MICKEYMAX's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MICKEYMAX MICKEYMAX's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Dig In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6501396 I have been off of work for this past week. I am not ready to go back, but I need to get a couple of things done that require my presence. I need an overhaul. There are good things in my life, my job among them, but I am overfat, overtired, and not working as my best self. <BR> <BR> My goal this week is to complete a vision board. I need a road map to my success and this will be my start. <BR> <BR> Cheers! What are you going to do this week? Sun, 17 Jun 2018 19:20:03 EST A moment with Jorge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6500895 I needed to pick up a few groceries for hubby. He is still sidelined by his broken leg injury, but may be back on his feet a bit as soon as next week. <BR> <BR> I went to the store and rode in one of their motorized carts as I am still working towards walking even short distances. The bag guy came with me back to my car and helped me load the groceries. I asked him how he was doing and he was very enthusiastic in sharing that he was doing fantastic. He told me his sister just graduated high... Fri, 15 Jun 2018 17:23:59 EST making progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6500679 It's been a long and winding road to learn that my leg pain may be caused by sciatica. I am grateful for the diagnosis because the uncertainty has been lingering for years. I've changed doctors 3 times (not because of this really) and I am getting to a place where i am facing my ways and looking to improve them. <BR> <BR> Here's some good things I did this week: <BR> <BR> Went to the doctors <BR> Had blood-work <BR> Started practicing for standing for 2 minutes at a time <BR> using my can... Thu, 14 Jun 2018 22:21:38 EST Inside Job http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6499168 In recognition of the new insights I am gaining about myself and my lifestyle, I decided I am eating too much. Last night when I ordered something from the drive through (no guilt because it is just what I need to do right now), I asked for the smallest size of the item. I was completely fine with what I ordered. I am starting to think small, and thinking about this will benefit me. <BR> <BR> Small is good. Small can satisfy. Small can be enough. I am just doing what is best for me and this... Sat, 9 Jun 2018 11:22:16 EST Freeing Your Soul http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6499013 I am a very non-sequitur thinker. To me, it makes perfect sense how one thing leads to the other, but to the untrained eye - no one knows how I got here. I had a huge epiphany this morning when I was in the shower. <BR> <BR> All of my self doubt, all of my sabotage, all of my stinking thinking can be traced back to a single moment that I became unhinged through no fault of my own. I was 8 years old, and I was sitting in my parents' car while waiting for them to come out from the mall. Peopl... Fri, 8 Jun 2018 20:48:39 EST TGIF TYGFF http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6494640 I am big believer in TGIF - but I am adding Thank You God For Friday! <BR> <BR> Friday lifts my spirits because yes, I get to be off work and have a couple of days off, but I have been spreading the cheer on Friday's for many years. Woo hoo It's Friday is my usual refrain. Even staff who work in the same building as me through the years who don't speak a lot of English - mimic me and my woo hoo's. <BR> <BR> I am relieved for this Friday because it means a long weekend - my boss also encoura... Fri, 25 May 2018 20:56:58 EST Make Time for Yourself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6494088 You've got to make time for yourself. <BR> <BR> It takes time to make time. Sounds weird, I know, but I literally have to find the time to carve out for myself and recognize it is absolutely required for me to do that. Playing the back burner game does nothing but frustrate me, burn me out and put me in a mood that is not healthy. <BR> <BR> So, to change this trajectory today --- I took off from work to take the hubby to the doc and for an x-ray, and I convinced him that we could do both... Wed, 23 May 2018 21:31:36 EST Time Stops for No One http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6493797 Time is flying by - more quickly than I would like. We're approaching the halfway point in the year and I feel "way behind" in where I had hoped to be at this point. There are reasons upon reasons, which boil down to a lot of excuses for me. This is not to say that things have not gone wrong - oh they have - health issues, work issues, spouse had a serious accident - all things to contribute to the state of my state - but I know when I get right down to it - if I really wanted to overcome the... Tue, 22 May 2018 21:22:23 EST A Shift in Perspective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6492629 For a lot of today, all I could focus on was how much my legs hurt today. The weather could be a factor, as we have been getting a lot of rain lately. I did walk a few steps today without my cane, but for a lot of the day, I struggled, and inside my own head, I whined, whined and whined some more. <BR> <BR> On my way home tonight, I was whining even more. I hurt, I really did, but while I was waiting for the elevator, I met a super cute young couple, and one of them had two shiny legs. Yes,... Fri, 18 May 2018 20:36:55 EST There's Something Happening Here http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6492283 There is something happening. I am changing. I fell into a vat of acceptance in my life and just let the status quo be good enough. The status quo has been me barely getting around, walking with a cane most of the time, limiting where I go. Not saying yes to things because I do not know if there will be seating, or seating that can hold me. I am uncomfortable in my own skin, and I want to change that. <BR> <BR> I am not living; I am just existing. <BR> <BR> I need to be a part of the wor... Thu, 17 May 2018 14:08:46 EST one step ahead http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6448660 My health coach (a perk from work) encouraged me to have 1 vegetable at lunch and one at dinner to help me to kickstart myself to eating more vegetable. I nuked up some carrots tonight and bagged them up to take along with my lunch tomorrow. <BR> <BR> Baby steps is where I am at - and as long as I am doing something positive for myself in the right direction, I am succeeding. <BR> <BR> Little by little, I will get there. Woot! <BR> <BR> Happy Carrots! Sun, 7 Jan 2018 19:58:10 EST Alphabet City http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6447188 A lot of my friends are posting what their "word" is for 2018. I chose one also: Miracles - but upon further introspection, I don't want just one word: I want a whole alphabet. <BR> <BR> A- Ability <BR> B- Beautiful <BR> C-Courageous <BR> D-Determined <BR> E-Energetic <BR> F-Feeling Good <BR> G-Greatness <BR> H-Health <BR> I-I can Do it <BR> J-Journey <BR> K-Kindness <BR> L-Loving Myself <BR> M-ME ME ME <BR> N-Never give up <BR> O-Openness <BR> P-Progress not perfection <BR> Q-Quads (streng... Thu, 4 Jan 2018 12:16:02 EST No Time Like the Present http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6444430 Hello Sparks, <BR> <BR> I've been away from here for a while, but many of you have been in my thoughts. I am taking stock of myself and see what I need to do to be healthier in 2018. It's been quite some time since I really set New Year's resolutions, preferring to think of things as goals, but now i have even given that the heave ho. I've replaced my goals with being on a mission. I am on a mission to make myself healthier. <BR> <BR> This is where i am. <BR> <BR> I am not at a start poi... Fri, 29 Dec 2017 15:33:24 EST One Day at a time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6396776 Gearing up - ready for the week ahead. I have food I can take to work. I have weaned myself off of stopping to Dunkin Donuts every day, and my fitbit is charging. <BR> <BR> I am happy with my progress and I am doing it one day at time. Sun, 6 Aug 2017 19:32:15 EST Making changes and getting payoffs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6396393 On my "authorized" (set by me) weigh-in day, I had a ready mindset. Good, bad or indifferent, show me scale, how this week's eating has panned out. Am I on the right track? <BR> <BR> A resounding YES! I lost 3.8 lbs since I weighed in last Saturday. I suspect I have lot more, that I was higher before I weighed in, but I am happy recording where I am. It is nice to move out of one bank to another, so today, I am celebrating to be at 439, down from 442.8. Yes, I am still classified as morbid... Sat, 5 Aug 2017 17:41:40 EST It was calling me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6395287 Sometimes, you just have to give in. I tried to steer clear, but my mind was made up --- and I could not deter that intense feeling that told me to go to the kitchen. Not to eat - but to use the scale I recently bought. I should have resisted but alas it was not to be. <BR> <BR> I lost a pound since Saturday. It is not what I wanted to see --- but it is a step in the right direction. Once I am better able to add real exercise into my routine, I know the pounds will come off faster. In the m... Wed, 2 Aug 2017 21:26:02 EST If not me, then who? If not now, then when?: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6394866 I have a new mantra on repeat. Give it all you got. <BR> <BR> That boils down what I need to do to be successful - not just at weight loss, or healthy living, but at life. <BR> <BR> When you find discouragement and negativity in the world, and you let that be an excuse to let yourself go, let yourself down, let yourself off the hook because you hold the mirror up to see the critical eye, and not the positive song, that you could really be singing, then it is easy to say "why bother." <BR... Tue, 1 Aug 2017 22:33:04 EST Reset the Baseline http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6393460 It's been months since I weighed in. Can't remember what it was even. Recently bought a new scale, and decided I will weigh in on Saturday mornings. I clocked in at 442.8lbs. <BR> <BR> My lowest weight in the last 3 years, was 398, and I am working on heading in that direction again. My highest recorded weight was 468.8, and I am still a distance from there. I am choosing to eat fewer carbs, and more whole foods, and hoping this will help me move the numbers in the right direction. <BR> <... Sat, 29 Jul 2017 10:50:33 EST Fat sucks (not me) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6392496 Being fat sucks. No surprise. But, I am working on eating less carbs, and eating cleaner food. I ate what felt like a lot of food today, But a lot of what I ate was fruits and vegetables, and I do feel way more full on less food. I am figuring it out as I go along. No carb is not really the way for me because I need to limit my protein (kidneys) and limit my fat (pancreas). So, my hybrid is sort of lower carb, cleaner food. I feel like I am making progress. I did buy a scale and I need to whi... Wed, 26 Jul 2017 22:40:16 EST The Re-boot http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6390022 I slept well last night. I had mostly uninterrupted sleep minus a massive leg cramp that I am attributing to eating too large a banana. Bananas have a lot of potassium and too much potassium for me is no bueno. I have been drinking lots of water, so I don't think it is a hydration issue. This is not an isolated occurrence, and I have endured many doctor visits to get to the bottom of this which never comes. <BR> <BR> I knocked a couple of things off my to-do list - made an eye docs appt, o... Fri, 21 Jul 2017 00:22:46 EST Mid Week Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6389524 I had a couple of so so days at home. Not depressed, but a bit of malaise - it's hot as hades in the house (the ac is broken except in the bedroom), there is an overwhelming amount of housework to do, and while my mobility has improved, it is not stellar enough to bend a lot and get to the places that need the most cleaning....yet. <BR> <BR> I did a weird thing to shake up my days off this week - I went into work today. I decided I needed to leave the house and go be around humans for a whil... Wed, 19 Jul 2017 18:36:18 EST Dinner Out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6387902 Hubby and I went out for dinner tonight - Mexican - the food was freshly prepared and delicious, except they unexpectedly covered it in sour cream which I didn't care for. I mixed it in, because it was so thick otherwise, and I couldn't stomach it. I ate the chicken out and some of the veggies, but if we ever go again, I will hold the sour cream. Oh well. Live and learn. <BR> <BR> A better surprise though was that we got back out to the car, hubby asked where my cane was. He couldn't believ... Sat, 15 Jul 2017 22:03:38 EST Happy Friday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6387508 Yesterday, our power was out after strong storms, which prevented me from logging in. Luckily, it came back in a few hours. I have to wait until 8pm (EST_ before I can go to bed, because I am monitoring a client's show, but the performance goes live at 8pm, and then I am going to bed! <BR> <BR> So tired! <BR> <BR> Hope you have all had a good week! More soon!! Fri, 14 Jul 2017 19:57:28 EST Pushing towards my goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6386725 I am going head first. I lost the will for a while there, but I feel myself being back on track. Glad I came back to SP. Glad I am meal prepping. Glad I am able to move as much as I am. <BR> <BR> Need to keep at it! <BR> <BR> Wed, 12 Jul 2017 23:27:27 EST Knock Knock http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6386239 Who is it? Oh I know who it is, it is my boss at the door. He got locked out of the office with the automatic locking system. There were still 3 people in the office suite - and I was the furthest away from the door. I got up and let him in though. It was a great source of pride for me to be able to do this. A week ago, I would have yelled to one of my co-workers to let him in. <BR> <BR> I am still having pain, but I am pushing through to the vicinity of 2000 steps a day. This is a major im... Tue, 11 Jul 2017 21:56:28 EST Forward March http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6385844 Today, I made through 2300 steps without my cane. I am feeling better, and getting off to a better start when I get up out of a chair, I do feel more easily to be able to make forward progress. I am still on my slow and steady pace, but I am absolutely improving. Giving up the cane for me seems to be the right choice. <BR> <BR> Tonight, I took a little time to bag up the 2 pints of blueberries that i bought into baggies. I did some on the fly this morning while headed out the door, but i al... Mon, 10 Jul 2017 23:08:30 EST On my way to meal prep http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6385383 I am a believer in meal prep. I watch my husband do it every week. I am not a huge fan of what he likes, and vice versa, but it is impressive how much he dedicates to making his lunches. <BR> <BR> I am moving towards meal prep. This week which is a milestone week for me - I sat down at the table and made myself a week's worth of PBJ on light multigrain bread. I used natural pb and organic jelly. i bought a bag of granola and portioned it out for 5-6 days. <BR> <BR> I also have string cheese... Sun, 9 Jul 2017 21:55:32 EST It Happened in the Bread Aisle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6385021 We went to the grocery store on Saturday evening. I had a painful day and felt like i could barely walk without my cane (minor setback), so I opted to ride on one of the store-provided scooters. It's funny how your perspective shifts when you are in one of those. It is a lot easier to see obstacles in it that I would normally overlook. <BR> <BR> I decided to get some cereal (Kashi) and some bread, which was in the next aisle. As I headed down the aisle, I encountered an older woman coming ... Sat, 8 Jul 2017 23:39:34 EST Make Your Move http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6384622 What are you going to do today to make a move for YOURSELF? This very day, what can you do to advance your goals farther? You do not need to have ALL of the answers, you don't even need to have the end in sight, all you need to do is make the next right step. <BR> <BR> Who knows what the next right step is? You do. Whether deep down or on the surface, you already know in your heart of hearts what is going to move you closer to your goals. Do not be afraid of failure. It is guaranteed we are... Fri, 7 Jul 2017 22:35:05 EST Walk, Rinse, Repeat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6384216 When you show up for your own life, things happen. Good things. <BR> <BR> Day 2 of walking without my cane. I am not 100%solid and not walking at my pre-cane gait, but that is of little current concern. I am moving, and making steps forward. Yesterday, I did 1600 steps. Today, 2100. So I am not setting expectations on myself, other than to try my best --- and that's what I am giving myself -- the gift of caring and trying. <BR> <BR> I am "in check" in many facets of my life. I excel at my... Thu, 6 Jul 2017 21:44:13 EST Hello Out There http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6383800 Hi Spark-pals, <BR> <BR> I hope all is well in your worlds. I have been absent from SP for some time, but I also realized I missed this great community. It is nice to see my account has not gone away. <BR> <BR> Rather than rehashing all of the past, I would like to say that today, 7/5/17, I walked most of my 1600 steps today while NOT using a cane. I have been relying on it, and i think it may be hampering my progress. <BR> <BR> Recently, I also opted into to doing some physical therapy ... Wed, 5 Jul 2017 20:40:57 EST Out of My Comfort Zone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6316679 I entered a writing contest at work today. I have no expectations of winning - but that is not why I entered. I entered because I consider myself to be an excellent writer and I wanted to exhibit my writing skills, and to exhibit my love of working with students to a very prestigious crowd. <BR> <BR> I stepped way out of my comfort zone. I often do a lot of ghostwriting for my boss. I edit a lot of departmental memos, and have been known to write beautiful recommendations and appraisals. Bu... Wed, 15 Feb 2017 20:51:30 EST Tell Me Something Good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6306872 Taking care of yourself as a priority can mean a lot of different things. Here's some steps I have taken that have pushed me to the front of my to-do list: <BR> <BR> I bought a pair of 5 pound dumbbells and had them shipped to work. They should arrive Mon or Tuesday. I also bought a 5 set pack of resistance bands. I am going to try to keep active while at work. I think it will be a huge benefit. <BR> <BR> I sent someone a fruit basket as a housewarming gift, and chose from the post-Christm... Sat, 28 Jan 2017 19:20:16 EST The First Step is a doozy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6306447 Stairs are kind of my nemesis. In the last couple of years, I have had a hard time walking down them. This morning, heading out the door to work, they stopped me in my tracks. <BR> <BR> They are the same 2 steps I climb down every morning when I leave the house,but for some reason, this morning, I felt like I was paralyzed when trying to go down. I recognize that I was having a panic attack of sorts. I don't know how it happened or why, but after about 5 minutes of talking to myself out in ... Fri, 27 Jan 2017 21:40:29 EST Small swaps lead to big changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6305764 I am learning that small swaps can lead to big changes. I am not completely ditching my desire for a hot morning beverage -- and a breakfast from the donut place, but I am switching up bits of it so I am ingesting less sugar, making healthier choices, and having smaller portions. <BR> <BR> I downsized from a croissant to a small wrap, and went from whole milk to skim. If I so choose, I can make another change down the road, but right now I am comfortable where I am in this process, and havi... Thu, 26 Jan 2017 17:38:25 EST Eating Clean-er http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6297012 I am not where I want to be in the eating dept - but I am improving. This way is better for me. I am eating at least one deliciously healthy meal daily - lately it has been a mix of beets, pineapples, grapes, avocado, corn and black beans. I throw a little (tsp or two) of balsamic vinaigrette in there and it holds me for a decent amount. I have been drinking water galore. I fall to the wayside later in the day, but I am work in progress. <BR> <BR> This morning, I had oatmeal and since i was ... Thu, 12 Jan 2017 22:09:06 EST Hello 2017! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6291489 Striding ahead --- after months of waffling, researching, and procrastinating - I finally found a new doc - hopefully. Her online stats and reviews look good - and she is affiliated with the hosp I stayed in in Sept. I have an appt on 1/23. Choosing a doc is a big decision - and hopefully this choice pans out. (my other doc of 10 years moved and it was no longer a good match.) <BR> <BR> I am trying to do more clean eating and increasing my movement. There are a few facebook groups I am in wh... Wed, 4 Jan 2017 21:38:25 EST December's docket http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6275699 Hello friends, <BR> <BR> It's been a while. Hope all is well with everyone. I have been doing okay. Struggling with pain and mobility issues -- but far from giving up! <BR> <BR> I am enrolled in a clean eating challenge, which begins on Tuesday. It will mean a lot of food prep, sugar avoidance, and intentional behavior, but I am gearing up for it. I have already declined 2 work parties which are usually festive and fun, but I don't feel bad about it - I am just setting myself up to be a suc... Sat, 3 Dec 2016 09:40:22 EST Pain or no Pain, Hello Gym! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6260015 After an extended hiatus, I went to the gym today. I was walking around in a store, pushing a cart, and I I felt so stiff, and had so much pain, I just decided that I needed to go to the gym and climb on a stationary bike. I needed to see if I could pedal, and would the stretching help and if the muscles could take the pain. <BR> <BR> Huh, I think riding helped. The gym manager gave me a very friendly greeting. Shook my hand and held it for a little bit. He knows me. We're friendly. He kno... Mon, 31 Oct 2016 21:38:43 EST I am still here http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6255009 Just working through things - mainly my health. Trying to get my stamina back. Luckily, I never lost my zest for living! I just need to pick up the pace! Hope you are all doing well! <BR> <BR> Fri, 21 Oct 2016 14:00:40 EST Making it work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6242414 Here is the Reader's Digest Condensed Version of my life lately. <BR> <BR> Back on 9/9, I had pain just below my breastbone in the center of my chest/above my stomach. Long story short, I was hospitalized for 6 days with a diagnosis of gallstones/pancreatitis. Hello! Wake-up call!!! No FUN! <BR> <BR> Since then, I have been adhering to better eating, cutting back on fat, in particular. The surgeons wanted to cut me open, but luckily my primary prevailed and we will re-visit same topic in... Tue, 27 Sep 2016 00:18:38 EST Scale Recommendation Requested http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6237141 Hi all, <BR> <BR> Does anyone have a good recommendation for a scale to weigh myself on that is fit for home use. I can google it, but I would love a recommendation from our community; The max weight needs to at least hit 420 lbs. <BR> <BR> THANK YOU! <BR> Mary Fri, 16 Sep 2016 23:38:03 EST On the Mend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6236602 Just a few words tonight as I must know get to bed. <BR> <BR> I have been in the hospital for the past 6 days, and it is something I do not want to repeat again. <BR> <BR> I'll get into more details when I am more fully rested. It is good to be home. <BR> <BR> Thu, 15 Sep 2016 23:32:30 EST Getting On Top of Things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6227430 Control is not the right word for the way I am feeling these last few days --- and explained as much to my health coach. I feel like I am going with the flow, and it is not just an unintentional ride. I have power. I have choices. I am exercising my right to these things, while not being inflexible at the next set of curve-balls. <BR> <BR> Truth be told, I need to go lay down. Long day, and well-deserved rest, but hopefully next time I am back here, I will explain this better. Til then! Happ... Tue, 30 Aug 2016 23:40:36 EST Head On http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6226633 I a learning what is happening in my body and I am facing it head on. I went for the nerve test today and Doc indicated that he thinks I am experiencing nerve pain from the condition of my back. He's a conduit to passing on information to my doctor, so that will be the next step. I am not overly keen on using drugs to control my life, so I am going to see what my doc says, and then move forward one step at a time. <BR> <BR> I am going to go to the gym, and speak to a trainer. I did not wan... Mon, 29 Aug 2016 16:43:59 EST We Shall See what we shall see http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6226229 I have a doc's appt in the morning for an EMG, which is a test to see how my nerves react when the muscles are stimulated. I am nervous about it, but sitting up praying and playing computer games to try to relax before heading to bed. <BR> <BR> This is one more step to figure out the leg pain issues, which are ongoing despite several measures to diagnose and fix. Last diagnosis was back arthritis. I will need to swing by hosp and pick up my xray before continuing on to next doc. <BR> <BR> ... Mon, 29 Aug 2016 00:11:54 EST The Blessings of Making Yourself a Priority http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6225557 Hi all, <BR> <BR> I hope you are all doing great out in Sparkie-land. I have just returned from a fabulous week off in Alexandria, VA, where I felt relaxed, refreshed and reinvigorated. My mobility was limited, but I did what I could as I could, and I am starting to turn the corner in how I am feeling. I am also on steroids right now, and I know that is helping with inflammation and therefore, making it easier for me to get around. <BR> <BR> Before I left, the results from my back xray sho... Sat, 27 Aug 2016 19:25:11 EST and the Goodness flows on... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6216952 I'm on the lookout for good things. I am a happy camper by nature, and I look for more silver linings and bright sides than dirt. Today, I reached out to the general manager of the gym I belong to and shared why I have been MIA, and despite having some continued pain, I want to start working out again. <BR> <BR> I had paid for a bunch of training sessions, but those had expired. I didn't know the status of them going into the conversation, but nothing ventured, nothing gained. So, I asked a... Fri, 12 Aug 2016 20:25:10 EST Concerns won't stop me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6216597 While not without concerns, I am forging ahead today. I am going to work after 2 days off. The days were meant as productive vacation days, but I ended up being in so much pain, it amounted to little more than a lot of laying down and even that hurt. <BR> <BR> So just for today, I am taking it a step at a time. I am trying to remain chill to the point of calm, though things and especially job things are ramping up in front of me. <BR> <BR> So here's to a calm day of not getting rattled. I... Fri, 12 Aug 2016 08:26:20 EST Hangry http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6215048 When you get so hungry at work, you break into the "emergency" oatmeal packet. <BR> <BR> At least I avoided going to the convenience store that is IN THE BUILDING! Tue, 9 Aug 2016 16:21:59 EST