MICHELLESMILES_'s SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MICHELLESMILES%5F MICHELLESMILES_'s Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ seems legit. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5897598 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/4/l244296025.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Sun, 22 Mar 2015 15:52:20 EST social media burnout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5866334 So I know I havent posted for a while on here. I havent posted on my facebook weightloss page in several days or on instagram. Im burnt out. Am I the only one who does this? Im so bad about comparing my journey, questioning myself. Am I working hard enough? Being strict enough? I promose I saw a video on instagram of a girl forcing down this broccoli, with water. Not trying to really judge her, to each their own, but REALLY? I just am not that dedicated I guess. I want to lose weigh... Sat, 31 Jan 2015 06:57:25 EST resoulution: active! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5845415 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1459252639.jpg"> Many of you know I have lost alot of weight in the past, and I also have gained most of it back. Sometimes the truth is so hard to swallow, but it will also set you free. I didn't start feeling better until I fully admitted to myself that I have a problem. My obsession with food will never end, I need to learn where my cravings root from and how to control them. Since October 1st, weighing in at 337 pounds (only 20 shy o... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 08:44:07 EST progress pic 10/14/2014 to now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5842872 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/9/l39262050.jpg"> -29 lbs Thu, 1 Jan 2015 13:22:54 EST Soooo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5833235 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2073033731.jpg"> I have to be the most indecisive person I know. As SOON as my month is up on ww...full blown myfitnesspal. I just felt competely out of control on it. What works for some does not always work for others. Anywho, three days without soda started 4 hours ago. Go me! Gallon of water down the hatch each day. Mon, 15 Dec 2014 07:17:20 EST day 6 (saturday) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5828940 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/2/l329870804.jpg"> Exercised between customers today lol Sun, 7 Dec 2014 04:52:47 EST Day 5 of 25. Fit For Christmas. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5828235 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/9/l699538627.jpg"> I'm so tired. Night Spark peeps. Fri, 5 Dec 2014 17:38:21 EST Day 4, Fit For Christmas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827685 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2138708223.jpg"> Thu, 4 Dec 2014 16:41:47 EST Fit for Christmas Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827140 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1321572134.jpg"> I hate that on the app you can only post 1 pic. They really need to fix that. 22 days until Christmas!! 22 more workouts! Wed, 3 Dec 2014 19:23:22 EST Fit For Christmas day 2 of 25 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5826572 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1681747349.jpg"> Tue, 2 Dec 2014 19:10:39 EST yesterdays post http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5826235 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l114191839.jpg"> Ok so this was yesterday. This evening, I'll post todays. Lol. Need to do better with that. Fit for Christmas is a challenge I started for myself. Everyday from dec. 1st-Christmas, I'm going to do at least 25 minutes of exercise. Last night was my second full day of weight watchers. It's going good. I honestly feel like I'm eating a good bit more. If this month goes good, I will continue with it. Have a good day! Tue, 2 Dec 2014 07:38:13 EST always doing something different http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5825335 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/1/l715888962.jpg"> If you know me, you know I am constantly changing my mind about stuff. So for the last 2 days, and the next 29 days at least, I am doing weight watchers online. We shall see how it goes! Fingas crossed!! Sun, 30 Nov 2014 18:40:28 EST yesterday's post http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5819926 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/6/l960330807.jpg"> Dang it I forgot last night, but this walk kicked my arse so I wanted to share lol 💪 Thu, 20 Nov 2014 07:21:39 EST seriously http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818730 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/2/l423521744.jpg"> Tue, 18 Nov 2014 06:33:32 EST another day in the books. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818505 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/8/l98704607.jpg"> OK seriously, it has been a miracle I made it through today within calories. Time for bed thank goodness!!! ✌ 💋 💪 Mon, 17 Nov 2014 19:21:14 EST my day summed up in a picture http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5817861 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/0/l30342243.jpg"> Have a great evening!! Sun, 16 Nov 2014 18:10:44 EST second chances http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5816879 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1195058476.jpg"> Fri, 14 Nov 2014 17:26:13 EST opinions needed! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5814179 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1487240222.jpg"> Ok I know that yesterday I didnt eat enough, BUT I need to know how many calories I should really be eating. I plan on burning roughly the same amount everday, but I dont want to eat them all back. I think that defeats the purpose. Mon, 10 Nov 2014 11:11:35 EST 11-9-14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5813746 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1102583600.jpg"> I'm going to post some of the stuff in my blog here, that I do on Facebook. Hope you all have a great evening! Sun, 9 Nov 2014 18:09:09 EST First progress pic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5813480 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/4/l242318425.jpg"> I have lost a ton of weight in my life, and I have gained a ton. I wasnt 100% sure I wanted to post this, but I thought, why not? Progress is always a good thing, right? First pic was in July 337 Second pic today 317 Not a huge difference, but I'm a work in progress. Sun, 9 Nov 2014 09:04:22 EST November 1st post http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5809149 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1475804191.jpg"> Ok I had intentions of writing this yesterday, but ya know life happens. :) So this weekend was not my best food wise. Friday night we had pizza and candy. As nervous as I was over my total calories for that day, I finally put it all in on mfp and it was around 2100. My goal is 1710, so I feel a little better. Wasnt a total blowout. Yesterday: much better. Finished off the day around 1100. I know thats kinda low... Sun, 2 Nov 2014 07:52:06 EST Sebastian http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5807103 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/6/l361076563.jpg"> Today is National cat day. Here is my sexy, handsome, king of the castle... Sebastian. Wed, 29 Oct 2014 17:17:06 EST New me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5805511 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1278606376.jpg"> I can't believe it is almost the end of October. I've lost 16 pounds this month and starting to feel better, most importantly I haven't quit. I survived two birthday parties (passed on the cake) and have not had any Halloween candy this month. Yay! 2 years I have basically been in a rut. Those of you who know me, know this. I'm excited about things to come and new beginnings. Don't ever give up on yourself. Mon, 27 Oct 2014 08:16:31 EST embarrassed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5802271 Here is WHAT has been up in my world. My weight. I feel like completely starting a new sparkpage, but I do not want to lose my current Spark friends. I did not completely gain all my weight back, but I was close. (20 pounds) <BR> <BR> Some peeps over on my Fb page when I told them I had trouble letting go of the past, told me to start over with my weight on October 1st. So I am now on my 21 day streak on myfitnesspal and I've lost 13 pounds since then. Pretty happy with that. Ready... Tue, 21 Oct 2014 16:40:52 EST new beginnings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5717339 I joined Weight Watchers online today. Three months paid. <BR> <BR> Let's do this. Fri, 13 Jun 2014 16:47:45 EST ugh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5714374 I have a mega headache so this is going to be very short. I stayed on track today. Right now I've had around 1300 calories but I may have something small later. <BR> <BR> I hope you guys are having a fabulous day. <BR> <BR> &#10055; Mon, 9 Jun 2014 17:05:50 EST failing miserably http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5713625 That might sound like the beginning of a pity party, but honestly it's not. Just the truth. <BR> <BR> The month of April I did really well. I had lost like 12 pounds in three weeks or something like that. I had one bad weekend and gained eight of it back. <BR> That was a WTH moment if I ever had one. That started it all. Then we came into a little bit of money, nothing extravagant, but we could eat out and I could go to this grocery store and not stress about money for a while. It woul... Sun, 8 Jun 2014 19:06:46 EST Finding Balance. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668471 So I've been having trouble finding time to exercise. I asked myself today "How did I figure it out last time??" <BR> <BR> Then I realized my schedule at work is completely different than it was when I was working out hardcore at the gym. I use to work 10-6 mostly, take the kids to the bus at 7, then go to the gym for 2 hours, then work. I felt awesome! <BR> <BR> Now fast forward to the present. <BR> <BR> I work 5am - 1 pm. I get up around 3:30am five days a week. I get home, I'm exha... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 19:13:06 EST I'm a grandma! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5664395 Ok not really. LOL <BR> <BR> My German Shepherd had puppies!!! Boy oh boy. some of the peeps on my facebook page didn't like it. Ok I get that there are lots of dogs that need homes, but that doesn't mean I should have to fix mine. We take care of all of our dogs, and when the pups are big enough we will make sure they go to good homes. <BR> Here is an adorable picture of them.. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l656418117.jpg"> <BR> <BR> IF I was looking rig... Fri, 4 Apr 2014 14:36:56 EST Dear Monday....go step on a Lego http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5661024 LOLOLOLOL <BR> <BR> That is exactly how I feel today. It has not been a terrific. They can't all be rainbows and sunshine, I guess. <BR> <BR> First... Our register at work wasn't working. Not that I didn't enjoy the little break of not waiting on people, but it made time creep. Second...we always get our delivery truck on Monday morning around 5 am. Today they called and said they were running 4 hours late. Really?? <BR> <BR> I'm finally home, and we have a leaking toilet. My pare... Mon, 31 Mar 2014 17:03:13 EST Short and Sweet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5660235 Ugh! I had this blog written once and accidently deleted it. Really??? <BR> <BR> Basically it was just me rambling about how I've made it SIX WHOLE DAYS without binge eating. <BR> SIX WHOLE DAYS of staying in my calorie range. <BR> <BR> Last night I was looking at my pics on here and instantly was depressed. Would you keep them or delete them? Honest answers PLEASE!!! <BR> <BR> Todays calories ended at 1190. I've been having issues with my left knee for well over a month and I do... Sun, 30 Mar 2014 18:57:24 EST Day 5 Do-over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5659485 Wow two blogs in one day, I really have missed this lol. <BR> <BR> I'm on day 5 of my do-over. I log all of my food on myfitnesspal because I do think their app is better, but I'm going to bore you with my stats for the last 5 days. Then being caught up I'll just do it daily. <BR> <BR> Monday was my birthday. It was not day 1 lol. <BR> <BR> Tuesday day one <BR> Calories in : 1306 <BR> Calories burned: 140 <BR> Net calories: 1166 <BR> <BR> Wednesday day two <BR> Calories in : 1280 <B... Sat, 29 Mar 2014 18:09:14 EST 5-HTP http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5659315 Good day all!! I'm off work today thank goodness. <BR> <BR> I saw this vitamin supplement on Pinterest the other day when I searched binge eating. <BR> <BR> I'm a strong believer in not taking pills to control my diet, but this is more like a mood supporter. Kind of like an anti-depressent over the counter. I read that it can somewhat help control cravings. I didn't see any serious side effects, so I thought I would give it a try. <BR> <BR> This is what it says on the bottle: <BR> ... Sat, 29 Mar 2014 12:33:18 EST Typing instead of eating. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5658873 I've never been so aggravated in my life. Well, I'm sure I have but at the moment I can not think of any. <BR> <BR> One BIG reason I have not been on Spark is because the only access I have to it is on my phone. It is doable, but at the same time horrible. <BR> I ordered DSL internet off of my phone provider, and when I ordered I said "will this be fast enough for netflix and things like that?" <BR> "Oh of course" she said. <BR> <BR> I get my modem today and my internet is slo... Fri, 28 Mar 2014 20:16:03 EST Days go by http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5625315 The days go by so fast , and the weight adds up faster. Did I really expect to go back to my old eating habits and be ok?? I really need help. <BR> .I'm really putting myself out here today. I would love to have a couple of buddies who like to text for support. If you would be interested please send me a goodie with your number. Sun, 16 Feb 2014 07:56:12 EST lost http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5431673 A good friend said I was getting back to my roots. Is that what I'm doing? I feel like I've been back and forth so many times I can't see straight. I'm doing horrible and really trying, but anymore I feel like everything I do is the wrong choice. I use the myftnesspal app because it's free. So you won't be seeing my diary. <BR> <BR> I get so wrapped up in Facebook and my page on there that I got lost. <BR> <BR> I really hope this helps. By the way, doing this from my phone. Sorry f... Wed, 24 Jul 2013 10:12:23 EST Snow day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5232915 So there is no school today. I'm glad to get to spend the day with the kids but I really needed to go to town and cash my check and stuff, now I can't. So here I sit wanting to eat badly . No seriously. It's bad when you have to talk yourself out of stuff like that. <BR> <BR> I really wish I didn't have food on the brain all the time. <BR> Here's a pic of our snow. I hate it lol. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/4/l840389436.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I think I'll go... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 09:31:55 EST Day 3..oh yeah http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5231254 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1549194011.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I like this. Time to suck it up and not really "finish" but definitely get back to what. I started. <BR> <BR> Day 3 of low carb...so far so good. Now I want to make something clear, I am doing low carb because I am a BINGE eater. I lost every single pound by counting calories and exercise. It just isn't working for me anymore because once I get started I can't stop anymore. I'm really hoping this low carb t... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 07:06:18 EST Hello there! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5229777 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1394496290.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Ok so I have been failing miserably. Every attempt I make anymore just doesn't last. Is it because I have become to comfortable where I am at? Not sure. I do good for a week then binge eat for four days. It is awful. <BR> <BR> So as of yesterday I have cut out sugar. I'm "planning" on 2 weeks on then a cheat meal. Meal not cheat day. Probably a Friday because that's when Jeff likes to eat out at a res... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 07:11:15 EST Long December http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5161059 Oh my I am so ready for this month to be over. The stress of the holidays, the stress of eating is about to get the best of me. Sorry for my absence (again). There really is no excuse but I have been crappy. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I started low carb (some of you that might follow me on facebook may know this already.) Yesterday was good. Today I'm starving. I know it will pass but O.M.G. give me a cookie already! <BR> <BR> Just kidding. I mainly am doing this to kick my sugar cravings... Sun, 9 Dec 2012 12:22:45 EST The day after http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5144056 I had an amazing day yesterday with my family. (hope you did too !). But to be honest I ate horrible. After getting on the scale this morning I am quickly realizing that it would take me no time to gain a large amount of weight back. <BR> <BR> Oh why can't this journey be easy?!?! <BR> <BR> Because nothing worth having or doing is. <BR> <BR> I had a dream last night that I went in the bathroom and my face was huge! Like in one of my before pics. It looked like I had been stung by a swa... Fri, 23 Nov 2012 09:07:09 EST Day 688 hanging in and hanging on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5140505 At first I thought can I really say day 688 because I have seriously sucked this year. I pretty much weigh close to the same thing I did last November give or take a few pounds. But then I thought to myself... <BR> <BR> "No Michelle, you have had a rough year of heart problems and depression. You have worked hard at least at maintaining (give or take a few) and you deserve to write Day 688. You didn't quit. Every single day when you woke up you tried to make healthy decisions even if y... Mon, 19 Nov 2012 14:26:33 EST Saturday night http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5138814 So I was going to blog on blogger and it wasn't working out. Only big problem here is my phone won't let me upload pictures for some reason so I will have to do that from my moms. <BR> <BR> How has everyone been? Good I hope. Myself, I'm still here, still swimming but my progress is sucking. I'm in a rut. There I said it. I fully admit it. Will I ever get back into the swing of things? I hope the heck so. <BR> <BR> Here's where I'm at. <BR> Typical week these days.. <BR> <BR> S... Sat, 17 Nov 2012 22:15:53 EST Hi Sparkers! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5089690 Hi old friends! I'm sorry I have not been around. I don't know what happened to my "Spark" but I'm still trying. I started tracking on myfitnesspal. My username on there is MichelleCobb82. The app is better on my phone. <BR> <BR> I still have the Facebook page that I'm very active on called Leaving Obesity Behind. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Also I just started a new blog (with a great phone app ) <BR> <link>leaving-obesity-behind.blogspot.com/<BR>?m=0 </link> <BR> <BR> So until I get i... Sun, 7 Oct 2012 08:01:30 EST Truth http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4974597 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/2/l221565742.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have not fallen. I am still here. <BR> <BR> This morning I weighed 212 pounds, which means I have gained back 14. <BR> That is the hardest thing for me to write. It is so hard because I haven't felt like this in over a year and a half. The feeling of being lost. The feeling of not knowing what I'm doing. Am I doing the right things? The things that I am eating, can I eat them for the rest of my life? I d... Tue, 17 Jul 2012 13:09:31 EST my last day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4972487 I never really thought I would be here. This far into my journey and struggling everyday. You would think that knowing I have these heart issues would get my butt into gear, but it hasn't. <BR> <BR> I wake up everyday with great intentions, and many days are successful, but then many are not. How in the world do I get my spark back? I feel so good when I am on track, why do I screw it up? <BR> <BR> Enough whining and the could have , should have attitude. <BR> <BR> I will succeed a... Mon, 16 Jul 2012 09:26:04 EST Living with Heart Disease... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4924966 Thank you so much for all the prayers! They are appreciated! <BR> <BR> Well I made it through the heart cath, with one scare when they couldn't get the blood to stop. <BR> I now am the owner of three stints. <BR> (I had one blockage 100%, one that was 60% and two that are 50%. They put 2 in the one that was 100, and 1 in the 60. Didn't do anything to the 50's) <BR> <BR> Believe me when I say it has been hard, not so much physically as it has been mentally. <BR> To come to terms of ... Wed, 13 Jun 2012 14:09:29 EST sorry for my absence http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4906363 Thank you so much for all the nice comments <BR> and goodies on my page. I'm still trying but am struggling. <BR> <BR> I use to do all my sparking from my phone which is a pain in the butt anyway, but now my "new" but used phone does not have a keyboard and totally sucks. <BR> <BR> I miss you guys! <BR> <BR> I'm not real sure how many of you follow me on facebook, but I'm going to mention it again. <BR> I found out last week that I have to have a heart cath done. I may have a blockage. ... Thu, 31 May 2012 19:42:04 EST Back on the wagon... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4864638 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/4/l344627863.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Wow. I can't tell you how scary the last couple of weeks were. Feeling out of control, binging every night. I know that it is a choice that I myself made, but it was like I couldn't stop. <BR> <BR> For the last now 5 mornings (yes 5!) I've gotten up and told myself I was going to have a good day. I have to believe than food does not have any power over me. It is to fuel my body and that is it. <BR> <BR> ... Thu, 3 May 2012 11:54:33 EST Goals for the week April 29th-May 6th http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4857242 <BR> Today is stops. <BR> <BR> Today I stop hating myself for effing up. <BR> <BR> Today I will set new goals and I will follow through with them because I am worth the struggle. <BR> <BR> 1. I WILL stay within my calorie range <BR> <BR> 2. I WILL get at least 3 miles on the treadmill at home everyday. <BR> <BR> 3. I WILL go to the gym at least 3 times this week. <BR> <BR> 4. I WILL log on to Spark everyday. <BR> <BR> 5. I WILL track all of my food. <BR> <BR> 6. I WILL stay... Sun, 29 Apr 2012 09:01:45 EST