MARY1964's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MARY1964 MARY1964's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Good/frustrating day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5865563 I went to the pool again today and I tread water for an hour. There was a lady there who taught me some water exercises also which was nice. So I did some crunches and some leg lifts and some weight work. My abs are feeling it and my body is overall tired. <BR> <BR> This is all very exciting and I'm really enjoying the water activity, I love swimming. My dietitian suggested 30 minutes a day three days a week but I've decided that since it's low impact I will try to do it every day. We will ... Thu, 29 Jan 2015 22:53:35 EST Good day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5864700 I finally worked up the nerve and join the Y. I did 45 minutes of water cardio today. I also joined a Wednesday night class that I will start next week. Friday I will go and observe another class to see if I can do it. Wed, 28 Jan 2015 18:48:40 EST Well not the best day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5863349 I went slightly over my high number in calories today. I just couldn't resist. I made a roast with carrots, potatoes and celery and it smelled so good I just had to have a little taste. Who'd have thought it would be so high in calories! OH well I'll plan for it next time. <BR> <BR> I have to say though it was very flavorful if a teensy bit salty for my taste. I used beef broth and I salted the chuck as well and I don't usually cook with salt but I felt this needed it. Next time I'll use low... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 22:50:17 EST Another non scale victory day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862485 For as long as I can remember I have had trouble walking or standing for more than five minutes. It starts a dull ache in my lower back then it goes to small spasms, then progresses to numbness in my leg, followed by larger spasms and moderate pain followed by pretty much unbearable pain where I have to find a place to sit and relieve it. As this pain and the spasms get worse I start to sweat and sway my back to alleviate the pressure which exacerbates it. <BR> <BR> I avoid grocery stores... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 20:49:52 EST Cooking and food prep http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861241 I cleaned out my refrigerator and freezer today. I threw out a lot of freezer stuff that I should have cooked and didn't. I am starting to cook all of the proteins I purchased yesterday now and freezing the rest. I bought a LOT of meat! Four fryers, twelve chicken breasts, twelve top cut pork chops, (both of which butterflied are 4 oz each so 24 portions of chicken and 24 portions of chops), and a chuck roast. I'm going to cook two of the fryers tomorrow in the slow cookers so I can pull the... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 21:51:03 EST Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860608 I walked for three hours without sitting. This is huge for me. No spasms and no swearing and no panic because I could feel my back giving out. I just focussed on my breathing and my posture, leaned when I could, propped my foot on a shelf or cart to ease the tension and stretched as I was able. I definitely had tightness in my upper and lower back and some muscle tension in my calves. That's a big fat win for me. We went to Costco and my mom wanted to order hot dogs and sodas but when we ... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 22:24:51 EST Weigh in - day early http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860149 I am spending the night at my moms house so I weighed early. Since 12/18 I have lost 18 pounds. Pretty happy with myself right now. I'm going to keep on keeping on! My mom wants to have a hot dog and a hot pretzel for lunch today and it's kind of a ritual so I'm going with it. This is a lifestyle change so I have to throw out the rules once in a while. Have a great day I know I will! Thu, 22 Jan 2015 09:40:53 EST One day fast http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5858079 I tried a one day fast yesterday. I had a snack of grapes at 10:00 PM Saturday night and went to bed. Sunday I drank nothing but water the whole day and then at 10:00 PM Sunday night I had a small meal of fruit and a grilled chicken wrap. I don't feel any different really but the point was to try to let my stomach "heal". <BR> <BR> I'm back on a plan today. I had turkey bacon, scrambled eggs with veggies and fresh fruit for breakfast with a cup of hot cocoa. SO good! I'm going to do my be... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 16:43:21 EST Non scale victory http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5856818 i went to the movies tonight with my friend. I packed a container with frozen grapes and brought a bottle of water. My friend had a big soda and nachos and even though those nachos smelled amazing I was perfectly content with my grapes. I ate them one at a time and chewed each one thirty times. I had some left over when I left the theater. I'm feeling pretty good right now. :-) Sun, 18 Jan 2015 00:44:48 EST Mini rant http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5856544 It really annoys me when people look at me and assume that I have an uncontrollable relationship with food. I am not a food addict. My weight is not the result of a food addiction. Look I like food and the wrong foods at that but I get so sick of people looking at me with that slanted head, furrowed brow BS concern on their faces and say things like "I know I know food addiction is a really tough thing" when I just told them about my plan which has nothing to do with addiction. <BR> <BR> I ... Sat, 17 Jan 2015 16:09:47 EST Whoa http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5855995 I am extremely obese. There is no way around it, that is my reality. I'm so heavy that my doctor said that no matter how hard I work at it I will not be able to lose weight without surgery. As much as I like him I do not agree with him and am going to work very hard to prove him wrong. I only have a couple more months here so I don't see the need to change doctors until I get to New York but were I staying here I would definitely move on. There is a Nurse Practitioner there however who is sup... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 19:34:39 EST Friday morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5855761 Okay just to get back on my program I weighed myself this morning. So my official weight loss from 12/18 to 1/16 or my first month of healthy eating choices is 14 pounds. Today I'm heading out to lunch with another friend but a salad is on the horizon. 😄 I'm feeling pretty good about this so far. Fri, 16 Jan 2015 12:05:30 EST Weigh in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5853939 I have been weighing myself at work and since my last day was Friday I can't do that anymore. I invested in a scale. Just to be on the safe side I weighed myself before I left Friday and it matches what my home scale said. So as of today I have lost 13 pounds in a little more than three weeks. Not bad. I was going to update my weight tracker on Friday but I forgot. It was ten pounds then. <BR> <BR> I'm not eating enough to get to my minimum calories because my schedule is all out of whack.... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 00:07:05 EST Weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5846819 Well I had a pity party weekend and ate once a day and badly at that. I'm back on track today though. One of my co-workers stopped by to talk for a few minutes and inspired me to eat the veggies I have in the refrigerator vs. running out to grab something fast food. Thank you for that. :) <BR> <BR> I had fast food breakfast but that stops today too. It's not that difficult to boil eggs for goodness sake! I even have an egg genie to make it even easier! Anyway today will turn okay overall b... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 15:58:55 EST Holidays over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5840582 My daughter is on her way to the airport now to fly home. I hate saying good bye to her but this time is different because she said "See you soon" and that was music to my ears. In March I will be moving to New York and we will be within a couple of hours of each other vs halfway across the country. It still doesn't make it easier to put her on a plane but at least it won't be another six months before I get to see her again. <BR> <BR> I'm feeling much better this week than last week. I didn... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 12:36:06 EST Eight pounds down since 12/18 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5837845 I know it's mostly water but I'm glad to see it go nonetheless. I have stopped eating junk and fast food (for the most part). Despite my resolve to get healthy my body wasn't listening and I ended up sick again this weekend. I've spent the last three days basically taking cold medicine and sleeping. I'm at work today but only for a half day to get some things done before Christmas. Doctor says it's a virus so there's nothing they can give me. Mucinex and Delsym as of now. <BR> <BR> My daught... Wed, 24 Dec 2014 07:45:37 EST Re-set my goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5835017 I have been really stuck in a rut. I didn't realize how bad it had gotten until one of my friends said "You've sure been sick a lot lately" on Sunday. I realized that I have been sick a lot, tired a lot, irritable a lot etc. I also have developed psoriasis on my arms and the back of my neck and the doctor thinks it is stress induced. I didn't want to admit it but I think I have to. I'm not dealing as well with losing my job and moving on to bigger and better things as I thought I was. <BR> <... Thu, 18 Dec 2014 16:46:29 EST Small victory http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5798849 I went out to lunch because one of my team is leaving today. It was sad and bittersweet but I planned my food and I ordered what I planned. I had one small piece of bread and left the rest there. This is a victory for me because usually I order a mushroom burger and fries at this place. I don't like fries much any more but I do like this place's fries. <BR> <BR> Anyway I had a grilled chicken salad tossed with wing sauce and no dressing and I enjoyed every single bite! Wed, 15 Oct 2014 17:58:31 EST Catching up with myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5798229 I'm slowing down so I can catch up with myself. It seems I've been experiencing one thing after another this year. This weekend I went shopping and bought healthy foods. I cooked on Sunday and I'm set for the week. Yesterday and today I skipped lunch mostly because by the time I realized what time it was it was really too late to eat. That makes me lowish on the calories but I'm going to get back on track. I'm tracking everything regardless. <BR> <BR> So we'll see how we do ... this time a... Tue, 14 Oct 2014 18:19:51 EST Ahh! So much food! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5768174 I have to consume a lot of calories to get to my minimum and it reminds me of why my metabolism is so ridiculous. It seems like I'm constantly eating ... well because I am. :) I eat about every two hours when I'm eating right. I haven't actually gotten back to that yet but I'm working at it. <BR> <BR> Right now I'm baking some apples and blueberries in the microwave and I'm going to add a little crunch with some Natures Path cereal THEN I still have to eat a bag of popcorn before I leave.... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 15:22:36 EST Vacation over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5766789 I did okay not going crazy with the food. Now this week I'm stepping it up. I skipped breakfast today which I know is a bad thing but I just didn't feel that great. I have a bit of a headache and it's causing me to feel a bit off. <BR> <BR> For lunch I had leftovers from dinner last night. I went to this Mediterranean place for dinner because I wanted a lentil salad. I thought that was the place I had seen one on the menu but it was not. So I ended up ordering falafel and chicken shwarma... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 14:28:46 EST Life ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5763162 What can I say? Life got in the way. Ever since I found out my company was being sold and I was going to be out of a job at the end of this year I have been working more hours than ever before. The company sold on 8/1 and I spent the last two weeks just getting all the reports etc out of the way and establishing new processes for me and my team to work with the transitional team. <BR> <BR> This week I'm on vacation. When I go back next week I'm committed to working 40 hour weeks - in at ... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 21:04:13 EST Friday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5727132 It has been a long week. With my company being sold and me being out of a job sometime later in the year (no date yet) things are pretty stressful but I'm doing my best to deal with them. I hate not knowing my own future, it's just so scary. I'm having dinner with two of my work friends tonight and I'm very much looking forward to that. I'm hoping to spend some time with my family this weekend if things aren't too crazy for everyone. <BR> <BR> I have a lot of work to do and a lot of discipli... Fri, 27 Jun 2014 12:38:20 EST Been missing in action for a while http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5722312 1 - MRI - no major issues other than the arthritis so that's good. I'm taking more medication for pain and some additional muscle relaxers etc and getting PT. The PT guy is helping me to improve my posture, build up my abdominal and hip flexor muscles and overall change how I walk and stand. It is not easy but I'm doing it. I can't work out until he gives me the "okay" and he's not thrilled with my slow progress. I do see a difference. (feel really) <BR> <BR> 2 - Where have I been? Well ... Fri, 20 Jun 2014 18:06:45 EST MRI http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5686631 So I did it. I went and had an MRI on Friday night. It wasn't an open one like they said. It was larger though so it didn't feel quite as restrictive. I was in for half an hour and I was pretty much ok. I'm glad it's over. <BR> <BR> I will get the results on the 15th. I'm tired and sore today but it's nice so I am taking short walks Sat, 3 May 2014 18:10:30 EST Couldn't do it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5683487 I have been re-scheduled for an open MRI for I guess Friday. <BR> <BR> I'm upset about it but it is what it is. I guess I felt like I couldn't breathe. <BR> <BR> Tue, 29 Apr 2014 20:29:49 EST MRI day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5683095 Nervous as hell. I picked up the Valium last night and it was supposed to be two. One for an hour before and the second right before the procedure. The doctor only called one in. I need things to go exactly as planned or I'm going to freaking lose it. <BR> <BR> Okay time to go. Tue, 29 Apr 2014 11:06:18 EST Weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5682295 Wow! This is kind of huge. <BR> <BR> On Saturday I got up bright and early and went to the Farmers Market. (Thanks for the suggestion again Snowmaiden) I walked around for a while and sat when my back started to hurt. I met a friend there and we shopped together. She was patient about my having to rest my back which made it nice. After I bought my produce I went to Target, the grocery store and the butcher. Then I went and put away all my stuff, took a shower and headed out for the night. ... Mon, 28 Apr 2014 10:47:20 EST Hmm four days off plan and four pounds gained http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5680269 Not exactly sure how that's possible to be honest. I really didn't follow the plan but I didn't go crazy and consume tons of calories either. <BR> <BR> Well stress does cause me to retain weight or it has historically anyway and this week has been rough. We'll see what next week brings after I've had an opportunity to process all of this stuff happening with my back. I have the MRI Tuesday afternoon. <BR> <BR> I'm in a funk today so I don't have much to say. Or I guess more aptly I have a ... Fri, 25 Apr 2014 13:22:46 EST Well four days off plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5679450 I'm not thrilled with myself. I'm pretty sure I've undone some of the good. I just kept giving myself permission with every bite. I have to say it wasn't worth it. I feel bloated and swollen and my stomach isn't feeling so hot this morning. I'm sure a lot of the stomach upset is the new medications I'm taking so I'm not going to stress too much about that. I'm going to give myself ten days to get accustomed to the medication then see where we are. <BR> <BR> Eating healthy however starts tod... Thu, 24 Apr 2014 11:51:09 EST Vacation over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5678654 and it might be a good thing since even though I stayed okay on caloric intake my ratios were very off. Lots of fats. <BR> <BR> I guess we'll see how badly or how much damage I've done in the next week or so. <BR> <BR> My appointment with the pain management doctor was really good. There's a lot for me to process so I'll wait until I've slogged through it all before I blog about it. <BR> <BR> I'm on three more "all the time" meds which irritates me but I'm optimistic that there is a li... Wed, 23 Apr 2014 11:39:01 EST Easter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5677133 Well I ate what I wanted but in moderation. I made and brought spinach artichoke dip and everyone loved it but I stayed away from it for the most part. I had dinner with the family and then later that night at home I snacked on fresh veggies. All in all I think it was a success although my ratios were screwy. <BR> <BR> My younger sister is a force to be reckoned with on any given day. I wish we were closer but we haven't been for a very long time. She keeps me at arms length and I have to r... Mon, 21 Apr 2014 13:57:47 EST Rough night http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5675717 Well I can say that my first three weeks were great. Yesterday was all planned things were going good and I had an emotional upset. Just like always I reverted to give myself permission to eat badly. I used to deny that I had an emotional eating issue but that ship has sailed. <BR> <BR> So here I am on the other side of it - sleepless night, lots of introspection, some self-justification and I'm back on track. I have to keep telling myself that I can backslide and it will be okay. One bad d... Sat, 19 Apr 2014 12:37:02 EST Week 3 weight check in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5675045 Normally my weekly weigh in day is Monday. I'm not going to be here at the office (where the scale is) on Monday so I'm making today this week's weigh in day. As a matter of fact I've just this moment decided that starting this week Fridays will become my weigh in day. I think it's better this way anyway because if I'm going to carry extra water weight it's going to be from a weekend of not enough water and higher sodium content foods. Fridays will be a more realistic (and favorable let's fac... Fri, 18 Apr 2014 11:43:33 EST Avocados http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5674312 I love avocados but in order to eat clean I have to buy them whole and wait for them to ripen and I never quite know when the perfect time to cut into them is and they have such a short time when they are just perfect. This morning I had half an avocado that was just a little past the perfect stage with my eggs and sausage and it was good but it would have been better yesterday. <BR> <BR> Allergy season is upon us. I had to take a Zyrtec last night not for the hives but so I could breath. I ... Thu, 17 Apr 2014 11:25:48 EST Breakfast! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673465 This is the best batch of turkey breakfast sausage patties I've made yet. The problem is I didn't measure anything, I just kind of threw in a bunch of stuff. I bought fennel seed just for the sausage too and forgot to put it in. <BR> Next time I'm measuring and writing down everything I put in it. I just hope I can re-create these. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/1/l617280199.jpg"> <em>4</em> Wed, 16 Apr 2014 10:09:19 EST "Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5672721 Have you heard about this documentary? I watched it last night (well most of it, I fell asleep during the last part) and I was so impressed. I'm going to try to re-watch what I missed tonight. Very inspiring. <BR> <BR> This very nice man from Australia goes on a sixty day doctor supervised juice fast. Actually his doctor on this adventure was Joel Fuhrman who I'd heard of before. I'm not sure I'm prepared to do a sixty day juice fast but I feel like maybe a ten day one when I hit my first pl... Tue, 15 Apr 2014 10:37:28 EST Weigh in - Week 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5671905 Five pounds more for a total of eleven pounds since 3/31/14. I know this kind of weight loss won't continue but it sure is nice to have it now. I was actually hoping for a nice even number like twelve. <BR> <BR> I'm very pleased with myself today. Mon, 14 Apr 2014 10:14:07 EST Burned my beans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5671597 I think my slow cooker is broken. It's okay though I just threw them out and will try again with my other slow cooker. I went to dinner at my moms house today. That was nice. She's a great cook. <BR> <BR> I really wanted ice cream but I pushed the craving back and drove home without stopping. I'm pretty proud of myself for that. <BR> <BR> Sun, 13 Apr 2014 23:07:59 EST Let the cooking commence! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5671177 My creation black bean gumbo has begun! I cannot wait to smell those smells in my house. In a half hour I will throw in the meat and get on my way to errand running. Yum! Sun, 13 Apr 2014 13:09:31 EST Best friends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5671159 I spent some quality time with my very best friend in the world last night. We sat and talked and enjoyed the beautiful evening. We caught up on each other's lives and just took time to re-new and re-group. I am so lucky to have such a wonderful person in my life. Everyone should have a friend who is there through it all supportive and encouraging but also there to throw up the stop sign if we get out of control. <BR> <BR> She is my person. We have known each other since we were fourteen yea... Sun, 13 Apr 2014 12:34:14 EST My journey ... not yours http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670596 I think everyone here is on a journey but we all have to figure out what works best to keep us on the right path so we end up where we set out to go. We will, most of us, veer from the path for a little bit but if we truly want to continue the journey we will find a way out of the muck and the mess and find our own way back to the right path for us. This is not a diet for me - this is a lifestyle change. <BR> <BR> Again, all of us have a different path but I am here to say that I do not see... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 16:09:13 EST Dinner out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668865 Dinner out last night went well. I ordered exactly what I'd planned to order and even with trying a piece of pizza someone else had ordered I stayed within my ranges. I was a little low on protein as far as ratios yesterday but that's to be expected. <BR> Thu, 10 Apr 2014 09:40:49 EST Day Ten http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668140 Day ten and I'm still feeling good about this. I'm tracking my nutrition and my fitness (what I've managed which isn't much) and I'm making strides toward a healthier life. <BR> <BR> I did skip breakfast today unintentionally. I realized after I'd gotten about halfway here that I'd left my food at home today. I have veggies here for snacks but I'll have to grab something out for lunch. I considered maybe just having some protein shakes today but I'd rather do this on whole foods at least unt... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 10:34:05 EST Seriously though http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667665 In October 2006 I celebrated 100 pounds lost. I lost most of it on Sparkpeople. Probably about twenty of it was before I found this website. That was 7 1/2 years ago. Where has the time gone? <BR> <BR> I have gained that 100 pounds back of course and being that I'm quite a bit older now it's taking more of a toll on me this time around. I'm unhealthy. All of my adult life I have been overweight but I was always strong and hardy. I could still go places and do things etc. <BR> <BR> with my... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 20:03:37 EST I overslept today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667281 I remember hitting the alarm but instead of snooze I guess I turned it off. I woke up ten minutes before I was due at work! So I got her an hour late - not an auspicious beginning to the day. It's all good though I'll make it up. <BR> <BR> I went a bit off the reservation last night. I tracked it and it is embarrassingly bad. Fast food is not my friend. I just gave myself the excuse to do it and then the old "Well I've already ruined the day so I might as well ..." monster reared it's ugly ... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 10:45:04 EST First week results http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5666496 Six pound weight loss my first week. I'll take that. :) <BR> <BR> This weekend was an opportunity to de-stress and re-group and I did both. I did not however get the cooking completed that I wanted to. It's all good though, I'll just do it during the week. <BR> <BR> Produce and protein shopping is tonight. <BR> <BR> Mon, 7 Apr 2014 12:21:09 EST Edema http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5664214 Boy can I tell the difference already in the way I feel without the edema. My fingers look and feel different and my legs don't feel as heavy. I hurt my knee a little going up the stairs in my building. It's ridiculous that I've let my body get so out of condition that climbing stairs has become such a huge ordeal. It makes me heartily sick of myself. I'm trying really hard not to do the "if onlys" right now. I lost a lot of weight a few years ago and was really doing extremely well. I lost m... Fri, 4 Apr 2014 10:52:11 EST Meetings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5663721 We had a five hour meeting today and we ordered out for lunch. I ordered a salad with greens, chicken, mandarin oranges, carrots, red bell peppers and a sesame ginger dressing and it was yum! It came with a wheat roll and a dessert. I gave my dessert to my friend. I'm very proud of myself! <BR> <BR> I am currently trying to catch up on my proteins because of the pitiful amount of chicken on that salad! :) I just mixed a scoop of chocolate whey protein powder with a packet of stevia and a c... Thu, 3 Apr 2014 18:40:44 EST Ugh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662682 Had to reset my tracker back to my original weight because I gained it all back. Sure as heck doesn't take long. I'm feeling frustrated but in all honesty I have no one to blame but myself. I am a stress eater and I let the events around me impact my eating habits. I don't over eat per se but I eat bad for me foods and stop cooking and start eating or ordering in. <BR> <BR> I have put myself back on plan and am very happy with how well that is going. The weight re-gain was an issue and I ne... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 13:31:05 EST