MICKEYMAX's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MICKEYMAX MICKEYMAX's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Trusting the Process http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5760172 About a week ago, I was a bit down because I was unhappy with my progress when it came to walking. A few folks reminded me I am actually ahead of the curve compared to where they are and certainly past folks who are still sitting on the couch. <BR> <BR> Since then a few interesting things happened. For one, this morning, I nearly went down my 2 front steps like normal. One foot after the other. It felt weird. Because I have been putting one foot down, and then the other foot down on the sam... Fri, 15 Aug 2014 09:39:38 EST Another Awesome Workout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5759944 I considered last night's workout outstanding, so then tonight's would get bumped to exceptional. I still feel a little sore in spots, and that makes me smile. The progress that I am making is visible to me, and I am getting a better view of thinking from where I started, to a little improvement, to now, and then projecting myself three years down the road from now. My coach would say, "It's exciting." and I would have to agree with him. <BR> <BR> I have received a mandate from him - to eat... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 22:45:44 EST A Good Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5759210 I'm good at following my coach's lead. And he is good at chunking down the steps for me so I can follow him. We had an outstanding workout tonight where I started to get into a groove of moving a bit more easily and with less times of falling out of sync. <BR> <BR> When I leave the gym happy and feeling as if I just climbed a mountain, it's been a good workout. The mountain is more figurative than literal but I continue to do things I have not done before. Making this kind of progress makes... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 21:25:09 EST It's Not If -- It's When http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5758833 In the course of the these last few days I have gone from feeling down and out to getting back on the horse, to be having my spark re-kindled - all within a smattering of days. Talking myself through the process, and with a lot of support from others, I realized that my glass hasn't changed -- it is still half full or empty, depending on how I look at it. I think that is what my coach was getting at all along. (I'll excuse him if he is reading this with a smug little smile.) <BR> <BR> My fi... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 09:39:15 EST Finding the Happiness Machine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5758613 A funny thing happened this afternoon; I found my happy place again. It actually started earlier in the day, when I started to re-think my frowny mood and tried to figure out what was causing it. A lot of it, I think, was work related. I am in a sandwich week - just having come off a 10 day off stint, and about to go back off next week, I am finding myself not only with an incredible workload, but many deadlines right along with it. <BR> <BR> What helped today? I lowered the boom. I called t... Tue, 12 Aug 2014 23:36:57 EST Just one of those... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5757900 I wanted to say days in the title, but that does not quite cover it. I was in a cranky little mood that I sadly have not yet climbed out of when I wrote my last blog. Imagine my surprise when I went to re-read it, and check for comments, and saw that it had been picked up for a popular blog post. That surprised me quite a bit, and didn't show me in the best light. Why am I saying that, because I am struggling again. I cannot even count the number of times I have been through this feeling --- ... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 22:50:10 EST Need to Adjust my Viewpoint http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5756512 Everything I have done, I have done with baby steps. What's hard about that, though, is I am results driven person and I have a tendency to think that if something is not perfect, then it sucks, and that others are disappointed in me, and then I feel the same about myself. This mindset is not helping me. In fact, it is a struggle for me. <BR> <BR> I met my coach for a workout this morning, but when he arrived at the gym, he let me know I was going to need a lot more water than the 2 bottle... Sat, 9 Aug 2014 19:45:25 EST Rewarding Roadtrip (Back from Beantown) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5756021 My drop to 400 lbs did not exactly coincide with my vacation week, but I decided to forego the difference and take my roadtrip to Boston anyway. It was a long drive (going solo both ways) but it went fine, even in the congested areas of NYC and Boston. Connecticut was no prize either, but all in all, I saw a lot more traffic headed in the other direction both when coming and going, so I was pretty thankful about that! <BR> <BR> I stayed with a friend who was house-sitting a family member's p... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 22:47:47 EST Shrinking Snowman http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5754176 Particularly in the days when I had no reliable scale on which to weigh myself, I used to rely on my body shape to figure out how I was doing. In retrospect, the answer should probably have been, not so good, but it was what I did. <BR> <BR> I likened myself to a snowman, basically 3 round parts. Of these, my stomach was always biggest, and I would measure it, so to speak, by how much it was hanging. My mother used to tell me, "if only I could get rid of my stomach," I would be okay, becaus... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 08:29:28 EST Re-Engaging http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5753500 Growing up, I was a very shy person. That changed when I got to my 20's and I came out of my shell more and more. People who meet me now can never believe that I was an extremely shy and quiet person. It seems a little incongruous with the person I come across as now. <BR> <BR> In the last few years, though, the heavier I got, the more I withdrew. Sure, it is easy to stay friends with and re-connect with others on facebook, email, etc, but it is not the same as engaging with people in "real... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 09:16:02 EST Putting the Pieces Together http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5752574 I have reached a point on my journey that is closing in on my weight loss record. I imagine that most of us on here have had previous successes of one sort or another. Having lost 65 lbs, I am on the precipice of matching my best number of pounds lost, 70. That's kind of exciting, except for the part that last time I hit 70 lbs. lost, I plateaued for so long, I gave up. It was many years since that happened, and this time around I have a whole different mindset. <BR> <BR> For one, I have wa... Sun, 3 Aug 2014 23:51:17 EST Attack of the Back Fat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5751298 I love Fridays! Even though today was really another vacation day, Fridays habitually make me a little giddy. As I arrived to meet with my coach, Hadley, tonight, I took a quick peek at my reflection in the car window. What the heck?! I had changed into gym clothes just before I left home, yet managed to put my shirt on inside out. Fail! <BR> <BR> What did I do then? On this disgustingly nasty humid day, I pulled a sweater off my passenger seat and put in on. Seriously. I put on a sweater ... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 20:40:16 EST Pushing Beyond Excuses http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5750536 Last night I came home from a workout with my coach, Hadley, that kicked my butt. I was feeling it in every fiber of my being. I had to dig deep even though at times throughout, my well felt empty. I went to bed around normal time, but then lay there for about 3 hours wide awake, hurting, and too wired to sleep. I was relieved when hubby got up around 3am so it wouldn't matter if I made noise. I conked out for a while and got up around 5:30 and started watching Sharknado on the DVR. Stupid, o... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 17:35:20 EST Rope Trainer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5749767 Some folks have asked me about a rope trainer. Here is a picture of a rope trainer. It is a machine with a long rope looped on a gear. You can set the resistance to make it harder. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/4/l246727640.jpg"> <BR> <BR> You can sit or kneel on the seat or stand when pulling the rope. I stand. I usually have the resistance set on a 3. It goes from 1-7. <BR> <BR> It is good for your arms and shoulders. I generally do no more than 2,000 feet ... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 15:35:24 EST I Am Emerging http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5749284 If you would have asked me what I wanted to get out of going to the gym a few months ago, I probably would have said something like, "lose a few pounds and get around more easily." At the core those things are still true, but what I recognize now looking back, I was shortchanging myself in this quest. I never knew or could have presumed that my life would transform, that I would become a better, more vibrant person. It wasn't in my scope to believe that my whole life would change, not just my... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 22:44:46 EST In the Midst of Change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5748908 Change is rough sometimes, and other times, it just seems to flow. I am experiencing some of both right now, but I am getting through it just fine. <BR> <BR> This morning I woke up with a leg cramp and a thought on my mind: "I am getting stronger and healthier every day." I choose to believe this, and it is helping me to conquer the next set of challenges i am experiencing. <BR> <BR> For one, my trainer, Kimmy has left. Sure, I have others to help and support me including a new trainer, ... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 11:42:24 EST Dream Big and then Dream Bigger http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5746695 Today when I took my lunch break, the lure of the sunshine was just too much to keep me inside. It was sunny, bright and beautiful - not too hot, nor humid, just 3 bears' kind of weather....just right. <BR> <BR> The last time I sat on the patio at work was out of necessity in early June. Then I was able to sit in the chairs, but not without a lot of squeezing, and prayers being said that I could get out of the seat, IN moments like these, I frequently wait until most people around me have m... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 23:53:02 EST "NEVER" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5745990 Inspiration for my blogs most often comes from something that has happened during the day. This is no exception. I experienced one of the most incredible things in my recent life tonight - all on a day I had some knee pain, felt tired out and generally did not want to be at the gym, but there was no way I was passing up time to spend with my coach, Hadley. <BR> <BR> Last week when we worked out, he coaxed me down on the floor without use of a box or a step. My directive was to get down on t... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 22:20:32 EST Putting the focus back on me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744914 Woke up feeling better and ready to go handle what has potential of being a crazy day! <BR> <BR> I have been thinking about the episode from the other day and I am using this moment to be a little more concerned about myself and a little bit less concerned with fixing others. No one ever handed the keys to the world over to me and said fix it. <BR> <BR> Tonight marks my last night with my trainer, Kimmy - who has been a great support for me in many ways. I love her to death and she knows ... Wed, 23 Jul 2014 11:24:59 EST Slippery Slope http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744571 You know when you have one of those days and it starts to slip into one of those weeks, well it has been happening to me. I have been dragging myself through it. My feelings got hurt on Monday night and I did want I would have done in the past to fix it. I ate some oversized portions of not so great stuff. Not overwhelming amounts but enough to think, "gee I wish I had not eaten that." It spilled over a little into today, where I ate ice cream (skinny cow) for breakfast and it seemed perfectl... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 23:37:49 EST Seeing is Believing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5741091 I am an amazing woman. I say this not to boast about myself but to recognize who I am and how far I have come. I am strong, stronger than I have ever been, I am growing more agile, more agile than I have ever been in the last couple of decades. I am doing many things I never dreamed were possible all because of a change in my attitude. <BR> <BR> This attitude was not easy to develop. It was hard. Following a lifetime of being put down, you begin to believe it yourself and I felt unable to b... Thu, 17 Jul 2014 22:28:38 EST Another Milestone Achieved (well, two)!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5740409 I am pretty well tired out tonight, so I will just leave a snippet for now. Tonight, I achieved a couple of momentous milestones. <BR> <BR> I got on the octane (elliptical) myself. No step. For MONTHS, I have been using a variety of steps at different heights to get on. Tonight, I just got up. <BR> <BR> My coach challenged me to do 1 mile in 14 mins and 15 seconds. I crushed it. I did 13 minutes and 12 seconds. No stopping for water, but I did it. <BR> <BR> I did not want to get on that ... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 22:55:31 EST Taller and Stronger http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5740108 Somewhere along the line while I was focusing on getting fit and healthier, a funny thing happened. I started looking at myself and others differently. One way I know that this happened is because I now take myself into consideration when making a decision. Also, at work, when I observe myself from a third party angle, I see the great things I am doing - and achieving a higher level than I have done before. <BR> <BR> I believe in myself now, and I take confidence in what I do. I stood next ... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 13:26:29 EST Yup, I Did It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5738139 The last few weeks that I have been visiting my mother-in-law, I've been opting to sit on a hard-backed chair to make it somewhat easier for me to get up. In the past, I also had my cane with me so I could off the floor to put up as well. <BR> <BR> I have been without the cane for over a month now. That is something my coach helped me with. Saturday when we went to visit, I did not sit on the hard chair, I sat on the squishy soft recliner because it was more comfortable. I thought I might re... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 20:26:04 EST Send Them Packing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5736877 As I was slipping off to sleep last night, I was thinking about a couple of negative nellies I encountered through the day. That stream of consciousness led me to think a couple of less than optimistic thoughts myself. I reminded myself that it is OKAY to have negative thoughts once in a while, as long as you are willing to chuck them away or realize you have the power to turn those thoughts around. <BR> <BR> Case in point. Last week I shared a picture of my sister and I with a new friend. H... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 17:11:29 EST Celebrating Every Day Successes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5736111 In a short while from now, I will be celebrating a big milestone, when I hit 400 pounds. I have worked very hard to get to this point and I expect to realize this goal within the next month or so. <BR> <BR> The road to 400 has been paved with many small successes and I am reminded how amazing my life is becoming, in great part to the new me that is being unearthed daily. <BR> <BR> Yesterday for instance, I had a workout that exceeded my normal capabilities FROM MY STANDPOINT. It was one ... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 14:03:23 EST Front and Center http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735160 It took me a bit to process that my trainer was leaving (even after she called herself my babysitter.) That comment has been forgiven as it was pointed out to me that she is likely under a lot of stress. Since then, we have been back to our normal selves, and we get along great. This is good, especially for the short term. She is leaving in 2 weeks from today. <BR> <BR> I had a little panic attack about what would be next, but those fears are gone. I have a bunch of different options with t... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 08:43:55 EST No Remorse http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5734594 Most folks who know me in a business sense, think I am pretty subdued, and I often am. At my last job though, I was much more a troublemaker, co-conspirator and prankster. It's been a while since I exercised my muscle in this particular way, and it felt good to let a little loose yesterday. <BR> <BR> It put me back in the mind frame of what other pranks and dares have I been subject to in the past. Most of them made me smile and have been pretty harmless in nature, with a lot of laughter gen... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 13:29:35 EST There is No Stopping http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5731267 Right now, at this minute, I am on top of the world. Why? Because I kept myself on a timeline, doing what needed to be done -- laundry, packing (ok, I still have to pack but that should take 5 minutes), and most importantly getting to the gym to do a pre-excursion workout. <BR> <BR> There is no quit. There is no stopping. Yes, I am the same person who started close to 500 lbs, and is now closing in on 399, and how did that come about? No stopping. Well, there were some sidetracks, but now a... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 11:27:33 EST Moving on from the babysitter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5731169 Went to the gym last night and huffed and puffed (a la The Three Little Pigs) through my workout. Not working out on consecutive days and then going back is always a little struggle. The plus side of it reminds me of why I work out and also of why I need to do it more often. The important thing is going back. I am going to squeeze in a little visit to the gym before I head off on my weekend excursion this afternoon. Going will make me feel better all day for a myriad of reasons. <BR> <BR> I... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 09:11:48 EST Finding a little faith http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5728046 I've got to have a little faith in myself and in believing in others to help without rushing so quick to judgment. That's how I analyze things. I do a quick mental survey and then jump to conclusions how I think something is going to work out. <BR> <BR> Oftentimes, however, I am wrong. I let my lack of faith get in the way and generally think the worst. I need to work on that. <BR> <BR> That's one of the things I am working to improve upon in myself. I am certainly a work in progress! Sat, 28 Jun 2014 23:27:29 EST Um, I didn't see this coming http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726702 Pardon my absence for a couple of days. While reveling in the fitting jackets, and climbing up the steps with greater ease, I've had something else kicking around. My trainer, who I have frequently dubbed "good cop" is leaving her post. I am very happy for her, but let's face it, not happy for me. I could be looking at it, like I get a fresh start too, but I have become accustomed to my trainer, and I love that feisty girl. What does it mean about bad cop, the one you have been following alon... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 22:29:31 EST Baby Steps & Corduroy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724918 Hubby says I've got shiny object syndrome, and he's right. I am frequently distracted when something sidetracks me. This morning while getting ready for work, I was thinking about things I had promised to get done, and a possible timeline, when I noticed my corduroy jackets. Certainly not in season, but I have them hanging on the side of my dresser. The more recent purchase is a brown jacket, that was way snug last fall. It is still not a perfect fit. I need more room in my lower arms for it ... Tue, 24 Jun 2014 13:29:13 EST Overwhelming Urges http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5720943 While I was quite hungry today during certain phases, I stayed on track with my new current eating plan. Unless my coach chimes in otherwise, I will still plug away at this. When I was feeling like "I might chew off my arm" today, I went and got a salad with lettuce, beets, peas, mandarin oranges, grilled chicken and a bit of balsamic vinaigrette. A meeting ran late so I was gypped out of my yogurt that I hope to have before working out. I found a mini-can of unsweetened diced pears in my des... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 21:35:25 EST Heading Towards Normal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5720595 My a-ha moment came to me last night while trying to fall asleep. The last time I had big success with my weight and fitness came while I was eating mini meals throughout the day, and had "a protein and a fibrous carb." I ate stuff like turkey, string cheese, yogurt, fruit and veggies. It was not that hard to follow as long as I did not fall prey to junk or sweets. So that's what I am going to go back to do at least for a while. I think it will help me to keep it simplified, and it has a prov... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 11:22:58 EST Fast Food vs. Retail Therapy and rants from the big boss man http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5720181 Lately, my hubby has been doing a lot of nice things for me. Little simple things, but very thoughtful. So when he asked me to stop at the golden arches to pick up dinner and a shake for him, I said sure. <BR> <BR> This is the kind of thing, though, that can introduce birds of a feather thinking. As I was cruising home, I was thinking about how fast food to me has become a lot like retail therapy to me. It's fun to think about, but not so good in practice. Once upon a time, I had a massive ... Tue, 17 Jun 2014 21:50:43 EST I am on the right track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5719664 While I was mindlessly chomping on something late last night, i put it down. I reminded myself that I am in the process of reinventing myself and I have TOTAL control over what I do with my body and how I treat it. <BR> <BR> I am having a field day at the gym because I have learned to use a variety of equipment there, and because now I am on track to show up consistently (and happily) and for the most part my body feels good when I am moving around. My head feels even happier when I am doing... Tue, 17 Jun 2014 08:34:30 EST Turning it Around and keep on going http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5719451 You know when you are really good at your job, it can be a little challenging to delegate because you cannot help but think that you yourself do the best job. I suffer from that, but I am learning to let go. Following yesterday's achievement but telling the client I could not come in early, today I put the latest event in the hands of two students. That is remarkable that I did that. I am making progress in sharing the workload, especially so that it interferes less with the gym. The gym is m... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 22:59:56 EST I Said No http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5718729 Today had the possibility of being "one of those days." I had to work an event I really did not want to - not to mention on a beautiful sunshiny day, and who knows what kind of traffic I might encounter. It was not a possibility that I could escape working the event, so I just sucked it up. <BR> <BR> Before I went though, I did something awesome. I got myself to the gym. The client of the event actually asked me to come in early to meet with her....and I said, "no!" <BR> <BR> Shocker. <BR... Sun, 15 Jun 2014 22:24:22 EST Because my coach believes... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5718179 Last night I met my coach, Hadley, at the gym. I had not seen him in a while (each of us have had a crazy work schedule lately) so it was really great to see him and catch up. No matter what the workout entails with him, there is always some new twist he works into it. It makes things more challenging, interesting, and keeps the boredom at bay. He also has an exceptional knack for making me believe I can do whatever he assigns next, even when it may be eons away from what I think I can do. Hi... Sun, 15 Jun 2014 00:42:54 EST Day 2 --- It's a Streak! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716800 Just doing what I need to do --- and what I want to do. I wanted to continue with the good feelings I felt last night after working out. How can I keep those feelings rolling? Show up again and do the legwork. So I did. <BR> <BR> I said "hi" to my trainer, and then just proceeded. I did a sweaty mile on the elliptical (octane) and then pulled 500 feet of rope. I was not out to break any records tonight, I was simply working out a bit to keep the streak alive. Mission accomplished. <BR> <B... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 22:03:34 EST Just What I Needed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716089 You know what is good for what ails ya? <BR> <BR> A nice sweaty workout. It completely cleared my head. Of course it helped that my trainer, Kimmy, was there to push me, keep me in my form, encourage me, do the counting for me, and help me push through when I faltered, (as always) but tonight's workout was extra great. So the sore arms are already starting to kick in, but that makes me feel great. It proves me to me and my body that I am working out hard. <BR> <BR> WOO HOO! Go me! I am ela... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 22:06:42 EST Slack not Slacker http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5714574 I know when I am under pressure, the best thing for me to do is go to the gym and work it out. I did not do that tonight, because I had myself so worked up in such a tizzy about the state of things, my heart was racing and I felt queasy (not to mention shedding tears due to overwhelming frustration.) at least I had the ability to wait until I was in my car and solo for that last bit. I just wanted to retreat to my cave. <BR> <BR> I gave myself a bye tonight from the gym and went home. Been ... Mon, 9 Jun 2014 22:48:03 EST Grab One Little Nugget http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5713948 There are days when momentum seems to suddenly stop or take a detour. It could be that you are overtired, stressed out a little, not wanting to go out in the rain,...any number of things. Stop looking for motivation in the big picture. It times like these, like this morning, I look for one little nugget. <BR> <BR> I did a lot of laundry last night - well mostly. A good chunk of it finished drying after I went to be, so instead of trucking out to the lanai to get it, I chose a pair of khakis... Mon, 9 Jun 2014 07:52:34 EST Riding the Wave http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5712586 Woke up this morning, still feeling joyous. Thinking about what I wrote last night and how my attitude has shifted, and continues to shift. Took this feeling with me to breakfast and ate slowly and mindfully and left the diner feeling composed and relaxed. This is part of my journey, where being calm is less of a surprise, and more of the norm. It is one of the things I have been working towards, and I am improving. woo hoo! <BR> <BR> Next stop - the grocery store. I decided that the best co... Sat, 7 Jun 2014 08:47:37 EST Hatchling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5712404 No gym tonight but a very active day at work which concluded by two-three hours of very fussy people haranguing on my nerves, while I plastered a big smile on my face, echoing the refrain, "of course, I am happy to help you." I am subbing for my normal crew who have left for the summer and in the interim, I have some new folks which need to be trained from scratch (i.e. some with no work etiquette....we will work on that.) <BR> <BR> In that time though I was on my feet from about 5:30-9pmis... Fri, 6 Jun 2014 22:53:54 EST Inspiration Struck http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5711677 I had an epiphany tonight! <BR> <BR> It may have started when my coach called me to talk for a few minutes. That is not the usual way we connect, but I liked it. I can't pinpoint anything all that profound that he said, but he did reinforce some feelings I have been having lately, and I think he helped inspire me to not only get to the gym (which had been my intent anyway) but also to push myself to a higher level. <BR> <BR> As I moseyed into the gym, I saw a larger girl working out with ... Thu, 5 Jun 2014 22:58:20 EST Powering Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5710442 Today someone gave me a once over and asked about my power. My mind went right to the gym, and thought power what? power lifting? power yoga? protein powder? I was set to answer about beginning with kettlebells and how hard they are, and then realized in the second before I opened my mouth that she meant none of those. She meant had I lost my electrical power in the storm last night? <BR> (p.s. no, I had not). <BR> <BR> HA HA HA HA <BR> <BR> That was a good save. I thought it was funny and... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 10:38:42 EST Mission Impossible....NOT! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5709711 Earlier today I was thinking a bit about my number goals. When I surpass 50 lbs lost, I was thinking that it will be the second time I hit fifty this year (age)! and then maybe my next goal is 75 lbs lost, and then maybe 100 as my next milestone. It was not so long ago that I did not believe that I could possibly achieve something so great. <BR> <BR> I am not focused on the number on the scale, but it is still a measure of success. One hundred pounds lost will not even bring me to my midpoin... Tue, 3 Jun 2014 11:51:40 EST Active Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5709330 Despite not being at the gym today, I had a very active day. Earlier I co-hosted a special catered breakfast for my graduating senior staff of 40 - and of those a half dozen kids I am super close to. It is a great event where I get to meet their families and brag about the work they have done. I was well-behaved (no tears, and I got to meet some families, I have waited a long time to meet. One of my close kids, also invited me to her graduation family dinner, which was at least a mile from wh... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 22:47:57 EST