MEDDYPEDDY's SparkPeople Blog MEDDYPEDDY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Interrogated... The dreaded police interrogation abput speeding and driving an unauthirezed vehicle was today... after reading the papers again I found that it was over the phone which made it much less scary. I was thinking about telling a story that I was on my way to the workshop... but that meant involving more people in case I needed to fabricate som proofs.. so in the end I let my laziness rule and made i simple by telling the truth. <BR> <BR> The enquiry took about two minutes - I confessed to both a... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 02:50:26 EST An enchanted evening... Yesterday seemed at first to be one of those days that you prefer to forget as soon as possible. As I did not sleep during the night, I slept three hours in the morning and woke up uncomfortably late. Then we had promised to go to the annual meeting of the society that daughter loves for playing games, role-playing and what in Sweden is translated as "lajv" (from lives I guess) Anyway annual meetings are ordinary short and efficient if there are no great conflicts in the society - but I had u... Sun, 18 Jan 2015 01:27:36 EST Did not sleep... Yesterday I could not go to sleep - probably because I dozed off in front of the teve whoch made it harder to go to sleep later... but contributing was also feasting on spare ribs (slow digestion becuse of it) and recieving a letter that meant fines - was caught by a speed camera about fourteen days ago - I did not slow down from 100 kM/hour to 70/ fast enough (reading the letter again tells me that I drove 77...will be 1500 in penalty not so bad - but the bad thing is that my car has ... Sat, 17 Jan 2015 06:27:56 EST Busy week... Three hours after I had gotten my daughter on the bus to her father, she phoned and begged me to come get her... it was the phone again and she was really in a dark place, totally hysterical and having locked herself in the bathroom. <BR> <BR> It is really hard - on some level this is a "normal" teenager state - live is heaven or hell and there is no solution than to run away... for me it is hard to find a way to cope that is responsible and sdult without rejecting her or abandoning her - ... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 01:16:35 EST Meeting friends Twelfth night is traditionally the evening for our annual feministic meeting, we who made my feministic newspaper 1988-1993 and soma engaged friends - this year we were four out of seven possible. <BR> <BR> One of us got married in New York two days before christmas whoch was nice and the hostess offered pulled pork - and because of my new year resolution there was also salads and beansalsa and more dilicious vegetarian stuff. <BR> <BR> It was wonderful, I usually bring an hourglass because... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 04:15:25 EST My defects... "There is a crack in evertyhing, that´s how the light gets in" (Leonard Cohen) <BR> <BR> Am I still occupied with trying to become a better person? Yes, at work I am, I am not working as hard as I might and it could unburden some of the work of my colleauges if I was more active. <BR> <BR> On the other hand, what I do that my colleagues don´t is that I put a lot of effort into being encouraging, I comment on articles I have enjoyed, I do brin interesting facts and thought to the conversati... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 02:12:32 EST Why blog and factoids... I am thinking aboput starting a blog in swedish - I have done it once - eight years ago or something, and it died rather fast. And since then I have thought ag+biut it a lot but always end up with ...why? For who? <BR> <BR> The interesting thing is that I have been blogging here on spark since I joined the team in 2009. Not always active, there has been silent months, and the quality of course differs but when I count them now, it seems as I have writtens more than 1000! That ... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 05:04:03 EST Resolutions... Since I read that "resolution" i a too harsh word I am looking at the translation and it puzzles me because I can´t find it hard in swedish... we use the word for "promises" ("löften")for our visions on new year. <BR> <BR> What I have set out to achieve in 2015: <BR> <BR> 1. Eat vegetarian. This I feel will be very hard, hopefully it will get easier if I manage to do it for a month or so... I am comparing with giving up alcohol, it all seemed unachieveable in the beginning, just a big dark ... Fri, 2 Jan 2015 03:06:32 EST First day as a vegetarian... My gosh - it looks like dog foof again... <em>24</em> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It´s reda cabbage, carrots and onion fried in sesame oil - the red cabbage totally coloured the carrots and the onion. And then there is quinoa tricolor. <BR> <BR> But although it does not look appetizing it was really good - made pancakes for daughter, did not even try to make her eat my black food. <BR> <BR> Spent the day helping brother to record hi... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 11:39:33 EST Full speed ahead! I am very childish in the sense that I feel like new years eve is really special - the decisions I make for the future are magic and stronger than if I start with them any other day. <BR> <BR> I am excited about going for a vegetarian year - one day at the time. And I am fully aware that vegetarian does not necessary mean weight loss - there is a woman in my swedish support group, about my age, that has been a vegetarian all her grown up life and hovers around 100 kilo. But as meat, especial... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 05:29:52 EST Recipes I am thinking about a comment from Spark friend Joy yesterday - about not really using recipes anymore because one knows what one likes and knows how to cook it. <BR> <BR> This is true to me - I have cooked for so long that I rarely use recipes, only at special events when I cook something new or when I do special dishes for special events. <BR> <BR> But I wish I used recipes more - there are a lot of flavors and combination of ingredients that I never learn because I don´t have the energy ... Tue, 30 Dec 2014 01:50:01 EST Thank you Malin! Again I can notice how being social brings gifts... hehe, that is not true, my membership on Spark People is one of my dark secrets in Sweden... I have not connected to my facebookaccount and as I don´t use my real name anywhere around I think it is not probable that anyone that knows me will find me here - of course if they stumble in they will see from the photos who I am and I guess you can do goole search on photos ... but I prefer not to think about that as I use Spark peole as my place ... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 04:37:25 EST Sausage inspiration My friends homemade suasages was reaaaaally delicious - three different, two with pork and one with beef - served with homemade mustard and homemade bread - baked on sourdough... it was all very trendy and hip... <BR> <BR> So my determination to become vegetarian for a year trembled a little, but just a little because most of the wonderful flavour depended on spices - marjoram, thyme, rosemary, cumin, cardemom, garlic... you don´t need meat for the flavors to be there. <BR> <BR> So today ha... Sun, 28 Dec 2014 07:31:15 EST Just for today... ...I was planning to stay on the healthy vegetarian diet but I had forgot I am invited to friends this evening - they made their own sausages some weeks ago and now I am invited to taste them... it is - 14 outside, if I go swimming I can eat those sausages without overstepping calories intake vs used...and before I go to the indoor swimmingpool I have to take doggy for a walk. As hal chinese crested he does not appreciate the cold weather, but appreciates a dog blanket even less. It´s been s... Sat, 27 Dec 2014 01:01:49 EST Soooo cold First time in winter the temperature has gone really down, yesterday evening - 18 C and my conciece is tormenting me because of the romanian beggars in our city. <BR> <BR> Last year there was just a few in Stockholm, this winter there are plenty in every city and i my town some of them sleep under the concrete driveway in a parkinghouse: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> And yesterday I thought about driving there an offering them a bed for t... Fri, 26 Dec 2014 08:52:46 EST Thank you... ..all for thinking about me - I apologize for not answering immedeately, have been a little down but not too much, just passive and uninspired. <BR> <BR> I am celebrating christmas alone this year, daughter is with father and comes to me at newyear. On chirstmas eve (that is the day we celebrate in Sweden) I did very little, but had a mission as Santa three lkilometres away, so I disguised myself with thingt from our theatre and thought I looked fine! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.s... Thu, 25 Dec 2014 04:36:35 EST Tuesday One of my chornicle has been shared over 3000 times whoppeee I am going viral! To be honest it stresses me a little, I wrote a piece about egocentric behaviour, I did it as a reaction that swedish shop organisation has decided that "activity bracelet" is the christmas gift of the year and underlines the fact that you can share your exercise achievements on facebook - at the same time as we are having a big discussion about the ro9mari people that is outside every shop, begging these days - pe... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 08:39:36 EST Monday Time to photofood again - yesterdays lunch was salmon with rice and coarrots and aioli sauce (garlic, sour milk mayonnaise): <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Mon, 1 Dec 2014 01:50:11 EST Crazy days... Opening night went well: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Sold out (70 people!) and the audience was really happy. <BR> On the way to the theatre we stopped by the gas staion and bought some gingerbread, buns, cookies and "julmust" (swedish soda for christmas) , did not even try to get to the food store since there was a lot of people out shopping this saturday... We did have time to clear the visible mess but it was far from clena - and no... Sun, 30 Nov 2014 04:37:22 EST Not so beautiful food... Maybe I should go back to phographing my food and presenting it in the blog... the other day I looked at my plate and realised that it looked like a bowl of dog food... I had fried kale and spinach and onions and bell pepper and then mixed beans with come cream and blue cheese and stirred in it, very yummy but looking like ... can´t write that. <BR> <BR> But right now it is very busy - we have opening night on our christmas play today and it has been many rehearsals. And to draw attention to... Sat, 29 Nov 2014 01:05:47 EST Points again! I have obviously slacked in my sparking so I have not noticed that there are now more point levels to go for - yipeee, it was sad (and weird) to notice that once I reached the highest level I started to slack in my spraking as weill. <BR> <BR> Now I only wish they would bring back the "huddle" function it sort of made it easier for me to visit teams better. <BR> <BR> I have finally been to the indoor pool - bougt a six month card andnwill start going on weekend mornings again, that will be ... Wed, 12 Nov 2014 01:36:40 EST A visit to the doctor I had a busy day yesterday - three press conferences in a row and all three with articles that was supposed to be delievered for todays paper. State of the world market and prognosis for 2015 ... brought the computer and between that conference and the next (that was about how the city centers shopping is to handle the loss of customers to the malls outside town) I managed to write almost all of the first one... And arriving ten minutes early for the third - big day for council work - I manag... Wed, 5 Nov 2014 23:02:07 EST Wolfes and more... Had planned to go to the gym yesterday and signed up for a group with circle training - couldn´t find one of hte shoes so I never got there. Thought doggy was guilty but found the other shoe in my car later... <BR> <BR> Compensated with joining the dog walk in the evening (a facebookgroup that gathers us in my village two evenings a week to walk the dogs and give them an opportunity to behave sociallly well with other dogs...) - but my fitness is lower than ever so I abandoned them after te... Wed, 5 Nov 2014 03:42:08 EST Celebrating november November has always been special to me - I admit that september and october are mostly better autumn months but as I am born in november I always felt good about it and it is only later years that I have realised that it is the darkest and rudest month if I consider rain, darness and cold... <BR> <BR> But november is also the month I celebrate my soberness - I got sober in june but had a relapse in november (one night, one bottle of wine, luckily I did not have to continue...) and as I dont ... Tue, 4 Nov 2014 00:17:28 EST Another Monday Waking up fairly early, think I´ll give myself ten minutes of accordian practice before I start moving... my ambition today is to make the plan for next edition and start doing some small things with it. <BR> <BR> For the moment I am a quitter with the standup next week...I feel silly not wanting to do it, and I feel like I am letting myself and other people down - and that is not adequate at all so I don´t know what is going on. <BR> <BR> On the happy side - a firend called yesterday and a... Mon, 3 Nov 2014 00:06:26 EST November - starting from skratch..again. One good thing with being on the bottom is that there is only one way to go - upwards! <BR> <BR> Not entirely true because I CAN get deeper, I can gain more and feel even lousier. And that scares me stiff is that I don´t trust myself t be able to turn things round. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> ... the plan is as modest as it can be not to be overwhelmed. <BR> <BR> Priority one is exercising - so I added my runkeeper for today, 3... Sun, 2 Nov 2014 04:11:02 EST Blood pressure rocketing! If you have been reading my blogs for a while you know that I developed high blood pressure 15 months ago - and that I thoguh exercise and losing weight got it down to normal. I have to admit that I did not really believe it was me - I thought that my doctor fooled me a bit by giving me medicine agianst oedema that also worked for lowering blood pressure. <BR> <BR> I was wrong - because yesterday company health was visiting and I checked my blood pressure for the first time since january... ... Wed, 29 Oct 2014 02:41:27 EST Have to figure this out... It is really pathetic but two things seems to have stopped me being active on spark. <BR> <BR> 1) Reached top level of Spark Points. Collecting points has no purpose at all anymore and that made me lose this feeling of having to be consistant in signing in, tracking and communicating. <BR> <BR> 2) losing the huddle function - as long as it was there it made med visit five teams a day to huddle and to wite something on the message boards. <BR> <BR> I know that I have complained about this b... Mon, 27 Oct 2014 01:16:26 EST Erasing games Since summer I have played a game on my Ipad - "Pearl´s Peril" I did a lot in the beginning as I thought I would reach some sort of end, but after a month or so I understood that it is supposed to go on... for a very long time. <BR> <BR> But I was stubborn and somehow determinated to finish it so I have been playing it very patiently, three times a day as the "energy" to play comes with timelimits. <BR> <BR> And I found another couple of gameapps that I also found rather amusing and though... Mon, 13 Oct 2014 06:40:47 EST Gaining ... I think I set a new record for gaining weight - four kilos in a week! <BR> <BR> Although I try not to despair over it, the explanation is that I had the last medicin on monday and it took until friday until I got to the pharamcy and fetched another ration of my oedema pills. I could feel the fluid assembling in my legs during the week and although the pills has started to work I can still feel my legs as a little swollen - I will see what the scale says next saturday, I did well with foo... Sun, 12 Oct 2014 02:56:39 EST Voice care I went to a workshop for singers yesterday. I was relctant because it is hard to drive back to town once I have gotten home in the evening, but as I had signed up for it and as I did think that they would not have too many participators I pulled myself together, got up from the sofa and went. <BR> <BR> And I am glad, it was really interesting. It was held in english as the leader was a rock singer from Ireland. It was interesting that she had moved from Ireland to London to attend London Mus... Tue, 7 Oct 2014 02:19:15 EST Stand-up comedy Yesterday I did my fifth stand-up-comedy performance - and my first in a "real" club, which means that it was organised with a headliner, a runner-upp and two rookies. I was one of the rookies and as usual almost unconcious with nerves and "why-am-I-doing-this"-anxiety. <BR> <BR> It was 70 km from home, the friend that I am trying to do this together with was to late in signing up and did not get to be a rookie this time. <BR> <BR> The anxiety before was as bad as always - I have told mys... Thu, 2 Oct 2014 00:24:19 EST The potato crisp miracle So I went to the store for vegetables and passed the aisle with potatocrisps. A bag caught my eye "new flavour - chanterelles and sour cream". I could not resist, put it in my basket and added all the healthy vegetables... <BR> <BR> Normally that is where the choice is made. It was long ago I tried to fool myself by saying "I will buy it and only have a handful a day"... I know that if it goes home with me it goes in my stomach rather quick. <BR> <BR> And as a true addict I opened the bag i... Wed, 24 Sep 2014 22:53:35 EST Stress Yesterday I was a good person.... invited this woman who used to run a gym to lunch - she lost her business during summer and is now looking for a job. She is an immigrant from Russia and we swedes are not good in letting foreigners in - she is very highly educated and experieced but that does not help you are too qualified" they tell her - I am starting to realise that in this country it is very hard to get somewhere if you don´t have connections. <BR> <BR> As I am writing about the region... Tue, 23 Sep 2014 23:24:35 EST Making and breaking rules Reading Anne Catherine who describes the thread of selflies that is typical for an addict, although she calls it "breaking rules": <BR> 1. Before you enter the store you decide that no matter what you are going not going to buy a bag of your favorite candy. <BR> 2. In the store you find yourself in front od the candy shelf, buy the bag and change the decision into "I will only eat three pieces" and not open it until I am home..Rule one broken. <BR> 3. You decide that you will not open the bag... Mon, 22 Sep 2014 22:19:01 EST Feelings Drove the daughter with friend to the bus that takes them back to her father and school. This is when I usually overeat, shame and sorrow over the situation, comfort because I feel badly treated and a lide reward fo me having been such a good mother all weekend... <BR> <BR> Do this time I went home and had all those feeling roar as I had my soup for the evening... <BR> <img src=""> Sun, 21 Sep 2014 22:41:59 EST Daughter and me! Performing together...very basic Sun, 21 Sep 2014 02:51:45 EST Fireworks in my brain I feel bad about suddenly falling into silence for such a long time, since I consider many of you as real friends - and it is nog friendly just to remove myself from company... <BR> <BR> I know it is silly - bu it is because of the huddle function. When that still around it was the incentive for me to visit teams and huddle every morning - and at the same time I did some sort of check-in, and I can´t really understand why I can´t keep onchecking in every morning without the huddle... but tha... Sun, 21 Sep 2014 00:43:57 EST 43 To do or not to do Yesterday I read the "Fighting the urge" e-book by dr Amy Johnson <BR> <link><BR>2013/12/Fighting-the-Urge_Dr-Amy-Johns<BR>on.pdf </link> <BR> <BR> and afterwards went to an AA lunch meeting. Dr Johnson says that compulsive eating is neither an incurable addiction nor a compensation for deep inner needs that can´t be changed until you have defined and fulfilled those needs. Dr Johnson says that it i our lower brain being taught to answer the craving by... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 02:52:09 EST 41 The heat is on It´s hot again - the disadvantage is that I can´t play the accordioan as freely as before because the windiw is open and it will be heard out on the street which might be distrurbing late at night or early in the borning. Closing the window is a tricky thing because there is a flynet mounted in it and it is a cumbersome activity. The other disadvantage is of course that it is hard to move or get anything done - yeterday I walked in the woods with doggy and I was totally soaked with sweat alt... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 01:14:24 EST 39 The new passion... So I got my accordion yesterday - wow! When I left if to this old man for repairing, he said that it would be a couple of weeks – that´s why I went to the library and borrowed all the books about accordions to learn more while waiting... <BR> <BR> And when I found that the first swedish accordion was built in my village, I had to phone this guy to ask if he knew – as he had read the same book as me, he did. But he also told me that my accordion was fixed and I could come and get it. We had ... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 01:59:07 EST 37 Plumbing and more... Have not been able to motivate myself to write, and am not too enthusiastic about life in general either although I do try to make every day the best day of my life! <BR> <BR> Last time I wrote I had this small anxiety about visiting bonus daughter in GOthenburg, in retrospect I realise that it was mostly about driving that far in the heat - but we were very fortunate and it was mostly cloudy or even raining. The drive took about 3,5 hours one direction which meant thast I spent seven hours ... Fri, 18 Jul 2014 02:25:57 EST 32 Mood swing Today my mood is down - for the usual reason, it is all about the food. Had too much to eat yeasterday and suddenly everything is hopeless again. <BR> <BR> Apart from food, it was a good day - we had that pirates party, I did not join in the battle but sat in the first row and looked at the children throwing water bombs and having fun. In the evening daugher and me once again visited that improvisations theatre and had really fun - and then we went home and spent the rest of the evening in... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 02:46:40 EST 31 It´s a month! A month without meat has passed, and it has been a hard struggle. I did not manage to stay away from the cake, of course I could plan for a stop to cakes like the one I am trying with meat, but it does not seem realistic to imagine a stop for the ret of my life... mayby I could imagine a year without all food that I don´t need... <BR> <BR> I am also aware that my thinking is the oppsite that it "should" be - according to all health gurus I should think positive, about the stuff I CAN eat ins... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 04:56:09 EST 29 Support would be appreciated! It is daughters birthday - sang for her and made "Poor knigths of Windsor" (or french toast) for her at breakfast – and had some myself too as the recipe is for two persons... very stupid start of a day that I know is going to be filled with temptations - and as the on-off person I am, the only strategy that usually works is all or nothing... <BR> <BR> Maybe my salvation was with lunch - made spare-ribs in the oven for daughter and when they were done I really faltered - knowing that she wou... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 08:22:35 EST 28 Time-out-time...or? So I am on my second day of eating perfect... meaning that I have planned my food and not eaten out of my plan. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is daughters birthday. It is a very austere birthday, the "big" gift was the camp she just finished and it will only be her and me - sister will come in the evening and then she will have some small gifts from her as well - her "big" gift is to drive around the area and visit a lot of flea markets (daughter loves them) all friday and pay for a reasonable amount o... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 09:29:43 EST 27 Ancora Imparo! By now my meatless days has become (in my eyes) so impressively many that they are worth defending. Meaning that when craving and temptation strikes one of my stopping arguments are "Do I really want to "destroy" the streak I have managed so far?" In this case my black-and-white personality serves me, I use it to stay away. Deep down I know of course that the "just this once" - argument my sick mind tries to claim is nonsense, if I eat meat now it will be a relapse that I don´t know how long ... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 05:19:59 EST 24 Deadlock... It seems that I sometimes get hit by a "deadlock" and become paralyzed - it is common concerning being too late paying bills, if I am overdue I get paralyzed and do nothing until it´s really late and I have to do many saltomortals to get it right again... <BR> <BR> I am in a face-bookgroup for giving away things in my area. It is very practical, I make a post of the thing I want to give away and people answer and the the taker an me goes private to agree on details. Do far I have given away ... Sat, 5 Jul 2014 02:01:06 EST 23 Biking with doggy Yes, I am still on the no-meatwagon – and it is still very hard. I have also added icecream and candy to the no-nos but have not counted days on those. I realise that I will have a problem with the "No meat" rule when it comes to breakfast. Standard breakfast o me is coffee and homebaked wholewheat bread with smoked ham on - I also have smoked salmon on but that is rather luxury - and cheese is not good to keep in the house as it is a temptation to overeat...I will have to establish another... Fri, 4 Jul 2014 02:57:05 EST 20 Wow,it IS hard... Giving up meat is much harder than I ever thought, I have had some really bad moments in the past weeks and it does not get easier because I really doubt why I am doing it... There is no real health reason from the nutrition, I should preferably give up sweets, icecream and fast food if that was the real reason. <BR> <BR> And as I still eat fish and chicken I did not think it would be that hard, but it is, I have really been fighting some tough battles wit myself in the food store... I only ... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 05:29:21 EST