MEDDYPEDDY's SparkPeople Blog MEDDYPEDDY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community The proud mother So we are at this lajv-convention (I wrote convent first because that is the name in swedish but then thought---there is something wrong here..) in Västerås again. We were here last year and stayed at a hotel, this year daugter wanted to sleep in the convention area but my days of sleeping on the floor has passed so I am in a hotel and I left daugheter last night - very happy because she had met a lot of nice friends. <BR> <BR> Yesterday she dragged me to a seminar about "nerd-feminism" it w... Sat, 5 Mar 2016 03:04:38 EST Itching, itching... My hands are driving me crazy in the mroning because it itches so much. And I will take back my words about the wait in swedish healthcare - true that I never got any answer to my request online to see a doctor but yesterday I phoned (how charmingly oldfashioned to phone ;-)) and got to see a nurse two hours later... she admitted that it was past her competence and went looking for a doctor..and found one! The doctor examined my hands and feet and did not hesitatet - PPP, Pustulosis Palmopla... Wed, 2 Mar 2016 01:29:28 EST On and off... As the icebug shoes seems to hurt my knees I went for the stationary bike yesterday - and my fitness is nothing to brag about! A good thing is that there is room for improvement... <BR> <BR> Juggling is slowly advancing, about time, I started over in autumn and it feels as nothing has happened for a very long time. I have been a little off with it during december and january but now I have been consistant for a coulpe of weeks. I only do ten minutes, my arms gets too tired to work longer b... Mon, 29 Feb 2016 00:33:41 EST Soup and shoes and some more... Yesterdays soup: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Carrot and cocos, with peanuts on top, thai flavour and very nice, but als very filling, had to leave it... and unfortunately I had an "attack" of compulsiveness at night. Went to the annualmeeting of the accordion club and they offered "smörgåstårta" a construction of bread, mayonnaise, all kinds of things we use on sanwiches - shrimps, ham, paté, vegetables... a... Fri, 26 Feb 2016 02:51:36 EST Soup again Planning a little soup project and posting pictures here... yesterdays soup was "fridge-cleaning" which meant beetroots, carrots, onion, a potato, beef stock and to bring forth the "umami"-tast, some blue cheese and a splash of cream - delicious! Should have chosen another plate, red on red is not that exciting... <img src=""> Thu, 25 Feb 2016 02:08:41 EST On the go... At first we had no winter at all, then a lot of snow fell and it got extremely cold for a while and then it all melted away. For now we have a little snow left in the woods as I experienced trying to walk in my new quest for fitness for Schoolahoop. <BR> <BR> So yesterday I used my new "icebug" shoes that I bought early autumn and have not needed until now. They were excellent! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Wed, 24 Feb 2016 04:43:25 EST Prague and schoolahoop... Last week I was in Prague during the weekend. A friend who moved there celebrated his 50th birthday and some of us traveled to Prague by car - this friend has a Tesla whch means that it is free to drive - so far it is free to charge Teslas and it was an interesting trip as we had to adapt to where the chargers where and stop there... worked reallly well except that there are no charchers in the czech Republic. But there was a Teslaowner in Prague who offered my friend to charge her Tesla ther... Mon, 22 Feb 2016 09:52:55 EST Biking! Finally the extreme cold temperature went away and we got mild winds - and all of the snow disappeared! Feel a little pity for those who loves skiing, but for myself I found it wonderful to bike with doggy this sunday! Yesterday little snow fell again, enough to make the landscape white – and to make it impossible to bike. But my time will come, I don´t care about "Normal" winter weather as long as the temeperatur does not get below -10. For the moment it is 0 (C) and I love it... <BR> <BR>... Tue, 2 Feb 2016 01:23:03 EST Still whining... ...about the cold weather. We have had a postcard weekend - sun and snow makes the landscape stunningly beautiful, but - 20 C is too low for my house, I have problems keeping it warm enough inside. Should not be complaining, the EU-migrants that camps in the city lives in caravans without electricity, my life is luxury compared... I think 2010 was th last time we had a cold january like this, last winter I did not have to sovel snow one time so I should not complain, it will pass. <BR> But a... Sun, 17 Jan 2016 23:54:47 EST Exploring the slow cooker As I have written earlier, I invested in a crock pot and I am still exploring it - yesterday I made a "honey mustard chicken" recipe from Spark People and it was delicious -but I think it was delicious because of the spicing so this morning I have started another corckpot with the same honey-mustard-thyme-garlic-etc spicing but mostly onion, some potato and some carrots too. I also added some green lentils so the protein will be looked after too...The crockpot might be one of those gadgets th... Fri, 15 Jan 2016 02:27:18 EST Efficiency I did manage to finish my exam this weekend - but it took me all sunday and i did not get around to write the article that starts to get hard to write because the notes are old... <BR> <BR> I should be a lot more generous when I assign time for my goals - because as I will not succeed with all the assignments I gave myself I have this little voice who says that it was not good enough. <BR> <BR> But yesterday evening I had this wonderful feeling of gratification - the exam paper was not due ... Mon, 11 Jan 2016 04:59:22 EST Reining a horse : an allegory Yesterday at a meeting a guy used reining a horse as an allegory - his therapeut has told him that he would not ride a horse he did not know without keeping the reins very tight. <BR> <BR> That gave me an epiphany - I used to be a riding instructor and before I went to USA to learn natural horsemanship I used the strategy above - a new horse I would ride with very tight reins until I knew the horse better. But after being to that basic course in natural horsemanship 1995 I changed my attitud... Sat, 9 Jan 2016 02:51:28 EST Busy weekend The temperature got better - for the moment it is -7 C outside (7 in the morning) which means that I have +19 inside and that is perfect... some snow has fallen, need to shovel a bit today but that is also ok. <BR> <BR> This weekend has to be devoted to writing assignments, I have an article waiting to be written, have postponed it for two weeks which means it will be a lot harder to write than when it was new in my head, I just hope that my notes will bring the story to life again... <BR> I... Fri, 8 Jan 2016 02:05:23 EST Whining today... I have minus 15 C in my house, that is cold. I think the heat pump I installed two years ago can not deal with temperature below -15, it is -20C now. Listiening to the weather report that says that a low pressure will arrive and bring snow and warmer temperature. They say during the upcoming night but usually it takes longer... I am just happy if this will not last for weeks as it may do in january. <BR> <BR> I have this neurotic attitude towards cold weather. I think it is because I grew up... Thu, 7 Jan 2016 02:50:47 EST January madness... At my door there are these bags waiting to be transported to the welfare container or the dump - and outside it is - 18C this morning. I have to have an extra heater in the kitchen, ity is for the moment (9.23 in the morning) +17C and it will raise to +19 during the day. I think it´s colder in my bedroom I have no heaters in there, only the warmth that circulates from the kitchen and living room. But I sleep very well when it is colder and I have sheep skin slippers and woolen sweathers and I... Wed, 6 Jan 2016 03:54:47 EST Decluttering continued Whohooo! decluttered my wardrobes - resulted in one bag with throwaways and three bags of giveaways. I am particulary happy about giving away clothes where the price-tags has not been removed, I will never wear those clothes anyway. I bought them because they were on sale and I thought that I liked them (I am not proud to have wasted time and money like that, but I am content in admitting that I have done it and dealing with the consequences) ...the hanging closet is still somewhat crowded, n... Tue, 5 Jan 2016 03:31:03 EST Declutter days The things that keeps flooding my life are papers and clothes. Newspapera and magasinezes tend to pile up waiting to be read, I have fortunately learned to trash them unread after a while, but I lack a strategy to stop them from cluttering up. <BR> <BR> Same with clothes, my wardrobes are ill-designed and I have too many clothes that I don´t use in my closets whoch means that the clothes that I do use i laying around...Now and then I organize and put clothes that I think I WILL want to wear ... Sun, 3 Jan 2016 00:59:31 EST New years eve - resolution time? I have decided to leave my swedish online supportgroup for the first leg (jan-march 2016) - the weekly weigh-ins has triggered my bingeing and I am now in the position where I keep my weight by yoyo - I binge and I starve, I binge and I starve - and I feel really bad about it. <BR> <BR> So it is time to put the scale away for a while and focus on good habits without thinking about calories. <BR> <BR> I have this conflict going on - I need stimulation, input with intersting thoughts and know... Thu, 31 Dec 2015 11:26:07 EST Habit time! The habit of adding habits did not work ;-) <BR> <BR> Mostly because I ran out of ideas of habits that I really wanted, there were many things that I "ought to" but my heart was not in it. <BR> <BR> But now I have an idea that inspires me ... <BR> Background: I have learned that logistics is very important to me because as soon as something gets a little bit tricky, does not run well in my daily "flow" ets. I tend not to do it. Exercise is one of the areas where I have spent a lot of time t... Sun, 1 Nov 2015 05:20:36 EST My VLCD and LCD First: I have my doctors permission and even encouragement to follow the 12 weeks of VLCD and LCD (500 kcal three weeks, 800 kcal nine weeks) that starts the two-year commitment I have made. My blood and other tests shows now problems and I have felt no dizziness, nausea or even lack of energy during the ten weeks I have done so far (it may be because after the three first weeks I have not managed to stick with the program, but my efforts results in a much better result than if I had not tri... Wed, 28 Oct 2015 01:33:12 EST Current situation Usually, when I fall silent on Spark it is because I am having a bad streak, eating compulsively and gaining weight. <BR> <BR> This time it has been the opposite. My situation in august was desperate. I had not managed to lose any weight during vacation and started my autumn fatter than ever before, my scale could not register so I did not know how catastrophal it might be. <BR> <BR> Desperate situation demands desperate actions... I went to an information meeting for a health club at one o... Tue, 27 Oct 2015 01:52:37 EST First accordion gig... I don´t remember if I posted about my total accordion passion that hit me august last year. In connection with tha swedish election in september same year I was moderating a meeting for women of the socialdemocratic party and was asked if I would entertain at their district 100-year celebration. As the exhibitionistic optimist I am I said yes, and have been practising ever since... <BR> To learn to play the accordion is A LOT harder than I estimated and I have not been practising as hard as I... Mon, 26 Oct 2015 03:35:13 EST I am embarrased... ...because time just passes and I never get around to write that blog I have thougt about for so long. <BR> Usually silence means that I have fallen off the wagon and withdrawn in shame from all health forums ... but this time it is quite the contrary. <BR> I had this nice habit project going on but could not master the patience I needed to move along until I could get going with habits that would make me lose weight... or - another explanation might be that in the work with habits it dawned ... Mon, 19 Oct 2015 08:46:31 EST New week Opening night is over as performance number two... four more to go but the next is fourteen days away so it´s time off for a while: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> In the picture I am supposed to look like "neptuna" under water and moving in slowmotion... <BR> <BR> Nor it is "just" work – and daughter is having two friends over for three days. I should not whine about it, I should be happy that she - and the... Mon, 10 Aug 2015 02:52:17 EST Habits I´m getting lost and losing focus and have to keep up with the habits I am trying to establish. The professor who embodied 40 new habits in a year took leve from his job and I think I would need that to to succeed with this project. <BR> <BR> So far making my bed every morning works, a new writing technique works, closing the toilet lid works - but the glass of water fails and weiring songs is over - I have started working again, decluttering ten minutes a day - I don´t know, it does not ... Thu, 6 Aug 2015 01:46:08 EST Habits - week 6 I gave myself "week off" and no habit week number 5. But that is not true - the habit I have practised has been to close the lid of the toilet when I have visited ... at the request from my daughter who obviously drops makeup things in it if it is open – I asked why she could not start her bathroom session with closing it but did not get any sensible answer - and then I thought "why not" and started doing it. <BR> <BR> Otherwise my habits so far needs some realunching - the glass of water ... Wed, 29 Jul 2015 03:51:44 EST Great morning! Last friday I sat outside the workshop 6.30 in the morning to be sure to be first in line at 7 when they open (drop-in service) I was first but they did not have the spare parts so I had to go home and they ordered the stuff. <BR> <BR> So 6.30 this morning I waited again and again I was first in line. And the parts had arrived and it would be 1,5 hour. I had brought my bike so I biked to the indoor pool and swimmed for 45 minutes and then back to the workshop - hurray 85 minutes of exercise ... Tue, 21 Jul 2015 08:54:43 EST A bit chaotic... The habits are still on although the rest of my life feels chaotic. I am getting stressed because daughter and me are going on a minivacation, and I don´t know why it stresses me, if it doesn´t work, we go home again. It´s something about getting older that has made me a lot more frightened of everything than I used to be. <BR> <BR> I think week number five will be without any new habit - there are so many things I want to start with and it feels as if I picked one of them to be the habi... Sun, 19 Jul 2015 11:36:19 EST Vision An article popped up "7 things to do before you start" and although I already have "started" (?) I think it was interesting to be inspired by it. First point was: <BR> <BR> "What does success look like for you? Imagine what your life will look like and feel like when you have accomplished your weight loss goal. Don’t let it depend on a number on the scale. What will be different and better? What will you be doing on a daily basis? What new habits concerning food and exercise will you be pr... Wed, 15 Jul 2015 07:49:03 EST Obsessed I might need to add "not more" to my habit number 4 that is to use 30 minutes a day for singer song writing during my vacation. It´s so fun and I spent a couple of hours yesterday. <BR> <BR> Daughter is still very jet-lagged - I can´t remember that it ever took me this long and she is young and young people seem to recover quickly. But she can´t sleep at night and then sleeps forever in the morning, that needs to be changed. <BR> <BR> I have painted the walls and the ceiling of the room ... Tue, 14 Jul 2015 03:57:21 EST New habit week 4 ... The week became turbulent - I thought I was going to a three-day course in singer song-writing 500 km from home - and as I planned to take my car to a workshop to change a bulb(it REALLY irritates me that modern cars has to go to workshop for having bulbs changed) I had left doggy at my dog-lady the evninge before. I entered a phone-meeting for OA and they said "it is the 8th of july..." and I realised that my course would begin in three hours - and I was 500 km away!. Spent maybe five minute... Sun, 12 Jul 2015 08:56:11 EST Karma and habit nr 3 Yesterday morning as I was about to wre my blog there was a floor announced on the "free"-sit. 20-25 square meters, a "click-floor" jast what I needed for my guestroom floor - so I said "yes, please" and got it. Instead of writing a blog, I drove off and packed floor boards into my car (where they still are, was too hot to unload them when I got home) It is used, the floor was about 40 square meters and the owners thought that there was about 20-25 meters left that was usable - I am happy to ... Mon, 6 Jul 2015 00:51:50 EST Things I might not need to know ... I buy orgnic carrots because they tast nicer than "ordinary" and I buy organic/fairtrade coffee mostly for supporting coffeefarmers with fairtrade. Otherwise I am not consistent - it depends on what is available not as much what the prize is. I buy only swedish meat because of the animal protection laws and I try to buy organic chicken (but can´t really afford it in the amount that I have chicken... <BR> But this video might changes my mind: <BR> <BR> <link> Sat, 4 Jul 2015 02:25:59 EST Experience and hope It might not be me but it is a fact that since I asked for sharing on that morning phone meeting there has been sharing evey morning... it can be a coincidence but even so – I have not been "punished" for speaking up and it changed as I wished for, so I will continue to try to be more me. <BR> <BR> That was experience "hope" is this picture - posted on facebook apparantly in a serie about "people of New York" - anyway, this is what I would like to look like <em>211</em> <BR> <img src=... Fri, 3 Jul 2015 01:21:50 EST Struggles This is also a bore - once again I have prooved to myself that I can´t "cheat" with what I eat, small slips starts major turmoil in my brain and releases compulsion. And then I ´ll never know if I will be able to start on the right path again. <BR> <BR> Daughter made contact with Face Time from California this morning - bad connection but it waked me from a nightmare that ended with med asking her to go to h--l... and when she left me (in the dream) I felt really bad and a big conflict abo... Thu, 2 Jul 2015 01:36:24 EST In tears ... So – my daughter (15) is in California with her father and has been away for three weeks now. We hav met on facetime and she sends sms and even a good oldfashioned postcard! (from toronto where their visit started) – I did not think the young knew haow to attach a stamp ..;-) <BR> <BR> And today she emailed a link with this picture: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> So naturally I burst into tears – what ha... Wed, 1 Jul 2015 04:54:24 EST Conviction gone ... The wonderful conviction I´ve had for the past week that I can´t take the first bite, disappered yesterday and I had a bad struggle all evening. Managed to go to bed without eating anything I should not have and That is good but it is a little disappointing that I lost that wonderful feeling of serenity. It is probably because I got a little overbearing and had too lille food, I was just roaringly hungry. <BR> <BR> But I am grateful for still being on the track I want to be, will add some ... Tue, 30 Jun 2015 00:08:28 EST Experience from my water glass and more ... The first habit of drinking a glass of water before every meal has been going on for a week. It is NOT comfortable, I have to force myself to drink it all, even though I have learned that it is easier if I warm it a little and add applecidervinegar to it. <BR> <BR> But I can notice that it gives me more peace with eating - as meal time is coming upp and I eat smaller servings than normal, I am really really hungry when I start making my food. Then, having to drink that water sort of calms me... Mon, 29 Jun 2015 02:37:25 EST Habit number two: Making my bed The first week has passed and I have managed to drink a glass of water before every meal almost 100% – I forgot it one meal. It is not a true habit yet, I have to think about doing it, it wasn´t until yesterday I realised that I shoul warm that water in the micro instead of on the stove, saves time and is easier to fit into the morningroutine - where I warm milk for my coffee in the micro. <BR> <BR> The next habit is also easy - to make my bed in the morning. Apart from the feeling of tid... Sun, 28 Jun 2015 00:19:39 EST 40 habits in a year In my search for facts about habits I stumbled over an article about a swedish professor in economy who had decided to start 40 new habits in a year ... so he was on leave from his job for a year and then started a new habit each week - and some weeks now and then he took a pause from getting a new habit and just worked with those he had picked up. <BR> <BR> He succeeded (the experiment lasted 2014) and says that it was a question about focus, he really had to go all-in to manage to turn a b... Sat, 27 Jun 2015 02:33:38 EST A month later ... My last blog was a month ago, I am a little sad to have lost the commitment to be active on Spark People, I log in and do some activities but I don´t visit teams as I used to (blaming it on removal on the "huddle"-function) and I have not felt inspired to write blogs. It is sad, but so be it. <BR> <BR> I´ve found another book to be inspired by ...;-) It´s Vanans makt - in english The Power of Habit: Why We Do What We Do in Life and Business by Charles Duhigg - just found that he has been ... Fri, 26 Jun 2015 02:48:01 EST Tribulations Nothing calms me as much as tribulations ... it does not spur me, i do not put up a fight, at firs I despair and the inevitabl suicidal thoughts appear but then, when the situation sinks in, my constant worry-mumble that goes on inside suddenly gets quiet and I feel sort of relieved. It is like" look the worst thing happened,and you are still alive" <BR> <BR> I went to the psychiatric surgery (?) yesterday in hope to get a valuation of possible adhd. It has been suggested by a former psychia... Tue, 26 May 2015 00:50:36 EST Me and the shelf I have this project or renovating my guestroom and turning it into a room that I can rent out to university students. It has its own entrance, there is a bathroom connected to it and although I live in a village outside the city, it is the same side of the city as the university, there are buses once an hour and it takes ablut fifteen minutes or half an hour, depending on which bus you choose. <BR> <BR> I managed to get rid of the 1.40 bed I had in the guestroom last autumn, it took for age... Mon, 20 Apr 2015 00:46:54 EST Letting go and letting God... "What if" – I said to my OA-pal the other day – "What if this is what my higher power thinks is suitable for me. If HP wanted me to become abstinent, I would..." <BR> <BR> It you try "everything" for a long time and end up eating compulsively anyway, it seems as if it is a hopeless cause... <BR> <BR> Another way to think about it is that the result is not that important, I will try my best according to my ability and leave it to my HP to decide the outcome. <BR> <BR> The "normal" thin... Sun, 19 Apr 2015 00:53:51 EST Most addictive food I get a sponsored post – Huffington Post with "the most addictive food" The article claims that research has established that the foods most likely to develope addiction in the eater is... what a surpris! - pizza! And then chocolate, chips, cookies and icecream... <BR> <BR> And the foods least likely to make you addicted accoring to the same article? Cucumber, carrots, apple, brown rice and beans. <BR> <BR> I had icecream yesterday "salted caramel"... I think about 1500 cal, not a very sm... Mon, 23 Mar 2015 03:20:28 EST The unhealthy breakfast For a month I have tried a different breakfast from my usual (that is wholegrain bread with ham och salmon and coffee with milk) <BR> Now I cook bacon & egg, mushroom and tomato - around 400 cal whoch is about the same my usual breakfast gives. <BR> <BR> This breakfast works very well, I feel fine afterwords my bowels loves it and I don´t get hungry until two in the afternoon if I eat at six in the morning. <BR> <BR> So what´s the problem then? Well, it feels so wrong - so unhealthy and ... Sun, 22 Mar 2015 03:50:13 EST Weight vs behaviour The past week has been successful in the aspect of losing weight. But my behaviour has not been the most sensible, my goal in eating is to eat three balanced meal a day and nothing in between. <BR> <BR> When I look back at all those years trying to lose weight I cas see that the most successful periods has been when I had a goal of calories and planned my food for that. I have fallen of that wagon too, but compared to the kamikaze diets, and the "special foods" diets, the eating less withou... Sat, 21 Mar 2015 05:11:54 EST Something completely different....and rocking the socks. So - daughter is preparing to get confirmated this spring. I have no idea if this is done in other churches but in the lutheran church in Sweden the usual thing is to get batized when you are a baby and then - at 13-14 years you study chirstian stuff for a while, for some it is one hour a week during a year or so, for some it´s a weeks camp in the summer. It used to be that you could not join the holy communion until you had been confirmated but I think they have changed that. In my time th... Fri, 20 Mar 2015 02:16:36 EST Unfriendly or what? I am struggling with a lot of things - eating healthy, get moving and being consistant to pages like spark people. I have a vague hope for the moment, food and exercise has been working for a week and as spring has sprung and I am able to bike, it is really nice to go biking again. Poor doggy worn his paws out when I got too overenthusiastic, too soon... hopefully i will be able to take him again soon, for the moment we have to walk in the woods to spare his paws and I am too overweight to be... Thu, 19 Mar 2015 02:10:46 EST Volunteering we have all these beggars from Rumania in Sweden this winter. From being a phenomenon only in Stockholm, they are now in most cities - in karlstad, I meet them at the entrance of every food store. They slept under a concrete driveway until some vandals started a fire there. Luckily noone was hurt. Now the church has fixed some bunkhouses: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> and they ask for volunteers to serve there - I hesitate because I ... Sun, 8 Feb 2015 05:26:14 EST