MICHELLESMILES_'s SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MICHELLESMILES%5F MICHELLESMILES_'s Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ This week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6254576 Woo I am mentally exhausted this week. Trying like hell to stay on track. Today is day 26 I believe. My boss at work is on vacation, well I'm her backup when she's gone. Which really is no big deal, I've been doing it for several years now. Found out my daughter (whose birthday was also yesterday) if flunking a class at school and not doing to hot in her other classes. She has hearing aids and they try and let her slide on some things but this school year (6th grade, new school) has d... Thu, 20 Oct 2016 15:22:16 EST Day 15 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6248967 Yesterday was 2 weeks in. I have lost 8 pounds so far, but I'm not eating very healthy. It's awful to say, awful to admit. The past 2 weeks, I stayed within my points which was my goal, but I've ate practically everything processed (frozen meals and fast food thrown in there a few days). So yesterday I had my splurge meal. I went to Chinese like I had dreamed about since beginning this two weeks ago. It was good. I did t eat anything else the rest of the day, and I was proud of that. I... Sun, 9 Oct 2016 19:11:19 EST Day 13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6247941 Tomorrow is my official day to weigh in, but of course I got on the scale today. A little disappointed but I know in my heart that I didn't go over my points all week and I'm proud of that. I also know I've had a lot of sodium this week...and I need to drink some water to flush it out. <BR> <BR> I also decided I am going to have one meal a week (after weighing on Saturday) to enjoy or I will drive myself insane. I have fought the temptation, but life is about balance and damn it I'm g... Fri, 7 Oct 2016 16:43:25 EST Chinese food, the struggle is real folks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6246373 Today was so hard!!! <BR> <BR> Chinese food is my weakness. We have this amazing place in town and I could eat there a couple of times a week easy. So I get off work at 1 and almost had myself talked into stopping. No I can beat this. I even looked up the point value to some of my favorites. Oh my!!!! <BR> <BR> I made it. I didnt give in. Will I have the same problem tomorrow? I surely hope not. <BR> <BR> I thought today was day nine. Nope day 10 for me. Yes. <BR> <BR> Food... Tue, 4 Oct 2016 17:59:44 EST What up October? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6244618 Last Sunday I was having one of those fed up moments. I've had enough, I'm miserable. You know the story, right? <BR> <BR> Well I've done the SparkPeople app and the fitness pal app and the low carb thing and the ww thing. The last time I did weight watchers I didn't like the new plan. I had done the point plus plan before and had success with it. <BR> <BR> Well that same day I downloaded the iTrackBites app. You can choose any of the plans new and old or just count calories. So ... Sat, 1 Oct 2016 10:56:00 EST Last time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6242744 I wish I had a dollar for every time I said I was starting over. <BR> <BR> Well today is the last time. <BR> <BR> I'm not saying I'm never going to have a bad day again, or that I'm not going to mess up here and there, but I'm never giving up again. There has been a few times in the past couple of years that I have completely given in, through my hands up and just ate. Ate uncontrollably at times. I don't ever want to be in that place again. <BR> <BR> So I am going to blog more (pr... Tue, 27 Sep 2016 16:24:26 EST This is getting ready to go down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6222659 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/d9532111-4385-4790-b5fc-f9b01b524466.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> Meatloaf and a small potato cooked in Pam cooking spray. <BR> Trying to find balance, in my not so balanced life. :) <BR> <BR> 339 calories for the plate, I'll take it. Mon, 22 Aug 2016 17:50:34 EST In the process of.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6167614 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/abfd5368-7066-4b88-a4d3-9f3c9e26217d.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Coloring my hair blond! <BR> <BR> YOLO! <BR> <BR> Hahaha <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/c9a6d8a6-58e6-4628-87a7-bb2adcc5564d.jpg"> Sat, 21 May 2016 14:59:27 EST Friday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6166982 So today is day 15 of my new low carb lifestyle. I HAVE to succeed at this. I'm down 18 pounds so far this month, but the scale has been bouncing around for several days now, but I'm feeling confident I'm doing the right thing. <BR> <BR> I went shopping today and bought me one of those small kitchen grills to cook my meat on. It was seriously $10. I've already cooked some chicken on it. Win! <BR> <BR> Also my appetite has vanished. It is seriously bizarre not to be craving food and... Fri, 20 May 2016 13:12:57 EST What's been going on the last 19 days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6162570 I log on and it says that my last news feed update was 19 days ago. Holy moly I've got to make it a point to it a point to get on here....even if I don't blog every day. <BR> <BR> So I was counting calories and things were going pretty good. I had lost about 7 pounds and was feeling pretty confident. Then I had a bad few days, got discouraged and gave up. Gained back everything I had lost. I was sick with myself. <BR> <BR> My mom is doing the low carb diet, and has lost 80 lbs since Oc... Sat, 14 May 2016 04:40:18 EST Day 12..the struggle is real folks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6150061 So today is day twelve. <BR> <BR> I'm counting calories again. Thats what I do. I know that when I eat on the lower end I lose faster, but on the down side I'm starving!!! Well I guess I'm over exaggerating, many people eat 1200 calories a day. Spark says I can have 1500-1700 and stil lose 2 pounds a week, myfitnesspal the number is closer to 1700. So confusing to me. <BR> <BR> Oh and why all this confusion is going on inside my head I get this email today from ww... <BR> <img sr... Mon, 25 Apr 2016 14:04:14 EST Day 9, 10, and 11 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6149065 So the last few days have been ok. Well not really. Friday was a fun day but at the same time a depressing one. I'm one of these types that if I screw up early in the day, I eat all day long. I know, I know. Well I went to bingo Friday night with my sister and it was at a school. Of course instead of chairs we had to sit at these teeny tiny lunch tables where the bench is attached to the table. I had to sit sideways the whole evening because my big ole belly wouldn't fit. Seriously ... Sun, 24 Apr 2016 06:55:51 EST Day 8. Oops my mistake http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6147397 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/67242537-99b1-486c-a238-44d6405592e2.jpeg"> <BR> <BR> For real tho, it's been a good day. Feeling the bloat from my lady friend, but I know if I keep my calories down it will pay off in a few days. <BR> <BR> <BR> Hope you all are doing fabulous!!! Thu, 21 Apr 2016 17:08:45 EST Day 7 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6146679 Oh Day 7 I love you. I made it a whole entire week of not over indulging, staying on track and not giving into my cravings. I am doing pretty well today, hovering just over 1200 calories. I may have something small later. The weather is absolutely beautiful, and I got my hair cut today finally!!! <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/0f6d7cda-7d0f-4c58-8c47-64991cdbd144.jpg"> Wed, 20 Apr 2016 18:06:28 EST Back at it again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6145789 I'm back. <BR> <BR> Looking for motivation before I gain back everything I lost the first time. Life is hard and no excuses, food makes me feel good. I need to concentrate on my body and mind, and try my hardest. I'm on day 6 of counting calories, things are going pretty well. It has very hard to pass up the temptations of restaurant food but I have managed. I was eating it like everyday. <BR> <BR> I put my Fitbit back on. I am so out of shape. On my 4th day with it. The first ... Tue, 19 Apr 2016 14:33:36 EST Happy New Year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6071086 This is going to be my year...again <BR> <BR> I'm officially 7 days in, the longest I've went consecutively since at least October. I'm pretty happy with that. I now know that I do have the ability to control myself. I can still indulge on the foods that I like as long as I do it in moderation. I'm confident if I burn more calories than I consume I will lose weight. I know this, it worked for me before. <BR> <BR> I was 324 last Saturday . <BR> Today I'm 317 <BR> <BR> <img src="... Sat, 16 Jan 2016 14:32:36 EST Day 1 on repeat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6028596 How many times have I been here? When will I stop sabotaging myself? I now know I am a 100% emotional eater. Not really for enjoyment, but for comfort. I did good on Wednesday, got aggervated at work on Thurday and have been bad ever since then. So here I am again...praying for a miracle . Sun, 8 Nov 2015 08:48:54 EST seems legit. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5897598 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/4/l244296025.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Sun, 22 Mar 2015 15:52:20 EST social media burnout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5866334 So I know I havent posted for a while on here. I havent posted on my facebook weightloss page in several days or on instagram. Im burnt out. Am I the only one who does this? Im so bad about comparing my journey, questioning myself. Am I working hard enough? Being strict enough? I promose I saw a video on instagram of a girl forcing down this broccoli, with water. Not trying to really judge her, to each their own, but REALLY? I just am not that dedicated I guess. I want to lose weigh... Sat, 31 Jan 2015 06:57:25 EST resoulution: active! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5845415 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1459252639.jpg"> Many of you know I have lost alot of weight in the past, and I also have gained most of it back. Sometimes the truth is so hard to swallow, but it will also set you free. I didn't start feeling better until I fully admitted to myself that I have a problem. My obsession with food will never end, I need to learn where my cravings root from and how to control them. Since October 1st, weighing in at 337 pounds (only 20 shy o... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 08:44:07 EST progress pic 10/14/2014 to now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5842872 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/9/l39262050.jpg"> -29 lbs Thu, 1 Jan 2015 13:22:54 EST Soooo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5833235 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2073033731.jpg"> I have to be the most indecisive person I know. As SOON as my month is up on ww...full blown myfitnesspal. I just felt competely out of control on it. What works for some does not always work for others. Anywho, three days without soda started 4 hours ago. Go me! Gallon of water down the hatch each day. Mon, 15 Dec 2014 07:17:20 EST day 6 (saturday) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5828940 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/2/l329870804.jpg"> Exercised between customers today lol Sun, 7 Dec 2014 04:52:47 EST Day 5 of 25. Fit For Christmas. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5828235 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/9/l699538627.jpg"> I'm so tired. Night Spark peeps. Fri, 5 Dec 2014 17:38:21 EST Day 4, Fit For Christmas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827685 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2138708223.jpg"> Thu, 4 Dec 2014 16:41:47 EST Fit for Christmas Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827140 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1321572134.jpg"> I hate that on the app you can only post 1 pic. They really need to fix that. 22 days until Christmas!! 22 more workouts! Wed, 3 Dec 2014 19:23:22 EST Fit For Christmas day 2 of 25 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5826572 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1681747349.jpg"> Tue, 2 Dec 2014 19:10:39 EST yesterdays post http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5826235 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l114191839.jpg"> Ok so this was yesterday. This evening, I'll post todays. Lol. Need to do better with that. Fit for Christmas is a challenge I started for myself. Everyday from dec. 1st-Christmas, I'm going to do at least 25 minutes of exercise. Last night was my second full day of weight watchers. It's going good. I honestly feel like I'm eating a good bit more. If this month goes good, I will continue with it. Have a good day! Tue, 2 Dec 2014 07:38:13 EST always doing something different http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5825335 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/1/l715888962.jpg"> If you know me, you know I am constantly changing my mind about stuff. So for the last 2 days, and the next 29 days at least, I am doing weight watchers online. We shall see how it goes! Fingas crossed!! Sun, 30 Nov 2014 18:40:28 EST yesterday's post http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5819926 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/6/l960330807.jpg"> Dang it I forgot last night, but this walk kicked my arse so I wanted to share lol 💪 Thu, 20 Nov 2014 07:21:39 EST seriously http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818730 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/2/l423521744.jpg"> Tue, 18 Nov 2014 06:33:32 EST another day in the books. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818505 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/8/l98704607.jpg"> OK seriously, it has been a miracle I made it through today within calories. Time for bed thank goodness!!! ✌ 💋 💪 Mon, 17 Nov 2014 19:21:14 EST my day summed up in a picture http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5817861 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/0/l30342243.jpg"> Have a great evening!! Sun, 16 Nov 2014 18:10:44 EST second chances http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5816879 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1195058476.jpg"> Fri, 14 Nov 2014 17:26:13 EST opinions needed! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5814179 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1487240222.jpg"> Ok I know that yesterday I didnt eat enough, BUT I need to know how many calories I should really be eating. I plan on burning roughly the same amount everday, but I dont want to eat them all back. I think that defeats the purpose. Mon, 10 Nov 2014 11:11:35 EST 11-9-14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5813746 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1102583600.jpg"> I'm going to post some of the stuff in my blog here, that I do on Facebook. Hope you all have a great evening! Sun, 9 Nov 2014 18:09:09 EST First progress pic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5813480 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/4/l242318425.jpg"> I have lost a ton of weight in my life, and I have gained a ton. I wasnt 100% sure I wanted to post this, but I thought, why not? Progress is always a good thing, right? First pic was in July 337 Second pic today 317 Not a huge difference, but I'm a work in progress. Sun, 9 Nov 2014 09:04:22 EST November 1st post http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5809149 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1475804191.jpg"> Ok I had intentions of writing this yesterday, but ya know life happens. :) So this weekend was not my best food wise. Friday night we had pizza and candy. As nervous as I was over my total calories for that day, I finally put it all in on mfp and it was around 2100. My goal is 1710, so I feel a little better. Wasnt a total blowout. Yesterday: much better. Finished off the day around 1100. I know thats kinda low... Sun, 2 Nov 2014 07:52:06 EST Sebastian http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5807103 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/6/l361076563.jpg"> Today is National cat day. Here is my sexy, handsome, king of the castle... Sebastian. Wed, 29 Oct 2014 17:17:06 EST New me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5805511 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1278606376.jpg"> I can't believe it is almost the end of October. I've lost 16 pounds this month and starting to feel better, most importantly I haven't quit. I survived two birthday parties (passed on the cake) and have not had any Halloween candy this month. Yay! 2 years I have basically been in a rut. Those of you who know me, know this. I'm excited about things to come and new beginnings. Don't ever give up on yourself. Mon, 27 Oct 2014 08:16:31 EST embarrassed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5802271 Here is WHAT has been up in my world. My weight. I feel like completely starting a new sparkpage, but I do not want to lose my current Spark friends. I did not completely gain all my weight back, but I was close. (20 pounds) <BR> <BR> Some peeps over on my Fb page when I told them I had trouble letting go of the past, told me to start over with my weight on October 1st. So I am now on my 21 day streak on myfitnesspal and I've lost 13 pounds since then. Pretty happy with that. Ready... Tue, 21 Oct 2014 16:40:52 EST new beginnings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5717339 I joined Weight Watchers online today. Three months paid. <BR> <BR> Let's do this. Fri, 13 Jun 2014 16:47:45 EST ugh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5714374 I have a mega headache so this is going to be very short. I stayed on track today. Right now I've had around 1300 calories but I may have something small later. <BR> <BR> I hope you guys are having a fabulous day. <BR> <BR> &#10055; Mon, 9 Jun 2014 17:05:50 EST failing miserably http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5713625 That might sound like the beginning of a pity party, but honestly it's not. Just the truth. <BR> <BR> The month of April I did really well. I had lost like 12 pounds in three weeks or something like that. I had one bad weekend and gained eight of it back. <BR> That was a WTH moment if I ever had one. That started it all. Then we came into a little bit of money, nothing extravagant, but we could eat out and I could go to this grocery store and not stress about money for a while. It woul... Sun, 8 Jun 2014 19:06:46 EST Finding Balance. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668471 So I've been having trouble finding time to exercise. I asked myself today "How did I figure it out last time??" <BR> <BR> Then I realized my schedule at work is completely different than it was when I was working out hardcore at the gym. I use to work 10-6 mostly, take the kids to the bus at 7, then go to the gym for 2 hours, then work. I felt awesome! <BR> <BR> Now fast forward to the present. <BR> <BR> I work 5am - 1 pm. I get up around 3:30am five days a week. I get home, I'm exha... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 19:13:06 EST I'm a grandma! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5664395 Ok not really. LOL <BR> <BR> My German Shepherd had puppies!!! Boy oh boy. some of the peeps on my facebook page didn't like it. Ok I get that there are lots of dogs that need homes, but that doesn't mean I should have to fix mine. We take care of all of our dogs, and when the pups are big enough we will make sure they go to good homes. <BR> Here is an adorable picture of them.. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l656418117.jpg"> <BR> <BR> IF I was looking rig... Fri, 4 Apr 2014 14:36:56 EST Dear Monday....go step on a Lego http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5661024 LOLOLOLOL <BR> <BR> That is exactly how I feel today. It has not been a terrific. They can't all be rainbows and sunshine, I guess. <BR> <BR> First... Our register at work wasn't working. Not that I didn't enjoy the little break of not waiting on people, but it made time creep. Second...we always get our delivery truck on Monday morning around 5 am. Today they called and said they were running 4 hours late. Really?? <BR> <BR> I'm finally home, and we have a leaking toilet. My pare... Mon, 31 Mar 2014 17:03:13 EST Short and Sweet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5660235 Ugh! I had this blog written once and accidently deleted it. Really??? <BR> <BR> Basically it was just me rambling about how I've made it SIX WHOLE DAYS without binge eating. <BR> SIX WHOLE DAYS of staying in my calorie range. <BR> <BR> Last night I was looking at my pics on here and instantly was depressed. Would you keep them or delete them? Honest answers PLEASE!!! <BR> <BR> Todays calories ended at 1190. I've been having issues with my left knee for well over a month and I do... Sun, 30 Mar 2014 18:57:24 EST Day 5 Do-over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5659485 Wow two blogs in one day, I really have missed this lol. <BR> <BR> I'm on day 5 of my do-over. I log all of my food on myfitnesspal because I do think their app is better, but I'm going to bore you with my stats for the last 5 days. Then being caught up I'll just do it daily. <BR> <BR> Monday was my birthday. It was not day 1 lol. <BR> <BR> Tuesday day one <BR> Calories in : 1306 <BR> Calories burned: 140 <BR> Net calories: 1166 <BR> <BR> Wednesday day two <BR> Calories in : 1280 <B... Sat, 29 Mar 2014 18:09:14 EST 5-HTP http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5659315 Good day all!! I'm off work today thank goodness. <BR> <BR> I saw this vitamin supplement on Pinterest the other day when I searched binge eating. <BR> <BR> I'm a strong believer in not taking pills to control my diet, but this is more like a mood supporter. Kind of like an anti-depressent over the counter. I read that it can somewhat help control cravings. I didn't see any serious side effects, so I thought I would give it a try. <BR> <BR> This is what it says on the bottle: <BR> ... Sat, 29 Mar 2014 12:33:18 EST