MELLISOND's SparkPeople Blog MELLISOND's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Frontslide? If we call it a backslide when we gain, do we call it a frontslide when we start heading the right direction again? Or just a slide? Anyway...Wheee! <BR> <BR> I have had a struggle for the last 2 months gaining and losing up and down a couple of pounds; down a pound, up as many as 6 pounds...which scared me. I CANNOT allow myself to go backwards. The good news is I am heading down the slide again and am within 2 pounds of the low weight which I reached back in May. <BR> <BR> One of my... Sun, 5 Aug 2012 12:02:11 EST Backslide I just got off the scale and discovered that I have gained enough weight to backslide all the way to where I was on May 22. I had been on a journey of steady forward progress with days where I gained a pound or so, but then lost 2. I felt okay as long as I was heading in the right direction. Now I am going the wrong direction and I am not happy. <BR> <BR> TIme to get off the recliner and work out. Thu, 2 Aug 2012 08:44:30 EST one day can make such a difference On Saturday morning, I drafted a blog post celebrating my success in getting back to 172 pounds which was my lowest weight thus far. It didn't post properly so I thought I would try again when I got home that night. Then I spent time with friends and did a lot of driving. <BR> <BR> On Saturday evening while driving in an unfamiliar area, I did not see a red light and hit another car in an intersection. Fortunately no one was injured but my car is ruined. And I cannot get over how stupid ... Mon, 30 Jul 2012 15:22:33 EST Two Steps Forward, Four Steps Back?? I went up over two pounds in the last week or so. As I have been trying to prepare for a vacation, I have been working 15 hour days and not being able to get my workouts, food planning and preparation, and even water consumption, done the way i need to. And it shows right away on the scale. I am a bit worried about being away from home where I have even less control of my environment. <BR> <BR> But I have to remind myself that I have the tools and I have the ability to do this. I can k... Mon, 2 Jul 2012 10:11:35 EST 75% of the Way to Goal!! What's New Just realized I made 75% of the way to my goal weight. I started this journey on August 24, 2011. I am hoping to reach 100% of my goal by December 2012 which is another 38 pounds. I now have confidence that I can do this! <BR> <BR> Every once in a while I find it has helped me to review the nonscale victories on my weight loss journey. Having a record that I can review from time to time has helped me stay on track. <BR> <BR> I noticed yesterday how easily I get in and out of my car. ... Sun, 17 Jun 2012 10:03:45 EST I'm NOT OBESE - anymore Big thrill this morning. I weighed myself on the Wii Fit Plus and I have moved out of the Obese category and into the Overweight level. As I have blogged before, my pattern is two steps forward and one back, but I am determined not to go back up into the Obese range. <BR> <BR> I feel so much better than I did 9 months ago. I can move. I can jog, I can dance (a little). I can fit in chairs and get around more easily. I can wear more attractive clothing. I do not have to take so much... Fri, 15 Jun 2012 09:15:57 EST 2 Steps Forward... The old saying "Two steps forward and one step back" describes my weight loss progress recently. I gained 2.2 pounds this week and again I know why. Work demands, stress and illness have prevented me from getting my workouts in for the last week or so. I have allowed myself to eat more than my daily calorie allotment (1200) on several days in the last week and I actually ate foods that I have avoided during this weight loss journey (1/2 order french fries and white wine with dinner on 3 la... Fri, 1 Jun 2012 09:22:39 EST 25 Spark Points & 100 Spark Goodie Points Must be a lucky day for me! Mon, 21 May 2012 09:48:06 EST Miss Read I was home with a bad cold yesterday and had a chance to read my Mother's Day gift sent to me by my beloved mother. It was Miss Read's last book "A Peaceful Retirement" and an article about her passing. I thoroughly enjoyed this short novel and felt better for having read it. <BR> <BR> If you have not read any of Miss Read's 30 novels, and if you enjoy lovely simple stories of England, then go to the library and look for this author. I believe "Village Diary" was her first book...I have n... Fri, 18 May 2012 19:01:22 EST 70% of the way there - Day 44 post 100 pounds lost This morning I made it 70% of the way to my goal weight of 135 pounds. <BR> <BR> I am having some difficulty wrapping my mind around this fact. I have come 70% of the way but it seems like it should be more. I look at my body and the changes I have undergone in these 10 months and it seems like these last 40-50 pounds will not be as apparent as the first 100+ pounds. I feel like I am 90% smaller than I used to be and that these 47 pounds will only appear to be 10% of my total weight los... Sat, 12 May 2012 11:51:14 EST Friday Folly Didn't prep food to take with me yesterday. Then ended up too hungry and went off plan. <BR> <BR> getting ready to go out for a walk/run to get back to my plan Sat, 5 May 2012 11:17:43 EST Spark Support - Day 35 Post 100 pound loss Many thanks to my Spark Friend blog post readers. I appreciate your supportive comments. <BR> <BR> Throughout the day when I check my iphone email, I get notices of Spark messages, comments and "likes". I find that these brief messages of support, guidance, and shared understanding make it easier for me to stay on track or to get back on track. <BR> <BR> There are so few people in my life who have any inkling of what it takes to make this transformation. I know people who have never had... Wed, 2 May 2012 09:13:39 EST Happy May Day! - Day 34 Post 100 pound weight loss Yesterday I weighed in and was dismayed to see a four pound weight gain. After blogging here, I prepped my food and wrote out a meal and exercise plan for the day. I stuck to the food plan and came in right under 1200 calories. I wasn't able to get my walk in because of my work schedule. But I got on the Wii as soon as I got home and then did Just Dance 3 after icing my knee during dinner. I managed to burn about 450 calories which is my normal daily goal. Today I am going to buy a hear... Tue, 1 May 2012 09:15:09 EST !?#@(& - Gained 4 pounds! This morning I weighed in after a three day mini-vacation and found that I am up by 3.5 pounds since Friday morning and up by more than four pounds in the last week. <BR> <BR> I know why this happened. I exceeded my calorie limit for 5 of the last 7 days and I have not exercised in the last three days. <BR> <BR> I am upset because I work so hard to lose even 1/2 a pound. Allowing myself to let that effort be erased by a few days of "relaxation" is not worth it. <BR> <BR> When I think ... Mon, 30 Apr 2012 08:55:54 EST No more meds! Day 29 Post 100 Pound weight loss I communicated with my physician regarding some low blood pressure symptoms I was experiencing during my cardio workouts. He took me off the last of my blood pressure meds. I am so excited about having met one of my original goals. When I started this weight loss journey, one of my main goals was to get off the 2 medications I was taking for diabetes and the 3 high blood pressure meds. So this week was the achievement of that goal. I still take meds for pain and inhalers for breathing pr... Thu, 26 Apr 2012 08:35:48 EST 26 days after 100 Pound weight loss So in 26 days I have lost another 7 pounds... I go up a little, down a little but still heading in the right direction. Blogging helps me stay on track. <BR> <BR> Last couple of days I have experienced some worrying physical symptoms with my daily cardio exercise. I am tracing the problems to the hotter weather and my blood pressure meds. I sent a message to my doctor and will probably have to go see him. I am determined to keep exercising somehow... Mon, 23 Apr 2012 10:29:43 EST Not Perfect - 23 days post 100 108 pounds of this morning. <BR> <BR> But life is not perfect - no surprise. <BR> <BR> I am 55 years old and carried those 100+ pounds for over 15 years. My joints have suffered and I deal with pain every day. The good news is that I have found better tools and learned better skills for dealing with the pain. But the pain is always there and I always have to consider the potential impact of any activity (or inactivity) on my pain level. <BR> <BR> In the last few days I have ... Fri, 20 Apr 2012 09:44:09 EST Day 17 Post 100 Yesterday was even more challenging than I anticipated. In addition to having to let a temporary employee go (which I had been thinking about and worrying over for days), we learned of the death of one of our students due to a medical condition. This news was completely unexpected and quite a shock to the staff that worked with the student. On top of that tragedy, we discovered that confidential information about my co-worker was shared prematurely with the staff. As the administrator resp... Tue, 17 Apr 2012 08:51:36 EST Not looking forward to Day 16 - Post 100 pound weight loss Dreading this day. Have to terminate a temporary employee. It is the right thing to do but I feel bad for this individual and have been stressing about the meeting this morning. Overate a bit yesterday as I fretted about this. Exercised longer than usual to compensate. I know one day will not derail my progress but feeling bad...more later. Mon, 16 Apr 2012 09:35:59 EST Day 13 on Friday the 13th - Post 100 had a great day = productive at work and then theater with my daughter in the evening; I could fit in the narrow theater seat and walk up and down the stairs (two flights down to the bathroom and two flights up to our seats) without hesitation. Sat, 14 Apr 2012 13:05:12 EST Lost 100 Pounds on Spark TODAY and made a Total of 105 lost - Day 12 I am happy to say that my weigh in shows that I met my next goal which was to lose 100 pounds since starting Spark and be able to put up the Spark logo on my page. SO there it is. Yes, I am proud of myself. These mini-goals or benchmarks are much more motivating to me than thinking "Oh I lost another pound and I still have 54 to go..." <BR> <BR> I don't want to sound like a commercial for iphones but when I re-read yesterday's blog I realized how valuable my iphone SparkPeople app is to m... Thu, 12 Apr 2012 09:32:31 EST 1000 Spark Goodie Points?!! - Day 12 Post 100 Pound Loss I just got 1000 Spark Goodie Points on the bonus wheel and I got all excited. I know these points are for virtual goodies, not actual goodies, but I am happy none the less. Spark Guy and company were brilliant in adding this fun feature to the Spark world. <BR> <BR> And I finally broke through my latest plateau. After 6 days stuck at the same weight, I dropped almost a pound this morning. I am reminded that in order to keep losing weight I have to keep doing all the things that I have ... Wed, 11 Apr 2012 09:25:16 EST Day 11 - Post 100 Pound Lost Enjoyed a trip to my favorite museum with my lovely daughter yesterday. We were able to see the entire exhibit because i was able to stand longer with less pain than on past visits. Seeing beautiful works of art is a great pleasure. <BR> <BR> Then back to work and another challenging day...stayed within calorie range but it was a struggle. I started eating breakfast when I first get up (instead of just having coffee) but find I am hungry again when I get to work about 2 hours later. I n... Tue, 10 Apr 2012 00:19:41 EST Jog Blog - Day 10 Post 100 Okay so I only jogged for a few minutes - but I actually did it. I went out to the track near my home, walked a mile and a quarter, then on the next circuit I jogged for a few minutes then walked and then jogged again. I repeated that little "sprint" four times. Definitely got my heart rate up and when I finished my planned 1.75 miles, I felt thrilled with this huge accomplishment. For some people a couple of minutes of jogging is no big deal. But for me, with my history of mobility li... Sun, 8 Apr 2012 13:43:08 EST Day 9 Post 100 Very tired from a long week but got back to walking 2 days in a row. Sat, 7 Apr 2012 01:29:34 EST Day 8 Post 100 Whats important about today? I got my workout in and I got my walk in for the first time in several weeks. I so enjoy listening to music and setting a good pace. I walked in a small downtown area and remembered the time not so long ago when I couldn't walk a block without pain. Today I walked about 1.5 miles. I am so glad the weather is improving so I can get out and walk again. <BR> <BR> I didn't think I was going to get the workouts in because of work - again. But I was determined to ... Fri, 6 Apr 2012 02:00:48 EST Day 7 Post 100 Stayed on track with calorie intake, water intake and food recording. Swamped at work so once again had to wait until I got home to exercise. Decided to focus on Just Dance 3 for 45 minutes. It was fun and I find that I am gaining confidence in my movement. I cannot hop up and down or spin around but I am definitely more mobile. Dancing again was one of my major goals when I started this journey and I feel I am getting closer every day. <BR> <BR> <em>185</em> Wed, 4 Apr 2012 09:31:36 EST Blogging Helps! Day 6 - Post 100 This is working. Blogging each morning is helping me to stay on track. I am down 2 pounds this morning. As I noted when I began this blog series, as I reached 100 pound loss, I found myself drifting away from the exercise plan that had been working for me. And then I found myself being less than scrupulous about my food planning and staying within my calorie range. <BR> <BR> I have fallen to my own "self-sabotage" in the past and knew that I needed to do something to get back on track ... Tue, 3 Apr 2012 09:35:16 EST Day 5 Post 100 Worked 10 hours yesterday and made progress on several projects. Felt very stressed in the morning and ate more than planned for my breakfast and snack. So I reached out to my daughter via text and she sent me encouragement and agreed to get the last of the grocery shopping done. Her support and willingess to help with that errand lifted my spirits and I was able to get back on track for the rest of the day. <BR> <BR> When I got home around 7 p.m., my daughter made a healthy dinner for us... Mon, 2 Apr 2012 09:14:22 EST Day 4 - Post 100 Yesterday was errand/chore day. I finished the laundry then went to the post office to mail the taxes off to my accountant. <BR> <BR> I needed new underwear because mine were literally falling off but I did not think i could fit into anything from a non-plus size store. We measured my hips before we left home but when I got to the store, they did not have anything in that hip measurement. I had that old sinking feeling (the I-am-too-big-to-fit-in-here feeling) and was about to give up w... Sun, 1 Apr 2012 10:56:53 EST Day 3 - Post 100 Friday was a very challenging day at work. But I got home a little after 5, got the laundry going and got right to a 45 minute chair exercise workout. Then finished my taxes followed by 30 minutes of Just Dance 3. Kept within my calorie limit, recorded food intake and drank 10 glasses of water. <BR> <BR> Rewarded myself by going out to see Mirror, Mirror at late show with my daughter. <BR> <BR> Morning wii weigh in shows 0.7 pound loss. <BR> <BR> Feeling pretty good <BR> <em>41</em>... Sat, 31 Mar 2012 12:07:17 EST Day 2 - Post 100 Yesterday was a bit better. Again I was too tired to exercise in the morning and too swamped at work to get out and walk. When I got home after 7 p.m. I had to make a choice between taking those two hours to try to catch up on paper work or use the time to take care of myself. I feel I made the right choice. But boy is it hard for me. I have to meet with both of my bosses today and I will not be as prepared as I would like. <BR> <BR> But I got home, changed into my workout clothes and e... Fri, 30 Mar 2012 09:20:32 EST Post 100 Day 1 Blog I have decided to do a daily blog to help me track and keep on track...track my changes and keep myself on track with my plan. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I hit 100 pounds lost and felt good about my accomplishment. <BR> <BR> However, when I got on the wii it told me that I had not done my regular morning workout for 13 days. I was surprised and then reflected on the last couple of weeks. I can see that my dedication to my workout schedule has slackened due to increasing pressure at work. I ... Thu, 29 Mar 2012 10:05:53 EST 100 This morning when I took my weight on the Wii it showed that I have lost 100 pounds since my highest weight last summer. I am kind of in shock. This is a major milestone and I do intend to celebrate it with a reward (jewelry) though I still have 59 pounds to go to my goal. <BR> <BR> I have been thinking about the changes I have made in these 9 months. The most significant is that I do not work as much as I used to (65-80 hours/week). This means that sometimes projects don't get done on t... Wed, 28 Mar 2012 09:48:41 EST Saturday morning musings on the journey thus far I have been fighting off frustration/discouragement with my slowing weight loss as I have transitioned out of the "rapid weight loss" phase of my medical weight management program, through the "transition" phase and am now in the "lifestyle" phase. Others in my group, who had half as much weight to lose, are at their goals and now struggling to maintain their progress. I am a little over half way to my goal, so I want to keep losing at least 1 pound a week. <BR> <BR> In the last several ... Sat, 17 Mar 2012 11:12:02 EST Sucralose overdose I had a grande skinny latte and got so sick i had to hurry home system doesn't like artificial sweeteners any more. Live and be healthy. Wed, 14 Mar 2012 00:04:36 EST Sucralose overdose I had a grande skinny latte and got so sick i had to hurry home system doesn't like artificial sweeteners any more. Live and be healthy. Wed, 14 Mar 2012 00:04:35 EST Oh! It really is a LAPtop I just realized that my laptop fits on my lap for the first time ever! When I started gaining the weight that lead me to a high of almost 300 pounds, there were no such things as laptops. My daughter first got one from her dad and I remember trying to hold it in my lap. Didn't work. There was no room. Then I got my own a couple of years ago and had to place it on a table or extend my legs in a recliner in order to use it. But this morning, here it is, on my LAP! <BR> <BR> I love this ... Thu, 23 Feb 2012 10:51:04 EST Raindrops on roses and... Here is why exercise has become one of my favorite things. <BR> <BR> Terrible, rough times at work - dealing with another complaint about a staff person which may result in "termination" of that person; having to consider closing down a program after 20 years; learned of death of my mother's closest friend; troubles for my brother and his family; I guess I am so inundated that I cannot even think clearly about all this. I feel numb. <BR> <BR> But I have not gone off my program. I am an a... Sat, 18 Feb 2012 09:41:46 EST I feel like dancing I do. I feel like dancing. When I get out there with my headphones on for my walk, I often find myself starting to move like the dancer I used to be... a long time ago. I still have a lot of weight and stress on my knees and back so I am not actually dancing. But I feel the rhythm again and I have the desire to spring onto a dance floor, turn pirouettes and roll into the "grapevine"... <BR> Another motivator to keep me going in this weight loss journey. Thu, 9 Feb 2012 09:15:38 EST Criticism About a week ago I posted on the Panic Button community message board seeking help for coping with the changes, positive but major, physical changes I am experiencing on this weight loss journey. <BR> <BR> There were four responses. Two were helpful and offered suggestions. One asked if I have a counselor. And the fourth was criticism. This person whose page says she has been part of the Spark community since 2006 was negative about my medical weight loss program and stated that I was "... Wed, 8 Feb 2012 00:27:42 EST I saw my toes yesterday! I can see my toes! Okay okay...i have always been able to see my toes if I was lying down or in a recliner. But yesterday while standing up to get dressed, I looked straight down and saw my toes. For years and years, my belly has obstructed my view of my toes. <BR> <BR> I decided that I wanted to capture the other physical changes that have been little "aha" moments in my weight loss journey. <BR> <BR> The other day i suddenly realized that I could bring my foot up to my opposite knee t... Thu, 2 Feb 2012 10:03:13 EST HALF WAY THERE I am officially half way to my goal weight since I started Sparkling in September (and a little more than half way since my highest weight of 293.8). I am so excited. I just did a 1.5 mile walk which is a miracle for me. Yesterday I bought pants size 18! Before a cruise last summer I had to buy size 30-32 and 4x. I cannot remember the last time I fit into size 18. It is over 15 years...maybe 20 years... <BR> <BR> I have been through some stress and sorrow in the last couple of months b... Sun, 29 Jan 2012 13:58:23 EST Still have my arms and legs The lion isn't tamed but I do still have my arms and legs. I have been writing about my struggle with a challenge at work. I had to fire a staff person who also a dear friend. The first day was really rough. Yesterday was draining as I dealt with fallout among other staff and partner agencies. Fortunately I had a co-worker assist me and she was excellent in her handling of our other staff members. We were a tag team working side by side and I think we managed to keep matters under contro... Fri, 27 Jan 2012 09:23:27 EST Facing the Lion My dear friend and staff member with whom I have worked for 20 years was so angry that we could not continue meeting to discuss the termination. I was not surprised at the reaction but certainly distressed and worried about my friend. I am not allowed to explain that this is an upper administration decision. <BR> <BR> Now today I go back to face the lion and try to finish the conversation. This is up there with one of the most difficult things I have ever had to do in 20+ years as an ad... Wed, 25 Jan 2012 09:24:13 EST Girding Today I have to meet with and fire a dear friend. I do not agree with the decision which was made by my superiors. I have been tearing myself up over this for three weeks. I have tried to change the decision, to argue for a gradual transition, to no avail. So I am attempting to "gird my loins" for this battle with myself and to prepare for the painful step I have to take this afternoon. I am in danger of this painful issue derailing my progress. I have to stay on track. I appreciate the ... Tue, 24 Jan 2012 09:37:34 EST Monday Monday Mmm blah...Trying to get up and work out before going to work. Not too thrilled with the idea. I had a good productive weekend but just do not want to face some of the upsetting challenges I will have to face at work this week. I do not want to fire a staffer who has become a good friend. But the decision has been made over my head and I must comply or be considered insubordinate. I have argued for my staff and made my case repeatedly without success. It is really bothering me and I do n... Mon, 23 Jan 2012 09:52:53 EST Progress TOWARD Goal I just realized that lately I have been so focused on how much weight I have lost that I have not been paying attention to how far I have to go to reach my goal. I am delighted that I have lost a total of 78 pounds (73 since I started Sparkling). And now I look ahead to the 80 pounds I have still to go to reach my goal. I am almost halfway there. I am only halfway there. Glass half full, glass half empty...I choose to be an optimist. I choose to recognize my accomplishment and find jo... Sat, 21 Jan 2012 12:27:43 EST Don't Stop Believin' I am still trying to come back from the holidays, suicide of a colleague, bout of the flu and really negative events at work. <BR> <BR> The good news is that four of the last five days I have completed at least part of my work out plans. The bad news is I have not been able to get myself to complete my full work out plan (10-30 minutes Wii in the morning, 15-30 minutes walk after work, 20-45 minutes chair exercise in the evening). I know that my plan is what has made it possible for me ... Thu, 19 Jan 2012 09:25:03 EST I'm BACK I am back from vacation. And I am also back on my exercise routine. Boy, it was difficult to get back into the activity level that has worked for me. I tried all last week and only, barely, approximated my former habits. I was only away for two weeks and I did do some exercise while I was on vacation - but it wasn't what I need to do. I am glad I did not gain weight while traveling but I didn't really lose either. <BR> <BR> So today I really pushed myself to do my morning and evening ... Tue, 10 Jan 2012 01:13:20 EST