "one small bite won't hurt you. You have to try it", from your friend? I know I have been in both situations but you know what I discovered? Even though I did not eat the food that was offered, my friend was still my friend and understood that I was saying no to the food and not our friendship. <B... Thu, 4 Feb 2016 23:44:11 EST Schedule It! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6086799 I was cleaning out my home office the other day and found my old large dry eraser board that I use to use to do presentations when I was with a product company. Thought that I had thrown it out many years ago. So I said to myself, "Self, why don't you set it up on the table in your bedroom and each day write down what you need to accomplish the next day and the time span for each item?" So, I did and you know what??? It really helps keep me focused on getting things done and within the t... Wed, 3 Feb 2016 12:50:36 EST LIVE FOR YOU! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6085622 Have you ever asked yourself why you want to lose weight and get healthy? Is it because of any of the following reasons? <BR> 1. My husband/significant other or family tell me I am fat and I need to lose a few pounds. <BR> 2. I want to be able to fit into a nice two piece bikini this summer so I will look good at the beach. <BR> 3. My health insurance will be lower if I meet the guidelines set by a corporate wellness program. <BR> 4. I want to hear compliments like "you loo... Tue, 2 Feb 2016 08:20:12 EST New Month, New Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6084782 February 1, 2016 Here I am again attempting to do a blog every day of the month for February. I start out real strong and motivated to write but within a few days my motivation seems to go on vacation and I don't take the time to write. My life has changed in the last month due to my retiring in December 2015. I now find that I can do all the things I have been having to put off in the house and with our horses because I didn't have the time or energy. Last month, I went into a slump and... Mon, 1 Feb 2016 11:14:10 EST Day Thirteen Of My New Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6051151 I did not do any other eating after dinner last night and I have discovered that when I am tired, I think I need to eat but aren't really hungry. Today I am going to start a journal and write down how I am feeling when I think I am hungry. I know that emotions can affect cravings and I will have to find a way to divert to something else. Pick up my book that I have put aside or finish the jigsaw puzzle I have been working on could be the solution. Tue, 22 Dec 2015 09:59:35 EST Day Twelve Of My New Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6050117 Worked around the farm and house today but didn't do any Strength or Cardio per se. I made a recipe from SP for dinner called Tator Tot Turkey casserole that was good and my husband even liked it. I got hungry about an hour after dinner so I had a yogurt instead of digging into the leftovers. I am trying to stay in control of my eating and portions but the little sabotage devil whispers in my ear and I give in. Need to knock him off my shoulder when that happens. Sun, 20 Dec 2015 08:29:07 EST Day Eleven Of My New Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6049207 I did well and had a good day but didn't do my Strength Training exercises. I looked them up on SP, decided which ones I was going to do and then sat oin my recliner and read FB for two hours instead of exercising. Around 11:00 PM, I raided the refrigerator! I was very tired and should of just gone to bed instead of eating! But that day is over and today is a new day! Fri, 18 Dec 2015 06:04:02 EST Day Ten Of My New Life - http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6047952 I finally got it right!! Increased my exercise time, eating more fruits, drinking more water and including more vegetables in my meals and the scale is going down!! Just those small adjustments and what a difference. I always knew that taking in less calories and exercising would result in weight loss but was too comfortable in my comfort zone to really even want to make any changes to eat better or get off the couch to get moving. <BR> I now enjoy making time to exercise ev... Tue, 15 Dec 2015 15:03:43 EST Day Nine Of My New Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6047448 What a good day I had. Stayed on track and increased my Strength Training time and drank 6 glasses of water. Have to work more on the water. I didn't eat after dinner either. Mon, 14 Dec 2015 15:29:45 EST Day Eight Of My New Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6046750 Last night my husband made a green salad with tomatoes, celery, onion and Ken's Valida Onion dressing for dinner and then we had a couple of leftover KFC chicken. I also had a biscuit with butter. I know that I need to eat healthier dinners and my husband ( who weighs 128 pounds) said he wants to eat healthy too. It will be fun sharing healthy recipes. ( he was a chef in the Army). I didn't eat anything after dinner so I am on my way to a good habit! Sun, 13 Dec 2015 08:48:59 EST Day Seven Of My New Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6046381 Last night, my husband brought home KFC with all the fixings. I know that I should of taken the skin off the two drumsticks and thighs I ate but I didn't. I had a small helping of mashed potatoes and gravy and Cole slaw with the chicken. Now the good part is that I did not go back for seconds and I did not eat anything else the rest of the night. I know that I can control my portions and what I eat better so starting today, I will pay attention to what my food choices are and what my sto... Sat, 12 Dec 2015 12:24:50 EST Day Six Of My New Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6045891 Again I did well all day and then binged! I was very tired and should of just gone to bed at 11:00 when my husband went to work but NO I had to hit the refrigerator and eat unhealthy food. Maybe if I put duct tape over my mouth I won't eat. Now I have to work twice as hard to lose the weight. Very frustrating but I'm not giving up! I will stay positive and work out what my nighttime triggers are. I know there is a solution and I will find it! Fri, 11 Dec 2015 11:32:57 EST Day Five Of My New Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6045520 So far. So good. I have eaten healthy all day and am having a Lean Cuisine for dinner. Going to the store and buying heathy choices plus fruit to have in case of any cravings will help me to stay on track. I know that once I make eating right a habit that I will do automatically, losing weight will come easier. Thu, 10 Dec 2015 17:35:46 EST Day Four Of My New Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6044670 Yesterday I did well with my eating UNTIL after dinner!! I had made a chicken, broccoli and rice stew for dinner and it was very good. Measured out my portion and was full. My husband went to bed around 5 PM (he is a trucker and had to be up at 11:00 pm). Well, that is when I started grazing! I ate two chocolate cookies and finished off the potato salad (about 1 cup) that was left over from another meal and I wasn't even hungry! <BR> I know that I should of found something to do un... Wed, 9 Dec 2015 06:04:00 EST Day Three Of My New Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6044227 Today is cardio workout day on my exercise program. So I took my tablet, logged into SparkPeople and found an article on what makes us overeat and got on my stationary bike. By the time I had finished the article, I had completed over 3 miles and 15 minutes of exercise without realizing it! I am hoping to find other ways to exercise without it being something I dread doing. Mixing up the strength training ones will be good too. Looking forward to tomorrow with a positive attitude. Tue, 8 Dec 2015 09:37:01 EST Day Two Of My New Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6043598 With all my good intentions of eating right yesterday, I binged and ate out of control. Not sure what triggered the binge but I had to drive an hour to a meeting then back to a meeting at my church. I stopped at the store and bought a wrap and some cheese sticks for my trip. I ate only the meat and cheese from the wrap and a half of the cheese stick. At our church meeting, there was Chocolate cake and I had a large piece. I know that I should of passed it up but gave in. When I got h... Mon, 7 Dec 2015 05:59:10 EST Day One of My New Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6043121 Today I did Walk Away The Pounds Fat Burning One Mile video. I had to talk myself into getting out of my recliner and get moving. When I was a few minutes into the workout, I realized how much fun it was to do it again. After completing the one mile, I was breathing heavy and was tired but I was happy that I actually finished. Once I recovered from the exercise, I went outside and fed my 11 horses and put them out to pasture, cleaned their stalls, emptied the water buckets and refilled ... Sun, 6 Dec 2015 08:56:55 EST A new chapter, A new me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6042809 On December 2, 2015, I turned 64 years old so decided that I would give myself a nice gift and retired on December 4, 2015 from my job and now can focus more on tracking my food and sticking to an exercise program that I can do at anytime. I have to stay motivated and make myself accountable. Many times I have started strong and then lost interest. Making my exercises more fun instead of something I had to do will help a lot. So, tomorrow is a new chapter in my life and a journey to the... Sat, 5 Dec 2015 15:31:24 EST Do It Anyway! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5844477 I went to my doctor's appointment yesterday to go over my blood work results and my triglycerides are a little high but not serious so I am on meds for that for a month. The arthritis in both my hands has been making my hands ache a lot so I am also on Celebrex for one month to see if that helps. I also am Vitamin D deficient so I am on a med for that until summer. Now I could say to myself that my hands hurt too much to do any strength training with dumbbells but I would be the dumb bell! ... Sat, 3 Jan 2015 06:21:36 EST New Year Goals Instead Of Resolutions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5842538 2015!! Who would ever think when we were young that we would even seen 2015! As I look out my window at our horses in the pasture, I realize that I need to be around to see 2016 and more! I never complete resolutions so I am going to set both mini goals and longer goals for this year and take one day at a time. My motivation needs to stay on the high side and I can't let anyone or anything put me in a negative mood. Only positive thoughts will be in my mind. I am going to make a collag... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 08:01:46 EST I DID IT!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5779533 Yesterday, I walked my first 5K race. It was not an easy task being 62 years old and over 50 lbs overweight and out of shape but I did finish! I was last place but I am just glad that I was able to complete the walk. Some of the course was pavement (broken up in places) but most of it was dirt that was just graded the day before so consisted of a lot of small stones. Two large hills and a couple of small ones but the rest was flat. After walking the first mile (which consisted of one of ... Sun, 14 Sep 2014 08:14:24 EST Just One More http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777738 Working on getting ready for the 5K this Saturday so I figured I would do 5 miles on my stationary bike. I reached the 5 mile mark then I had to cool down, right so I did a slower mile which makes 6. I then felt good so I headed for the 7th mile and made it. Of course, I had to cool down again so I did another mile. That makes 8. Well, since I made it to 8 I will try for 9. I made that too! So had to do another cool down to made it to the 10th mile. I stopped at 10.3 miles only becaus... Thu, 11 Sep 2014 07:37:46 EST What Was I Thinking??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5776307 Here I am at 228 pounds and 62 years old. I have signed up for 3 5K walks in the next few weeks! What was I thinking??? My knees hurt and I have to hold on to something when I go up and down stairs because my right knee feels weak. <BR> You know what I was thinking? <em>521</em> I am upright and breathing every day and able to do a lot of physical things that others can not do. I exercise every day plus do farm chores before putting in an 8 hour day at work! This girl is not rea... Tue, 9 Sep 2014 06:21:10 EST Do I really want to exercise today? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5764025 Every day I ask myself if I really want to exercise today. What I really want to do is to go onto Facebook and play my games before I have to do barn chores and get ready for work. Then a little voice inside of me says, "Do you want to be healthy or do you want to sit and get bigger?" I realize that I am only hurting myself by not getting up and moving. The games and my Facebook friends can wait. I am sure that the world won't come to an end for 30 minutes or so while I do strength training o... Thu, 21 Aug 2014 05:32:20 EST Easy On, Hard Off http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5760454 If you want something to happen, you have to make it happen!! Weight is not just going to fall off suddenly!! It took a short time to put it on but will take awhile to get it off depending on how much effort a person puts into it. One day at a time and one bite at a time. I have to remind myself of this all the time. Don't expect to wake up one morning at your goal weight and looking 10 years younger. Have to put a great effort into your journey. Just do it! <BR> <BR> Fri, 15 Aug 2014 19:05:00 EST Saboteurs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5759864 You are trying real hard to lose your weight and be healthier but then you run into people who say to you, "I liked the old you. You use to go out to eat with me all the time." The problem with that is that we weren't happy with the old us. Being afraid of losing friends because we want to be healthy should not be something we need to deal with. I figure that I am doing this for me not for anyone else and if other people can not except that then that is too bad. <BR> How many of us have had... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 20:51:15 EST Triggers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5759172 I went off my food plan yesterday and gained 1 pound so now I am working hard to exercise and eat right to have a good loss by my Sunday weight in. I couldn't sleep last night so I got out of bed and reheated a cold turkey burger and ate that on a hamburger bun. WHY DID I DO THAT? I was tired and not really hungry but I did it anyway. Now I have to work twice as hard to get back to where I was or lower on the scale. Frustrating but I am the one who went to the refrigerator. What I shoul... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 20:16:06 EST No More Pity Train http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5758485 I really went over a lot on my calories today and I know that the scale will show it tomorrow but today is over and tomorrow is another new start. The wagon might have tipped a bit but I am still hanging on and not giving up. We all backslide a bit once in a while but we can't let it get us thinking negative thoughts like "I can't do this!" or "I failed again" or "I will never lose weight". KICK THOSE THOUGHTS RIGHT DOWN THE STREET! No more thinking like that! <em>381</em> all we ne... Tue, 12 Aug 2014 20:20:19 EST Eat Like A Bird http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5757282 As I look out my window and see the birds at the bird feeders, I realized what the saying, "Eat like a bird", actually meant. Birds land on the feeder, take a few seeds or suet, and fly away. A little later on, they come back and repeat the same procedure. They do not sit there and gorge themselves until they are full like us humans do alot of times. Small bites, leave the feeder, come back for more small bites. Why do we as humans feel we need to shovel our food into our bodies as if it is o... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 04:56:44 EST What A Challenging Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5756738 It was fun riding the motorcycle Poker Run for cancer yesterday but one thing went wrong. I lost my Smart Phone! It bounced off the passenger seat of the motorcycle (I ride in the side car) when we left one of the stops. When we got to the next stop, 15 miles away) the person who was riding behind us asked me if I had my cell phone. I checked and it was gone. She said that she saw something come flying off our bike about a tenth of a mile from our last stop and she hit her brakes but did... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 07:57:31 EST It Is Going To Be Hard But I Can Do It!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755973 Tomorrow my husband and I will be riding our motorcycle (with a sidecar) on a two hour charity run. It will be our first time and I am very excited about going but my worry is at the end of the ride they are having a BBQ with mainly wings and deep fried fries and onion rings. No salads! No fruits! I have done very well this week with my food choices and have had a good loss. I don't want to blow it all away just because I give in to the Wing Monster or fried foods. Packing a salad and h... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 21:21:21 EST Oh Poor Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755330 Have you ever felt that you are being pulled into a thousand different directions from work, your business, your family and things that pop up when you least expect them too? Everyday life is what that is called. You can't avoid it and turn into a mushroom. We have to face them and find ways to handle it instead of turning to food or other things for comfort. There are demons that I can relate to. Here is the first one: <BR> (1) Poor pitiful me... <BR> How many times have you said these t... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 20:44:09 EST Don't Eat And Drive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5753372 Many times we hear about not drinking and driving or texting and using your phone while driving but what about eating while driving? I have an hour's ride to and from work 5 days a week and I use to eat my hard boiled eggs during the trip. Now this seems harmless enough because at least one of my hands is still on the wheel, right? WRONG!! When I reach to open my lunch box while driving down the road, I am taking my eyes off the road , reaching across the front seat and my focus is not o... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 04:51:32 EST Not Getting Stressed Out Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5752642 Today is the start of another work week for me and I already have myself stressed out before I even finish my first cup of coffee at home. A lot to do this week for my boss and he doesn't stress me out but it is the overwhelming thought of all the things I have to do. " WOW!! HANG ON A MINUTE!!," my inner voice is yelling at me. "You haven't left the house yet and you have yourself in a frenzy!" STOP IT!! Well, I realized that it was right. I make a checklist every morning when I am a... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 05:16:51 EST Chewing and not shoveling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5752134 We have all heard that chewing our food many many times before swallowing it but I never really thought it would matter. UNTIL TODAY!! I ate my breakfast vveeeryyy slowly <em>134</em> and realized that my food actually had a taste to it instead of chewing it once or twice and sending it down the food expressway to my stomach. Eggs actually have a good taste even without the seasonings! The <em>487</em> was so nice and crunchy that I realized I never noticed how great it tasted ... Sun, 3 Aug 2014 09:19:17 EST Still staying strong http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5751800 Day 2 - Have had a very good day. Tracking my food, drinking my water and getting outside doing farm chores, some landscaping and walking my miniature horse. Now the trick is to not over eat at dinner. I have my food all tracked along with my healthy dessert so I don't want to have anything except water after that. By then I should be ready for bed. Tomorrow will be a good day too because I won't let it be a bad one. I will lose this weight! Sat, 2 Aug 2014 18:20:21 EST Here I go again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5750821 Here it is August 1st and my goal for the year was to be at 220 by July 4th but that didn't happen. I went into a "I am never going to lose this weight" and "I can't do this" mode. My doctor has been doing some tests on my heart and lungs to see why I get short of breath when I climb stairs or walk up a hill. All tests came back normal so I asked him if he thought my weight could be causing the problem and he said that it could be but he wanted to do another Stress Test! I am 60 pounds ov... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 05:03:25 EST Back In A Rut http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5686216 Here I am again. Gaining weight. Eating everything in sight even though I'm not hungry. I do really well for a couple of days and then right back to binging!! I am not happy with myself at all and very frustrated. Losing weight is not easy but if I don't put some more effort into it, I will just keep gaining. There is no magic pill that will help. I need to gain more willpower and stop eating when I am full or not hungry at all. This is an uphill battle but it seems more like a up mou... Sat, 3 May 2014 05:37:27 EST