MEDDYPEDDY's SparkPeople Blog MEDDYPEDDY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Tuesday One of my chornicle has been shared over 3000 times whoppeee I am going viral! To be honest it stresses me a little, I wrote a piece about egocentric behaviour, I did it as a reaction that swedish shop organisation has decided that "activity bracelet" is the christmas gift of the year and underlines the fact that you can share your exercise achievements on facebook - at the same time as we are having a big discussion about the ro9mari people that is outside every shop, begging these days - pe... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 08:39:36 EST Monday Time to photofood again - yesterdays lunch was salmon with rice and coarrots and aioli sauce (garlic, sour milk mayonnaise): <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Mon, 1 Dec 2014 01:50:11 EST Crazy days... Opening night went well: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Sold out (70 people!) and the audience was really happy. <BR> On the way to the theatre we stopped by the gas staion and bought some gingerbread, buns, cookies and "julmust" (swedish soda for christmas) , did not even try to get to the food store since there was a lot of people out shopping this saturday... We did have time to clear the visible mess but it was far from clena - and no... Sun, 30 Nov 2014 04:37:22 EST Not so beautiful food... Maybe I should go back to phographing my food and presenting it in the blog... the other day I looked at my plate and realised that it looked like a bowl of dog food... I had fried kale and spinach and onions and bell pepper and then mixed beans with come cream and blue cheese and stirred in it, very yummy but looking like ... can´t write that. <BR> <BR> But right now it is very busy - we have opening night on our christmas play today and it has been many rehearsals. And to draw attention to... Sat, 29 Nov 2014 01:05:47 EST Points again! I have obviously slacked in my sparking so I have not noticed that there are now more point levels to go for - yipeee, it was sad (and weird) to notice that once I reached the highest level I started to slack in my spraking as weill. <BR> <BR> Now I only wish they would bring back the "huddle" function it sort of made it easier for me to visit teams better. <BR> <BR> I have finally been to the indoor pool - bougt a six month card andnwill start going on weekend mornings again, that will be ... Wed, 12 Nov 2014 01:36:40 EST A visit to the doctor I had a busy day yesterday - three press conferences in a row and all three with articles that was supposed to be delievered for todays paper. State of the world market and prognosis for 2015 ... brought the computer and between that conference and the next (that was about how the city centers shopping is to handle the loss of customers to the malls outside town) I managed to write almost all of the first one... And arriving ten minutes early for the third - big day for council work - I manag... Wed, 5 Nov 2014 23:02:07 EST Wolfes and more... Had planned to go to the gym yesterday and signed up for a group with circle training - couldn´t find one of hte shoes so I never got there. Thought doggy was guilty but found the other shoe in my car later... <BR> <BR> Compensated with joining the dog walk in the evening (a facebookgroup that gathers us in my village two evenings a week to walk the dogs and give them an opportunity to behave sociallly well with other dogs...) - but my fitness is lower than ever so I abandoned them after te... Wed, 5 Nov 2014 03:42:08 EST Celebrating november November has always been special to me - I admit that september and october are mostly better autumn months but as I am born in november I always felt good about it and it is only later years that I have realised that it is the darkest and rudest month if I consider rain, darness and cold... <BR> <BR> But november is also the month I celebrate my soberness - I got sober in june but had a relapse in november (one night, one bottle of wine, luckily I did not have to continue...) and as I dont ... Tue, 4 Nov 2014 00:17:28 EST Another Monday Waking up fairly early, think I´ll give myself ten minutes of accordian practice before I start moving... my ambition today is to make the plan for next edition and start doing some small things with it. <BR> <BR> For the moment I am a quitter with the standup next week...I feel silly not wanting to do it, and I feel like I am letting myself and other people down - and that is not adequate at all so I don´t know what is going on. <BR> <BR> On the happy side - a firend called yesterday and a... Mon, 3 Nov 2014 00:06:26 EST November - starting from skratch..again. One good thing with being on the bottom is that there is only one way to go - upwards! <BR> <BR> Not entirely true because I CAN get deeper, I can gain more and feel even lousier. And that scares me stiff is that I don´t trust myself t be able to turn things round. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> ... the plan is as modest as it can be not to be overwhelmed. <BR> <BR> Priority one is exercising - so I added my runkeeper for today, 3... Sun, 2 Nov 2014 04:11:02 EST Blood pressure rocketing! If you have been reading my blogs for a while you know that I developed high blood pressure 15 months ago - and that I thoguh exercise and losing weight got it down to normal. I have to admit that I did not really believe it was me - I thought that my doctor fooled me a bit by giving me medicine agianst oedema that also worked for lowering blood pressure. <BR> <BR> I was wrong - because yesterday company health was visiting and I checked my blood pressure for the first time since january... ... Wed, 29 Oct 2014 02:41:27 EST Have to figure this out... It is really pathetic but two things seems to have stopped me being active on spark. <BR> <BR> 1) Reached top level of Spark Points. Collecting points has no purpose at all anymore and that made me lose this feeling of having to be consistant in signing in, tracking and communicating. <BR> <BR> 2) losing the huddle function - as long as it was there it made med visit five teams a day to huddle and to wite something on the message boards. <BR> <BR> I know that I have complained about this b... Mon, 27 Oct 2014 01:16:26 EST Erasing games Since summer I have played a game on my Ipad - "Pearl´s Peril" I did a lot in the beginning as I thought I would reach some sort of end, but after a month or so I understood that it is supposed to go on... for a very long time. <BR> <BR> But I was stubborn and somehow determinated to finish it so I have been playing it very patiently, three times a day as the "energy" to play comes with timelimits. <BR> <BR> And I found another couple of gameapps that I also found rather amusing and though... Mon, 13 Oct 2014 06:40:47 EST Gaining ... I think I set a new record for gaining weight - four kilos in a week! <BR> <BR> Although I try not to despair over it, the explanation is that I had the last medicin on monday and it took until friday until I got to the pharamcy and fetched another ration of my oedema pills. I could feel the fluid assembling in my legs during the week and although the pills has started to work I can still feel my legs as a little swollen - I will see what the scale says next saturday, I did well with foo... Sun, 12 Oct 2014 02:56:39 EST Voice care I went to a workshop for singers yesterday. I was relctant because it is hard to drive back to town once I have gotten home in the evening, but as I had signed up for it and as I did think that they would not have too many participators I pulled myself together, got up from the sofa and went. <BR> <BR> And I am glad, it was really interesting. It was held in english as the leader was a rock singer from Ireland. It was interesting that she had moved from Ireland to London to attend London Mus... Tue, 7 Oct 2014 02:19:15 EST Stand-up comedy Yesterday I did my fifth stand-up-comedy performance - and my first in a "real" club, which means that it was organised with a headliner, a runner-upp and two rookies. I was one of the rookies and as usual almost unconcious with nerves and "why-am-I-doing-this"-anxiety. <BR> <BR> It was 70 km from home, the friend that I am trying to do this together with was to late in signing up and did not get to be a rookie this time. <BR> <BR> The anxiety before was as bad as always - I have told mys... Thu, 2 Oct 2014 00:24:19 EST The potato crisp miracle So I went to the store for vegetables and passed the aisle with potatocrisps. A bag caught my eye "new flavour - chanterelles and sour cream". I could not resist, put it in my basket and added all the healthy vegetables... <BR> <BR> Normally that is where the choice is made. It was long ago I tried to fool myself by saying "I will buy it and only have a handful a day"... I know that if it goes home with me it goes in my stomach rather quick. <BR> <BR> And as a true addict I opened the bag i... Wed, 24 Sep 2014 22:53:35 EST Stress Yesterday I was a good person.... invited this woman who used to run a gym to lunch - she lost her business during summer and is now looking for a job. She is an immigrant from Russia and we swedes are not good in letting foreigners in - she is very highly educated and experieced but that does not help you are too qualified" they tell her - I am starting to realise that in this country it is very hard to get somewhere if you don´t have connections. <BR> <BR> As I am writing about the region... Tue, 23 Sep 2014 23:24:35 EST Making and breaking rules Reading Anne Catherine who describes the thread of selflies that is typical for an addict, although she calls it "breaking rules": <BR> 1. Before you enter the store you decide that no matter what you are going not going to buy a bag of your favorite candy. <BR> 2. In the store you find yourself in front od the candy shelf, buy the bag and change the decision into "I will only eat three pieces" and not open it until I am home..Rule one broken. <BR> 3. You decide that you will not open the bag... Mon, 22 Sep 2014 22:19:01 EST Feelings Drove the daughter with friend to the bus that takes them back to her father and school. This is when I usually overeat, shame and sorrow over the situation, comfort because I feel badly treated and a lide reward fo me having been such a good mother all weekend... <BR> <BR> Do this time I went home and had all those feeling roar as I had my soup for the evening... <BR> <img src=""> Sun, 21 Sep 2014 22:41:59 EST Daughter and me! Performing together...very basic Sun, 21 Sep 2014 02:51:45 EST Fireworks in my brain I feel bad about suddenly falling into silence for such a long time, since I consider many of you as real friends - and it is nog friendly just to remove myself from company... <BR> <BR> I know it is silly - bu it is because of the huddle function. When that still around it was the incentive for me to visit teams and huddle every morning - and at the same time I did some sort of check-in, and I can´t really understand why I can´t keep onchecking in every morning without the huddle... but tha... Sun, 21 Sep 2014 00:43:57 EST 43 To do or not to do Yesterday I read the "Fighting the urge" e-book by dr Amy Johnson <BR> <link><BR>2013/12/Fighting-the-Urge_Dr-Amy-Johns<BR>on.pdf </link> <BR> <BR> and afterwards went to an AA lunch meeting. Dr Johnson says that compulsive eating is neither an incurable addiction nor a compensation for deep inner needs that can´t be changed until you have defined and fulfilled those needs. Dr Johnson says that it i our lower brain being taught to answer the craving by... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 02:52:09 EST 41 The heat is on It´s hot again - the disadvantage is that I can´t play the accordioan as freely as before because the windiw is open and it will be heard out on the street which might be distrurbing late at night or early in the borning. Closing the window is a tricky thing because there is a flynet mounted in it and it is a cumbersome activity. The other disadvantage is of course that it is hard to move or get anything done - yeterday I walked in the woods with doggy and I was totally soaked with sweat alt... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 01:14:24 EST 39 The new passion... So I got my accordion yesterday - wow! When I left if to this old man for repairing, he said that it would be a couple of weeks – that´s why I went to the library and borrowed all the books about accordions to learn more while waiting... <BR> <BR> And when I found that the first swedish accordion was built in my village, I had to phone this guy to ask if he knew – as he had read the same book as me, he did. But he also told me that my accordion was fixed and I could come and get it. We had ... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 01:59:07 EST 37 Plumbing and more... Have not been able to motivate myself to write, and am not too enthusiastic about life in general either although I do try to make every day the best day of my life! <BR> <BR> Last time I wrote I had this small anxiety about visiting bonus daughter in GOthenburg, in retrospect I realise that it was mostly about driving that far in the heat - but we were very fortunate and it was mostly cloudy or even raining. The drive took about 3,5 hours one direction which meant thast I spent seven hours ... Fri, 18 Jul 2014 02:25:57 EST 32 Mood swing Today my mood is down - for the usual reason, it is all about the food. Had too much to eat yeasterday and suddenly everything is hopeless again. <BR> <BR> Apart from food, it was a good day - we had that pirates party, I did not join in the battle but sat in the first row and looked at the children throwing water bombs and having fun. In the evening daugher and me once again visited that improvisations theatre and had really fun - and then we went home and spent the rest of the evening in... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 02:46:40 EST 31 It´s a month! A month without meat has passed, and it has been a hard struggle. I did not manage to stay away from the cake, of course I could plan for a stop to cakes like the one I am trying with meat, but it does not seem realistic to imagine a stop for the ret of my life... mayby I could imagine a year without all food that I don´t need... <BR> <BR> I am also aware that my thinking is the oppsite that it "should" be - according to all health gurus I should think positive, about the stuff I CAN eat ins... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 04:56:09 EST 29 Support would be appreciated! It is daughters birthday - sang for her and made "Poor knigths of Windsor" (or french toast) for her at breakfast – and had some myself too as the recipe is for two persons... very stupid start of a day that I know is going to be filled with temptations - and as the on-off person I am, the only strategy that usually works is all or nothing... <BR> <BR> Maybe my salvation was with lunch - made spare-ribs in the oven for daughter and when they were done I really faltered - knowing that she wou... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 08:22:35 EST 28 Time-out-time...or? So I am on my second day of eating perfect... meaning that I have planned my food and not eaten out of my plan. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is daughters birthday. It is a very austere birthday, the "big" gift was the camp she just finished and it will only be her and me - sister will come in the evening and then she will have some small gifts from her as well - her "big" gift is to drive around the area and visit a lot of flea markets (daughter loves them) all friday and pay for a reasonable amount o... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 09:29:43 EST 27 Ancora Imparo! By now my meatless days has become (in my eyes) so impressively many that they are worth defending. Meaning that when craving and temptation strikes one of my stopping arguments are "Do I really want to "destroy" the streak I have managed so far?" In this case my black-and-white personality serves me, I use it to stay away. Deep down I know of course that the "just this once" - argument my sick mind tries to claim is nonsense, if I eat meat now it will be a relapse that I don´t know how long ... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 05:19:59 EST 24 Deadlock... It seems that I sometimes get hit by a "deadlock" and become paralyzed - it is common concerning being too late paying bills, if I am overdue I get paralyzed and do nothing until it´s really late and I have to do many saltomortals to get it right again... <BR> <BR> I am in a face-bookgroup for giving away things in my area. It is very practical, I make a post of the thing I want to give away and people answer and the the taker an me goes private to agree on details. Do far I have given away ... Sat, 5 Jul 2014 02:01:06 EST 23 Biking with doggy Yes, I am still on the no-meatwagon – and it is still very hard. I have also added icecream and candy to the no-nos but have not counted days on those. I realise that I will have a problem with the "No meat" rule when it comes to breakfast. Standard breakfast o me is coffee and homebaked wholewheat bread with smoked ham on - I also have smoked salmon on but that is rather luxury - and cheese is not good to keep in the house as it is a temptation to overeat...I will have to establish another... Fri, 4 Jul 2014 02:57:05 EST 20 Wow,it IS hard... Giving up meat is much harder than I ever thought, I have had some really bad moments in the past weeks and it does not get easier because I really doubt why I am doing it... There is no real health reason from the nutrition, I should preferably give up sweets, icecream and fast food if that was the real reason. <BR> <BR> And as I still eat fish and chicken I did not think it would be that hard, but it is, I have really been fighting some tough battles wit myself in the food store... I only ... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 05:29:21 EST 18 Good saturday Yesterday I was standing in that village square of Sunne, looking at my daughter performing her hula hoop routine as part of our show and felt that perfect happiness - the weather forecast said rain but we were lucky not to get any shower during our show and later daughter helped with the circus workshop and I acted fortune teller in my little tent. Not so rein proof so when the big shower arrived I had to have an umpbrella in my tent... wet tarot cards tend to stick too much... <BR> <BR> D... Sun, 29 Jun 2014 04:01:29 EST 17 Ready to move on? As an impulsive drama-queens "taking it easy" is a very hard task for me... yesterday I had an unplanned sandwich but tired to - instead of feeling like a total failure "again" - remind me that focus one was to stay off red meat and this I have done for 17 days. <BR> <BR> maybe time to exclude something else ... bread for example. That will have to wait for four more days because I have four slices left of this wonderful german vollkorns-bread that I eat one slice for breakfast - the only pr... Sat, 28 Jun 2014 02:36:42 EST 16 Denial and balance Yesterday I was at the store and held a packet of swedish pork shoulder for a while - managed to put it back and went for the chicken instead. If I should think of ethical food consumption, none were the better then the other in these choices, but I have accepted to give up on eating only organic chicken - I simply can´t afford it and as long I have to spend so much energy in avoiding red meat I need the chicken as a solution. Later on when I have got accustomed (if...?) to a foodplan without... Fri, 27 Jun 2014 04:37:17 EST 15 Home=temptation Being on vacation makes me aware that I want to eat as soon as I am not occupied with something else... When at work I don´t think about food and it comes sort of "natural" to eat at meal time. But being at home all day is hard because I tend to think too much about what to eat and when to eat... better find a solution to ths before I retire... <BR> <BR> Remembered to photograph food - salmon, carrots and rice: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 03:46:26 EST Two weeks celebration of no meat... I don´t no if I stayed off meat this long before... not deliberately I think. Witgh meat I mean red meat, I am still eating chicken. <BR> <BR> Experiences so far? Overeating becmes a problem because when cravings set in it is meat I long for, even when I think bread I want smoked ham on it... that does not mean I have not overeaten these two weeks, last night I had a little encounter with peanuts that did not end well - and after looking it up I realised that nuts is not something to pig out... Wed, 25 Jun 2014 02:05:40 EST Day thirteen - vacation & stress I have three weeks ahead of me of vacationas - and it might have been stupid to decide to fix my guestroom into a students apartment because I can already feel the stress - I wake up and thing "I should hav done much more already..." the fact is that if I don´t get it ready until autmmun it does not really matter, I can´t begin to collect rent but I have lived without that rent so far and will probably manage in the future also... so I need to stop worrying, take it easy and enjoy every singl... Tue, 24 Jun 2014 01:57:39 EST Day eleven - cunning disease... I belog to an online supportgroup of swedish ladies - it is not twelvestep program although some of us are into it. <BR> <BR> One of the ladies has lately found the solution - she says. She is i a weight group at her local health centre and she has lost some weight since it started. She sort of acts like "problem is solved" and is moving towards an attitude where she starts to tell us what to do. <BR> <BR> On misummer eve she ate som sweets that she had not planned and too much of them too... Sun, 22 Jun 2014 08:47:02 EST Midsummers ten If my daughter had not made chocolate cookies I would have managed midsummer perfect... as it is I had more calories than planned but no meat and as I also biked I was still on the pluds side calories consumed/used. I forgot to photograph any of the meals - we were having picnic and dancing and a lot of people, so I´ll share with you this mornings egg - that I chose not to eat. The picture did not come out as it looks, in reality the white was totally grey and even though it did not smell bad... Sat, 21 Jun 2014 04:26:43 EST Day nine - a little attack... So I just decided to eat yesterday... but had it not been for the Brie I might have gotten away with a decent sum of calories anyway but 300 gr of Brie is ...yik far too many! <BR> <BR> But still no meat which is good. <BR> <BR> Daughter arrived yesterday and this morning has been spent trying to look for omething to do - it is midsummers eve in Sweden, one of our biggest holidays. Traditional food is fresh potatoes with sour cream and herring an strawberry cake afterwards and of course a l... Fri, 20 Jun 2014 04:13:00 EST Day eight After discussing with myself for a while I really went to that water exercise - only to find that it was not on... all dark and quiet in that tempered pool so I went into the ordinary swimmingpool and started swimming - and realised that it was probably closed because it was all quiet and emptuy... but I thought that I would coniinue until somebody came and asked me to leave... and I did the 45 minutes I had time for before going to work and when I went back to the locker rooms I met a staff ... Thu, 19 Jun 2014 00:35:36 EST Day seven Overate yesterday although not past my "allowed" calories - I went swimming for an hour and that makes me really really hungry. After I had started it was of course really tempting just to go on eatig, the tracking stopped me as I realised that I could eat that without the "all is lost" collapse... <BR> <BR> I am now thinking about going to that "Aqua power" this morning again, to be honest it was not that funny and it costs a little extra money - but compared to swimming for an hour it is e... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 00:06:16 EST Sixth day without meat As my feet are getting better my energy also increasesI am alsotrying to be totally honest about my food, that is easy as long as it is on the good side, we´ll see what happens when it starts to slip. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I finished the floating, I have done twelve sessions and it has not been as good as I imagined. Probably because as soon as something turns into a "must" (this was part of a research, I had committed to do 12x45 minutes) it stresses me a little. Two tyimes a week was also a ... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 22:36:46 EST Fifth day without meat Yesterday I cleaned more than one spot around the house - very grateful to have the energy. <BR> <BR> I am also planning to post pictures of the food again but my program for adjusting pictures has changed and I can´t change it back so I will see how much problem it will be to do it another way... but the plate for yesterday was chicken thighs, beet root, onion and salad: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I made chicken in the oven wit... Sun, 15 Jun 2014 23:59:42 EST Fourth day meatless Yesterday was not as exhausting as I had expected - driving a couple of hours on a sunny day and then performing iin full costume... it went well. The most exhausting thing was in fact having a girl in my car going back home - she is a really nice girl and always in a good mood and willing to go the extra mile for our group. But she is also very christian, which is a little weird in Sweden where we are very secuklar. <BR> <BR> Making converation we got into the subject of being judgemental a... Sun, 15 Jun 2014 01:30:33 EST Third day of no meat... ...and feet are feeling better. I wrecked them yesterday doing that waterexercise - had I read the presentation of their "water aerobics" – "our toughest exercise" – had I never dared to join, but now I am thinking of doing it again, they have it twice a week and I don´t have to be perfect, just to make an effort... I would call it "water fight" because it was really working against the water with body, i almost drowned mysel a cpuple of times and it was really really tiring for the body ev... Sat, 14 Jun 2014 00:02:29 EST Friday the 13th I had to google to see if friday the 13th was considered unlucky also on the outside of Sweden - and it was. It is a very weird superstition since there is no explanation at all, just a belief that a certain combination of weekday and date means anything specific to "luck"... it is easier to believe in astrology as it does connect the earth relation to stars at a given time and if tide is affected by the moon why should not my body be affected to things out there in space... that said I am no... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 23:04:28 EST