MEGAN6277's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MEGAN6277 MEGAN6277's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ a funny for you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5882878 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/2/l427523152.jpg"> I wanted to post a few funnies but my phone won't let me.....I want my computer hooked up to the internet!! I thought this was worth posting.....I wish it would warm up its supposed to this weekend, I pray it stays instead of going back down again. I can't take much more. I long to hear the words.."let the furnace go" ....not sure if it'll happen or not this year. Have a good day !!! Thu, 26 Feb 2015 05:08:18 EST don't let someone else define you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5876025 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/6/l964554167.jpg"> I have always tried my hardest at what I do. I was always told by my father that if I gave it my best no one can expect anything more. How can someone give more then that? Not everyone's expectations for themselves are the same. Everyone is unique in their own way. This is what makes us human, and an individual person. I also have been told you can't go looking for your ideals outside of yourself. Its not what the world bring... Sun, 15 Feb 2015 08:14:14 EST lost and found http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5873614 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1735425042.jpg"> Since I have finally buckled down and gotten serious about wanting to loose weight, I've lost 5 pounds in two weeks. I've also discovered I've almost lost my double chin and found my rib cage again. Not sure if that counts as a non scale victory but I have just the same. Id been without either for almost four years since I was told my son was going to be born. Funny how you don't really stop long enough to notice such things... Wed, 11 Feb 2015 05:17:59 EST I got bored http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5872632 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/1/l915675449.jpg"> I decided to shovel my pathway up to my garage. Then I needed a path from the back of the house to the woodshed to get more wood. I can't depend on my overstressed husband to do it for me so I'm on my own. Here is a picture of my path I made. The snow has finally stopped and is knee high. I wish I could figure out how to post pictures turned the right way....aggravating!! Mon, 9 Feb 2015 15:58:22 EST my work in progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5871327 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1264621865.jpg"> My best friend is going to have some major surgery soon and I started crochetting this blanket for her. Its half way done and wanted your thoughts on border color. I've still got two more larger squares to make, so not sure except trying to think ahead on a border color....any thoughts? Thanks Sat, 7 Feb 2015 15:46:53 EST life strikes again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5864206 This week has been very difficult for me so far. I'm able to log into spark but unable to get points for my emails. Anyway, my mother in law called me Mon at work to tell me my son hadn't eaten or drinken all morning. So I said I'm just about done I'll be there. In the meantime I called the dr and they say let him come in in an hour. (I'm a half .hr away from my .mil) I say ok and fly to get him. I get there just in time only to wait a half .hr to see the dr. Next think I'm faced with a secur... Wed, 28 Jan 2015 04:48:13 EST I seriously need a buddy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861360 I'm not sure what most people expect but I need someone to be accountable to and also to be a friend. I'm also not exactly how the whole thing works either, help!! All I seem to do is clean house because that's my job. I clean two places each day then come home and clean my own. Least until I'm exhausted and flop on my rocking chair. I also haul wood once a day for our outside wood furnace, and chase after my puppy when she's run off to the neighbors. Which is a long ways off. In the summer I... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 03:09:37 EST walk a mile in some else's shoes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5856172 Many times I think about what someone else may think of what I'm doing during the course of a day's time and think why bother? My life is very hectic and confusing and I am always being thrown curve balls. My friend from church who has no job nor any children stopped by to see how I was. We'd agreed to read a book of her choosing and go over it. I tried to tell her I'm honestly not sure how or when I could meet with her to discuss it. She tells me I have to carve out time to do it. There are ... Sat, 17 Jan 2015 02:22:36 EST my fur baby http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5851692 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1371871523.jpg"> I've wanted to get a picture of my pup up for a while now and haven't been able to. She's an American eskimo and about 6 1/2 months old. Her name is Snowflake. She's got more energy then me at times. She's a pill but keeps me hopping. She likes to run off to the very back of the yard where its swampy and be gone for a while. She also likes for me to come chase her. So some of my weight loss lately has been from chasing her ... Sun, 11 Jan 2015 10:29:00 EST cool I figured it out!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5850010 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/7/l97316319.jpg"> I've wanted to write a blog but haven't been able too. Well as you can see my furnace is frozen. It happened twice last year and so far once this. All we have to do is drain the water and ice out of the line and it should be ok. The weather has been friged this week. Kids have had two days where they've gone to school late because of below zero temps. I despise winter it's beautiful if you don't have to go anywhere. Well my pi... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 05:48:58 EST a very heavy heart http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5837126 I had to take my little guy to the doctor's because I suspected an ear infection. Why does mom have to be right? He's got one all right. He's also always had a murmur, I've been told they will out grow them much as my older boys have. Well this one seems much different. She says it's a systalic murmur and because of family history of cardiomyopothy, she wants to get him an echocardiogram done. Then tells me not to get stressed about it. Uhmmmm too late!!! I knew it was gonna be one of them I... Tue, 23 Dec 2014 05:19:56 EST have a merry Christmas!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5832680 I wanted ti wish everyone a very merry Christmas! Lately time seems to be slipping away from me so quickly I can't turn around. My father in law is slowly on the mend, becoming frustrated because he can't do much as of now and doesn't understand the word rest. Well I suppose I don't much either. He's a farmer who is 79 and not retired yet....but forcibly retired due to his kidney surgery to get rid of his stones. He's never known how to stop and enjoy life until now. My husband's the same wa... Sun, 14 Dec 2014 05:42:26 EST what does my exercise routine consist of? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5821732 Many days it seems to revolve around my schedule but many days I do a lot of cleaning. Does it count as exercise ? My day starts out getting the furnace set for a few hours, then the kids off to school, my youngest to his grandmother's, then it's off to work. I get my client his meds, take him forabreakfast or make it whichever he wants, get back, then I start in cleaning. I strip his bed, throw it in the laundry, remake his bed with different sheets. Then I move to the kitchen. Doing dishes,... Sun, 23 Nov 2014 16:41:27 EST my crazy world! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5813255 This month seems to be holding its own craziness already. First off, my fil has been dealing with bladder stones, he's set for surgery on Dec 4th on his kidneys and prostate. I guess they're going to see if the cancer has come back. Plus they'll take care of the stones in his bladder. My sister has an ekg set for Monday this coming week. She keeps blacking out and then don't know why. Then my mom is going in for a complete upper and lower .gi scan to see what's going on with her stomach. Also... Sat, 8 Nov 2014 19:59:20 EST I'm too relieved to grieve! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5811048 My life is changing yet once again. My mom has hired someone else to do my job with my sister and I'm not upset by it! I feel as though the weight of the world has been lifted off me and about 100lbs lighter. As the song says, I'm too relieved to grieve. I have picked up two more clients and yes the pay may be less, and it's dropped me to 20 hours s week between them and my current client, but I'm not worried about it at all. I'm doing just the opposite, for the first time I'm at complete pea... Wed, 5 Nov 2014 02:43:09 EST chocolate apple pie smoothie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5800736 Here is a recipe I love to make <BR> <BR> 1 apple peeled and chopped <BR> 1 banana broken into pieces <BR> 1/2 tsp honey <BR> 1/2 tsp cinnamon <BR> 1 tsp baking cocoa <BR> 1 scoop of vanilla protein powder <BR> 1/2 cup of Greek yogurt (your favorite kind) <BR> 1 cup of milk, or as much to make it a little thin...your desired amount of thickness <BR> <BR> Blend all together and enjoy! <BR> <BR> My boys love this recipe as well. It seems to go over well with a teething almost three yr old. Sun, 19 Oct 2014 07:48:07 EST 10/17/14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5799635 Seems like everything is getting to me lately and I've become overwhelmed with life. I've had too many things going on at once, I'm not sure where to put .my attention first. I've been called a piece of trash by someone I once considered a good friend, which hurt but I'm no longer friends with them after about 20 years. Its really sad that hurting people need to hurt others to make themselves feel worth while. I feel many days as though I'm running around so fast I run past myself many times ... Fri, 17 Oct 2014 05:17:55 EST 10/1/14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5790157 Last month was very difficult on me. I know not many of you will ever know how difficult, but I am grateful it could've been a lot worse. I've learned a lot, not lost more then two lbs. I'm very disappointed about it. But I've only been off my birth control pills a month. Hoping it would've worked quicker then it has but oh well such is life. Anyway, I'm hoping for better results for October. I know I haven't been very helpful to anyone and for that I am sorry. Someday I don't have time to ev... Wed, 1 Oct 2014 06:05:14 EST 17 years and still as clear as a bell http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5761674 Its almost been 17 years since I said good bye to my dad. I was going back to school to finish my last year at. Green mountain college and I did.nt want to go as usual. I had the usual knots in my stomach and didn't want to leave home again. On our way up, a cardinal had flown into the grill of my dad's black dodge truck. We found him when we got there. We got my room assignment and got all moved in. This time felt different for some reason. It wasn't until almost two weeks later that I knew ... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 21:23:53 EST 8/16/14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5761042 Well today was great. I took the kids school clothes shopping, only spent about$75 for three kids! We got a ton of stuff including two pairs of winter boots! I love our local salvation army. I'm not one to spend a lot of money on clothes for the boys. Since I've got three of them it makes it easy because you buy for the first and then all of them can use it. Except shoes, I seem to be buying about four paira year for the two older ones and only one pair of boots and sneakers for the little on... Sat, 16 Aug 2014 20:48:16 EST yeah it was a good day! :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5758507 Went to work today with my hopes not very high for succeeding today. Well I've proven myself to be better at my job then I first expected. With his grandsons help I managed to get my client in the shower today. I think it was a matter of just waiting for him to be comfortable with me and me with him. I put my bad shoulder out a little but it was worth it. I am happy with my results today because I actually accomplished what I set out to do. Then I made him home made real mashed potatoes with ... Tue, 12 Aug 2014 20:51:30 EST my Jonah day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755516 I start out with such high hopes and faith in myself only to be shot down and feeling discouraged. My new job is great, except for one little factor. He refuses to take a shower for me or even change his clothes without a fight. I've been brought up to respect my elders not force them into doing things they don't want to. So what am I supposed to do? I had to get his son to help me get him changed Atleast. I didn't push the shower issue. Now I feel like a failure because I didn't do my job as... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 04:41:28 EST letting it go http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5751299 I'm sure you've all heard the Disney song "Let it go" from Frozen. It has become my lives song. I started a new job but with my old boss. Three years ago I had to leave my position as a housekeeper due to two reasons. First was I was i7 months pregnant and 50lbs over weight. Second reason being the position was through the county and the state decided to get rid of it from the budget. Since then I've been working for my mom as my sisters life skills assistant. We'll about a month ago my old b... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 20:40:22 EST suburban girl turned country http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5747096 I grew up in the suburbs of new jersey not really knowing what it was to work on a farm. When we moved upstate to the country, we got horses and had to put hay in the barn. Now iI'm married to a farmer. We've been working on hay this week and I have been away from it for about three years and way out of shape for it. Well I've been working at helping my fil and husband put hay away....boy am I beat! But I feel better about it and like I've accomplished something today, now I suffer with horri... Sat, 26 Jul 2014 19:12:56 EST my 2 years here http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5741259 Time has definitely gotten away from me the last two years. I've been so busy with my babies growing them up that I hadn't realized I've been with spark for 2 yrs. As I sit here sipping my morningcfee watching them wake up I realize I am pretty lucky. All three are happy, healthy, and growing into such fine young men right before my eyes. I guess life's not so bad after all. They could be not as healthy, and not growing as they should. I sometimes get too busy to stop and see what I've been t... Fri, 18 Jul 2014 06:59:42 EST how can I turn back time? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5738071 What would you say to your younger self if you met him/her on a street one day? I would have too many things to tell myself. First I'd say to cherish every minute you can with family. Take better care of yourself, care less about what people think about you, try to find time for yourself as much as you can and trust more then you do now. I've got issues with trusting people, maybe because all my life I've always had someone making fun of me one way or another. In high school, my nickname was... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 18:24:14 EST a little bit of me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5732663 Ugh where to start? <BR> Well....favorites I guess is a good start....my favorite indulgence would have to be having a cup of chocolate raspberry coffee along with a couple more tsps of dark hot chocolate mixed in.....along with a quiet morning to drink it in. Which hardly ever happens at my house. <BR> <BR> Favorite critters would have to include my long time friend who's now passed my black percheron mare Chelsey. She tried my patience something terrible and she's the one I miss terribly.... Sat, 5 Jul 2014 18:40:28 EST why do I always find reasons not to do something http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5730232 I went to church on Sunday to find out that the current director of the preschool program has stepped down. They're looking for a new one. Well the only thing holds g me back is the simple fact that I'm not a current member of the church and I don't have any supervisory experience over staff but probably could do the job. Is this the Lords way of saying go ahead and I will help you or am I just wistfully thinking that this is right? I've got my degree in education, a bachelors of science whic... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 00:49:06 EST finally time to write http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5729986 So many times this week I've wanted to sit and write a blog out but haven't been able to because of time and circumstances. Well first off my oldests orthopedic appointment went great. They're going to dismiss him on July 17th. He's out of the brace and off crutches. Now I can keep him still for even a second! He's on the go and is so much happier now then before. Now onto my other situation that's been brewing. I applied for a job at the hospital for cleaning. I didn't realize what it entail... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 16:48:28 EST Busy week no rest for the weary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724395 Well my boys have two more half days left of school then we head to the doctor's office on Thursday with my oldest. I found out Saturday that the orthopedic he started seeing has left the office! I say good riddance to him! I didn't care for him much and am very happy to be rid of him. My mom and sister have left for the week leaving me free(almost) without pay...I'm ok with it for today, because I have enough to keep me occupied with charting the kids back and forth to school at 8 am then pi... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 20:19:51 EST schools almost over! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5721844 This year seems like it's been dragging its feet to get to the end. The kids have 3 half days next week and it's all over!!!! Can't seem to get here fast enough. Then we start with our summer of mom I'm bored can we go somewhere? Mom usually says yes but has to bring a lot of company. Then my company gets aggravated at me and it's no fun. Always turns into it without fail. Then our fun time ends up being stressful and aggravating on my part. We don't get to go anywhere because of lack of fund... Fri, 20 Jun 2014 05:39:14 EST my nonscale victory http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5717634 I took my boys to the church rummage sale last weekend and found some clothes for myself. I picked up a few pairs of jeans figuring they wouldn't fit being they were size 12. I looked them over, held them up and said ok why not. Got them home and sort of hesitated putting them on, but eventually I did. To my surprise, they fit!! I guess I've lost a little bit , doesn't feel it but I'll take it just the same. I'm on my way to finding more garage sale finds today hopefully I can! Have a great w... Sat, 14 Jun 2014 06:08:56 EST yup its been a while http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5710244 howdy everybody! Its been a while since ive written. I know, big deal! To give you a quick update on my oldests knee, dr says hes just got two very bad bone brises and a small fracture underneath one of them. Hes gotta stay on crutches until the end of school in about 3 weeks,, then were starting physical therapy hopefully. In other news, my hubbys goten himself a new toy to play with, a Kubota tractor for the farm. Hes all excited about it. Im ok with it because he needs it to move round bal... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 05:35:47 EST a sweet revelation from an unexpected place http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5702988 i had taken the boys outside to play and take some fun pictures, got to talking to my guys about not liking my picture taken.My oldest asked why mom? i just told him i didnt think i was pretty enough totake a picture of and i just dont take good pictures. Well, my son very sweetly said, " mom it doesnt matter what you look like on the outside, i think youre beautiful!" Words that almost brought me to tears. I dont see myself as beautiful at all. My dad used to tell me about all the guys sta... Sun, 25 May 2014 19:14:18 EST my life has stunk this week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5696892 My week started out alright without any trouble. Tuesday hit and all hell broke loose literally. My birthday started out ok but ended up in the er with my oldest. He was jumping on the trampoline and landed wrong on his knee snapping his pateller ligament. So hes up on crutches, in a brace and waiting to get an mri on the 28th of this month. Lucky me!! Sooooo lifes gotten more complicated to say the least. Ive managed to stay in bed last night only getting up once with my littlest and then i ... Sat, 17 May 2014 09:14:15 EST a mothers day funny http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5692672 I took my boys to church today and let them go to their Sunday school classes. I went into the sanctuary with my youngest because they dont have a nursery at the time i go, so hes gotta stay with me. My pastor was giving the sermon and my littlest decided to shoot his car across the back of the church left to right spooking my pastor from the podium. He kind of took it in stride and giggled a bit catching his breathe said...thank you for that one Charitie, i thought it was a mouse! So i guess... Sun, 11 May 2014 14:02:39 EST Mothers day, birthdays and flowers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5688722 My middle son will be sharing Mothers day with me! This year his birthday lands on mother's day. Funny because when I turned 7 my birthday also landed on mother's day. My dad gave me 7 red roses for a present. I guess that's why I get depressed around mother's day because my husband doesn't do stuff like that for me and I miss it tremendously. Seems just like another day and nothing to celebrate. I try to make the best of it but always end up with false hopes and disappointment. What makes it... Tue, 6 May 2014 08:28:23 EST wanted to say thanks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5683380 hbanks to everyone who has written on my blogs and given me goodies the last few days. Life has gotten away from me again and I haven't been able to say thanks. I am not able to put up any more fun pictures because my phone won't let me. Stinks cause there have been a lot of them I have found I wanted to post with my blogs. Oh well no biggie I suppose. Gotta keep this short cause my kids are still keeping me hopping. Think I'm going to pop some popcorn, get into my jammies and curl up with th... Tue, 29 Apr 2014 17:49:31 EST baskets, bunnies and eggs oh my! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5675759 With the grass finally sprouting, the flowers blooming there's lots of bunnies hopping around my house. I don't mean the furry kind. My boys are so excited for tomorrow they can't contain themselves! They're being extra good, or attempting to anyway...sort of like around when Christmas is here. Life has gotten difficult for a short time but I'm hoping this week it will pick up and get better again. Good news to tell, my f.il went to get another colonoscopy done. He's cancer free! He's only ... Sat, 19 Apr 2014 14:18:21 EST stupid stress anyway! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5669364 I've been trying to refrain from writing negatively this month....guess its not working...yup thought I had it made with the little one. No dice...yet anyway. Every night is a fight to get him in bed and I'm so tired I'm seeing things that aren't there. Its driving me crazy! About 11 yrs ago before my hubby n I were married, we got broken into. Had our back windows smashed in and our 2 week new 4 wheeler stolen. We recovered the wheeler 2 days later, but the scars of it still remain today. I ... Thu, 10 Apr 2014 21:50:57 EST finally! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668221 Last night, my mom gave me the idea of switching my oldest and youngest sons beds around because we've discovered that the littlest doesn't want to be alone at night. Sooo I did it, and sure enough he only got up once and fell out of bed once as well. When I put him back to sleep he wasn't crying or even complaining! Thanks mom for the idea! I got some sleep, but with missing almost a week or 2 worth of sleep, I fear a cold maybe in order for me. Unless its allergies, not sure yet. I took tod... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 12:15:46 EST a special treat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5663677 I am sooooo excited! Saturday morning my kids are going to my inlaws and I'm going for an hour massage! I've managed to save enough to get it done after not being able to all winter. I'm sooooooo happy! Then afterwards I'm heading to a local church to look at Easter baskets they're selling. I don't usually feel as though I deserve stuff because its been an ongoing problem I've got with myself, but this time I do feel as though I've earned it. I don't mean to sound so selfish on this one....ma... Thu, 3 Apr 2014 17:29:27 EST need help! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5658591 Ok here's the situation...my 6yr old son shakes something terrible. He eats something it stops or slows down. I'm getting a prescription from the dr to get him tested for hypoglicemia and diabetes. If it comes back that he is, how do I feed him when all he wants is stuff like carbs which aren't good for him? I have tried talking to him and explaining that he needs to eat better foods so he will feel better, it has only sunk in part way. HELP! I need ideas on what to give him protein wise that... Fri, 28 Mar 2014 11:45:51 EST i just want one week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5656525 Oh my goodness this week from wed to today has been unbelievable! Started wednsday with my middle son getting the stomach bug. He was home for a day, next day the baby gets it, next day I start with it, then Sunday my oldest gets it and finally my husband! Then it took from Friday until today for me to start feeling better and I go and wake up with a major migraine.I'm still suffering from it as I'm writing this. I would seriously like one week where nothing goes wrong and no one is sick! Ugh... Tue, 25 Mar 2014 20:47:16 EST ive decided to stop trying http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653665 My weight loss journey has hit yet another plateau. I have decided to stop trying to be the perfect size according to society, and just be me. I'm never going to be the "ideal" any more as I was before children came into my life. I may still have 20 to 30 pounds left to loose but I'm done with it all and not going to give it another thought. The moenys not there to join any kind of a gym, barely there to put food on my table for my family. I've got a trampoline in my back yard, and when warme... Sat, 22 Mar 2014 02:40:52 EST funny but annoying day today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5652690 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1069437746.jpg"> <BR> I had to throw this picture in for todays funny! Ok I woke up early this morning around 430. Loaded the furnace, got my dinner in my crock pot, and went back to bed for about a half an hour. Why you say? Well, today was my oldest sons science fair day. I wanted to get a jump start on things, and as my day played out, it was a very good thing. I woke up my youngest, due to the fact I needed to be at school by 8:25 this m... Thu, 20 Mar 2014 20:14:07 EST my newest creations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5650084 <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1808345103.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1203037739.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/4/l647046470.jpg"> <BR> The first 2 pictures are my petal scrunchie(the yellow one) the second is my ruffled scrunchie. The third is a picture of my white hat I did earlier I just embellished it a bit with purple yarn, and a cream and lavendar flower with a butterfly button attached to it. How... Mon, 17 Mar 2014 15:27:10 EST painful words http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5649408 Oh I want to curl up in a ball right now and cry my eyes out! My middle son and I were talking about our cat Smoky, and I said she was being lazy this winter because she usually goes out and you can't keep her in. Well my son added the phrase, "like you mom" afterwards. It really honestly hurt. I give my life for these boys, working day in and out and he thinks I'm lazy! Granted he's only 6, doesn't understand life yet, but still it hurt. I asked him if his dishes did themselves, if his meals... Sun, 16 Mar 2014 20:42:11 EST life has become annoying to say the least http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5645385 All I've gotta say is here we go again! My sisters back in the hospital, I'm out of work and my life seems pretty much hopeless at this point. I can't seem to catch a break from anything or anybody lately. I guess her shunt needs to be adjusted yet again to be working correctly. Which means another week in the hospital. Everybody keeps asking me why don't I geta nother job? Its easy for them to say when they're not stcuk in my position. I work for a company who pays me, my mother hired my and... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 13:14:57 EST hmm whats next? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5643402 Life this week has been challenging to say the least yet once again. Well the good news is that I'm back to work, hopefully for a while this time. Bad news, my furnace went down again on Friday. The same man that fixed it the last time came back and this time, he and my husband crawlled under the house and he showed him how to fix it so when it happends again, we can fix it without having to call them again. Yikes! 400$ worth of repairs in one week! I'm so ready for spring its not funny. Ther... Sun, 9 Mar 2014 08:21:40 EST