MEETSADMAMA's SparkPeople Blog MEETSADMAMA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Writing helps my brain process...warning personal stuff I don't really have a whole lot of people I can turn to at this moment until the those involved have told those they want to tell 1st. My Mom is getting told tomorrow but it's still just mind boggling and heart breaking that I just need to get this off my chest. Here is safe because there's no one on here that knows those involved. <BR> <BR> It's about my niece. She's 5. It was her weekend to be with her Dad. Ohhh where to even begin??? The order it was told in, or the order it went do... Sun, 4 May 2014 23:25:42 EST Life is short!!! It Can Be Gone In An Instant...Never Forget That Received a message from my best friend earlier in the week...she was on the way with her family to the city (about 2 hours from us) to be with her aunt in the hospital...her aunt had been airlifted down - no other explanation was given since she was heading out just then and she was the one driving a group of them down. <BR> <BR> Several hours later I was sent a text that simply said, "___ and ___ (her cousins that are only 19 and 22) had to decide whether or not to do the surgery to remov... Sun, 27 Apr 2014 00:55:32 EST Results So Far So we're still in the early stages of the challenge...we are only on Week 4 of 10. So far I've lost a total of 5 lbs (+1,-5,-1). Already half way to my 10 lbs lost goal =] <BR> <BR> Doubt this week will show a loss. I need to go get groceries very badly but haven't been able to go. It's too windy to take the lil ones out the last couple days and I need too many groceries to take them since I'll definitely need a cab to come back home and I'm not trucking around 3 car seats in the store... Sat, 5 Apr 2014 16:49:56 EST Proud To Be In My Own Skin!! Thurs was a birthday party/going away party for the one girl I was doing daycare for her son. I wanted to go out and look nice. Something I normally dread getting ready for. <BR> <BR> In the past I hated dressing up because I always felt disappointed in the nice clothes I have...which isn't much since I HATE getting dressed up. I used to feel dumb getting all ready for something nice and I just wanted to get home and strip down to my nice comfy normal clothes LOL. <BR> <BR> I haven't wor... Sat, 29 Mar 2014 23:27:14 EST Goals - Deadline May 22 As promised, here are my goals for this round of The Biggest Loser. May 22nd seems it's so much further away than 10 weeks LOL...well less than 10 weeks now LOL. <BR> <BR> Goals: <BR> - lose 10 lbs <BR> - min of 120 mins cardio per week <BR> - min of 45 mins strength training per week <BR> <BR> Reward: <BR> - new swimsuit <BR> <BR> Weigh in is tomorrow and I've been already peeking at the scales. You know when you just "feel" lighter? Well I had that feeling on Sat so of course if y... Wed, 26 Mar 2014 10:53:30 EST Another Beginning 1st I want to apologize to anyone I haven't gotten back to in the last couple days. I will be in touch soon - I promise!! <BR> <BR> This week would be March Break...It's my one uninterrupted week with my older children...MY ONLY week that I get with my older children that is uninterrupted. Also we are celebrating the twin's birthday this coming weekend since theirs is really next weekend and the older boys won't be here. March break also means that I have an extra daycare child...great fo... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 23:44:38 EST Through The Thick Of It All in all I have no choice but to be proud. Winter will no longer be getting worse and signs of spring should be approaching in the next month or so with any luck. Oddly enough we're having a thunderstorm as we speak - that's not common...who has thunderstorms in Feb??? <BR> <BR> Daycare is going well enough. Not as comfortable with the financial end of it as I'd like to be but it's not as stressful as I feared it might be. However received news that soon I will be losing the one beca... Thu, 20 Feb 2014 23:29:44 EST Out With The Old And In With The New!! It's official!! He's out!! He was supposed to be out Thursday but not at all surprised it took this long. <BR> <BR> Daycare starts back up officially tomorrow!! It'll be nice to have some steady income again. Joe plans on giving me money each time he gets paid (bi-weekly) so that it's easier for him and so that it helps me too. Plus the girl I'm watching for, pays me every 1st and 15th each month which is nice, and monthly I receive money on the 10th and the 20th. Each time it's never ... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 23:23:18 EST Go Away Old Man Winter!!! Yes, I live in Canada and despite the stereotypes, where I live we don't have half the winter everyone thinks we do...except this year!!! Usually we're lucky to have enough snow on the ground to cover it by Christmas Day and Jan and Feb are our worst months but nothing to get too worried about. This winter we already had "all our snow" by beginning of Dec. It's been years and years (like when I was little) since we had that much snow. <BR> <BR> Right now we are buried for the 3rd time thi... Wed, 29 Jan 2014 15:33:17 EST Burnt Out I've been trying really hard to stick to the plan but I'm officially burnt out. I'm still averaging about 4 hours of sleep a night and workouts are no longer making me feel great. I have decided to recover a bit before trying again because my joints are too sore to continue. <BR> <BR> I've decided that since a lot of what's going on can't be controlled so for now I'm just going to aim to survive Jan. Then Feb when Joe is moved out and the younger kids are visiting their dad, I'm going to ... Thu, 16 Jan 2014 12:00:56 EST Day 2 & 3 - Making Better Choices Yesterday everything was too out of sync to get anything accomplished during nap time. This is the kind of day that gets me down and I skip doing anything for myself and just focus on what actually HAS to be done VS doing the things I want to make my new priorities. SO that means I didn't work out right?? <BR> <BR> NOPE!!! As soon as kids went down for the night...I started up a video and did as much as I could handle and I felt bad for packing it in at 15 mins but my lower back had had e... Thu, 9 Jan 2014 15:54:12 EST Today's Choice I've always been an excuse maker and I've always had to battle that when it comes to doing anything...weight loss, organization, keeping promises, etc. Doesn't always mean I use the excuses but that all depends on how heavy I weigh the importance of what I'm doing. <BR> <BR> Are they even good excuses??? Most of the time - yes, yes they most circumstances. But in mine they aren't or at least shouldn't be valid ones EVERY day. If I truly want this to be my life, then I can't let ... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 18:05:02 EST Unintentionally Impacting Our Children At Christmas Lucky for me that I have 5 kids so I get lots of "do overs". This year I came to realize in the past my parents and myself have given "Santa" a negative point of view without realizing we're even doing it. Not sure what I mean??? Here's what I've noticed... <BR> <BR> As I child I feared sitting on Santa's lap not because I thought he was scary, but because I was self conscious. My family used to say I was a big girl all the time...not meaning weight wise, but that I was tall. I had been... Tue, 10 Dec 2013 03:37:39 EST Accepting Change So much has been going on off and on and off and on and it feels like a never ending battle to get some stability here. Some more big changes are happening for sure now. <BR> <BR> Daycare was off to a good start but the little boy I was watching isn't adjusting as quickly as his Mom would like PLUS she's had something else come up with an opportunity to have free daycare for a bit that will be at home. She's thinking this is the way she'd like to go even after the daycare is no longer fr... Tue, 3 Dec 2013 00:23:12 EST Plan Ahead and Focus Day 9 Ok so today was good and bad. Of course I didn't get around to putting car seats away, or figure out anything for the hats and mitts, or track my food, or get on my elliptical, or manage to call 50 volunteers (wow didn't realize I missed so much on my to do list!!) but I found my bank card and I did call quite a few volunteers. I would've easily gotten at least 50 in no problem but I spent a good majority of the time calling people back that had either left messages on my phone or at the fo... Tue, 26 Nov 2013 01:07:00 EST Plan Ahead and Focus Day 8 Still need to print out contact form for daycare. Forgot to do it when kids were napping, so have to wait til they go to bed tonight. <BR> <BR> All 3 kids are bathed and ready for bed even though it's early =] <BR> <BR> Did some more laundry. Decided to do a bunch of the blankets too!! <BR> <BR> Still working on call back organization. I decided to come up with my own sheet that has all the info on one page. This will save me a lot of time later on and it will be helpful and easy to re... Sun, 24 Nov 2013 19:47:36 EST Getting Wore Out But Still Making The Plan Yesterday I managed to fill in all but 1 slot which I was later told that night that this is the most they've had filled on the 1st weekend in a long time and that they were really impressed especially since there was another event going on this weekend that used volunteers called "Christmas In The Country". I didn't realize it was ok to have free spots although I do realize that the more we fill the more we can raise for the food bank. Best news is that I have a great start already for nex... Sat, 23 Nov 2013 22:12:31 EST Plan Ahead and Focus Day 6 Ok so I missed posting yesterday but I did however come up with a plan. It was just such a long day that I just wanted to go to bed. <BR> <BR> Yesterday's results for Wed - I managed everything except the Fit Test ... completely forgot about it =/ On the plus side, I was just shy of calling 75 volunteers =] <BR> <BR> So the goals I had for today were quite simple. I had 14 time slots to fill for Friday which is our kick off day (yep that's not much time to get them filled!!!). My goal w... Fri, 22 Nov 2013 01:35:56 EST Plan Ahead and Focus Day 4 Ok so how did I do?? Let's see...half of the dishes are done, forgot about oatmeal, I made the salad =], remembered to cook roast on time =], no exercise, called 50!!! volunteers, forgot to do BL fit test, and none of my wish list. <BR> <BR> So all in all, not too bad! I have to really focus tomorrow because a lot NEEDS to be done. There's just no way I can't get it done. <BR> <BR> Plan for Nov. 20: <BR> - walk to Walmart when oldest leaves for school <BR> - buy all baby stuff for the ... Wed, 20 Nov 2013 00:52:37 EST Plan Ahead and Focus Day 3 SOME success today. I was super tired again this morning but Joe had passed out on the couch early last night so I made him deal with the kids and I went back to bed for 2 more hours. Also helped that we did sleep in compared to normal too so I didn't get up til 11 am =S but I needed the sleep since I was up til after 3:30 in the morning. <BR> <BR> So I didn't eat the oatmeal and I didn't have the salad and I forgot last night to change the hamburger helper to say meatballs, mashed potat... Mon, 18 Nov 2013 23:39:14 EST Plan Ahead and Focus Day 2 So today was not at all as planned. I've been sleep deprived for weeks and it's been getting worse lately because my wee one is cutting teeth and only sleeps for 3 hours at a time. It has caught up to me now and I woke up with a headache. I forgot about the oatmeal and I didn't have lunch because I was trying to get the kids down for a nap so that I could too. Unfortunately that didn't go as planned because baby decided to let me sleep for only 15 minutes =/ which just made me feel more t... Sun, 17 Nov 2013 23:04:20 EST Plan Ahead and Focus Day 1 Plan for Sun Nov. 18th: <BR> - eat oatmeal for breakfast (I always buy it but forget to eat it) <BR> - have cucumber and tomato salad for lunch <BR> - hamburger helper for supper, made with ground turkey <BR> - sort through laundry and put it away <BR> - do 2 rounds of exercise each at least 10 mins long <BR> - log BOTH fitness and nutrition, excuses <BR> <BR> It's also my 2nd oldest son's birthday...I'm hoping to call him - he's at his Dad's this weekend. <BR> <BR> ... Sun, 17 Nov 2013 00:47:47 EST Not Sure Of A Title... Things are smoothing out for the most part. Well not really but I'm able to keep up with everything at home and in some aspects I've been getting ahead of the game =] <BR> <BR> I have started the organization for the Christmas kettles for our food bank. Housework is kept up almost everyday now. My room still hasn't made any progress but I don't plan on focusing on it any time soon. <BR> <BR> The deal with my room was that Joe was to watch the ids when he was home so that I could catch ... Sat, 16 Nov 2013 11:06:56 EST Thanksgiving Was SOOOOOOOO Last Month LOL I can look forward to not having to deal with the Thanksgiving festivities that most of you will be facing quite shortly =] One less obstacle my way!! We had ours last month which is probably part of the reason I didn't have an overall loss for the month. Better than having an overall gain!! <BR> <BR> 1 day til I set up my meeting!! <BR> 4 1/2 weeks til I can get my new cell phone!! <BR> 5 weeks til one of the family Christmas's and the parade!! <BR> 7 1/2 weeks til Christmas!! <BR> <BR>... Sun, 3 Nov 2013 01:26:39 EST Thoughts I managed to get all 3 hats finished just in the nick of time for Halloween. The minion hats turned out pretty cute but not so sure they'll be as great for winter as I had hoped. Oh well they'll do for now =] <BR> <BR> It's been raining for almost 3 weeks non-stop!! Blah!! Really hard to get my walking in if I can't get out of the house for long =/ People have been nice and giving us rides but that doesn't help get the fitness in. <BR> <BR> My apt is pretty much set up once again for... Fri, 1 Nov 2013 22:51:01 EST Declutter Challenge <BR> <BR> Ok so my room has ALWAYS been the place to throw EVERYTHING. If it doesn't have a spot yet...toss it in my room! Can't get to where I want to put it because of sleeping kids or some other project going my room it goes! Sorted through the other room and I want to post it online to get sold...toss it in my room til I get around to it. You name the reason, it's there out of convenience and because it's the last room at the end of the hallway so no one is likely to see it.... Thu, 24 Oct 2013 23:26:13 EST Lots Going On - And It's All Good Stuff Too!! No 5K BUT I'm now the co-ordinator for our town to set up people at the locations the food bank collects donations at =] I'm in charge of our entire town to take off the stress from the other lady that has to do 3 smaller towns. I'm pretty excited about this!! I get the list of names of volunteers that want to help the 1st week of Nov. Pretty excited to be such a big help in something so important!! They really like how organized I was when trying to set up the 5K. They want to see how ... Tue, 22 Oct 2013 00:17:05 EST Plan Ahead to Get Ahead!! Hello everyone! <BR> <BR> I've been struggling lately. Having a hard time staying motivated. I've decided that I've got to start treating this more like a disease, because it really is one. I'm obese and it will kill me one day. If I want to get better I need to treat my disease by eating right and exercising regularly. If I had any other sort of disease, I'd be taking Dr's advice and following it to a T. Why is this any different?? It's not a "when I feel like it" thing. If I want to avoid ... Fri, 11 Oct 2013 01:08:53 EST I'm Struggling Again I'm not in a negative mood and I'm not feeling down. I'm just having difficulties doing what it takes to be a healthier me. I think about the things I need to do but I've gotten into this groove of things where it feels like I'm stuck on auto pilot and I just do things. You know like when you're half asleep and you're aware of things around you and you know you're doing stuff but at the same time you don't actually feel like you're doing what you see. I used to do this when I was depresse... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 01:34:51 EST Please Vote My Wee One To Be The Next Gerber Baby =] I would like to ask all my Spark Friends if they would take just a second and vote for Natasha to be the 2013 Gerber Canada baby. You need to have a facebook account and you are required to "LIKE" Gerber to vote. <BR> <BR> Here is the link: <link><BR>5748744800134 </link> EDIT - Not sure why link isn't working...I'll look into it <BR> EDIT#2 - there we go!! It should work now =] <BR> <BR> It should take you directly to her pic to vote but if not, t... Thu, 3 Oct 2013 21:23:30 EST Distance Cheat Sheet ... Since I don't have a vehicle I do an awful lot of walking. There's quite a few places I walk to regularly and I always forget how far each place is so to same time I'm making this cheat sheet and bookmarking this blog =] Makes it easier to put into the tracker AND to convert to miles for the 100 mile challenge we have. <BR> <BR> Foodland - 700 m (.43 miles) <BR> Mac's - 800 m (.5 miles) <BR> Food Basics - 1.5 km (.93 miles) <BR> Dr Office/Counsellor - 1.9 km (1.18 miles) <BR> Tim Horton's ... Sun, 29 Sep 2013 23:19:44 EST Another Busy Week =] This week has been another busy week. <BR> <BR> Had my meeting with our local food bank and sounds like if I can get the green light by the middle of next week then it's a go =] Just waiting on the horse track manager to let us have a meeting with them and see if we can host the 5K race there and what they require us to have in order to do that. <BR> <BR> My cell phone was down part of the week (just back up tonight) which made things a lot more difficult for a bit. One of the twins gra... Sun, 29 Sep 2013 00:17:43 EST Still Finding My Groove... I love my children more than anything in the world, but with small ones it can be hard to find a routine that sticks, since there's is ever changing. It's hard to make a routine that's somewhat flexible right now too...with a teething baby and the twins weren't napping and now this week I think they're a bit under the weather because I can barely get them to make it past lunch before they pass out while playing and they still have troubles staying up til bed time. If it's not that then they... Tue, 24 Sep 2013 00:21:40 EST Sept 20/13 Negatives... <BR> Forgot to post yesterdays!! <BR> <BR> Natasha is cutting A LOT of teeth and she is NOT handling well. Only 2 hours of sleep last night and she was awake most of today. Lots of crankiness to go around. When the twins have been around her crankiness for too long they get into trouble and they like to throw little fits to get attention. Long day even if I DID get enough sleep!! <BR> <BR> I've been away from ALL boards lately. Need to catch up...probably won't be til Sun/... Fri, 20 Sep 2013 23:15:04 EST Sept 18/13 Almost forgot to put in my thoughts for the day!!! <BR> <BR> Negatives... <BR> Baby has been sleeping decent off and on since after supper which means I'm probably going to be up super early =[ <BR> <BR> I've been terrible at time management the last couple days. Yes my life is busy all the time and it's highly likely I won't get much done some days...all the more reason I NEED to stay on top of things. It's ok to have a "break" day and not do anything BUT I need to not make it into a c... Thu, 19 Sep 2013 01:48:53 EST Pretty Good Day Overall =] I'll start with negatives 1st since it's always best to end on a positive note... <BR> <BR> Can't say much bad really. Had a wee bit of a headache but nothing that effected anything, It's back again now but that's because I'm really tired - it's almost 4am and I haven't been able to get to bed yet. Thanks Lil Miss!! Good thing she's so adorable!! Every time I get frustrated from lack of sleep she gives me the most adorable smile =] <BR> <BR> Oh one more crappy thing...I didn't realiz... Wed, 18 Sep 2013 04:14:23 EST Venting Is My #1 Tool To Stay On Track =] I know I seem negative a lot and negativity isn't great for weight loss or a healthy lifestyle. In all honesty, the majority of the blogs I post is simply because I need to vent because I have no one to talk to or the person I vented to didn't help me get it all out completely yet. So I jot it all down and as I do it becomes a thought process for me. When I don't vent I break down and I have a hard time doing regular day to day functions and just become depressed and for lack of a better w... Tue, 17 Sep 2013 00:20:50 EST I'm A Magnet To Bad Things! ***I'm just venting so I feel better and can get over it - I'll be fine in a little bit*** <BR> <BR> I had big plans today. It's Walmart's Anniversary sale and for once I had $ to go to it and get ahead of the game. The problem with these sales is that if you don't get there the 1st morning of the sale you're out of luck. <BR> <BR> The best case scenario was, Joe would run up and grab his pay cheque last night (they won't do direct deposit), I'd get up and be at the bank soon after it ope... Fri, 13 Sep 2013 09:49:56 EST Changes I had my PC hooked up to our big screen tv but it's been really hard finding time to get on it to catch up with everything so I brought our desk out and now it's hooked up to both the monitor AND the tv. Best part is...I think the split screen option means I can play a movie on one and then go online on the other!!! If that's the life has just changed dramatically for the better. Twins can be distracted by their ABC and Number Movies while I catch up on SP!!! YAY!!! <BR> <BR> I hav... Tue, 10 Sep 2013 01:55:40 EST Goals For The Fall Challenge So I've put a lot of thought into my goals this time around. I didn't want to just pick a couple things I know I need to work on and hope for the best because I know that I will do well for a while and then it just won't matter as much as it did in the beginning because there's other things I need to do too to keep seeing the results. So I've decided to have a theme I guess you could say. <BR> <BR> My theme is RAISING METABOLISM. <BR> <BR> 1. At least 64 oz of water daily <BR> 2. 10-15 ... Sun, 8 Sep 2013 00:51:40 EST Nice Guys Finish Last Just feeling down lately. Feels like I'm always stuck with the bad luck. Can't catch a break. Always forgotten about. It's never anyones fault. No one TRIES to, but it just always ends up that way. <BR> <BR> Had a bad night Wed. Thurs wasn't much better. Thank God for my best friend...pretty much the only highlight of my day. She took me shopping so I could buy clothes with the money dad sent me for my birthday. Then she took me out for lunch. My 10 year old didn't show up for his ... Fri, 6 Sep 2013 22:52:24 EST Under Consideration I am still trying to figure out what I'd like to set as my goals for the Biggest Loser Fall Challenge. I want to make them easy to achieve since last time around I really struggled for half the challenge but at the same time I don't want to sell myself short. <BR> <BR> So far what I HAVE decided, is that I'm going to stick to a theme. "Being more consistent" was specific enough and I really need to have a better focus for myself if I want to continue moving forward. My focus I have decide... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 00:52:44 EST 10 Weeks In June I was hyped to get back on track and work on my consistency by joining a Biggest Loser Challenge. I was dying for it to start and I couldn't wait to post my initial weigh in. I remember making my goals for the challenge and I had remembered from previous challenges that I would always OVER ESTIMATE how I would do and then always be upset with my results. So with that in mind I set very reasonable goals and I thought that these ones would be VERY achievable. <BR> <BR> Here's look... Sat, 24 Aug 2013 00:30:28 EST Persistence Tonight's word is PERSISTANCE. <BR> <BR> I was talking to my oldest son and he had mentioned about some discussions he had been having with his dad. He is concerned because his father is coming up with new ways to try and make him not want to come on the days he's supposed to be coming to my place. This upset my son. <BR> <BR> I fought tooth and nail to get the time I have with them and it's all through the courts. He paid a lawyer a hefty sum of money to end up agreeing to what I put ... Tue, 20 Aug 2013 23:53:28 EST Tonight's Uplifting Word... After discussing the uplifting words last night I have decided that tonight's word is REFLECTION...reflection helps us to focus more on what we've been doing and more importantly, what still needs to be done. After yesterday's words and blog I DID NOT do any of the things i planned to do and for no reason that I can think of besides the fact that I just didn't feel like getting around to it and then suddenly I felt it was too late to get anything done. <BR> <BR> I'm going to use my reflecti... Tue, 20 Aug 2013 00:09:27 EST Uplifting Words For our final week in the Biggest Loser Challenge Team I'm on - we are to think of an uplifting word each night as we're getting ready for bed and then tell about the next morning and about the events that caused you to think of this word. <BR> <BR> I did check out the challenge earlier in the week and I did at points of the day each day remember about the challenge although the last couple days, not at night though. I haven't had a chance til yesterday to get online for more than a couple... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 00:06:19 EST You Could Call It A Mini "Stay-cation" Forgive me for not blogging yesterday. Kind of a dumb story and not really in the mood to divulge any of it since it's negative and I still have a headache from that and from lack of sleep still. So skip the negative and onward we go... <BR> <BR> Tomorrow my Dad will be coming here. Not sure what time. He likes to keep things like that a surprise that way he's never early nor late LOL. He's staying for a week (I think I said this all the last blog but can't remember and my head is throb... Sun, 11 Aug 2013 00:55:47 EST Let The Streaks Continue =] Today is the mad dash to get everything done before I start daycare tomorrow. I've been doing everything I can to get everything done but lil miss is 100% against me today and so the majority of everything is still left to do. I think when we go buy her diapers this weekend we're going to get her some baby cereal. I'm really thinking she's just hungry and even though she's drinking plenty of milk it's just not satisfying her like it should be. Maybe she'll get back into her old sleeping r... Thu, 8 Aug 2013 22:41:37 EST Day 30 - Mirror Challenge This is it!! Last day of my 30 day challenge =] As I had mentioned the other day...I still plan on making myself look in that mirror every day but this time I'm only going to post pics weekly instead of daily. <BR> <BR> Today was not a very good day food wise or for fitness, I was only able to get 15 min of the 25 min workout in for 2 reasons. 1st reason - my shoulder was very sore for some reason but only when I was doing the push ups and planks and then it would go away a few mins afte... Thu, 8 Aug 2013 00:29:00 EST Day 29 - Mirror Challenge 1st day my kids have been back since having their vacation with their dad. I have come to realize that some of the stress that I have is simply from having too many people in my home at one time and I'm trying to stay on top of everything and that's why I feel overwhelmed. I haven't had that stressed feeling like that in a while now. Not meaning that my older boys create a lot of stress, but that I create myself more stress because I try and be on top of everything that is going on in t... Tue, 6 Aug 2013 23:55:32 EST