MEDDYPEDDY's SparkPeople Blog MEDDYPEDDY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community The weird blog Yes I am still around and I am still trying although I sort of fell off the ambition to communicate. <BR> <BR> Around new year I found this swedish study "new years resoultions" where researchers at the Linköping and Stockholm University invited people to join in a research about new years resolutions. In Sweden every 8th man and every 4th woman make a new years resolution and now a study wants to find out how they work. I joined and seem to be lucky enough to end up in the group that are g... Tue, 28 Feb 2017 03:20:30 EST Time to change I don´t know if it is some sort of backlash after being active, but since I finished my bedroom I just feel depressed and have a very hard time to accept myself. My surrounding is wonderful, really nice people and the most fantastic daughter you could ever imagine... it is only me that is not good enough in my BORING to allow myself these thoughts... <BR> <BR> I think I will start knitting again. Last year I did these mittens: <BR> <BR> <img src=" Fri, 18 Nov 2016 02:35:39 EST Just another blog... ... I still log in to Spark every day and read and register things, but have been silent in my blog since – <em>40</em> – the beginning of september. I did win the swimming challenge, that was awsome! The prize was tickets to a session of the spa for three persons, I have not used them yet, will bring daughter and a freind. <BR> <BR> I kept trying to find a balance and fight BED with planning food and eating without registring numbers, wrote down what I intended to eat and had the rules o... Mon, 14 Nov 2016 02:35:50 EST Swimming like a maniac... Yes Joy, I wrote a "thank you!"- answer on the facebook page of my indoor arena, I am really really happy because the renewed challenge has brought me to the inddor pool three days in a row, without that challenge I would probably maybe had gone once... <BR> <BR> But it is of course a little obsessed. Tuesday mornings I try to meet with a friend from the swedish weight loss support group I used to belong to. She is a retired teacher and 74 and her hips makes her unable to swim so we meet up ... Wed, 7 Sep 2016 05:12:18 EST Tummie trouble I have had a bad stomach for a week, been able to work and study apart for one day when I stayed at home, otherwise I have "just" kept close to the toilet for safety. And no exercise at all. <BR> <BR> So I was cringing a bit how to get going again - but got help. I have written about the swimtag and that "my" indoor arena posted a challenge to swim 32 km until the end of august. I realised that I couldn´t reach goal but advanced among the people that was participating and ended up at place ... Tue, 6 Sep 2016 00:00:00 EST The secret life of a sneaky exerciser... For a coulpe of days I have been obsessed with swimming... the reson being a challenge through "swimtag" this bracelet my local swimming arena has introduced that registers how fast I swim, how long, hog many armstokes per pool lenght, burned calories and more. What made me obsess was a local challenge tha i Could not join at the start as I was occupied with another challenge and had to finish that first. So I thought I had no chance, joined anyway but did not really put my heart into it as t... Sat, 27 Aug 2016 02:14:18 EST A new week The good thing with the passed weekend is that I went swimming. <BR> <BR> The bad thing is that I grazed some and did not do the things I had planned. <BR> <BR> Today is monday and I need to get out of the passiveness that has dominated during the weekend - it might be that I really only can make one thing at the time, when I decided to raise the level of exercise there was little room left to take care of other things... <BR> <BR> A great thing is that I finally got around to bake the bre... Mon, 22 Aug 2016 00:28:18 EST Handling oedema When I went to the doctor two years ago I got medication for the oedema I had in feet and ancles. It disappeared and has not shown until this spring. I was out of medicins for two weeks or so but then had the recipe renewed and started taking the pills again. But when summer came with bare legs (no support stockings) the oedema started to bother me again, specially the feet were swollen at night. I stopped being lazy and swam or biked every day and could notice that the oedema disappeared bu... Sun, 21 Aug 2016 01:30:20 EST Could not resist... Yesterday I forgot to put shoes on while renovating again and at the end of the day I had pain enough not to be able to go to our theatre rehearsal... something also happened to the sole of my right foot and it still aches today. <BR> <BR> So feeling depressed and very on my pitypot I felt rather hopeless. And decided to "cheat" and track my food in numbers - it is easy as I have kept my food journal for more than a week andalthough I have not written any numbers I know that they are normal ... Thu, 18 Aug 2016 01:08:17 EST A week has passed And it is hard. It is very unfamiliar and slightly uncomfortable to be on track without being on track... Either I will be very good and stick to a food plan and do rather well in restricting my food, or I will blank out every thought about weight and binge... or the normal pattern for a year or so has been that I have started almost every day with the best intentions and eaten healthy or not eaten at all and in the evening I have either managed without bingeing or given up and eaten stuff I ... Mon, 15 Aug 2016 03:39:13 EST tha "Gah!!!!" morning... I was planning to write a blog about how interesting it is to conserve vegetablewith lactic acid - from reading Tim Spectors "The diet myth" I believed that pro- and pre-biotics are good for my bowel bacterias (?) And to illustrate it I took a photo of my products so far: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> ...but my phone had updated the system overnight and suddenly I could not get access to my photos and then my ... Sat, 13 Aug 2016 03:30:39 EST I will say this only once... ...I am sooooo fat!!! I am writing it because I am to let go of focusing on weight and turn my total commitment into trying to overcome binge eating behaviour. Hereafter I will ignore my weight for as long as it takes... many of you have no idea how scary that is! <BR> <BR> I am making a costume for our autumn play at the theatre. It is a vampire story and my dress is steam punk inspired 1800th century black long skirt with a cushion on my bottom ... and I am not comfortable with the image ... Thu, 11 Aug 2016 01:56:55 EST Trying again... I will commit to Spark People for at least three months, I have browsed around and found many old friends and interesting blogs. <BR> <BR> And I realised that I haven´t posted since I was at schoolahoop - I am ashamed <em>2</em> <BR> <BR> I made a "travel hoop" but were unable to get it together when we arrived. But I could have saved myself the effort there were a lot of off-body work in the workshops and I had fun with that. <BR> <BR> Daughter learned soo much and was happy - it is h... Tue, 9 Aug 2016 08:56:39 EST Exercise is fine but... Biking has been really good, very much due to that "classic"-challenge. I have biked at least five kilometers all days but two since the 11th of april, and I will reach the 300 km goal this weekend if nothing happens (I get sick or the bike collapse...) <BR> <BR> I am also happy about my juggling progress - ten minutes a day three-four days a week since february, six or seven days a week during may. <BR> <BR> The things that I can´t get around to do is hoop the ten miutes I need and play ... Wed, 25 May 2016 02:14:27 EST Relapse and resisting A friend called and wante my company to a "summer opening night" at a restaurant in the harbour, she had gotten VIP-tickets and since I have not spoken to her for a while I accepted. Especially as she said that one of the reasons to ask me was that she was in deadline and had to work later in the evening and the next day and as I do not drink, she knew there would be no temptation to go clubbing after the restaurant. <BR> <BR> The VIP-plte was a "tastepalet" from their barbeque.... four or f... Tue, 24 May 2016 00:52:55 EST So easy side-tracked... Reading Spark Friends blogs and immedeately start questioning my plan. Part of my disease is not trusting my own judgement which means that I am too easily sidetracked by oher ideas... <BR> <BR> I see myself as a failure - and it´s like showing my foot to somebody and saying "this is me"... failure is part of my experience in life - as is success (the other foot ;-)) I do need to remind myself of all things I have accomplished in my life and that they mean that it is not a given failure to ... Fri, 20 May 2016 04:04:12 EST ICA-classics... Once again I will try to get more active on Spark, this because I am planning to be more passive on the swedish site that has been taking the energy I former used on Spark People. We will see, it is not until now I notice that they have change the looks on the personal page and the pssiblilty to edit was one of the things that really made Spark site superior and I see that it looks like almost like a facebook page...well, well, things change.. <BR> <BR> I am (again) trying to give up red mea... Thu, 19 May 2016 01:00:46 EST The proud mother So we are at this lajv-convention (I wrote convent first because that is the name in swedish but then thought---there is something wrong here..) in Västerås again. We were here last year and stayed at a hotel, this year daugter wanted to sleep in the convention area but my days of sleeping on the floor has passed so I am in a hotel and I left daugheter last night - very happy because she had met a lot of nice friends. <BR> <BR> Yesterday she dragged me to a seminar about "nerd-feminism" it w... Sat, 5 Mar 2016 03:04:38 EST Itching, itching... My hands are driving me crazy in the mroning because it itches so much. And I will take back my words about the wait in swedish healthcare - true that I never got any answer to my request online to see a doctor but yesterday I phoned (how charmingly oldfashioned to phone ;-)) and got to see a nurse two hours later... she admitted that it was past her competence and went looking for a doctor..and found one! The doctor examined my hands and feet and did not hesitatet - PPP, Pustulosis Palmopla... Wed, 2 Mar 2016 01:29:28 EST On and off... As the icebug shoes seems to hurt my knees I went for the stationary bike yesterday - and my fitness is nothing to brag about! A good thing is that there is room for improvement... <BR> <BR> Juggling is slowly advancing, about time, I started over in autumn and it feels as nothing has happened for a very long time. I have been a little off with it during december and january but now I have been consistant for a coulpe of weeks. I only do ten minutes, my arms gets too tired to work longer b... Mon, 29 Feb 2016 00:33:41 EST Soup and shoes and some more... Yesterdays soup: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Carrot and cocos, with peanuts on top, thai flavour and very nice, but als very filling, had to leave it... and unfortunately I had an "attack" of compulsiveness at night. Went to the annualmeeting of the accordion club and they offered "smörgåstårta" a construction of bread, mayonnaise, all kinds of things we use on sanwiches - shrimps, ham, paté, vegetables... a... Fri, 26 Feb 2016 02:51:36 EST Soup again Planning a little soup project and posting pictures here... yesterdays soup was "fridge-cleaning" which meant beetroots, carrots, onion, a potato, beef stock and to bring forth the "umami"-tast, some blue cheese and a splash of cream - delicious! Should have chosen another plate, red on red is not that exciting... <img src=""> Thu, 25 Feb 2016 02:08:41 EST On the go... At first we had no winter at all, then a lot of snow fell and it got extremely cold for a while and then it all melted away. For now we have a little snow left in the woods as I experienced trying to walk in my new quest for fitness for Schoolahoop. <BR> <BR> So yesterday I used my new "icebug" shoes that I bought early autumn and have not needed until now. They were excellent! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Wed, 24 Feb 2016 04:43:25 EST Prague and schoolahoop... Last week I was in Prague during the weekend. A friend who moved there celebrated his 50th birthday and some of us traveled to Prague by car - this friend has a Tesla whch means that it is free to drive - so far it is free to charge Teslas and it was an interesting trip as we had to adapt to where the chargers where and stop there... worked reallly well except that there are no charchers in the czech Republic. But there was a Teslaowner in Prague who offered my friend to charge her Tesla ther... Mon, 22 Feb 2016 09:52:55 EST Biking! Finally the extreme cold temperature went away and we got mild winds - and all of the snow disappeared! Feel a little pity for those who loves skiing, but for myself I found it wonderful to bike with doggy this sunday! Yesterday little snow fell again, enough to make the landscape white – and to make it impossible to bike. But my time will come, I don´t care about "Normal" winter weather as long as the temeperatur does not get below -10. For the moment it is 0 (C) and I love it... <BR> <BR>... Tue, 2 Feb 2016 01:23:03 EST Still whining... ...about the cold weather. We have had a postcard weekend - sun and snow makes the landscape stunningly beautiful, but - 20 C is too low for my house, I have problems keeping it warm enough inside. Should not be complaining, the EU-migrants that camps in the city lives in caravans without electricity, my life is luxury compared... I think 2010 was th last time we had a cold january like this, last winter I did not have to sovel snow one time so I should not complain, it will pass. <BR> But a... Sun, 17 Jan 2016 23:54:47 EST Exploring the slow cooker As I have written earlier, I invested in a crock pot and I am still exploring it - yesterday I made a "honey mustard chicken" recipe from Spark People and it was delicious -but I think it was delicious because of the spicing so this morning I have started another corckpot with the same honey-mustard-thyme-garlic-etc spicing but mostly onion, some potato and some carrots too. I also added some green lentils so the protein will be looked after too...The crockpot might be one of those gadgets th... Fri, 15 Jan 2016 02:27:18 EST Efficiency I did manage to finish my exam this weekend - but it took me all sunday and i did not get around to write the article that starts to get hard to write because the notes are old... <BR> <BR> I should be a lot more generous when I assign time for my goals - because as I will not succeed with all the assignments I gave myself I have this little voice who says that it was not good enough. <BR> <BR> But yesterday evening I had this wonderful feeling of gratification - the exam paper was not due ... Mon, 11 Jan 2016 04:59:22 EST Reining a horse : an allegory Yesterday at a meeting a guy used reining a horse as an allegory - his therapeut has told him that he would not ride a horse he did not know without keeping the reins very tight. <BR> <BR> That gave me an epiphany - I used to be a riding instructor and before I went to USA to learn natural horsemanship I used the strategy above - a new horse I would ride with very tight reins until I knew the horse better. But after being to that basic course in natural horsemanship 1995 I changed my attitud... Sat, 9 Jan 2016 02:51:28 EST Busy weekend The temperature got better - for the moment it is -7 C outside (7 in the morning) which means that I have +19 inside and that is perfect... some snow has fallen, need to shovel a bit today but that is also ok. <BR> <BR> This weekend has to be devoted to writing assignments, I have an article waiting to be written, have postponed it for two weeks which means it will be a lot harder to write than when it was new in my head, I just hope that my notes will bring the story to life again... <BR> I... Fri, 8 Jan 2016 02:05:23 EST Whining today... I have minus 15 C in my house, that is cold. I think the heat pump I installed two years ago can not deal with temperature below -15, it is -20C now. Listiening to the weather report that says that a low pressure will arrive and bring snow and warmer temperature. They say during the upcoming night but usually it takes longer... I am just happy if this will not last for weeks as it may do in january. <BR> <BR> I have this neurotic attitude towards cold weather. I think it is because I grew up... Thu, 7 Jan 2016 02:50:47 EST January madness... At my door there are these bags waiting to be transported to the welfare container or the dump - and outside it is - 18C this morning. I have to have an extra heater in the kitchen, ity is for the moment (9.23 in the morning) +17C and it will raise to +19 during the day. I think it´s colder in my bedroom I have no heaters in there, only the warmth that circulates from the kitchen and living room. But I sleep very well when it is colder and I have sheep skin slippers and woolen sweathers and I... Wed, 6 Jan 2016 03:54:47 EST Decluttering continued Whohooo! decluttered my wardrobes - resulted in one bag with throwaways and three bags of giveaways. I am particulary happy about giving away clothes where the price-tags has not been removed, I will never wear those clothes anyway. I bought them because they were on sale and I thought that I liked them (I am not proud to have wasted time and money like that, but I am content in admitting that I have done it and dealing with the consequences) ...the hanging closet is still somewhat crowded, n... Tue, 5 Jan 2016 03:31:03 EST Declutter days The things that keeps flooding my life are papers and clothes. Newspapera and magasinezes tend to pile up waiting to be read, I have fortunately learned to trash them unread after a while, but I lack a strategy to stop them from cluttering up. <BR> <BR> Same with clothes, my wardrobes are ill-designed and I have too many clothes that I don´t use in my closets whoch means that the clothes that I do use i laying around...Now and then I organize and put clothes that I think I WILL want to wear ... Sun, 3 Jan 2016 00:59:31 EST New years eve - resolution time? I have decided to leave my swedish online supportgroup for the first leg (jan-march 2016) - the weekly weigh-ins has triggered my bingeing and I am now in the position where I keep my weight by yoyo - I binge and I starve, I binge and I starve - and I feel really bad about it. <BR> <BR> So it is time to put the scale away for a while and focus on good habits without thinking about calories. <BR> <BR> I have this conflict going on - I need stimulation, input with intersting thoughts and know... Thu, 31 Dec 2015 11:26:07 EST Habit time! The habit of adding habits did not work ;-) <BR> <BR> Mostly because I ran out of ideas of habits that I really wanted, there were many things that I "ought to" but my heart was not in it. <BR> <BR> But now I have an idea that inspires me ... <BR> Background: I have learned that logistics is very important to me because as soon as something gets a little bit tricky, does not run well in my daily "flow" ets. I tend not to do it. Exercise is one of the areas where I have spent a lot of time t... Sun, 1 Nov 2015 05:20:36 EST My VLCD and LCD First: I have my doctors permission and even encouragement to follow the 12 weeks of VLCD and LCD (500 kcal three weeks, 800 kcal nine weeks) that starts the two-year commitment I have made. My blood and other tests shows now problems and I have felt no dizziness, nausea or even lack of energy during the ten weeks I have done so far (it may be because after the three first weeks I have not managed to stick with the program, but my efforts results in a much better result than if I had not tri... Wed, 28 Oct 2015 01:33:12 EST Current situation Usually, when I fall silent on Spark it is because I am having a bad streak, eating compulsively and gaining weight. <BR> <BR> This time it has been the opposite. My situation in august was desperate. I had not managed to lose any weight during vacation and started my autumn fatter than ever before, my scale could not register so I did not know how catastrophal it might be. <BR> <BR> Desperate situation demands desperate actions... I went to an information meeting for a health club at one o... Tue, 27 Oct 2015 01:52:37 EST First accordion gig... I don´t remember if I posted about my total accordion passion that hit me august last year. In connection with tha swedish election in september same year I was moderating a meeting for women of the socialdemocratic party and was asked if I would entertain at their district 100-year celebration. As the exhibitionistic optimist I am I said yes, and have been practising ever since... <BR> To learn to play the accordion is A LOT harder than I estimated and I have not been practising as hard as I... Mon, 26 Oct 2015 03:35:13 EST I am embarrased... ...because time just passes and I never get around to write that blog I have thougt about for so long. <BR> Usually silence means that I have fallen off the wagon and withdrawn in shame from all health forums ... but this time it is quite the contrary. <BR> I had this nice habit project going on but could not master the patience I needed to move along until I could get going with habits that would make me lose weight... or - another explanation might be that in the work with habits it dawned ... Mon, 19 Oct 2015 08:46:31 EST New week Opening night is over as performance number two... four more to go but the next is fourteen days away so it´s time off for a while: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> In the picture I am supposed to look like "neptuna" under water and moving in slowmotion... <BR> <BR> Nor it is "just" work – and daughter is having two friends over for three days. I should not whine about it, I should be happy that she - and the fr... Mon, 10 Aug 2015 02:52:17 EST Habits I´m getting lost and losing focus and have to keep up with the habits I am trying to establish. The professor who embodied 40 new habits in a year took leve from his job and I think I would need that to to succeed with this project. <BR> <BR> So far making my bed every morning works, a new writing technique works, closing the toilet lid works - but the glass of water fails and weiring songs is over - I have started working again, decluttering ten minutes a day - I don´t know, it does not wo... Thu, 6 Aug 2015 01:46:08 EST Habits - week 6 I gave myself "week off" and no habit week number 5. But that is not true - the habit I have practised has been to close the lid of the toilet when I have visited ... at the request from my daughter who obviously drops makeup things in it if it is open – I asked why she could not start her bathroom session with closing it but did not get any sensible answer - and then I thought "why not" and started doing it. <BR> <BR> Otherwise my habits so far needs some realunching - the glass of water be... Wed, 29 Jul 2015 03:51:44 EST Great morning! Last friday I sat outside the workshop 6.30 in the morning to be sure to be first in line at 7 when they open (drop-in service) I was first but they did not have the spare parts so I had to go home and they ordered the stuff. <BR> <BR> So 6.30 this morning I waited again and again I was first in line. And the parts had arrived and it would be 1,5 hour. I had brought my bike so I biked to the indoor pool and swimmed for 45 minutes and then back to the workshop - hurray 85 minutes of exercise ... Tue, 21 Jul 2015 08:54:43 EST A bit chaotic... The habits are still on although the rest of my life feels chaotic. I am getting stressed because daughter and me are going on a minivacation, and I don´t know why it stresses me, if it doesn´t work, we go home again. It´s something about getting older that has made me a lot more frightened of everything than I used to be. <BR> <BR> I think week number five will be without any new habit - there are so many things I want to start with and it feels as if I picked one of them to be the habit o... Sun, 19 Jul 2015 11:36:19 EST Vision An article popped up "7 things to do before you start" and although I already have "started" (?) I think it was interesting to be inspired by it. First point was: <BR> <BR> "What does success look like for you? Imagine what your life will look like and feel like when you have accomplished your weight loss goal. Don’t let it depend on a number on the scale. What will be different and better? What will you be doing on a daily basis? What new habits concerning food and exercise will you be prac... Wed, 15 Jul 2015 07:49:03 EST Obsessed I might need to add "not more" to my habit number 4 that is to use 30 minutes a day for singer song writing during my vacation. It´s so fun and I spent a couple of hours yesterday. <BR> <BR> Daughter is still very jet-lagged - I can´t remember that it ever took me this long and she is young and young people seem to recover quickly. But she can´t sleep at night and then sleeps forever in the morning, that needs to be changed. <BR> <BR> I have painted the walls and the ceiling of the room I a... Tue, 14 Jul 2015 03:57:21 EST New habit week 4 ... The week became turbulent - I thought I was going to a three-day course in singer song-writing 500 km from home - and as I planned to take my car to a workshop to change a bulb(it REALLY irritates me that modern cars has to go to workshop for having bulbs changed) I had left doggy at my dog-lady the evninge before. I entered a phone-meeting for OA and they said "it is the 8th of july..." and I realised that my course would begin in three hours - and I was 500 km away!. Spent maybe five minute... Sun, 12 Jul 2015 08:56:11 EST Karma and habit nr 3 Yesterday morning as I was about to wre my blog there was a floor announced on the "free"-sit. 20-25 square meters, a "click-floor" jast what I needed for my guestroom floor - so I said "yes, please" and got it. Instead of writing a blog, I drove off and packed floor boards into my car (where they still are, was too hot to unload them when I got home) It is used, the floor was about 40 square meters and the owners thought that there was about 20-25 meters left that was usable - I am happy to ... Mon, 6 Jul 2015 00:51:50 EST Things I might not need to know ... I buy orgnic carrots because they tast nicer than "ordinary" and I buy organic/fairtrade coffee mostly for supporting coffeefarmers with fairtrade. Otherwise I am not consistent - it depends on what is available not as much what the prize is. I buy only swedish meat because of the animal protection laws and I try to buy organic chicken (but can´t really afford it in the amount that I have chicken... <BR> But this video might changes my mind: <BR> <BR> <link> Sat, 4 Jul 2015 02:25:59 EST