MCASKEY6's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MCASKEY6 MCASKEY6's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Moved! And now to get healthy again. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6300546 When I got back from Christmas I had a plan to get back on track. I hit it the moment I walked through my front door. There was no, "I'll do that tomorrow." <BR> <BR> I went straight to the store, I had two weeks worth of healthy food. I was giving up soda. I was going to the gym and biking. <BR> <BR> Then I got slammed with the news that I was going to have to move because my rental company is remodeling all the units and they need everyone out. <BR> <BR> I was scrambling, trying to... Wed, 18 Jan 2017 09:32:51 EST Stress and the body http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6296730 My mother suffered from heart disease nearly half her life. She had her first heart attack when she was only 41 years old. <BR> <BR> She always had high blood pressure, and a multitude of other stress related health problems. <BR> <BR> She was the kind of person who was always trying to solve everyone else's problems, taking on burdens that were not her's to carry, and never accepting help even when she desperately needed it, (no matter how much we tried to help). <BR> <BR> That sacri... Thu, 12 Jan 2017 13:09:50 EST Got caught http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6296044 Don't buy food you are ashamed to be seen with...that is a lesson I need to learn. <BR> <BR> I'm under a good deal of stress lately. What with suddenly having to find a new home, knowing I'm going to have a fight to get money back from my current landlord...the uncertain future all the way around. I've just bee feeling very overwhelmed. <BR> <BR> Because I have been having to race around tying down ends I haven't been as good to myself as I was when I first got back from Christmas. <BR... Wed, 11 Jan 2017 13:05:27 EST Just when I'm settled http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6292691 I have lived in my current apartment for a year and a half. I'm settled and comfortable. I'm an awesome tenant. I pay my rent on time and in full, I'm clean and quiet. <BR> <BR> But back in Oct my apartment was sold. The new owners have backdated memos, caused damage to the ceiling and left us without heat for a month. <BR> <BR> They are renovating several of the apartments...and oops forgot to tell us that they wanted everyone moved out. If I had not called about my lease renewal I ... Fri, 6 Jan 2017 16:17:07 EST Article about a 105 year old man bike racing, 14 miles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6291300 Truth be told I bike a lot. I bike to work every day, I bike to the store, I bike for fun. In the past I used to commute roughly 20 miles by bike each day. <BR> <BR> But this is impressive. <BR> <BR> <link>www.npr.org/sections/thetwo-way/2017<BR>/01/04/508213332/105-year-old-cyclist-<BR>rides-14-miles-in-an-hour-en-route-to-<BR>a-world-record&utm_source=facebook.com<BR>&utm_medium=social&utm_campaign=npr&ut<BR>m_term=nprnews&utm_content=20170104 </link> Wed, 4 Jan 2017 16:21:12 EST Struggling with Rewards http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6290401 I see the value in setting goals and rewards. I think it's very motivational to occasionally stop and take a look at how far one has come and reward the hard work, rather than solely focusing on the end results. <BR> <BR> My issue is, I struggle to come up with rewards. I'm such a hard person to shop for, even I don't know what I want. <BR> <BR> I set out a schedule of goals. Things like for each week of working out and eating right I get a small reward. For every 5lbs I lose I get a r... Tue, 3 Jan 2017 12:47:01 EST So what's the damage? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6287960 My holiday plans were derailed, as they are every year. <BR> <BR> Instead of trying to eat healthy, I ended up with big slices of cake with thick frosting for breakfast and desserts and eating out a lot. <BR> <BR> Instead of kayaking on the bay, I ended up carefully painting murals on chairs (not that I didn't enjoy it, or wasn't happy to do it, it's just not very strenuous exercise.) <BR> <BR> But I'm home now, and the scale, tragically just read 201lbs. Now that could be the result of... Sat, 31 Dec 2016 11:09:08 EST Starting Planning for the New Year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6281337 I have new information about my genetic make up and I'm working on next year's fitness plan, incorporating that new info. <BR> <BR> I learned two things from my 23 & Me DNA test. <BR> <BR> 1) I am sensitive to saturated fats. I will gain more weight eating these fats than most other people. <BR> <BR> 2) I learned that I have, "Fast-Twitch Muscles". Basically that means that my muscles have an explosion of strength and speed, but they fatigue quickly. In other words I'm a sprinter not a... Thu, 15 Dec 2016 14:08:08 EST Lunch, Check. Keys Check. Pants, Check. Shirt...oops. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6280384 Got to work only to realize, I didn't have a shirt. <BR> <BR> Yep, I hit it hard at the gym this morning. Put in extra effort on the bike ride to work. Pulled out my work clothes and realized that I'd forgotten my shirt. <BR> <BR> I had everything else, but I think my boss might have frowned on me being topless all day; plus it gets cold in the office. <BR> <BR> I had to bike home again to get the shirt. <BR> <BR> I tell you what though, I didn't feel even a little guilty using th... Tue, 13 Dec 2016 11:44:16 EST It's not an, "Aha! Moment." It's a, "NO! NOT GOING TO HAPPEN! I WILL NOT ALLOW THIS! Moment." http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6279913 I haven't been that bad. I mean, yes, I've fallen off the wagon a bit. But it's December, who doesn't fall off the wagon a little in December? <BR> <BR> And for me, December also holds no less than seven work place Birthdays and about six friend's birthdays (mine included). So that's at least nine to ten meals out, and at least four cakes; on top of the cookies, cakes, candies, feasts, etc associated with the holidays. <BR> <BR> But really I haven't been that bad. <BR> <BR> Also my s... Mon, 12 Dec 2016 11:51:39 EST Birthday And Thinking About New Year's Resolution http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6277147 I started my birthday with a good workout. <BR> <BR> I briefly considered going on a hike after work. But then I remembered that I'd left my bike light at home, and there is no way I'm going to ride on streets that don't see a lot of bike traffic, after dark. I'm not nuts; no matter what people may say ;) . <BR> <BR> I try to avoid streets that don't see a lot of bike traffic, don't have bike lanes, etc. But the only way to Tumamoc has a bike lane but not a lot of cyclists go that way,... Tue, 6 Dec 2016 11:42:03 EST 23 & Me DNA Test Update!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6275440 I got the results back from my 23 & Me DNA test. Turns out I'm the whitest of the white. I'm 100% European and 75.2% of that is Irish. <BR> <BR> I'm not a carrier for any of the genetic diseases they tested, so that's good. <BR> <BR> I can smell Asparagus in my urine. <BR> <BR> But the most interesting thing I learned is that I am in the 15% of people who are sensitive to Saturated Fat. <BR> <BR> That means that if I'm consuming more than 22 grams of fat a day I will weigh more ... Fri, 2 Dec 2016 18:40:42 EST Last New Years Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6273318 One month until 2017. (let me take a second for the shock to wear off) <BR> <BR> Ok, so my 2016 New Year's Resolutions were... <BR> <BR> 1) Get my roommate to help out more with the cleaning. <BR> <BR> Hahaha, What was I thinking. <BR> <BR> Ok, so no power is going to get a person to change if they really don't want to, and my roommate really doesn't want to. <BR> <BR> So I have two choices. <BR> <BR> I can scream at her and have massive angry fits every time I see her dirty dishes... Mon, 28 Nov 2016 13:11:44 EST What Happened to the Weekend? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6266689 I had a three day weekend, and yet I did literally nothing. <BR> <BR> I ran some errands on Friday morning, but ended up with a massive headache, and took a 3 hour nap. After the nap I was just tired and ended up lounging around like a slug the rest of the day. <BR> <BR> Saturday, I had planned on doing a nice deep cleaning of the apartment. But I was just lazy and lethargic. I couldn't focus on anything. I did some dishes, cleaned the fridge and kinda cleaned the bathroom. <BR> <BR> ... Mon, 14 Nov 2016 10:32:53 EST Aftermath http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6264250 They say sleep is as important to weight loss as working out and eating right. Well, I didn't get any sleep last night. <BR> <BR> Nor do I think I'll be getting much rest for the next four years. <BR> <BR> When the news came in I was setting at my desk and a sudden wave of dispair washed over me. <BR> <BR> I was left thinking, Why should I work on my art? Why should I work on my novel? Why should I work out? Why should I try making friends? <BR> <BR> It's pretty obvious that all... Wed, 9 Nov 2016 08:33:27 EST Stress eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6263860 I have been trying not to think about what will happen today. <BR> <BR> I mailed in my ballot, I checked and it's been received and processed. <BR> <BR> So I have been trying to just push this whole mess to the back of my brain. I'm done I'm out. <BR> <BR> But I still feel the need for comfort foods today. I bought a soda. I've eaten chocolate. But I keep telling myself, that this is one day. I will make it through. <BR> <BR> Tue, 8 Nov 2016 12:47:04 EST A place for everything and everything in it's place http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6263340 I finally have a desk to do my art/craft projects on. I got it Saturday. Yesterday, I found myself gravitating to it all day. Every time I went to set down I'd go to the desk instead of the couch. <BR> <BR> I started sketching, while listening to Youtube videos, and I'm about halfway through a rather beautiful drawing (if I do say so myself). <BR> <BR> I feel more focused when I set there. I find myself, slowing down, taking my time, thinking things out, rather than slapping down a f... Mon, 7 Nov 2016 12:42:07 EST 23 and Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6262762 I have decided to do a DNA Ancestry & Health test. <BR> <BR> A friend of mine did it, and he thought it was great. He and I are both interested in ancestry. And I'm also interested in any hereditary health issues that might pop up. <BR> <BR> I know heart disease runs in my family, but complacency about heart disease also runs in my family. So does everyone end up with a "zipper" due to uncontrollable hereditary disease? Or is it due to a lifetime of eating bacon, butter, and potatoe... Sun, 6 Nov 2016 11:30:11 EST :( I did bad :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6262730 Yesterday, was a day of driving all over town. I left the house at 8am and didn't get home until after 4pm. <BR> <BR> I finally, found a nice computer desk ($25) and a nice office chair ($5) to set up as my craft/art area! It cost me $50 to rent a truck to bring it home; not happy about that, but still even with the truck cost, it was far less expensive than a new desk. <BR> <BR> I got all the usual errands, like groceries, etc, taken care of. <BR> <BR> But in doing so, I ended up eating... Sun, 6 Nov 2016 10:06:06 EST Day 4: No Sodas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6261429 This weekend I ran out of sodas and decided to give quitting another shot. <BR> <BR> Monday, I missed sodas, but I was all gung ho to quit. <BR> <BR> Tuesday, I couldn't stop thinking about sodas. I kept thinking of ways I could end up somewhere, where I could buy a soda. "One won't hurt!" <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I didn't think about sodas at all. I very foolishly started thinking that perhaps I was over the hump. <BR> <BR> But this morning, I'm already back on the, "I want sodas!" ... Thu, 3 Nov 2016 12:48:09 EST 2016 Resolutions Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6260393 As I come into the last stretch of the year, I decided to look back at my resolutions and see how I'm doing. <BR> <BR> My 2016 New Year's Resolutions were: <BR> <BR> 1) Get my roommate to help out more with the cleaning. <BR> 2) Reduce TV time and be more productive. <BR> 3) Lose weight. <BR> 4) Finish my novel. <BR> 5) Work on my financial situation. <BR> 6) Stop Hording and being disorganized. <BR> <BR> 1) Get my roommate to help out more with the cleaning. <BR> <BR> I have de... Tue, 1 Nov 2016 14:39:29 EST Addiction Excuses. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6260364 I've given up sodas...again. <BR> <BR> And already I'm trying to come up with schemes on how to get a soda. <BR> <BR> I find myself obsessively thinking: <BR> <BR> Do I need anything from the grocery store? Maybe I should stop on my way home and pick up...um, well...maybe some shower cleaner...we're getting low. I really need shower cleaner and maybe some potatoes? Yes, shower cleaner and potatoes and maybe some sodas while I'm there. That shower cleaner is really important. If I ... Tue, 1 Nov 2016 13:39:48 EST Sticking to my guns http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6259806 I have a very strict, "No candy on my desk" rule. (I do make an exception, on occasion, for fundraisers) <BR> <BR> But I don't allow people to just dump piles of candies or baked goods on my desk. <BR> <BR> 1) I don't want the temptation <BR> 2) I don't want the responsibility of having to supply others with their sugar rush. <BR> 3) I don't want to listen to the complaining, "I'm on a diet, why did you bring this in?!", "Why do you have this kind, I really like this other kind!", "He... Mon, 31 Oct 2016 12:22:40 EST Halloween 2016 Success http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6259042 Captain Peacock and his crew were very successful! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/57a43bad-cb9a-491d-8892-fb9aa0410941.jpg"> <BR> <BR> We decided to do a "Reverse Trick or Treat". We put all the candy we had into buckets and handed it out to strangers while we were out and about. <BR> <BR> By the end of the night, we had managed to give away every piece. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/f4ffb8cd-7846-4b1a-9123-7063e07c5fc2.jpg"> <... Sat, 29 Oct 2016 21:45:04 EST Halloween Candy is in the house! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6258401 The Halloween candy has been purchased, and yes, I've already had more than I should. <BR> <BR> But for today, the leash is off. I can have as much candy and junk food as I like and I will not feel bad. Tomorrow, I will pack it all up, and ship it off to my friend's house, so her large family, can partake or toss as they see fit. <BR> <BR> On Halloween, Monday, I will be handing out little monster shaped squishy balls that light up, glow sticks, and stickers. So no candy temptation the... Fri, 28 Oct 2016 11:41:13 EST Halloween has come to the Office http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6256406 A co-worker brought in a gallon sized bag of candy this morning. <BR> <BR> But she knew well enough to take it into the break room, rather than trying to fill a bowl on my desk. <BR> <BR> Since she put them out, I have started, discreetly, tossing out a few pieces at a time. <BR> <BR> She is very well meaning, but she's never, in her life, had to struggle with her weight. She's always had a rocking figure, and even into her 50s, having two kids, she still has a fantastic form. <BR> <... Mon, 24 Oct 2016 13:10:39 EST Best Laid Plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6256364 I was going to get back on the workout wagon this week. <BR> <BR> I was deep cleaning my entire apartment Sunday. So I was physically sleepy at 9. I went to bed around 9:30, I set my alarm for 5:30am. I was ready to go workout in the morning. <BR> <BR> Until sometime around 2am, when my cats decided they hated each other, and proceeded to get into several full on hissing and screeching brawls. <BR> <BR> Which meant I got to barrel out of bed several times to break them up. <BR> <... Mon, 24 Oct 2016 11:50:42 EST Having a Junk Food Habit Broken For Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6255446 Last night my roommate and I split a pizza. <BR> <BR> She has a habit of leaving her left over pizza in the box, setting out overnight, which I find disgusting. Granted it's only spinach, but still leaving food out over night is not healthy. I have nagged her about it, but it's her food and her health. <BR> <BR> But my new cat, loves people food, especially pizza. I have tried to keep him away from it, but he will get into it if he can. <BR> <BR> Well last night she left her pizza o... Sat, 22 Oct 2016 14:33:11 EST The Scale is being nice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6254992 I have fallen off the wagon a bit. I weighed myself the other day and I was up to 194lbs. Which is a big bummer after I'd managed to get down to 189lbs. <BR> <BR> But today I weighed in with the nutritionist and learned that I'm actually around 192lbs. <BR> <BR> So Yay! And I celebrated with donuts...ok not the best choice, but hey life happens. <BR> <BR> But it's time to get back on the wagon. So starting tomorrow: <BR> 1) Eating right <BR> 2) Working out <BR> <BR> And starting tod... Fri, 21 Oct 2016 12:59:36 EST No kitchen, No breakroom http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6254108 Today, we are having our cabinets redone in the kitchen area at work. I completely forgot. So my lunch, setting in the fridge, is completely inaccessible because there is no access to the kitchen right now, the microwave is under a pile of stuff, and the break-room is being used as a staging area for the work in the kitchen. <BR> <BR> So I'm eating a take out sandwich and setting outside today. Wed, 19 Oct 2016 16:33:44 EST 2 weeks and counting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6253458 It's two weeks until Halloween and I have not bought a single bag of candy. <BR> <BR> I have managed to keep all the candy out of the office. <BR> <BR> My roommate did come home with a massive bag of Peanut M&Ms, but I made her put them in her kitchen cabinet and not the coffee table where she'd planned to keep them. <BR> <BR> This weekend I'm going to do some Halloween shopping. I am doing the Teal Pumpkin, so I will be getting little toys and games, that I can hand out. <BR> <BR> ... Tue, 18 Oct 2016 11:29:21 EST Fresh week. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6249380 I finally got around to cooking last night. I made Tuna Patties with lots of finely chopped spinach, zucchini, and green onions and a side of mashed potatoes. <BR> <BR> I have it all portioned out for the entire week, so I don't have to worry about making sure I'm sticking to my portions. <BR> <BR> I have my apples for snacks, protein shakes and oatmeal for breakfasts. I need to pick up some yogurt but I plan on walking over to the store tonight for that (an extra hour's worth of physical... Mon, 10 Oct 2016 13:34:32 EST The Bad Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6247406 Yep this is turning out to be a bad week. <BR> <BR> Sunday, I was very busy and didn't have time to cook. <BR> <BR> Monday, had a late meeting and ended up having to grab a burger for dinner. Which also meant I didn't have time or energy to cook. <BR> <BR> Tuesday, had to run errands at lunch and ended up having to grab another burger while I was out. I probably had time to cook, but I was lazy. <BR> <BR> Wednesday, was our morning office meeting, with bagels. I ended up having o... Thu, 6 Oct 2016 14:28:24 EST Officially out of sodas. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6246375 There are no sodas in my fridge at home waiting for me. I have none at work waiting for me. I have no half empty bottles laying around. <BR> <BR> I'm completely out. <BR> <BR> So the question, do I buy more or do I, yet again, attempt to break this lifelong addiction? <BR> <BR> I've tried many times. I've quit and then fallen off the wagon, only to rally again and fail again. <BR> <BR> But I guess, you never truly fail until you stop trying. <BR> <BR> I have teas and water. I m... Tue, 4 Oct 2016 18:00:26 EST What's causing it? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6246366 Several years ago, I suddenly developed a bizarre itch on my arms, not a rash but an itch. <BR> <BR> There is no discoloration, there is no warmth on the skin, there is texture differences. My arms look perfectly normal. But every now and again, I will suddenly develop a burning, stinging, all consuming itch on my arms, usually around my elbows, sometimes higher or lower. <BR> <BR> I get this itch on no other part of my body. I've had it crop up when I'm anxious, other times, it comes... Tue, 4 Oct 2016 17:34:57 EST Teal Pumpkin time of year! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6246244 Last year I discovered the Teal Pumpkin Project. The idea is to help kids with food allergies or medical conditions have a fun Halloween. <BR> <BR> Instead of giving out candy, the idea is you give out non-food treats, like small toys, coloring books, etc. <BR> <BR> Last year, I went to the dollar store and just bought some little party favor-type toys and gave those out instead of candy. <BR> <BR> Don't get me wrong, I did it out of pure selfishness. This way I don't have candy laying a... Tue, 4 Oct 2016 12:19:07 EST Skipped the gym, but that's ok http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6245695 I skipped the gym Saturday, but that's ok. After all I did bike over 11 miles, while running errands. <BR> <BR> And when I got home I weighed my backpack, for the last stretch of my ride, going home, I was carrying a 20lbs pack on my back. <BR> <BR> So I think it's ok that I skipped the gym. Mon, 3 Oct 2016 12:15:22 EST Eating More to lose weight? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6244186 I have been trapped for about a year or more, waffling between gaining and losing the same few pounds. <BR> <BR> I'd be 198, then drop to 195, then jump up to 199, then down to 191, then back up to 195. And so on. <BR> <BR> I would be dedicated, watching what I was eating, working out. And I would see improvement, slowly, very, very slowly. Then I would get frustrated and fall off the wagon a little and my weight would leap up the scale. <BR> <BR> After talking with my nutritionist,... Fri, 30 Sep 2016 12:26:48 EST Stomach in revolt http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6243917 When you've been eating healthy, fresh food for a long time, and then decide to have greasy take out for dinner, and your stomach spends hours reminding you that we don't eat like this anymore. <BR> <BR> Not good. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/f127cf87-7648-4197-ab12-4f6a8035f521.jpg"> Thu, 29 Sep 2016 23:35:52 EST I'm going to be a Star!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6243727 Through my university, I can see a nutritionist once a month for free. It's a service I eagerly take advantage of. <BR> <BR> They asked me if I could write a little promo for them, to use on their webpage. I said yes. <BR> <BR> Well now they have asked if I would do a filmed interview. I decided if I was going to agree I might as well go all the way and said yes. <BR> <BR> It turns out, I was the only one who said yes, so they are eager to fill up as much of their page as they can wit... Thu, 29 Sep 2016 14:53:57 EST Touch of reality. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6243166 <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/f26f2378-8ec8-4bf2-8682-96c61ce3ac7d.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <link>https://www.yahoo.com/beauty/emily-s<BR>kye-shares-shots-three-171929762.html </link> Wed, 28 Sep 2016 12:39:43 EST Woohoo!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6243085 For months I have been playing ping, pong between 195 and 190. This morning I officially dropped below, 190! <BR> <BR> Wed, 28 Sep 2016 09:28:56 EST Definition of Tragedy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6239789 Tragedy: The result of hitting D6 on the vending machine instead of E6. <BR> <BR> Ok, so maybe "Tragedy" is a bit too harsh of a word. Still I'm decently bummed. <BR> <BR> Upside, I may have caved by the universe/my scattered brain, prevented me from drinking a soda this afternoon. Wed, 21 Sep 2016 17:58:15 EST I Hate To Run. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6235659 I'm calling it. I'm not going to do it. I HATE to run. <BR> <BR> I have always hated running. I didn't like to run as a small child. I didn't like to run in school. I attempted running as an adult to help with fitness and realized, I hate it. <BR> <BR> I hate how I feel while I'm running. I hate how I feel after I run. And the amount of dread I experience before I go for a run has often derailed my exercise routine. <BR> <BR> And this isn't a vanity feeling. I'm not worried abo... Wed, 14 Sep 2016 09:11:09 EST Not Trusting the Scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6231099 I'm not really trusting my scale this morning. <BR> <BR> I've been sick for about 2 weeks now. I had a bad cold, for about a week. So I wasn't active and I was pretty much eating nothing but canned chili and saltines (Hey, some people have chicken noodle, I have Hormel). <BR> <BR> Last week I was still very tired, which was one part recovering from my cold and one part having spent a week laying around. So I still wasn't getting much exercise, I also wasn't cooking, so I wasn't eating ... Tue, 6 Sep 2016 12:30:07 EST The haves and have nots http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6229265 I have always tried to tell myself that my hardships make me a better person. I tell myself that my struggles make me smarter, stronger, more resourceful, more appreciative, and more compassionate. <BR> <BR> But there come times when I'm left standing there staring at someone who has never struggled, never worked, never faced hardship; someone who is constantly lazy, selfish, and unmotivated, and I watch this person being rewarded, pampered, and provided with the easier path. <BR> <BR>... Sat, 3 Sep 2016 01:18:53 EST Plague update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6228985 I'm finally back to work for a full day, and I am feeling the effects of a week of rest. <BR> <BR> I feel like I've been dragging a weight around all morning, I'm just tired. <BR> <BR> I was feeling much better but I decided to stay home an extra day just to be sure I didn't pass it on. <BR> <BR> So that was a week with very minimal exercise. I didn't even really go outside. <BR> <BR> But I took my time and biked to work today. I figure tomorrow, I might go to the gym for half an h... Fri, 2 Sep 2016 12:39:34 EST Plauge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6225855 Just as I was getting back in the habit of going to the gym everyday...Last night I went to bed sure that I'd hit it hard at the gym this morning. <BR> <BR> Instead I work up with a "swallowing razor blades" sore throat. <BR> <BR> Goody <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/900c0a46-1581-4cbb-bb37-664c37faef87.png"> Sun, 28 Aug 2016 10:20:07 EST A new challenge I wasn't expecting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6223869 I have been gaining and losing the same five pounds for some time now. <BR> <BR> I know I'm not purely innocent, I've had a few bouts of not eating right or working out as much as I should. <BR> <BR> But there's also been a barrier that no amount of exercise or proper eating seems to bust, (and possibly has helped lead to my bad behavior). <BR> <BR> I discussed this with my nutritionist and after reviewing my diet she decided that I'm not eating enough. She has suggested that I push... Wed, 24 Aug 2016 16:32:13 EST Going philosophical http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6221066 What do I want to weigh? <BR> <BR> I've been thinking about this lately and I've been realizing more and more that, 1) I don't know and 2) I don't care. <BR> <BR> I want a flat stomach. I don't want saggy rolls of skin over the top of my jeans. I don't want my underarms to giggle. I want to walk up stairs without gasping for breath at the top. I want to feel confident when I'm out. I want to stop thinking of myself as, "The Fat Friend". I want to feel good about myself when I'm tryi... Fri, 19 Aug 2016 18:03:17 EST