MICKEYMAX's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MICKEYMAX MICKEYMAX's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ The Sherpa and Mrs. Go-Time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5781284 It's taken a bit, but I am finally clicking with my new trainer, Don. Tonight he likened himself to a Sherpa -- he is going to get me on the path of where I want to be --- but he can't take the steps for me. He's leading me and guiding me, but I have to follow through. It makes good sense. We are still learning each other's ways --- but it is coming along. I am feeling much more comfortable with him. <BR> <BR> We're progressing to working out an hour at a time now. This is a good step. Ton... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 22:58:34 EST Remembering What's Important http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5780584 If I were to let work define my day, I would say it was crappy, but even then that would be pushing it. For inasmuch as I felt overwhelmed today, and had a teary meltdown in my boss' office, my day was chock full of surprising and up lifting moments. The enormity of my current role at work started to stand out when one of my staffers moved to a different group. So then I was doing her job, plus mine which was imbalanced to start with, but then tipped over quickly. Add in me misplacing one of ... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 21:56:18 EST When It Clicks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5779257 It's becoming a matter of choice for me. Every choice has a consequence and has the potential to hurt me or help me. This is what has been subconsciously happening to me lately. I am not letting things fall into place. I am making choices and then things are falling into place. <BR> <BR> Case in point - choosing a restaurant to eat dinner. Normally we drag this conversation out with no one wanting to make the decision. Now though, more and more, what I eat is becoming more important, so I pi... Sat, 13 Sep 2014 18:19:20 EST Change is in the Air http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5778837 Today was the culmination of a long and tiring week at work. Whew! My time in the office is over for a couple of days, but I brought a giant pile of work home with me to accomplish before Monday. It is quite all right, though some would frown on this practice. <BR> <BR> Prior to last year, I would spend MANY late nights in the office. I barely felt like I could keep up yet I refused to surrender. The person who made me stop this happens to be away this week, so if he were around, I would be ... Fri, 12 Sep 2014 22:18:07 EST Celebrate Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5778177 For many, myself included, today marked a significant and terrible event in our lives. People say "never forget" as if that is some kind of option. Years ago, I would have had a much different outlook on this day. I would have been morose, and avoiding contact with others. But I am not that person anymore. Today, and every day, I celebrate Al, my friend, and honor his life, by living mine, in the way he did - joyfully, lovingly and with non-stop laughter. <BR> <BR> A couple of years ago I c... Thu, 11 Sep 2014 21:25:19 EST I danced tonight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777486 at the gym! Yes, between sets my nutty trainer and I were cutting up and doing some moves. This is beyond my comfort zone, but I realize my comfort zone is expanding. <BR> <BR> Tonight's workout featured some of the same body parts as last night - arms, triceps, abs, I guess. I don't know what the trainer has me doing. I am not sure if he makes the names of the exercises up or if these are common terms - such as - wood chops, driving the bus, salt and pepper. All involved resistance and ran... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 21:11:01 EST 10 Ways to Love the Gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5776904 Bit by bit, I have been making the gym a place I want to be, instead of feeling like it is a chore or that I have to be there. This was not an overnight feeling. It has been coming upon me little by little, but here are some of the things that helped me along the way. <BR> <BR> 1. Wear clothes that fit, and are not going to fall down while moving about. (Tonight, I was forever pulling up my shorts, and while I looked fine, I would have felt more comfortable if my drawers were staying put.) ... Tue, 9 Sep 2014 23:16:45 EST shoulder city http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5773643 Tonight's workout was shoulder city. We did overhead shoulder presses on the machine, pull downs of some sort - Trainer Don described it as "scraping ice from a swimming pool," isometric shoulder exercises, lifting and holding arms up. A lot of stuff that looked weird, seemed odd, but is now amping up the soreness I felt from yesterday. <BR> <BR> I would love to blog more, but I am so freaking tired right now, I am going to crawl into bed. Thu, 4 Sep 2014 23:14:27 EST When Body Parts Do Roll Call (Film at 11) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5773430 Do you ever lay in bed and wonder why do your toes hurt? and then, not just toes, you realize your calves, your knees, your back, your noodly arms, your elbows, just about everything is chiming in with an ouch? That was me last night. I was certain I was going to get a good long rest last night after working out with my coach. <BR> <BR> DENIED. (please read DEEEEEEE NIED.) <BR> <BR> I have been sleeping very little in the last few days with a lot of work stuff on my mind. It will eventual... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 15:35:56 EST Noodly Arms http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5772937 Tonight's blog entry has been postponed due to acquiring noodly arms during my workout, which hampers typing. <BR> <BR> I have been winding down since I came home from working out tonight with my coach. <BR> <BR> He is all kinds of happy that I am suffering from soreness, or at least he will be once he reads this. <BR> <BR> until tomorrow, happy trails. <BR> Wed, 3 Sep 2014 22:26:53 EST The Pursuit of Calm http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5772474 I have been on a wild ride lately - mainly at work. Being in the education field, and it being September, this is to be expected at this time of year. But throw a few surprises into the mix, and I am going through some upheaval. <BR> <BR> I really have to take a moment to congratulate myself on staying calm throughout the whole day, especially yesterday. My exercise has been on hold a bit this past weekend/now, but I have been eating fine, when I eat. Yesterday I did not eat much with the r... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 08:53:49 EST Shocker!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5769652 Quite honestly, I thought the breaking news about Hello Kitty would be the most shocking thing I would hear today. Nope, not even close. The most shocking thing came from my coach's lips when he said, "OK, now we are going to run as fast as we can down to that tree." <BR> <BR> What? <BR> <BR> Did he say run? <BR> <BR> Seriously? He thinks I can run? <BR> <BR> Truth be told, I thought he was crackers, and I am not saying that it would be the first time I thought that (and probably not th... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 23:08:13 EST Shaking off the Negative http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5769351 I've been having a few struggles this week - mostly at work - which is unusual for me. One bright spot about it is I spoke up about it, and my boss apologized to me. I work very hard and I was not feeling the love. Ironically on the same day as all of this was transpiring, I did get a $100 bonus in my check for a whole other reason. Weird. <BR> <BR> I've decided while the craziness is still going on, I am going to coast a bit, and just dwell on positive things in my life until the rest fal... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 11:35:10 EST Start from Where You Are http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767914 I was checking out a friend's sparkpage, and I noticed they are just about 100 pounds less than what I weigh at this moment. Wow! That's a lot of pounds down, but interestingly enough, we all share the same struggles, often focusing on the can't instead of the can. <BR> <BR> What can I do? What have I accomplished? I am trying to take this attitude with me wherever I go - to the gym, to work and at home. Life is worth celebrating! <BR> <BR> Chairs. I could write a whole separate blog about... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 08:40:18 EST It's Good for What Ails Ya http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767668 When I got to the gym tonight to meet up with my coach, I noticed the training room was booked for a Zumba class. Uh-oh. While I held out a little hope that we might be doing an extended walk around the parking lot, I had a feeling I was about to rendezvous with my old friend, the octane. (a version of an elliptical). And I was right. <BR> <BR> Did the first bit in 20 minutes (non-stop) and then had a break off the machine to do 10 more minutes. I had the option of going halfway to 15, then... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 22:01:00 EST Setting the Course (Again) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5766993 I am in old territory with a new mindset. I am on the verge of my life getting way busier again, with work at the top of the list. When work is at the top, I frequently get pushed to the bottom, but I am determined to not let that happen to me this time around. This is always the time of year when my schedule gets amped up. Today's surprise, during my first day back from vacation, was one of my key staff is leaving for a new role --- which is great in many ways for both of us --- but there is... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 22:27:12 EST Trusting the Process http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5760172 About a week ago, I was a bit down because I was unhappy with my progress when it came to walking. A few folks reminded me I am actually ahead of the curve compared to where they are and certainly past folks who are still sitting on the couch. <BR> <BR> Since then a few interesting things happened. For one, this morning, I nearly went down my 2 front steps like normal. One foot after the other. It felt weird. Because I have been putting one foot down, and then the other foot down on the sam... Fri, 15 Aug 2014 09:39:38 EST Another Awesome Workout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5759944 I considered last night's workout outstanding, so then tonight's would get bumped to exceptional. I still feel a little sore in spots, and that makes me smile. The progress that I am making is visible to me, and I am getting a better view of thinking from where I started, to a little improvement, to now, and then projecting myself three years down the road from now. My coach would say, "It's exciting." and I would have to agree with him. <BR> <BR> I have received a mandate from him - to eat... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 22:45:44 EST A Good Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5759210 I'm good at following my coach's lead. And he is good at chunking down the steps for me so I can follow him. We had an outstanding workout tonight where I started to get into a groove of moving a bit more easily and with less times of falling out of sync. <BR> <BR> When I leave the gym happy and feeling as if I just climbed a mountain, it's been a good workout. The mountain is more figurative than literal but I continue to do things I have not done before. Making this kind of progress makes... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 21:25:09 EST It's Not If -- It's When http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5758833 In the course of the these last few days I have gone from feeling down and out to getting back on the horse, to be having my spark re-kindled - all within a smattering of days. Talking myself through the process, and with a lot of support from others, I realized that my glass hasn't changed -- it is still half full or empty, depending on how I look at it. I think that is what my coach was getting at all along. (I'll excuse him if he is reading this with a smug little smile.) <BR> <BR> My fi... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 09:39:15 EST Finding the Happiness Machine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5758613 A funny thing happened this afternoon; I found my happy place again. It actually started earlier in the day, when I started to re-think my frowny mood and tried to figure out what was causing it. A lot of it, I think, was work related. I am in a sandwich week - just having come off a 10 day off stint, and about to go back off next week, I am finding myself not only with an incredible workload, but many deadlines right along with it. <BR> <BR> What helped today? I lowered the boom. I called t... Tue, 12 Aug 2014 23:36:57 EST Just one of those... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5757900 I wanted to say days in the title, but that does not quite cover it. I was in a cranky little mood that I sadly have not yet climbed out of when I wrote my last blog. Imagine my surprise when I went to re-read it, and check for comments, and saw that it had been picked up for a popular blog post. That surprised me quite a bit, and didn't show me in the best light. Why am I saying that, because I am struggling again. I cannot even count the number of times I have been through this feeling --- ... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 22:50:10 EST Need to Adjust my Viewpoint http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5756512 Everything I have done, I have done with baby steps. What's hard about that, though, is I am results driven person and I have a tendency to think that if something is not perfect, then it sucks, and that others are disappointed in me, and then I feel the same about myself. This mindset is not helping me. In fact, it is a struggle for me. <BR> <BR> I met my coach for a workout this morning, but when he arrived at the gym, he let me know I was going to need a lot more water than the 2 bottle... Sat, 9 Aug 2014 19:45:25 EST Rewarding Roadtrip (Back from Beantown) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5756021 My drop to 400 lbs did not exactly coincide with my vacation week, but I decided to forego the difference and take my roadtrip to Boston anyway. It was a long drive (going solo both ways) but it went fine, even in the congested areas of NYC and Boston. Connecticut was no prize either, but all in all, I saw a lot more traffic headed in the other direction both when coming and going, so I was pretty thankful about that! <BR> <BR> I stayed with a friend who was house-sitting a family member's p... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 22:47:47 EST Shrinking Snowman http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5754176 Particularly in the days when I had no reliable scale on which to weigh myself, I used to rely on my body shape to figure out how I was doing. In retrospect, the answer should probably have been, not so good, but it was what I did. <BR> <BR> I likened myself to a snowman, basically 3 round parts. Of these, my stomach was always biggest, and I would measure it, so to speak, by how much it was hanging. My mother used to tell me, "if only I could get rid of my stomach," I would be okay, becaus... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 08:29:28 EST Re-Engaging http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5753500 Growing up, I was a very shy person. That changed when I got to my 20's and I came out of my shell more and more. People who meet me now can never believe that I was an extremely shy and quiet person. It seems a little incongruous with the person I come across as now. <BR> <BR> In the last few years, though, the heavier I got, the more I withdrew. Sure, it is easy to stay friends with and re-connect with others on facebook, email, etc, but it is not the same as engaging with people in "real... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 09:16:02 EST Putting the Pieces Together http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5752574 I have reached a point on my journey that is closing in on my weight loss record. I imagine that most of us on here have had previous successes of one sort or another. Having lost 65 lbs, I am on the precipice of matching my best number of pounds lost, 70. That's kind of exciting, except for the part that last time I hit 70 lbs. lost, I plateaued for so long, I gave up. It was many years since that happened, and this time around I have a whole different mindset. <BR> <BR> For one, I have wa... Sun, 3 Aug 2014 23:51:17 EST Attack of the Back Fat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5751298 I love Fridays! Even though today was really another vacation day, Fridays habitually make me a little giddy. As I arrived to meet with my coach, Hadley, tonight, I took a quick peek at my reflection in the car window. What the heck?! I had changed into gym clothes just before I left home, yet managed to put my shirt on inside out. Fail! <BR> <BR> What did I do then? On this disgustingly nasty humid day, I pulled a sweater off my passenger seat and put in on. Seriously. I put on a sweater ... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 20:40:16 EST Pushing Beyond Excuses http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5750536 Last night I came home from a workout with my coach, Hadley, that kicked my butt. I was feeling it in every fiber of my being. I had to dig deep even though at times throughout, my well felt empty. I went to bed around normal time, but then lay there for about 3 hours wide awake, hurting, and too wired to sleep. I was relieved when hubby got up around 3am so it wouldn't matter if I made noise. I conked out for a while and got up around 5:30 and started watching Sharknado on the DVR. Stupid, o... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 17:35:20 EST Rope Trainer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5749767 Some folks have asked me about a rope trainer. Here is a picture of a rope trainer. It is a machine with a long rope looped on a gear. You can set the resistance to make it harder. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/4/l246727640.jpg"> <BR> <BR> You can sit or kneel on the seat or stand when pulling the rope. I stand. I usually have the resistance set on a 3. It goes from 1-7. <BR> <BR> It is good for your arms and shoulders. I generally do no more than 2,000 feet ... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 15:35:24 EST I Am Emerging http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5749284 If you would have asked me what I wanted to get out of going to the gym a few months ago, I probably would have said something like, "lose a few pounds and get around more easily." At the core those things are still true, but what I recognize now looking back, I was shortchanging myself in this quest. I never knew or could have presumed that my life would transform, that I would become a better, more vibrant person. It wasn't in my scope to believe that my whole life would change, not just my... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 22:44:46 EST In the Midst of Change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5748908 Change is rough sometimes, and other times, it just seems to flow. I am experiencing some of both right now, but I am getting through it just fine. <BR> <BR> This morning I woke up with a leg cramp and a thought on my mind: "I am getting stronger and healthier every day." I choose to believe this, and it is helping me to conquer the next set of challenges i am experiencing. <BR> <BR> For one, my trainer, Kimmy has left. Sure, I have others to help and support me including a new trainer, ... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 11:42:24 EST Dream Big and then Dream Bigger http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5746695 Today when I took my lunch break, the lure of the sunshine was just too much to keep me inside. It was sunny, bright and beautiful - not too hot, nor humid, just 3 bears' kind of weather....just right. <BR> <BR> The last time I sat on the patio at work was out of necessity in early June. Then I was able to sit in the chairs, but not without a lot of squeezing, and prayers being said that I could get out of the seat, IN moments like these, I frequently wait until most people around me have m... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 23:53:02 EST "NEVER" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5745990 Inspiration for my blogs most often comes from something that has happened during the day. This is no exception. I experienced one of the most incredible things in my recent life tonight - all on a day I had some knee pain, felt tired out and generally did not want to be at the gym, but there was no way I was passing up time to spend with my coach, Hadley. <BR> <BR> Last week when we worked out, he coaxed me down on the floor without use of a box or a step. My directive was to get down on t... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 22:20:32 EST Putting the focus back on me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744914 Woke up feeling better and ready to go handle what has potential of being a crazy day! <BR> <BR> I have been thinking about the episode from the other day and I am using this moment to be a little more concerned about myself and a little bit less concerned with fixing others. No one ever handed the keys to the world over to me and said fix it. <BR> <BR> Tonight marks my last night with my trainer, Kimmy - who has been a great support for me in many ways. I love her to death and she knows ... Wed, 23 Jul 2014 11:24:59 EST Slippery Slope http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744571 You know when you have one of those days and it starts to slip into one of those weeks, well it has been happening to me. I have been dragging myself through it. My feelings got hurt on Monday night and I did want I would have done in the past to fix it. I ate some oversized portions of not so great stuff. Not overwhelming amounts but enough to think, "gee I wish I had not eaten that." It spilled over a little into today, where I ate ice cream (skinny cow) for breakfast and it seemed perfectl... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 23:37:49 EST Seeing is Believing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5741091 I am an amazing woman. I say this not to boast about myself but to recognize who I am and how far I have come. I am strong, stronger than I have ever been, I am growing more agile, more agile than I have ever been in the last couple of decades. I am doing many things I never dreamed were possible all because of a change in my attitude. <BR> <BR> This attitude was not easy to develop. It was hard. Following a lifetime of being put down, you begin to believe it yourself and I felt unable to b... Thu, 17 Jul 2014 22:28:38 EST Another Milestone Achieved (well, two)!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5740409 I am pretty well tired out tonight, so I will just leave a snippet for now. Tonight, I achieved a couple of momentous milestones. <BR> <BR> I got on the octane (elliptical) myself. No step. For MONTHS, I have been using a variety of steps at different heights to get on. Tonight, I just got up. <BR> <BR> My coach challenged me to do 1 mile in 14 mins and 15 seconds. I crushed it. I did 13 minutes and 12 seconds. No stopping for water, but I did it. <BR> <BR> I did not want to get on that ... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 22:55:31 EST Taller and Stronger http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5740108 Somewhere along the line while I was focusing on getting fit and healthier, a funny thing happened. I started looking at myself and others differently. One way I know that this happened is because I now take myself into consideration when making a decision. Also, at work, when I observe myself from a third party angle, I see the great things I am doing - and achieving a higher level than I have done before. <BR> <BR> I believe in myself now, and I take confidence in what I do. I stood next ... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 13:26:29 EST Yup, I Did It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5738139 The last few weeks that I have been visiting my mother-in-law, I've been opting to sit on a hard-backed chair to make it somewhat easier for me to get up. In the past, I also had my cane with me so I could off the floor to put up as well. <BR> <BR> I have been without the cane for over a month now. That is something my coach helped me with. Saturday when we went to visit, I did not sit on the hard chair, I sat on the squishy soft recliner because it was more comfortable. I thought I might re... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 20:26:04 EST Send Them Packing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5736877 As I was slipping off to sleep last night, I was thinking about a couple of negative nellies I encountered through the day. That stream of consciousness led me to think a couple of less than optimistic thoughts myself. I reminded myself that it is OKAY to have negative thoughts once in a while, as long as you are willing to chuck them away or realize you have the power to turn those thoughts around. <BR> <BR> Case in point. Last week I shared a picture of my sister and I with a new friend. H... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 17:11:29 EST Celebrating Every Day Successes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5736111 In a short while from now, I will be celebrating a big milestone, when I hit 400 pounds. I have worked very hard to get to this point and I expect to realize this goal within the next month or so. <BR> <BR> The road to 400 has been paved with many small successes and I am reminded how amazing my life is becoming, in great part to the new me that is being unearthed daily. <BR> <BR> Yesterday for instance, I had a workout that exceeded my normal capabilities FROM MY STANDPOINT. It was one ... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 14:03:23 EST Front and Center http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735160 It took me a bit to process that my trainer was leaving (even after she called herself my babysitter.) That comment has been forgiven as it was pointed out to me that she is likely under a lot of stress. Since then, we have been back to our normal selves, and we get along great. This is good, especially for the short term. She is leaving in 2 weeks from today. <BR> <BR> I had a little panic attack about what would be next, but those fears are gone. I have a bunch of different options with t... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 08:43:55 EST No Remorse http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5734594 Most folks who know me in a business sense, think I am pretty subdued, and I often am. At my last job though, I was much more a troublemaker, co-conspirator and prankster. It's been a while since I exercised my muscle in this particular way, and it felt good to let a little loose yesterday. <BR> <BR> It put me back in the mind frame of what other pranks and dares have I been subject to in the past. Most of them made me smile and have been pretty harmless in nature, with a lot of laughter gen... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 13:29:35 EST There is No Stopping http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5731267 Right now, at this minute, I am on top of the world. Why? Because I kept myself on a timeline, doing what needed to be done -- laundry, packing (ok, I still have to pack but that should take 5 minutes), and most importantly getting to the gym to do a pre-excursion workout. <BR> <BR> There is no quit. There is no stopping. Yes, I am the same person who started close to 500 lbs, and is now closing in on 399, and how did that come about? No stopping. Well, there were some sidetracks, but now a... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 11:27:33 EST Moving on from the babysitter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5731169 Went to the gym last night and huffed and puffed (a la The Three Little Pigs) through my workout. Not working out on consecutive days and then going back is always a little struggle. The plus side of it reminds me of why I work out and also of why I need to do it more often. The important thing is going back. I am going to squeeze in a little visit to the gym before I head off on my weekend excursion this afternoon. Going will make me feel better all day for a myriad of reasons. <BR> <BR> I... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 09:11:48 EST Finding a little faith http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5728046 I've got to have a little faith in myself and in believing in others to help without rushing so quick to judgment. That's how I analyze things. I do a quick mental survey and then jump to conclusions how I think something is going to work out. <BR> <BR> Oftentimes, however, I am wrong. I let my lack of faith get in the way and generally think the worst. I need to work on that. <BR> <BR> That's one of the things I am working to improve upon in myself. I am certainly a work in progress! Sat, 28 Jun 2014 23:27:29 EST Um, I didn't see this coming http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726702 Pardon my absence for a couple of days. While reveling in the fitting jackets, and climbing up the steps with greater ease, I've had something else kicking around. My trainer, who I have frequently dubbed "good cop" is leaving her post. I am very happy for her, but let's face it, not happy for me. I could be looking at it, like I get a fresh start too, but I have become accustomed to my trainer, and I love that feisty girl. What does it mean about bad cop, the one you have been following alon... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 22:29:31 EST Baby Steps & Corduroy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724918 Hubby says I've got shiny object syndrome, and he's right. I am frequently distracted when something sidetracks me. This morning while getting ready for work, I was thinking about things I had promised to get done, and a possible timeline, when I noticed my corduroy jackets. Certainly not in season, but I have them hanging on the side of my dresser. The more recent purchase is a brown jacket, that was way snug last fall. It is still not a perfect fit. I need more room in my lower arms for it ... Tue, 24 Jun 2014 13:29:13 EST Overwhelming Urges http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5720943 While I was quite hungry today during certain phases, I stayed on track with my new current eating plan. Unless my coach chimes in otherwise, I will still plug away at this. When I was feeling like "I might chew off my arm" today, I went and got a salad with lettuce, beets, peas, mandarin oranges, grilled chicken and a bit of balsamic vinaigrette. A meeting ran late so I was gypped out of my yogurt that I hope to have before working out. I found a mini-can of unsweetened diced pears in my des... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 21:35:25 EST