MEEMAH2013's SparkPeople Blog MEEMAH2013's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I know I had a good work out when..... I know when my work out is good when there is sweat on my brow, I talked myself out of quitting 3 times already and the is a giggly feeling in my legs. My mood would be elevated and I feel on top of the world. This has only happened a few times however I have seen my time exercising increase gradually. Almost I invisible if not looking for it. My exercise partner (my neice) pointed it out to me just this week. I was feeling discouraged. While trying to boost me up she mentioned that since ... Thu, 13 Feb 2014 20:36:50 EST God's Good Gift My devotions today took me to <BR> James 1:17 Every good action and every perfect gift is from God. <BR> <BR> Ever feel like you have nothing? I know I sure have, do and will again? It is so easy to fall into doldrums of negative thinking. Especially when trying to lose weight. Often our negative thoughts were the basis for our weight gain. We find ourselves in a vicious circle that widens wider and wider as we see our thighs do the same. Feeling sorry for ourselves, feeling hopeless ... Wed, 15 Jan 2014 21:04:03 EST Jan 11, 2014 LITTLE CHANGES I am feeling wonderful today. I just had a wonderful workout with my daughter and my niece. Oh, I know it is not where I should be at, but I pushed myself more than I normally would. I tried interval walking before but usually stayed away from changing my incline and only change the speed. Today I made myself a little routine of varying incline then vary the speed, vary incline, then speed. I did this for a little over 30 minutes. I know I will feel it tomorrow, but I feel awesome right ... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 11:27:39 EST January 9th 2014 Today I was reading from "Grace for the Moment" By Max Lucado. It really hit home when I read the portion of scripture at the top of the page for today. <BR> <BR> Hebrews 4:15 Our high priest is able to understand our weaknesses. He was tempted in every way that we are, but He did not sin. <BR> <BR> He understands! He has been there! Done that! <BR> <BR> When I want that chocolate bar, or that bowl of ice cream. When I hit the snooze button and go back to sleep instead of going to... Thu, 9 Jan 2014 20:28:15 EST Goal for Succcess I am sitting here trying to focus on my ultimate goal. Is it a low body weight that I want to achieve? Is it healthy eating habits? Is it a healthy mind set? No matter what I think it could be, I find my answer being the same. My ultimate goal will be all the above and many, many more things. There will be so many positive outcomes from this adventure that no one thing will be able to capture the whole picture. With that being the case, I know that no one solution is the answer for my s... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 18:02:33 EST If at first you don't succeed.....try, try again. I am here again. I am trying to convince myself that with each try I get better, more knowledgeable, more confident... I am not doing well with convincing myself. But I am trying to be positive. After all, if I am back here again then I haven't lost all hope. Right? And despite everything, I didn't do a total relapse. My weight is still in the same range as when I left. Not heavier and no lighter. That in itself is a big thing to me. So I am going to try to pick up where I was at but ... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 21:01:17 EST Another day....A new day! Today I am starting my fitbit program in conjunction with Spark People. I am hoping for increased honesty and accountability. I have also re-started my Spark Coach program. I am taking it back to my Fast Break so I can do it all over again. I need to treat it as a restart of everything from day 1. So here goes! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Tue, 23 Jul 2013 10:27:17 EST So I needed more help...... Well, Here I am again. I slipped back again. This time I will do it better, I know it! I got the flex fitbit. I have hope in the in your face reality it will give me. I need to gain back the motivation and hope in a better tomorrow. Thank you all for never giving up on me when I gave up on myself. You all are the best. I know I can do all things through Him that strengthens me. With Him and you all....I can't lose! I won't loose! Mon, 22 Jul 2013 21:31:44 EST I am Baaaaaaaaack! Hello, My Friends! I have missed you! <BR> <BR> To fully explain where I am at this moment, I must first tell you where I have been during the last two months. So first, I will review the past: <BR> <BR> 1) There were many distressing moments during the month of April. First I was sadly disappointed in what was to be marked a milestone in my journey to a better me. My first 5K walk. I know some of you remember the excitement I had in participating in this 5K walk. The walk was a disap... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 13:51:16 EST Hi everyone! Hello All! I am back from my time in the hospital. The surgery went well. Minimal bleeding from bleeding disorder. Healing is slow. I can't lift over 10 pounds for 2 months. No strenuous exercise for 2 months. Walking must be slower than 3 miles per hour. My incisions itch like crazy! <BR> <BR> I hope you all are doing good! I missed Spark People like crazy! I am glad to be back! Sat, 27 Apr 2013 18:22:14 EST April 21 5K walk So I had the 5K walk today. But I must say that it has to be one of the biggest let downs I have had since I Started my journey to better health. It was to be my first big goal. I had planned on it for weeks and weeks. But it all fell apart..... <BR> <BR> The 5K walk/run/punisher was a fund raiser. And I understand that. But the walk portion was so unorganized, under-rated, and totally un-emphasized! The walk was around the "punisher" program. You had to step over cords and around obs... Sun, 21 Apr 2013 12:21:08 EST April 14-20 Weekly recap April 14-20 Goal summary <BR> <BR> 1) Mind over body #3 Tame your "Toxic Guilt" before it wipes out your willpower. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>s_articles.asp?id=692 </link> <BR> <BR> 2) Daily Blog 5 out of 7 days <BR> 3) Comment placed on other peoples blogs (2/wk.) 24 <BR> 4) Comment on other Spark page (1/wk.) 9 <BR> 5) Welcome new Sparkers to my teams (3/wk.) 29 <BR> 6) Post on message boards (2/wk.) 27 <BR> 7) Stash Buster Challenge Tally update 4 ... Sat, 20 Apr 2013 21:52:57 EST April 18 2013 Today I started a new Spark Coach program. I choose to go on to the "Plateau Busting" program. I know that I wasn't on a plateau, but I feel that this might help me get back into doing what I need to do consistently. I hope it does help me! Thu, 18 Apr 2013 21:36:28 EST Sunshine here today I had a good walk outside today. I loved the sunshine and I walked over 2 miles. I am excited about my 5K walk on this Sunday! I am even more excited because there will be others out there with me! My niece and my husband and my sister! Whoo hoo. My husband is and has been a runner for years. My niece is the one who got me to go to the gym. My sister is status post lap band and due to numerous health issues is loosing slower than she wants. But we all will be doing good! Wed, 17 Apr 2013 22:03:18 EST April 7-14, 2013 My recap of last week is a bit behind but here it is! <BR> <BR> April 7-14 <BR> <BR> 1) Mind Over Body 10 step resource. <BR> Step 3) Don't Let Toxic Guilt Wipe Out Your Willpower <BR> Learn how to exercise your healthy lifestyle conscience and avoid those bad feelings that send you running to the refrigerator every time you slip up. <BR> <BR><BR>ness_articles.asp?id=692 <BR> <BR> <BR> 2) Daily Blog Complete: only 5/7 <BR> 3) 2 ... Tue, 16 Apr 2013 19:10:08 EST I am on a high I am so thankful for where I am today. You may never know the feelings I have inside. But I hope this will help you understand..... <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> God's Love for us is so much more than our mistakes, He loves us as we are and not as we should be. Sun, 14 Apr 2013 20:06:16 EST 3 Months of Sparking! 3 Months! Whoo Hoo! <BR> <BR> I can’t believe what all I have gained (or lost) during the last three months. I reviewed my Blog entries. And I found my first one very comical! It went like this: <BR> <BR> January 19th <BR> What I really need to talk about this new food (What did they call it?) Oh yeah, FRUIT! If it isn't an apple, orange or strawberry I don't know it. I don't know how to prepare it. I don't know how to cook it, (does it need to be cooked?). What does it taste like and ho... Sun, 14 Apr 2013 09:32:08 EST 3 months April 14 I have been reviewing my progress for my anniversary of 3 months on Spark People tomorrow. Wait to see what I have been able to find out about myself! Sat, 13 Apr 2013 23:42:47 EST 4/11/2013 I am feeling blue. I don't know if it is the weather, my thyroid, my depression or have I burned myself out! I was notified of my surgery date to day, it will be on April 24. They were able to set it up after my 5K walk on April 21. Maybe what I am feeling is the "shut-down" I do when I am stressed. I am not sure. But I have learned that I must keep on the high road and seek out the rainbows, I will see this through, I have come so far already and have lost more than I thought would be... Thu, 11 Apr 2013 21:34:17 EST 4/10/2013 It is great when people tell me I am an inspiration. I get kind of teary eyed, my breath hiccups and I giggle just a little. But me, being the type of mind that I am, had to look the word INSPIRE up and see in black and white what that really means and how that meaning could provide me with motivation to continue to be an inspiration! <BR> <BR> inspire : <BR> (transitive) To infuse into the mind; to communicate to the spirit; to convey, as by a divine or supernatural influence; to discl... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 21:17:29 EST April 9th Morning I have been thinking about what my experiences have been so far in this journey to a healthier being. I can't believe how far I have come in only a few months. It will be 3 months on April 14th. I have grown in so many ways, it is crazy! <BR> <BR> I have said many times that this program is all about the lifestyle and becoming a healthier person. And I also say that the weight loss is only a bonus. But even in the weeks that I didn't lose, I still grew. Emotionally, mentally and spir... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 11:38:05 EST First week of April recap I have been away for the weekend. I logged in and did the very minimum saturday (Spark Coach) but didn’t on Sunday. I hate myself for that because I have to start my streaks over! And I thought I was doing so good, 31 day streak for log in. Oh, well. …. <BR> <BR> But I can’t be down…..I reached a goal! I hadn’t even realized that I had reached a goal! My first goal of 240 pounds has been reached and I have put the money aside for my new fit bit wrist band. I can’t wait until they are ... Mon, 8 Apr 2013 23:12:10 EST April 5,2013 <BR> 1) Mind Over Body 10 step resource. <BR> <BR> Step 2) Take the stress out of weighing in. Regain your power over the scale! <BR><BR>ne <BR> ss_articles.asp?id=690 <BR> <BR> <BR> er_body_fat.asp <BR> <BR> 2) Daily Blog Complete: Yes <BR> 3) 2 blog entries by other SparkPeople each week: 3 done today <BR> 4) 1 comment each week on someone's SparkPage: 0 done today <BR> 5) 3 new persons on my teams ea... Fri, 5 Apr 2013 23:16:16 EST April 4,2013 April 4, 2013 <BR> <BR> Today has been hectic so I haven't done as much today as I have wanted. I need to find a way to do all this quicker! <BR> <BR> 1) Mind Over Body 10 step resource. <BR> Step 2) Take the stress out of weighing in. Regain your power over the scale! <BR><BR>ne <BR> ss_articles.asp?id=690 <BR> <BR> <BR> er_body_fat.asp <BR> <BR> 2) Daily Blog Complete: Yes <BR> 3) 2 blog entries by ot... Thu, 4 Apr 2013 23:46:48 EST April 3, 2013 goals for the day April 3, 2013 <BR> <BR> 1) Mind Over Body 10 step resource. <BR> Step 2) Take the stress out of weighing in. Regain your power over the scale! <BR><BR>ne <BR> ss_articles.asp?id=690 <BR> <BR> <BR> er_body_fat.asp <BR> <BR> 2) Daily Blog Complete: Yes <BR> 3) 2 blog entries by other SparkPeople each week: 2 done today <BR> 4) 1 comment each week on someone's SparkPage: 6 done today <BR> 5) 3 new persons o... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 21:32:39 EST Blog Short Whoo Hoo! I finished one goal: I finished my 5k my way and lost 7" total inches since I started Spark People! Whoo Hoo! These were things from March goals and March measurements! I am so excited! <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> (sorry this info is a repeat. I just got psyched!) Wed, 3 Apr 2013 21:00:50 EST April 2, 2013! April 2, 2013 <BR> <BR> 1) Mind Over Body 10 step resource. <BR> Step 2) Take the stress out of weighing in. Regain your power over the scale! <BR><BR>ne <BR> ss_articles.asp?id=690 <BR> <BR> <BR> er_body_fat.asp <BR> <BR> 2) Daily Blog Complete: Yes <BR> 3) 2 blog entries by other SparkPeople each week: 2 done today <BR> 4) 1 comment each week on someone's SparkPage: 1 done today <BR> 5) 3 new persons ... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 23:29:45 EST April 1, 2013 My blog for today! April 1, 2013 <BR> 1) Mind Over Body 10 step resource. <BR> Step 1) Put the “I” in Your Weight Loss Plan. <BR><BR>ss_articles.asp?id=690 <BR> <BR> <link><BR>er_body_fat.asp </link> <BR> <BR> 2) Daily Blog Complete: Here it is for today <BR> 3) 2 blog entries by other SparkPeople each week: One done today <BR> 4) 1 comment each week on someone's SparkPage: <BR> 5) 3 new persons on my team... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 22:48:59 EST Where I am I was looking on my friend feeds and I am a little bit distressed. I haven't given God and Christ the time they deserve on this Easter day. I find myself sad because my husband is a difficult man. One whom I love dearly but I find myself pulled further and further away from my Godly walk and I know a lot is due to my husbands beliefs. I ask everyone to pray about this. I need to keep my focus where it belongs and not close God out out of my daily walk because of the difficulties my fait... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 00:12:10 EST April's Goals - Building Healthy Habits So I am looking at April 2013 and wondering what is in store for me this month. The end of March was very rocky and I feel like I am losing the battle of the willpower. Because of this I want to list the following Goals for April - building up healthier habits. <BR> <BR> 1) I will review and implement the Mind Over Body 10 step resource. (I have included the link below if you are interested.) <BR> <BR> <link><BR>er_body_fat.asp </link> <BR> <BR> 2)... Sun, 31 Mar 2013 08:59:23 EST Today I will start again! Each day is a chance to start anew the paths we have traveled so far. If we do something wrong we can fix it and try again. That is if we see the mistake(s). Often I do not see the things I do wrong, yet I am condemning me to the death. Why can't I give myself a break and love myself for who I am? But I am learning. God has worked within me to be more understanding. I will make myself (starting tonight) write down all of my "wrongs" that I am aware of, then I will burn the paper! The... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 22:48:46 EST this weeks goals I may be a day or two behind but I remain focused on the road ahead. This weeks goals have touched me and effected me enough to start putting together next month's weekly goals. I am excited for the next month, but I remain grounded to March. <BR> <BR> March 2013 - last week of the month! <BR> <BR> 1) consistency - review of my Spark Streaks shows that despite a few off days earlier in the month, I remain above 90%. <BR> - Log in and spin - current 13 days longest 31 days consistency 4... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 20:45:20 EST Future visualization (Coaching Session 3/25/13) Todays session encouraged visualization of the future to encourage today. Looking at future 10 years from now then visualizing what I would say to myself looking 10 years back. What would I say? That is a good question. First I must say it was easy to visualize what I would be doing ten years from now. I can see it well............ <BR> <BR> I see myself walking out of my home. It is around 5am and it looks like it promises to be a bright sunny morning. A little bit brisk, I can see m... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 21:45:10 EST Oh Boy! I have so much I wanted to write but I feel I need to limit it my words so that I may catch up on some serious sleep. <BR> <BR> Well, I am back at home. And whether or not anyone else will admit it there, are three things I always miss when I am away from home. My husband, my dog, and my toilet. (not necessarily in that order!) No two are alike and it never feels like home until you have shown all three how much you have missed them! <BR> <BR> This last week has been a roller coaster of ... Sun, 24 Mar 2013 21:32:22 EST Sorry I am at my moms this weekend. Limited computer access. So I won't be around much this weekend. I will miss everybody. I will log in and spin the wheel(s). I remembered to bring my exercise bands. I will catch up on so much Monday. I just hope I remember it all. But I promise you it will be exciteding! Love you all! Fri, 22 Mar 2013 21:15:46 EST Life is busy The last to days have been stressful. Due to emergency surgery on my aunt, whom I have been really close to, I have not had 100% success at my goals. However, before I get too critical, I have had small successes. I have maintained my water intake and have consumed at least 8 glasses of water a day this week. I have also stayed under my high end calorie range even if the choices I have had to make were not the best or most fulfilling. I have still worked in some walking and strength tra... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 22:23:25 EST Week of March 17-23 March Goals - a review <BR> <BR> 1) Maintain consistency in check ins/Spinning the wheel(s) throughout the Month of March. <BR> 2) Progress through the challenges in the 5K My Way challenge until it's completion. <BR> 3) Maintain a minimum of 3.1 miles 3 days a week striving to increase speed and stamina <BR> 4) Complete 30 minutes of strength training at least 3 days a week <BR> 5) Continue on in the "Tame Your Sweet Tooth Challenge" to it's completion. <BR> 6) Read and memorize one bible v... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 00:53:41 EST Has my journey been painful so far, or adventurous? My Spark Coach program today asked me that question. You know, I really hadn't thought about it as adventurous. So I thought I would dig a little deeper into what it meant to be adventurous..... <BR> <BR> ad·ven·tur·ous <BR> /adˈvenCHərəs/ <BR> Adjective <BR> <BR> 1. Willing to take risks or to try out new methods, ideas, or experiences. <BR> 2. Involving new ideas or methods <BR> <BR> So, Yes, it has been adventurous by definition. <BR> <BR> When I began Spark People I didn't ... Sat, 16 Mar 2013 23:13:32 EST March Goals - Bible verse for Week of 3/9 to 3/3/16 Verse for this week is one of my favorite ones! Assurance of Victory! <BR> <BR> No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to man; but he is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it. 1 Corinthians 10:13 <BR> <BR> Wow! What a verse. It offers so much hope for us in all aspects of our lives. I want to share a little story with you to show you Gods faithfulness... Fri, 15 Mar 2013 15:42:22 EST Ok! I got that out of my system! Now that I have reviewed my teams and caught up a little I want to review my March goals. <BR> <BR> 1) Consecutive/Consistency <BR> I blew that, but my reasoning was valid. I can forgive myself for that and get started anew! I love a new beginning! <BR> <BR> 2) 5K My Way: Well I didn't finish my fourth week due to illness so I think I will just get out there and see what I can do today and decide where to go from there! <BR> <BR> 3) Does not go into effect until I finish the 5k My W... Thu, 14 Mar 2013 19:34:37 EST I am back. I am so blessed by all of you here at spark people! You are the best. I have never been hit so bad with 3 virus' at the same time!! OMG! I thought I died! I was so close to being hospitalized. If it wasn't for my being a nurse I think I would have been. But weird as it is, they left as quick as they hit. I woke up this morning like I was never sick! How great is that! <BR> <BR> So, now that I am back I realize just how much I missed you all and how much this program orients me to the... Thu, 14 Mar 2013 18:43:13 EST Lost days I am so sorry to tell you that I have been so sick since Saturday and I still have not fully recovered. There are many different things that have come up wrong with my body all at once. My defenses must have been down. I haven't had enough energy to even get on the computer. I know that this is wrong but even now I feel myself wain..... I still can't do it. Forgive me friends. I miss you all! Wed, 13 Mar 2013 15:20:28 EST March goals Today I feel really proud of myself and my progress. I was thinking that I wouldn't lose much and then I get shocked because I lost 3 pounds. I actually got just below 240 (239.8) I don't think I have been below 240 since before my back surgery in 2010 ! And I definitely didn't feel this good and I wasn't exercising then! It just made my day! I walked faster today and walked 2.5 miles at 4.0! That was the fastest I have walked! Enough of that! <BR> <BR> March Goals: <BR> 1) I have ch... Fri, 8 Mar 2013 22:37:04 EST March goals- Bible verse for 3/3 - 3/9 Today as I look at my new March goals, I see that starting this mid week puts me a hair or two behind. So I don't get too frustrated catching up and moving forward, I have decided to concentrate on one thing each day. Today it will be the bible verse. I know through faith that everything will work together, so it is a good stress free way to start. <BR> <BR> This weeks Bible verse is: <BR> <BR> Assurance of prayer John 16:24 <BR> <BR> Until now you have asked for nothing in My name; as... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 15:07:14 EST New goals for March I have decided to develop new goals for each month. All of which will lead me to my final goal of a healthy lifestyle and weight. So for March I have developed this: <BR> <BR> 1) Maintain consistency in check ins/Spinning the wheel(s) throughout the Month of March. <BR> 2) Progress through the challenges in the 5K My Way challenge until it's completion. <BR> 3) Maintain a minimum of 3.1 miles 3 days a week striving to increase speed and stamina <BR> 4) Complete 30 minutes of strength tra... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 00:28:10 EST Ambivalence I am ambivalent about my Spark People journey and my need for surgery. I have suffered a dreadful two days of turmoil trying to reconcile my head and heart to this change in plans. I believe I have come to a conclusion that is in my best interest. Despite my doctors sense of urgency, my medical background and research has determined that this procedure is purely for my convenience. This surgery only has minor possible health issues (if any) that it may or may not correct. <BR> <BR> H... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 00:23:04 EST Surgery in the works. Today I had a follow-up appointment for an ongoing problem. All told, i need to do some behavior changes, lose some weight, and have a simple surgery. But the surgery will keep me down for six weeks. No straining, no lifting and no exercise. I am freaking out. For several reasons. First, I am losing weight in a positive way that I don't think I have ever done before. I don't want to stop my journey. <BR> Second I will have to put a stop on my first 5K. This might be the biggest issue... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 18:17:36 EST Tame Your Sweet Tooth Challenge Week 2 So I have been thinking about my level(s) of sweet tooth cravings. And I feel I might be able to deal with them a bit better if I first identify the level of intensity...Like a pain scale 0-10. It would go like this.... <BR> <BR> 0 - No cravings or literally brain dead <BR> 1 - Little to no cravings acknowledged <BR> 2 - Kind-of, Sort-of there but only a wishy-washy craving <BR> 3 - I acknowledge the craving but I can put it out of my mind <BR> 4 - Craving is becoming slightly anno... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 22:36:51 EST Been real busy! I feel bad that I haven't spent as much time in the community forums as I would like. I don't want anybody to think I was bad! I tried to atleast huddle on most of my team walls everyday. But I don't feel that was as fullfilling. I miss all my friends. Please don't feel slighted. I certainly didn't intend it to be that way! God bless you all. Maybe next week will be better! One can only hope! Sun, 3 Mar 2013 00:06:11 EST Read this blog<BR>ournal_individual.asp?blog_id=5267578 <BR> <BR> If you haven't yet read Sharon's blog about "My body Pledge of allegiance, you should. Above is the link. Let's spark other's! Sat, 2 Mar 2013 23:28:19 EST