MELLIEH0212's SparkPeople Blog MELLIEH0212's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community okay.. kind of gross question Okay friends I have a question, it's kind of gross. So as I am doing the 30 day shred with Jillian, I am disgusted by my flub flabbing and smacking as I do the jumping jacks and "jumping" rope. As I continue to lose, that belly flub is going to continue to hang as extra skin ( i warned you it was gross), can some one give me some tips to control that? Again I know its gross, but I can't be the only one with this problem... or am i? <em>24</em> Fri, 22 Feb 2013 12:40:30 EST biggest loser realization Okay so I haven't watched The Biggest Loser in a few years, but this season I am watching. When you see them up on the scales and such, it really puts into perspective how you look. I know I am a heavy girl, and I see the nasty fat in the mirror. But when I see them on the scale, I thought "wow I would hate to be on the scale in front of the world like that" OH WHAT...that is what I weigh.. and it disgusts me. The problem with this is, it is not motivating me like I wanted. I just sit t... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 12:46:04 EST new month= new start TOMORROW 8/1 I am wiping the slate clean and starting again.. resting my ticker.. my goals.. my attitude. Not being able to do cardio, or lift anything over 10 lbs since 7/5 has sent me for a drive into the wrong direction TIME FOR A U TURN! Do I even want to know what that scale is going to say tomorrow... YIKES! but time to bite the bullet! TIME TO FOCUS. It's amazing how fast you can fall into your old ways, time to get back to counting my food, doing my cardio and ST (light for now) ... Tue, 31 Jul 2012 15:14:15 EST GOODBYE 220's Sunday weigh in... 219.2! woo hoo woo hoo woo hoo! so excited. slowly slowly its coming off. slowly slowly so it stays off! Sun, 24 Jun 2012 16:52:29 EST woo hoo I did! sort of... <em>182</em> Yesterday I ran in my first race ever! And I finished <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> But not without injury.. boo! <BR> <BR> I was so nervous waiting for my team mate to pass me the wristband, but once I got it, I was off! Running, not quickly about a 13 minute mile. First mile in, feeling good. Suddenly, I completely don't see the jumbled up road and out goes my ankle. Get up to go and wow the pain was bad.. Started jog... Mon, 18 Jun 2012 10:26:13 EST confused and sad I can't understand this emotional ride. One minute you can be feeling so good and so proud of yourself, the next you feel like a complete failure. well today is my "feel sorry for myself day". I have cried and cried. I have disappointed myself and I feel like I continuously disappoint everyone important to me. I have gone to the y at least 5x a week since March, I have gotten on that treadmill, elipitical, cardio wave. I do strength training 3x/week. And yet, my relay team race is in 5... Mon, 11 Jun 2012 22:10:45 EST My 20 lb gain. So as I reach 20 lbs lost since I started spark people and 25 in general, I am taking inventory on what I have gained. <BR> <BR> 1) confidence <BR> 2) pride, walk with head held high, hold my core in (didn't even care to notice before) <BR> 3) stamina.. can walk up the stairs with laundry and not get tired. <BR> 4) endorphins (who doesn't love these) <BR> 5) muscle <BR> 6) more fun with my kids... "working out" the stress on ST and cardio instead of my kids lets me enjoy them! <BR> 7) a wais... Mon, 4 Jun 2012 13:22:31 EST ha ha ha <img src=""> Sun, 3 Jun 2012 14:59:24 EST Insanity Has anyone tried the insanity videos? How fit do you have to be? Is it TOO hard? Let me know what you think.. <em>344</em> Sat, 2 Jun 2012 08:36:37 EST Ups and then downs at the Y I don't know why I get so upset about the image in the window, BUT I DO. I went to the y last night. Had a good work out. I increased my distance in my 45 minutes on the treadmill, increased weights on a few machines, and increased my plank time. I WAS FEELING GOOD, CONFIDENT! Then as I walked to the cubby to get my keys, there it is. The image in the window. The chunky girl with the gut hanging down, and it literally sickens me. I get so discouraged when I see that image, and I don't... Fri, 25 May 2012 11:21:39 EST HLC mental challenge week 9 Three things that make me happy: <BR> 1) unconditional love from my girls <BR> 2) the smell of peppermint <BR> 3) my husband (most of the time lol) <BR> <BR> Three things to do or experience: <BR> 1) get rid of these shin splints <BR> 2) take my girls to Disney world <BR> 3) get a bigger house <BR> <BR> Good luck this week everyone! <em>224</em> Tue, 22 May 2012 13:54:44 EST Such a great weekend... no so great choices. Although I didn't exactly make the best food choices this weekend. I think I did okay.l I guess we will see tomorrow when i jump on the scale. My daughter had a wonderful weekend. My daughter's 1st communion was beautiful, Besides the jello and wine, I made good food choices.. I even managed to get all my water in, oh but the wine... <img src=""> My three girls had such a great day. <BR> <BR> I did manage to get a great walk in toda... Sun, 20 May 2012 22:10:28 EST tried something new So yesterday at the y, I decided to try out a "new to me" machine. I tend to stay away from them because, frankly, they scare me. I don't know what it's called but it is supposed to be like you are rollerblading/iceskating. I started out slow just to get accustomed to the machine, and then I up'd my pace to get my hr in my range. I can't even imagine how funny I looked on this thing. But after I finished I realized to things. <BR> 1) Mom was right.. don't knock it till you try it. I had... Mon, 14 May 2012 13:43:31 EST blah blah blah Blah is how I feel today.. just blah. Fell of the horse and went to Arby's for lunch. DO NOT BE FOOLED.. the "market fresh" sandwiches are not better for you! should have just gotten a jr roast beef. and to top it off, I got an orange cream milkshake. I caved.. it happens. With my huscand being in and out of the hospital the past two weeks, my fitness has gone to NONE. I have worked out 2x since April 29th. yuck yuck yuck. Time to refocus: <BR> <BR> 1) plan our meals <BR> 2) get my bu... Tue, 8 May 2012 15:35:16 EST diabetic/cardio diet My husband is in a world of change. This time around, his sugars where high. The dietician is here explaining to him the changes he needs to make. Wow he has a lot to change. He needs to do this. And really we all could do this! So I guess all of us are in for a change. Giving some examples of meal plans. Need my man healthy. My babies need there daddy.. I need him too :) Wed, 2 May 2012 15:31:02 EST goodbye 230's! When I got on the scale yesterday i was nervous. I hadn't worked out since the 23rd. Having my husband in the hospital, I haven't had time to do anything. But when I got on that scale yesterday, 229.6 :) woohoo! almost 2 lbs! Just the positive thing I needed to see! I hope to never see the 230's again EVER! Have a great week everyone! WE CAN AND WILL DO THIS! Thanks for all the support last week, and every week! <em>304</em> Mon, 30 Apr 2012 11:28:27 EST new week= new goal I decided to change a work out goal. I have been using the treadmill and setting "minute" goals. Starting today I am setting distance goals. Once I have reached this, I can concentrate on time, but then will be time/mile :) <BR> <BR> <BR> I was truly hoping by now (almost two months in) I would need some new clothes. But the weight is still there. My desire to lose is there, the energy isn't. This week I am determined to find energy boosters! The sun today (finally) is definitely... Sun, 29 Apr 2012 10:00:57 EST sitting in the hospital lounge While sitting here in the hospital lounge, it is taking everyting in me to not go to those evil vending machines. My husband is in the cath lab right now. He was brought here from work due to chest pains. He had an abnormal eeg and bp was 181/115. Dr is not sure if it was a heart attack or not. I saw him for only a second while nurses stuck all the monitors on his chest and gave him medication. I have to be honest I am pretty scared! If you are reading this please say a little pray for... Tue, 24 Apr 2012 13:55:21 EST yucky day wow what a yucky day. Rainy, cold. Perfect day to lay around! So I got up and tried a zumba class. I am sore! Not sure if it is from the class, my increased time on the treadmill, I increased my weights, or maybe the combination of everything. I usually clean on Sundays, but not today. I need to get motivated and at least I did some laundry, right. Here's to a good week everyone! Sun, 22 Apr 2012 17:21:09 EST end to a bad week... I did NOT do well this week. I was over my calories 2x, one day only by 20 but yesterday yikes... almost over by 300! Having a visit from mother nature is not helping either. I am struggling with this slow weight loss, this week excluded bc I didn't do well. I guess I was just thinking more would be coming off. I am not talking like 10 lbs or even 5 lbs.. but lately I can't even get a hole pound a week. Don't get me wrong, I am happy with any lose, I was just really hoping for 2/week! ... Fri, 20 Apr 2012 13:51:58 EST Cartwheels! Today, while at the park with my girls, my oldest daughter and I did cartwheels!!! I can't even tell you the last time I did that! I was so scared. Were they good cartwheels? heavens no! I could feel my legs bent, my body sideways... but I kept doing it! It felt good! and it was fun! My weight loss was slow these last two weeks, but I am okay with that! I was a little bit of a slacker, I have found my motivation again and am ready to hit it hard this week! LOOK AT YMCA! I AM COMING ... Mon, 16 Apr 2012 09:37:57 EST losing focus I need to regroup.. get my head back in the game. I lost a lot of my focus this week. Although I do well at work, it all goes down the drain when I get home. Easter candy, birthday cakes, so tired that I have not gone to the gym since Saturday. I feel so guilty today. I want to get back to a healthy size, weight, life. I have just lost the motivation. <em>39</em> Wed, 11 Apr 2012 08:55:34 EST Support thank you :) Although I could never express my thanks to all my new "spark friends", I am so thankful from the support and encouragement I am receiving from surprise sources. Sometimes just the "go girl" I receive on my facebook check in at the "Y" is enough to do one more rep on the crunch machine. So to everyone that has given me encouragement, pep talks, little words of motivation. THANK YOU! and know that it does help :) <BR> <BR> If only putting this weight on was as much of a conscious commitme... Thu, 5 Apr 2012 09:08:11 EST My HLC1 Mental challenge 1 My goal for this 10 weeks will be to be get through the rookie to 5k training. I will do this by following the training this program has laid out for me. I have struggled getting through this do to shin splints but I have learned some stretchs and the shoes I need to relieve this. this will also help in my short term weight lose goal of 25 pounds by the 4th of July. My reward for this will be a pedicure, after running all that my tootsies will need one :) <em>185</em> Tue, 27 Mar 2012 11:53:51 EST no support from the one person who should! I have to vent this. I started this journey, I joined the y, I am watching and logging what I eat, I even signed up to do a 5k. I am big girl, I know. But my husband says "I know you won't do this" "You quit everything so why did you even start?" "I know you, you will quit this soon". Maybe I shouldn't let this bother me. But it does. "why did you join the y, it will just be a waste of money" "this won't last". WOW really... whether I have quit a 1000x or this is my first time, I need ... Tue, 20 Mar 2012 19:41:47 EST My shins are bringing me down. So I finally started training for the 5k I am going to attempt in June and my shins hurt so terribly I literally cry. I am so disappointed. It took me so long to get motivated to do this. Besides my shins, I am really starting to feel good. Never thought I would say this but I actually enjoy the running, until the shin pain kicks in. I am afraid to stop because I don't want to lose this momentum but how can I get rid of this pain? I am so disappointed... Mon, 19 Mar 2012 21:33:30 EST seeing the opposite of others Okay so I have really been paying attention to what triggers my overeating. the answer: stress. Every time I feel my life spinning out of control, which is alot lately, I rech for food. NOT "good" food.. JUNK. For some reason it just makes me feel better. I would love to find a new "comfort" but I haven't found it yet. Which, of course, upsets me and I eat. I am like fat basterd on Austin Powers "I eat because I am unhappy and I am unhappy because I eat." today is my weekly weigh in. fe... Sat, 17 Mar 2012 08:02:28 EST starts now Today I begin my blogging. What do you write in a blog? Not sure. Today I am weighing in at 242 lbs. I have been going to the Y for about 2 weeks and although I joined spark in August, I have just started using it this week. Next year will be my high school 20 year reunion! My ultimate goal is to have lost 100 lbs by then. My first goal is to be at 215 by the 4th of July. 100 lbs is a long term goal, I have chosen to break this down into smaller goals hoping that with each accomplishm... Thu, 15 Mar 2012 14:25:47 EST