MEYDEE's SparkPeople Blog MEYDEE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Monday Fast Day Worked today had a grilled chicken salad for lunch, it is easier not to eat at work because there are no food cues but it is harder to plan food when I am working. Still haven't decided what to do on vacation. I am thinking about fastin again tomorrow and weighing on Wed. before I leave then not worrying about it while I am traveling. Really watch portion control and sugar but not worry about what I am eating. Would seem like a vacation then. Mon, 13 May 2013 17:58:03 EST Friday Weigh Day I am disappointed, lost only .4 pound, felt like I had lost more. 5 weeks I lost nine pounds, which is good, but the last two I have hardly lost any. I am not quitting this is working, and I have to remember the health benefits too. <BR> Fri, 10 May 2013 13:51:51 EST Thursday, Fast Day Worked today and it went pretty well. I wanted to eat a bigger meal in the evening so I only ate an apple and two shaved ham slices for lunch at 1:00. I am counting the time until I can eat dinner but it isn't that bad, I know I can do it. I woke up feeling thinner, lighter, which is a good thing. I think my clothes feel better to, which doesn't always happen when you are 100 pound over weight, it can take awhile to notice changes. I am hoping to have lost 1 1/2 pound tomorrow, 244.8 since I ... Thu, 9 May 2013 17:10:28 EST Tuesday Yesterday was a fast day and it went perfectly, struggled a little bit at times with hunger but managed. Feel lighter today, I like that feeling. Trying to figure out how to handle vacation, I don't think truly fasting will work where I am surrounded by food and eating out. I am thinking about not eating until dinner time and then trying to keep the meal around 700 calories. Tue, 7 May 2013 10:12:40 EST Day 25? Sat. I think working is going to make this harder. I want diet coke the whole time I am at work even though I have a big ice tea sitting there. I also feel like I deserve to eat when I get home because I have worked. I am not giving up! I will work out the issues and keep going. Sat, 4 May 2013 22:48:54 EST Day 23 Feel like my eating is slipping after a weekend in MN. Don't want to sit down and count calories, bad place to be so I will let the week play out. Tomorrow is a fast day but it is my birthday, part of me wants to fast anyway but I think I will feel like a martyr if I do. Better plan is fast Friday, the scale might not be nice Friday morning but I am in it for the long haul anyway. <BR> <BR> Did OK today. Enjoyed my dinner, won't enjoy the scale? Thu, 2 May 2013 00:24:38 EST Day 21 Fast Day Blog say Tuesday but I am writing this late Monday night, before midnight. <BR> <BR> We were traveling back from Bloomington today so I kind of wondered how it would go. Had so tough moments, Gailen ate a lot, candy bars, coke, cashews, sandwich, shake. I just kept telling myself I was going to slice a big apple when I got home and sit down and eat it. Didn't get home until 10:00 but I made it. Happy I did it! <BR> <BR> Day 22, Actual Tueday: Ate a few peanuts and pretzels at midnight, no ... Tue, 30 Apr 2013 00:37:09 EST Day 18 Weigh-in 246.4 Yipee!! Two pounds gone!! Total of 7 in three weeks. My two days of semi fast didn't hurt me, good thing I had one really good one. Now I am ready to eat, must remember to use portion control. Fri, 26 Apr 2013 08:56:23 EST Day 17, mabe a fast? I didn't quite fast yesterday, probably ate under 1000 calories though. I wanted my McD McGriddle and iced coffee when I was in Mitchell so I had it. I am considering that is all I will eat today and it will be a semi fast, don't know if I can make it until bed though. Even though it isn't a week I weighed myself to help me decide how to eat today and I have lost 2/5's of a pound, not much but a little. I will officially weigh tomorrow, maybe I will have lost a little more by then. That is my... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 15:19:10 EST Day 16 Ate smaller than normal yesterday, which is good, woke up very hungry today but can't decide what to eat so I keep putting it off. Pancakes always sound good later in the day, maybe I should have them now so I don't want them later. A McD's coffee sounds good too. Don't want to eat too much in the morning. Maybe I should do my fast day today because I am out of town tomorrow? Don't know if I am mentally ready. Wed, 24 Apr 2013 11:20:28 EST Day 15 Tuesday I have been awake for over an hour and am not starving for breakfast yet. Feel a little lighter, need to poo! Sounds like Shane and Jenny are making plans for their divorce. Makes me sad. Tue, 23 Apr 2013 10:11:09 EST Day 14 Fast Day I am feeling quite proud of myself, I can feel the hunger and tell myself it is OK it won't be forever, and I go on. I actually looked forward to fasting today, the feeling of control, the lightness, the hope. The only bad part is a nasty headach again, it started before I could really say I had fasted so it doesn't have anything to do with that. Maybe I am kinking my neck at night. It is 4:00pm and I am starting to wish for 5:30 to get here so I can eat. I think I will have a big salad and a... Mon, 22 Apr 2013 17:12:59 EST Day 13 Eating too much, bored, frustrated. Ate breakfast at Cedar Shore and didn't eat it all, which was good, and that made me realize that the reason I have been snaking is I have only had one meal today and it is 4:00, I was hungry and didn't feed myself the right way. Gotta pay attention!! Sun, 21 Apr 2013 17:07:44 EST Day 10 fast day Day 11 Went OK, some hunger but stopped by 8:30pm, slept good. Having some constipations type problem, I am drinking a lot of water and eating fiber so I am not sure what to change. <BR> <BR> Disappointed that I gained a tenth of a pound this week. Didn't eat badly at all, but losing 5 pounds last week still makes a good weekly average. I am still going forward with it, give it until vacation. <BR> <BR> Eleven days without soda or sweetener, I am proud of myself!!! Fri, 19 Apr 2013 09:30:44 EST Day 8 Day 7: Yesterday was a tougher fast day and today is a harder feast day, can't feel satisfied. Made the mistake of having a couple glasses of wine during the evening which led me to eat cashews. It wasn't a terrible food day but I feel disappointed, like I might of undone my fast day. That is exactly what i don't want, I want normal eating days. I am not allowing myself to figure up my calories because I don't want to start that habit. I will eat normal tomorrow. <BR> <BR> Day 8: Going to be... Wed, 17 Apr 2013 09:02:15 EST Day 7 Fast Day A lose weight day is here!!! I woke up feeling like my skin wasn't as tight, you know when you keep gaining your skin feels like it can't stretch anymore and if you move wrong it will rip? well, today my skin feels normal, no tightness. Feels good. I am going for coffee with the girls and when I get home I will probably eat something like PB toast and an apple. <BR> <BR> It has been harder today, the hunger has stayed steady for a few hours instead of coming and going, counting the minutes u... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 09:47:48 EST Day 6 Still working on not keeping track of the calories I eat, I have to learn to eat in a relaxed healthy way. I had 2/3 of a bacon cheeseburger but no fries, half an apple instead. Still no soda!! I have a bad headache again, can't figure out why. Took medicine so I should feel better soon. I had a lot of joint pain last night so I didn't sleep well, tonight I am going back on Aleve. I was hoping not having any aspartame might help that. I feel thinner, lighter, around my stomach, it is a great ... Sun, 14 Apr 2013 15:57:34 EST Day 5 Feel like I should be fasting today, like an every other day deal. Trying to eat small amounts of things. Went to shower and had a wonderful cupcake, first big dose of sugar in awhile. This is my fifth day without diet soda too! Deciding what to eat is a problem, nothing sounds good. I have to remind myself that I can eat whatever I want. I don't want to fall into the starvation diet mentality. Sat, 13 Apr 2013 19:30:12 EST Day 4 Weigh-in 248.6 WOW five pounds gone, I know that is a lot of water, but WOW!!! <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> Felt too full after meals, miserable after lunch, have to cut my serving size way down. Fri, 12 Apr 2013 09:01:16 EST Day 3 fast I have had a nagging headache all day, it is 3:00 and still here so I am going to take a migraine pain reliever. I don't think it has anything to do with the fast. I waited until noon to eat, 1 ww bread, peanut butter, little jam, apple=250 calories. I was content at the end, took me about an hour to eat it. I am feeling hunger pains but they come and go, not that bad. I am thinking about food a lot, when I should eat, what I should eat, etc. but I spend a lot of time picturing the future whe... Thu, 11 Apr 2013 16:08:36 EST Day 2 I didn't wake up starving, showered, dressed, then debated what I wanted to eat, settled on Cheerios, got a little shakey after a few bites, don't know why, didn't last. I have been done eating for an hour and I don't feel the need to eat again so my fear of all day long eating isn't happening. <BR> <BR> Ate normal all day but had to keep telling myself it was OK and not put myself down for eating. Got extremely full at dinner though it wasn't huge, didn't have room to eat popcorn at the mov... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 10:06:32 EST Start Day 1 Fast Day I am starting the 5:2 Plan, eat normal five days a week, 2 days a week you fast at 500 calories. I am excited! The plan makes sense to me. I don't have to worry about every bite I take, guilt is gone. On my fast days I can tell myself I can have anything I want tomorrow. There is some science out there that shows how positive this can be on your health. I am hoping it will help with my sugar craving. Going 16 hours or more without eating allows your body to heal it's cells. I will see. Can't ... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 13:34:15 EST Thought for the Day Your life is much too valuable to throw away any of it on <BR> negativity. Your time is too precious to fill it with <BR> self-pity or anger or resentment. <BR> Ralph Marston Mon, 7 Jan 2013 08:44:11 EST I can't believe.... how time has passed. I was moving along really well in November and then my Mom broke her ankle and I let everything slip away. Seems any added stress and working on losing weight is the first thing to go. I can't seem to get that taking care of myself first is the best thing. She is doing better, the busy holidays are over, time to get focused again. Now I just have to get brave enough to step on the scale! Fri, 4 Jan 2013 10:38:41 EST Weigh-in day... As I predicted I am up, I am not upset because I understand the reason and I am still on track to meet my goal. I have always been up and down with my weight and it often doesn't reflect what and how I ate. It is what it is. This time I am not going to let the scale bring me to the place where I give up. Tue, 13 Nov 2012 09:08:14 EST Not a surprise.... Even though I am of the age I shouldn't be having hormonal issues. I am. It was a heck of a few days!!! I was able to laugh about it but I had forgotten how intense the food cravings could get and how you never feel full. I would want something salty, then something sweet, over and over. Today is soooo much better. Sunday is my mid-way weigh in day to see how I am doing and I was not surprised to see a gain of a couple of pounds. I know I didn't eat enough to gain that much but it reminded me... Sun, 11 Nov 2012 11:58:10 EST Procrastination............. I am having a huge problem with procrastination today. I have a big old historical home that needs cleaning, especially because I have company coming this weekend. It wouldn't be so bad but I am out of town Thursday and Friday so it is do or die time. I have to go in and do some display work today but that will only take a couple of hours but I have the feeling like that is enough for today, cleaning house on top of that just isn't fair!! What a bum!!! I do one little chore and then I sit in ... Wed, 7 Nov 2012 12:02:45 EST Weight In Day.... I am very happy, 3 1/2 pounds gone. My goal is one pound a week but I knew the first week would probably be better than that. Overall, the week was very do-able. Only one day did I want to eat more than I should and I wasn't hungry I just wanted to eat. I never figured out the reason why I wanted to eat but just recognizing I wasn't hungry was a success. Tue, 6 Nov 2012 08:47:59 EST Five days down.... Five days is a lot longer than I have lasted the last few times I have tried to lose weight, so I am happy. It hasn't been as hard as I thought it would. I have to watch that I don't get compulsive about my eating or not eating, I need to treat it naturally. Mentally I need to lose weight in a positive way or I won't last. Sat, 3 Nov 2012 10:21:25 EST Feeling Good Ate three meals away from home and it went well. I downloaded the Spark app for my phone and I love being able to put my food down in my diary right after I eat instead of waiting until I get home. It really helped my decision making. Survived Halloween without digging into the candy bowl and homemade sugar cookies. I ate a mini KitKat and a mini sugar cookie ghost and was satisfied. What really tells the story is that yesterday was a tough emotional day but I never thought about eating to re... Thu, 1 Nov 2012 09:58:54 EST A Year? I can't believe it has been a year since I blogged! I am not surprised I haven't lost any weight. It has been a crazy year for me, knee injury, husband health issues that meant a lot of time traveling to doctors and sitting in waiting rooms, serious family concerns, but I am still in a good place mentally and emotionally. It is time to get back to taking care of myself though. I am going to blog, log, and try to get some gentle walking in. I can tell my physical health has declined, harder t... Tue, 30 Oct 2012 17:02:17 EST It is working I weighed this morning and I am down 2.4 pounds, and it didn't hurt at all to get there! I have gone on the treadmill twice and have tracked my food for a couple of days but I was watching my portions and choices pretty well before that. This needs to become natural for me, I don't want to spend every minute of every day thinking about food and exercise. I am off to a good start! Wed, 14 Sep 2011 09:21:37 EST Proud! I am proud of myself, I finally started tracking what I am eating. I know it is the only way I can lose a large amount of weight but I really hated the idea of doing it. I have done it before but it becomes too all consuming at times. I want to be able to eat and live this way for the rest of my life and I know I won't track my food forever, but I need this to get me started and get me in the right frame of mind. Plus I exercies yesterday, YIPEEE! I am making some progress. Mon, 12 Sep 2011 17:15:14 EST Blow up My typical summer blow up has occured. My job is very stressful during the summer (tourist centered) and I can't seem to focus on my job and healthy living. Heathy living always loses! I am eating junk food and most of the time I don't really care. I am keeping up some positives, like eating veggies, drinking enough water but I am getting no exercise except moving a garden hose. I am so frustrated that I can't seem to keep myself from losing all control by July. Things will get better in Sep... Wed, 20 Jul 2011 20:41:27 EST Good news I got my annual check up test results back and all my numbers were good. I was very pleased with my cholesterol, I was concerned it would be up and the doc would suggest medicine. My adding whole grains and lots of veggies at noon lowered my cholesterol from last year. <BR> <BR> Other good news is that I have lost two and 1/2 pounds in the past two weeks even though we were gone for a mini vacation over the weekend. I seem to be getting better at listening to my body, eating when I am hungry... Thu, 26 May 2011 10:42:37 EST Outside Woke up before six even though my alarm was set for seven. Laid there for awhile and realized I wanted to go outside for a walk. Laid there for awhile. Decided to get up and do it! Hadn't planned on taking the dog but she wanted to go pretty bad so I did, that meant I stopped a lot while she sniffed trees. It was beautiful out and I so needed some fresh air and outside time. Hoping the rain is gone for awhile and I can work in the yard this afternoon after I interview a couple of people. I am... Mon, 23 May 2011 08:16:11 EST New approach! I am trying a new approach, giving myself credit for the positive things I do instead of making myself feel soooo bad when I mess up. I am kind of a black and white kind of person so when I eat one wrong thing I think, I might as well give up. Well, no one is perfect so I have done a lot of giving up. Not any more! I will give myself credit for drinking enough water, walking (even a short time), eating enough veggies (even if I ate ice cream that day), watching my portion sizes (even if I am ... Tue, 1 Mar 2011 18:26:29 EST tread mill The new treadmill came and is set up so I gave it a try this morning. Did 30 minutes walking, burned 130 calories. Tried to go faster but I could feel my shins hurting so I would have to alternate speeds to give them a rest. I am proud, I made myself get on there! Thu, 20 Jan 2011 10:38:32 EST did it I went upstairs, stripped naked, and stepped on "The Beast"! All the way upstairs I had been giving myself a pep talk, "No matter what the number you can handle it". I was guessing I was close to 260 pounds and I was pleading with the scale to be kind and make it the lower 250's. I was 244.8, only a pound up from August when I last weighed, WHEW, that makes it easier to start again. That is the highest I have ever been but I was relieved because it seems do-able. Almost three years ago I wei... Fri, 14 Jan 2011 10:05:01 EST sad I am sad to see that five months have gone by and I have not made any progress. I just gave up for awhile. Frustration with myself is my biggest issue. I know, I have to start fresh. I am reading/doing "A Course in Weight Loss" by Marianne Williamson and it is helping me get back to making myself a priority. I know I am so far down I am going to have to start with small steps so I don't scare myself off!!! I am going to keep track of all the ways that I take care of myself each day, instead ... Fri, 14 Jan 2011 09:38:27 EST Surviving This month is the most stressful time at my job every year but I am getting through it. I am on my 9th day in a row but I scheduled myself for a six hour shift to give myself 24 hours off in a row..........not a vacation but it feels like one! Stress leads to me eating, especially high fat and sugar items. I am keeping a giant bottle of ice tea by my side and it is helping a lot. Two more days and I get a day off, then I work a day and then get two off in a row. I hired someone who is starti... Tue, 10 Aug 2010 14:58:06 EST Aware I have been watching myself to see if I can find an answer to why I have completely given up on losing weight and being healthy. I am doing some positive things for myself-drinking enough water, given up diet sodas, eat enough veggies, use whole grains but that is as far as I am willing to go. Food is my comfort and stress reliever, all day, every day! There are better ways, and I know what they are, but I don't want to change. I will keep blogging so my thoughts can be more focused and I am ... Fri, 6 Aug 2010 10:30:35 EST Don't know if I can try again. I have been in a very fast downward spiral the past few months. Never has it been this bad. Can't come up with a reason, same life is happening, so why the attitude change? I'm trying to climb back up and start again but I am not sure I am ready. At least I found myself back at Spark, inspiration is always here. I am so miserable with the way I look because ALL my clothes are way too tight and I look ridiculous. I lay in bed at night and promise myself that the next day will be different but ... Tue, 3 Aug 2010 18:56:58 EST Yipee! I got my lab test results back and my cholesterol is down 20 points from a year ago and no signs of diabetes. I am really happy with that!!! My thyroid is messed up again, which explains the tiredness and I am showing inflammation signs. Up the Synthroid and things will be better in a few weeks. Food has been OK, less and less mindless eating, more mindful choices. Mon, 5 Apr 2010 22:03:33 EST A surprising moment.. I have been really working on being aware of every bite I take. Yesterday a friend brought me a small plate of goodies for me to try (couple corn chips, fruit salsa, dipping oil, bread), it was a very small amount and I immediately ate it all, without a single thought about it. It tasted great and it wasn't a large amount of calories but I was amazed (afterwards!!) how easily I accepted and ate it without hesitation. How many times does that happen and I don't even realize it? Something to th... Sun, 21 Mar 2010 11:28:08 EST Some good moments... Some good moments happened yesterday. I made it through some stretches of hunger without suffering too much. I resisted the punch and cookies at a meeting, slipped the cookie into my purse and took it home to hubby. I left some calories so I could eat the dessert at the end of a get together and I was content not to finish it. Eating this way is becoming more automatic and natural and it makes me realize how much I was overeating. I am home today which can be a big challenge, I am going to fo... Fri, 19 Mar 2010 09:11:11 EST The good moments... The good moments are piling up. I have lost my first five pounds, YIPEEE! My stomach doesn't feel as tight, my face is less puffy, and my attitude has improved. There are some tough moments dealing with hunger but I know that it will not hurt me. I also know that I deserve to get to a healthy weight and a little suffering along the way is worth it. I am only following this strict plan for 60 days, which helps me put up with hunger. I am feeling pretty positive today! Thu, 18 Mar 2010 08:28:43 EST A proud moment.... I served at a prayer service yesterday and DID NOT take a single bite of all the homemade goodies. I kept myself as busy as possible so I didn't stand around and think too much! It wasn't as hard as I thought it might be. One thing that helped is that I kept reminding myself I had a diet A&W Rootbeer at home to drink. It is a treat for me so I kept imagining how good it was going to taste in a nice icy glass. It worked! Today I am not at work so I will face some different challenges, too much... Tue, 16 Mar 2010 09:52:02 EST A tough moment: I knew I couldn't go forward without knowing my weight. I have put it off for two months figuring the figure would so depress me that it would stop my efforts. It was bad.............TEN POUNDS higher than I expected. I have gained ten pounds since the first of the year. I am very disappointed and angry with myself but I am more determined to succeed. I am not going to let a moment on the scale determine my attitude. I am going on a pretty strict calorie diet for a couple of weeks to get myse... Mon, 15 Mar 2010 08:35:12 EST Moments: I got back from the buying trip with out any big problems. Food was OK, sometimes I didn't have any great choice but I made the best choices I could. Eating out that much is always a challenge. Some positive moments: didn't eat all my personal pizza at the BB game, bought and ate fruit, drank water, resisited a bagel. Remember, I am focusing on the positive. I spent hours walking each day at market so that is a positive. Could I have done better? Sure, but I am not going to make myself feel ... 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