MILEENA123's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MILEENA123 MILEENA123's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Midway Through Week 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5609735 So I'm officially halfway through Week 3 of Jillian Michaels Body Revolution. It's tough and I have seen much weight loss and she kills me everyday. <BR> <BR> However....I have seen a dramatic change in my fitness levels. I did the Cardio 1 workout today. I did it almost everyday in the first 2 weeks and now I'm just doing it on Wednesday and Saturday. <BR> <BR> My first week and a half I couldn't do more then 20 seconds for a couple of the harder moves. Today I did EVERY move for the... Wed, 29 Jan 2014 23:45:28 EST Week 2 Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5551868 So I'm just over halfway through week 2. I had a really great week 1. Week 2 has been good, but not great. Thats ok. <BR> <BR> I didn't plan well for meals this week. I also had 2 early shifts at work which I haven't had to do for months. I also had a meeting last night from 7-9 when I didn't get out of work till after 6 pm. <BR> <BR> I missed my workout yesterday and Sunday. I wasn't happy about it but I am entitled to a rest day. <BR> <BR> I haven't lost and weight since last... Wed, 27 Nov 2013 23:33:25 EST Rest day today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5549506 I took a bit of a break today. I slept in, read a book, baked some bread, made short ribs. <BR> <BR> It was a good, relaxing day. I was over my calories but barely so I'm happy. <BR> <BR> I have the early shift at work tomorrow which I'm happy about. It will be nice getting home by 4 instead of 7 pm. I struggle with not getting home till 7 every night. The evening is so short once I finish supper! <BR> <BR> So here is to a great week 2! I lost 3 lbs in my first week. I'd like t... Sun, 24 Nov 2013 23:45:59 EST So not wanting to work out tonight....help?!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5548035 It's cold outside....which doesn't really give me an excuse to not work out inside. It's warm in here, and guess what...exercise warms you up. <BR> <BR> I had a long week at work. Lots of people were sick, but I'm never sick so I never get a sick day off. I'm so frustrated. Guess what helps stress and nerves? Working out... <BR> <BR> I didn't work out yesterday.....all the more reason to work out today. <BR> <BR> <BR> My phone is all out of batteries so I don't have any music to li... Fri, 22 Nov 2013 21:59:53 EST Co-Workers workout plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5546553 So the girls at my work are trying to eat healthier and exercise. I'm just restarting my journey so it is great timing for me. <BR> <BR> Today one of the girls (the skinniest!) said her goal is 30 mins of exercise twice a week "but she added that she can't promise that!" My goal is at least 30 mins a day! Of course she does have a 1 year old so that is exercise! <BR> <BR> Anyways...it made me feel good about my progress this week. So far I've only missed 1 day, but I did 30 mins on my e... Wed, 20 Nov 2013 23:58:56 EST Rest Day but feeling good! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5544752 I'm on day 4 today and taking my first rest day. I'm trying to start slow without overwhelming myself. I'm more concerned with just building some great habits. <BR> <BR> The girls at work are all starting a diet this week. I technically started on Friday. They are trying to follow the Canada Food Guide but don't seem that dedicated. They aren't sparkpeople members or are tracking calories. However it's nice to have a majority of my co-workers all with the same goal. <BR> <BR> We h... Mon, 18 Nov 2013 22:19:09 EST Small Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5542265 I'm restarting this again. I've had some struggles with food allergies and stress at work. I need a fresh start. <BR> <BR> Goal for this week is to work out 5 times. It doesn't have to be long...I just need to get moving again! Fri, 15 Nov 2013 22:10:35 EST The Cold is Knocking Me Down Again!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4693201 Every year I try to get more serious about fitness in the first couple months of the year. Not for resolutions but to get ready for the summer and for the added bonus that everyone here hibernates in the winter so there is much less going on and I seem to have more time. <BR> <BR> However IT'S COLD!!!! And I find it hard to get motivated when it's so super cold out. It's -26 C plus windchill out right now and that's warmer then it's been the last couple days. <BR> <BR> However, the be... Fri, 20 Jan 2012 11:30:06 EST My New Livestrong Elliptical!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4684613 So I've decided to quit my gym membership because I didn't feel like I was getting my money's worth. I've now taken the plunge and bought my own Elliptical! <BR> <BR> After a good amount of research I decided on the Livestrong LS8.0 and I LOVE it! It's really well made and took my husband and me awhile to get up 3 flights of stairs! It has just the right amount of bells and whistles but no features that I won't ever use. <BR> <BR> Check it out! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpe... Mon, 16 Jan 2012 14:28:21 EST Looking forward to 2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4664408 This is going to be a good year. I can feel it! <BR> <BR> I've had a tough couple years lately with graduating and being unable to find a decent job, going into debt, having a business fail....it's been hard. <BR> <BR> I'm finally in a stable place. I'm in a job I like at a wage I can finally live on. Our debt will be completely paid off in a couple of months and then we are going to buy our first house! <BR> <BR> It's going to be a good year Sat, 7 Jan 2012 16:32:01 EST One Word That Put the FEAR of GOD in Me!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4614769 MEXICO!!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> Thats the message I got from my brother last night. Uh oh. It doesn't look like it's going to be until April so I have my work cut out for me! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://www.open-trip.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/11/cabo-san-lucas-3-300x200.jpg"/> Tue, 6 Dec 2011 11:21:24 EST Lots of progress planned for this week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4480667 So this week my husband and I are working opposite shifts. I have almost all early shifts at work (7-3:30) and he has all late shifts (11-9). That never ever happens. I'm going to be kinda lonely this week but I'm going to use it to my advantage! <BR> <BR> I will now have no excuses (not like I had good ones before!) <BR> <BR> Last week I did amazing in the beginning of the week but it was that TOTM and it threw me as I felt awful. However I did still lose 1 lb! Which means that the... Mon, 12 Sep 2011 12:35:26 EST My Science Based September Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4470648 Ok I know I'm one week into September already but I've already been working on this for a few days already so that counts right? <BR> <BR> I've realized my mistakes in the past. I've never clearly defined how I was going to lose the weight. I just said "Yeah I'm gonna cut down my calories and work out every day!" However I never really figured out how much I need to work out or what I was going to do. <BR> <BR> I'd done the math before but never had the motivation to really try it. The... Tue, 6 Sep 2011 23:49:52 EST Pushing through myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4465582 This is the part that I never can get through. The depressing part where I start to sabotage myself. <BR> <BR> I just passed my longest login streak. However I have really been tracking my calories or meeting my fitness goals the past 2 weeks. I have been eating pretty good but I need to be tracking again. I have been working about a little bit but not enough. I also haven't lost anything. Maybe a lb or so but I fluctuate so it's a little hard to tell. <BR> <BR> This is the point I ... Sun, 4 Sep 2011 10:40:15 EST Maybe I Can Be a Fit Person After All!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4443036 My goals are changing. This isn't just about losing weight. This is about becoming fit. <BR> <BR> Yes I have about 50 lbs to lose. However I want abs! I want to be able to run! I want sculpted shoulders! <BR> <BR> I don't want to be just another skinny girl. That is no longer my goal. <BR> <BR> I want more then that. <BR> <BR> I want people to look at me and wish they had my motivation and my abilities, not just my pant size. <BR> <BR> I have 18 more days on the 30 Day Shr... Tue, 23 Aug 2011 00:28:36 EST Yup I think I'm Allergic to Almond Milk to....DARN!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4441739 So I decided to switch back from Hemp Milk this week to Almond Milk. Almond Milk is cheaper and I prefer the taste. <BR> <BR> It was when I switched to Almond Milk last time that I started getting the bad hives and skin irritation that made me get tested for allergies in the first place. Except I came back allergic to cow's milk and no sign of an almond allergy. <BR> <BR> The same thing is happening this time again. Crap I really wanted to be able to have almond milk. I can eat regula... Mon, 22 Aug 2011 12:02:02 EST I took the batteries out of my Scale! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4438770 I haven't been working out as much this week as I should have been. I was a little frustrated that I'd worked out every day for two weeks and ate great and didn't lose anything. <BR> <BR> I can't let myself get discouraged like that anymore. <BR> <BR> I usually weight myself every morning but I fluctuate quite a bit and I get a little sad when I have my higher days. <BR> <BR> So to break that bad habit I took the batteries out of my scale and they are not going back in till Sept 1st!.... Sat, 20 Aug 2011 18:34:36 EST Pants fitting a little looser today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4431681 So I've had these dress pants for a couple years now. They've always been one of my favourites and I wear them at least once a week. Last week I could tell I was a little bloated and they were a little tighter then usual. Usually they fit just perfect. <BR> <BR> However today I had to keep pulling them up! Everytime I bent over I had to be careful that I wasn't showing too much. Good thing I had on a long shirt! I'm wearing a pair of my casual pants right now and they're falling down ... Wed, 17 Aug 2011 00:11:34 EST I Avoided the Cheesecake!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4429359 So it was one lady's birthday at work today. We switch off on who brings the cake. Today they brought cheesecake. But not just any cheesecake. It was from the best cheesecake place in town!!! <BR> <BR> Of course everyone was talking about it all day. "Did you try the cheesecake?" "There's cheesecake in the back!" "I'm going back to have some cheesecake!" AHHHHHH!!!! <BR> <BR> I stared at it awhile in the fridge but then shut the door and went back to work! <BR> <BR> SUCCESS!!! <BR> ... Mon, 15 Aug 2011 22:40:47 EST Working with a difficult schedule http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4425494 This is my challenge for this next week. I need to get my act together in the kitchen. If I start out my day with a great breakfast then I'm more motivated to continue for the rest of the day. <BR> <BR> I struggled with my food this week and a large part of that was the extra early shifts I had to work. It's hard for me to get into a routine when my work shifts vary so much. Monday I started at 7, Tuesday at 10, Wednesday at 7, Thursday at noon, and Friday back at 7. That means all my... Sun, 14 Aug 2011 00:24:40 EST Ok so I am going to set a weight goal for the end of August http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4412053 I wasn't going to do it but it seems like my mind has decided this on it's own <BR> <BR> By August 31st I want to be back to my lowest weight of 179. Thats what I weighed at the end of August last year. This morning I weighed in at 184.8 which is down over 2 lbs from the 1st already. <BR> <BR> I also want my body fat % to be under 40%. My scale says I'm at 40.8% right now. <BR> <BR> I think that is pretty doable don't you? <BR> <BR> My family is coming at the end of August to hel... Sun, 7 Aug 2011 10:09:41 EST Beautiful Morning with a Great Friend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4411441 I had a great morning today. I went for breakfast with a great friend I don't see that often. <BR> <BR> It was beautiful outside and we sat on the most peaceful and beautiful patio. This restaurant does yoga some mornings on it's patio. <BR> <BR> The only problem is that breakfast mainly consists of egg dishes which I can't eat. However they have a large list of sides so I ordered Bison Sausage, the Fruit Salad and Roasted Potatoes. Yum! <BR> <BR> Thats not something I do often but I ... Sat, 6 Aug 2011 22:30:31 EST Revisiting past successes.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4402595 So I've been looking back on my blog entries from last summer when I was doing really well. Wow what a revelation. I sounded so happy and healthy! <BR> <BR> I want to be there again. I'm only up about 5 or 6 lbs from my lowest last summer but I completely rebounded to my old habits. <BR> <BR> I'm really glad I blogged so much last summer. It helps to reread it and get myself into that frame of mind again. Tue, 2 Aug 2011 14:45:07 EST My Grandmother is my motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4399744 I want to be like my Grandma. My grandma has more energy then anyone I've ever known. She cannot sit still! I have never seen my grandma sit for more then 15 minutes at time. <BR> <BR> She constantly moving! <BR> <BR> If we're in the yard talking she'll be walking around picking weeds. <BR> <BR> If we're in a pet store she'll run around and talk to all the animals. <BR> <BR> If the dog is outside SHE'LL CHASE IT!!! (which once caused one of my brother's friends to say "WOW MY GRA... Mon, 1 Aug 2011 12:14:00 EST August Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4397270 My problem has always been consistency. I'll be great for a couple days and then I'll slip and feel awful and then fall off all together. <BR> <BR> August is going to be a good month for me. I don't have any vacations or weekends away planned and I've figured out my allergies and don't feel stressed or too restricted by them anymore. I also don't work very many early morning shifts because they are training a new guy at my work so he's taken those shifts from me until september. <BR> ... Sun, 31 Jul 2011 10:04:52 EST Back after an interesting couple months http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4373994 So I'm back again. I took a break from weight loss worries and pressures for awhile. <BR> <BR> In December I had some crazy allergic reactions that left me baffled. I'd never experienced anything that serious before. I decided I should go and get some blood allergy tests. <BR> <BR> I got the results back in February and it turns out that I'm severely allergic to dairy and eggs. I'm also allergic to pineapple (which I'd figured out on my own), kidney and pinto beans and turkey. I'm als... Wed, 20 Jul 2011 01:40:16 EST Day 7 and feeling the difference! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3990080 So it's been about a week now since I've been eating raw foods. I can't believe it's been that long already! It's been really easy so far. <BR> <BR> However I'm really starting to feel a difference! Yesterday I worked 7-3:30 and at about 3 I had so much energy I didn't know what to do with myself. I think my co-workers thought I was on something.... It started with just fidgeting and then walking around and once I got home I was just jumping. Usually after work I'm exhausted and can'... Fri, 4 Feb 2011 12:39:04 EST Raw in the Snow Day 3!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3979949 So I'm at Day 3 of my raw food transition. It's -30 C here right now but I started strong with a large glass of fresh juice made from a cucumber, lemon, 2 apples, kale, ginger and a beet. mmm it was so good! I could just feel my body crying out YES MORE PLEASE! <BR> <BR> I have my lunch made already. A good salad with carrots, zucchini, beets, apples walnuts, cranberries and a yummy garlic lemon dressing. I'm throwing in a larabar to. <BR> <BR> Right now I'm having some coffee *It's ... Tue, 1 Feb 2011 09:53:06 EST My Husband Agreed to Join Me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3961526 This is HUGE! My husband has agreed to start transitioning to a raw food diet. I'm not sure he completely understands it all. But he said he would and so far I believe him. <BR> <BR> This is really going to help get my more motivated and keep me in check. <BR> <BR> I'm feeling pretty positive right now. <em>104</em> Wed, 26 Jan 2011 00:41:12 EST Having trouble in the winter cold http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3943623 It's been bitterly cold here lately. Right now it's -27 C outside without the windchill. And thats after warming up a bit already today. I have real trouble climbing out of bed when it's this cold. <BR> <BR> I ordered a few more fitness DVDs because I just can't get to the gym in the morning when it's this cold. It's just not going to happen. <BR> <BR> I have been asking for 3 years for cross country skis for christmas. Still no luck this year. There are tons of cross country ski ... Thu, 20 Jan 2011 10:17:16 EST The Stress is getting to me for the first time. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3824536 I didn't realize just how stressed I was until today. <BR> <BR> It's mostly about money because we did a complete total of our finances last month and we're over $20,000 in debt. We also have absolutely nothing to show for it. It all went to junk food and other wasteful habits. We still are living in our crappy apartment, with hand me down furniture, empty closets, empty kitchen. <BR> <BR> I don't have any of the things I'd hoped I would have gained by our 5th anniversary. I thought... Sat, 4 Dec 2010 23:30:23 EST Getting started is the hardest part http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3818038 When I haven't worked out in a long time I have a REALLY hard time getting back into it. I haven't worked out in what seems like forever. I keep telling myself I'm going to do it and then I just don't. Once I do it once then I'm ok and I'll keep going. <BR> <BR> I'm going to do the shred tonight. As soon as Hellcats is over ;) Wed, 1 Dec 2010 21:11:35 EST I need to feel comfortable in my own skin http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3810634 I don't feel comfortable with myself right now. I'm disappointed with myself and more then a little disgusted. <BR> <BR> However I really can feel that way anymore. I've known for a long time that I'm not going to get anywhere in my career until I lose the weight because I need full confidence in myself. <BR> <BR> Well now I'm making a game plan to join the chamber of commerce and start volunteering with a large amount of organizations. I need to network in order to build my business but... Sun, 28 Nov 2010 20:27:06 EST Back in this place again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3808722 So I'm here again. I'm sick of starting this journey. I don't want to feel like I'm starting anymore. <BR> <BR> I haven't gained any weight the past couple months but I've lost time. Time that I could be living but I'm not! It's very frustrating. <BR> <BR> I've been working this month to get a grip of my finances and my lack of time management. In December I need to take this to the next level and get my physical health in line. Sat, 27 Nov 2010 17:48:39 EST Mother with Celiacs Disease http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3778430 So my mom found out around July that she can't have gluten, wheat, eggs, almonds or dairy. Since then she's made a major life change and feels amazing now. In fact now if she has even a little bit of any of her forbidden foods she gets really sick. <BR> <BR> She felt off for years and thought it was hormonal. It hasn't been easy for her but she's been really learning and trying new foods. Her favourite food now is Quinoa! She's found a local grower for it to. <BR> <BR> I hadn't seen ... Thu, 11 Nov 2010 22:44:25 EST Why do I Sabotage Myself? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3750895 This has always been my problem. I know what to do and how to do it. I know exactly what the junk food does to my body and what healthy food does to it. <BR> <BR> I know how important it is for me to exercise and yet I haven't even tried on those new runners I got 3 weeks ago. <BR> <BR> I say to myself that I'm going to get up in the morning and exercise before work but then I stay up till 1 am wasting time and am too tired in the morning? <BR> <BR> Why do I do this to myself? Sat, 30 Oct 2010 21:58:31 EST I am now 24 years old http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3738035 My life hasn't exactly turned out the way it was supposed to. <BR> <BR> I wasn't supposed to be in this place anymore. I was supposed to be happy and confident and SKINNY! I'm pretty far from all of those right now. <BR> <BR> I am going to make this year the best of my life. No more procrastinating. No more doubting myself and no more self sabotage. <BR> <BR> I regret the last couple years. I don't want to look back on the rest of 2010 and 2011 with regret. I want a full year. I w... Mon, 25 Oct 2010 01:13:08 EST Ham and Fruit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3726173 I haven't been enticed by food lately. I just haven't been interested. For some people this would be a good thing but not for me. <BR> <BR> When I'm disinterested in food I don't think about it at all. And then suddenly I'm starving and just need something, anything in me. By that time I just grab some fast food. <BR> <BR> Last week I didn't have any food in the house all week. I didn't do any grocery shopping. None whatsoever! <BR> <BR> This week though I went and bought a lar... Tue, 19 Oct 2010 14:38:06 EST I Work Best When I'm Busy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3698993 It's true. When I'm busy I get so much more done. I have no time for slacking. I feel more powerful and my self esteem goes up. When I was out of work for a few month nothing got done. My apartment was a mess, I didn't cook for my husband and I gained weight. I didn't read any of the books I wanted to and my relationships suffered. <BR> <BR> So now I'm working full-time and I just started a business. I'm going to have to push in order to get everything done. Now that I've made that... Thu, 7 Oct 2010 11:00:15 EST Still Thinking About Going Raw http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3617049 I've been debating it for awhile. It just going to be so hard! But I think the first week will be the hardest. <BR> <BR> I've been reading a lot and watching video blogs from people who have gone raw and I think it would really help me. <BR> <BR> I feel tired and lethargic after eating a cooked meal. If I eat I raw meal or have one of my fresh juices I feel great. I wonder how I would feel if I ate like that all the time? <BR> <BR> I remember a couple of years ago I read a book on ... Wed, 8 Sep 2010 00:00:38 EST Back from Vacation! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3608092 So we just got back tonight from our vacation in San Diego. We had an amazing time! I think I want to move to California! I'll post pics soon. <BR> <BR> I'm going to weight in tomorrow but I cheated and sneaked a peak at the scale tonight. We ate really badly but we spent almost the entire week walking so it looks like I didn't gain much. <BR> <BR> I'm so ready to start this week and get these pounds off. I bought a new pair of runners and I want to try them out tomorrow. <BR> <B... Sun, 5 Sep 2010 02:42:48 EST Skipped my workout yesterday and was SOO bored!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3576412 So I skipped my workout yesterday because I was really sore from the day before. I complained (or bragged) about my sore abs and legs all day yesterday at work (which resulted in my boss going and buying almost the entire jillian michaels library on her lunch break) I really didn't want to punish myself so much that I lost my appetite for exercise again. <BR> <BR> Today however I'm feeling much better. I'm still trying to talk myself out of working out but it's not working very well this ... Thu, 26 Aug 2010 10:27:58 EST New favourite healthy summer non-alcoholic drink! (picture included!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3571906 mmm so I made this the other day and let it sit in the fridge overnight and wow was it good! I used my mandolin to slice a carrot and a cucumber really thin. Then I added a sliced lemon and some mint leaves and filtered water. <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/9/l690115543.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It's so yummy! I don't like sugary juices so this hit the spot when it was so hot out! Next time I would crush the mint leaves just a little to let out a bit more flavor.... Wed, 25 Aug 2010 00:57:05 EST I've got my motivation back! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3568215 All it seemed to take was one day of great eating and 30 min with jillian. She reminded me of how much I want this and how my biggest obstacle is myself. It's not really hard once I get out of my own way. <BR> <BR> I have to remember this feeling. The spark isn't with anyone else. I don't need to depend on other people to motivate me. It's in ME! It's there if I just fan it a little and not try to snuff it out because I'm too tired or too scared of failing. <BR> <BR> I feel so silly... Tue, 24 Aug 2010 00:30:49 EST Can't seem to get myself going http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3565057 I'm having trouble restarting. I just can't seem to get it together. I'm not sure why I can't get motivated. <BR> <BR> I think I'm just burned out. I'm really looking forward to this vacation next week because I haven't had a vacation day since I started my new job in March. It's time now. I wanted to be at least 10 lbs less then I am right now but I'll just have to come back from my vacation ready to bust it out. <BR> <BR> I just need to reorganize my life again. Mon, 23 Aug 2010 09:25:59 EST I think I found my early morning trigger http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3556739 I haven't done very well lately. I've eaten bad and haven't exercised. I've gained a pound but I haven't wanted to track it. <BR> <BR> I've just felt so tired lately! I haven't had the energy to do anything. The other day I got home from work at 4 and literally stayed in bed until I had to get up in the morning and go back to work and I was still tired! Not good! <BR> <BR> However this morning I didn't have to work until 10:30 so I got up at a decent time still and made myself a juice... Fri, 20 Aug 2010 10:59:27 EST 2 Week Bootcamp starts tomorrow! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3540539 So I officially have 2 weeks left before my vacation. I didn't have a good week last week and I was out of town this weekend so I really want to push myself for the next little bit. <BR> <BR> I have my eating plan. I'm mostly going to be eating raw with some fish and brown rice. Nuts and avocados for boosting up my calories. 45 min a day on the elliptical plus the 30 day shred and some pilates. <BR> <BR> This weekend I saw a lot of people that I went to high school with. All of them ... Sun, 15 Aug 2010 21:43:47 EST I gave a co-worker advice today...That was me 3-4 months ago...Hard to believe http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3524197 So I finally mentioned to someone at work today that I've lost weight. I didn't want to really talk about it until it became obvious. However the subject came up today so I felt I had to say something. <BR> <BR> This girl has been talking about trying to lose weight for quite awhile now. She hasn't managed to lose anything. Her doctor really discouraged her by telling her that in order to lose a pound she would need to walk almost 100K. Now even if that is true it's very misleading and... Wed, 11 Aug 2010 02:31:27 EST Feeling slim....I think I lost a pant size! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3518258 So I'm feeling really good today. I ate well yesterday and it shows today. My stomach doesn't show as much through my shirt. It looks more flat. <BR> <BR> I have two pairs of exactly the same pants but one is a size 14 and one is a size 12. The size 14 used to fit good and the 12 was a bit too tight. Now I need to wear a belt for the 14s or they fall down and the 12s fit really nice and maybe even a little lose. I just took them out of the wash to so it's not that they're stretched ou... Mon, 9 Aug 2010 13:24:17 EST 170s THERE YOU ARE!!! HOW I MISSED YOU!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3512684 So I had a pretty awful week. I ate horribly with lots of fast food and didn't exercise at all. I also had PMS and was cranky and tired all week. However I did try to eat a lot of fruit for breakfast and didn't snack on calorie laden foods during the day or in the evening. <BR> <BR> I didn't expect much this morning but I stepped on the scale and VOILA! 179! I didn't deserve that but it still feels pretty good! So thats just 1 lb off this week. <BR> <BR> I gotta push myself hard no... Sat, 7 Aug 2010 14:01:02 EST