MELOFALLTRADES's SparkPeople Blog MELOFALLTRADES's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community And then I fired my personal trainer! Yes, unfortunately it happened! He got such great reviews from friends and strangers alike, but it just did not work out. I needed someone who would encourage me even through my falls (and I knew there would be many even in the beginning) and he did the exact opposite. I constantly felt as though I was being put down at every step and the support just wasn't there. <BR> <BR> So I'm back at it. I'm thinking I need to get back in touch with a community of people who are helping each othe... Mon, 18 Jan 2016 01:44:07 EST Today I hired a personal trainer. That's right! I did it. I found a personal trainer that I can afford and who has had very successful clients. <BR> <BR> I am so scared! He seems like a very sweet person, but I've never had a personal trainer--only soccer and softball coaches, but I was actually an athlete back then. I had to take physique pictures of myself and almost broke down crying. This was an incredibly vulnerable moment for me. I literally avoid looking at my whole body in the mirror as often as possible. I lo... Mon, 19 Oct 2015 03:58:34 EST If I had a degree in nutrition...I'd still be lost. Even though I started typing out this entry thinking I would begin with something about diets...I may venture a little. Stay with me though---I promise I'll get to the point! <BR> <BR> I've been in denial for years about having Generalized Anxiety Disorder. Today was the first day I admitted to someone that I need help and broke down crying because I realized that it is literally ruining my life. In some ways, killing me. I know I sound dramatic, but labs don't lie! <BR> <BR> I can't re... Sun, 4 Oct 2015 03:41:33 EST How hard do you work at it? As a lot of you know, my mind travels in multiple directions when I'm typing out my blogs...but I'm going to try to make everything coherent in this one! <BR> <BR> How hard do you work at it? I am struggling BIG time with this question this week. I've been training for a 5k for about a month now and I've improved my time so much. Although I haven't been doing a lot of strength training like I probably should, I've been doing so much cardio with the training (3.1 miles at least every other... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 22:20:45 EST This, I know, is Changing my Life Since I became vegetarian (don't worry, this isn't a soapbox blog haha), I've really started to do research and comb through healthy living documentaries, and become more aware of how food can actually heal our bodies. <BR> <BR> For those of you (including myself) who have pretty much been on a "diet" since your teens, you have probably also heard of how people become obese; something is wrong in your life, whether its concscious and/or subconscious. It also doesn't help that all of the p... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 13:43:31 EST Just tell me what to do! Hey readers :-) <BR> <BR> I am so exhausted after the week I've had. I've been studying and taking exams all week, going to choral practice and trying to find a job. I've barely had time to work out (really haven't done much at all), let alone eat well or track nutrition. I gained a pound back since last week and I guess it doesn't surprise me :-/ When I think about it, it's really my own fault, because...yet again...I didn't prepare any meals this week which I think might be crucial for ... Fri, 22 Mar 2013 22:33:36 EST Bad Habits Die Hard. It's so nice to be back! I know it hasn't been incredibly long since my last blog, but it feels like it to me! I haven't even logged in for a few days and I feel so behind already. <BR> <BR> Well...I received a classical guitar as a present last week and I am in love. Started lessons and I can barely put it down! It's so beautiful and I'm SO excited to learn everything I can. I love music and instruments in general, but there's something about beautiful finger picking on a classical guita... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 14:32:04 EST How to make fitness fun again As some of you know, I started (and by starting, I mean somewhat attempting) P90X this week and it's really kicking my butt. And I'm even modifying most of the workouts so I don't collapse on the floor and die! haha <BR> <BR> I decided I would take it easy today since I'm in pain and I'm already filled with guilt about not working out or doing cardio. I just started thinking to myself tonight, "Since when has working out become such a chore and burden to me? Have I always felt like this... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 18:19:51 EST Only one pound of fat lost...maybe 5 pounds of muscle gained? Well I've been really determined and motivated this week. Every other day I went for my 5k walk/jog and I ate pretty well (I thought), but I'm not seeing as much of an accomplishment as I wanted to. So, I reevaluated my week, went through my fitness and nutrition trackers, my goals and what I've been through. <BR> <BR> I hate making excuses, so I'm going to call these "reasons" why I didn't achieve some goals this week: <BR> <BR> 1.) I was under my caloric intake goal almost every day but... Tue, 12 Mar 2013 09:22:04 EST Reflections...physical and mental. I want to talk about motivation. Why is it so much easier to support other people than to support ourselves? <BR> <BR> Let me start by going back to my competition blog (about comparing myself with someone else). I used to think that motivation of any kind is healthy; it gets you moving, gives you a target to set your mind on, gives you that drive that you need. So why is it so different when you use someone else as motivation...I think I know...because there's a line between inspiration... Thu, 7 Mar 2013 14:25:01 EST The Color Run (and 5k's in general) So I've wanted to sign up for a 5k since I became more motivated. Since I just started getting back into exercising, I thought it would be a good idea to register for one of these races in the middle of summer or late summer to give me time to get ready. BUT...there are some runs close to me that my friends want me to join in May. Can I do it? <BR> <BR> I told myself when I started this journey that I can't say no anymore because I'm scared. That I have to be a "Yes Man" (woman) like Jim C... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 12:34:11 EST Comparing myself is not good...or is it? Wow, my first blog entry! <BR> <BR> I want to start by saying that I am so excited to start losing what's weighing me down...and it's not just the physical weight. I was scared to join and ask for motivation, but just by reading so many motivational posts by others, it really gives me a sense of hope! I created my first post of a group forum asking for friends and soon after had a response! I love how complete strangers can reach out and help others. It's something almost unknown to me. <BR... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 23:47:41 EST