MAYLEE425's SparkPeople Blog MAYLEE425's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community So no matter what you been through I've been through a lot in the past two years not with having the job from hell. But last year in March 2012. I became really depressed, it was awful, feeling hopeless feeling that I couldn't come out of that funk. Then with my failing grades as consequence of that and this apparent separation anxiety. Why did I feel like that? I was 19 years old. I shouldn't feel like that. After being depressed for about a month and half. I felt so much better. <BR> <BR> My grades took the biggest toll. ... Wed, 1 May 2013 23:57:21 EST February 1st Good 2:25 in the morning everyone! Yes, I am very sleepy. So I came out of the flu around the 15th took a while it was pretty bad but I'm much better now. Also I'm feeling a lot better mentally. Started learning how to drive again. My life is really getting back on track and I'm happy. A little scared but happy. <BR> <BR> Oh and I lost 10lb in January. Very awesome! <BR> <BR> My 20th birthday is the 19th and I was think of doing 1 fact a day until 20th birthday which people get 2 fun fac... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 02:40:50 EST FitBit Flex Good evening everyone. I went to school today after being sick this entire week and missing Tuesday classes. I'm feeling so much better. <BR> <BR> I want to get myself a FitBit. Most people seem to be really happy with it. Apperantly the wristband is supposed to launch in the spring and is cost 99. 95. Same as the FitBit one and Ultra. Many people say they lost their Fitbit because they didn't realize they had lost it until it was too late. This one is a wrist band. I wonder how it measure... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 21:12:02 EST Still Sick So, I'm sick. Still pretty sick. Not coughing anymore but I have so much pressure on my chest and I get dizzy every once in a while. I hate being sick it's awful. I tend to lose weight and apperantly I've lost about 9lb since the first of this month. Of course my scale is kind of iffy. <BR> <BR> I hate being sick because I feel kind of like a baby. I also hate it because most of the time I feel like I can't breathe which makes me panic and then I really can't breathe. <BR> <BR> Today was... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 23:11:38 EST Hate Being Sick I'm just posting early. I spent last night coughing so I didn't sleep until 10am this morning woke up at 2 in the afternoon. Meaning I was up for 24 hours. I feel so much better now. Hopefully, I'll fall asleep earlier tonight. <BR> <BR> I wanted to start January Challenge but I won't be able to today. Unless walking around the house counts. <BR> <BR> Have a great day! Sun, 6 Jan 2013 17:29:04 EST This Year You know this year there are so many things I want to do. <BR> <BR> Drive a car <BR> Play a guitar <BR> College Algebra <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> There's the things I need to do. <BR> <BR> Get a better control of my fears and emotions <BR> Lose weight <BR> Get a job <BR> Drive a car <BR> College Algebra <em>334</em> <BR> Getting to know God better <BR> <BR> Getting a better control of my fears and emotions is the one of the most important things I need to do this year. It affects e... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 23:57:51 EST Tangled Any has ever watched Tangled. Good movie Disney is giving it right now and will give it tomorrow 10am. Anyways, I really love the movie because it's about a girl who wants to achive her dreams no matter what stands her way. Maybe I should not let my fears stand in the way of achiving what I want. Maybe I should arm myself with a frying pan and hit those fears with it. <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> I love it when she left the tower and she wasn't sure whether or not to leave and how Ryder that i... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 23:40:10 EST Day 3 Feeling so much better emotionally. Not feeling as lonely but I do feel sick. I have a cold. Better this week than next week when I go back to class. I'm taking College Algebra 1111 for the third time. First time I had to drop it because of work and second time I failed it because I got sick I was doing well at first but then I started failing when I got sick. This semester I hope to be able to take it without any problems. I really do. I need to be able to move on from this cliff instead o... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 23:17:33 EST Fear I feel like fear has consumed me or is trying too. I know it hasn't and I'm not to deep into it but I feel like I could fall at any minute. Before my only fear was driving and spiders <em>41</em> . Now I feel like can't do anything. I used to work way back in May but stuff happened and now I feel so alone. <BR> <BR> It has a lot to do with what I said yesterday. That my friends and I no speak with each other. That they still hang out with each other but the never bother to call me. Sometim... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 21:48:54 EST Happy New Year! 365 Day Challenge: Blogging! So I want to wish everyone a very Happy New Year! I know that, that last month of the year was a little hard but hopefully this year will be better. No more tragedies or at least a little less. My New Years Resolutions for this are <BR> <BR> <BR> 1)Be Happy <BR> 2)Get good grades. <BR> 3)Keep up with this blog <BR> 4)Lose weight <BR> 5)Keep up a 365 Day Challenge. <BR> <BR> So first one. Is to start a blog. Well, this is my blog. I went through many sites I've decide not to do this on Fac... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 23:58:52 EST 100 days of Christmas: Day 11 and who's an NCIS fan?! 90 Days until Christmas. <BR> <BR> Today was an awesome day. We had a lot of laughs in my German class and in my English class. It seems like we all took very potent sugar and caffeine pills. It was a good day. Of course I learned German. <BR> <BR> <BR> Today I saw a person who I haven't seen since high school a year and a four months ago. It was nice seeing her again. I know I sometimes feel depressed but today I felt my best and didn't really feel anxiety like I usually do. I felt norma... Tue, 25 Sep 2012 23:47:10 EST 100 days of Christmas: Day 10 91 days until Christmas. <BR> <BR> Hey, it's been a long day. A bit boring. It's also really chilly outside. It seems to have drop many degrees from one day to another as soon as fall started. Anywho, I just remember I have German homework that is due before midnight. Good Night Mon, 24 Sep 2012 23:31:39 EST 100 days of Christmas: Day Nueve Today was a good day. It was a long one. It really felt like fall today. I just love Autumn the leaves, the smells and even the position of the sun. <BR> <BR> I joined the virtual Trick or Treat Trot I'm not a fan of Halloween or anything Halloween related but right now it really doesn't matter to me. I walked 15 minutes cntinously while pep talking myself. Seeing as how I really wanted to give up. But I didn't I kept going and right now I feel great. I'm not sure if I'll say that in the mo... Sun, 23 Sep 2012 23:57:20 EST 100 days of Christmas: Day Eight I really don't have much to say today. It was a good day. Spent most of my day debating about things on the internet. So my fingers are just worn out now. Better go before I give myself carpal tunnel. <BR> <BR> Over 90 days until Christmas. Sleep well and have a great night. Sat, 22 Sep 2012 23:53:44 EST 100 days of Christmas: Day Sedm 94 days until Christmas. <BR> <BR> <BR> The language is Czech. <BR> <BR> <BR> Today was a awesome day. I drove all by myself with no one by my side giving me instructions. So I feel awesome. Well my mother was near by. You see sometimes you get confidence by having someone right by you. Sometimes, you need encouragement from others to have confidence but sometimes you need to make some of your own. I felt totally comfortable. Which is the same way with losing weight you see people who ar... Fri, 21 Sep 2012 23:44:51 EST 100 days of Christmas: Day &#1064;&#1077;&#1089;&#1090;&#1100; (6 in Russian) Hello, there's 95 days until Christmas. One might ask how is possible to be 6 days and yet the number is 95. Well I started counting from 100. 100 (1) 99(2) 98(3) 97 (4) 96(5) 95 (6). <BR> <BR> I know it's weird but I have gotten that question from similar situations. <BR> <BR> Anywho, today was fun. I watch the NCIS preview. I wonder where's McGee. I hope he'll be fine. It starts Tuesday. Last season was good. This season I hope is better. <BR> <BR> Today has been one of my better days.... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 23:53:29 EST 100 days of Christmas: Day Viisi (5) 96 days until Christmas. <BR> <BR> Viisi is Finnish for 5. I don't know Finnish but I want to write every day in a different language preferably spelled in a different language. So far I written English, Spanish, French, German and now Finnish. Hopefully, I spelled five the right way. To me it sounds like Be-e-see. Not "be easy"which sounds different and means something else to people. Not a nice thing either. <BR> <BR> <BR> Today was a nice day, felt a bit chilly, but a good day. This... Wed, 19 Sep 2012 23:51:54 EST 100 days of Christmas: Day Quatre 97 Days until Christmas. <BR> <BR> I finished my essay. <em>224</em> I wonder what grade I'll get. I thought it was good. The rest is in God and the Professors hands. I hope it's at leas a B. Since it's still pretty early in the semester this will be a wake up call essay since he pretty much gave everyone a good grade for the first. <BR> <BR> I had a German test as well. I don't think I did as well but again another wake up call like test. <BR> <BR> Usually, when I think I did well; I d... Tue, 18 Sep 2012 23:51:19 EST 100 days of Christmas: Day Three 98 days until Christmas. <BR> <BR> I'm almost done with my essay over race and ethnicity. It can be a very complicated subject. You know not going off in a tangent and making it into an argument since my essay is not persuasive. <BR> <BR> Life seems hard right now. If I don't pass my English and German Class. I won't be able to study for a full year. So these essays can make or break me. Crap. GOD HAVE MERCY! <BR> <BR> I feel nervous just writing this. So I hope to at least make a C. <B... Mon, 17 Sep 2012 23:52:32 EST 100 days of Christmas: Day Zwei(2) By now you may have guessed that zwei is German for two. I love learning new languages. I have studied French and now German. I'm grew up speaking English and Spanish and I'm pretty fluent in both languages. Although I do have trouble with grammar in English and my accents in Spanish. <BR> <BR> <BR> I have a paper due Tuesday that I should be working on instead of doing this and a German exam as well. But I love the internet. <BR> <BR> <BR> ______________________________ <BR> <BR> <... Sun, 16 Sep 2012 23:57:24 EST 100 days of Christmas: Day Uno I've been here since the beginning of this year using Sparks People. I had a Sparks Teens account since 2009 then I moved over here at 18. I thought this year would be my year. I did lose some weight during the beginning of the year. January and February. Then I became really sick in March. Turned out to be a really bad reaction to pollen. Which I never really had allergies before. I became a little depressed, if you do not know what's wrong with you and your freaking out it will reap havok o... Sat, 15 Sep 2012 23:53:55 EST