MEDUSA1977's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MEDUSA1977 MEDUSA1977's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Back at it again, week 1 down. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5700296 I started back up at Spark People quietly about 8 days ago. I weighed myself and I'm starting off at my heaviest weight EVER: 266lbs! I've never shared my starting weight before because well, it's kind of shameful to me. Just typing makes me want to immediately erase like if I don't put it down no one will ever know. But the fact is I know and no matter how I try to conceal it, that's the truth 266 lbs. Does that mean I'm a terrible person? No. Does that mean I'm unattractive? No. Does that m... Wed, 21 May 2014 21:48:07 EST Balancing Act http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5350283 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/3/l934602296.jpg"> <BR> I have been really struggling as of late. I feel like the whole best laid plans of Mice and Men is happening to me. <BR> <BR> I really need to figure out some balance and how to focus on more than one thing at once.. I am not a good multi-tasker. It seems like the weeks I'm really rocking the whole healthy lifestyle change thing are the weeks I'm not getting enough work done. <BR> <BR> And the weeks were I'm hyper foc... Wed, 8 May 2013 20:46:35 EST When I hear music it makes me dance... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5318962 Music had always had a big part in my life. I've found that in the last few years I've stopped a lot of things that really made me happy and really made me, me. I've let my weight gain really hold me back form things that are enjoyable especially in the music area. I stopped being in band because I was just kind of embarrassed of myself, I mean you can't really hide behind anything on a stage. I mean it's not like we had any gigs but merely discussing the idea would send me into a panic. <BR... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 22:01:03 EST Checking in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5310830 I've started like 3 blogs this week but got distracted with other things, boy it's been a busy week. <BR> <BR> So here's the run down. <BR> <BR> Thurs- Worked during the day and then made it to the Picasso in Chicago exhibition at the Art institute. The hubs and i had lots of fun doing that. Ate a quick dinner at Roti, it was ok. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1792028560.jpg"> <BR> Fri- Hooky day with the Hubs! We both took a much needed day off from work. We spent... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 23:36:40 EST Fingers crossed! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5302671 Last month I gained weight during my TOM, I pretty much always do but this time with the help of being part of a team challenge and reading up and being prepared I was ready for it. <BR> <BR> I pushed through and did my exercised even when I was feeling heavy and bloated and just like crap. You know what I discovered? Working out seems to help with my cramps, I mean I still got them but they were not as debilitating as normal. Exercise also seemed to help with bloating and back pain. <BR> <... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 00:06:59 EST Zumba! Why is this so fun? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5300252 I admit it, Zumba is fun. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/6/l46392930.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I resisted it. I mean that music is NOT the kind of music i listen to. I'm not a club kid and I've never been, take me to a punk rock or good indie rock show and I'm a happy happy gal, as long as it's good. <BR> <BR> But there's something about Zumba that's just kind of infectious, I definitely feel a lil silly but it's kind of fun feeling silly. It's fun to shake your money maker whi... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 01:07:48 EST Sick of being sick http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5293091 So I've been sick, I picked up this pretty nasty cold last Thursday and it's still hanging on. <BR> <BR> Out damn cold, out! <BR> <BR> This is also how i feel about the cold weather, out damn weather, out I say! Seriously this cold weather has got to go!! And take my cold with you cold weather! <BR> <BR> <BR> I started my Biggest Loser Challenge on Thursday, yep the same day this cold began. I wanted to start my challenge strong but life had other plans. I worked out thurs night instead ... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 23:50:58 EST Goals for the Next Six weeks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5271544 March 3- April 14th <BR> <BR> 1. lose 13 pounds by April 14th <BR> 2. Drop 1 inch from each of my measurements <BR> 3. Cardio at least 2z a week for 30 minutes each <BR> 4. Strength training at least 2x a week for 30 minutes each time <BR> 5. 8 glasses of water a day <BR> 6.Menu plan every week <BR> 7. Try 1 Spark video at least 1 x a week <BR> 8. Eat at least 1 serving of fruit at least 1x a day. <BR> 9. Meet Protein minimums everyday <BR> <BR> Plan for this week: <BR> Menu Plan: <BR> <... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 18:55:15 EST Bad news, good news... and a review! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5271186 The bad news: Well I haven't been the best this week at counting my calories or getting all my exercise in. In fact, I've only kept track 2 days and I'm pretty sure I went over on cals, 2 maybe even 3 days. My monthly visitor came this week and well during her wretched visit I've lacked some serious motivation, been tired, bloated, crampy, and have been craving coke (the Coca Cola kind) and Chocolate something fierce. Unfortunately I indulged in my Coca Cola addiction this week. <BR> <BR> ... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 13:58:08 EST Had a little detour last week to Pleasure Island... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5256194 Last week I detoured big time. It started with my Birthday and dinner at Anteprima, an Italian restaurant. I had planned for it and knew I was going to be a little bad but a set a few limits, no take homes and only 2 glasses of alcohol. Dinner was really good with the best celery root soup I've ever had, so good and speckled with cannelini beans. My friend was our waiter and since I just couldn't decide between the Bucatini with red pepper, Arugula and Pecorino or the Swiss chard and ricotta ... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 12:33:18 EST I know you've heard this one before.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5245148 But I'm super frustrated. The scale has not been kind. In fact it hasn't budged, oh wait except for that half a pound weight gain. <BR> <BR> <BR> Last week I got my monthly "friend" and was up 1/2 a pound. I thought I was doing good, made it through my dreaded week 2 with a 1.5 pound weightloss and then boom my period comes. I'm up 1/2 pound. <BR> <BR> That didn't worry me too much because many women experience weight gain through their periods and I'm definitely one of them. A few years ... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 13:35:53 EST Devora's High Energy Workout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5240769 This DVD was part of a set I bought called 7 days- 7 workouts. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/7/l475141582.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I did 32 minutes, not sure how long the total workout is. <BR> <BR> This workout is not exactly what I'd call high energy but it is kinda fun. I did get a little warm and a little sweaty but I didn't feel like my heart rate was way up or anything like that. It's more of a hip hop routine than a high energy workout, with some fun dances lik... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 21:15:59 EST Denise Austin's Fatblaster Yogo or what I like to call the Yoga that made me cry. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5235817 I swear I'm not a crybaby! But something about this one just kind of snapped something in me. I felt like those people on the Biggest Loser who have breakdowns on the treadmills. <BR> <BR> Denise Austin - Fat-Blasting Yoga <BR> Run time 65 minutes <BR> 3 sections: 1. 30 minute yoga poses performed in a flowing style to increase the heart rate <BR> 2. 15 minute workout focusing on arms,shoulders, legs, and buns. <BR> 3. 15 minutes focusing on core streng... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 14:29:45 EST Week 2 hasn't broken me yet! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5232474 This week has been stressful and I figured as much. Week 2 has always been my biggest hump to get over. I think I'm doing pretty well so far. <BR> <BR> Week 2 has been all about figuring out how to satiate my bad food cravings without making bad choices. It's funny I never had a huge sweet tooth or been a big snacker. I love to cook and I've almost always cooked at least 5 times a week, we much prefer to go out to a nice dinner than get greasy takeout. I mean don't get me wrong I love fries ... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 23:51:33 EST Weekend, Pilates for Weightloss, and going into week 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5225849 This weekend was a really good one. I had to do some work this weekend to get ready for an event that my business is doing next week in New York. I was really really stressed going into Friday night and after going to the post office after work I just did not feel like cooking. So we decided to do delivery, normally this is a sticky subject in the food area while we don't do delivery very often in the past when we have its been really, really, really bad food. Stuff like eggplant parmesan san... Sun, 27 Jan 2013 16:30:29 EST Dancercize- Salsa Cardio Workout and a little of the Hip Hop http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5222238 Day Two- It's my cardio day!!! <BR> <BR> I'm ready to shimmy and swing these hips into shape! <BR> <BR> Dancercize (purchased at Target) <BR> Contains 4 workouts: <BR> Hip Hop for Beginners <BR> Belly Dance for Beginners <BR> Salsa Cardio Workout <BR> Jazz Dance Workout <BR> <BR> Goal was 30 minutes. <BR> <BR> What I choose to do: Cardio Salsa Workout 25 min long + Hip Hip for 5 minutes <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1378817443.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This was an... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 21:17:20 EST Total Body Makeover Yoga http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5219228 I started my fitness plan yesterday (Yay me, hehe). I decided that I'm going to blog about each exercise/DVD workout that I do. I think it will help me keep track of how I"m feeling, what I liked/disliked about each workout, and just my progress. maybe someone else would like to hear about a workout before trying who knows? <BR> <BR> My goal for the next 6 weeks is to workout 3x a day for 30 minutes and one of those days has to be cardio. <BR> <BR> Day One: <BR> <BR> Total Body Makeover ... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 21:13:41 EST Doing what I need to do http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5217078 One of the first goals I set for my new journey is to work out three days a week and one of those days has to be cardio, this is my plan for the next 6 weeks. <BR> <BR> I am really not the biggest fan of exercise, i really like doing yoga and i like to dance but i hate feeling forced into it. It always feel like it's just another activity in my day I HAVE to do. So I decided to make a list of all the workout DVDs and workout games I have. I'm selecting 3 different ones every week for the n... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 12:55:55 EST Taking it step by step http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4249310 I know I know they always say we need goals. And I have them but this time around I have fewer. I'm kinda taking all the pressure off of my self this time. I feel like i am anyway. So here's some of my goals... <BR> <BR> To lose 60 pounds by the end of August. Already 12% of the way there. I found that looking at my weight lose in percentages is actually way more encouraging to me then just saying I lost 11 pounds. <BR> <BR> To exercise at 4 times a week. Most weeks this happens but someti... Sun, 22 May 2011 18:44:41 EST Picnic at the Park! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3470224 Yesterday was a lot of fun. Two of my friends planned a picnic at a park on Grand yesterday. We played badminton. Drank some wine, ate the white bean hummus I made with carrots and cucumbers, and then i played tennis with 3 friends for well over an hour. It was really so much to fun actually do something active with friends other than sit around a bar or a party chatting. Although that is what most people did on blankets under the shade but for the people that did take advantage it was soo fu... Mon, 26 Jul 2010 10:06:49 EST Good news/Bad news http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3464544 Bad news first. <BR> <BR> I haven't been on here for about 3 weeks because fourth of July weekend (well week really) I fell off the wagon big time. I made excuses as you can see in my previous blog. I do agree with that sentiment but Sometimes should not equal a whole weeks worth of giving up. I suppose I get really frustrated that I can't just eat what I want and have to control everything. But as I have to keep reminding myself that this is for no one else, this is for me. <BR> <BR> Mor... Sat, 24 Jul 2010 10:48:54 EST Sometimes you just got to give in... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3398279 Turns out I can be weak but I'm okay with that for some reason, usually I get really down on myself when I don't do my best but for some reason I'm okay with it today. <BR> <BR> As far as my goals go from yesterday, well I didn't do my best at all. <BR> <BR> I did exercise and I did stick to 3 glasses of wine, but right at about midnight I gave in and ate tortilla chips and my beloved guacamole, seriously if I could eat guacamole like a popsicle I totally would. Okay I didn't just eat guac... Sun, 4 Jul 2010 15:14:03 EST Uh Oh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3395694 So I lost four pounds and then the next two days proceeded to blow my calorie count. Thursday I didn't do that bad really, I was only 5 cals over but with no exercise, I was tired and in a fair amount of soreness from Weds yoga class, my thigh muscles are still sore! <BR> <BR> Then yesterday I was doing good until the husband came home, we were supposed to eat leftovers from the other night but I was crafting and had to make green beans to go with it as a side. I was busy and told him he ha... Sat, 3 Jul 2010 14:12:36 EST Happy Dance!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3389451 I lost 4 pounds! Yipee! Thu, 1 Jul 2010 12:12:28 EST Got 2 minutes... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3388019 Only have 2 minutes before it's tomorrow! The goal is to blog everyday! <BR> <BR> Today was awesome! Didn't think about food at all today. I was really busy all day. <BR> <BR> Went to yoga in the park and it was really awesome! The instructor was great and he totally kicked my butt. I'm still feeling weak! Thu, 1 Jul 2010 01:00:10 EST Today's Cardio was a struggle... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3383590 I didn't want to, really really didn't want to. I did it anyway which is a huge victory for me. I have a feeling though this is the start of a trend. Maybe not, I am really looking forward to yoga in the park tomorrow! <BR> <BR> I'm just kind of whiny about the whole lifestyle change today. I'm struggling with my calories, although i only went over one day this week, I just feel like I"m pretty hungry all the time but I'm just ignoring it and drinking lots of water, I don't know how anyone ... Tue, 29 Jun 2010 19:03:38 EST Pretty Productive Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3380728 So this is going to boring to everyone else but me, but one of my Spark goals is to blog everyday! <BR> <BR> I did all the housework today and almost all laundry done, folded and put away, yay me! hehe! <BR> <BR> Read some great DIY blogs during a healthy lunch. <BR> <BR> Then while watching bad daytime sitcoms I crafted and finished 2 more headbands! Woohoo! <BR> <BR> Then i made a pretty darn good meal if i do say so myself. It was basically a healthy version of an eggplant parmesan sa... Mon, 28 Jun 2010 22:50:12 EST Boo! Went over! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3377157 Went over calories by 300 and something but I did walk for 40 min burning 388 cal, so that kind of equals out. I wonder if more calories are burned when you stand for 4 hours while sweating profusely. Where's the Spark calculator for that? Sun, 27 Jun 2010 23:33:43 EST Gay pride Chicago 2010 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3376795 I am so afraid to put in my daily food intake today, i think I blew it with the alcohol. Oh Uh, but I can honestly say that I did better than last year at Pride. <BR> <BR> Oh how I love Pride! We have so much fun at the Parade with friends! ok well time to face the facts. Oh yeah and I also had 2 cigarettes, so weak around my smoking friends, just have to get back on the wagon! Sun, 27 Jun 2010 21:36:46 EST Meals planned for the next 2 weeks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3373656 I just got home from grocery shopping with the better half. We went to Harvest Time Foods (our local independently owned grocer) and Trader Joes. Harvest Time is pretty amazing, there are so many different cultures that live in our area so the grocery store really reflects that with all kinds of interesting products and one great and inexpensively priced produce section. LOVE this grocert store! <BR> <BR> Anyway here's the Meals I've got planned for next week and a half, depending on leftov... Sat, 26 Jun 2010 18:07:10 EST Yesterday was a doozie but I made it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3370494 Yesterday was sort of a roller coaster kind of day. I was happy my friends from Door County arrived safely, then I got some bad news, turns out the parent of the child I was a witness for decided to settle the civil matter and declined to talk to an investigator and told the investigator our claims were unfounded. A big blow for me considering I loved my job and coming forward to protect the safety of the child knowingly putting my career in jeopardy (as well as the 5 other caregivers), going... Fri, 25 Jun 2010 13:41:34 EST The stats are in... yesterday started good then took a turn http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3366956 I started off yesterday very good, after lunch I still had like 900 calories left for dinner but the glutton in me won out. <BR> <BR> I'll start off with my excuses, a few months ago I lost my job, I knew it was coming because I was a witness in a case against my boss, it's a long story involving kids and their safety. anyway I was pretty much forced out of my job. So the last few months we have been barely staying afloat, basically our salary has been reduced by 40-45% so we have not been ... Thu, 24 Jun 2010 13:09:46 EST EScape Artist http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3363129 First day of my new life. I had a very good talk with my husband yesterday. I tend to keep all of my anxiety and guilt about my weight locked inside, I know he knows. I'm fat but we never speak about it and I think we just pretend it's not there. I have so many negative feelings about my body and I grew up in a house where you just didn't talk about things at all. I'm trying to change that, the more I keep things bottled up the more I silently beat myself up for everything but that just lead... Wed, 23 Jun 2010 11:34:50 EST # Years ago I started this page, did good, then did bad and gave up, but I'm back and determined!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3361349 Wow I started this page 3 years ago and now I'm back, at the time I wanted to lost weight for my wedding but that did not pan out or rather I was doing good and then a friend got mad at me for trying to ditch out on going drinking because I did not budget for the calories and then I gave up. I'm not blaming her, she wasn't mad that I didn't want to drink but more that every one else ditched out on her at the last minute as well, and then I just went right back to my old habits. <BR> <BR> I... Tue, 22 Jun 2010 21:57:19 EST I fell off the wagon last week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1230414 Oh boy, last week was a bad week. I thought I had started off great posting my goals and all and then I strayed BIG time. I broke my french fry rule not only once nor twice nor thrice but four times, yikes. I barely exercised and barely tracked my food intake and worst went over on my calories.For some reason i'm okay with that I actually don't feel horrible or too guilty. It was a very stressful week and I handled it poorly and with lots of food. I'm going to have to learn that lesson to kee... Mon, 26 May 2008 18:09:30 EST Goals for this week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1216681 So one of my goals is sharing my goals with someone, I thought that posting a blog would count! <BR> 1. Try to stay with in my calorie range EVERYDAY this week! (This one is going to be hard because my best friend's birthday is coming up and that means drinking) <BR> <BR> 2. Stay with my cardio 3x a week, but try HARD to also do my strengh training exercises 2x a week. I've been meeting my cardio goal but have been shirking my strengh goals. <BR> <BR> 3. Track my calories EVERYDAY instead ... Mon, 19 May 2008 12:52:01 EST Best Workout Video Ever! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1204202 I have been working out with Go Go Robics with the Pontani sisters and i love it!! It's a lil bit go go and a lil bit burlesque and a whole lotta fun! Mon, 12 May 2008 22:45:04 EST Thanks for the kind words! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1204194 First off I jus wanted to say to anyone who has ever commented on a message board to someone posts, or on someone blog, or on someone page, Thanks. Loing weight is not easy if it was well pounds would melt off and we wouldn'tneed to come to a place like spark. I hope we all remember is that what we need most is support and encouragement, at least I know i do. I think it's important because it's all to easy to get down on ourselves, give up, and hate ourselves as we reach for that cookie or wr... Mon, 12 May 2008 22:39:51 EST Nothing but blue skies from now on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1190105 Today was a good day i'm back on track. I know i've said this before but no I have the best motivation ever... my wedding. Thats right this kitten is off the market heheh. Seriously though I REFUSE to be FAT in my wedding dress and better yet we are getting married on the Amalfi coast in Italy, read between the lines... BEACHES! If I'm paying all that money to go there, there is no way I'm going to stay out of the water because i am so utterly unhappy with my body that i won't even dare to b... Mon, 5 May 2008 23:51:00 EST ??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1080930 So I'm back, not that anyone seemed to notice I was gone. Thats not a woe is me statement just more of an observation. Although I guess that was one of the reason's I just stopped logging onto Spark, was that I just felt like I wasn't making any connections and really one of the reason's I joined Spark is because of the community suppurt yada yada. Maybe, I'm just not the online friend making kind of person, maybe I am just inept at it, maybe my posts come off as bitchy or boring or both. Wh... Mon, 17 Mar 2008 17:23:48 EST Hazy shade of winter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=915902 so I woke up with the Bangles "Hazy Shade of winter" in my head. Why? I have no idea I probably haven't heard that song in at least 8-10 years probably even longer. <BR> <BR> All I know is that yesterday I had a bad day, but for probably the first time I don't really feel all that bad about it. I went about a good 300 cals over my limit. It could have been worse though, I actually stopped myself from ordering a sack of fries for lunch and ate a brown rice veggie stir fry instead, although ... Fri, 11 Jan 2008 17:48:19 EST le soleil est pres de moi http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=890683 So today I'm beating myself up about going over my calorie intake, I've done so good all week and today i only went over by 70 but even still it has me upset. I can't stand it when I'm stupid, really i should have refused that second piece of pizza but I let my gluttony get the better of me. I promised myself when i get down on myself i will think of something good, so I guess I should remind myself that today I finally got enough protein in my diet and I should congratulate myself because I... Thu, 3 Jan 2008 21:55:59 EST Today was a good day, I didn't even have to use my AK http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=879672 Yesterday was the dat I officially started my new program for weightloss. I was going to wait until Jan 1st but after I hopped on the scale and made the horrific discovery that I am currently at my all time high, if only there was some kind of prize for that, I figured there is no time like the present. I did good! I need to figure out a way to add more protein in my diet but I kept at the low side of my calorie allowance and right in the middle for my fat intake, and I exercised. This is ki... Mon, 31 Dec 2007 11:03:54 EST