MEDDYPEDDY's SparkPeople Blog MEDDYPEDDY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Habits - week 6 I gave myself "week off" and no habit week number 5. But that is not true - the habit I have practised has been to close the lid of the toilet when I have visited ... at the request from my daughter who obviously drops makeup things in it if it is open – I asked why she could not start her bathroom session with closing it but did not get any sensible answer - and then I thought "why not" and started doing it. <BR> <BR> Otherwise my habits so far needs some realunching - the glass of water ... Wed, 29 Jul 2015 03:51:44 EST Great morning! Last friday I sat outside the workshop 6.30 in the morning to be sure to be first in line at 7 when they open (drop-in service) I was first but they did not have the spare parts so I had to go home and they ordered the stuff. <BR> <BR> So 6.30 this morning I waited again and again I was first in line. And the parts had arrived and it would be 1,5 hour. I had brought my bike so I biked to the indoor pool and swimmed for 45 minutes and then back to the workshop - hurray 85 minutes of exercise ... Tue, 21 Jul 2015 08:54:43 EST A bit chaotic... The habits are still on although the rest of my life feels chaotic. I am getting stressed because daughter and me are going on a minivacation, and I don´t know why it stresses me, if it doesn´t work, we go home again. It´s something about getting older that has made me a lot more frightened of everything than I used to be. <BR> <BR> I think week number five will be without any new habit - there are so many things I want to start with and it feels as if I picked one of them to be the habi... Sun, 19 Jul 2015 11:36:19 EST Vision An article popped up "7 things to do before you start" and although I already have "started" (?) I think it was interesting to be inspired by it. First point was: <BR> <BR> "What does success look like for you? Imagine what your life will look like and feel like when you have accomplished your weight loss goal. Don’t let it depend on a number on the scale. What will be different and better? What will you be doing on a daily basis? What new habits concerning food and exercise will you be pr... Wed, 15 Jul 2015 07:49:03 EST Obsessed I might need to add "not more" to my habit number 4 that is to use 30 minutes a day for singer song writing during my vacation. It´s so fun and I spent a couple of hours yesterday. <BR> <BR> Daughter is still very jet-lagged - I can´t remember that it ever took me this long and she is young and young people seem to recover quickly. But she can´t sleep at night and then sleeps forever in the morning, that needs to be changed. <BR> <BR> I have painted the walls and the ceiling of the room ... Tue, 14 Jul 2015 03:57:21 EST New habit week 4 ... The week became turbulent - I thought I was going to a three-day course in singer song-writing 500 km from home - and as I planned to take my car to a workshop to change a bulb(it REALLY irritates me that modern cars has to go to workshop for having bulbs changed) I had left doggy at my dog-lady the evninge before. I entered a phone-meeting for OA and they said "it is the 8th of july..." and I realised that my course would begin in three hours - and I was 500 km away!. Spent maybe five minute... Sun, 12 Jul 2015 08:56:11 EST Karma and habit nr 3 Yesterday morning as I was about to wre my blog there was a floor announced on the "free"-sit. 20-25 square meters, a "click-floor" jast what I needed for my guestroom floor - so I said "yes, please" and got it. Instead of writing a blog, I drove off and packed floor boards into my car (where they still are, was too hot to unload them when I got home) It is used, the floor was about 40 square meters and the owners thought that there was about 20-25 meters left that was usable - I am happy to ... Mon, 6 Jul 2015 00:51:50 EST Things I might not need to know ... I buy orgnic carrots because they tast nicer than "ordinary" and I buy organic/fairtrade coffee mostly for supporting coffeefarmers with fairtrade. Otherwise I am not consistent - it depends on what is available not as much what the prize is. I buy only swedish meat because of the animal protection laws and I try to buy organic chicken (but can´t really afford it in the amount that I have chicken... <BR> But this video might changes my mind: <BR> <BR> <link> Sat, 4 Jul 2015 02:25:59 EST Experience and hope It might not be me but it is a fact that since I asked for sharing on that morning phone meeting there has been sharing evey morning... it can be a coincidence but even so – I have not been "punished" for speaking up and it changed as I wished for, so I will continue to try to be more me. <BR> <BR> That was experience "hope" is this picture - posted on facebook apparantly in a serie about "people of New York" - anyway, this is what I would like to look like <em>211</em> <BR> <img src=... Fri, 3 Jul 2015 01:21:50 EST Struggles This is also a bore - once again I have prooved to myself that I can´t "cheat" with what I eat, small slips starts major turmoil in my brain and releases compulsion. And then I ´ll never know if I will be able to start on the right path again. <BR> <BR> Daughter made contact with Face Time from California this morning - bad connection but it waked me from a nightmare that ended with med asking her to go to h--l... and when she left me (in the dream) I felt really bad and a big conflict abo... Thu, 2 Jul 2015 01:36:24 EST In tears ... So – my daughter (15) is in California with her father and has been away for three weeks now. We hav met on facetime and she sends sms and even a good oldfashioned postcard! (from toronto where their visit started) – I did not think the young knew haow to attach a stamp ..;-) <BR> <BR> And today she emailed a link with this picture: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> So naturally I burst into tears – what ha... Wed, 1 Jul 2015 04:54:24 EST Conviction gone ... The wonderful conviction I´ve had for the past week that I can´t take the first bite, disappered yesterday and I had a bad struggle all evening. Managed to go to bed without eating anything I should not have and That is good but it is a little disappointing that I lost that wonderful feeling of serenity. It is probably because I got a little overbearing and had too lille food, I was just roaringly hungry. <BR> <BR> But I am grateful for still being on the track I want to be, will add some ... Tue, 30 Jun 2015 00:08:28 EST Experience from my water glass and more ... The first habit of drinking a glass of water before every meal has been going on for a week. It is NOT comfortable, I have to force myself to drink it all, even though I have learned that it is easier if I warm it a little and add applecidervinegar to it. <BR> <BR> But I can notice that it gives me more peace with eating - as meal time is coming upp and I eat smaller servings than normal, I am really really hungry when I start making my food. Then, having to drink that water sort of calms me... Mon, 29 Jun 2015 02:37:25 EST Habit number two: Making my bed The first week has passed and I have managed to drink a glass of water before every meal almost 100% – I forgot it one meal. It is not a true habit yet, I have to think about doing it, it wasn´t until yesterday I realised that I shoul warm that water in the micro instead of on the stove, saves time and is easier to fit into the morningroutine - where I warm milk for my coffee in the micro. <BR> <BR> The next habit is also easy - to make my bed in the morning. Apart from the feeling of tid... Sun, 28 Jun 2015 00:19:39 EST 40 habits in a year In my search for facts about habits I stumbled over an article about a swedish professor in economy who had decided to start 40 new habits in a year ... so he was on leave from his job for a year and then started a new habit each week - and some weeks now and then he took a pause from getting a new habit and just worked with those he had picked up. <BR> <BR> He succeeded (the experiment lasted 2014) and says that it was a question about focus, he really had to go all-in to manage to turn a b... Sat, 27 Jun 2015 02:33:38 EST A month later ... My last blog was a month ago, I am a little sad to have lost the commitment to be active on Spark People, I log in and do some activities but I don´t visit teams as I used to (blaming it on removal on the "huddle"-function) and I have not felt inspired to write blogs. It is sad, but so be it. <BR> <BR> I´ve found another book to be inspired by ...;-) It´s Vanans makt - in english The Power of Habit: Why We Do What We Do in Life and Business by Charles Duhigg - just found that he has been ... Fri, 26 Jun 2015 02:48:01 EST Tribulations Nothing calms me as much as tribulations ... it does not spur me, i do not put up a fight, at firs I despair and the inevitabl suicidal thoughts appear but then, when the situation sinks in, my constant worry-mumble that goes on inside suddenly gets quiet and I feel sort of relieved. It is like" look the worst thing happened,and you are still alive" <BR> <BR> I went to the psychiatric surgery (?) yesterday in hope to get a valuation of possible adhd. It has been suggested by a former psychia... Tue, 26 May 2015 00:50:36 EST Me and the shelf I have this project or renovating my guestroom and turning it into a room that I can rent out to university students. It has its own entrance, there is a bathroom connected to it and although I live in a village outside the city, it is the same side of the city as the university, there are buses once an hour and it takes ablut fifteen minutes or half an hour, depending on which bus you choose. <BR> <BR> I managed to get rid of the 1.40 bed I had in the guestroom last autumn, it took for age... Mon, 20 Apr 2015 00:46:54 EST Letting go and letting God... "What if" – I said to my OA-pal the other day – "What if this is what my higher power thinks is suitable for me. If HP wanted me to become abstinent, I would..." <BR> <BR> It you try "everything" for a long time and end up eating compulsively anyway, it seems as if it is a hopeless cause... <BR> <BR> Another way to think about it is that the result is not that important, I will try my best according to my ability and leave it to my HP to decide the outcome. <BR> <BR> The "normal" thin... Sun, 19 Apr 2015 00:53:51 EST Most addictive food I get a sponsored post – Huffington Post with "the most addictive food" The article claims that research has established that the foods most likely to develope addiction in the eater is... what a surpris! - pizza! And then chocolate, chips, cookies and icecream... <BR> <BR> And the foods least likely to make you addicted accoring to the same article? Cucumber, carrots, apple, brown rice and beans. <BR> <BR> I had icecream yesterday "salted caramel"... I think about 1500 cal, not a very sm... Mon, 23 Mar 2015 03:20:28 EST The unhealthy breakfast For a month I have tried a different breakfast from my usual (that is wholegrain bread with ham och salmon and coffee with milk) <BR> Now I cook bacon & egg, mushroom and tomato - around 400 cal whoch is about the same my usual breakfast gives. <BR> <BR> This breakfast works very well, I feel fine afterwords my bowels loves it and I don´t get hungry until two in the afternoon if I eat at six in the morning. <BR> <BR> So what´s the problem then? Well, it feels so wrong - so unhealthy and ... Sun, 22 Mar 2015 03:50:13 EST Weight vs behaviour The past week has been successful in the aspect of losing weight. But my behaviour has not been the most sensible, my goal in eating is to eat three balanced meal a day and nothing in between. <BR> <BR> When I look back at all those years trying to lose weight I cas see that the most successful periods has been when I had a goal of calories and planned my food for that. I have fallen of that wagon too, but compared to the kamikaze diets, and the "special foods" diets, the eating less withou... Sat, 21 Mar 2015 05:11:54 EST Something completely different....and rocking the socks. So - daughter is preparing to get confirmated this spring. I have no idea if this is done in other churches but in the lutheran church in Sweden the usual thing is to get batized when you are a baby and then - at 13-14 years you study chirstian stuff for a while, for some it is one hour a week during a year or so, for some it´s a weeks camp in the summer. It used to be that you could not join the holy communion until you had been confirmated but I think they have changed that. In my time th... Fri, 20 Mar 2015 02:16:36 EST Unfriendly or what? I am struggling with a lot of things - eating healthy, get moving and being consistant to pages like spark people. I have a vague hope for the moment, food and exercise has been working for a week and as spring has sprung and I am able to bike, it is really nice to go biking again. Poor doggy worn his paws out when I got too overenthusiastic, too soon... hopefully i will be able to take him again soon, for the moment we have to walk in the woods to spare his paws and I am too overweight to be... Thu, 19 Mar 2015 02:10:46 EST Volunteering we have all these beggars from Rumania in Sweden this winter. From being a phenomenon only in Stockholm, they are now in most cities - in karlstad, I meet them at the entrance of every food store. They slept under a concrete driveway until some vandals started a fire there. Luckily noone was hurt. Now the church has fixed some bunkhouses: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> and they ask for volunteers to serve there - I hesitate because I ... Sun, 8 Feb 2015 05:26:14 EST Longing... Didn´t need to plan exercise yeaterday - a lot of snow fell and I had to shovel the driveway twice. Three days ago I fell when I walked the dog - it is a miracle that it has not happened before because this winter has been more icy than snowy. Banged my head but had a thick cap on so there was no lasting damage (I think) But after that I have had sore muscles in my neck an more places - I ´ve read that when you fall the whole body tense up to manage the fall and you boost yourself with adrena... Mon, 2 Feb 2015 02:10:39 EST Interrogated... The dreaded police interrogation abput speeding and driving an unauthirezed vehicle was today... after reading the papers again I found that it was over the phone which made it much less scary. I was thinking about telling a story that I was on my way to the workshop... but that meant involving more people in case I needed to fabricate som proofs.. so in the end I let my laziness rule and made i simple by telling the truth. <BR> <BR> The enquiry took about two minutes - I confessed to both a... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 02:50:26 EST An enchanted evening... Yesterday seemed at first to be one of those days that you prefer to forget as soon as possible. As I did not sleep during the night, I slept three hours in the morning and woke up uncomfortably late. Then we had promised to go to the annual meeting of the society that daughter loves for playing games, role-playing and what in Sweden is translated as "lajv" (from lives I guess) Anyway annual meetings are ordinary short and efficient if there are no great conflicts in the society - but I had u... Sun, 18 Jan 2015 01:27:36 EST Did not sleep... Yesterday I could not go to sleep - probably because I dozed off in front of the teve whoch made it harder to go to sleep later... but contributing was also feasting on spare ribs (slow digestion becuse of it) and recieving a letter that meant fines - was caught by a speed camera about fourteen days ago - I did not slow down from 100 kM/hour to 70/ fast enough (reading the letter again tells me that I drove 77...will be 1500 in penalty not so bad - but the bad thing is that my car has ... Sat, 17 Jan 2015 06:27:56 EST Busy week... Three hours after I had gotten my daughter on the bus to her father, she phoned and begged me to come get her... it was the phone again and she was really in a dark place, totally hysterical and having locked herself in the bathroom. <BR> <BR> It is really hard - on some level this is a "normal" teenager state - live is heaven or hell and there is no solution than to run away... for me it is hard to find a way to cope that is responsible and sdult without rejecting her or abandoning her - ... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 01:16:35 EST Meeting friends Twelfth night is traditionally the evening for our annual feministic meeting, we who made my feministic newspaper 1988-1993 and soma engaged friends - this year we were four out of seven possible. <BR> <BR> One of us got married in New York two days before christmas whoch was nice and the hostess offered pulled pork - and because of my new year resolution there was also salads and beansalsa and more dilicious vegetarian stuff. <BR> <BR> It was wonderful, I usually bring an hourglass because... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 04:15:25 EST My defects... "There is a crack in evertyhing, that´s how the light gets in" (Leonard Cohen) <BR> <BR> Am I still occupied with trying to become a better person? Yes, at work I am, I am not working as hard as I might and it could unburden some of the work of my colleauges if I was more active. <BR> <BR> On the other hand, what I do that my colleagues don´t is that I put a lot of effort into being encouraging, I comment on articles I have enjoyed, I do brin interesting facts and thought to the conversati... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 02:12:32 EST Why blog and factoids... I am thinking aboput starting a blog in swedish - I have done it once - eight years ago or something, and it died rather fast. And since then I have thought ag+biut it a lot but always end up with ...why? For who? <BR> <BR> The interesting thing is that I have been blogging here on spark since I joined the team in 2009. Not always active, there has been silent months, and the quality of course differs but when I count them now, it seems as I have writtens more than 1000! That ... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 05:04:03 EST Resolutions... Since I read that "resolution" i a too harsh word I am looking at the translation and it puzzles me because I can´t find it hard in swedish... we use the word for "promises" ("löften")for our visions on new year. <BR> <BR> What I have set out to achieve in 2015: <BR> <BR> 1. Eat vegetarian. This I feel will be very hard, hopefully it will get easier if I manage to do it for a month or so... I am comparing with giving up alcohol, it all seemed unachieveable in the beginning, just a big dark ... Fri, 2 Jan 2015 03:06:32 EST First day as a vegetarian... My gosh - it looks like dog foof again... <em>24</em> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It´s reda cabbage, carrots and onion fried in sesame oil - the red cabbage totally coloured the carrots and the onion. And then there is quinoa tricolor. <BR> <BR> But although it does not look appetizing it was really good - made pancakes for daughter, did not even try to make her eat my black food. <BR> <BR> Spent the day helping brother to record hi... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 11:39:33 EST Full speed ahead! I am very childish in the sense that I feel like new years eve is really special - the decisions I make for the future are magic and stronger than if I start with them any other day. <BR> <BR> I am excited about going for a vegetarian year - one day at the time. And I am fully aware that vegetarian does not necessary mean weight loss - there is a woman in my swedish support group, about my age, that has been a vegetarian all her grown up life and hovers around 100 kilo. But as meat, especial... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 05:29:52 EST Recipes I am thinking about a comment from Spark friend Joy yesterday - about not really using recipes anymore because one knows what one likes and knows how to cook it. <BR> <BR> This is true to me - I have cooked for so long that I rarely use recipes, only at special events when I cook something new or when I do special dishes for special events. <BR> <BR> But I wish I used recipes more - there are a lot of flavors and combination of ingredients that I never learn because I don´t have the energy ... Tue, 30 Dec 2014 01:50:01 EST Thank you Malin! Again I can notice how being social brings gifts... hehe, that is not true, my membership on Spark People is one of my dark secrets in Sweden... I have not connected to my facebookaccount and as I don´t use my real name anywhere around I think it is not probable that anyone that knows me will find me here - of course if they stumble in they will see from the photos who I am and I guess you can do goole search on photos ... but I prefer not to think about that as I use Spark peole as my place ... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 04:37:25 EST Sausage inspiration My friends homemade suasages was reaaaaally delicious - three different, two with pork and one with beef - served with homemade mustard and homemade bread - baked on sourdough... it was all very trendy and hip... <BR> <BR> So my determination to become vegetarian for a year trembled a little, but just a little because most of the wonderful flavour depended on spices - marjoram, thyme, rosemary, cumin, cardemom, garlic... you don´t need meat for the flavors to be there. <BR> <BR> So today ha... Sun, 28 Dec 2014 07:31:15 EST Just for today... ...I was planning to stay on the healthy vegetarian diet but I had forgot I am invited to friends this evening - they made their own sausages some weeks ago and now I am invited to taste them... it is - 14 outside, if I go swimming I can eat those sausages without overstepping calories intake vs used...and before I go to the indoor swimmingpool I have to take doggy for a walk. As hal chinese crested he does not appreciate the cold weather, but appreciates a dog blanket even less. It´s been s... Sat, 27 Dec 2014 01:01:49 EST Soooo cold First time in winter the temperature has gone really down, yesterday evening - 18 C and my conciece is tormenting me because of the romanian beggars in our city. <BR> <BR> Last year there was just a few in Stockholm, this winter there are plenty in every city and i my town some of them sleep under the concrete driveway in a parkinghouse: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> And yesterday I thought about driving there an offering them a bed for t... Fri, 26 Dec 2014 08:52:46 EST Thank you... ..all for thinking about me - I apologize for not answering immedeately, have been a little down but not too much, just passive and uninspired. <BR> <BR> I am celebrating christmas alone this year, daughter is with father and comes to me at newyear. On chirstmas eve (that is the day we celebrate in Sweden) I did very little, but had a mission as Santa three lkilometres away, so I disguised myself with thingt from our theatre and thought I looked fine! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.s... Thu, 25 Dec 2014 04:36:35 EST Tuesday One of my chornicle has been shared over 3000 times whoppeee I am going viral! To be honest it stresses me a little, I wrote a piece about egocentric behaviour, I did it as a reaction that swedish shop organisation has decided that "activity bracelet" is the christmas gift of the year and underlines the fact that you can share your exercise achievements on facebook - at the same time as we are having a big discussion about the ro9mari people that is outside every shop, begging these days - pe... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 08:39:36 EST Monday Time to photofood again - yesterdays lunch was salmon with rice and coarrots and aioli sauce (garlic, sour milk mayonnaise): <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Mon, 1 Dec 2014 01:50:11 EST Crazy days... Opening night went well: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Sold out (70 people!) and the audience was really happy. <BR> On the way to the theatre we stopped by the gas staion and bought some gingerbread, buns, cookies and "julmust" (swedish soda for christmas) , did not even try to get to the food store since there was a lot of people out shopping this saturday... We did have time to clear the visible mess but it was far from clena - and no... Sun, 30 Nov 2014 04:37:22 EST Not so beautiful food... Maybe I should go back to phographing my food and presenting it in the blog... the other day I looked at my plate and realised that it looked like a bowl of dog food... I had fried kale and spinach and onions and bell pepper and then mixed beans with come cream and blue cheese and stirred in it, very yummy but looking like ... can´t write that. <BR> <BR> But right now it is very busy - we have opening night on our christmas play today and it has been many rehearsals. And to draw attention to... Sat, 29 Nov 2014 01:05:47 EST Points again! I have obviously slacked in my sparking so I have not noticed that there are now more point levels to go for - yipeee, it was sad (and weird) to notice that once I reached the highest level I started to slack in my spraking as weill. <BR> <BR> Now I only wish they would bring back the "huddle" function it sort of made it easier for me to visit teams better. <BR> <BR> I have finally been to the indoor pool - bougt a six month card andnwill start going on weekend mornings again, that will be ... Wed, 12 Nov 2014 01:36:40 EST A visit to the doctor I had a busy day yesterday - three press conferences in a row and all three with articles that was supposed to be delievered for todays paper. State of the world market and prognosis for 2015 ... brought the computer and between that conference and the next (that was about how the city centers shopping is to handle the loss of customers to the malls outside town) I managed to write almost all of the first one... And arriving ten minutes early for the third - big day for council work - I manag... Wed, 5 Nov 2014 23:02:07 EST Wolfes and more... Had planned to go to the gym yesterday and signed up for a group with circle training - couldn´t find one of hte shoes so I never got there. Thought doggy was guilty but found the other shoe in my car later... <BR> <BR> Compensated with joining the dog walk in the evening (a facebookgroup that gathers us in my village two evenings a week to walk the dogs and give them an opportunity to behave sociallly well with other dogs...) - but my fitness is lower than ever so I abandoned them after te... Wed, 5 Nov 2014 03:42:08 EST Celebrating november November has always been special to me - I admit that september and october are mostly better autumn months but as I am born in november I always felt good about it and it is only later years that I have realised that it is the darkest and rudest month if I consider rain, darness and cold... <BR> <BR> But november is also the month I celebrate my soberness - I got sober in june but had a relapse in november (one night, one bottle of wine, luckily I did not have to continue...) and as I dont ... Tue, 4 Nov 2014 00:17:28 EST