MEGAN6277's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MEGAN6277 MEGAN6277's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Ive gotta share this sweet gesture http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5918696 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l169252700.jpg"> My 3 yr old found about .30 $ on the floor. He was very excited, he came over to me and says," mommy money for gas for your jeep and donuts!" To any three yr old that little amount is an enormous fortune. When I take him with me to get gas for the jeep i always treat him to a little package of chocolate frosted donuts. He got a packave last week and ate all but one of them. We were headed to Lees house my 95yr old vet who has... Mon, 27 Apr 2015 19:59:10 EST tired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5918000 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1731078419.jpg"> Today i havent accomplished much of anything really accept getting annoyed and extremely tired. My world comes to a slamming crash on sundays so it seems. I rush around and clean and care for everybody throughout the week then need and desprately want a week home after it all only to push it aside and start all over again on monday morning. Its been my visious cycle for most of the yeR and Im tired of it. Im in a job that no... Sun, 26 Apr 2015 14:46:06 EST another crazy week behind me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5917146 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/8/l989633717.jpg"> This week has been so nuts its unreal! I had to take my puppy to the vet to be spayed and was without her for the night. Shes back home and warm. The weathers turned back into winter, we relit the outside furnace to burn up all the scrap wood that was left. So im back on duty for now. Ugh a job i love to hate!! My youngest is still getting over his ear ache and is scheduled to go to the dentist again for another filling. I wi... Fri, 24 Apr 2015 19:52:01 EST my unofficial bucket list http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5914727 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1230095274.jpg"> Lately all you hear about is this adventure or that adventure are on my "bucket list". Who came up with such an idea and why do we have to actually stick to it? Ive decided to create an unofficial list. These are things I might or might not actually get to. Sorta like a New Years resolution without the commitment. Ok here goes: 1. Id like to become a published author of childrens literature so I can work from home and make ... Mon, 20 Apr 2015 19:10:25 EST vitamin deficiency? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5913097 Ive been taking Natures Bounty PMS formula for about two weeks steady. It contains vitamins b12 &6, magnesium, b1&2, vitamin C, D, cranberry concentrate and borage oil. I feel great once I take it, but when it wears off, I get a racing heart, extremely tired, and a little hungrier then normal. Are these considered deficiency symptoms or is it just that my body is so low that what i take wears off and my bodys supply wears out by the end of it. I feel like an emotional mush head without it. I ... Fri, 17 Apr 2015 19:50:07 EST my Jonah day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5911915 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1717111827.jpg"> If anybody were to look at me crosseyed Id probably start balling on the spot. I found out my ex sils father passed away yesterday of cancer. Then this morning i go to put washer fluid in my jeep and found antifreeze all over my engine. I had to take my youngest to the dentist so i put more in and went. On the way back i stopped at the mechanics and he said he could fix it tomorrow. My sons friends grandmother showed up and ... Wed, 15 Apr 2015 17:59:20 EST its been a while http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5911581 Life has gotten crazy yet once again in my world. I havent had any time to settle down and do for me again. We rented a 20yd dumpster and have limited time with it to haul out our house. Needless to say, I started with the worst room and have moved to each room in the house attempting to toss anything broken, or unwanted to relieve some of the clutter. My husbands been working on the shed and garage along with work and taking care of his dads cows. Its been a challenge and a huge project, but... Wed, 15 Apr 2015 05:15:34 EST An intoxication only nature can fill http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5905161 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/9/l890105274.jpg"> Every spring I anxiously await the sounds of the redwinged blackbirds, and all the Canadian geese on our beaver pond in the back yard. I always say that there are so many that come back that their sound of reuniting with family members becomes literally intoxicating for me. I dont drink, or do anything else, but the good Lord gives me my intoxicating fill of nature after a horribly dreadful winter, its a very welcome sound an... Sat, 4 Apr 2015 06:57:06 EST why does sleep never happen? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5903983 For the last week I havent gotten much sleep yet again. I try so hard and have the best of intentions to sleep all night but it has iluded me. Its the same routine every night. I sleep till midnight or one and then my youngest jumps in bed, then I get him settled then the dogs start and continue until Im wide awake and they fall back to sleep. With leaving me only an hour left before my alarm goes off. Its very frustrating. Any suggestions besides shooting the dogs? ( not speaking literally o... Thu, 2 Apr 2015 04:49:14 EST April fools day prank http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5901334 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1436227872.jpg"> I know its not April Fools day yet but i was remembering a time when my grandma was staying with us. I was about 6 or 7 years old when she was with us for a little bit. It was April fools day and she was terrified of mice. I had a toy mouse for my cat filled with catnip and I decided to put it in her the underwear drawer of her dresser. I thought it was funny and boy did she scream! I got into a good bit of trouble over it, ... Sat, 28 Mar 2015 19:50:58 EST how do i? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5900423 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/7/l875359675.jpg"> With caring for my family, my job of caring for four elderly people, trying to keep track of constantly changing schedules how can i fit in any me time? I havent been very good at taking care of myself lately and desperately need some "me time". My daily routine can change in an instant so quickly. Ive tried to schedule it in the past but always feel guilty because ive had to put out someone else to do my job for a little whi... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 04:54:45 EST Life.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5896884 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1159097773.jpg"> I thought this picture was cute! Lifes been "on the rocks" again. Littlest has an ear infection, oldest is giving me attitude troubles, and the middle one is just trying to stay out of trouble for a change. Too many situations going on at once for me to deal with at the same time. But I guess thats how its gotta be I suppose. How does one deal with a sassy 9 yr old boy? He has starte to get all huffy when I tell him he cant ... Sat, 21 Mar 2015 08:33:45 EST I figured out what I did...duh moment! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5893183 Friday morning the weather was sunny and beautiful. I couldnt find my pups leash so I just cut her loose from the house. Big mistake!! She ran off down two houses to the amish property next door. I stupidly tried to pound through the knee high snow in oversized boots after her. I should know better but aparently I dont. I woke up this morning with bruises on my knee and got to thinking about it and thats why my knee has been bothering me all weekend long. DUH!! Sometimes I do things without t... Sun, 15 Mar 2015 07:34:24 EST my realization http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5892665 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/8/l788426175.jpg"> Four years ago when I got pregnant with my last son, I weighed 175. I had gained about 15 lbs from my other two children that I couldnt get rid of. On top of that 175 I gained 51 pounds and delivered my son at 226. Which I thought was horrible and it was. Over this time, Ive lost that 51 pounds and am back to my prepregnancy weight and back to loosing the weight from my other two boys. Im hoping to get that extra weight gone ... Sat, 14 Mar 2015 08:03:10 EST too sweet for words http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5892073 My husband needed to borrow my fils car because his truck is in the shop for a few days. He said it was ok but hed like it back today. My hubby said hed try, but why? Come to find out today is the anniversary of when my inlaws met 56 yrs ago. He wants his car to go get a pizza to celebrate it. I only wish my husband was taking notes!! My fil is almost 80 and from what ive gathered over the 11 years ive been with my husband, hasnt done much for my mil up until recent years. Theyve had a rough ... Fri, 13 Mar 2015 05:14:54 EST turning my dont want to into have to http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5889615 I am struggling with having to go to work this morning and not honestly wanting to. Im not feeling all that great and have a mountain of work ahead of me today. Id much rather curl back underneath my covers with my aching back and go back to sleep. If I didnt have to get my boys up for school, I could do just that. Then I think of Lee and Lois. Both of whom depend on me for taking them to the diner and making their lunches for them. Of course Ive also gotta clean both of their houses. Someday... Mon, 9 Mar 2015 05:10:23 EST weather forecast http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5889027 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1698622868.jpg"> Im sooooo excited! This weeks outlook is as follows: Awesomely warmer then it has been!!!! I have heard hints of spring with the return of the redwinged black bird as well!! Were almost done with this dreadful winter!!! Yes theres still chances of snow clear till June, (not serously but you never know here) it has snowed as late as Mothers day honestly. I had snow on my birthday when I started college in Vermont. I had gone ... Sun, 8 Mar 2015 02:00:36 EST easy day ahead http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5887276 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1535536540.jpg"> I first wanted to thank everyone who has been commenting on my blogs. I sometimes dont get the chance to thank everyone indivually. Well anyway like my title says, Im hoping for an easy day today. I only have to pick up some stuff at my clients house along with doing two days worth of dishes and taking him to the diner. It shouldnt take all that long to accomplish. My second clients granddaughter called last night and told m... Thu, 5 Mar 2015 04:41:37 EST i wish i was a bear http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5885754 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1474631967.jpg"> I drew this picture many years ago and have loved it ever since. Its very simple and basic but can tell so much about me. Again i dont know how to turn the picture once its been posted. Anyway, I wish many times during this hard winter like weve had that I could be this bear hibernating. This way I dont have to face any of this mess that I already have. I hope that you enjoy it and let me know what you think about my drawing... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 18:31:25 EST a funny for you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5882878 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/2/l427523152.jpg"> I wanted to post a few funnies but my phone won't let me.....I want my computer hooked up to the internet!! I thought this was worth posting.....I wish it would warm up its supposed to this weekend, I pray it stays instead of going back down again. I can't take much more. I long to hear the words.."let the furnace go" ....not sure if it'll happen or not this year. Have a good day !!! Thu, 26 Feb 2015 05:08:18 EST don't let someone else define you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5876025 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/6/l964554167.jpg"> I have always tried my hardest at what I do. I was always told by my father that if I gave it my best no one can expect anything more. How can someone give more then that? Not everyone's expectations for themselves are the same. Everyone is unique in their own way. This is what makes us human, and an individual person. I also have been told you can't go looking for your ideals outside of yourself. Its not what the world bring... Sun, 15 Feb 2015 08:14:14 EST lost and found http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5873614 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1735425042.jpg"> Since I have finally buckled down and gotten serious about wanting to loose weight, I've lost 5 pounds in two weeks. I've also discovered I've almost lost my double chin and found my rib cage again. Not sure if that counts as a non scale victory but I have just the same. Id been without either for almost four years since I was told my son was going to be born. Funny how you don't really stop long enough to notice such things... Wed, 11 Feb 2015 05:17:59 EST I got bored http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5872632 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/1/l915675449.jpg"> I decided to shovel my pathway up to my garage. Then I needed a path from the back of the house to the woodshed to get more wood. I can't depend on my overstressed husband to do it for me so I'm on my own. Here is a picture of my path I made. The snow has finally stopped and is knee high. I wish I could figure out how to post pictures turned the right way....aggravating!! Mon, 9 Feb 2015 15:58:22 EST my work in progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5871327 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1264621865.jpg"> My best friend is going to have some major surgery soon and I started crochetting this blanket for her. Its half way done and wanted your thoughts on border color. I've still got two more larger squares to make, so not sure except trying to think ahead on a border color....any thoughts? Thanks Sat, 7 Feb 2015 15:46:53 EST life strikes again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5864206 This week has been very difficult for me so far. I'm able to log into spark but unable to get points for my emails. Anyway, my mother in law called me Mon at work to tell me my son hadn't eaten or drinken all morning. So I said I'm just about done I'll be there. In the meantime I called the dr and they say let him come in in an hour. (I'm a half .hr away from my .mil) I say ok and fly to get him. I get there just in time only to wait a half .hr to see the dr. Next think I'm faced with a secur... Wed, 28 Jan 2015 04:48:13 EST I seriously need a buddy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861360 I'm not sure what most people expect but I need someone to be accountable to and also to be a friend. I'm also not exactly how the whole thing works either, help!! All I seem to do is clean house because that's my job. I clean two places each day then come home and clean my own. Least until I'm exhausted and flop on my rocking chair. I also haul wood once a day for our outside wood furnace, and chase after my puppy when she's run off to the neighbors. Which is a long ways off. In the summer I... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 03:09:37 EST walk a mile in some else's shoes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5856172 Many times I think about what someone else may think of what I'm doing during the course of a day's time and think why bother? My life is very hectic and confusing and I am always being thrown curve balls. My friend from church who has no job nor any children stopped by to see how I was. We'd agreed to read a book of her choosing and go over it. I tried to tell her I'm honestly not sure how or when I could meet with her to discuss it. She tells me I have to carve out time to do it. There are ... Sat, 17 Jan 2015 02:22:36 EST my fur baby http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5851692 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1371871523.jpg"> I've wanted to get a picture of my pup up for a while now and haven't been able to. She's an American eskimo and about 6 1/2 months old. Her name is Snowflake. She's got more energy then me at times. She's a pill but keeps me hopping. She likes to run off to the very back of the yard where its swampy and be gone for a while. She also likes for me to come chase her. So some of my weight loss lately has been from chasing her ... Sun, 11 Jan 2015 10:29:00 EST cool I figured it out!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5850010 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/7/l97316319.jpg"> I've wanted to write a blog but haven't been able too. Well as you can see my furnace is frozen. It happened twice last year and so far once this. All we have to do is drain the water and ice out of the line and it should be ok. The weather has been friged this week. Kids have had two days where they've gone to school late because of below zero temps. I despise winter it's beautiful if you don't have to go anywhere. Well my pi... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 05:48:58 EST a very heavy heart http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5837126 I had to take my little guy to the doctor's because I suspected an ear infection. Why does mom have to be right? He's got one all right. He's also always had a murmur, I've been told they will out grow them much as my older boys have. Well this one seems much different. She says it's a systalic murmur and because of family history of cardiomyopothy, she wants to get him an echocardiogram done. Then tells me not to get stressed about it. Uhmmmm too late!!! I knew it was gonna be one of them I... Tue, 23 Dec 2014 05:19:56 EST have a merry Christmas!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5832680 I wanted ti wish everyone a very merry Christmas! Lately time seems to be slipping away from me so quickly I can't turn around. My father in law is slowly on the mend, becoming frustrated because he can't do much as of now and doesn't understand the word rest. Well I suppose I don't much either. He's a farmer who is 79 and not retired yet....but forcibly retired due to his kidney surgery to get rid of his stones. He's never known how to stop and enjoy life until now. My husband's the same wa... Sun, 14 Dec 2014 05:42:26 EST what does my exercise routine consist of? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5821732 Many days it seems to revolve around my schedule but many days I do a lot of cleaning. Does it count as exercise ? My day starts out getting the furnace set for a few hours, then the kids off to school, my youngest to his grandmother's, then it's off to work. I get my client his meds, take him forabreakfast or make it whichever he wants, get back, then I start in cleaning. I strip his bed, throw it in the laundry, remake his bed with different sheets. Then I move to the kitchen. Doing dishes,... Sun, 23 Nov 2014 16:41:27 EST my crazy world! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5813255 This month seems to be holding its own craziness already. First off, my fil has been dealing with bladder stones, he's set for surgery on Dec 4th on his kidneys and prostate. I guess they're going to see if the cancer has come back. Plus they'll take care of the stones in his bladder. My sister has an ekg set for Monday this coming week. She keeps blacking out and then don't know why. Then my mom is going in for a complete upper and lower .gi scan to see what's going on with her stomach. Also... Sat, 8 Nov 2014 19:59:20 EST I'm too relieved to grieve! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5811048 My life is changing yet once again. My mom has hired someone else to do my job with my sister and I'm not upset by it! I feel as though the weight of the world has been lifted off me and about 100lbs lighter. As the song says, I'm too relieved to grieve. I have picked up two more clients and yes the pay may be less, and it's dropped me to 20 hours s week between them and my current client, but I'm not worried about it at all. I'm doing just the opposite, for the first time I'm at complete pea... Wed, 5 Nov 2014 02:43:09 EST chocolate apple pie smoothie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5800736 Here is a recipe I love to make <BR> <BR> 1 apple peeled and chopped <BR> 1 banana broken into pieces <BR> 1/2 tsp honey <BR> 1/2 tsp cinnamon <BR> 1 tsp baking cocoa <BR> 1 scoop of vanilla protein powder <BR> 1/2 cup of Greek yogurt (your favorite kind) <BR> 1 cup of milk, or as much to make it a little thin...your desired amount of thickness <BR> <BR> Blend all together and enjoy! <BR> <BR> My boys love this recipe as well. It seems to go over well with a teething almost three yr old. Sun, 19 Oct 2014 07:48:07 EST 10/17/14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5799635 Seems like everything is getting to me lately and I've become overwhelmed with life. I've had too many things going on at once, I'm not sure where to put .my attention first. I've been called a piece of trash by someone I once considered a good friend, which hurt but I'm no longer friends with them after about 20 years. Its really sad that hurting people need to hurt others to make themselves feel worth while. I feel many days as though I'm running around so fast I run past myself many times ... Fri, 17 Oct 2014 05:17:55 EST 10/1/14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5790157 Last month was very difficult on me. I know not many of you will ever know how difficult, but I am grateful it could've been a lot worse. I've learned a lot, not lost more then two lbs. I'm very disappointed about it. But I've only been off my birth control pills a month. Hoping it would've worked quicker then it has but oh well such is life. Anyway, I'm hoping for better results for October. I know I haven't been very helpful to anyone and for that I am sorry. Someday I don't have time to ev... Wed, 1 Oct 2014 06:05:14 EST 17 years and still as clear as a bell http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5761674 Its almost been 17 years since I said good bye to my dad. I was going back to school to finish my last year at. Green mountain college and I did.nt want to go as usual. I had the usual knots in my stomach and didn't want to leave home again. On our way up, a cardinal had flown into the grill of my dad's black dodge truck. We found him when we got there. We got my room assignment and got all moved in. This time felt different for some reason. It wasn't until almost two weeks later that I knew ... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 21:23:53 EST 8/16/14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5761042 Well today was great. I took the kids school clothes shopping, only spent about$75 for three kids! We got a ton of stuff including two pairs of winter boots! I love our local salvation army. I'm not one to spend a lot of money on clothes for the boys. Since I've got three of them it makes it easy because you buy for the first and then all of them can use it. Except shoes, I seem to be buying about four paira year for the two older ones and only one pair of boots and sneakers for the little on... Sat, 16 Aug 2014 20:48:16 EST yeah it was a good day! :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5758507 Went to work today with my hopes not very high for succeeding today. Well I've proven myself to be better at my job then I first expected. With his grandsons help I managed to get my client in the shower today. I think it was a matter of just waiting for him to be comfortable with me and me with him. I put my bad shoulder out a little but it was worth it. I am happy with my results today because I actually accomplished what I set out to do. Then I made him home made real mashed potatoes with ... Tue, 12 Aug 2014 20:51:30 EST my Jonah day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755516 I start out with such high hopes and faith in myself only to be shot down and feeling discouraged. My new job is great, except for one little factor. He refuses to take a shower for me or even change his clothes without a fight. I've been brought up to respect my elders not force them into doing things they don't want to. So what am I supposed to do? I had to get his son to help me get him changed Atleast. I didn't push the shower issue. Now I feel like a failure because I didn't do my job as... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 04:41:28 EST letting it go http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5751299 I'm sure you've all heard the Disney song "Let it go" from Frozen. It has become my lives song. I started a new job but with my old boss. Three years ago I had to leave my position as a housekeeper due to two reasons. First was I was i7 months pregnant and 50lbs over weight. Second reason being the position was through the county and the state decided to get rid of it from the budget. Since then I've been working for my mom as my sisters life skills assistant. We'll about a month ago my old b... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 20:40:22 EST suburban girl turned country http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5747096 I grew up in the suburbs of new jersey not really knowing what it was to work on a farm. When we moved upstate to the country, we got horses and had to put hay in the barn. Now iI'm married to a farmer. We've been working on hay this week and I have been away from it for about three years and way out of shape for it. Well I've been working at helping my fil and husband put hay away....boy am I beat! But I feel better about it and like I've accomplished something today, now I suffer with horri... Sat, 26 Jul 2014 19:12:56 EST my 2 years here http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5741259 Time has definitely gotten away from me the last two years. I've been so busy with my babies growing them up that I hadn't realized I've been with spark for 2 yrs. As I sit here sipping my morningcfee watching them wake up I realize I am pretty lucky. All three are happy, healthy, and growing into such fine young men right before my eyes. I guess life's not so bad after all. They could be not as healthy, and not growing as they should. I sometimes get too busy to stop and see what I've been t... Fri, 18 Jul 2014 06:59:42 EST how can I turn back time? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5738071 What would you say to your younger self if you met him/her on a street one day? I would have too many things to tell myself. First I'd say to cherish every minute you can with family. Take better care of yourself, care less about what people think about you, try to find time for yourself as much as you can and trust more then you do now. I've got issues with trusting people, maybe because all my life I've always had someone making fun of me one way or another. In high school, my nickname was... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 18:24:14 EST a little bit of me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5732663 Ugh where to start? <BR> Well....favorites I guess is a good start....my favorite indulgence would have to be having a cup of chocolate raspberry coffee along with a couple more tsps of dark hot chocolate mixed in.....along with a quiet morning to drink it in. Which hardly ever happens at my house. <BR> <BR> Favorite critters would have to include my long time friend who's now passed my black percheron mare Chelsey. She tried my patience something terrible and she's the one I miss terribly.... Sat, 5 Jul 2014 18:40:28 EST why do I always find reasons not to do something http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5730232 I went to church on Sunday to find out that the current director of the preschool program has stepped down. They're looking for a new one. Well the only thing holds g me back is the simple fact that I'm not a current member of the church and I don't have any supervisory experience over staff but probably could do the job. Is this the Lords way of saying go ahead and I will help you or am I just wistfully thinking that this is right? I've got my degree in education, a bachelors of science whic... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 00:49:06 EST finally time to write http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5729986 So many times this week I've wanted to sit and write a blog out but haven't been able to because of time and circumstances. Well first off my oldests orthopedic appointment went great. They're going to dismiss him on July 17th. He's out of the brace and off crutches. Now I can keep him still for even a second! He's on the go and is so much happier now then before. Now onto my other situation that's been brewing. I applied for a job at the hospital for cleaning. I didn't realize what it entail... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 16:48:28 EST Busy week no rest for the weary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724395 Well my boys have two more half days left of school then we head to the doctor's office on Thursday with my oldest. I found out Saturday that the orthopedic he started seeing has left the office! I say good riddance to him! I didn't care for him much and am very happy to be rid of him. My mom and sister have left for the week leaving me free(almost) without pay...I'm ok with it for today, because I have enough to keep me occupied with charting the kids back and forth to school at 8 am then pi... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 20:19:51 EST schools almost over! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5721844 This year seems like it's been dragging its feet to get to the end. The kids have 3 half days next week and it's all over!!!! Can't seem to get here fast enough. Then we start with our summer of mom I'm bored can we go somewhere? Mom usually says yes but has to bring a lot of company. Then my company gets aggravated at me and it's no fun. Always turns into it without fail. Then our fun time ends up being stressful and aggravating on my part. We don't get to go anywhere because of lack of fund... Fri, 20 Jun 2014 05:39:14 EST