MERCHRIS's SparkPeople Blog MERCHRIS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Shifted thinking = More motivation for me Ok, so I've always thought that I wanted to lose weight so I'd look better, finally feel pretty and get clothes I actually liked, with improved health benefits falling after all of that on the list. Well, after a few months of bad back pain from a fall, and years of chronic back pain, I realize that being pain free is my new goal for motivation. I remember sleeping better when I was thinner, my back didn't hurt so bad, my feet thanked me. It was so much better. I imagine how much happier my ... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 14:56:46 EST Hopefully restarting for the last time. I've restarted my resolve to lose weight so many times I have lost track. I'm tired of it. I'm also tired of being tired, and I'm pretty sure if I dropped some pounds, I wouldn't be so tired any more. I'd also feel better about myself, be able to wear clothes I wanted instead of just because it's what fit and what I have. I think I'd be a happier person for myself and my family. I think I'd be more spontaneous, because I don't think I honestly own up to how much my weight holds me back. We ge... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 07:52:02 EST Motivation....where did you go?? I'm trying so hard to find you. I had you, and then you were gone. Did you leave when the scale didn't go down? Did you leave when the going got tough? I can't really pinpoint when you left me, but I need you now more than ever. Your absence makes everything harder for me physically and emotionally. I feel like a failure when you're gone. I promise to treat you better this time and not take you for granted. Together we are so good for each other. You stregthen me and make me feel good about m... Sat, 8 Dec 2012 18:03:17 EST Two Days... So I feel like I'm finally in control again for the first time in a long time. Granted I've only been back in control for 2 days so far, it's 2 more days than I've had in a long time. I've really commited myself (and my hubby has joined me) in eating better for ourselves and our son. I see health problems that our family has and has had, and we don't want that for ourselves. I also want to feel better about the person that I am. I feel like I've wasted too much time being overweight and unhap... Wed, 19 Oct 2011 13:57:57 EST Time of year...... Well, I've been doing a lot better on my eating lately, but find myself wanting to slip into the comfort of a bowl of ice cream or a hot cookie. This is the time of year for me when I lost my dad 2 yrs ago, and I just find that I want some comfort with my food. I haven't really caved so far, and I am trying to keep it that way. I know my dad wouldn't want me to!! It's just amazing how even thru the progress of emotional eating, when the times get a little tougher how quickly we try to revert ... Thu, 5 Apr 2007 16:18:51 EST Still trying to press on....trying for a new start. Ok, so I'm still trying to straighten out from the holidays. That's pretty sad since that was 3 months ago. I need to really buckle down and focus on what I want in the long term and not let emotional eating and the presence of foods I shouldn't be eating deter me from my goal. So...I've started the week out on a bad note, but I'm trying to right it as I go along. Tue, 20 Mar 2007 16:40:41 EST Trying to push on... Well, I was doing really well after the start of the new year, but I think i tried to do too much at one time, so I'm feeling really tired now. The new plan is to do a little bit of cardio everyday. I feel stuck at my current weight and feel like I might never get to the end goal, but I'm trying to break it up into small pieces so as not to get discouraged. Still trying to figure out why it's so hard to loose, yet seem so easy to gain!! That's the million dollar question! Tue, 23 Jan 2007 14:05:44 EST After the holidays.. Well, it seems like every since Thanksgiving, I haven't moved on the scale. That's both good and bad, but not very inspiring. It's funny how food can seem like a drug sometimes, and it's hard to get yourself away from it. I find that I am that way with sugary and carb loaded foods. So, now that Christmas has passed, I'm trying to get all of those goodies out of my system and get back into the swing of things with good eating and lots of exercise. I still don't like exercising, but I'm working... Thu, 28 Dec 2006 16:44:03 EST