MELISSA_ROBIN's SparkPeople Blog MELISSA_ROBIN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Good news, Bad news Usually I'm complaining that my work schedule is insane, that I'm wearing myself too thin, and that I don't have time to workout. All of that is still true, however, there is good news. <BR> <BR> Now that my new insurance kicked in, I finally got a new doctor (which is great because I hated my old one so much I would avoid going to her). I saw my new MD yesterday for the first time. Here are the results. <BR> <BR> Weight: Way too high (not anything I didn't know) <BR> Pulse: 70 <BR> Pulse ... Tue, 25 Mar 2014 11:56:23 EST I am a failure OK. So the title is a little misleading, but I am a failure - a foster failure. After the first two kittens of the four I was fostering got adopted, I got busy with all of my other activities and work so I was unable to take them to adoption events. As time went on, the little monsters (as I like to call them) started settling in and acting like they owned the place. Phil and I had a conversation and as much as we loved them, we weren't about to add two more cats. We then made a decision - no... Wed, 5 Feb 2014 19:20:56 EST There have been very few times.... that I've been completely ashamed of my weight. I know I'm fat. I know I've been fat for awhile, but there are only a handful of times where how I look has made me feel like less of a person. Saturday was one of those days. <BR> <BR> Let's backtrack. The first time I can recall feeling embarrassed about how I look was in high school. It was when I played volleyball and had trouble with some of the conditioning exercises. At that time I was 5'5, 135, and not fat. The team had an entire meetin... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 20:10:46 EST [Not] Slowing Down For once, I'm not going to whine, although whining is something I do quite well. <BR> <BR> Simply, the office is still a train wreck, the job prospects are slim, the NPO work is exhausting and retail sucks. <BR> <BR> NPO Projects: <BR> re-writing/re-designing a tri-fold brochure <BR> social media/12-month calendar <BR> communications/marketing plan <BR> foster kittens <BR> <BR> Work Projects: <BR> A constant flow of articles (have to transcribe a bunch of interviews and then write the stor... Wed, 11 Dec 2013 20:18:36 EST I think life doesn't want me to be healthy As soon as my schedule starts to clear, more things get piled on. <BR> <BR> I tried to take a couple of weeks to come down from the big event I planned, but I continued to get slammed. The president's father-in-law passed away the morning after the event so she was immediately off to New York for a month, meaning I had to run the foundation in her absence. Considering half the time I have no idea what I'm doing (half the time I think she doesn't have a clue either), I felt like I complet... Mon, 7 Oct 2013 22:40:28 EST It's finally over Last night was the fundraising gala that has monopolized the last six weeks of my life. I didn't eat as horribly as I could have (I didn't eat well either) and I didn't work out once (I also hardly slept because of the massive amounts of work involved), but I got through it - barely. <BR> <BR> Over the last six weeks I coordinated a newspaper as our program (in addition to my 50+ hr/wk job). I wrote 20 articles for the paper - one on each of the performing groups, one on each of the award ... Mon, 26 Aug 2013 01:22:00 EST My Favorite Trade I don't even want to talk about the disasters that were my interviews - especially the one that was scheduled for yesterday. Instead, I'm going to share my absolute favorite trade. <BR> <BR> For as long as I can remember, I've loved brown sugar cinnamon Pop Tarts, but, at 420 calories for two pastries, they don't exactly fit into a low(er) calorie diet. However, a couple of months ago I tried the brown sugar cinnamon Special K pastry crisps, and was pleasantly surprised. While the taste i... Tue, 23 Jul 2013 12:40:56 EST Every Frickin' Time I finally thought I had gotten myself a bit of a work-life balance. After my last entry I decided to make working out more of a priority. It looked like my schedule was actually clearing up a bit for the next couple of months and I thought that once I got into a routine of some kind everything would work out. <BR> <BR> That lasted about a week. I had a great week where I worked out most days and of course I was enjoying all the benefits - a slight benefit on the scale, sleeping better, le... Fri, 19 Jul 2013 02:20:24 EST I think there comes a time (this is going to be long)... When we all need to re-evaluate our lives and figure out where we're going and what we're doing. <BR> <BR> For the last three years, my job has given me some of the most amazing experiences. I've interviewed athletes, mingled with politicians, and gotten access to things I would have never done if it weren't for my job. Without my job, I wouldn't have met and interviewed 1996 Olympian Dominique Mocceanu or gotten to cut in line to ride the newest roller coaster on opening day. I also woul... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 20:26:31 EST Since my last update When I updated (about a year ago - man I'm bad at this), I was talking about how working two jobs was killing me and I needed to get myself back on track. It never quite worked. I came to the conclusion that as long as I was doing retail plus my job (including the extra articles) I was never going to find the time for fitness and I would constantly be eating on the go with no real way to prepare meals, cook or fix my situation since I was never home. I was still struggling financially, but... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 18:15:50 EST Accountability I'll be the first to admit it - the last few months have been awful for me, at least fitness-wise. <BR> <BR> I had been doing well for a few months. I had cut out soda and had myself down to eating junk food (french fries) once a week. Sunday was my weekly Boca burger with no mayo, add avocado and fries day. I was good the rest of the week. I had even cut out chips and my morning bagel with cream cheese. I was doing well and adhering to a (mostly) vegan diet. It was something I wanted ... Fri, 20 Jan 2012 21:16:30 EST How I Got Here... Thanks to Josh's complete honesty about how he got where he was, I feel inspired to do the same. How and why I got to where I was and why I end up never making it to my final goal. It'll be personal, and probably not something I want the entire Spark community knowing, but vulnerability is the only way people end up making progress and getting to the ultimate prize - happiness with their body. <BR> <BR> I was a super happy kid. I was friendly and always in the middle of everything. I was... Thu, 20 Oct 2011 11:18:04 EST January, October, What's the difference? My last blog entry was in January and talked about "The Year". The Year never quite happened. Shauna moved again, I got stressed at work, we both had way too much going on personally, and it all just fell apart. I'd love to say that we needed to stop making excuses, but our "excuses" were short of mentally and physically crippling. <BR> <BR> To be honest, neither of us is at a position where The Year could even take off now. The fact that my part of The Year ends in a couple of weeks and... Tue, 4 Oct 2011 14:40:55 EST Here we go again... I have a huge problem with consistency. I start, I do well, I get distracted by something shiny and I stop. Rinse. Repeat. <BR> <BR> So, now that I'm 30 (blech), Shauna and I have decided to make 30 "The Year" and really get our butts into gear. We both need to make a serious commitment to health and well-being. I hit 30 in October and she hit it in December (exactly 2 months after me) so we figured 2011 would be a great time to do it. After 30 it supposedly gets more difficult anyway.... Tue, 4 Jan 2011 10:48:44 EST It doesn't seem to get easier... I am the worst when it comes to this whole getting on a schedule and sticking to it thing. I'll do fantastic for a couple of weeks and then completely stop for months at a time. There was a time where for a few months I was doing excellent (but this was nearly 4 years ago). I was running daily and eating well and I felt really good....then I got a job and all of that changed. I rapidly went from working out to eating mass quantities of food. That seems to be the norm with me. <BR> <BR> ... Thu, 12 Mar 2009 17:18:19 EST