MAVIEPOOH's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MAVIEPOOH MAVIEPOOH's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ 169 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5661724 but i feel like i have been released from food prision. I had a individual slice of indian nan bread and hedge hog mushroom soup it was so good. I just have to get onto the healthy train again. Tue, 1 Apr 2014 11:57:21 EST freaked out on scale this morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5643511 : ( almost cried i know i have been not getting as much exercise as normal because i have been doing a lot of work but wow the five pounds popped up and put me in the danger zone again 170 outrageous that has to go. I ate in restuarant yesterday so i will use tommorrows weight as the real one but still it is a wakeup call to not let it go any fruther and get it down. When you set a goal the idea is not to run as fast the OTHER direction as possible. scheese. <BR> Still know i worked out g... Sun, 9 Mar 2014 11:01:16 EST oh oh its only 10 am i have eaten 800 calories already http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5631620 : ( oh myyyy. Sure does put it in perspective when your trying to lose weight when you track your food. No WONDER I don't want to do it. No wonder I am not losing. <BR> Oh I will not go crazy today for the rest of the day. I realize I am unders some stress and that a little extra sometin sometin isn't going to break the bank but I am defiantely going to be more aware of what goes into my mouth. <BR> <BR> Chocalate macaroon cookies sorry but so worth it but not when your saying your tryi... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 12:58:05 EST technology love it hate it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5628095 so many cords all with different ends finding the right cord for my bodymedia and phone is rough because it gets mixed up with my husbands ones that fit but don't connect or charge. Just a little grrr. <BR> <BR> Ok as we all know I have been stabilized but stuck for months and months. I got discouraged and started eating to mood enhance so I am catching it QUICK and getting back on bandwagon. Lusting for a rowing machine. I am a fitness machine junkie and if I daily used everything I hav... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 08:36:17 EST 14,500 steps today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5623547 they replaced my defective bodymedia and I am glad to have it back. It makes me feel I am more in control if I can see for sure how much activity I did and pair that with food. Food still seems to be too iffy for me. I need to make a set breakfast lunch and dinner routine and stickt o it so I don't go off on wild tangents. <BR> Been having more of a sugar jones lately craving even crappy cookies. <BR> I am grateful I ahvent gained over the winter but I haven't lost either and need to quit ... Thu, 13 Feb 2014 23:18:21 EST STILL havent found the books ridiculous http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5619863 that said I have been making progress in other areas besides weightloss. I have gotten the front room cleared out of clutter and all table tops clear. Now to get to the kitchen. The bad weather has helped keep me inside and working and gene being ill has also kept us from going to town which gives me more time. <BR> <BR> I have been focusing on being happy in the moment and that seems to be making a big difference in my daily functioning. I AM happy most of the time and lose my temper or... Sun, 9 Feb 2014 22:37:33 EST after reviewing my goal board i realized i promised myself to be http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5596817 down to my goal weight of 125 before I reach my 66th birthday. I need to quit making excuses and just get back into ketosis if I am going to do that. It should have been a clue that I kept losing the books found one lost the other found that one lost the other. In talking with my friend lyssa yesterday she was saying your haven't reached your goal and its not healthy to carry around that extra weight. Talk to your dr and see about your concerns. You can modify enough without going off pr... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 10:00:57 EST 167 today so i felt better was scared it would have gone up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5593022 my lowest for a while was 164 so three pounds over the holidays isn't bad but considering I am doing medifast MOSTLY I should be losing not staying the same. <BR> I was ravenous during the day after my heavier workouts. I have been concerned about nutrition with the medifast because its all dehydrated processed food I am so much more comfortable with real food but also real food was keeping me at 188. <BR> <BR> Started adding some kombucha, kefir and will make some sauerkraut tomorrow. tha... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 23:02:31 EST did another mile on the treadmill today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5589706 there is definitely something wrong with its tracking it has a 1/4 mile track light and recorder but says its a mile before it goes around the track 4 times. I will put my other pedometer on and check it. Still considering I was hobbeling and excited when I actually walked up to the gate not that many months ago to be kicking it on the treadmill is awesome. <BR> Its a padded one so its easier on my feet than actual ground. Took the dogs for long walk uphill (not the best for my knees) bu... Fri, 10 Jan 2014 22:29:49 EST just got off treadmill where i tested to see how fast i could do a mile http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5582979 I thought I was really kicking it but then realize OMG what I had thought was a mile was 1/2 mile because of how my treadmill reads. : ( ratz so going on for twice what I had been I made it and though AWESOME sweating breathing hard only to find I test poor for my age group. <BR> <BR> well live and learn. Have to work harder. <BR> Sun, 5 Jan 2014 12:44:18 EST ok thank GOD the holidays are over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5575431 I over indulged in chocolate cookies ect and it reflected in the scale. I am 168 this morning and don't have the heart to change my weight ticker. " ( that's ok I am back on track and stronger as far as I walked a mile n the treadmill yesterday and cranked it up to 5 miles per hour till my heart rate was really up there and I am not in pain today. I can tell my body is saying don't do it again today until my legs get stronger but not the crushing pain like before. A couple of water weigh... Mon, 30 Dec 2013 09:35:05 EST big changes in life all coming sort of at once http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5552066 my response to anger yesterday was to go out and eat and it was not a pleasant experience the food was nasty and unsatisfying and then came home and made a martini woke up with a nasty taste in mouth and achy stomach. I guess I learned that I have changed and the old coping mechanisms don't work anymore. I can't tolerate the dehydration that comes with alcohol and crappy food is not a "treat". <BR> <BR> Have to think of better ways to self sooth. On a positive note I did take karma out an... Thu, 28 Nov 2013 08:41:40 EST vacilating 3 pounds up three pounds down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5548315 164 lowest weight. I am wearing my bodymedia and it love that it lets me see my sleep cycles and man I am getting my steps in for sure. I guess even with the medifast I have to do more to get this lard off me. <BR> <BR> My belly is jelly. <BR> <BR> trying to stay in the moment and positive. Why do we like to whine so much. Its amazing. Today is Saturday and probably the pool cover will be done and maybe the whole building whoot whoot. Its freeeeezzzing so I am not going to be able to ... Sat, 23 Nov 2013 09:53:16 EST update photo 6 days till i am 65 spent the day riding : ) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5534398 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1156218542.jpg"> <BR> well some progress and it feels good : ) I am starting to believe its actually possible to return to my healthy weight goal. For years I didn't believe it could happen now I am believing it. Wed, 6 Nov 2013 23:18:01 EST 164 ! Whoot whoot http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5523788 that means only 29 more pounds to go to be at 135 or 39 to be at 125 which is my ideal weight. I don't know if at 65 shooting for 125 is a good idea we will see as we get closer. I have been working a LOT lots of shoveling and walking the dogs. No official exercise. I am missing my yoga and can't wait to get started again but thats not till i get that pool cover up which god willing should happen this weekend. <BR> <BR> Needless to say feeling positive and encouraged. Sat, 26 Oct 2013 10:13:22 EST going for female exam today first time in two years http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5522152 I am down 30 pounds since the last time she saw me I wonder if she will notice. : ) my knees feel so much better and I have 30 to go. For the first time I looked in the mirror and actually BELIEVED I could reach goal. Another overbooked busy day but at least I wont have to have gene complaining all day and that's a blessing. His pain level is high and his willingness to try things besides taking drugs is zero. I keep telling him that we could do to tamarack and try some water stuff but h... Thu, 24 Oct 2013 10:09:15 EST OMG 166 this morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5520233 i must have been bloated yesterday when i weighed at 170 that means i did lose a pound last month which isnt the four pounds i should have lost but at least not a complete stand still. I will work on being more on target with my plan and eating i havent been eating my greens with my lean and green meal. I believe getting under 167 means i am no longer OBESE i am just overweight. My next goal is to be normal weight that means under 135 thats only 32 more pounds whoot whoot. I love sparkpeo... Tue, 22 Oct 2013 10:43:22 EST up on scale : ( OMG i havent been perfect but have been good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5519190 I am stuck for two months now obviously I am out of ketosis. I can't keep paying for this program if I can't make it work for me. This will be my last month unless I can get back on track. : ( . I have been working like a banshee here and I am pretty sure that this is water except that this "water" has been hanging around for a month. Its time to revaluate. Mon, 21 Oct 2013 09:10:27 EST ocams razor http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5518505 when there is no explanation then find the simpliest explanation <BR> hmmm can't wrap my head around that. I am listening to depak chopra he has such and amazing mind I can't always follow his logic. <BR> Worked so hard yesterday my feet were sore but feeling good today took a hot bath and ready to hit it again. <BR> I will weight tommorrow Sun, 20 Oct 2013 12:47:10 EST waist down to 33 whoot whoot http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5516898 didn't weigh because I don't want to be depressed or obsessed with a number so I just went back to measuring for a while. <BR> <BR> Been at drs with husband almost every day this week and each time its a 100 miles of driving and a full day. It frustrates me to lose these precious beautiful warm autum days in the car but at least I am seeing the beautiful trees. <BR> <BR> On a positive note I advertised on our local craigslist for someone to help keep my horses exercised and GOT A GOOD pe... Fri, 18 Oct 2013 11:18:24 EST WOKE UP to broken bodymeida holder AGAIN http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5506942 the little plastic holder part cracked. They are sending me two as a replacement but I think its frustrating. I do love the tracking don't love th3 8 a month looking forward to the sparkpeople tracker but waiting till the app comes out and getting reviews first. I spent a lot of time being a first to get it techy and it usually is best to wait. <BR> <BR> Been slipping a little actually no weight loss last month and on medifast that is ridiculous. I miss some of my old favorites like k... Mon, 7 Oct 2013 11:47:57 EST i want to thak everyone who has contacted me from my blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5502315 when you live rural and have a lot of responsibilities sometimes getting girlfriend time gets pushed back on the burner. Having some personal contact besides my husband is really refreshing to me thank you for taking the time. It really picks me up I also love to see your thoughts on your journeys to wellness. <BR> <BR> Now that I am losing I realize how I was in denial about how dangerous the excess fat was. Since I was earing healthy (too many calories too much starches) I thought well... Wed, 2 Oct 2013 09:53:15 EST that eye thing is what they call a chalazion http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5499157 its a blocked oil duct the feeds oil to the eyeball to keep it from drying out. The treatment was hot compresses it had turned into cellulitus so I had to take antibiotics oral and eye drops but that doesn't eliminate the blockage only hot compresses do that I am working on that five times a day. When it was bad the bags under my eyes g ot big and the whole area was wrinkly like I aged 50 years. They are down some now but the under eye bags are still larger than normal : ( Still its goo... Sun, 29 Sep 2013 09:41:57 EST 167.5 wow i love it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5493595 that means only 42.5 more pounds till goal 125 OMG it was 70 pounds for so long its so rewarding to finally see it approaching. Truth be told I started this journey at 237 20 years ago and have been searching and working and doing just about everything I could so its really 70 pounds I have lost just its a 20 year process! <BR> The medifast is so doable I am a big fan now because I can DO IT where as I was struggling with Dr. Furhman's weightloss plan. Eating the Furhman way I could mainta... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 09:17:50 EST wow 3rd day with my right eye swollen looks like i played rocky http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5480414 in the movie off to dr today hope its not celluitus maybe its just a blocked duct. Keeping on keeping on. Watched Secret millionaire and it was strange seeing so many people we know on tv. I didn't think they distributed the money well but it was sweet of them to hand out money at all. I didn't get any because I live outside of town. <BR> Did a riverraft trip this weekend it was totally awesome if anyone comes through oakridge go ahead and do it because its fun and not scary at all. <B... Mon, 9 Sep 2013 10:14:16 EST i signed up for a weightloss competition and found it was a http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5477706 negative trigger for me it made me feel that i wouldnt win anyway so why even try. Wow its interesting when you see your stinking thinking outloud. My TSL coach (one of two) said she lost 40 pounds in 4 months if i could do that i would be at goal befor next year. Amazing lets see is the math right OMG i am only 44 pounds away from goal! I can't believe it it was 70 lbs for so long! OK more energized and will keep on going and stop thinking so much. wow 44 lbs i can pick that up! I get... Fri, 6 Sep 2013 11:18:28 EST 2 piggy days wow what am i up to http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5474153 I keep trying to get on track and get side tracked so easy. Actually drove 50 miles just to get a nice dinner. OK tomorrow morning no more messing around. <BR> <BR> There are some women here in town that are causing me a lot of grief. Its so ridiculous. I am ignoring them and hope that is enough to stop their negativity. <BR> <BR> Tue, 3 Sep 2013 01:54:33 EST 169 OMG! out of the 70's http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5472168 but I ate like a little piggy today could it be that I was afraid of success? I am back on track now. Used a block party as an excuse to eat potato chips soda peanuts and I just signed up for a weighloss challenge. <BR> It is a little interesting to see yourself doing things like that. I am not depressed about it I enjoyed every moment of the party and I will just be more aware next time. <BR> <BR> Gene left early because he doesn't feel well I am so sorry he is feeling so poorly. There ... Sun, 1 Sep 2013 00:43:01 EST feeling a little lonely today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5464527 been working hard in the garden and house and not having much girlfriend contact I miss my yoga gals. Twice a week we had an hour and a half of great positive time. Hopefully putting up the cover over the pool will allow me to have the classes here and not have to deal with stupid landlady's. <BR> God willing. Didn't eat perfect today but still pretty good in guidelines. Don't think I am in ketosis but not in hunger mode either. I had a McDonald hamburger (bad bad) at lunch small one and... Sat, 24 Aug 2013 00:06:51 EST 171.5 this morning after going out for breakfast and anniversary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5463533 I was shocked as I ate potato bacon ect and went off diet. Still happy and back on eating program. I have to remember that I am not ever going to get everything done and I have to make taking care of my SELF a priority not something I do in my spare time. I emember someone saying to me MAVIS YOU TAKE BETTER CARE OF A STRAY CAT THAN YOU DO OF YOURSELF. She had my number and I realized it was true. Wow big lightening storm. I better go make my dinner before the power goes out. Thu, 22 Aug 2013 22:27:02 EST wonderful book the unthethered soul http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5442111 it talks about how keeping your center of happiness no matter what the external does is so critical to staying on your path. I am loving it highly recommend. <BR> My physical journey continues, still a lot of pain in left leg all the way to the hip. Looking for a good chiropractor just feel if I got it set in place it would feel better feels like it is slightly out of alignment. Hope that's so. <BR> Weight 173 and going down yeah baby so stoked thinking that I will be in the sixties next... Fri, 2 Aug 2013 10:13:41 EST struggling with my left knee AGAIN http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5419671 turned wrong on gravel and took a spill now that knee is skinned up and I am walking like chester in gunsmoke again. I keep hurting my legs. Whats going on. <BR> <BR> Life has been incredibly challenging like on all fronts negativity decided to dump everything at once. Literally all fronts. Though I have held center I would be lying if I said it didn't bother me. <BR> <BR> The life that loomed of being sick and sore and physically inable was abhorant to me. I am doing everything poss... Sat, 13 Jul 2013 10:00:19 EST 175 today on scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5417809 been a little light headed if I don't eat enough in morning. I really need to make sure I have the bars with me if I go out. I will switch the program to a 4 and 2 four medifast meals and two lean and greens when I get into the 60's. Its one and a half months and I have gone from 188 to 175 thirteen pounds of fat gone. I HOPE ITS ALL FAT and not that precious muscle Thu, 11 Jul 2013 11:52:38 EST 178 on scale today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5401359 first time in many years that I have broken the 180 platue! I am a happy camper and finally believe that it is possible to reach my goal. OMG finally and loking forward to being stronger healthier and happier each day : ) Tue, 25 Jun 2013 12:38:13 EST so its one month today and i have lost 8 pounds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5399248 I am very happy with my progress and I don't think that without the the medifast I would have been able to lose ANYTHING. Whatever magic this is doing wether its the complete nutrition they talk about the lack of carbs or caloires finally something is working. Is it for everyone NO. I knew how many calories I was eating I knew how much exercise I did and it was not adding up. I got the bodymedia device and tracked my activity and food still the weight was not budging. I fully expect to b... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 15:23:29 EST 180 yesterday morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5396118 thank god something is finally working and I am feeling very well, not weak, not starving and enough energy to live my life. <BR> <BR> As I type I am listening Collete Baron Reed talking about her weightloss program for people who feel too much. A lot of what she is saying is things I already tried like the total vibration machine. I realize that I am an intuitive empathy and that self care if not a luxury but a necessity for me. There are none of us that don't need to work on our inner s... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 09:31:19 EST started on may 22 so this is 3 weeks and 3 days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5386490 I have lost from 188 to 182 so six pounds in almost a month. Great. I would like it to have been more like 10 but I knew I was weight loss resistant. I have to really focus on staying on the medifast program. I miss cooking but I have to say I am not starving and eating many times a day does seem to make me feel better I don't have those energy swings. <BR> <BR> I have to lose 47 pounds just to be not overweight I would really like to get to 125 which was my weight when I came out of the... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 01:35:30 EST losing the pounds of pain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5373587 if you haven't read Doreen Virtues book of the same name you really should. I had a vivid dream of beating the crap out of my xhusband and x best friend I wont go into details but I think you can put the picture together. This is 35 years ago I have been married 31 years to my current husband yet when the weight started coming off I have this pop up in my brain. I really think we store stuff in our bodies and when we start to lose weight we need to process the emotions and feelings that ar... Fri, 31 May 2013 11:37:14 EST 184 on scale this morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5370191 finally something is working to make it move. If you have worked as hard as I have at trying to get the weight off and KNOW your not eating crap working out and still have been stalled for two years at some point you have to say ok I need help. I started medifast and hard as it is its doable and its working. <BR> <BR> I haven't lost enough to make my knees happy yet but I am hopefull, Sometimes y ou just have to say ok this isn't working its time to try another road. Tue, 28 May 2013 09:56:14 EST day 3 i weighed this morning 186 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5367439 the first time the scale has budged in ages. This is the famous 3rd day when after this I will not be hungry and have lots of energy. Hoping hoping hoping. Left leg very store behind the knee on the hamstring. I was on my feet more than I wanted yesterday and did the recumbent bike. Would love a day in town to water walk at the Tamarack wellness center. Food wise last night I had shrimp and veggies for my lean and green meal. It was a lot more protein than I was used to eating gave me... Sat, 25 May 2013 10:01:26 EST ok day two on medifast http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5367153 this morning I managed to screw up the pancakes they turned out more like bubbly mystery stuff but I did manage to stay on the diet and wasn't that hungry I had the one lean and green meal 7 oz of shrimp boiled with 2 cups of veggies sautéed in tomato juice. It was quite tasty. I am surprised how this tiny tiny amount of food keeps me from being hungry. Eating every two hours then went four hours to dinner. One thing I relearned hunger is definitely the best sauce. <BR> I was on my feet w... Fri, 24 May 2013 22:39:45 EST gorp corporate package foodlike substance filled with excitoxins http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5365684 and that's what medifast is and I am on day one. I always had this image that someday we would all be eating gorp in a tube instead of real food and guess what here it is I am on day one of medifast and it is gorp Obviously I am not a happy camper its against every thing I believe about health nutrition and healthy eating yet here I am actually four years out from my weight loss stuck at same weight and now doing medifast. I had to do something my dr recommended this so god willing it will... Thu, 23 May 2013 12:47:43 EST ok after two years of being in a 5 pound swing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5365105 and needing to get the fat off to avoid knee surgery I have gone on Medifast both my drs recommended it. I am not happy that I couldn't make furhman work his work really really makes sense to me but I just couldn't do it. Sounds stupid. I am hoping that this will do it and I can finally drop this 60 pounds and life a happier lighter more physically fit life. start tommmorrow morning will keep you posted Wed, 22 May 2013 22:51:51 EST working so hard getting my steps in but no budging on the scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5335212 I would be lying if I said it wasn't frustrating. I eat so healthy and work so hard what am I missing? I could be better on water, I could be better on meditation. Missing my yoga class. Almost wishing I hadn't gotten frustrated and left the center but really having someone come into your class and SCREAM at you. No that's not right. Its not my fault that place was bad. Still miss the girls and the automatic workouts. <BR> <BR> Doing Jillian micheals and bike when I have the energy, ... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 11:12:20 EST got my 3 months of spark coach with preorder of book http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5331663 looking forward to 3 months of fitness and fun <BR> and exploring what works for a healthy future Mon, 22 Apr 2013 11:34:11 EST get way too distracted by work and projects on the place http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5327363 yesterday was hectic, pickup compost for garden, have chicken coop addition built, cook (oops it was a delicious but cheese laden mac and cheese) ((had cheese I had to use or lose)) . Its wasn't a really Unhealthy but not an engine2 receipe. <BR> <BR> Rode with Lyssa, Karma is doing so well we have really turned a corner in her confidence. <BR> <BR> I guess I have to accept that better is all I am going to get not best. Did workout for 30 minutes on recumbent. In town today dr appoin... Thu, 18 Apr 2013 09:16:25 EST day 2 of engine2 diet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5321713 made ghnocci for the first time yesterday and in the tomato basil soup it was totally awesome almost shocking that it is good for you. Had that and a salad with salsa instead of dressing. I used gluten free flour mix for ghnocci.. <BR> <BR> Worked really hard all day so I didn't workout. Leg is bothering me debating about going back to dr but afraid to because all he says is lose weight lose weight like if I just stopped eating pizza for dinner every night or didn't watch tv all day. She... Sat, 13 Apr 2013 10:59:11 EST I am slipping up too many times http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5320323 Its like I have weightloss amnesia when I get around food! I eat nicely almost all day then in the afternoon I totally lose it and have an icecream drumstick then junk at night. Its too crazy. Some positive things are I am using my armband for the bodymedia and getting my steps in what I need to do is stop acting like someone else is going to cook my meals because I am too busy. <BR> <BR> My feet were so sore today I had to take a pain pill and it worked so I got some more work done and pu... Fri, 12 Apr 2013 02:00:27 EST holding my own http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5297065 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/1/l515139148.jpg"> <BR> I paniced after reading the scale going up and was going to do the medifast to get this weight off, then I read the medifast posting on sparkpeople and realized I am nuts. Sure its hard on my knees but why if I can't lose it eating good healthy food and exercising every day would I think that prepackaged crap will do it. It reaffirmed my commitment to health and I am going to go on dr furhman again hoping that this tim... Sat, 23 Mar 2013 10:32:20 EST done the jillian i like some of the exercises but.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5294785 my shoulder is sore from using the weights, my bad leg is achy from all the lunges (believe me I am modifying) this is workout level 1. I promised my friend Lyssa that if I couldn't make progress in these two weeks I would try Medifast but I am freaking out about even thinking of doing it. The reasoning would be to take the weight off my knees fast the downside is every time I have done any low calorie diet I put the weight back on. <BR> <BR> My waists is down but my weight is up. Defi... Thu, 21 Mar 2013 09:50:49 EST