MEXENIA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MEXENIA MEXENIA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ And my 6 weeks are up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5374796 Well I did it. I was strictly paleo for 6 weeks. <BR> I feel better, my hair is better, but my weight is up a bit. Beginning of April 297 beginning of June 300. Well fooey. <BR> <BR> Today was my planned free day, and Im not actually eating all the things, but I sure feel almost like doing it. <BR> <BR> Back on paleo tomorrow. Probably going to start writing it down too. Need to figure out WTF is going on, especially since the last time I did this I did lose a few pounds. Im not sure if Im ... Sat, 1 Jun 2013 16:14:15 EST This is why I tend to give up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5367597 well I HATE scales and I HATE numbers. my allergies have parked in my ear and it feels like an ear infection, but its not, just fluid build up. I got some flonaze to help it drain. But I had to get on the scale. 306. WHAT?!?!?! Ive been eating paleo strictly. the last time I was on a scale April 1 I was 298, and immediately switched to paleo. I was 20 days good paleo in April and 25 days ALL this month paleo. Granted I had just eaten lunch, but thats up not the same as not down. I tried reall... Sat, 25 May 2013 13:16:30 EST Progress report, now Im back on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5363518 Im still hanging in there on this way of eating. <BR> <BR> So far Ive been on it every day this month. I can tell Ive done some reverse to the weight damage I managed to do the first few months of this year, but I have no idea how much. Since weight on me leaves in weird patterns and the area over my stomach/low ribs shrinks first, I start to look pregnant, well thats happening. (I wish I shrank differently). So I know something is working on the weight front. <BR> <BR> Also, and this one I... Tue, 21 May 2013 13:31:43 EST Survival mode http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4972984 I survived school. I got my weight down to 278. but now for some reason Im up to 288 and Ive been stuck here for a month. <BR> Im eating well, except for a few slip ups. But Im still better than 90% on this way of eating. <BR> My biggest problem is my body. It doesnt know how to burn and access the fat stores I have--hey thats what the doc actually said. My body cannot process grains either or sugar. Oh joy <BR> <BR> Im about fit to give up, I mean it seems like no matter what I do it doesnt... Mon, 16 Jul 2012 14:51:35 EST Challenge accepted http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4755725 Ok my friend Diana has challenged me to a food journaling challenge. <BR> I have accepted. BUT <BR> I really do not like the food tracker here on sparkpeople <BR> there are times I just want to write it down, I dont want to look it up and all tht. Im just whinging. I will go do it the right way...... Fri, 24 Feb 2012 21:37:58 EST Star Gate http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4755722 Had the CT scan to day. <BR> I swear it was going thru the star gate, it spun it made noises, and there were palm trees above me when I opened my eyes. <BR> <BR> Ok they had put an illuminated poster thingy in the ceiling tiles. <BR> I asked lots of crazy questions, and they were good and answered them all. The dye they use is clear, and it makes you feel like you have peed when it enters your system. Odd. They gave me nitro spray, tasted like binaca. And they gave me something else that slo... Fri, 24 Feb 2012 21:36:33 EST Cardiac health http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4750488 Well last post was about cholesterol numbers. I had a huge improvement. But my CRP number was still more than 2x what they consider "high." That and with the therapy I have been having on my left shoulder it was time to go get checked out by a cardiologist. (I have chest pains but we -me and all the various docs- are 95% certain is muscular/skeletal, but I want to be 100% positive.) <BR> <BR> I want to establish base line information. Am I "healthy" right now? and can I maintain this with ou... Tue, 21 Feb 2012 23:29:22 EST Numbers! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4737396 Numbers: <BR> The first set are from November as I was cutting things out, but prior to being eating paleo <BR> Cholesterol total 213 <BR> Tryglycerides 176 <BR> HDL 50 <BR> LDL 128 <BR> C-reactive protein -cardiac 7.21 (this is inflammation since I have a chronic condition it could be skewing this) <BR> <BR> This second set is last week, after being on paleo, which is an anti-inflammatory way of eating after 12 weeks <BR> Cholesterol total 159 <BR> Tryglycerides 177 <BR> HDL 35 <BR> LDL 89... Mon, 13 Feb 2012 19:35:45 EST almost almost http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4726274 Im almost at the point where I can wear smaller clothes. Everything is nice and loose. My pants fall off my butt! Its funny but it still doesn't seem like my measurements are changing that much. The doc who put me on paleo has me down almost 20 on their scale, Im down almost 20 on my scale. I guess that makes it official, Im down 18 pounds as of Sunday! <BR> Problem with being heavier, its takes more loss to shrink sizes. <BR> I spent some time this evening trying on some smaller pants-Im on... Mon, 6 Feb 2012 23:41:49 EST Confused http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4705210 My weight is dropping. <BR> YAY <BR> My clothes fit better. <BR> YAY <BR> My rings are fitting differently and rings I could wear in November no longer fit-too big. <BR> YAY <BR> But.... <BR> my measurements around my middle have not changed according to the tape measure. <BR> <BR> I just dont get that. Thu, 26 Jan 2012 12:33:34 EST the test of stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4701673 I am a stress eater <BR> And I am under a great deal of it currently. I seem to be holding up ok, but I know my stress level is up. <BR> You see I spent 6 hours in the ER with hubby yesterday and Im just hanging with him at the hospital today. <BR> He has a blocked intestine. Actually its not blocked, it stopped for some reason in this one location. He did this once before and thats probably why Im feeling relatively calm. (that time I ate constantly) But I know Im stressed because Im not do... Tue, 24 Jan 2012 17:29:26 EST No, maybe I really do "have this" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4696803 Apparently I do "have this" <BR> Friday I did my best and I avoided Lara bars. <BR> Yesterday I ate the way that feels good and makes me happy: <BR> big protein meal with veggies. No fussiness, no weird concoctions, just food. <BR> <BR> And that food included a bid delish bison steak. <BR> nom nom nom nom nomnom <BR> <BR> and I am totally on track weight wise for my being fit and healthy and under 225 by the end of June. <BR> <BR> Thats right Im down 4 pounds from Thursdays weigh in! <BR>... Sun, 22 Jan 2012 12:13:05 EST Im hungry http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4694285 What a difference a few days makes. Just the other day i felt like i had this. Wednesday i had dropped another half pound. Today i jumped back up a few pounds. It feels like im not making any progress. And i havent been able to eat the kind of lunch i like to have to keep me on track. If i can eat a big protien and veggie lunch im good. Not a big lunch and after dinner im starving. Today i dont feel like i have this. Fri, 20 Jan 2012 21:58:18 EST Sugar! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4688043 Tuesdays I teach a dance class, my routine is to walk in the door, go to the counter say hi, grab a few mints then head back to set up my room. <BR> Class just took a 3 week break. I started paleo Thanksgiving week, and every Tuesday I still grabbed a mint. Then I got to the point where I would grab the mints walk off then turn around and put them back. <BR> Today I walked in, I said hi, I walked toward the counter and could not figure out why. Then Ilooked at the jar of mints and thought "oh... Tue, 17 Jan 2012 22:59:37 EST Have picked an official tracking day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4682075 After reading several different blogs here regarding reward systems I thought thats a really really good idea and I need something like that. <BR> <BR> Well Ive decided that Sundays will be my official weigh in day. Thats not to say I wont get on the scale more. I will pay "penalty" of 50 cents per pound over mini goal (if I did the entire goal we are talking over 100 pounds and I dont have that kind of money) mini goals are 275, 250, 225, 200. Once Im at 199 I will reevaluate my goal system... Sun, 15 Jan 2012 13:09:30 EST NSV and SV!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4680485 Im wearing a t-shirt that I only were when Im out of clean clothes because its usually too tight and I havent pulled it out of my drawers yet. It fits, its not tight, its actually loose! <BR> <BR> finally dropped 2 pounds! <BR> <BR> still a half pound away from my first uber mini goal, but finally Im right next to it. <BR> <BR> Im trying to decide what days will become my official weigh in days, the days I reward/penalize my self for <BR> <BR> I think middle of the week is good its more a... Sat, 14 Jan 2012 15:37:06 EST I used Adobé http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4674882 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/2/l722196906.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/5/l755997921.jpg"> <BR> <BR> There is an hysterical faux commercial on youtube <BR> <link>youtu.be/CeZyiOW9-uU </link> <BR> Improvements using PRO-PIXEL INTENSIFYING FAUXTANICAL HYDRO-JARGON MICROBEAD EXTRACT FEATURING NUTRITIVE VOLUMIZING&#65279; TECHNOLOGY <BR> <BR> Cracks me up. <BR> Yes I even use Adobé on myself occationally. <BR> <BR> The first picture is me, today,... Wed, 11 Jan 2012 21:34:14 EST The Universe, it laughs at me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4672617 So I fully planned on tossing it in this morning. <BR> Went to go engorge myself on a hot toasty gluten free english muffin smothered in melted butter and apple butter. <BR> nom nom nom nom <BR> <BR> yeah right <BR> <BR> they were all moldy! <BR> <BR> so I had some walnuts and a grape fruit instead. <BR> <BR> Tue, 10 Jan 2012 22:39:59 EST tired of being manic about all of this http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4670771 Tired of being so manic about my weight. I know Im doing whats right. Yesterday I was not down at all. I ate really really well. Im down a tad today. I should have been down since Saturday. <BR> <BR> I have been really good since last thursday, but in the mean time the scale is doing something completely different. <BR> <BR> Its hard to get excited about a minimal drop when theres the concern in the next few days its just going to go back up, even with the same behaviors. <BR> <BR> BUt li... Tue, 10 Jan 2012 09:05:15 EST Frustrated, but not giving up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4668105 Im hovering in the high 280s. Im up a tad and its frustrating. Why am I up, I should be dropping! <BR> Ive been doing this WOE (way of eating) since Thanksgiving and I really have not lost too much more since that time. <BR> I currently show a net loss of 4 pounds in 6 weeks. <BR> That. is. so. frustrating!!!! <BR> <BR> especially when other people drop weight like mad. <BR> I know comparing myself to others will only doom me, but how do I know its working? How if I can't compare progress t... Mon, 9 Jan 2012 09:17:07 EST the shape of things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4663046 more like the shape of me <BR> <BR> Something is definitely different eating paleo. Mainly how my body is losing weight. <BR> Im still losing slowly, and if nothing else was changing I would be very frustrated. But.... <BR> <BR> My shape is changing. <BR> <BR> The pants I wore yesterday, last night and today (3 different pairs) all kept falling down! To the point that Im about to pull the 22s out to see if they fit. <BR> My measurements are only different by about half an inch in upper bel... Fri, 6 Jan 2012 22:53:52 EST yuck! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4656375 just started a liver support cleans. <BR> uhg, thats nasty, its like drinking easter egg coloring: vinegar, lemon juice and cranberry juice <BR> today is day one. <BR> this doc like to do things in moderation, so hes only doing this for 2 weeks. <BR> Im already detoxing with the supplements. <BR> Im getting weird zits. They aren't normal zits, these start deep and i can feel them move to the surface, and they are dry not gooey when they pop, and in odd random places. Im not covered in them, ... Wed, 4 Jan 2012 09:24:23 EST Happy new me, this year it has got to change! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4648477 Ok time for the annual weigh in, over all I did not lose weight in 2011. <BR> 2010 297 <BR> 2011 283 <BR> 2012 289 <BR> so I have effectively gained 6 pounds this year. <BR> <BR> Im not too pleased with that, but I know the culprit. Me. <BR> I allowed myself to get hungry. <BR> The other adults yesterday did not take into consideration there were 10 kids there. They ordered 4 large pizzas, only 1 was cheese, the rest were all sort of odd combinations. What do kids eat? Cheese pizza. They act... Sun, 1 Jan 2012 13:26:12 EST Wow its starting to work the way I needed it to http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4635203 So this is finally working the way I need it to and the way I was expecting it to work a week or 2 ago. <BR> <BR> Im amazed that sticking to it through that really tough week for me made the difference. That is usually when I chuck it and give up. But I didnt. I stayed with it, and the scale and the energy are doing the right things. <BR> <BR> YAY <BR> <BR> now to go find some remedies for jiggly skin, cause Im gonna get some Thu, 22 Dec 2011 12:43:00 EST Sticking with it, what a difference http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4632541 Well this time I am sticking with the diet, Im doing it for health reasons beyond the weight. Im working with 2 natural-path type doctors each are treating different issues, and both want me eating this way. <BR> Im doing this for chronic fatigue management and adrenal correction. <BR> <BR> And normally i would have given up a week ago, and now Im glad i didnt. Im dropping weight again. <BR> not a huge amount but the scale is going in the right direction! Tue, 20 Dec 2011 09:36:08 EST Its not going to stop me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4626770 I wish diets would work. I dont mean lose weight and keep it off, I mean lose weight. <BR> Diets and healthy ways of eating just dont do much more for my body than maintain the weight I have. <BR> This would be a joy if I was thin. And I know if all I was doing maintaining 100 pounds lighter I would be complaining about not being 50 pounds lighter, but the point is, I can more than afford to drop 150 pounds, and maintaining my weight is NOT something I need to be doing. <BR> <BR> Diets stop ... Thu, 15 Dec 2011 12:00:12 EST SUGAR http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4624430 my mouth wants sugar <BR> Im not putting any in there <BR> but its driving my crazy! my tongue wants sweet, something yummy <BR> something sugary <BR> <BR> Im working hard at being good, here <BR> I know I need to not have anything sweet <BR> but my tongue wants sugar! Tue, 13 Dec 2011 17:00:26 EST So its been 2 full weeks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4621811 Im hungry!!! <BR> <BR> Two weeks on this, yes I feel better <BR> yes I have increased energy <BR> no I have not lost any more weight <BR> <BR> Yesterday i had 3 bites of cake frosting, today up half a pound <BR> has my body already adjusted? please dont say yes <BR> please body do what you are supposed to do <BR> 3 bites of sugar should not throw me so far off I just stagnate <BR> <BR> And whats up with the hungries? <BR> I haven't been hungry (or have I?) <BR> I just want to eat eat eat <... Sun, 11 Dec 2011 20:49:41 EST EMB stand off? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4620295 Is it really the EMB when it doesn't tell me what I want to hear? <BR> Is it the EBM when it stayed the same and chances are good it should have gone up? <BR> And after I lose how much weight will I call it friend? <BR> <BR> Weight the same as 2 days ago, sigh <BR> oh well <BR> at least it didnt go up <BR> yes its plateau time, and to day thats ok, 2 days ago not so much. By Monday it had better start going down. <BR> <BR> And for some reason I thought after what I ate yesterday that it pro... Sat, 10 Dec 2011 13:15:24 EST The evil metal box http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4617630 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/9/l691403599.jpg"> <BR> EVM, or the SCALE <BR> <BR> Actually its not necessarily evil, I am just afraid of it. Especially since mine cannot make up its mind! <BR> This morning it said 88, then 86, then settled on 88. <BR> Im happy with the 88 its the correct direction, but i would have ben happier with the 86. <BR> <BR> If it had said 90 or 91 or 93 (I never weigh 292 NEVER) I would have been in a funk all day long. <BR> Why does this little ... Thu, 8 Dec 2011 10:39:02 EST Before and still http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4616059 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l139494326.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/0/l805937132.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> These two pictures are taken about 8 months apart. <BR> One of these women has been dieting furiously, the other one not <BR> <BR> The one who lost almost 60 pounds hasn't been doing a thing, its the results of her meds, and shes my BFF. She looks gorgeous! <BR> <BR> I still look like a toad. <BR> <BR> After years and years of taking "befor... Wed, 7 Dec 2011 09:12:49 EST The best NSV http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4613029 I love the way I feel when Im successfully losing weight! <BR> Im a happier person. <BR> Im a nicer person, I forgive people their foibles more. <BR> I get "crushy" on all kinds of people because I feel so good. <BR> (This means I tend to like people I like even more, and want to go hang out with them) <BR> I fall back in love with my husband (not that I even fall out, just it strengthens that feeling). <BR> <BR> Is this how fit healthy people feel all the time? <BR> Its great, a bit distra... Mon, 5 Dec 2011 09:58:00 EST Just call me zippy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4611753 I havent dropped any more weight in the past few days (thats ok IM not gaining) but man I have energy! <BR> I went out late yesterday and only took a 45 min nap before hand and was not falling over. <BR> I stayed up later than the hubby, and heres the kicker, I got up before him too! <BR> And Im not draggin! <BR> Im awake, alert, ready to go! <BR> <BR> Im digging this WOE <BR> <BR> oh and went out with friends last night, and eating was a breeze and only had a brief snack of steamed veggie... Sun, 4 Dec 2011 11:48:34 EST Dec 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4608211 One week Paleo, yes Ive had a few planned off moments, and so far they have not been worth it. <BR> <BR> For some reason everyone around me is having "issues" with understanding how to do it, what to feed me, and OMG what am I going to eat if.... <BR> I've so got this <BR> <BR> This is my definition of low carb. Not no car, low carb, avoid starchiness of all kinds. Eat your greens! <BR> <BR> Grain free is easier than people think. And honestly once food has been identified as a source of ... Thu, 1 Dec 2011 17:02:21 EST Yesterday was my last piece of cheese cake http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4605682 In celebration of completing a huge research paper I had a piece of cheese cake. You see I luvs the cheese cake and had a piece every week or so (or more often). <BR> I gave up the cheese cake for the duration of the paper, and just last week my doc said try paleo, so Ive been paleo for 4 days then the cheese cake. <BR> Told my favorite waiter this was my last piece ever. <BR> He asked if I was serious, I said yes <BR> He asked if the baked potato I said was my last one last week was my last... Wed, 30 Nov 2011 09:46:17 EST Good bye my dear friends (a lament) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4605675 I will miss you oh baked potatoes <BR> I will cry for you cheese cake <BR> I will gaze longingly at you blocks of chocolate <BR> but alas <BR> alas <BR> no more <BR> we must part ways <BR> sour cream I mourn for you <BR> swedish fish thoughts of you bring tears to my eyes <BR> and fat to my thighs <BR> and now I must say my good byes <BR> good bye rice <BR> fair well wheat <BR> kiss off artificial sweeteners <BR> cause you really aren't so sweet <BR> no more frenched fries <BR> no more nacho ... Wed, 30 Nov 2011 09:38:25 EST Something is finally working! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4601231 I honestly dont know my start weight because it was the day after thanksgiving and after a week of cramming my face whilst wringing a massive research paper <BR> But the last time I weighed on the 8th it was 297 <BR> yesterday after 1 day of paleo 291.5 today 290 <BR> <BR> !!!!!!!!!!! <BR> yay!!! Sun, 27 Nov 2011 13:20:00 EST Here I go paleo.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4600034 So yesterday was day 1 of "paleo." The biggest difference for me was the cheese. I spent the day with my kids and 2 friends and their kids. It was great my 5,000 word paper was written and "stewing" so I enjoyed the day off. <BR> <BR> We started with lunch. That was easy, we went to one of my regular mexican places and I got one of my regular meals, just no cheese or rice--pollo borrocho is a grilled slab of chicken breast smothered in cheese and this yummy chilli almost chipotle sauce, its... Sat, 26 Nov 2011 12:53:38 EST MIA, I haven't given up just got absurdly busy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4598528 Well Im still at this thing. <BR> I have found that tracking food is IMPOSSIBLE when trying to write a huge research paper! <BR> So thats my excuse, and Im sticking to it. <BR> Oh that and my eatting goes over the top, I need to constantly munch as I work. <BR> a working situation that I will adjust at some point. <BR> <BR> <BR> Tuesday saw a new doc, this one specializes in natural health practices and nutrition to manage/cure chronic infectious stuff, like the chronic fatigue. <BR> I will... Fri, 25 Nov 2011 03:12:55 EST Support--wow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4581584 Everyone who comes and comment that I can do this, even when Im just pitching a fit, you are all just amazing! <BR> Thank you for your support! <BR> <BR> Today my hubby stepped up his support as well. He hadn't realized I have been working on tracking, so this evening he brought me the lap top and and reminded me to track. <BR> <BR> Yay for support, from all sources! Sat, 12 Nov 2011 23:33:18 EST It just isn't fair!- a temper tantrum http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4576239 SO yeah, Ive read a few articles read a few blog posts, watched some back story on biggest loser. and I am pissed! <BR> <BR> These people who weigh what I do, and then start working out and modify what they eat then drop pounds really fast are torquing me off. <BR> <BR> I have been a dieter since I was 10. If I ate the way those people ate to be my size, I would be 500 pounds, easily. If all it took was eating 1200 to 1500 calories a day Id already be thin. Seriously eatting an entire piz... Wed, 9 Nov 2011 11:35:13 EST And another week with no changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4574491 seriously <BR> same weight <BR> different eating habits <BR> <BR> just saw Michelle-somebodies blog, chick dropped over 100 pounds this year <BR> makes me think I might be able to actually do this <BR> then I get on the scale and.... <BR> <BR> last weeks clue-by-four was to keep progressing and a change will follow, so my challenge now it to not ditch it for a week, but to stick with it Tue, 8 Nov 2011 11:24:17 EST cold= great dieting tool http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4570015 Well Ive been at this all week, well not all week , since the first. I also have a cold, so exercising is nil, but its great I have no taste buds, so I have o desire to eat sweets! <BR> <BR> I really need to curb my sugar intake, maybe this is the kick off I need. Sat, 5 Nov 2011 18:12:42 EST Need to learn to hang in there http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4564856 I dont actually watch biggest loser. Its a set up. Its not like those of us in the real world can workout for 8+ hours a day, and eventually most of the winners gain back their loss. However, my mother does. So its on our TV frequently so, I do see biggest loser from time to time. <BR> Last night mom made some comment how team whatever was losing big this week, after they lost next to nothing last week. <BR> <BR> That was a clue-by-four upside my head. <BR> Just because I worked hard "this" ... Wed, 2 Nov 2011 11:13:09 EST Im finding the weight they are losing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4563129 it seems like every one around me is dropping their weight, yet IM maintaining or or gaining. <BR> I did a great OCD week here on sparkpeople only to have NO CHANGE. <BR> Well Im stubborn and Im not one to give up, even though I do at times, yet I get up and continue to try to catch up. <BR> <BR> So its November, this month is full of challenges just like any other month, so why not re-start again now. <BR> I want to up my exercise and lower my calories. <BR> I want to get off sweets (yeah I... Tue, 1 Nov 2011 12:06:41 EST Im ready for something to work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4538972 after a week of OCD tracking I ve managed to gain 4 pounds. <BR> Im so frakkin tired of the process, but I hate being fat. Im starting to have anxiety dreams about my weight, its really not good. <BR> <BR> I just wish it were easier. Mon, 17 Oct 2011 00:50:09 EST Back again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4526688 I am having a really hard time with this weight issue. <BR> In June I "started again" and my daily mantra became By June of 2012 I will weigh under 225 and be fit and healthy. <BR> June was great I dropped 9 pounds. Thats a huge loss for me in 1 month, then July hit. And I lost basically nothing--you know gain 3 pounds lose 4 pounds, then August and the weight came back <BR> even though I was basically eating the same. <BR> By the end of August I was so fed up with the whole lot I returned to... Sun, 9 Oct 2011 11:41:57 EST March 19 2011 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4102877 Its been a while huh? <BR> <BR> Ive made less than progress in the almost 2 years since Ive logged <BR> I have not given up, even though I have thought about it many many times <BR> <BR> tracking doesnt seem to help <BR> adding daily exercise doesnt seem to help <BR> <BR> I keep trying and I keep finding little things that might help and might work <BR> <BR> I came back because I have some friends who are being very successful and this is one of their tools. <BR> One of the success tools ... Sat, 19 Mar 2011 12:07:07 EST Learning to eat ... again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2278081 Ok 2 years ago I started what I called the last diet. <BR> 2 years and Ive lost a net of 5 pounds. <BR> I cant give up <BR> I really need to focus <BR> need to figure out how Im supposed to eat <BR> today I go see a presentation by a diet coach, see if she thinks everyone is different or if we should all be boxed in the same category. <BR> <BR> gah Sat, 1 Aug 2009 13:06:30 EST Richard Simons http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2275294 Ok, this guy has been around my entire dieting life. I can usually count on his workouts being decent. Ok they are high up on the cheese ball factor, but sometimes thats ok--hes just proving and showing that exercise can be fun. <BR> I can usually rely on his videos being easy to follow, and they get the job done. <BR> I dont have to learn the routine inorder to keep up--usually. <BR> I just did his House Party vid. Last time. <BR> the choreographies were so complicated the background workou... Fri, 31 Jul 2009 10:59:22 EST