MASELY's SparkPeople Blog MASELY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Unsticking On paper I have a lot of reasons/excuses as to why it has been so difficult to lose weight. The death of my mother, the dissolution of my marriage, starting a new life alone, the illness and death of my difficult father...all good reasons I can give. The depression during my divorce was profound and difficult. But at the end of the day, I have changed from the person I was and moved towards the person I am now and closer to the person I want to be. I'm trying to 'unlearn' some behaviors a... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 16:15:09 EST How soon is now, anyway? Coming back into this process after the death of my dad and regaining the 10lbs I'd lost. I go back to the part where I seem to be able to track and eat pretty closely to the goals. Now the hard part of incorporating the exercise. It's been success with one or the other, eating healthy or exercising, but putting them both together has been a real sticking point for me. Today I started my period, which came with the associated headache, dopeyness and kicking me off my goal of getting up an... Wed, 12 Dec 2012 11:29:30 EST Holding on to the hard things lightly An acquaintance recently told me that life gets easier when you learn to make space for the things that cause you distress. Stress, anxiety, sadness, loss...all the things that tend to derail me. I've spent most of my life being overweight. At my heaviest, I weighed 324. That was some years ago. I was down to 208 2 years ago and I'm holding steady at 215 - 225 right now. In the last 5 years I've been through the passing of my mother, a divorce and last week the passing of my father. I... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 13:43:19 EST Fake it 'til you make it I seem to be able to watch what I'm eating, OR exercise with some regularity, but not both at the same time. Trying hard to put it all together. Fri, 9 Nov 2012 20:00:36 EST