MESAMA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MESAMA MESAMA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Brave.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5372676 WATCH THIS & Listen!!! <BR> I absolutely ADORE this song lately.... <BR> Sometimes I wish my words would just fall out. <BR> Sometimes I wish I were brave.... <BR> <BR> BRAVE by Sara Bareilles <BR> <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=QUQsqBqxoR4 </link> <BR> <BR> You can be amazing <BR> You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug <BR> You can be the outcast <BR> Or be the backlash of somebody’s lack of love <BR> Or you can start speaking up <BR> Nothing’s gonna hurt you the way th... Thu, 30 May 2013 14:37:32 EST Wildfires.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5344482 Song of the day... <BR> <BR> Wildfires by Alissa Moreno <BR> <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=4DVYH9B8UHw </link> <BR> <BR> every time you think you won't make it <BR> and each time you're convinced <BR> you can't take it <BR> picture me in this light <BR> think of me, you can fight <BR> cause i've been chewed up and spit <BR> i've been big, i've been hit <BR> i've been burned but i have learned <BR> <BR> that we survive, we get by <BR> we take the hit and we learn to fight <BR> we ... Fri, 3 May 2013 14:20:26 EST Not Quite Drowning... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5284139 I'm a true believer... Don't tempt fate by asking "Why me?" or "What else can go wrong?" or "How much more am I supposed to take?" Because ultimately fate, or whatever it is that you want to call it, can and will bite you in the butt. I believe that and time and time again I've witnessed it. Once you wonder those kind of things, even in thought..... POW, you are hit with another doozey right between the eyes. Things CAN get worse and if you wanna ask, it will be known. <BR> <BR> This... Tue, 12 Mar 2013 15:52:41 EST Find Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5240198 Today, I hauled my voluptuous booty outta bed. <BR> Took my necessary medications. <BR> Got naked. <BR> Weighed in... (Ugggghhhh, up 1.8 lbs, water weight perhaps?) <BR> Got dressed. <BR> Got the kid dressed. <BR> Fed him. <BR> Found my tennie runners. <BR> Took the boy to his bus with the dog. <BR> Took the dog around the block. <BR> Went home and grabbed my iPod. <BR> Left dog at home and went for another "me time" 0.85 mile walk. <BR> Stopped by the store before coming home and picked ... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 12:36:19 EST The Great Escape http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5236038 As some of you may know, I have been trying to return to this journey of weight loss and health... I'm trying to find it in me to start all over again. I admittedly had checked out of trying to save my life and I am still desperately trying to find the strength to check back in... It is still a day by day battle. Hour by hour. Minute by minute. Second by second. <BR> <BR> My husband opens a bag of chips and it literally took me 3 hours of consciously fighting with myself to not get up ... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 18:03:34 EST Being Real for Realz (Digging out & picking myself up or at least trying to) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5233253 First off, I think I need to inform anyone that is reading this... that I think this blog is going to be painfully long. So ahead of time, if you are not a reader of long blogs, I release you with no holds barred. I won’t take offense. If you want to continue and read this... welcome and please know that it means so very much to me for you are taking the time. <BR> <BR> Second, Hello! It’s been a while! <em>213</em> <BR> <BR> Third, while I don’t like to be a downer or focus on nega... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 13:04:45 EST Mesama Is an Auntie! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5089034 I am sure some of you are confused about my status update this morning stating... "MESAMA is now an auntie! Strangely mixed emotions over it but I'm thrilled most of all!" <BR> <BR> I would like to take a moment to explain.... <BR> <BR> Please don't misunderstand... I am thrilled, happy, excited, joyful and in love with my new niece already. She is precious and a gift. <BR> <BR> That being said, I have to say I am suffering from a range of emotions that are even a little startling to ... Sat, 6 Oct 2012 14:05:22 EST Recovery from Dust Bitten http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5066314 So, last week (Thursday) I fell while I was on a walk with my dog. I wrote about it in my blog "Mesama Bites the Dust".... It was messy. It was painful. In a way, it was funny until I realized it was more traumatic to my body than I initially thought. <BR> <BR> The morning after the fall I wrote that blog I mentioned above and I was just feeling sore and silly for actually biting the dust in front of so many on lookers. By that afternoon, my body was screaming and I was in pain. It eve... Wed, 19 Sep 2012 12:09:23 EST Mesama Bites the Dust http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5059047 So, yeah.... Yesterday, Mesama bit the dust.... <BR> <BR> I was trying to be good sparking girl and get in my walk. I left a little earlier than usual to pick up my son and was enjoying myself. I took my dog with me and the time came to head toward my boys bus stop... <BR> <BR> Being the responsible dog owner that I am, I clean up her "business" when she is done... What I think happened was... I picked it up and continued walking and was tying off the bag as I walked so I didn't have to ... Fri, 14 Sep 2012 12:03:00 EST What's Left of Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5057629 As I walked yesterday, I listened to my iPod as usual. Suddenly a song came on that felt so real and true to how I've been feeling.... I ended up listening to it over an over again... <BR> <BR> Nick Lachey... What's Left of Me <BR> <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=899a8WlVpNk </link> <BR> <BR> <em>335</em> LYRICS: <BR> <BR> Watch my life, <BR> Pass me by, <BR> In the rear view mirror <BR> Pictures frozen in time <BR> Are becoming clearer <BR> I don't wanna waste another day <B... Thu, 13 Sep 2012 12:53:32 EST Where oh Where has the Mesama Gone? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5056257 So, yeah, I know... I've been missing in action here on SparkPeople... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/0/l404729069.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I don't have any excuses. I don't want to offend by even trying to offer any. However, I do want tell all of my wonderful Sparkies.... I have not given up! Nor do I plan to ever give up. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/0/l406730414.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I would like to offer a tidbit on what has been going ... Wed, 12 Sep 2012 15:08:11 EST A few of the baby bump pictures.... :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5030645 As some of you know... yesterday I did my first photo shoot EVER! <BR> <BR> My little brother and his girlfriend are expecting their first baby next month and they wanted to have some pictures taken to remember that baby bump, so they asked me to do them. I admit I was really nervous because I am a novice in the grand scheme of photography and was worried I would disappoint them. <BR> <BR> However, I agreed. I recommended a park that I thought would give us a nice layout for a variety... Sat, 25 Aug 2012 15:17:47 EST NEVER Quit Pledge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5011986 Never Quit Pledge <BR> Tuesday, August 12, 2012 <BR> <BR> Today, I promise I will not quit. <BR> <BR> I pledge that no matter, how many ups and downs I pass through, I will continue on my journey. <BR> <BR> I pledge to make a NEW START today, and forgive myself for my past, and to stop being so critical of myself. <BR> <BR> I pledge to take control of myself, to stop making excuses, and stop blaming other people or situations. <BR> <BR> I pledge to treat myself as I would my best friend,... Sun, 12 Aug 2012 11:16:42 EST Hurting in My Heart... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5009177 A few months ago, I met someone on here that i thought had great potential of being a good friend. After a week or so and reading a few blogs, I had a gut feeling (you know that one you get that is usually right? Yeah that one.) that I had to be careful with this person. That feeling deep down that told me that if I wasn't careful, I could get hurt. <BR> <BR> I ignored that gut reaction. My heart just wanted to be a friend to her. To listen and support her in every way that I knew how. ... Fri, 10 Aug 2012 04:57:31 EST Smoothie Moves Tunes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4996562 Hey! Hey! Hey! <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> I recently read and enjoyed my good, buddy ole pal SHRINK_U's blog about fruits and vegetables and mmmm, SMOOTHIES! <BR> <BR> If you want to take a gander at the sheer awesomeness of my favorite Shrinky Dinks blog... here is the link... <BR> <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=4990378 </link> <BR> <BR> I must admit, I like smoothies but most times, I'm too lazy to make them. That means I have to haul... Wed, 1 Aug 2012 14:43:31 EST They ARE Watching!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4990071 THEY. ARE. WATCHING... <BR> <BR> Who? You ask... <BR> <BR> Your children... that's who. <BR> <BR> I realize not everyone here on spark has children. <BR> (PLEASE NOTE: I'm not writing this to gloat or to mock parenthood to those who have never been a parent. Nor am I writing this to educate my fellow parents. I am just writing from my experience, observations and with a desire to share.) <BR> Some choose not to have them. Some yearn for them but are faced with difficulties. Some j... Sat, 28 Jul 2012 03:31:14 EST From Defeated... To Defiant http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4988124 As usual, I'm very long winded in writing this blog... lol... I hope you are willing to read on anyway. It explains my status updates about feeling defeated, working on it and getting that attitude adjustment... So thanks ahead of time for reading if you decide to read on... :) <BR> <BR> ~~~~~~ <BR> On Tuesday, I had my first doctors appointment in a little over a year. Being diabetic along with a slew of other health problems, I know waiting a year wasn't the wisest of decisions. As a r... Thu, 26 Jul 2012 16:30:47 EST My Dream Vacation (BL Sapphire Team Weekly Challenge) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4985565 This week, we are supposed to share our dream vacation with our team mates in the Biggest Loser Summer Challenge... So here is mine... <BR> <BR> Ever since I watched the episode of 'Keeping Up with the Kardashians" where Kim's momma renewed her vows with Bruce Jenner in Bora Bora, I have wanted to go there! I mean REALLY wanted to go there! <BR> It looks absolutely beautiful! Amazingly beautiful! <BR> <BR> The water is so blue and clear. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.... Tue, 24 Jul 2012 23:16:04 EST Determinate! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4976585 Okay, so I'm a mom with kids... We watched this move probably for the 10th time just the other night on the Disney Channel. Yes, I even have a couple of their songs on my iTunes and iPod... I like the words... I like the message... I like! <BR> <BR> What movie am I speaking of? <BR> <BR> Lemonade Mouth.... <BR> It's a movie about high school kids that were feeling suppressed and unimportant in their school because they were not jocks and cheerleaders. The "misfits" stumble across each ot... Wed, 18 Jul 2012 18:16:50 EST KEEP GOING! Days 24 to 27 of 100... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4973365 Wow, it's been a few days since I have updated on how the 100 days of consecutive exercise is going... well, It is going... I'm still at it! I haven't missed a day yet and I have absolutely no intention in giving up! <BR> <BR> Wow listen to me! Who is that person?!? <em>246</em> <BR> Just a few months ago, I never would have thought that I could do this. Really. <BR> I know I've written this kind of blog before. Some of you are probably having deja vu. or is it... <BR> <BR> <img s... Mon, 16 Jul 2012 19:19:04 EST Uppers, Arounders, I'm Gonna Drag You Downers.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4970369 Alright, so all of you know there are three kinds of people in this world, ones that will pick you up, ones that will bring you down. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/5/l959399765.jpg"> <BR> <BR> and those who float around in between. <BR> <BR> Uppers! I totally HEART uppers! Who doesn't?!? <BR> <BR> They are the type of people that dream big. Laugh often. Are positive and hopeful. They see the world differently and appreciate the little things in life. The... Sat, 14 Jul 2012 18:58:25 EST Beating The Birthday Blues... Day 20 of 100 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4962616 So, today I turned 36. That's fine. It's all good. However, this day did not start out happy, I woke up with the birthday blues.... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/4/l342887646.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/8/l384478512.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=XsYJyVEUaC4 </link> <BR> <em>335</em> "It's My Party" by Lesley Gore <BR> <BR> If you have read my blog before this one.... <BR> "Feeling Down... Getting Up.... Mon, 9 Jul 2012 17:06:30 EST Feeling Down... Getting Up... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4959704 This blog started out as a cry... <BR> A cry of anguish. <BR> A cry of sorrow. <BR> A cry of defeat. <BR> A cry of despair. <BR> A cry, just a cry, filled with so many tears and riddled with fears. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/2/l425862370.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Over the last couple of weeks, I have to admit, I have put on a brave face at times. I have been strong and determined. I have worked hard and been proud for a good portion of this time. However, there has ... Sat, 7 Jul 2012 20:36:14 EST Boogie Woogie... Day 17/100 Songs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4958128 Here is the song list that I danced to today... <BR> Day 17 of 100 consecutive days of exercise... <BR> <BR> "This is How it Goes Down" by P!NK <BR> <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zec97NHNNKE </link> <BR> ~~~~~ <BR> <BR> "Whistle" by FloRida <BR> <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=cSnkWzZ7ZAA </link> <BR> ~~~~~ <BR> <BR> "Glamorous" by Fergie <BR> <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=q0SyUgw98tE </link> <BR> ~~~~~ <BR> <BR> "That's The Way My Heart Goes" by Marie Serne... Fri, 6 Jul 2012 14:42:05 EST DANCING! Song List for day 16/100 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4956817 Here is the song list that I danced to today... <BR> Day 16 of 100 consecutive days of exercise... <BR> <BR> "How Do You Do" by Cascada <BR> <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=1sb9in1evFo </link> <BR> ~~~~~ <BR> <BR> "SexyBack" by Justin Timberlake <BR> <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gOHvDP_vCs </link> <BR> ~~~~~ <BR> <BR> "Tonight Tonight" by Hot Chelle Rae <BR> <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzlNFcT2aOE </link> <BR> ~~~~~ <BR> <BR> "Trespassing" by Adam Lamber... Thu, 5 Jul 2012 16:32:35 EST Independance Day Walk (Pics!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4955637 I live in Seattle... you know, the place that is infamous for raining ALL the time. <BR> <BR> Today was the first day this season that I have felt comfortable taking my camera with me on my walk. Today was cloudless and warm and I didn't have to worry about the possibility of rain that could potentially harm my camera. So I jumped on the opportunity and went for a nice long 75 minute walk. <BR> <BR> I tried to upload the photos but sparkpeople wouldn't let me today, apparently not eno... Wed, 4 Jul 2012 21:51:57 EST Freckles... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4954571 First off... I would like to share the song in which this blog is entitled... <BR> <BR> "Freckles" by Natasha Bedingfield <BR> <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=ybrHR_O5D18 </link> <BR> <BR> This is one of my favorite songs, one of many but I like this one because it talks about loving yourself even with your imperfections. <BR> <BR> Now I have freckles. I have a few, I wish I had a few more. My freckles have never been a source of insecurity for me. I like my freckles. I thin... Wed, 4 Jul 2012 04:22:54 EST 15 Years... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4951280 Fifteen years ago, I entered a courtroom and stood before a judge with my best friend. <BR> <BR> Holding his hand, I said my vows with a shaky voice and nervousness. I was scared and worried about a future unfamiliar and unknown but overcome by my desire to marry the man that stood before me. So, I happily committed to be his wife. <BR> <BR> He repeated his vows with a sure steady voice and tenderness. Love and confidence were written upon his face and could be heard in his voice. He ... Mon, 2 Jul 2012 03:09:40 EST 11/100 days... Still Dancin! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4949151 Today is day 11 of 100 consecutive days of exercise... <BR> <BR> I did SP's 15-Minute Desk Workout with Coach Nicole... <BR> <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/resource/fitness<BR>_articles.asp?id=633 </link> <BR> <BR> My foot still doesn't like shoes at all but it was doable... I still suck at lunges... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/2/l82111033.jpg"> <BR> <BR> and the wall pushups with your hands together in that triangle was pretty challenging for me. Ho... Sat, 30 Jun 2012 15:51:48 EST The Name My Momma Gave Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4948922 Ever see a 55 year old woman throw down like a two year old temper tantrum? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/6/l561989292.jpg"> <BR> <BR> That's my mom, when you say my name wrong... It gets her in quite the tizzy. <BR> <BR> My name is Marisa. Most people pronounce it with the 'i" all soft and squishy like the word 'icky'. That's okay, 98% of the people I have encountered in my life has pronounced it like that. I'm used to it. It honestly doesn't bother me ... Sat, 30 Jun 2012 12:19:41 EST Be inspired... 10/100 days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4947825 Between getting up an hour and a half early this morning and having a night of restless sleep. <BR> <BR> Between getting a sore throat yesterday and waking up with it still there, along with junk in my throat to choke me up and a small fever. <BR> <BR> Between my injured foot and now a sore knee on the opposite leg for over compensating yesterday to protect that said injured foot. <BR> <BR> How in the world did I get moving today?!? <BR> <BR> Not easily. I came on here feeling icky a... Fri, 29 Jun 2012 14:19:30 EST Bump it up.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4946399 Alright, I'm going to start by updating everyone on my foot... <BR> (GAH! Why do I type food every, single time I attempt to type the word foot?!? Irritating... I guess food is always on my mind, even when I'm not aware.... sorry, I digress...lol)... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/0/l605394284.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Today the bruise is still there, It is slightly larger and the color is a little more redish-purple but it has stopped growing, same with the lump. I can ... Thu, 28 Jun 2012 14:45:58 EST Down but NOT out! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4945115 As you probably can tell from my last 2 blogs, I hurt my foot pretty bad today and I can't even stand without some tear inspiring pain. So I figured today's working out was a lost cause.... Goodbye 8 days of the 100 continuous days of exercise, Hello day number one again... Streak reset to 1, right? Wrong! <BR> <BR> Once again, I find the power of Sparkpeople, sparkers and writing blogs. I wrote about this injury and was feeling defeated and unsure. Then all of you wonderful Sparkers cam... Wed, 27 Jun 2012 17:56:47 EST Injured Foot (Pic) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4944895 I couldn't get a very good picture of my foot but as you can see it is forming a nice bruise and there is a lump that you can't really see here but geez.... This sucks. I so wanted to dance and walk today. :/ <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/0/l806931456.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Sorry about the icky foot pick but I wanted to show you what my scale decided to do to me today! Who says it isn't out to GET me?!? <BR> <em>246</em> <BR> See my blog " $#&% scale" to get the fu... Wed, 27 Jun 2012 15:04:14 EST $#&% SCALE!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4944618 Not even because of the number on the scale today.... It was actually happily down 3.6 today. However, now I KNOW it is out to destroy me!!!! <BR> I'm kidding.... I think... <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> Today was supposed to be day 8 for the 100 consecutive days of exercise and in all honesty, I don't know if I can do it.... <BR> <BR> I got on my scale to weigh in today for the BL challenge and my scale slid from under me as I was stepping up. So I stomped down hard to catch myself from a fall... Wed, 27 Jun 2012 11:59:59 EST Good vs. Evil http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4943729 Yesterday, I added the following clip to my blog "Can you imagine?" .... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/0/l50269878.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I am unsure if it was clear enough for you to see what is says, so I wanted to type it up here because I found it deeply profound and thought it was important to share. <BR> Here is what it says, just in case... <BR> <BR> <em>103</em> <em>103</em> <em>103</em> <em>103</em> <BR> <BR> An old Cherokee told his grandson: <BR> <B... Tue, 26 Jun 2012 20:36:57 EST Day 7/100... Ouch! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4943467 Today was day 7 of the 100 days of exercise. <BR> <BR> I looked outside this morning and was beyond excited to see clouds and drizzling rain. I had a yummy breakfast of low fat cottage cheese, pineapple and banana. Bananas are probably my least favorite fruit but I know I need that potassium. <BR> <BR> After logging breakfast, I threw on a hoodie, yoga pants and shoes along with the essential undergarments and walked out that door. Turned on my iPod for some good tunes, did a few stretc... Tue, 26 Jun 2012 16:02:28 EST Can you imagine? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4942093 Recently I have written a couple of blogs about FINALLY being ready to change my life. I am. I am ready to become healthier and more active. I have had some amazing supporters throughout finding my ready. All of you here are wonderful and I couldn't be more thankful. <BR> <BR> I am writing this because one of my dear friends (ahem... SHRINK_U :D ) left this comment on one of those.... <BR> Such encouragement, pride and love exuded from her words. She said.. <BR> "I am so glad you are ... Mon, 25 Jun 2012 18:29:45 EST Grateful... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4940171 Today I was posed with the task of thinking of 53 things that I am grateful for... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/7/l477601342.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> 1. I am grateful for my loving husband. <BR> <BR> 2. I am grateful for my beautiful sons. <BR> <BR> 3. I am grateful for today. That I am alive and breathing today. <BR> <BR> 4. I am grateful that I live in such a beautiful state. <BR> <BR> 5. I am grateful for all the yummy fruits and vegetables that mother natu... Sun, 24 Jun 2012 13:17:28 EST ANGELWENDYMAMA & all y'all! Let's Dance!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4939478 Today I danced for an entire 30 minutes thanks to my friend ANGELWENDYMAMA posting some awesome songs to dance to. I danced to each and every one of those songs. Worked up a good sweat and had fun doing it too!!! <BR> <BR> I just noticed that she posed a request to me on my page... and I quote... <BR> "WOOHOOO for dancing to all my songs I posted links to!!! Please make me a list, too? :) " <BR> <BR> <em>335</em> <em>335</em> <em>335</em> <em>335</em> <em>335</em> <BR> <BR> So yup... Sat, 23 Jun 2012 21:52:13 EST Finding Ready... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4939259 Yesterday I wrote a blog called "I am Ready..." and I know in my heart that I am. I know now that all those years of wanting, yearning to be different but never REALLY doing anything about it was because I wasn't ready. You HAVE to be ready! It is a necessary piece to this puzzle of becoming healthy and fit. <BR> <BR> If you can't make yourself get off the couch and actually move, it isn't going to happen. If you won't find the will power to look at a box of donuts and just say "NO!" m... Sat, 23 Jun 2012 18:13:37 EST I am Ready... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4937823 I'm not sure if I have shared this little tidbit with you all yet but I guess I am going to now. It is a well known fact that my friend JUST-DUCKY and I finished SP's 28 day boot camp challenge ( <em>244</em> us!) not too long ago and found ourselves asking... what now? <BR> <BR> After a few days, Ducky Dahlin shared with me that she started another challenge and I have again, joined her... <BR> 100 day challenge! <BR> If you are curious, here is the link to that... <BR> <BR> <link>ww... Fri, 22 Jun 2012 14:26:56 EST Scale Scam & Defeat... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4934860 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/2/l824252028.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I personally call the scale a scam. I swear it is up to no good. It plotting and applying a dishonest scheme that is going to swindle us of our inner joy and self worth. To defeat us. To make us feel inadequate and low. <BR> <BR> Yeah, okay, I'm not delusional, I know the scale isn't REALLY out to get us but it still can have the power to do so if you let it. Does your heart not sink when the number stays t... Wed, 20 Jun 2012 14:05:06 EST SNOB DOG http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4931997 Today I had a lovely lunch of a salmon burger (without the bun) and a bowl of cucumbers and tomatoes. As always my dog is giving me that "You know you love me and really want to share" look. <BR> <BR> No, this isn't her but you know it... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/2/l721037238.jpg"> <BR> <BR> She is tugging at my heart strings here so I finally give her a tiny piece of salmon. She snarfed that down like it was nothing. As I slowly eat she still sits at... Mon, 18 Jun 2012 17:58:03 EST Life after the challenge... Becoming Strong. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4931860 Ok, I know a large portion of you are probably tired of hearing about it but for those of you who don't know, a friend and I completed SP's 28 day bootcamp workout challenge just yesterday. It was an awesome experience that I may come back to do again someday. <BR> <BR> BUT.... what do I do now? I realize I looked forward to those videos. I wasn't left on my own to come up with something... anything. They provided videos for me each and every day, all I had to do was follow the links... ... Mon, 18 Jun 2012 16:00:08 EST We did it! 28 day bootcamp challenge COMPLETE! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4930183 As many of you already know, a friend and I have been doing SP's 28 day bootcamp challenge together... If you're curious, check it out... <BR> <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i<BR>ndividual.asp?gid=42559 </link> <BR> <BR> For us, today was the 28th day, the FINAL day! <BR> Here's the video... <BR> <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/resource/fitness<BR>_articles.asp?id=1089 </link> <BR> <BR> This is by far my least favorite of all the videos. It isn't easy. It's a stren... Sun, 17 Jun 2012 14:05:24 EST MmmHmm, thats right! Just one more day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4929075 As some of you probably know.... <BR> <BR> Gawwww! Cough! Pleh!... Please excuse me... I had to break for a moment there because unbenounced to me, I had a sesame seed stuck in my teeth leftover from my morning energy bar. It just dislodged itself from my molar and made a valiant effort to choke me to death as I deeply inhaled. Luckily for me, I will not be defeated by a measly sesame seed! <BR> <BR> I will not be conquered by the likes of you!!! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.s... Sat, 16 Jun 2012 14:24:47 EST Sapphire Challenge Week #1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4928187 I recently noticed that a friend had joined the Biggest Loser- Turn Up The Heat 2012 Summer Challenge. I decided to look into it and it sounded doable, except I was too late. Sign up for summer was already finished and I could put my name on the waiting list for the Fall challenge so I did. <BR> <BR> A couple days later, I received a message asking if I was interested in being an honorary member. Meaning if someone had to drop I was in line to take their place. I would do the challenge... Fri, 15 Jun 2012 18:59:46 EST Say What... My iPod is a Pedometer?!? Challenge day #26 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4927824 First of all, for those of you that read my blog yesterday... Thank you for all your love and support. It really does mean the world to me. I am feeling much better today. No strange dreams last night that brought out my fears and insecurities. Phew! <BR> <BR> Second, I discovered that my little iPod Nano is a pedometer! Who knew?!? I thought I had to buy one of those little Nike plug in things for it to work. My hubby has one but I don't and I just figured out that my iPod does it al... Fri, 15 Jun 2012 13:39:07 EST Super Sensitive Challenge Day #25 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4926470 I have been resisting an urge to cry at the drop of a hat all day today. Last night, I wrote a blog called "Selling vs. Sharing" talking about being tired of having to coax people to like me. That I am not going to do it anymore. But I find that old habits die hard. <BR> <BR> I have never had great gobs of friends and even less true friends. More often than not, they have been one sided friendships where I am always doing my best to be there for my them in times of need but they are r... Thu, 14 Jun 2012 14:30:20 EST