MCASKEY6's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MCASKEY6 MCASKEY6's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Eating More to lose weight? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6244186 I have been trapped for about a year or more, waffling between gaining and losing the same few pounds. <BR> <BR> I'd be 198, then drop to 195, then jump up to 199, then down to 191, then back up to 195. And so on. <BR> <BR> I would be dedicated, watching what I was eating, working out. And I would see improvement, slowly, very, very slowly. Then I would get frustrated and fall off the wagon a little and my weight would leap up the scale. <BR> <BR> After talking with my nutritionist,... Fri, 30 Sep 2016 12:26:48 EST Stomach in revolt http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6243917 When you've been eating healthy, fresh food for a long time, and then decide to have greasy take out for dinner, and your stomach spends hours reminding you that we don't eat like this anymore. <BR> <BR> Not good. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/f127cf87-7648-4197-ab12-4f6a8035f521.jpg"> Thu, 29 Sep 2016 23:35:52 EST I'm going to be a Star!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6243727 Through my university, I can see a nutritionist once a month for free. It's a service I eagerly take advantage of. <BR> <BR> They asked me if I could write a little promo for them, to use on their webpage. I said yes. <BR> <BR> Well now they have asked if I would do a filmed interview. I decided if I was going to agree I might as well go all the way and said yes. <BR> <BR> It turns out, I was the only one who said yes, so they are eager to fill up as much of their page as they can wit... Thu, 29 Sep 2016 14:53:57 EST Touch of reality. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6243166 <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/f26f2378-8ec8-4bf2-8682-96c61ce3ac7d.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <link>https://www.yahoo.com/beauty/emily-s<BR>kye-shares-shots-three-171929762.html </link> Wed, 28 Sep 2016 12:39:43 EST Woohoo!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6243085 For months I have been playing ping, pong between 195 and 190. This morning I officially dropped below, 190! <BR> <BR> Wed, 28 Sep 2016 09:28:56 EST Definition of Tragedy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6239789 Tragedy: The result of hitting D6 on the vending machine instead of E6. <BR> <BR> Ok, so maybe "Tragedy" is a bit too harsh of a word. Still I'm decently bummed. <BR> <BR> Upside, I may have caved by the universe/my scattered brain, prevented me from drinking a soda this afternoon. Wed, 21 Sep 2016 17:58:15 EST I Hate To Run. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6235659 I'm calling it. I'm not going to do it. I HATE to run. <BR> <BR> I have always hated running. I didn't like to run as a small child. I didn't like to run in school. I attempted running as an adult to help with fitness and realized, I hate it. <BR> <BR> I hate how I feel while I'm running. I hate how I feel after I run. And the amount of dread I experience before I go for a run has often derailed my exercise routine. <BR> <BR> And this isn't a vanity feeling. I'm not worried abo... Wed, 14 Sep 2016 09:11:09 EST Not Trusting the Scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6231099 I'm not really trusting my scale this morning. <BR> <BR> I've been sick for about 2 weeks now. I had a bad cold, for about a week. So I wasn't active and I was pretty much eating nothing but canned chili and saltines (Hey, some people have chicken noodle, I have Hormel). <BR> <BR> Last week I was still very tired, which was one part recovering from my cold and one part having spent a week laying around. So I still wasn't getting much exercise, I also wasn't cooking, so I wasn't eating ... Tue, 6 Sep 2016 12:30:07 EST The haves and have nots http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6229265 I have always tried to tell myself that my hardships make me a better person. I tell myself that my struggles make me smarter, stronger, more resourceful, more appreciative, and more compassionate. <BR> <BR> But there come times when I'm left standing there staring at someone who has never struggled, never worked, never faced hardship; someone who is constantly lazy, selfish, and unmotivated, and I watch this person being rewarded, pampered, and provided with the easier path. <BR> <BR>... Sat, 3 Sep 2016 01:18:53 EST Plague update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6228985 I'm finally back to work for a full day, and I am feeling the effects of a week of rest. <BR> <BR> I feel like I've been dragging a weight around all morning, I'm just tired. <BR> <BR> I was feeling much better but I decided to stay home an extra day just to be sure I didn't pass it on. <BR> <BR> So that was a week with very minimal exercise. I didn't even really go outside. <BR> <BR> But I took my time and biked to work today. I figure tomorrow, I might go to the gym for half an h... Fri, 2 Sep 2016 12:39:34 EST Plauge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6225855 Just as I was getting back in the habit of going to the gym everyday...Last night I went to bed sure that I'd hit it hard at the gym this morning. <BR> <BR> Instead I work up with a "swallowing razor blades" sore throat. <BR> <BR> Goody <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/900c0a46-1581-4cbb-bb37-664c37faef87.png"> Sun, 28 Aug 2016 10:20:07 EST A new challenge I wasn't expecting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6223869 I have been gaining and losing the same five pounds for some time now. <BR> <BR> I know I'm not purely innocent, I've had a few bouts of not eating right or working out as much as I should. <BR> <BR> But there's also been a barrier that no amount of exercise or proper eating seems to bust, (and possibly has helped lead to my bad behavior). <BR> <BR> I discussed this with my nutritionist and after reviewing my diet she decided that I'm not eating enough. She has suggested that I push... Wed, 24 Aug 2016 16:32:13 EST Going philosophical http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6221066 What do I want to weigh? <BR> <BR> I've been thinking about this lately and I've been realizing more and more that, 1) I don't know and 2) I don't care. <BR> <BR> I want a flat stomach. I don't want saggy rolls of skin over the top of my jeans. I don't want my underarms to giggle. I want to walk up stairs without gasping for breath at the top. I want to feel confident when I'm out. I want to stop thinking of myself as, "The Fat Friend". I want to feel good about myself when I'm tryi... Fri, 19 Aug 2016 18:03:17 EST Breaking my two week break. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6220900 I can't explain what happened, but for the last two weeks I just haven't had the motivation to get up and go to the gym. <BR> <BR> I still bike to work. I still take a half hour walk at lunch, and I still climb the stairs to the sixth floor a few times a day. <BR> <BR> But I just haven't had it in me to go to the gym. <BR> <BR> Granted some mornings have been out of my control. I've had to prioritize other things. But most of it has just been lazy, "don' wanna do it!" <BR> <BR> Tomor... Fri, 19 Aug 2016 11:45:59 EST Complaints about Rain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6215536 Now, don't get me wrong, I love the rain. I love the romance of gray, overcast skies, and long drizzling afternoons. I love rain more than I love warm, sunny spring days. Really, I should be living in Seattle or London, someplace that rain is an everyday occurrence. <BR> <BR> But I just have to say: <BR> <BR> The Mayans in 2600 BCE understood how to drain entire swamps and wetlands in order to build cities and grow crops. <BR> <BR> The Egyptians in 3050 BCE understood how to route the... Wed, 10 Aug 2016 11:42:40 EST Researching Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6215012 Back in 2012, when I first started getting serious about my weight, I didn't bike, I didn't go to the gym, I didn't walk much, I didn't eat vegetables, I did eat red meat at nearly every meal, and I had no concept of portion control. <BR> <BR> I have changed nearly every aspect of my life. I bike commute, I walk a lot, I take the stairs, I go to the gym, I eat veggies at nearly every meal, I eat chicken and am now eating more fish, I portion control everything, etc. <BR> <BR> But I'm sti... Tue, 9 Aug 2016 14:52:00 EST Morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6212186 I have no one and nothing to blame but myself. I was up on time, I was dressed, I was ready to go to the gym, and I just didn't. I just sat there, and fiddled with my computer until nearly 6:30am. <BR> <BR> Then I decided that I just wasn't motivated enough to do it today. I will probably go for my walk at lunch and I might even climb the stairs to the 7th floor as well. But I just didn't want to go to the gym. <BR> <BR> I also had ice cream for breakfast, because, why not have ice ... Thu, 4 Aug 2016 13:21:20 EST Time vortex? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6210955 I got up at 5:20am. I put on my workout clothes, took out the trash, sat down to drink some water, and ended up IM'ing a friend. All very normal morning stuff. <BR> <BR> I then looked up and it was 6:40am. <BR> <BR> I have no idea what happened to all that time; it literally just vanished. I'm blaming a time vortex of some-sort. <BR> <BR> It takes me 10 minutes to get to the gym, so I literally would have had to turn right around and go home. So I ended up skipping the gym this mor... Tue, 2 Aug 2016 11:44:05 EST I didn't hit my time, but I still win!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6208745 I ran this morning and I didn't hit my time of two miles in under 27:40. Instead I did 28:10. But I ran this morning, and that's a win. <BR> <BR> I hate to run. I have yet to find that glorious space that avid runners talk about, where it makes it all worth it. <BR> <BR> I run because it is more vigorous than the elliptical and because I want to be able to do a 10K in Nov. <BR> <BR> But that still doesn't mean that when I step onto that treadmill I'm happy about it. So the fact t... Fri, 29 Jul 2016 12:18:24 EST Aspire Assist? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6207763 I ran across this device and I have to say, I'm disturbed. <BR> <BR> I don't want to step on anyone's feelings, and there very well could be someone out there who found this to be a true life saver. <BR> <BR> But for me, it's just touching too closely on eating disorders. It's basically a neat and tidy version of purging. <BR> <BR> Which, I'm sorry, but what does that really accomplish? Yes, the person using it will lose weight, but that does not mean they will keep it off or that th... Wed, 27 Jul 2016 17:36:51 EST Gross out, for health http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6207013 I like those "Top Ten" type videos. They are entertaining and they can be very informative. <BR> <BR> Last night, I ran across a top ten grossest things about fast food. <BR> <BR> Normally, I don't really go for the gross top tens, but I figured if it was gross enough it would help me steer clear of those types of establishments. <BR> <BR> Needless to say, it was rather gross, and even if they aren't all true, the purpose was served. I don't think I'll be having buns or a milkshake any... Tue, 26 Jul 2016 12:28:18 EST Time to kick up the weights. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6207011 Tuesdays and Thursdays I do some cardio and weights. <BR> <BR> Usually, I walk away from the machines barely able to lift my arms. Today, however, I walked away, not really feeling it. <BR> <BR> Thursday I think it's time to increase the weight. It's no time to set on my laurels. <BR> <BR> Tue, 26 Jul 2016 12:24:29 EST My New Year's Resolutions Update. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6206546 My new year's resolutions have languished, ignored, and forgotten for months. But recently, they've been circling back to the forefront of my brain. <BR> <BR> My resolutions where: <BR> 1) Get my roommate to help more <BR> 2) Reduce TV <BR> 3) Lose weight <BR> 4) Finish my novel <BR> 5) Work on my financial situation <BR> <BR> #1 Roommate Help: To date, my roommate has started helping out more. The problem now seems to be getting her to do it properly, and with a little focus rather th... Mon, 25 Jul 2016 16:46:10 EST The Diabolical Universe. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6206390 My cat was frisky yesterday, and ended spilling his water dish. I, of course, didn't realize it until I slipped in the water. <BR> <BR> I didn't hit the ground, but in steadying myself I did pull a muscle in my shoulder and neck. <BR> <BR> To make things even better, I woke up this morning with a severe sinus headache, (probably partly due to my shoulder) <BR> <BR> I rode my bike this morning and it just made my headache pound and my shoulder is not happy. <BR> <BR> I am a sad, grump... Mon, 25 Jul 2016 11:32:00 EST To weigh or not to weigh II http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6205271 My struggle is, the scale rules me. Even if I'm seeing results in other areas, better fitting clothes, more energy, lifting heavier weights, etc. if the scale is up, I feel down. <BR> <BR> I get angry with myself and the process, and end up feeling like a failure. <BR> <BR> So I was contemplating just weighing myself once a month. <BR> <BR> However, everyone I've talked to has told me that it's a bad idea. Even I'm worried that giving it up altogether, is going to allow me to "be ... Sat, 23 Jul 2016 09:30:18 EST To weigh or not to weigh? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6204454 There is no high like stepping on the scale at the end of the week and seeing that the number has dropped. <BR> <BR> On the other hand, there is no low like stepping on the scale and finding that number has gone up, stayed the same, or hasn't dropped as far as one would have hopped. <BR> <BR> So the question is, should the scale even be a routinely used tool in the weight loss journey? <BR> <BR> Some say the scale is a vital part of the journey and an indispensable motivational tool. ... Thu, 21 Jul 2016 17:27:40 EST Week 2: Running Update II http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6203884 Monday, I managed to walk/run 2 miles in 27:55. In total I did 2.10 miles. <BR> <BR> Today, I walk/ran 2 miles in 27:48; and did a total of 2.12 miles. <BR> <BR> Small improvements, but improvements nonetheless. <BR> <BR> Wed, 20 Jul 2016 16:18:59 EST Would having my trainer gain 50 lbs help me lose weight? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6203857 Hum? Well I have to ask, would gaining 50lbs help my trainer understand what it's like to be 12 years old, excitedly trying on Halloween costumes only to have my mother look me up and down, sigh and say, "You look like an old sack of potatoes"? <BR> <BR> Would it help them understand what it's like to hear those words every time I try on clothes? <BR> <BR> Would it help them realize what it is like to be in gym class, trying to run the lap and have my teacher yell, "Give it up, we're goin... Wed, 20 Jul 2016 15:02:43 EST Week 2: Running Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6202541 Pushed myself today and managed to shave a few seconds off my time. <BR> <BR> I went from 2 miles in 28:48 last week to 2 miles in 27:55 today. <BR> <BR> I'm still not a fan of running. But I do work up a good sweat doing it. Though I think it might help if I hydrate a bit more before I run on Wednesday. <BR> <BR> My goal is to be able to run/walk a 10K in an hour (or less) sometime around Thanksgiving. <BR> <BR> Right now, I'm using a treadmill, and I run half and walk half. Th... Mon, 18 Jul 2016 11:37:36 EST Running http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6200956 Wednesday, I half ran, half walked 2 miles in 28:41 <BR> Today, I half ran, half walked 2 miles in 28:48. <BR> <BR> So pretty consistent. I, of course, blame the extra 7 seconds on my earbud cord coming undone and bouncing around until I folded it back up. <BR> <BR> My goal is to try and run a 10K, around Thanksgiving, in under 1 hour. <BR> <BR> Fri, 15 Jul 2016 12:43:07 EST 20 Weeks to a 10K? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6198751 My friend wants to run a Marathon. But our recent experience with reality on a camping trip has brought her a little clarity. So she's agreed to scale it back to a 10K around Thanksgiving. <BR> <BR> According to my calendar that means I have around 20 weeks to go from not running at all to being able to compete in a 10K without completely humiliating myself. <BR> <BR> Recently, I've tried the treadmill twice. Each time I was able to do equal parts run and walk and managed to complete 2... Mon, 11 Jul 2016 14:59:09 EST Back from Big Bear! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6198657 Just got back from three days in LA and three days camping at Big Bear Lake. <BR> <BR> Big Bear: <BR> <BR> The first day we went swimming. It's a little difficult to find good places to swim that aren't crowded or have dead fish. But still it was fun. <BR> <BR> The next day we hiked to Castle Rock...I recommend you find the actual path, and not the game trail path my friend decided was the trail. On the upside, it was an awesome workout and we got to blaze the path less traveled. ... Mon, 11 Jul 2016 12:04:40 EST Gearing up for LA and Big Bear this weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6190535 I'm going to be spending four days and three nights camping at Big Bear Lake next week. We plan on hiking, kayaking, swimming, and stargazing. <BR> <BR> I love the Good Will, I managed to find two brand new camp chairs and one decent camp chair, plus a nice camp blanket, a brand new sleeping bag, and backpack, all for $30. <BR> <BR> I was sorely tempted to buy the 10 person tent and queen sized air-mattress, each $20. But I don't really have a use for the air-mattress outside of this tri... Mon, 27 Jun 2016 11:59:10 EST First Time Treadmill http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6188222 I ran on the treadmill for the first time (well at least the first time I can remember). <BR> <BR> I ran 2 miles in 29:25. Which I don't think is so bad for my first time ever. <BR> <BR> But it did kick my rump-roast. I left the gym with one of those big sweat-stains around my chest and back. Thu, 23 Jun 2016 11:40:58 EST Watched too much Burn Notice and now I'm looking down the barrel of a gun (sort of) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6187810 I've been on a Burn Notice kick, as has my friend. Now she thinks we can run a half marathon in October. <BR> <BR> I don't run. I use an elliptical, I swim, I bike, I hike, I walk, I lift weights, but I don't run. <BR> <BR> But perhaps it's time to give running another shot? Perhaps I can start slow on the treadmills and work my way up to actual street running? Or is it better to just go to the street? <BR> <BR> If I do this I'm going to need a plan. Michael's all about plans, p... Wed, 22 Jun 2016 19:36:26 EST San Diego and back. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6187664 I spent 10 days in San Diego. <BR> <BR> I swam in the ocean, kayaked, hiked, and walked a lot. <BR> <BR> The weather was sometimes chilly, but Beautiful. It made me want to be outside as much as possible. Even when I was home, I still wanted to leave the doors and windows open; well until the giant bug flew in and started dive bombing me... <BR> <BR> I came home, all fired up to continue my outdoor, summer fun...and it's breaking records with 113 degree heat. 4 hikers died over the ... Wed, 22 Jun 2016 13:46:07 EST Updates http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6179030 I'm up in weight, but down in body fat. <BR> <BR> I'm also getting ready to spend a week in San Diego, dog setting. <BR> <BR> My brother and sister-in-law are going to Europe, and I will be watching their place and caring for their pets while they are gone. <BR> <BR> Which means I'm going to have a week of beautiful San Diego weather, I will be within walking distance of the beach, I will have access to a vehicle and a bike. <BR> <BR> Food won't be a problem. I will eat out while... Wed, 8 Jun 2016 12:45:15 EST Is sugar a poison? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6175138 A few weeks ago I watched an interesting documentary on the food during the rule of the Tudors. Apparently, it was around the rule of Elizabeth I that sugar was introduced to and becoming very popular in England and Europe. <BR> <BR> But what was interesting was that Scientists were able to show that in the years before sugar was introduced people rarely had problems with their teeth. Fewer people suffered from arthritis and those that did developed it later in life. There was a whole host ... Thu, 2 Jun 2016 12:28:33 EST Downside of Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6171498 I was hiking my "favorite" hill, and I was passing people who were much slimmer than I, much "hotter" and it gave me a real ego boost. I was thinking that, there really is a difference between "Slim" and "Strong" and "Hot" and "Fit". <BR> <BR> But like so many things in life this came tangled in something else...envy. Why is it that I work so hard and am fitter than so many smaller, slimmer, hotter people and yet, I don't have their figure. <BR> <BR> I tell myself I'm being healthier and ... Fri, 27 May 2016 16:50:22 EST When the plan doesn't go to plan: accept, log, and move on. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6161609 My office is doing some renovating. Today, they were laying tile in the kitchen/break room. The smell of the glue gave me a headache and left me feeling a little nauseated and tired. <BR> <BR> By lunch time I knew I needed to get out of the office for a while. So rather then eating my super healthy, low cal chili, I ended up driving over to Carl's Jr. ...yeah 1,360 calories later.... <BR> <BR> Also my roommate is graduating tonight and has asked me to attend; which means we will proba... Thu, 12 May 2016 16:18:39 EST I did it!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6159751 I just kicked the heck out of my rump-roast, OMG; and this from someone who doesn't often use OMG, but OMG. <BR> <BR> I biked to work, then after work I biked half an hour to the Hill, I spent a hour hiking that crazy strenuous hill, then I biked an hour home. <BR> <BR> I literally dropped onto the couch exhausted. But I did it! Mon, 9 May 2016 23:01:19 EST The Cold Hard Truth http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6158142 I have been lying to myself for a while. I tell myself, "Hey, I hike the hill 2-3 times a week! That hill is really hard, I'm soaked in sweat,gasping for breath, and feeling a little sick when I reach the top. That's enough." <BR> <BR> I've been telling myself that my food isn't that bad. Granted, I've more or less stopped measuring, and yes, the occasional single serving cake is more of a nightly routine than occasional. Still it can't be that bad. <BR> <BR> I keep promising myself th... Sat, 7 May 2016 10:20:48 EST The excuses are invalid. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6154944 Sometimes we just need someone to remind us that nothing is impossible and it is never too late, even if you are 100 years old. <BR> <BR> <link>www.npr.org/sections/thetwo-way/2016<BR>/05/02/476468646/100-meters-100-years-<BR>old-ida-keeling-breaks-racing-record?u<BR>tm_source=facebook.com&utm_medium=soci<BR>al&utm_campaign=npr&utm_term=nprnews&u<BR>tm_content=20160502 </link> Mon, 2 May 2016 16:23:19 EST Victory with a Cherry on top http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6153120 The only thing more satisfying then watching a little old lady in neon sneakers power past a young chiseled hard-body, is powering past him and beating him to the top of the hill myself. <BR> <BR> Fri, 29 Apr 2016 22:36:32 EST Tuesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6150702 Very little sleep, a roommate who melted down so far over a poor test score that she had to be held at a "therapy center" for the afternoon, and oh yeah, a stray who snuck into my apartment gave my cats fleas. <BR> <BR> What can I say, it's a Tuesday. <BR> <BR> Tue, 26 Apr 2016 11:28:28 EST Why are complements embarrassing? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6150232 I was walking through the hallway at work today, and a woman, I don't really know her, she works in my building, stopped to tell me how impressed she was with my fitness. <BR> <BR> She told me I was looking fabulous and that she'd definitely noticed my weight loss. <BR> <BR> What struck me was I was both flattered and embarrassed, and then even more embarrassed. <BR> <BR> It left me wondering why my go to response is to be embarrassed by a complement. <BR> <BR> I know part of it is I ... Mon, 25 Apr 2016 20:03:21 EST Using your imagination to lose weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6148024 It's a tough road trying to find motivation when you simply don't have it. <BR> <BR> Last night I finally managed to force myself to go hike the hill here in town. It's 3 miles round trip, but it's incredibly steep and hard to climb. My plan is to start hiking it twice a week. <BR> <BR> As I was starting off there was a group of women, around my age, who were all very slim, and dressed in bright, sexy workout gear, also starting up the hill. <BR> <BR> As we started off I managed to sli... Fri, 22 Apr 2016 13:59:37 EST Sunday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6132531 That mysterious force, that sweeps across one's life, bringing with it energy, focus, and drive. It makes the path seem so clear and the goal so easily obtainable. It's filled with confidence and purpose. <BR> <BR> However, that force is not something that can be relied upon. It sweeps right back out just as easily as it came. <BR> <BR> I have been waiting for that force, and I just can't wait any longer. <BR> <BR> Starting Sunday, I'm going to start pushing myself again. As much as ... Fri, 1 Apr 2016 12:01:54 EST What if it doesn't happen? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6130161 The first day I met with my nutritionist she asked me, "How would you feel if it just doesn't happen?" <BR> <BR> Meaning how would I feel if I didn't lose weight. I told her I'd feel very sad and disappointed with myself. <BR> <BR> Well, it's been around four years; four years of tracking my weight, exercise, and food. Four years of reading articles and books on health and fitness. I know portion sizes, I know calories, I know nutrition, I know what level of physical activity I need... Tue, 29 Mar 2016 13:19:23 EST Changing my Sleep Schedule http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6120023 I dream of being a writer. I just love to tell stories. <BR> <BR> While I would love to write the next great novel. I would be over the moon thrilled with just getting a book published. I'd be giddy to the point of squeals to get an article published. <BR> <BR> I've been working on a novel for a while. I chip away at it here and there. But I'm not consistent. <BR> <BR> I know that once I get off work, nothing creative is going to happen. I'm too tired, too brain dead, and too g... Tue, 15 Mar 2016 17:55:39 EST