MELRAE2's SparkPeople Blog MELRAE2's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Been awhile What can I say? I did not keep the 75 pounds off. In fact I gained all but 14 pounds back. I am not proud of that. I can tell you I had health problems (anxiety, headaches), I was stressed, and I was sleeping in my living room for 9 months. But those are only part of the reason. I stopped eating right and going to the gym. I am not making excuses. I am proud that I have given up and am back to losing. Slowly.. Almost 7 as of right now. I will get back to where I was. I will be successful Wed, 30 Jul 2014 15:07:09 EST I Vow.... My Vow starting 02/25/13 <BR> <BR> <BR> I will gain control over my eating <BR> <BR> I will not eat out of the bowl/box/bag <BR> <BR> I will track my calories honestly <BR> <BR> I will use food as fuel not a mindless binge <BR> <BR> I will eat more fruits and vegetables <BR> <BR> I will decrease my sodium intake <BR> <BR> I will eat more protein, less carbs to have a more balanced diet. <BR> <BR> I will eat more of my allotted calories early in the day <BR> <BR> No eating after 7:00... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 10:26:27 EST Good Start to the Year Well- This month I stuck to my goals.. I wanted to get under 150 before today.. I did not quite make it. I did lose 6.8 pounds which is pretty good I think! I am happy with it. I have not worked out as intensly the last 2 weeks bc I had sick kids last week and this week I hurt my foot and have slight vertigo so I could not go to Zumba or inZanity on Wed. I also have not been able to run. It's my sons party this week end and I am going to make healthy food choices. <BR> <BR> This month my go... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 12:49:27 EST Wasted So- I have wasted teh last 3 months. I keepsaying this month will be better than the last and it starts out great.. And than holidays hapen and it all goes to bad! This is a new month and a new year. I will finish the weight loss portion of my journey and move on to the maintaining part. I am stronger than my addiction to food! I will do this! This will be a great month! I am not falling down again. I am back up and staying up! Thu, 3 Jan 2013 09:49:27 EST Lower number, bigger motivation So far I am kicking it this week (and did last week to for the most part). I am feeling so much better about myself now that I am back on track. I feel healthier and like I look better. I started a Facebook page entitile Meljourney to share my journey with others. If you want to follow me on there please go and like my page. SO far since last monday I am down 3 pounds! Slow and steady wins the race. Thu, 6 Dec 2012 08:02:23 EST I lied! Well- Novemeber turned out to be my worst month I think! I have now gained 11 pounds in 2 months. Part of it was too much good food and drinks over the weekend with my relatives. I am not making excuses. I just know where I go wrong. I like good! I like to eat even when I am not hungry. I eat when I am bored. I eat when I am stressed out. I know all these things about myself. Now to make what I know work for me. I had lost 75 pounds so the 11 I gained and more past that may be hard but I know... Wed, 28 Nov 2012 08:18:51 EST Better Yesterday was better. Was great all day until dinner.. Than I had come Taco Johns potato ole's and a big plate of chilcken alfredo (homemade). I did not give in to also eating popcorn bc I was not hungry. I have stayed the same weight for 3days. That is much better than gaining. I also have not worked out in 6 days (EEEKKK) ON the up side my car is finally fixed. ALmost 700.00 later! <BR> Have a great day! Fri, 16 Nov 2012 09:19:03 EST I am in control Yesterday was a pretty bad day!! My work is stressful, my car is having issues which is costing me 700+ dollars as of last night. And we still need to figure out my ABS light is on so could mean new parts. I control what I eat. What I eat does not and will not control me. I am a strong woman. <BR> This is my new theme song: <BR> <BR> Girl On Fire <BR> by Alicia Keys <BR> <BR> She's just a girl, and she's on fire <BR> Hotter than a fantasy, lonely like a highway <BR> She's living i... Thu, 15 Nov 2012 09:45:36 EST Not as bad Yesterday was not as bad as Monday but I still did not do as well I wanted.. I was good all day until I got to my moms and I was still hungry after eating submway for dinner.. So I have alfredo. And my pumkpin chocolate cookies.. They are made with a cake mix, pumpkin and chocolate chips so they are not as bad as real cokkies. I still felt blah. It was also a terrbiel stressful day at work. <BR> <BR> Todays quote: "Your dream doesn;t have an expiration date Take a deep breath and try again" ... Wed, 14 Nov 2012 09:58:50 EST BAD BAD day! Yesterday was a bad day! I binged.. I even told myself as I was doing it "I am eating because I am stressed out'. I know why I was doing it and why I should have just walked away. I will be back on track today. Today is a new day and I will get it right! Tue, 13 Nov 2012 09:24:27 EST day 4 Today was a pretty good day! I did have a bogger dinner and I nibbles a bit more that the past 3 days but I still was not out of control. I think my will power is getting better. I still find myself wanting to eat when I am bored (and do not let myself). <BR> <BR> Breakfast: <BR> cereal (milk of bananna nut granols and vanill aalmond Special K) with 1/2 1% milk <BR> <BR> AM snack: <BR> 1/2 motts apple sauce <BR> <BR> lunch: <BR> chicken, rice and bean burrito (homemade filling) with a pear... Fri, 9 Nov 2012 08:59:28 EST day 3 Today was another good day.. I work in a clinc and there are 3 cafiterias within walking distance. Today the one down staris had chicken nachos.. Which are soo yummy lol But I resisited! Partieally bc I know they are bad, but mostly bc I knew I was going out with my girlfriends for dinner. Today I was again bored at work and I thought 'what can I eat'. Luckily I don't have alot of extra snacks in my office. <BR> <BR> Breakfast: <BR> turkey saisage patty and kraft single on piece of whole whe... Wed, 7 Nov 2012 22:14:32 EST Day 2 Today was another good day!! I (so far) have not nibbled.. And I got my first tattoo!! No cardio for me other than my short walks I talk my with co-worker during our 15 minute breaks. I have mint kisses in my desk that I have not touched, even though I want to! I am trying not to eat junk food until thanksgiving. I was down 1- 1.8 depended on my scale from yesterday. Water weight I am sure but I will take it. <BR> <BR> Breakfast- <BR> Smoothie with 1/2 cup 1% milk, banana, and chocolate PB... Tue, 6 Nov 2012 20:29:05 EST Food blog I have decided to blog every on how my day was for eating, exercise, etc. I think it will help me to take responsibility for my eating (and binging) and to see where my problem areas are. I know that I am a bored eater. I found a picture that says "I have to keep myself distracted until I can eat again". This is very true for me. I eat at the times everyday. So I do count the minutes until my next meal. I think this is an unhealthy obsession with food. And I would like to try to not to focus ... Tue, 6 Nov 2012 07:30:47 EST Well- that was a a waste of a month October was a total waste of the month. I gained.. For the first time in 16 months I gained weight.. That makes me feel ok actually.. I know I ate terrible and did not count my calories as I should have. It also gives me the motivation to have a kicking November!! My goal is to lose 5 pounds this month.. Even with Thanksgiving in three weeks. I know I can do it bc I have done it before. I can be unstoppable!! <BR> Starting weight 148.8 <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> Mon, 29 Oct 2012 09:18:15 EST HELP!! Keep plateauing Hello- <BR> I have lost 73-75 pounds and I have about 15-25 more that I want to lose... I have lost at a steady rate until the last 2-3 months. Then I lost 2 pounds over night and than gain it back. I keep yo yoing with the same 2-3 pounds until than it will stay of and I start the process again. I have kept my calories around 1200 this whole time and I work out 4-5 times a week. I have been told to increase my calories and I am scared.. Any advice for overcoming plateaus.. Did increasing you... Wed, 26 Sep 2012 09:22:42 EST July End results/August goals So July was not my best month weight loss wise but over all it was good! I stayed within my calorie range most days. I worked out 4-5 times every week. I ran my first 5K and finished in 38/:08 while pushing a stroller with my 4 1/2 year old in it. <BR> <BR> July ending weight 154.8 <BR> August goal weight 147 <BR> <BR> My August goals are to make it my best weight loss month, work out 4-5 times a week, improve my 5K time, drink 8 glasses or more of water, and to keep making positive choice... Mon, 30 Jul 2012 09:21:39 EST July Goals My goal is to make July my best weight loss month!! Last month I had over 1000 fitness minutes and my goal is to do that again. I started walking during my short breaks so I am getting extra minutes in (and burning a few extra calories). Good luck to us all! <BR> <BR> Starting weight 157.8 <BR> Goal Weight 150.x Fri, 6 Jul 2012 09:22:57 EST April results and May goals April became my best month ever!! I hit my goal of weighing 168.. I made it though the 21 day challange with only 1 (unintential) slip. <BR> For May I want to keep working out 4 times a week. Do more weight training and toning up. My ending goal weight is 160. Wed, 2 May 2012 11:39:08 EST April Goals I thought March was a terribel month until I realized it was my biggest weight loss month since I started this again! Last week was a bad week for eating. I did excercise 5 out of the 7 days so that I am proud of.. <BR> Onto my April goals- I am doing a 21 day no jumk food challange. This for the most part till not be so tough. It does include not eating white bread, and candy. I like my Werther's orignals once a day so that may be tough.. But I can do it! I have 7 weeks to lose 16 pounds (be... Mon, 9 Apr 2012 13:45:42 EST Having one of those days.. This week I am having one of those weeks. I feel frustrated when I look at myself in the mirror (without clothes on). I think I have been at this for almost 9 months and I still look like this?!? What is wrong with me?.. In really I know I have lost 40 pounds which is good. I work out 3-4 times a week which is good. I started taking Zumba classes which I have wanted to do forever!.. And yet... Still I am in the rut. I get on the scale and see the same number ever night. I feel I have been los... Sat, 17 Mar 2012 22:29:44 EST Nov 7-13 check in Starting weight 200.6 <BR> This was a great week!! I stayed on track and met my goals. I got an IPhone and I have been using the app to log my meals.. Or trying to use it for all meals, I think that has helped. <BR> Ending weight 198.8 Mon, 14 Nov 2011 11:53:11 EST Nov week 1 check in Starting weight 201.4 <BR> This was a BAD week for me in the begging than I turned it around. And have been better since than. <BR> Ending 200.6 Tue, 8 Nov 2011 11:17:03 EST Oct week 4 check in Starting 202 <BR> This was a tough week for me. We had Zoe's 1st birthday party on Sunday. I did go to the gym 3 times but my eating was horrible. I did lose .6 <BR> Ending 201.4 Wed, 2 Nov 2011 15:00:45 EST Oct week 3 check in Starting: 204 <BR> This was an AWESOME WEEK!! I met all my goals! My DF is out of town so my mom watched my children so I could get to the gym 4 times. <BR> Ending 202.2 Tue, 25 Oct 2011 10:33:05 EST Oct Week 2 Check in Starting weight: 207.6 <BR> I had a great week! Stayed on track for the most part and met all of my goals!! <BR> Ending weight 204 Tue, 18 Oct 2011 13:22:17 EST First week Oct check in Starting weight 206.6 <BR> UUGH! It was a little bit of a horrible week. I was only good 2 1/2 days with my eating. The other goals I did well on. I started walking up a hill by my work that is nicknames Cardiac Hill b/c it is sooo steep. I walk that once a day. I took the stairs once a day at work, I walked during all of my short breaks (20 minutes total), and I went to the gym 3 times last week. I gained a pound this week. <BR> Ending weight 207.6 <BR> -My goals for this week are to eat be... Tue, 11 Oct 2011 10:36:51 EST Oct Goals - Lose 8.6 pounds to get to my pre-pregnancy weight. <BR> - Walk during all my short breaks <BR> - Keep my coloric intake to 1200-1500 <BR> - Take the stairs more <BR> - Go to the gym 4 times a week. <BR> - Keep eating 5 meals a day with 100-200 calories for breakfast and snacks, and 300-400 for meals. <BR> - Stay positive <BR> - Do more weight training at the gym Mon, 3 Oct 2011 10:28:05 EST Week 4 check in Starting weight 208.2 <BR> <BR> Overall a so so week. Walked everyday during my short breaks, So that was 20 or minutes 4 times last week. Was horrible about the gym again. My going is all dependant on my husband being home at night. I am not one for getting up at 5:00 to go to the gym. My schedule will be changing so I MAYBE able to get up at 6:00 to go to the gym. I am happy with my weight loss. <BR> <BR> Ending 206.6 -1.4 Mon, 3 Oct 2011 10:25:09 EST Sept week 3 check in Starting 209.6 <BR> This was a so so week. I only went to the gym 1 day. My husand worked late most night last week and when he gets at 8:30 I am ready for bed!! My eating was ok. I did lose weight but am hoping to do better this week. <BR> Ending weight 208.2 Tue, 27 Sep 2011 09:28:05 EST Week 2 Sept check in Sept 12-18 <BR> Starting weight 210.8 <BR> I was HORRBILE at eating this week.. Though I did go to the gym 4 times, walked the skylwalks during my breake 3 days. I have not been doing the 30 days shed or taking the stairs as my knee has been bothering me when I bend it. The Dr said it is just tendonitis. I am trying to avoid doing anything that will aggravate it. <BR> Overall I am ok with the week I had. I am down 1.2 pouinds from last week so that is a plus!' <BR> Ending weight 209.6 Mon, 19 Sep 2011 08:44:06 EST Sept week 1 09/04 210.0 <BR> I made all my goals except the 30DS. I did not do it on Sunday. I have deceided that I needed a day off. Also, my right knee is bothering me. I did well on my eating everyday except last night. I walked during all my breaks. I went to the gym on Friday night, I walked to the dr on Wed since it is only a mile from my house. I gained.8 this week. Not sure why. Maybe water weight? I am goig to try to go to the gym 4 days this week and do the 30DS Wed and Sat. I will keep walking... Mon, 12 Sep 2011 20:15:41 EST Here are some much needed Sept Goals: Starting weight 210 <BR> -I was challenged to do the 30 day shed every day this month. While I cannot commit to it everyday I did commit to do it on my days off while my children are sleeping. <BR> - Lose 1-2 pounds a week <BR> - Track my fitness and food <BR> - Eat 3 meals and 2 healthy snacks every day <BR> - Not eat in our cafe' at work (this one may be the hardest for me) <BR> - Walk 3-4 days a week <BR> - Walk the skywalk during my short breaks <BR> - Take the stairs more <BR> - Park fa... Mon, 5 Sep 2011 11:06:44 EST My life in the past year.. My life has had many changes in the last year. I started trying to have another baby in December. We hoped for a girl. I found out in March that I was pregnant and was overjoyed!! At the end of April I lost my job. I had been making to many spelling mistakes so I was let go. Not the best time when you are almost 3 months pregnant. I was not happy at the job so while I was disappointed with myself for not taking the time to check over my word, I was kinda relived to not be there. I never expec... Wed, 8 Dec 2010 10:12:06 EST 20 Weeks Had our ultrasound yesterday and they said we are having a girl!! The chinese gender chart was wrong again for me. The string/dime test was right. Everyhting looked good excpet they could not get a good view of the heart as she is sitting under my belly button so I have to have another ultrasound next month. That's ok with me.. We'll make she it is still a girl and get more pictures! <img src=""> Fri, 25 Jun 2010 09:57:57 EST 15 weeks I had the glucola test on the 13th and I failed miserably!! I now have to go do the 3 hour test. I guess though I was superprised at first when I thought about it, I realized I should not have been. I recently lost my job and have been eating WAY to much food! I snack all the time and give in to whatever I am craving.. UUGGHH! I am going to start following the gestational diabetes diet either way (i have kinda started it this week already). On the flip side, 5 weeks will we find out what we a... Thu, 20 May 2010 09:11:51 EST 12 weeks I had my 12 week OB today and we got to hear the heartbeat!! I love that sound. Babies heart rate is in the 150's. I have to have a glucose test b/c I had gestational diabetes with my son. That will be in 05/13 Tue, 27 Apr 2010 14:15:42 EST 12 weeks I had my 12 week OB today and we got to hear the heartbeat!! I love that sound. Babies heart rate is in the 150's. I have to have a glucose test b/c I had gestational diabetes with my son. That will be in 05/13 Tue, 27 Apr 2010 14:15:42 EST Am I a terrible person? Here is my story.. The girl that introduced my husband and I is now also pregnant. Though I am super happy for her, I cannot help being alittle bitter. Here is why.. She was supposed to be in our wedding. 3 1/2 months before our wedding she deceided she was going to move to FL. Then she calls me 6 weeks or so later and tells me she is not sure if she can get the time off from her new job to we in our wedding. Then a week later she calls to tell me not only can she not get the time off she is... Mon, 19 Apr 2010 10:01:48 EST 10 weeks Hello- <BR> I am now 10 weeks pregnant. I am excited that I am 1/4 of the way done, but time seems to be going soo slow! I have had a pretty uneventful pregnancy so far. Not much morning sickness. Had a stomach bug and now a nasty cold but otherwise have been feeling pretty good. just really really tired. I am very anxious to find out what we were are having. We have a wonderson son already so a girl would be nice. But I would love another boy too. X-specailly if he is a momma's boy like Zan... Thu, 15 Apr 2010 09:38:23 EST The count down begins I have been in a funk and have stayed the same weight for the past 2 months. UGHH!!!! I feel like I look like a cow again! But I have a goal that I need to make. <BR> We are going to start trying next month for a baby. I have 5 weeks and 4 days (39 days and counting) till I would find out if I am pregnant. In that time my goal is to lose at least 10-15 pounds. I want to be as close to my ideal weight when I find out. I will eat better, follow the spark diet again (along with some others), and... Mon, 30 Nov 2009 09:37:56 EST It's a new month.. again. So i think the last 2 months of this journey have been a waste. I have not been sticking with what I have said i will do. I have not put in as much effort as I needed to. I am not sure why.. I have less days that I can work out now that it is cold.. I cannot walk anymore outside (and boy do I miss my walks.. I miss being able to go outside). My eating has not been as good either. I should be atlas 10-20 pounds less then I am and I am mad at myself!! I know I can do better. I just need to re-... Mon, 2 Nov 2009 09:28:22 EST It is a new month it is a new month and I am more determined than evr to make my goals. I will track all my food eeryday. I will workout 6 times a week. I will loose ATLEAST 10 pounds this month. I will be riding the horse confidently and surely with both on hands and both butt cheeks on the saddle. <em>104</em> Mon, 5 Oct 2009 11:52:13 EST That's it!!!! No more messing around! That's it!! I have had it with not losing weight. I need to get back on track. This weekend I ate like a pig as I had 2 birthday meals for my husband and a friend. But now i need to get back on track. No more messing around. I know I will not make my 10 pound weight loss goal for Sept and I am disappointed. It is the first time i have not made a girl since i started. So i know that is saying that I was really good for the first 3 months.. But I need to get to be really good again. I think I h... Mon, 28 Sep 2009 09:45:19 EST Need some advice My excercise regiment for the past couple of months has been to walk during lunch at work (about 1/2 hour) and then on days my husband works late my son and I go for at least 2 1/2 mile walk. On nights my husband gets down early then I go to the gym. Well, now that it is getting darker earlier I am needing to rethink my routine. I want to burn the same amount of calories a week (about 2000). And still work out 6 days a week. but I am not going to have time to get im the 2 1/2 mile walk pretty... Mon, 21 Sep 2009 09:38:53 EST Story Last night I was on my exercise ball and my son decides he has to sit on my lap while I am doing them. Which he has done before. But last night he thinks that mommies tummy is the perfect place to sit and read his book.. While she is doing her sit ups. I used my stomach muscles more because I was laughing so hard at the look on his face. I will post pictures later. <BR> <BR> On the other note. I just to say that I feel more beautiful now that I am down almost 28 pounds. Clothes look better ... Fri, 28 Aug 2009 09:41:03 EST Correction In my last blog I said I was 1/2 way to my goal.. I am actually only 1/4 of the way there.. Sorry for the error! I jsut feel so good now that I feel thinner than I really am. Thu, 20 Aug 2009 09:34:35 EST WooHoo! I am happy to day I am now 1/4 of the way to my goal. And I am down 25 pounds. I think that is the most that I have ever lost at one and and this is the longest that I have stuck with trying to lose weight. Usually I start sliding around 2 months. I know that reason I have done so well is because of sparkpeople and all of you the support I get from everyone on here. I think you all for helping me stay on track to achieve my goals! <em>248</em> Wed, 19 Aug 2009 09:50:35 EST Consistency is key I think my problem with getting kinds stuck is that I have not stuck to my diet plan. When I would eat every 2.5-3 hours I lost more weight. Also I lost more when I had a slim fast shake for breakfast every day. Now I am either skipping breakfast or eating something else. I think if I get back to the set eating schedule and having slim fast for breakfast I will golden. And as I am starting a new job on Monday that is close to the Lakewalk so I can walk during my lunch and is not in a grocery ... Thu, 13 Aug 2009 15:02:01 EST This is a new week Only lost 1 pound last week. I still think I did ok last week. I think I ate pretty well (except the one night). I worked out at the gym 3 times last week and walked 3 times. <BR> But it is now a new week and I am hoping this week will be better!!! I still feel pretty good about myself and my progress. <em>104</em> Mon, 3 Aug 2009 10:15:42 EST