MARY1964's SparkPeople Blog MARY1964's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I already know To the boys who passed me on my way to my first class of the day today. I get it. I'm fat. Because of my weight I am an easy target - to impress your friends with your ability to cough the words "fat" or "pig" or my personal favorite "cow" as you amble past in your basketball shorts and your black socks. Yes I heard you loud and clear but I think you knew that and it added to your joy somehow to know that "holy $$$$ she's fat" was said just loudly enough to carry across the lot as I entered t... Tue, 5 May 2015 01:06:12 EST NOT my weigh in day BUT I couldn't resist. I was soooo close to fifty pounds lost and I have been working so hard and I was hoping ... Done! I have officially lost fifty pounds. I'm so proud of me. I'm going to just celebrate this today. Now I have to get ready for water aerobics class. Today is a good day. Mon, 4 May 2015 10:11:33 EST Today This morning I did a dumb thing. I pulled out two Trader Joes pretzel rolls and ate them...both of them. My reasoning was that they were going to go bad if I didn't eat them so I ate them. I should have thrown them away. Then I justified it by telling myself that I could eat high protein and good fats the rest of the day and be fine. But my friend called and asked me to go shopping with her. I needed a wallet and new tennis shoes. I got a wallet and new tennis shoes but first we stopped at ... Sun, 3 May 2015 19:15:00 EST Friday weigh in My experiment is over. A week ago Wednesday I started a fast. After 72 hours I began eating clean again. I had lost five pounds during the fast when I weighed myself last Friday. I have stayed right at the lower end of my calories while working out every day this week. In addition to the five pounds I dropped with the fast I lost three more for a total of forty eight pounds lost in nineteen weeks which equates to 2.5+ pounds a week. Today is going to have to be a rest day. I really push... Fri, 1 May 2015 09:01:13 EST Daily weigh in i may have spoken too soon, not sure. I bounced back and gained a pound but I'm not upset because I expected some weight gain after fasting. This was the whole point of doing a week of daily weigh ins. I woke up a little late today but I slept pretty well. I was exhausted last night after two and a half hours of water training yesterday. I'm going to try walking on pavement again today. I'm feeling a bit stiff from my workouts yesterday and I want to stay loose and keep the muscles workin... Thu, 30 Apr 2015 11:04:01 EST Daily weight check in I am another pound down today. Although I feel confident that the weight I lost on my fast last week will not come back with eating clean I'm going to stick to my plan of one week of daily weigh ins. So far so good. Total weight lost 46 pounds. I wanted to hit my first goal of 50 pounds lost by 7/1. It looks like I may hit it a little earlier. Now I need to figure out what my celebration will be. I have to admit I was skeptical. I've been trying and re-trying to repeat my success from ten... Tue, 28 Apr 2015 11:30:31 EST Weight check in Still five pounds down. Maybe I won't bounce back. Two classes today so three hours of cardio and strength training broken up ninety minutes this morning and ninety tonight. Time for some tuna for lunch. Mon, 27 Apr 2015 14:18:28 EST Weight tracking My "official" weigh in is Friday but I'm going to track my weight daily for a week to see how my body adapts to my fast. After one full day of healthy eating I have lost five pounds. I haven't had any bounce back weight gain yet. Today I have to get in a work out and some walking but first I have to cook up my meatballs. I was going to make a meatloaf but meatballs are easier to portion control. The oven is heating now. Time to fix a good breakfast and get my day moving. Sun, 26 Apr 2015 08:14:50 EST Fast over I made it through my fast. I'm going to eat regularly today and see how things go this week. The last fast was easier because I was sedentary. This one I worked out four times and took two walks. Today I'm going to head back the the Y after a rest day yesterday and get back on the journey. I fixed myself a perfect breakfast of eggs, bacon, whole grain English muffin and fresh strawberries. I'm finishing off the strawberries now with a big cup of black coffee and then I will head to the gym... Sat, 25 Apr 2015 11:39:35 EST This seems to fit as an explanation for my plateau<BR>ost=why_the_scale_goes_up_when_you_sta<BR>rt_a_new_workout_plan&pointsearned=TRUE Sat, 25 Apr 2015 11:27:19 EST Weekly weigh in i am down three pounds but in on a 72 hour fast so it's probably not going to stick. I should have dropped more weight than this over the last few weeks. This plateau is really starting to get me down. It's not water because I take a water pill, I have been eating at or just above the calories my dietician has given me, I increased my exercise threefold over the last two weeks, I'm eating the right ratios of fat/protein/carbs on most days. I'm not sure what else I can do. My fast ends tonig... Fri, 24 Apr 2015 11:50:23 EST Today. Non scale victory HUGE Victory!! I walked a mile today. A mile! In twenty minutes. Me. The woman who had to sit and rest before walking back to her desk after taking something to the receptionist. The woman whose back injury was so bad that standing or walking for more than eight minutes was excruciatingly painful. I walked a mile. Outside on the pavement while listening to classical music at my own pace and I managed to do it in twenty minutes. I sat in my car and cried. Guess what? I'm doing it again.... Sat, 18 Apr 2015 19:08:24 EST Friday weigh in Well after three weeks I think it's safe to assume that I have hit my first plateau. I had hoped with the significant amount of weight I had to lose and the increased activity level I could push this back for a while. I haven't eaten 100% clean but I have been staying within my calories. I thought last week it might have been because I was sick but I've been feeling good this last week. I'm not going to stress about it too much though because I'm still doing okay. Forty pounds lost in sev... Fri, 17 Apr 2015 10:22:04 EST Weigh in Friday I didn't weigh in last Friday because I was house sitting for my mom. Well cat sitting really, she doesn't like leaving her cat alone. She doesn't have a scale. I'm the same weight I was two weeks ago but I'm not really surprised. I didn't eat badly but I had a couple of high days. I've been fighting an infection and that made me kind of sedentary but I finally have an antibiotic so that should be resolving itself. I went back to working out yesterday so I should be back on track now. Fri, 10 Apr 2015 12:33:30 EST Weigh in Friday Today is day 99. A little more than 14 weeks. I'm very happy with my results as I have managed to hit 40 pounds lost. <BR> <BR> I had a nasty little stomach virus that helped that along. I don't recommend it. :) <BR> <BR> Today I have to empty my refrigerator of the food I did not eat while I was sick and/or recovering and go shopping for fresh produce and proteins. I'm doubling up on my probiotics for a week or so just to get my stomach back to optimal. That virus was rough! My fiber inta... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 06:56:22 EST Weight loss I have lost another six pounds this week but it is because I have a stomach bug. I'm pretty certain I'm going to have some bounce back. I'm on the way to getting healthier. I ate some soup and crackers today so we'll see how it goes. <BR> <BR> No exercise or anything, just too sick. <BR> <BR> I ordered a Waterfi Fitbit Flex and it arrived yesterday. I can't wait to use it in the pool next week when I'm feeling stronger. <BR> <BR> Fri, 20 Mar 2015 21:38:52 EST Weight check in Today is Friday and my official weekly weigh in. I've dropped another two pounds for a total of 34 since 12/18. I'm very pleased with these results. Oddly I'm not seeing any changes in my body. I do feel it in my clothing - at least in some of the things I wear. My shirts are longer, my pants are droopier and the waist doesn't dig in. I have one pair of jeans I'm going to have to just quit wearing altogether because they're sliding down my hips when I wear them. <BR> <BR> I'm eating mostly c... Fri, 13 Mar 2015 16:47:38 EST Seventy Two Hour Fast I'm working on hour forty two now and so far so good. I'm drinking more water today than I did yesterday. I made a cup of coffee just now and I'm drinking it black. I have done some research and I think this time instead of eating a protein and veggies I'll drink a cup of hot lemon water and then have a fruit smoothie in the morning. They suggest easing back into eating with a more than twenty four hour fast so I won't jump right back in. I'm not feeling hungry at all which surprises me and c... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 18:52:05 EST Weight check in Well the good news is I still didn't gain weight. I haven't really been doing very well with eating healthy so that's a plus but I really need to get back on track so today I tracked my food and I'm doing okay. Not enough fiber or veggies but otherwise within ranges. <BR> <BR> We have a snowstorm starting here so I'm stuck in the house for a day or two but I have a freezer full of precooked food and lots of frozen fruits and vegetables. Tomorrow I'll make sure I get back on track with veggie... Sat, 28 Feb 2015 19:53:10 EST Kauai I gained two pounds last week and I thought with all of the additional exercise I would lose. We walked a lot in Kauai and of course at the airports. I did eat more than I have been but I tried to stay healthy and in range. I didn't track every day either - it was hard to with all our running etc. So today my first day home I'm going to focus on the beautiful time I had and the amazing sights I saw and the fact that I was able to walk and see them. I swam in the ocean every day we were ther... Sun, 22 Feb 2015 15:40:55 EST New scale I purchased a scale from Target not long ago and it has never worked the way it should. I'm going to try to return it. In the meantime I ordered another one from Amazon and it seems to be working better but it shows no loss this week. I'm going to choose to assume that it is because of the calibration difference between the two scales because I've been pretty solid all week on caloric intake etc. I only went to the pool twice this week because of girl stuff and I just didn't feel like swimmin... Fri, 13 Feb 2015 23:25:06 EST Non scale victory I had breakfast with my sister, lunch with a friend and dinner with another friend and I made good choices at every meal. I'm on my low range of everything but sodium and I drank GALLONS of water to make up for that. I can do this and still have these kinds of days. Fast food is my nemesis but today even with the surprise meals out I still managed and tracked everything. I'm feeling really positive. Sat, 7 Feb 2015 19:57:49 EST Weigh in day So this week I lost the six pounds I gained last week. It would have been nice to lose another two pounds but I'm not going to lie the six pound weight gain last week really messed with my head. This week's results are encouraging though and I feel good about it. <BR> <BR> Went to the Y and did my water exercises today. Now I'm having a snack and will enjoy a nice healthy dinner later. I'm back on track now I think and I'm just going to keep on keeping on. I need to continue to lose- gaini... Fri, 6 Feb 2015 16:50:58 EST Good/frustrating day I went to the pool again today and I tread water for an hour. There was a lady there who taught me some water exercises also which was nice. So I did some crunches and some leg lifts and some weight work. My abs are feeling it and my body is overall tired. <BR> <BR> This is all very exciting and I'm really enjoying the water activity, I love swimming. My dietitian suggested 30 minutes a day three days a week but I've decided that since it's low impact I will try to do it every day. We will ... Thu, 29 Jan 2015 22:53:35 EST Good day I finally worked up the nerve and join the Y. I did 45 minutes of water cardio today. I also joined a Wednesday night class that I will start next week. Friday I will go and observe another class to see if I can do it. Wed, 28 Jan 2015 18:48:40 EST Well not the best day I went slightly over my high number in calories today. I just couldn't resist. I made a roast with carrots, potatoes and celery and it smelled so good I just had to have a little taste. Who'd have thought it would be so high in calories! OH well I'll plan for it next time. <BR> <BR> I have to say though it was very flavorful if a teensy bit salty for my taste. I used beef broth and I salted the chuck as well and I don't usually cook with salt but I felt this needed it. Next time I'll use low... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 22:50:17 EST Another non scale victory day For as long as I can remember I have had trouble walking or standing for more than five minutes. It starts a dull ache in my lower back then it goes to small spasms, then progresses to numbness in my leg, followed by larger spasms and moderate pain followed by pretty much unbearable pain where I have to find a place to sit and relieve it. As this pain and the spasms get worse I start to sweat and sway my back to alleviate the pressure which exacerbates it. <BR> <BR> I avoid grocery stores... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 20:49:52 EST Cooking and food prep I cleaned out my refrigerator and freezer today. I threw out a lot of freezer stuff that I should have cooked and didn't. I am starting to cook all of the proteins I purchased yesterday now and freezing the rest. I bought a LOT of meat! Four fryers, twelve chicken breasts, twelve top cut pork chops, (both of which butterflied are 4 oz each so 24 portions of chicken and 24 portions of chops), and a chuck roast. I'm going to cook two of the fryers tomorrow in the slow cookers so I can pull the... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 21:51:03 EST Today I walked for three hours without sitting. This is huge for me. No spasms and no swearing and no panic because I could feel my back giving out. I just focussed on my breathing and my posture, leaned when I could, propped my foot on a shelf or cart to ease the tension and stretched as I was able. I definitely had tightness in my upper and lower back and some muscle tension in my calves. That's a big fat win for me. We went to Costco and my mom wanted to order hot dogs and sodas but when we ... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 22:24:51 EST Weigh in - day early I am spending the night at my moms house so I weighed early. Since 12/18 I have lost 18 pounds. Pretty happy with myself right now. I'm going to keep on keeping on! My mom wants to have a hot dog and a hot pretzel for lunch today and it's kind of a ritual so I'm going with it. This is a lifestyle change so I have to throw out the rules once in a while. Have a great day I know I will! Thu, 22 Jan 2015 09:40:53 EST One day fast I tried a one day fast yesterday. I had a snack of grapes at 10:00 PM Saturday night and went to bed. Sunday I drank nothing but water the whole day and then at 10:00 PM Sunday night I had a small meal of fruit and a grilled chicken wrap. I don't feel any different really but the point was to try to let my stomach "heal". <BR> <BR> I'm back on a plan today. I had turkey bacon, scrambled eggs with veggies and fresh fruit for breakfast with a cup of hot cocoa. SO good! I'm going to do my be... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 16:43:21 EST Non scale victory i went to the movies tonight with my friend. I packed a container with frozen grapes and brought a bottle of water. My friend had a big soda and nachos and even though those nachos smelled amazing I was perfectly content with my grapes. I ate them one at a time and chewed each one thirty times. I had some left over when I left the theater. I'm feeling pretty good right now. :-) Sun, 18 Jan 2015 00:44:48 EST Mini rant It really annoys me when people look at me and assume that I have an uncontrollable relationship with food. I am not a food addict. My weight is not the result of a food addiction. Look I like food and the wrong foods at that but I get so sick of people looking at me with that slanted head, furrowed brow BS concern on their faces and say things like "I know I know food addiction is a really tough thing" when I just told them about my plan which has nothing to do with addiction. <BR> <BR> I ... Sat, 17 Jan 2015 16:09:47 EST Whoa I am extremely obese. There is no way around it, that is my reality. I'm so heavy that my doctor said that no matter how hard I work at it I will not be able to lose weight without surgery. As much as I like him I do not agree with him and am going to work very hard to prove him wrong. I only have a couple more months here so I don't see the need to change doctors until I get to New York but were I staying here I would definitely move on. There is a Nurse Practitioner there however who is sup... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 19:34:39 EST Friday morning Okay just to get back on my program I weighed myself this morning. So my official weight loss from 12/18 to 1/16 or my first month of healthy eating choices is 14 pounds. Today I'm heading out to lunch with another friend but a salad is on the horizon. 😄 I'm feeling pretty good about this so far. Fri, 16 Jan 2015 12:05:30 EST Weigh in I have been weighing myself at work and since my last day was Friday I can't do that anymore. I invested in a scale. Just to be on the safe side I weighed myself before I left Friday and it matches what my home scale said. So as of today I have lost 13 pounds in a little more than three weeks. Not bad. I was going to update my weight tracker on Friday but I forgot. It was ten pounds then. <BR> <BR> I'm not eating enough to get to my minimum calories because my schedule is all out of whack.... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 00:07:05 EST Weekend Well I had a pity party weekend and ate once a day and badly at that. I'm back on track today though. One of my co-workers stopped by to talk for a few minutes and inspired me to eat the veggies I have in the refrigerator vs. running out to grab something fast food. Thank you for that. :) <BR> <BR> I had fast food breakfast but that stops today too. It's not that difficult to boil eggs for goodness sake! I even have an egg genie to make it even easier! Anyway today will turn okay overall b... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 15:58:55 EST Holidays over My daughter is on her way to the airport now to fly home. I hate saying good bye to her but this time is different because she said "See you soon" and that was music to my ears. In March I will be moving to New York and we will be within a couple of hours of each other vs halfway across the country. It still doesn't make it easier to put her on a plane but at least it won't be another six months before I get to see her again. <BR> <BR> I'm feeling much better this week than last week. I didn... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 12:36:06 EST Eight pounds down since 12/18 I know it's mostly water but I'm glad to see it go nonetheless. I have stopped eating junk and fast food (for the most part). Despite my resolve to get healthy my body wasn't listening and I ended up sick again this weekend. I've spent the last three days basically taking cold medicine and sleeping. I'm at work today but only for a half day to get some things done before Christmas. Doctor says it's a virus so there's nothing they can give me. Mucinex and Delsym as of now. <BR> <BR> My daught... Wed, 24 Dec 2014 07:45:37 EST Re-set my goals I have been really stuck in a rut. I didn't realize how bad it had gotten until one of my friends said "You've sure been sick a lot lately" on Sunday. I realized that I have been sick a lot, tired a lot, irritable a lot etc. I also have developed psoriasis on my arms and the back of my neck and the doctor thinks it is stress induced. I didn't want to admit it but I think I have to. I'm not dealing as well with losing my job and moving on to bigger and better things as I thought I was. <BR> <... Thu, 18 Dec 2014 16:46:29 EST Small victory I went out to lunch because one of my team is leaving today. It was sad and bittersweet but I planned my food and I ordered what I planned. I had one small piece of bread and left the rest there. This is a victory for me because usually I order a mushroom burger and fries at this place. I don't like fries much any more but I do like this place's fries. <BR> <BR> Anyway I had a grilled chicken salad tossed with wing sauce and no dressing and I enjoyed every single bite! Wed, 15 Oct 2014 17:58:31 EST Catching up with myself I'm slowing down so I can catch up with myself. It seems I've been experiencing one thing after another this year. This weekend I went shopping and bought healthy foods. I cooked on Sunday and I'm set for the week. Yesterday and today I skipped lunch mostly because by the time I realized what time it was it was really too late to eat. That makes me lowish on the calories but I'm going to get back on track. I'm tracking everything regardless. <BR> <BR> So we'll see how we do ... this time a... Tue, 14 Oct 2014 18:19:51 EST Ahh! So much food! I have to consume a lot of calories to get to my minimum and it reminds me of why my metabolism is so ridiculous. It seems like I'm constantly eating ... well because I am. :) I eat about every two hours when I'm eating right. I haven't actually gotten back to that yet but I'm working at it. <BR> <BR> Right now I'm baking some apples and blueberries in the microwave and I'm going to add a little crunch with some Natures Path cereal THEN I still have to eat a bag of popcorn before I leave.... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 15:22:36 EST Vacation over I did okay not going crazy with the food. Now this week I'm stepping it up. I skipped breakfast today which I know is a bad thing but I just didn't feel that great. I have a bit of a headache and it's causing me to feel a bit off. <BR> <BR> For lunch I had leftovers from dinner last night. I went to this Mediterranean place for dinner because I wanted a lentil salad. I thought that was the place I had seen one on the menu but it was not. So I ended up ordering falafel and chicken shwarma... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 14:28:46 EST Life ... What can I say? Life got in the way. Ever since I found out my company was being sold and I was going to be out of a job at the end of this year I have been working more hours than ever before. The company sold on 8/1 and I spent the last two weeks just getting all the reports etc out of the way and establishing new processes for me and my team to work with the transitional team. <BR> <BR> This week I'm on vacation. When I go back next week I'm committed to working 40 hour weeks - in at ... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 21:04:13 EST Friday! It has been a long week. With my company being sold and me being out of a job sometime later in the year (no date yet) things are pretty stressful but I'm doing my best to deal with them. I hate not knowing my own future, it's just so scary. I'm having dinner with two of my work friends tonight and I'm very much looking forward to that. I'm hoping to spend some time with my family this weekend if things aren't too crazy for everyone. <BR> <BR> I have a lot of work to do and a lot of discipli... Fri, 27 Jun 2014 12:38:20 EST Been missing in action for a while 1 - MRI - no major issues other than the arthritis so that's good. I'm taking more medication for pain and some additional muscle relaxers etc and getting PT. The PT guy is helping me to improve my posture, build up my abdominal and hip flexor muscles and overall change how I walk and stand. It is not easy but I'm doing it. I can't work out until he gives me the "okay" and he's not thrilled with my slow progress. I do see a difference. (feel really) <BR> <BR> 2 - Where have I been? Well ... Fri, 20 Jun 2014 18:06:45 EST MRI So I did it. I went and had an MRI on Friday night. It wasn't an open one like they said. It was larger though so it didn't feel quite as restrictive. I was in for half an hour and I was pretty much ok. I'm glad it's over. <BR> <BR> I will get the results on the 15th. I'm tired and sore today but it's nice so I am taking short walks Sat, 3 May 2014 18:10:30 EST Couldn't do it I have been re-scheduled for an open MRI for I guess Friday. <BR> <BR> I'm upset about it but it is what it is. I guess I felt like I couldn't breathe. <BR> <BR> Tue, 29 Apr 2014 20:29:49 EST MRI day Nervous as hell. I picked up the Valium last night and it was supposed to be two. One for an hour before and the second right before the procedure. The doctor only called one in. I need things to go exactly as planned or I'm going to freaking lose it. <BR> <BR> Okay time to go. Tue, 29 Apr 2014 11:06:18 EST