MICKEYMAX's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MICKEYMAX MICKEYMAX's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Out of My Comfort Zone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6316679 I entered a writing contest at work today. I have no expectations of winning - but that is not why I entered. I entered because I consider myself to be an excellent writer and I wanted to exhibit my writing skills, and to exhibit my love of working with students to a very prestigious crowd. <BR> <BR> I stepped way out of my comfort zone. I often do a lot of ghostwriting for my boss. I edit a lot of departmental memos, and have been known to write beautiful recommendations and appraisals. Bu... Wed, 15 Feb 2017 20:51:30 EST Tell Me Something Good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6306872 Taking care of yourself as a priority can mean a lot of different things. Here's some steps I have taken that have pushed me to the front of my to-do list: <BR> <BR> I bought a pair of 5 pound dumbbells and had them shipped to work. They should arrive Mon or Tuesday. I also bought a 5 set pack of resistance bands. I am going to try to keep active while at work. I think it will be a huge benefit. <BR> <BR> I sent someone a fruit basket as a housewarming gift, and chose from the post-Christm... Sat, 28 Jan 2017 19:20:16 EST The First Step is a doozy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6306447 Stairs are kind of my nemesis. In the last couple of years, I have had a hard time walking down them. This morning, heading out the door to work, they stopped me in my tracks. <BR> <BR> They are the same 2 steps I climb down every morning when I leave the house,but for some reason, this morning, I felt like I was paralyzed when trying to go down. I recognize that I was having a panic attack of sorts. I don't know how it happened or why, but after about 5 minutes of talking to myself out in ... Fri, 27 Jan 2017 21:40:29 EST Small swaps lead to big changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6305764 I am learning that small swaps can lead to big changes. I am not completely ditching my desire for a hot morning beverage -- and a breakfast from the donut place, but I am switching up bits of it so I am ingesting less sugar, making healthier choices, and having smaller portions. <BR> <BR> I downsized from a croissant to a small wrap, and went from whole milk to skim. If I so choose, I can make another change down the road, but right now I am comfortable where I am in this process, and havi... Thu, 26 Jan 2017 17:38:25 EST Eating Clean-er http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6297012 I am not where I want to be in the eating dept - but I am improving. This way is better for me. I am eating at least one deliciously healthy meal daily - lately it has been a mix of beets, pineapples, grapes, avocado, corn and black beans. I throw a little (tsp or two) of balsamic vinaigrette in there and it holds me for a decent amount. I have been drinking water galore. I fall to the wayside later in the day, but I am work in progress. <BR> <BR> This morning, I had oatmeal and since i was ... Thu, 12 Jan 2017 22:09:06 EST Hello 2017! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6291489 Striding ahead --- after months of waffling, researching, and procrastinating - I finally found a new doc - hopefully. Her online stats and reviews look good - and she is affiliated with the hosp I stayed in in Sept. I have an appt on 1/23. Choosing a doc is a big decision - and hopefully this choice pans out. (my other doc of 10 years moved and it was no longer a good match.) <BR> <BR> I am trying to do more clean eating and increasing my movement. There are a few facebook groups I am in wh... Wed, 4 Jan 2017 21:38:25 EST December's docket http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6275699 Hello friends, <BR> <BR> It's been a while. Hope all is well with everyone. I have been doing okay. Struggling with pain and mobility issues -- but far from giving up! <BR> <BR> I am enrolled in a clean eating challenge, which begins on Tuesday. It will mean a lot of food prep, sugar avoidance, and intentional behavior, but I am gearing up for it. I have already declined 2 work parties which are usually festive and fun, but I don't feel bad about it - I am just setting myself up to be a suc... Sat, 3 Dec 2016 09:40:22 EST Pain or no Pain, Hello Gym! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6260015 After an extended hiatus, I went to the gym today. I was walking around in a store, pushing a cart, and I I felt so stiff, and had so much pain, I just decided that I needed to go to the gym and climb on a stationary bike. I needed to see if I could pedal, and would the stretching help and if the muscles could take the pain. <BR> <BR> Huh, I think riding helped. The gym manager gave me a very friendly greeting. Shook my hand and held it for a little bit. He knows me. We're friendly. He kno... Mon, 31 Oct 2016 21:38:43 EST I am still here http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6255009 Just working through things - mainly my health. Trying to get my stamina back. Luckily, I never lost my zest for living! I just need to pick up the pace! Hope you are all doing well! <BR> <BR> Fri, 21 Oct 2016 14:00:40 EST Making it work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6242414 Here is the Reader's Digest Condensed Version of my life lately. <BR> <BR> Back on 9/9, I had pain just below my breastbone in the center of my chest/above my stomach. Long story short, I was hospitalized for 6 days with a diagnosis of gallstones/pancreatitis. Hello! Wake-up call!!! No FUN! <BR> <BR> Since then, I have been adhering to better eating, cutting back on fat, in particular. The surgeons wanted to cut me open, but luckily my primary prevailed and we will re-visit same topic in... Tue, 27 Sep 2016 00:18:38 EST Scale Recommendation Requested http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6237141 Hi all, <BR> <BR> Does anyone have a good recommendation for a scale to weigh myself on that is fit for home use. I can google it, but I would love a recommendation from our community; The max weight needs to at least hit 420 lbs. <BR> <BR> THANK YOU! <BR> Mary Fri, 16 Sep 2016 23:38:03 EST On the Mend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6236602 Just a few words tonight as I must know get to bed. <BR> <BR> I have been in the hospital for the past 6 days, and it is something I do not want to repeat again. <BR> <BR> I'll get into more details when I am more fully rested. It is good to be home. <BR> <BR> Thu, 15 Sep 2016 23:32:30 EST Getting On Top of Things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6227430 Control is not the right word for the way I am feeling these last few days --- and explained as much to my health coach. I feel like I am going with the flow, and it is not just an unintentional ride. I have power. I have choices. I am exercising my right to these things, while not being inflexible at the next set of curve-balls. <BR> <BR> Truth be told, I need to go lay down. Long day, and well-deserved rest, but hopefully next time I am back here, I will explain this better. Til then! Happ... Tue, 30 Aug 2016 23:40:36 EST Head On http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6226633 I a learning what is happening in my body and I am facing it head on. I went for the nerve test today and Doc indicated that he thinks I am experiencing nerve pain from the condition of my back. He's a conduit to passing on information to my doctor, so that will be the next step. I am not overly keen on using drugs to control my life, so I am going to see what my doc says, and then move forward one step at a time. <BR> <BR> I am going to go to the gym, and speak to a trainer. I did not wan... Mon, 29 Aug 2016 16:43:59 EST We Shall See what we shall see http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6226229 I have a doc's appt in the morning for an EMG, which is a test to see how my nerves react when the muscles are stimulated. I am nervous about it, but sitting up praying and playing computer games to try to relax before heading to bed. <BR> <BR> This is one more step to figure out the leg pain issues, which are ongoing despite several measures to diagnose and fix. Last diagnosis was back arthritis. I will need to swing by hosp and pick up my xray before continuing on to next doc. <BR> <BR> ... Mon, 29 Aug 2016 00:11:54 EST The Blessings of Making Yourself a Priority http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6225557 Hi all, <BR> <BR> I hope you are all doing great out in Sparkie-land. I have just returned from a fabulous week off in Alexandria, VA, where I felt relaxed, refreshed and reinvigorated. My mobility was limited, but I did what I could as I could, and I am starting to turn the corner in how I am feeling. I am also on steroids right now, and I know that is helping with inflammation and therefore, making it easier for me to get around. <BR> <BR> Before I left, the results from my back xray sho... Sat, 27 Aug 2016 19:25:11 EST and the Goodness flows on... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6216952 I'm on the lookout for good things. I am a happy camper by nature, and I look for more silver linings and bright sides than dirt. Today, I reached out to the general manager of the gym I belong to and shared why I have been MIA, and despite having some continued pain, I want to start working out again. <BR> <BR> I had paid for a bunch of training sessions, but those had expired. I didn't know the status of them going into the conversation, but nothing ventured, nothing gained. So, I asked a... Fri, 12 Aug 2016 20:25:10 EST Concerns won't stop me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6216597 While not without concerns, I am forging ahead today. I am going to work after 2 days off. The days were meant as productive vacation days, but I ended up being in so much pain, it amounted to little more than a lot of laying down and even that hurt. <BR> <BR> So just for today, I am taking it a step at a time. I am trying to remain chill to the point of calm, though things and especially job things are ramping up in front of me. <BR> <BR> So here's to a calm day of not getting rattled. I... Fri, 12 Aug 2016 08:26:20 EST Hangry http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6215048 When you get so hungry at work, you break into the "emergency" oatmeal packet. <BR> <BR> At least I avoided going to the convenience store that is IN THE BUILDING! Tue, 9 Aug 2016 16:21:59 EST Leg cramps http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6208407 Well, they go on. Not every day, But I feel like I am making headway on eliminating things that may cause them. They suck, pure and simple. This is not of the charlie horse variety. While I would not classify charlie horses as pleasant, compared to the cramps I get, they are. So. I keep tracking what I am doing and trying to figure this out (and along with my doc also). <BR> <BR> Aside from that, things are mostly ok. Staff member told me he may be applying for another position today, and I ... Thu, 28 Jul 2016 21:38:45 EST Out of my Shell http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6204996 When I am feeling good about myself and relaxed, I open up. Today was one of those days. <BR> <BR> THe day started out with a meeting and participation in a large group, and I made my mark. Later one of the presenters came over and I shared some storytelling, and we yukked it up! <BR> It was one thing after another, and then I was invited to a small celebration luncheon for a colleague in another dept, and not only did I attend, but I shined. <BR> <BR> I definitely added to the positive (... Fri, 22 Jul 2016 17:31:07 EST Not Looking Behind Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6204050 Today was a little surprise, and it was a fun one. It's been hot out, and today no different. I wore a sleeveless shirt to work. I do it infrequently, but today was one of those days. I sat in a bit of traffic and noticed the convertible in front of me was a murano. I've never seen this model in convertible. Was kind of cool. SUV-ish but a convertible. <BR> <BR> The guy in front of me, looked at me in his rear view mirror and smiled and waved at me. I smiled and waved back, though not witho... Wed, 20 Jul 2016 22:49:17 EST Stamina http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6203424 I need more stamina. My lack of working out regularly has totally tanked my stamina. Between leg pain and just the crappy way I feel lately, my stamina has been trashed. <BR> <BR> I know I will get it back with hard work, but I am just reminding myself that yet another reason to be in better health and shape is improved stamina! <BR> <BR> Yes! Tue, 19 Jul 2016 22:22:03 EST People http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6202829 I come from a long line of people who other people love to be around. We are a contagiously happy bunch. Tonight while driving home, I heard a song that my uncle loved by Al Green. He introduced us to a lot of Motown music, and this song brought an instant smile to my face. My uncle could be a challenge (fought with my dad, his brother-in-law, that made things unpleasant sometimes, but mostly my uncle was a cool guy. He had friends EVERYWHERE! He made friends easily and often. He definitely g... Mon, 18 Jul 2016 21:39:05 EST Mojo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6202531 My mojo is coming back. I am feeling hints of it. It is when I get excited and feel as if there possibilities that things are coming together, and I am not hopeless. When I am not hopeless, I am not powerless. When I am not powerless, I am prepared to step forward on my own behalf, and be who I am....proudly. <BR> <BR> My legs are still a prob for me,but this morning I am committing to doing some chair workouts. I am not putting a label on it, because I don't do great with my own added pres... Mon, 18 Jul 2016 11:27:21 EST Chairs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6201947 Chairs are a necessity to me, and something I fret about. There are times when I have felt uncomfortable, cautious, singled out, left out, and vulnerable because of chairs. Is it too light, is it going to hold me, what are the chances of me falling to the ground? Can I get up out of it? A lot of things go through my mind when I am about to sit down. <BR> <BR> For those familiar places, it is "nice" to have a pre-scoped out piece of furniture. A place where you have been before, a place hat ... Sun, 17 Jul 2016 10:57:03 EST Fighting for Your Worth http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6201107 I don't know why I decided that this was the time to watch it. It had been sitting on my playlist for months. I had a little free time and I reviewed my amazon playlist, and one of the free prime movies was "In a Town This Size." It chronicled the horrific story of a small town doctor systematically abusing kids over the years, both boys and girls. <BR> <BR> Heartbreaking. <BR> <BR> When I was a kid, back when it was commonplace to leave a kid in a car, without thinking the worst could ha... Fri, 15 Jul 2016 18:48:22 EST This is Why - The Intro http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6200878 There are many personal reasons for me that I NEED to get healthy. It is not just a matter of losing weight (though saying it like that almost makes it seem like it is some easy off-handed thing) - it's not - well, that has not been my experience. But I am trying to lay out why I need to do what I say I need to do. Some I am going to write a series of blogs as to why I need to do this. For myself. If it helps anyone else discover their own whys along the way, so much the better, but for me, I... Fri, 15 Jul 2016 10:23:37 EST Unlocking the Mystery http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6196714 I was hungry. I mean famished. I felt it. I needed to eat, and my thoughts were racing about where I would stop after work since the homestead looks like Old Mother Hubbard lives there. <BR> <BR> and Then my day was interrupted. a 4:30pm departure time became 7pm because I was climbing out of a busy workload. I was ready to leave and a customer called. I logged back in and handled it. I have caller ID. I knew who it was. I could have left it, but I didn't. <BR> <BR> I walked slowly (in mu... Thu, 7 Jul 2016 22:57:02 EST Doing it Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6190370 My simple advice to myself is to find what works and do it again. <BR> <BR> I know how to eat well, move, and take good care of myself; I don't always do it. When that happens, I look for the next magic pill (not drugs) to fix my life and wonder why things went awry. I know. I stopped caring for myself, or stopped doing the steps that let me care best for myself. <BR> <BR> Sunday, I practiced eating more f/v. <BR> Tomatoes <BR> spinach <BR> lettuce <BR> strawberries <BR> blueberries <BR> b... Mon, 27 Jun 2016 07:30:47 EST On the Road http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6189607 There's been ups and downs lately for me, and i am sure I am not alone in that. That being said, here's some positive tidbits. I have been trying to eat more fruits and veggies. Today, I had: <BR> <BR> spinach <BR> mushrooms <BR> potato <BR> broccoli <BR> tomato <BR> lettuce <BR> strawberries <BR> blueberries <BR> banana <BR> <BR> THAT"S RIGHT NINE!!! Count 'em 9!!! That's definitely on the right road. I had trout for dinner. <BR> <BR> I went to the doc on Friday for bloodwork. I have b... Sat, 25 Jun 2016 21:34:15 EST Getting Balanced http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6165098 The biggest thing I have going on these days is that I have all but ditched my cane. I am still using it to navigate up and down the front steps at my house, but beyond that, it sits in the corner, or in my car. <BR> <BR> My legs are getting stronger and I am feeling more balanced while standing on my own two feet. it is a great feeling to me that I am making progress. It is slow moving still, but each day, I feel stronger. One foot forward and all that. I am improving! <BR> <BR> What have... Tue, 17 May 2016 20:30:13 EST Fighting Anxiety http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6159740 On Saturday, I had a big scare. I woke up with jabs in my side, feeling like I couldn't breathe, and crying. Crying fluctuating between pain, fear and frustration. I thought I was going to have to go to the ER. I calmed myself way down. Mental checks helped. Kidney stone, maybe, but doubtful, pulled muscle, no. Broken rib, maybe but why. Stones and broken ribs I've had, but I think this was actually a panic attack. <BR> <BR> I have been s-t-r-e-s-s-e-d and not getting enough sleep. My BP was... Mon, 9 May 2016 22:43:35 EST Trucking Along http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6157216 Exhausted, but trucking along. Not going to blog currently, but will be back in a couple of days. Hope you are all doing great! Thu, 5 May 2016 22:37:23 EST Let's Share the Good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6152482 Today, I had an awesome day at work. One huge success is with a student worker I have been on the verge of firing several times. He is not terrible, just missing the mark. I changed my mind one day when I was very close to letting him go. I decided to work with him on a one-on-one basis. <BR> <BR> MAGIC Happened! He is not perfect, but he understands his missteps much more, and is trying hard to change them. I am promoting him into a specialty position next year. My idea about re-imagining... Thu, 28 Apr 2016 22:41:02 EST Happiness Is...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6150298 This is not the beginning. This is somewhere in the middle. It is not my first rodeo of going to the gym, but I will say it felt good to go tonight. <BR> <BR> While I was in there I was thinking, "Happiness is... and then I stopped, and let it be, happiness is. I don't need to add onto that. But tonight, I added, when I am at the gym, happiness is: <BR> <BR> Familiar faces <BR> Giving and receiving smiles <BR> Knowing I belong, and it is my gym as much as anyone else's <BR> ... Mon, 25 Apr 2016 21:31:03 EST Positive Steps today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6149531 Hubby and I are working opposite hours these days, but our timing coincides on the weekend. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, he decided to work some overtime hours while I got rid of 4 bags of shredding material and then dropped film off for developing. It's really 2 disposable cameras. I have no idea what could be on them if anything! I am looking forward to the surprise! <BR> <BR> This morning, I managed to get up early and we went to the gym at 5am, and then off to breakfast and church. I finished ... Sun, 24 Apr 2016 21:24:35 EST This is Only a Test http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6147501 I had to laugh this morning. I am practicing (as in cultivating) my new "take it as it comes" attitude. I am trying to not get easily riled nor reactive to many situations. I am better in some situations than others. <BR> <BR> The Universe laughed at me this morning as today, I got a big dose of let's test that not get riled theory as my normal 35 minute commute got turned upside down into 2 hours. I ended up going way off track to circumvent a highway nightmare, only to have the city I cro... Thu, 21 Apr 2016 20:45:30 EST Going Deeper http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6146890 I am meditating kind of frequently these days, and this time alone has turned out a few thoughts, that I am exploring. <BR> <BR> I have no problems. This is not to say that things are perfect. They are not. But life is full of circumstances, and abilities to encounter them -- by avoidance, by marching through, by letting it be. This a common theme for me lately. <BR> <BR> Seeing the circumstance <BR> Examining it <BR> Deciding my route <BR> Moving forward, around or through. <BR> <BR> M... Wed, 20 Apr 2016 23:32:37 EST Checking in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6146066 HI, <BR> <BR> I met my step goal today! <BR> <BR> I walked at least 250 steps for 5 out of 9 hours today (my previous high was 3) <BR> <BR> At my most recent weigh-in, i lost 3 pounds after a very long plateau! <BR> <BR> Hope everyone is well. I hope to be checking in more frequently again! Tue, 19 Apr 2016 22:29:22 EST Smacking Fear in the Face http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6127671 I am learning to face my fears, and if I voice my biggest one, it is that I don't have the staying power to overcome myself to lose weight and be healthy. How am i facing my fears? Well, recently I joined a running group (even though I am not a runner) that is helmed by my first coach -- not Hadley - but Cliff - a throwback to a decade ago when I lived in Boston. <BR> <BR> He still lives in Texas, but the world has shrunk, particularly through facebook (and here), and being surrounded by po... Fri, 25 Mar 2016 22:33:29 EST Happiness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6127050 I had a very successful and happy week. Last year at this time, I received a less than stellar review (and while most would have considered it as quite favorable), I saw it as a betrayal and a drop in my image. This year, I crushed it, and I am know reviewing myself and my life in all kinds of ways, but especially with cause and effect in mind. <BR> <BR> Today, I was one of 500 folks honored for 10+ years of service. I am just at 10 - but one of the honorees had his 50th! Whoa! It was an a... Thu, 24 Mar 2016 23:44:45 EST Putting Words Into Action http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6115581 In the last couple of months something surprising has happened. My husband has joined the fitness revolution and has lost nearly 20 lbs. It is fantastic, because a lot of what we are doing now, we are doing together. We wear fitbits, encourage each other with food, and eat healthier when dining out. We still eat out a couple of times on the weekend, but our choices have drastically improved. He no longer drinks soda, and 90% of the time, we both drink water. <BR> <BR> I made 5,000 steps tod... Wed, 9 Mar 2016 22:23:27 EST I'm On It! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6104167 I am only going to write a very short bit because a storm is going wild here, and I want to shut down the computer. I have a couple of gigantic celebrations here, and I will write in greater detail in less stormy weather. <BR> <BR> 1) I walked 98% of the time today without my cane. It was sometimes painful, but I did it. <BR> <BR> 2) I did go back to the gym!!! <BR> <BR> WOO HOO! MORE SOON! Love you all! Wed, 24 Feb 2016 22:42:19 EST Intuition Strikes Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6103342 There is no doubt about it. I am and have always been, a very intuitive person. It does get my goat though, when you believe something is on track to happen, and the other person won't come clean about it, at least not until you bring it up. I could see from a mile away that things were going to change for the negative once my coach moved back here. He is way closer, but not geographically desirable, shall we say, and once I brought up working out together, maybe in the spring, he backpedaled... Tue, 23 Feb 2016 22:47:14 EST In a New Light http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6100161 The other day going to work, I had on a black and white patterned sweater (similar to argyle) and brown pants. I had black pants, but I chose not to wear them. the reason I didn't is that ensemble together reminded me of an orca, and I did not want to think of myself in those terms. Strangely enough, a colleague wore a very similar ensemble, except with gray pants. The orca thought ran through my head more than once that day. (this colleague is not large.) <BR> <BR> I kept it to myself ---... Fri, 19 Feb 2016 22:24:49 EST Moving Ahead http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6087957 During the days of sickness, I had some significant moments of clarity. <BR> <BR> One of these has been the need to take greater care of myself. I went to the doctor's today. I am going to work on baby steps meal planning. I made my appt for midday through the afternoon, instead of waiting to the very end of the day at work. It then also gave me time to spend some quality time with hubby which I have been missing due to our work schedules. <BR> <BR> There are many positives happening for ... Thu, 4 Feb 2016 19:39:22 EST Quick Break http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6087229 I am mending well and have been back to work this week. I am a rockstar at my job, and it has been good to be back. <BR> <BR> Here are some things I noted today that I am very grateful for: <BR> <BR> 1) hubby - all the little things he does for me are so overwhelming at times! <BR> 2) It was 60 degrees today IN WINTER! (Heck yeah!) <BR> 3) I led a meeting that my boss spent the afternoon raving about... <BR> 4) I posted job listings and interview schedules in advance of a deadline <BR> 5... Wed, 3 Feb 2016 22:48:56 EST The Lies We Tell Ourselves http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6082125 It is innocuous. You don't even realize that you are doing it. A little kernel of doubt was sprouted, years ago maybe, and you let that seed take hold because maybe at one time, you did not feel strong enough to refute it. <BR> <BR> Oh, I have been there. It's from the backyard bullies, the school we spend our day, our teachers could contribute, media, friends, anyone. We are all capable of adding to the machine, but just because you've believed it, up until this point, that doesn't mean yo... Fri, 29 Jan 2016 07:42:02 EST Improvement http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6080635 Hello friends, <BR> <BR> My legs are starting to clear up! Hurrah. It is by the teeniest of margins, but it is somewhere to start! WOO HOO! <BR> <BR> I hope you are all having a great day! Best! Wed, 27 Jan 2016 12:58:14 EST