MICHELLESMILES_'s SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MICHELLESMILES%5F MICHELLESMILES_'s Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ embarrassed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5802271 Here is WHAT has been up in my world. My weight. I feel like completely starting a new sparkpage, but I do not want to lose my current Spark friends. I did not completely gain all my weight back, but I was close. (20 pounds) <BR> <BR> Some peeps over on my Fb page when I told them I had trouble letting go of the past, told me to start over with my weight on October 1st. So I am now on my 21 day streak on myfitnesspal and I've lost 13 pounds since then. Pretty happy with that. Ready... Tue, 21 Oct 2014 16:40:52 EST new beginnings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5717339 I joined Weight Watchers online today. Three months paid. <BR> <BR> Let's do this. Fri, 13 Jun 2014 16:47:45 EST ugh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5714374 I have a mega headache so this is going to be very short. I stayed on track today. Right now I've had around 1300 calories but I may have something small later. <BR> <BR> I hope you guys are having a fabulous day. <BR> <BR> &#10055; Mon, 9 Jun 2014 17:05:50 EST failing miserably http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5713625 That might sound like the beginning of a pity party, but honestly it's not. Just the truth. <BR> <BR> The month of April I did really well. I had lost like 12 pounds in three weeks or something like that. I had one bad weekend and gained eight of it back. <BR> That was a WTH moment if I ever had one. That started it all. Then we came into a little bit of money, nothing extravagant, but we could eat out and I could go to this grocery store and not stress about money for a while. It woul... Sun, 8 Jun 2014 19:06:46 EST Finding Balance. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668471 So I've been having trouble finding time to exercise. I asked myself today "How did I figure it out last time??" <BR> <BR> Then I realized my schedule at work is completely different than it was when I was working out hardcore at the gym. I use to work 10-6 mostly, take the kids to the bus at 7, then go to the gym for 2 hours, then work. I felt awesome! <BR> <BR> Now fast forward to the present. <BR> <BR> I work 5am - 1 pm. I get up around 3:30am five days a week. I get home, I'm exha... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 19:13:06 EST I'm a grandma! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5664395 Ok not really. LOL <BR> <BR> My German Shepherd had puppies!!! Boy oh boy. some of the peeps on my facebook page didn't like it. Ok I get that there are lots of dogs that need homes, but that doesn't mean I should have to fix mine. We take care of all of our dogs, and when the pups are big enough we will make sure they go to good homes. <BR> Here is an adorable picture of them.. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l656418117.jpg"> <BR> <BR> IF I was looking rig... Fri, 4 Apr 2014 14:36:56 EST Dear Monday....go step on a Lego http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5661024 LOLOLOLOL <BR> <BR> That is exactly how I feel today. It has not been a terrific. They can't all be rainbows and sunshine, I guess. <BR> <BR> First... Our register at work wasn't working. Not that I didn't enjoy the little break of not waiting on people, but it made time creep. Second...we always get our delivery truck on Monday morning around 5 am. Today they called and said they were running 4 hours late. Really?? <BR> <BR> I'm finally home, and we have a leaking toilet. My pare... Mon, 31 Mar 2014 17:03:13 EST Short and Sweet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5660235 Ugh! I had this blog written once and accidently deleted it. Really??? <BR> <BR> Basically it was just me rambling about how I've made it SIX WHOLE DAYS without binge eating. <BR> SIX WHOLE DAYS of staying in my calorie range. <BR> <BR> Last night I was looking at my pics on here and instantly was depressed. Would you keep them or delete them? Honest answers PLEASE!!! <BR> <BR> Todays calories ended at 1190. I've been having issues with my left knee for well over a month and I do... Sun, 30 Mar 2014 18:57:24 EST Day 5 Do-over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5659485 Wow two blogs in one day, I really have missed this lol. <BR> <BR> I'm on day 5 of my do-over. I log all of my food on myfitnesspal because I do think their app is better, but I'm going to bore you with my stats for the last 5 days. Then being caught up I'll just do it daily. <BR> <BR> Monday was my birthday. It was not day 1 lol. <BR> <BR> Tuesday day one <BR> Calories in : 1306 <BR> Calories burned: 140 <BR> Net calories: 1166 <BR> <BR> Wednesday day two <BR> Calories in : 1280 <B... Sat, 29 Mar 2014 18:09:14 EST 5-HTP http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5659315 Good day all!! I'm off work today thank goodness. <BR> <BR> I saw this vitamin supplement on Pinterest the other day when I searched binge eating. <BR> <BR> I'm a strong believer in not taking pills to control my diet, but this is more like a mood supporter. Kind of like an anti-depressent over the counter. I read that it can somewhat help control cravings. I didn't see any serious side effects, so I thought I would give it a try. <BR> <BR> This is what it says on the bottle: <BR> ... Sat, 29 Mar 2014 12:33:18 EST Typing instead of eating. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5658873 I've never been so aggravated in my life. Well, I'm sure I have but at the moment I can not think of any. <BR> <BR> One BIG reason I have not been on Spark is because the only access I have to it is on my phone. It is doable, but at the same time horrible. <BR> I ordered DSL internet off of my phone provider, and when I ordered I said "will this be fast enough for netflix and things like that?" <BR> "Oh of course" she said. <BR> <BR> I get my modem today and my internet is slo... Fri, 28 Mar 2014 20:16:03 EST Days go by http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5625315 The days go by so fast , and the weight adds up faster. Did I really expect to go back to my old eating habits and be ok?? I really need help. <BR> .I'm really putting myself out here today. I would love to have a couple of buddies who like to text for support. If you would be interested please send me a goodie with your number. Sun, 16 Feb 2014 07:56:12 EST lost http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5431673 A good friend said I was getting back to my roots. Is that what I'm doing? I feel like I've been back and forth so many times I can't see straight. I'm doing horrible and really trying, but anymore I feel like everything I do is the wrong choice. I use the myftnesspal app because it's free. So you won't be seeing my diary. <BR> <BR> I get so wrapped up in Facebook and my page on there that I got lost. <BR> <BR> I really hope this helps. By the way, doing this from my phone. Sorry f... Wed, 24 Jul 2013 10:12:23 EST Snow day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5232915 So there is no school today. I'm glad to get to spend the day with the kids but I really needed to go to town and cash my check and stuff, now I can't. So here I sit wanting to eat badly . No seriously. It's bad when you have to talk yourself out of stuff like that. <BR> <BR> I really wish I didn't have food on the brain all the time. <BR> Here's a pic of our snow. I hate it lol. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/4/l840389436.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I think I'll go... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 09:31:55 EST Day 3..oh yeah http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5231254 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1549194011.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I like this. Time to suck it up and not really "finish" but definitely get back to what. I started. <BR> <BR> Day 3 of low carb...so far so good. Now I want to make something clear, I am doing low carb because I am a BINGE eater. I lost every single pound by counting calories and exercise. It just isn't working for me anymore because once I get started I can't stop anymore. I'm really hoping this low carb t... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 07:06:18 EST Hello there! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5229777 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1394496290.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Ok so I have been failing miserably. Every attempt I make anymore just doesn't last. Is it because I have become to comfortable where I am at? Not sure. I do good for a week then binge eat for four days. It is awful. <BR> <BR> So as of yesterday I have cut out sugar. I'm "planning" on 2 weeks on then a cheat meal. Meal not cheat day. Probably a Friday because that's when Jeff likes to eat out at a res... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 07:11:15 EST Long December http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5161059 Oh my I am so ready for this month to be over. The stress of the holidays, the stress of eating is about to get the best of me. Sorry for my absence (again). There really is no excuse but I have been crappy. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I started low carb (some of you that might follow me on facebook may know this already.) Yesterday was good. Today I'm starving. I know it will pass but O.M.G. give me a cookie already! <BR> <BR> Just kidding. I mainly am doing this to kick my sugar cravings... Sun, 9 Dec 2012 12:22:45 EST The day after http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5144056 I had an amazing day yesterday with my family. (hope you did too !). But to be honest I ate horrible. After getting on the scale this morning I am quickly realizing that it would take me no time to gain a large amount of weight back. <BR> <BR> Oh why can't this journey be easy?!?! <BR> <BR> Because nothing worth having or doing is. <BR> <BR> I had a dream last night that I went in the bathroom and my face was huge! Like in one of my before pics. It looked like I had been stung by a swa... Fri, 23 Nov 2012 09:07:09 EST Day 688 hanging in and hanging on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5140505 At first I thought can I really say day 688 because I have seriously sucked this year. I pretty much weigh close to the same thing I did last November give or take a few pounds. But then I thought to myself... <BR> <BR> "No Michelle, you have had a rough year of heart problems and depression. You have worked hard at least at maintaining (give or take a few) and you deserve to write Day 688. You didn't quit. Every single day when you woke up you tried to make healthy decisions even if y... Mon, 19 Nov 2012 14:26:33 EST Saturday night http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5138814 So I was going to blog on blogger and it wasn't working out. Only big problem here is my phone won't let me upload pictures for some reason so I will have to do that from my moms. <BR> <BR> How has everyone been? Good I hope. Myself, I'm still here, still swimming but my progress is sucking. I'm in a rut. There I said it. I fully admit it. Will I ever get back into the swing of things? I hope the heck so. <BR> <BR> Here's where I'm at. <BR> Typical week these days.. <BR> <BR> S... Sat, 17 Nov 2012 22:15:53 EST Hi Sparkers! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5089690 Hi old friends! I'm sorry I have not been around. I don't know what happened to my "Spark" but I'm still trying. I started tracking on myfitnesspal. My username on there is MichelleCobb82. The app is better on my phone. <BR> <BR> I still have the Facebook page that I'm very active on called Leaving Obesity Behind. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Also I just started a new blog (with a great phone app ) <BR> <link>leaving-obesity-behind.blogspot.com/<BR>?m=0 </link> <BR> <BR> So until I get i... Sun, 7 Oct 2012 08:01:30 EST Truth http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4974597 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/2/l221565742.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have not fallen. I am still here. <BR> <BR> This morning I weighed 212 pounds, which means I have gained back 14. <BR> That is the hardest thing for me to write. It is so hard because I haven't felt like this in over a year and a half. The feeling of being lost. The feeling of not knowing what I'm doing. Am I doing the right things? The things that I am eating, can I eat them for the rest of my life? I d... Tue, 17 Jul 2012 13:09:31 EST my last day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4972487 I never really thought I would be here. This far into my journey and struggling everyday. You would think that knowing I have these heart issues would get my butt into gear, but it hasn't. <BR> <BR> I wake up everyday with great intentions, and many days are successful, but then many are not. How in the world do I get my spark back? I feel so good when I am on track, why do I screw it up? <BR> <BR> Enough whining and the could have , should have attitude. <BR> <BR> I will succeed a... Mon, 16 Jul 2012 09:26:04 EST Living with Heart Disease... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4924966 Thank you so much for all the prayers! They are appreciated! <BR> <BR> Well I made it through the heart cath, with one scare when they couldn't get the blood to stop. <BR> I now am the owner of three stints. <BR> (I had one blockage 100%, one that was 60% and two that are 50%. They put 2 in the one that was 100, and 1 in the 60. Didn't do anything to the 50's) <BR> <BR> Believe me when I say it has been hard, not so much physically as it has been mentally. <BR> To come to terms of ... Wed, 13 Jun 2012 14:09:29 EST sorry for my absence http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4906363 Thank you so much for all the nice comments <BR> and goodies on my page. I'm still trying but am struggling. <BR> <BR> I use to do all my sparking from my phone which is a pain in the butt anyway, but now my "new" but used phone does not have a keyboard and totally sucks. <BR> <BR> I miss you guys! <BR> <BR> I'm not real sure how many of you follow me on facebook, but I'm going to mention it again. <BR> I found out last week that I have to have a heart cath done. I may have a blockage. ... Thu, 31 May 2012 19:42:04 EST Back on the wagon... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4864638 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/4/l344627863.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Wow. I can't tell you how scary the last couple of weeks were. Feeling out of control, binging every night. I know that it is a choice that I myself made, but it was like I couldn't stop. <BR> <BR> For the last now 5 mornings (yes 5!) I've gotten up and told myself I was going to have a good day. I have to believe than food does not have any power over me. It is to fuel my body and that is it. <BR> <BR> ... Thu, 3 May 2012 11:54:33 EST Goals for the week April 29th-May 6th http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4857242 <BR> Today is stops. <BR> <BR> Today I stop hating myself for effing up. <BR> <BR> Today I will set new goals and I will follow through with them because I am worth the struggle. <BR> <BR> 1. I WILL stay within my calorie range <BR> <BR> 2. I WILL get at least 3 miles on the treadmill at home everyday. <BR> <BR> 3. I WILL go to the gym at least 3 times this week. <BR> <BR> 4. I WILL log on to Spark everyday. <BR> <BR> 5. I WILL track all of my food. <BR> <BR> 6. I WILL stay... Sun, 29 Apr 2012 09:01:45 EST feeling a little lost http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4846177 I have had another rough week. Sometimes I feel like a motivator failure. How can I give people hope and encouragement when I can't find my way anymore? <BR> <BR> I'm really trying to be as honest as I can, because I don't want to fake it. <BR> <BR> I have been binge eating. I don't know all the proper terms to use but I seriously think I have a problem. <BR> I will have a few great days, (I saw 197 on Tuesday) then I will do bad a couple of days. When I mean bad its not like I wake u... Sun, 22 Apr 2012 07:04:39 EST Life is full of ups and downs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4834404 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/1/l716438740.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Well here I am again. Where did my willpower go? Has anybody seen it? I have ate horrible this week. Seriously. Why would I do this after being so thrilled at Onederland last week? <BR> <BR> My grandma had colon surgery this week. <BR> My kids are on Spring Break. <BR> My husband started on dayshift and although I love it, it is different actually being able to eat dinner/go out for dinner. <BR> My mother i... Sat, 14 Apr 2012 07:59:45 EST Onederland?!?! 158 pounds gone :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4820063 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/3/l731692223.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have been dreaming of this day for months! I don't even know where to begin. How about here. <BR> January 2011.... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/1/l919853637.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/6/l263964608.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I don't even remember this girl very much. I know she was very sad and depressed. At 357 pounds she didn't do much but eat and sleep. ... Wed, 4 Apr 2012 10:36:26 EST new name, same game http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4803660 I have crossed over. I am officially 30. <BR> <BR> I am so tired of writing the "start over" blogs! <BR> I did not make my goal of being under 200 by my birthday. A binge Thursday night ruined all hope for that. <BR> <BR> So I am not going to put on that "I don't have no idea what happened look" and act all confused. I know what crap I ingested. <BR> <BR> So this morning, I brush off my shoulders. <BR> <BR> You may not see my ticker move for a week or so until I lose the weight that... Sun, 25 Mar 2012 08:43:56 EST just a quickie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4793098 My Awesome Fellow Sparkers.. <BR> <BR> I just want to say first off thank you for all your support. You guys help me more than you know. <BR> <BR> Secondly, I LOVE having a fan page on facebook. <BR> <BR> I did make a new one this morning though. I'm going to try and do a little better with this one. <BR> <BR> So if you were on my other one or would like to be on the new one, here is the link: <BR> <BR> <link>www.facebook.com/LeavingObesityBehin<BR>d </link> <BR> <BR> I love p... Sun, 18 Mar 2012 09:39:28 EST i cried at the gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4791656 That is the crazy thing about this journey, it has so many ups and downs. I have had many high moments in the last 15 months, when the low ones hit me they hit me hard. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/3/l632554330.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I didn't go to the gym all week. I did walk at my house a couple of days, so I wouldn't say I had totally threw in the towel. On Tuesday, my husband said he didn't want me walking outside while he wasn't home. ( we live out in the cou... Sat, 17 Mar 2012 07:09:17 EST Oh My Golly http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4788977 My youngest daughter (the one in the profile pic) says this all the time. LOL <BR> <BR> A little update.. I went to the doc yesterday, she had a big list of tests she wants to go through. First an EKG. <BR> <BR> Ok I just want to go on the record and say how bad it would effin suck to have done all this work and have something wrong with my heart. <BR> <BR> My heart rate was.....(drumroll). 50. <BR> Blood pressure was 122/65 <BR> <BR> Still I am to have an ultrasound (of my ticker) and ... Thu, 15 Mar 2012 12:22:25 EST an apology and confessions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4781553 My dear sweet Sparkfriends, <BR> <BR> I am sorry I have not been here. I am going through a REALLY rough time with all these stomach issues. I know that is not an excuse to log on and leave a comment, but my head has not been in the right place. <BR> <BR> I have made a doctor appt for this week (Wednesday),but she will have to probably refer me somewhere else to see an actual stomach doc. I've been trying to cope, and not be down about it because I know things could be so much worse. <... Sun, 11 Mar 2012 06:35:46 EST Witty Title Here http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4769616 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/9/l594439428.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Enough said. Working again early this morning and it has been super slow! <BR> <BR> This has been an ok week except for the 5 pieces of pizza I had Thursday, but as of this morning I am back to my pre-pizza weight. I get so mad at myself, and I know we all eff up, but dang it I know better, and because of it I've been working my a$$ off for the last 2 days just to "get back" <BR> Stupid. <BR> <BR> My DH is sta... Sun, 4 Mar 2012 07:48:21 EST Dirty Thirties? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4757631 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/5/l752972807.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Most people cringe at the thought of turning 30. I've heard that they think their youth is over. I have been really thinking about it this morning, and I'm really excited! Excited about starting a new chapter in my life. <BR> <BR> Now don't get me wrong, some wonderful things happened to me in the last decade... <BR> Like... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/3/l635621346.jpg"> <BR> <BR> An... Sun, 26 Feb 2012 09:35:24 EST Saturday Morning Honesty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4756091 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/1/l319038877.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <em>39</em> It is 7 a.m. and I've been at work for 2+ hours. <BR> <BR> <em>24</em> I work in a convenient store full of food. <BR> <BR> <em>46</em> I had pizza AGAIN on Thursday. <BR> <BR> <em>41</em> I did good yesterday though. <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> I had 2 popular blogs post in the last couple of weeks! <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> I woke up this morning and had 187 likes on my fb page! Post... Sat, 25 Feb 2012 07:19:36 EST What Do You Do It For? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4751924 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/3/l237898247.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Even though it may sound conceited and selfish, you need to do it for you! <BR> <BR> I have stumbled so many times doing it for all the wrong reasons. When I was younger, it was always I need to lose weight to find a man. I was sick of being alone, sick of not having anybody. Many crash diets later, I ended up more alone then ever. Looking back now I should have remembered.. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos... Wed, 22 Feb 2012 19:02:51 EST Enough self pity already! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4744446 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/4/l947914547.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> I am not going to lie. I have had a reallllly bad week. Cracker Barrel Tuesday, Pizza Thursday, and Hershey Bar last night. I am officially 208 this morning. 3 pounds up from Tuesday's weigh in. I can NOT believe how self destructive I can become! All over a $18 discount at the gym! Yes, seeing the nutrionist every other month, and talking to the trainer once a month was cool, but come on, I am the on... Sat, 18 Feb 2012 08:12:18 EST A little blue... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4742305 So yesterday was the worst day ever....well that might be stretching it a little, but not by far. <BR> <BR> I was kicking butt at the gym, when the woman who does the insurance program I am in (that pays for half my membership) called me and said she is ending the program. I was frozen on the elliptical. I didn't know what to say.... <BR> <BR> I've only been in the 2 year program since November, but I really liked the accountability it gave me. I HAD to weigh in every month, I HAD to k... Thu, 16 Feb 2012 18:36:04 EST Blake Shelton and some CRAZY pictures :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4735323 Well my 1st week watching my sugar has went fairly well, at least until I had pizza last night... <BR> back on track today though. <BR> <BR> My cousin's had an extra ticket to go see Blake Friday and they invited me to go! I was so stoked. We had pretty good seats, and he sang some of his best songs...new and old. Miranda Lambert also made a surprise appearance making the concert even better! <BR> <BR> It had been a couple of years since I had been to a concert, and I can't tell you how... Sun, 12 Feb 2012 15:12:30 EST limiting sugar...take one :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4723041 I've had so many day 1's on this journey it's funny. LOL. I guess that's part of it though...figuring out what works best for you. I still think that moderation works great, but I think at this point in my journey, it is time for me to move on. I don't need potato chips and snack cakes. <BR> <BR> I am unfortunately still drinking caffeine. I figured I would try to get use to eating different, the maybe wean myself off of it. <BR> So you all know how I love to take pictures :), so I to... Sun, 5 Feb 2012 08:18:14 EST changing my name to michellestruggles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4721063 Ok not really. <BR> <BR> That IS the way I feel lately. I know where this blog is going before it even starts. Yesterday morning I weighed 209, ate decent and went to the gym. <BR> <BR> This morning much to my dismay was back up to 211. W.T.F? I get sooo aggervated. I know that it was probably water weight ot whatever but it still is just a wee bit irritating. I wish crap wasn't so hard. <BR> <BR> Ok so here is the bad news of the day. Fridays it seems are awful for me, mostly bec... Fri, 3 Feb 2012 21:04:41 EST Somewhere Over the Rainbow... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4709879 For as long as I can remember I dreamed of this place. A place of health and happiness...a place where I would finally feel like I belong. I want to find my pot of gold. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l161516929.jpg"> <BR> I've been dealing with many storms along the way. It's getting harder with each day that passes. At the store I work at people are constantly commenting. Some good, some bad. Many people don't believe that yes you can lose weight through... Sun, 29 Jan 2012 09:05:14 EST Feelin the love :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4696331 This week as been very exciting for me! <BR> <BR> <BR> Diet wise, I've done good..except for yesterday when I went to my MIL's house. She cooks everything as soon as you walk in the door. <BR> <BR> I had a cheeseburger (boo), french fries (boo), and mac and cheese (triple boo). <BR> <BR> Ok done with the negative. Back to the good. <BR> <BR> Many of you know my pic was on Bob Harpers facebook page! I was sooo excited when I saw it, customers probably thought I was on something LO... Sun, 22 Jan 2012 07:14:36 EST Just Believe... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4694671 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/3/l438796875.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> For so many years I have pounded in my head that no matter what I did, that I was destined to live a miserable life. Destined to die early, I was going to eat my life away. I already had it in my head that I was never going to see my girls grow up and have babies of their own. I was constantly thinking that the love of life was going to leave me. <BR> <BR> Then one day something just clicked.... <BR>... Sat, 21 Jan 2012 06:47:40 EST Inspiring or something else????? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4686399 Alright I'm writing today because I need your opinion. <BR> <BR> I live in an itty bitty town in West Virginia. <BR> <BR> I've been posting my progress pics on FB for sometime now. (Never my blogs ;) <BR> <BR> This morning I get a phone call from a girl that works at our only county paper, that they want to do a story on me because she thinks it would inspire people. <BR> <BR> At first I was all about it. Then I started thinking about other things... <BR> <BR> * The Haters. They ar... Tue, 17 Jan 2012 10:07:22 EST Letting Go.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4673150 Dear Michelle, <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l101258606.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I'm writing you today because I need to let go. I'm sorry, but I can no longer think about you anymore. I feel like you are holding me back from succeeding in my greatest achievement. I am grateful that you suffered through the hard times all your life, through the teasing and torment. You didn't deserve it, nobody does. You were strong when you didn't want to be. You went through... Wed, 11 Jan 2012 07:50:24 EST Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4666835 I normally don't write two blogs a day but I just wanted to recap. <BR> <BR> <BR> 1400 calories <BR> 337 calories burned on the treadmill (2 miles) <BR> 72 ounces of water <BR> No pop! <BR> <BR> Woot! <BR> <BR> Thanks everyone for the support! Sun, 8 Jan 2012 19:00:32 EST