MCASKEY6's SparkPeople Blog MCASKEY6's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Downside of Up I was hiking my "favorite" hill, and I was passing people who were much slimmer than I, much "hotter" and it gave me a real ego boost. I was thinking that, there really is a difference between "Slim" and "Strong" and "Hot" and "Fit". <BR> <BR> But like so many things in life this came tangled in something else...envy. Why is it that I work so hard and am fitter than so many smaller, slimmer, hotter people and yet, I don't have their figure. <BR> <BR> I tell myself I'm being healthier and ... Fri, 27 May 2016 16:50:22 EST When the plan doesn't go to plan: accept, log, and move on. My office is doing some renovating. Today, they were laying tile in the kitchen/break room. The smell of the glue gave me a headache and left me feeling a little nauseated and tired. <BR> <BR> By lunch time I knew I needed to get out of the office for a while. So rather then eating my super healthy, low cal chili, I ended up driving over to Carl's Jr. ...yeah 1,360 calories later.... <BR> <BR> Also my roommate is graduating tonight and has asked me to attend; which means we will proba... Thu, 12 May 2016 16:18:39 EST I did it!!! I just kicked the heck out of my rump-roast, OMG; and this from someone who doesn't often use OMG, but OMG. <BR> <BR> I biked to work, then after work I biked half an hour to the Hill, I spent a hour hiking that crazy strenuous hill, then I biked an hour home. <BR> <BR> I literally dropped onto the couch exhausted. But I did it! Mon, 9 May 2016 23:01:19 EST The Cold Hard Truth I have been lying to myself for a while. I tell myself, "Hey, I hike the hill 2-3 times a week! That hill is really hard, I'm soaked in sweat,gasping for breath, and feeling a little sick when I reach the top. That's enough." <BR> <BR> I've been telling myself that my food isn't that bad. Granted, I've more or less stopped measuring, and yes, the occasional single serving cake is more of a nightly routine than occasional. Still it can't be that bad. <BR> <BR> I keep promising myself th... Sat, 7 May 2016 10:20:48 EST The excuses are invalid. Sometimes we just need someone to remind us that nothing is impossible and it is never too late, even if you are 100 years old. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>/05/02/476468646/100-meters-100-years-<BR>old-ida-keeling-breaks-racing-record?u<BR><BR>al&utm_campaign=npr&utm_term=nprnews&u<BR>tm_content=20160502 </link> Mon, 2 May 2016 16:23:19 EST Victory with a Cherry on top The only thing more satisfying then watching a little old lady in neon sneakers power past a young chiseled hard-body, is powering past him and beating him to the top of the hill myself. <BR> <BR> Fri, 29 Apr 2016 22:36:32 EST Tuesday Very little sleep, a roommate who melted down so far over a poor test score that she had to be held at a "therapy center" for the afternoon, and oh yeah, a stray who snuck into my apartment gave my cats fleas. <BR> <BR> What can I say, it's a Tuesday. <BR> <BR> Tue, 26 Apr 2016 11:28:28 EST Why are complements embarrassing? I was walking through the hallway at work today, and a woman, I don't really know her, she works in my building, stopped to tell me how impressed she was with my fitness. <BR> <BR> She told me I was looking fabulous and that she'd definitely noticed my weight loss. <BR> <BR> What struck me was I was both flattered and embarrassed, and then even more embarrassed. <BR> <BR> It left me wondering why my go to response is to be embarrassed by a complement. <BR> <BR> I know part of it is I ... Mon, 25 Apr 2016 20:03:21 EST Using your imagination to lose weight It's a tough road trying to find motivation when you simply don't have it. <BR> <BR> Last night I finally managed to force myself to go hike the hill here in town. It's 3 miles round trip, but it's incredibly steep and hard to climb. My plan is to start hiking it twice a week. <BR> <BR> As I was starting off there was a group of women, around my age, who were all very slim, and dressed in bright, sexy workout gear, also starting up the hill. <BR> <BR> As we started off I managed to sli... Fri, 22 Apr 2016 13:59:37 EST Sunday That mysterious force, that sweeps across one's life, bringing with it energy, focus, and drive. It makes the path seem so clear and the goal so easily obtainable. It's filled with confidence and purpose. <BR> <BR> However, that force is not something that can be relied upon. It sweeps right back out just as easily as it came. <BR> <BR> I have been waiting for that force, and I just can't wait any longer. <BR> <BR> Starting Sunday, I'm going to start pushing myself again. As much as ... Fri, 1 Apr 2016 12:01:54 EST What if it doesn't happen? The first day I met with my nutritionist she asked me, "How would you feel if it just doesn't happen?" <BR> <BR> Meaning how would I feel if I didn't lose weight. I told her I'd feel very sad and disappointed with myself. <BR> <BR> Well, it's been around four years; four years of tracking my weight, exercise, and food. Four years of reading articles and books on health and fitness. I know portion sizes, I know calories, I know nutrition, I know what level of physical activity I need... Tue, 29 Mar 2016 13:19:23 EST Changing my Sleep Schedule I dream of being a writer. I just love to tell stories. <BR> <BR> While I would love to write the next great novel. I would be over the moon thrilled with just getting a book published. I'd be giddy to the point of squeals to get an article published. <BR> <BR> I've been working on a novel for a while. I chip away at it here and there. But I'm not consistent. <BR> <BR> I know that once I get off work, nothing creative is going to happen. I'm too tired, too brain dead, and too g... Tue, 15 Mar 2016 17:55:39 EST When the World says NO to my Munchies I have been trying to be good...well, actually I haven't. I've been trying to try to be good. But it's been really easy for me to swing through a drive thru or justify a missed gym day. <BR> <BR> Last night I kept seeing the ad for the "Almost Lofthouse" sugar cookie recipe. Now, I don't really like Lofthouse cookies; for me they are flour and plastic tasting sugar. As a girl once jokingly referred to them, Trailer Trash Cookies. <BR> <BR> But seeing that picture, over and over througho... Tue, 15 Mar 2016 11:19:50 EST Checking up on my Resolutions. Recap <BR> <BR> 1) Get my roommate to help out more with the cleaning. <BR> 2) Reduce TV time and be more productive. <BR> 3) Lose weight. <BR> 4) Finish my novel. <BR> 5) Work on my financial situation. <BR> 6) Stop Hording and being disorganized. <BR> <BR> Well, this month hasn't been as productive as I'd like. <BR> <BR> Res. 1) The roommate still is not helping with the cleaning unless I specifically tell her what to do. <BR> <BR> I have printed lists of everything that needs to be d... Mon, 29 Feb 2016 13:27:42 EST Too Stubborn for my own good. I bought a nice 2 drawer file cabinet for only $5.00. I was so eager to get it home I didn't think about the fact that it is heavy and I live on the second floor. <BR> <BR> I got it up here. But my back is not happy with me. <BR> <BR> I can't help it. I grew up on a farm with the attitude, if it needs to be done, do it yourself. <BR> <BR> I paid a little too much attention to Yoda, Do or do not.... <BR> <BR> Next time I really should say, "Yes, thank you!" to the guy who stopped a... Fri, 19 Feb 2016 12:05:56 EST Pursuing Dreams I took a week off to work on my novel. <BR> <BR> I have learned that pursuing a dream is not easy, but writing is good for the soul and confidence, but not so good on the waistline. <BR> <BR> I understand why so many writers drink, my sugar addiction has been rearing its ugly head in a pretty powerful way. Wed, 17 Feb 2016 22:49:11 EST Monthly Weigh In I haven't lost any weight since Jan. 31st. HOWEVER, <BR> <BR> I have lost; <BR> <BR> 1.5 inches off my waist <BR> .5 inches off my hips <BR> and <BR> .5 inches off my arms <BR> <BR> Since my last weigh in on Jan. 5th I've lost <BR> <BR> 1.7% Body Fat <BR> <BR> I am now 110 lbs of muscle and 72 lbs of fat. I have lost 5 lbs of fat since my last weigh in and my muscle has held steady at 110 lbs! <BR> <BR> My next goal is to break my 180 lbs barrier. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos... Wed, 10 Feb 2016 11:51:47 EST Is it hunger or a lie Could it be that my increased workout is revving up my metabolism and thus increasing my hunger? <BR> <BR> Or could it be something more sinister? <BR> <BR> I eat lunch at noon, but recently I have found myself reaching for a snack as early as 1:30pm and again at 2, 3, and when I get home at 5:30 I'm ravenous. <BR> <BR> But I've read several articles (like the one below) that suggest that people who lose 30lbs or more, will reach a point where their bodies will start doing anything i... Tue, 9 Feb 2016 16:38:52 EST Adding another resolution to the list My mother, grandmother, and aunts were all atrocious Packrats. <BR> <BR> They refused to throw anything away, even if it was broken, unusable, outdated, or ugly. They just couldn't bare to toss it. <BR> <BR> I don't know if it's because they had lived through or been raised by people who'd been through the Depression. But they always insisted that they were going to get it fixed, sell it, or give it to someone; which they never did. <BR> <BR> Slowly but surely they ended up drownin... Sat, 6 Feb 2016 20:44:31 EST New Year's Resolutions Feb. Update It is time to check up on my New Year's Resolutions to see how I'm doing. <BR> <BR> My Resolutions are: <BR> 1) Get my roommate to help out more <BR> 2) Reduce TV time and be more productive <BR> 3) Lose weight <BR> 4) Finish my novel <BR> 5) Work on my financial situation <BR> <BR> Resolution Number One; has made small progress. My roommate still insists on waiting until I've directed her to do something, before she's willing to do it. However, now, rather then having to tell her what ... Fri, 5 Feb 2016 17:12:31 EST Marsupial Fit The latest in fitness craze hits Australia's outback, Marsupial Fit. <BR> <BR> <link><BR><BR>ml?nf=1 </link> Fri, 5 Feb 2016 13:29:07 EST Struggling to see the loss I've hit a plateau in the my weight loss. Yet I've had all these non-scale rewards. <BR> <BR> I'm climbing stairs faster and getting less winded. <BR> <BR> Clothes are fitting better. <BR> <BR> And I just feel better. <BR> <BR> But the scale stopped moving and even went up a pound and I started having negative thoughts. <BR> <BR> Then this morning, as I was getting ready for the gym I noticed that my once tight gym sweatshirt, was now fitting me with room to spare. <BR> <BR> I... Fri, 5 Feb 2016 09:44:36 EST A goal worth fighting for. It's locked in. The vacation time has been requested and approved, plans are in motion. <BR> <BR> The week of July 4th I will be going to Pasadena to visit a friend of mine. During that trip we will be doing an overnight hike. We will hike and camp. Somewhere between 2 to 3 days worth of hiking. <BR> <BR> When we get back from our hike, we plan to, possibly, go down to San Diego and lounge on the beach. <BR> <BR> So that means I have roughly 5 months to get into shape for not only ... Tue, 2 Feb 2016 17:16:43 EST That Moment That Moment when you put on a shirt that USED to be too small and it is now way too big. <BR> <BR> I used to cringe wearing this shirt, because it stretched across my stomach and made me feel huge and fat. <BR> <BR> Then I started wearing it regularly because it start fitting me well. <BR> <BR> But I put it on this morning and realized I'm now swimming in it. <BR> <BR> It might be almost time to retire this shirt to the donation box. Tue, 2 Feb 2016 10:34:38 EST Humbling. This guy swam across the Atlantic Ocean. I was exhausted just by riding in an airplane when it flew across the Atlantic. <BR> <BR> Now he's intending to swim the Pacific. <BR> <BR> That's humbling. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>16/02/01/464457884/can-extreme-exercis<BR>e-hurt-your-heart-swim-the-pacific-to-<BR>find-out?<BR>edium=social&utm_campaign=npr&utm_term<BR>=nprnews&utm_content=20160201 </link> Mon, 1 Feb 2016 11:31:33 EST Conditioning for Overnight Hike. I decided to take advantage of the good weather this weekend before the cold front moved in, so I spent the weekend hiking. <BR> <BR> Which lead to a discussion with a friend about how she'd always wanted to do a long distance/overnight hike. (Hike someplace, camp, and hike back out) <BR> <BR> Now we're researching great hikes, and I'm going to have invest in some actual hiking boots. <BR> <BR> But this will give me motivation to get into even better shape, in order to be conditioned ... Mon, 1 Feb 2016 10:20:55 EST Temptation Fail Well I tried, but I failed. My boss had mentioned she'd be bringing donuts today, so I challenged myself not to have any. <BR> <BR> Long story short, my boss is a well intentioned Food Bully. So she kept pushing until I had one, then I had two more. <BR> <BR> They were Dunkin' Donut Munchinks, so not as bad as a whole donut, but still around 70 calories a pop and more sugar then I want or need. <BR> <BR> I went ahead and had my oatmeal; so I won't be tempted to have more. I was able to... Fri, 29 Jan 2016 10:25:12 EST Temptation My boss announced that she will be bringing donuts tomorrow, simply because it's Friday. <BR> <BR> At first I was like, "Yay! Donuts!" <BR> <BR> But as I thought about it, I remembered the quote, "Don't give up what you want most, for what you want now." <BR> <BR> What I want most is to lose weight. Wanting donuts is a passing fancy. <BR> <BR> So I've decided to challenge myself to refrain from donuts tomorrow. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Thu, 28 Jan 2016 17:38:48 EST Rewards I keep reading about the importance of setting up a goal and reward system. I understand why it works. We need to pause and think about just how much we've accomplished. I still have roughly 40lbs to lose. BUT I have lost 37lbs and I've managed to keep 30 of those pounds off for the last 3 years. That's not little potatoes. <BR> <BR> But my problem is the reward side. I'm a terrible person to buy presents for because I just don't have a clue as to what I want. <BR> <BR> Ok, yes, I e... Thu, 28 Jan 2016 11:20:14 EST Now or Never I have a pattern. In the fall around Sept or Oct. I get back on the wagon and start losing a lot of weight. I become very dedicated and focused on my weight loss and my health. <BR> <BR> Then the holidays come. And I tell myself, I'm going to back off right now, enjoy myself, enjoy family, etc. and I'll get back on the horse in Jan. <BR> <BR> Then I get home from the holidays and there's no food in the house, so I keep meaning to go to the store, but in the meantime, I hit up Taco Bell... Sun, 24 Jan 2016 11:13:35 EST New Years update Well, my workout routine is more or less on track. <BR> <BR> But my food is not. I don't know what it is, but I just can't seem to get myself back on course. <BR> <BR> I have a wonderful pasta dish, low in calories, high in veggies. I have my snacks. But there's just been too many opportunities to cheat. <BR> <BR> I have to run to the store for cat litter and, "Oh, I'll pick up an individual slice of cake while I'm here. One slice won't hurt." (which is actually two servings, b... Wed, 13 Jan 2016 10:53:59 EST 2016 the year of Possibility. Last year at this time I weighed 198.5lbs. Today I weighed in at 187lbs. Yes, that's only about 10lbs in a year. <BR> <BR> But those 10lbs were hard earned. I have learned so much about myself, physically and emotionally in the last year. <BR> <BR> I've learned many of the triggers that send me into an emotional tailspin straight into the fridge. I've dealt with loss, fear, stress, loneliness, uncertainty, boredom, exhaustion, foodbullies, and temptation. Through trial and error, I've... Tue, 5 Jan 2016 18:29:07 EST Can I do it? Holidays are over and I weigh 187lbs. <BR> <BR> Next month I want to weigh 180lbs. <BR> <BR> Can I do it? <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Tue, 5 Jan 2016 18:08:40 EST New Years 2016 I celebrated New Years at a Star Wars Prom. A local bar threw a Star Wars themed New Years party. <BR> <BR> I have to say, the Dark Side never looked so good. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I was planning on dressing up in a Star Wars inspired costume. But when I saw that dress, I knew I wanted it. I figured it was ... Mon, 4 Jan 2016 10:42:34 EST Using bad habits to promote good ones TV is a horrible time sink. TV just turns off my brain and sucks up my time. But I just spent an an hour and a half on the elliptical because I got suck into watching Love It or List It. <BR> <BR> My all time elliptical record was 4 hours because I got sucked into a marathon show. <BR> <BR> Sat, 2 Jan 2016 17:53:17 EST Happy New Year I'm learning that getting back in the saddle is easier then I feared. <BR> <BR> I just got back from my Christmas Holiday with family, lots of chocolate, drinks, eating out, and diet sodas. <BR> <BR> I got up this morning, knowing I have a couple of liters of diet soda, and I realized, that I just didn't want it. Instead I poured myself a glass of water. I'm also sick of chocolate and other treats. I will be making my healthy tuna patties today. <BR> <BR> My gym is closed until Jan. ... Thu, 31 Dec 2015 10:09:16 EST Ready for my vacation 4:00pm, on a Friday, before a two week holiday, is torture. <BR> <BR> All my work is done, I'm ready to go, I have an hour left, and I'm literally squirming in my desk. <BR> <BR> Time Pass! Fri, 18 Dec 2015 18:00:26 EST Stress in the mail Ugh, I got a letter today with more student loan drama. So I just spent 2.5 hours trying to sort all this out, figure out if I can even afford this new payment, and generally felt myself sink deeper into the mess that is my life thanks to a higher education. <BR> <BR> I'm now both exhausted and wired. I know if I try to sleep, my brain won't stop. But I have to work tomorrow, and I'm up against the wall knowing that at best I'll get a few hours of sleep, and that's if I skip the gym and s... Tue, 15 Dec 2015 01:14:20 EST Finally back on my schedule It really is shocking how a couple of weeks of low activity can undo months of vigorous activity. <BR> <BR> After Thanksgiving vacation, a massive allergy attack which left me out for a day, and a pinched nerve which left me in agony, I'm finally back to my old schedule. <BR> <BR> I got up this morning and biked to the gym. Usually it takes me less than 10 minutes and I bounce off my bike ready for my workout. <BR> <BR> Today, it took me about 15 minutes, and I had to drag myself off m... Wed, 9 Dec 2015 10:44:47 EST Apparently, that blush was all wrong for me. Feline ownership takes patience. Especially, when your fuzzy loved one has a UTI, the meds haven't kicked in yet, and he pees on your makeup bag. <BR> <BR> I got all the way to work and was on my way to the bathroom to put on my makeup when I noticed. <BR> <BR> Oh, well, I've been meaning to buy new makeup anyway. <BR> <BR> As for the cat, the form of execution has not been determined yet; however, snuggling and kissing to death seems to be the lead choice. <em>211</em> Mon, 7 Dec 2015 16:22:12 EST Pinched Nerve. So I spent almost my entire birthday in my PJs, watching TV, trying not to move my right arm or my neck. <BR> <BR> After resting it all day, heating pads, and OTC pain relievers its finally loosening up, a little. I made it to work, but I still can't move my head very much. <BR> <BR> My boss keeps wanting me to go back to my chiropractor. But I'm not too crazy about that idea. I went to chiropractor for a couple of months to see if it would help with my bizarre phantom arm itch; it did... Mon, 7 Dec 2015 10:33:54 EST It's my birthday It's my birthday, and at some point in the early morning I somehow pinched a nerve in my neck/shoulder. <BR> <BR> I was in such agonizing pain I couldn't move. I tried a heating pad, which helped some. This morning, I have an ache in my shoulder as long as I don't turn my head; if I do that I have a sharp, shooting pain in my neck and shoulder. <BR> <BR> I really hope this isn't an indicator on how this next year is going to unfold. Sun, 6 Dec 2015 10:14:50 EST I don't think Hollywood is the problem. The other day I watched a Youtube Video that discussed the unrealistic waistlines of Disney Princesses, and the impact that had/has on young girls. <BR> <BR> They showed several women, side by side images of the princesses they'd loved growing up, in one image the princesses had their original waists and the next showed what they would look like with a realistic waist. <BR> <BR> After looking at the images the women began to discuss how those images definitely impacted their body images a... Sat, 5 Dec 2015 10:07:56 EST Short Goal It's a short goal, but a big one. My next weigh-in is on the 9th. I want to drop 3.6lbs by then. Even 2lbs would be a huge victory. <BR> <BR> Today I will get back into my healthy eating and working out. I have to do a little shopping. <BR> <BR> I also plan to pamper myself a bit with a trim or a hair cut, I haven't decided yet. <BR> <BR> So here I go. Thu, 3 Dec 2015 10:25:49 EST Thanksgiving Leftovers II I went from 181lbs to 183.6lbs over 10 days. <BR> <BR> But considering it was 10 days of poor diet and low physical activity (-4 degrees and a disabled relative will do that to you) <BR> <BR> When I say poor diet I mean it. One morning I had potato chips for Breakfast, another we just had donuts. <BR> <BR> But overall, I tried to limit the bad and fill up on what little healthy there was. <BR> <BR> This morning, rather then chips, donuts, or sugary cereal with a diet soda, I'm ha... Thu, 3 Dec 2015 10:14:11 EST Thanksgiving leftover After visiting my aunt for the first time in 30 years, I have a renewed desire to become healthy! <BR> <BR> I'm blown away that she's in such poor health;, she can barely walk, is extremely frustrated with her immobility, and yet she does nothing to change that. She is diabetic and goes through insulin like it's water. Yet, she insists on eating donuts with dripping frosting, candy, chips, adds sugar to her frosted cereal, etc. <BR> <BR> I know she's in her mid-seventies, and old habits... Wed, 2 Dec 2015 18:40:02 EST On my way to Thanksgiving I am accepting the fact that for the next 10 days I will be very limited in my dietary choices, but I will still have a choice. <BR> <BR> Tue, 24 Nov 2015 16:52:00 EST "It Could be Worse" I am constantly getting myself down. <BR> <BR> I start thinking about how I'm single, how my job isn't ever going to go anywhere, I'm broke, I still have my gut, etc. You get the idea. <BR> <BR> But I've decided that I'm going to make a real effort to remember that, it could be worse. All I have to do is look at the news to know, it could be so much worse. <BR> <BR> I have to remember that everyone has problems. It's our attitude about our problems that matters. Fri, 20 Nov 2015 18:18:19 EST Break Day I've been hitting it hard at the gym, 7 days a week for the last month or so. I woke up this morning, and just knew I wasn't going in today. <BR> <BR> It wasn't an, "It's too cold" or "I'm too tired." I just wasn't going in today. <BR> <BR> I stayed snuggled in my bed an extra 30 minutes. My cat lounged on my lap most of the morning while I sipped tea and window shopped online. <BR> <BR> Then I went to work. <BR> <BR> And I'm cool with that, because life is balance, and too much of... Fri, 20 Nov 2015 10:21:40 EST 8 weeks without a soda. I can't really say what it was that made me quit; I guess the timing was just right. <BR> <BR> I was at the grocery store and I just really didn't want any sodas, so I listened to myself and I didn't buy any. I decided to replace my caffeine needs with teas I'd been experimenting with, and I bought a pitcher to keep water in the fridge. <BR> <BR> Later I still didn't want any sodas. So I still didn't buy any. Then it became, "I've avoided them for too long now, I can't have a soda." ... Wed, 18 Nov 2015 14:13:24 EST