MARY1964's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MARY1964 MARY1964's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Took a week off http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5970808 I took a week off from exercise but not intentionally. It has just been crazy busy and working in a pool visit just wasn't in the cards. Two days of more than ten hours in the car picking up and dropping off my nephew, family reunion, spa day with my best friend, shopping for interview clothes, interview (YAY) and housework squeezed in when I had time. I don't even work right now and I have been nuts! I went back to the gym on Thursday and did a great cardio workout although I only did an ho... Sun, 2 Aug 2015 13:01:03 EST Ahh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5966376 The Universe in her infinite wisdom has chosen to throw me a lifeline. I am back to 50 pounds lost as of today. I really need this motivation. Sat, 25 Jul 2015 10:30:35 EST Rough couple of weeks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5964828 It has been a rough couple of weeks physically and emotionally. I'm not as into my work out plan as I was either which is scaring me a lot. I've tried but I can't really nailed down why. I've been eating OK not great and there have been a couple of just bad days. Part of it is the scale not moving in the right direction or actually not moving at all, I do know that. The other day after a particularly bad day of eating I noticed significant swelling in my legs and feet. That was quite an e... Wed, 22 Jul 2015 10:30:42 EST Beautiful Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5952208 The very best news is that my turned ankle seemed okay this morning. No pain when I walk and no swelling. I think the ice and rest did the trick. <BR> <BR> Heading to moms for the day. Sun, 28 Jun 2015 12:37:44 EST Today's workout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5951423 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/e44a11d4-8b50-4e56-bbd5-f0b2a96fd2b4.jpg"> This morning I skipped my Aqua Zumba class because it was storming so I figured it would be canceled or interrupted. I planned to have a rest day today because of the rain but at noon the sun was out so I decided to take a chance. I am so glad that I did!! I did nearly two hours of workout in the pool today and I feel amazing. Now I have to get some shopping done and grab a salad somewhere. Fri, 26 Jun 2015 16:24:54 EST Weekly weigh in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5951342 Good week this week. I lost four pounds so that's a total loss of forty two pounds. I'm still feeling the sting from my weight gain plus changing scales. I changed my photo from the fifty pounds lost because I don't know if that was accurate. I'm hoping in a month or so to put that back again. <BR> <BR> I've been working out every day and feeling pretty good about it. I love the classes I'm taking, especially the Aqua Zumba. I really hope they can find a teacher for next session because th... Fri, 26 Jun 2015 12:39:00 EST Weigh in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5947734 I had to buy another scale. This is my third one since December and that is frustrating as heck! The first one just went crazy and the second one went out of balance when one of the little feet caved in so it won't weigh properly. This third one better last! So I think that the last measurement I did was off so I revised it and then added one for today. Basically it looks like I gained back a bunch of weight but I think it's just the corrected weight from the defective old scale and of cours... Fri, 19 Jun 2015 11:58:34 EST Tired tired tired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5942880 My new workout schedule is fairly intense. It's also very hot here and I am just not hungry. That in itself isn't a surprise because I am never really hungry per se. I am the opposite of hungry actually, I do not want to eat at all. By last night I realized that with three hours or more of cardio both days plus normal running around etc I had consumed less than 1200 calories the last two days. On top of that I am having some stomach issues which is probably diet related but may have been a st... Wed, 10 Jun 2015 10:52:40 EST Weight fluctuation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5938338 Since Friday morning I have lost four of the mysterious ten pounds I gained. Hopefully my body is adjusting properly and the rest will drop off by my "official" Friday weigh in. I'm feeling a little less frustrated today. I have an exercise class at 8:00 this morning and another at 7:00 tonight. Hopefully with two work out sessions a day weekly and one on Saturdays I can stay on track. Tue, 2 Jun 2015 08:25:01 EST Pebbles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5938182 I'm a big girl there's no getting around it and there's no hiding it. I can wear nice clothes that fit properly, I can make my hair nice, I can wear make up etc. When some people look at me however, they can only see that I'm a big girl. When you're heavy, fat, obese, or whatever you want to call it, certain things are inevitable. Some people are going to make assumptions about you that are not true. They're going to assume that you're lazy, that you're not that bright, that you don't take... Mon, 1 Jun 2015 23:41:06 EST Weekly weigh in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5936171 According to the scale I have gained ten pounds this week. That seems kind of impossible so I'm going to log it and acknowledge it but then I'm going to forget it and wait for it to level itself out. My theory is that it is due in part to inflammation from all the muscles I used for the first time in a long time this week. Probably also my significant increase in fiber is a contributor. I wasn't doing great with my fiber intake so I stepped it up with some beans and other stuff this week. I... Fri, 29 May 2015 09:19:41 EST Yesterday was a very good day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5935776 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/b373cda8-fcd6-4a02-9018-f2814b5c0e85.jpg"> I'm so proud of myself for my workout and food day yesterday. I took my first hike in a long time - years. Just to give some perspective. In December I couldn't walk even a quarter mile without resting my back because of an injury. When a person is as heavy and awkward as I am, walking into the woods by yourself with no idea where you'll end up is simply unheard of. I never go anywhere unless I know ho... Thu, 28 May 2015 15:15:04 EST Next session water classes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5934725 I am really stepping up my game starting next week. I'm kind of excited about it! All the classes are an hour. Monday night - Deep Water Aerobics Tuesday morning - Aquasize Tuesday night - Aqua Zumba Wednesday morning - Aqua Zumba Wednesday night - Deep Water Aerobics Thursday morning - Aquasize Friday morning - Aqua Zumba I may drop the Tuesday Aqua Zumba if back to back classes prove too much. On my one class days I will do an extra hour of cardio (water jogging, swimming and tre... Tue, 26 May 2015 19:36:29 EST Eventful weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5934520 First of all my surprise trip to Chicago didn't happen. I have a friend there who has been having a rough go of it lately so I was planning to head up there Thursday night to surprise her, fix her a week's worth of portable lunches and dinners and just try to make her life a bit easier for a minute. What I didn't count on was a last minute birthday celebration for my nephew. So I stayed in town and will try to get out another weekend. <BR> <BR> The party never happened after all that because... Tue, 26 May 2015 11:25:24 EST Weekly weigh in (a day early) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5931988 I'm headed out tonight on a road trip so I did my weekly weigh in a day early. Down three more pounds for a total of 55 since 12/18. Let's just hope I can stick to healthy eating while out of town! Thu, 21 May 2015 12:06:03 EST Weekly weigh in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5929137 Not sure why but I missed last Friday's weigh in. I lost a pound last week and another pound this week for a total of 52 pounds down. For this week my focus will have to be reducing my caloric intake in order to continue to lose weight weekly as my cardio program has been temporarily amended due to possible injury. <BR> <BR> I have had some occasional pain in my outer ankles the last few weeks. It comes and goes sometimes for a few hours or sometimes for a whole day. It isn't really impeding... Sat, 16 May 2015 13:06:47 EST I already know http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5922799 To the boys who passed me on my way to my first class of the day today. I get it. I'm fat. Because of my weight I am an easy target - to impress your friends with your ability to cough the words "fat" or "pig" or my personal favorite "cow" as you amble past in your basketball shorts and your black socks. Yes I heard you loud and clear but I think you knew that and it added to your joy somehow to know that "holy $$$$ she's fat" was said just loudly enough to carry across the lot as I entered t... Tue, 5 May 2015 01:06:12 EST NOT my weigh in day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5922338 BUT I couldn't resist. I was soooo close to fifty pounds lost and I have been working so hard and I was hoping ... Done! I have officially lost fifty pounds. I'm so proud of me. I'm going to just celebrate this today. Now I have to get ready for water aerobics class. Today is a good day. Mon, 4 May 2015 10:11:33 EST Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5921965 This morning I did a dumb thing. I pulled out two Trader Joes pretzel rolls and ate them...both of them. My reasoning was that they were going to go bad if I didn't eat them so I ate them. I should have thrown them away. Then I justified it by telling myself that I could eat high protein and good fats the rest of the day and be fine. But my friend called and asked me to go shopping with her. I needed a wallet and new tennis shoes. I got a wallet and new tennis shoes but first we stopped at ... Sun, 3 May 2015 19:15:00 EST Friday weigh in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920674 My experiment is over. A week ago Wednesday I started a fast. After 72 hours I began eating clean again. I had lost five pounds during the fast when I weighed myself last Friday. I have stayed right at the lower end of my calories while working out every day this week. In addition to the five pounds I dropped with the fast I lost three more for a total of forty eight pounds lost in nineteen weeks which equates to 2.5+ pounds a week. Today is going to have to be a rest day. I really push... Fri, 1 May 2015 09:01:13 EST Daily weigh in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920193 i may have spoken too soon, not sure. I bounced back and gained a pound but I'm not upset because I expected some weight gain after fasting. This was the whole point of doing a week of daily weigh ins. I woke up a little late today but I slept pretty well. I was exhausted last night after two and a half hours of water training yesterday. I'm going to try walking on pavement again today. I'm feeling a bit stiff from my workouts yesterday and I want to stay loose and keep the muscles workin... Thu, 30 Apr 2015 11:04:01 EST Daily weight check in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5919077 I am another pound down today. Although I feel confident that the weight I lost on my fast last week will not come back with eating clean I'm going to stick to my plan of one week of daily weigh ins. So far so good. Total weight lost 46 pounds. I wanted to hit my first goal of 50 pounds lost by 7/1. It looks like I may hit it a little earlier. Now I need to figure out what my celebration will be. I have to admit I was skeptical. I've been trying and re-trying to repeat my success from ten... Tue, 28 Apr 2015 11:30:31 EST Weight check in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5918581 Still five pounds down. Maybe I won't bounce back. Two classes today so three hours of cardio and strength training broken up ninety minutes this morning and ninety tonight. Time for some tuna for lunch. Mon, 27 Apr 2015 14:18:28 EST Weight tracking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5917821 My "official" weigh in is Friday but I'm going to track my weight daily for a week to see how my body adapts to my fast. After one full day of healthy eating I have lost five pounds. I haven't had any bounce back weight gain yet. Today I have to get in a work out and some walking but first I have to cook up my meatballs. I was going to make a meatloaf but meatballs are easier to portion control. The oven is heating now. Time to fix a good breakfast and get my day moving. Sun, 26 Apr 2015 08:14:50 EST Fast over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5917445 I made it through my fast. I'm going to eat regularly today and see how things go this week. The last fast was easier because I was sedentary. This one I worked out four times and took two walks. Today I'm going to head back the the Y after a rest day yesterday and get back on the journey. I fixed myself a perfect breakfast of eggs, bacon, whole grain English muffin and fresh strawberries. I'm finishing off the strawberries now with a big cup of black coffee and then I will head to the gym... Sat, 25 Apr 2015 11:39:35 EST This seems to fit as an explanation for my plateau http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5917440 http://www.sparkpeople.com/blog/blog.asp?p<BR>ost=why_the_scale_goes_up_when_you_sta<BR>rt_a_new_workout_plan&pointsearned=TRUE Sat, 25 Apr 2015 11:27:19 EST Weekly weigh in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5916960 i am down three pounds but in on a 72 hour fast so it's probably not going to stick. I should have dropped more weight than this over the last few weeks. This plateau is really starting to get me down. It's not water because I take a water pill, I have been eating at or just above the calories my dietician has given me, I increased my exercise threefold over the last two weeks, I'm eating the right ratios of fat/protein/carbs on most days. I'm not sure what else I can do. My fast ends tonig... Fri, 24 Apr 2015 11:50:23 EST Today. Non scale victory http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5913583 HUGE Victory!! I walked a mile today. A mile! In twenty minutes. Me. The woman who had to sit and rest before walking back to her desk after taking something to the receptionist. The woman whose back injury was so bad that standing or walking for more than eight minutes was excruciatingly painful. I walked a mile. Outside on the pavement while listening to classical music at my own pace and I managed to do it in twenty minutes. I sat in my car and cried. Guess what? I'm doing it again.... Sat, 18 Apr 2015 19:08:24 EST Friday weigh in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5912866 Well after three weeks I think it's safe to assume that I have hit my first plateau. I had hoped with the significant amount of weight I had to lose and the increased activity level I could push this back for a while. I haven't eaten 100% clean but I have been staying within my calories. I thought last week it might have been because I was sick but I've been feeling good this last week. I'm not going to stress about it too much though because I'm still doing okay. Forty pounds lost in sev... Fri, 17 Apr 2015 10:22:04 EST Weigh in Friday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5908899 I didn't weigh in last Friday because I was house sitting for my mom. Well cat sitting really, she doesn't like leaving her cat alone. She doesn't have a scale. I'm the same weight I was two weeks ago but I'm not really surprised. I didn't eat badly but I had a couple of high days. I've been fighting an infection and that made me kind of sedentary but I finally have an antibiotic so that should be resolving itself. I went back to working out yesterday so I should be back on track now. Fri, 10 Apr 2015 12:33:30 EST Weigh in Friday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5900462 Today is day 99. A little more than 14 weeks. I'm very happy with my results as I have managed to hit 40 pounds lost. <BR> <BR> I had a nasty little stomach virus that helped that along. I don't recommend it. :) <BR> <BR> Today I have to empty my refrigerator of the food I did not eat while I was sick and/or recovering and go shopping for fresh produce and proteins. I'm doubling up on my probiotics for a week or so just to get my stomach back to optimal. That virus was rough! My fiber inta... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 06:56:22 EST Weight loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5896698 I have lost another six pounds this week but it is because I have a stomach bug. I'm pretty certain I'm going to have some bounce back. I'm on the way to getting healthier. I ate some soup and crackers today so we'll see how it goes. <BR> <BR> No exercise or anything, just too sick. <BR> <BR> I ordered a Waterfi Fitbit Flex and it arrived yesterday. I can't wait to use it in the pool next week when I'm feeling stronger. <BR> <BR> Fri, 20 Mar 2015 21:38:52 EST Weight check in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5892388 Today is Friday and my official weekly weigh in. I've dropped another two pounds for a total of 34 since 12/18. I'm very pleased with these results. Oddly I'm not seeing any changes in my body. I do feel it in my clothing - at least in some of the things I wear. My shirts are longer, my pants are droopier and the waist doesn't dig in. I have one pair of jeans I'm going to have to just quit wearing altogether because they're sliding down my hips when I wear them. <BR> <BR> I'm eating mostly c... Fri, 13 Mar 2015 16:47:38 EST Seventy Two Hour Fast http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5886422 I'm working on hour forty two now and so far so good. I'm drinking more water today than I did yesterday. I made a cup of coffee just now and I'm drinking it black. I have done some research and I think this time instead of eating a protein and veggies I'll drink a cup of hot lemon water and then have a fruit smoothie in the morning. They suggest easing back into eating with a more than twenty four hour fast so I won't jump right back in. I'm not feeling hungry at all which surprises me and c... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 18:52:05 EST Weight check in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5884438 Well the good news is I still didn't gain weight. I haven't really been doing very well with eating healthy so that's a plus but I really need to get back on track so today I tracked my food and I'm doing okay. Not enough fiber or veggies but otherwise within ranges. <BR> <BR> We have a snowstorm starting here so I'm stuck in the house for a day or two but I have a freezer full of precooked food and lots of frozen fruits and vegetables. Tomorrow I'll make sure I get back on track with veggie... Sat, 28 Feb 2015 19:53:10 EST Kauai http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5880599 I gained two pounds last week and I thought with all of the additional exercise I would lose. We walked a lot in Kauai and of course at the airports. I did eat more than I have been but I tried to stay healthy and in range. I didn't track every day either - it was hard to with all our running etc. So today my first day home I'm going to focus on the beautiful time I had and the amazing sights I saw and the fact that I was able to walk and see them. I swam in the ocean every day we were ther... Sun, 22 Feb 2015 15:40:55 EST New scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5875382 I purchased a scale from Target not long ago and it has never worked the way it should. I'm going to try to return it. In the meantime I ordered another one from Amazon and it seems to be working better but it shows no loss this week. I'm going to choose to assume that it is because of the calibration difference between the two scales because I've been pretty solid all week on caloric intake etc. I only went to the pool twice this week because of girl stuff and I just didn't feel like swimmin... Fri, 13 Feb 2015 23:25:06 EST Non scale victory http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5871432 I had breakfast with my sister, lunch with a friend and dinner with another friend and I made good choices at every meal. I'm on my low range of everything but sodium and I drank GALLONS of water to make up for that. I can do this and still have these kinds of days. Fast food is my nemesis but today even with the surprise meals out I still managed and tracked everything. I'm feeling really positive. Sat, 7 Feb 2015 19:57:49 EST Weigh in day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5870804 So this week I lost the six pounds I gained last week. It would have been nice to lose another two pounds but I'm not going to lie the six pound weight gain last week really messed with my head. This week's results are encouraging though and I feel good about it. <BR> <BR> Went to the Y and did my water exercises today. Now I'm having a snack and will enjoy a nice healthy dinner later. I'm back on track now I think and I'm just going to keep on keeping on. I need to continue to lose- gaini... Fri, 6 Feb 2015 16:50:58 EST Good/frustrating day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5865563 I went to the pool again today and I tread water for an hour. There was a lady there who taught me some water exercises also which was nice. So I did some crunches and some leg lifts and some weight work. My abs are feeling it and my body is overall tired. <BR> <BR> This is all very exciting and I'm really enjoying the water activity, I love swimming. My dietitian suggested 30 minutes a day three days a week but I've decided that since it's low impact I will try to do it every day. We will ... Thu, 29 Jan 2015 22:53:35 EST Good day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5864700 I finally worked up the nerve and join the Y. I did 45 minutes of water cardio today. I also joined a Wednesday night class that I will start next week. Friday I will go and observe another class to see if I can do it. Wed, 28 Jan 2015 18:48:40 EST Well not the best day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5863349 I went slightly over my high number in calories today. I just couldn't resist. I made a roast with carrots, potatoes and celery and it smelled so good I just had to have a little taste. Who'd have thought it would be so high in calories! OH well I'll plan for it next time. <BR> <BR> I have to say though it was very flavorful if a teensy bit salty for my taste. I used beef broth and I salted the chuck as well and I don't usually cook with salt but I felt this needed it. Next time I'll use low... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 22:50:17 EST Another non scale victory day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862485 For as long as I can remember I have had trouble walking or standing for more than five minutes. It starts a dull ache in my lower back then it goes to small spasms, then progresses to numbness in my leg, followed by larger spasms and moderate pain followed by pretty much unbearable pain where I have to find a place to sit and relieve it. As this pain and the spasms get worse I start to sweat and sway my back to alleviate the pressure which exacerbates it. <BR> <BR> I avoid grocery stores... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 20:49:52 EST Cooking and food prep http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861241 I cleaned out my refrigerator and freezer today. I threw out a lot of freezer stuff that I should have cooked and didn't. I am starting to cook all of the proteins I purchased yesterday now and freezing the rest. I bought a LOT of meat! Four fryers, twelve chicken breasts, twelve top cut pork chops, (both of which butterflied are 4 oz each so 24 portions of chicken and 24 portions of chops), and a chuck roast. I'm going to cook two of the fryers tomorrow in the slow cookers so I can pull the... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 21:51:03 EST Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860608 I walked for three hours without sitting. This is huge for me. No spasms and no swearing and no panic because I could feel my back giving out. I just focussed on my breathing and my posture, leaned when I could, propped my foot on a shelf or cart to ease the tension and stretched as I was able. I definitely had tightness in my upper and lower back and some muscle tension in my calves. That's a big fat win for me. We went to Costco and my mom wanted to order hot dogs and sodas but when we ... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 22:24:51 EST Weigh in - day early http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860149 I am spending the night at my moms house so I weighed early. Since 12/18 I have lost 18 pounds. Pretty happy with myself right now. I'm going to keep on keeping on! My mom wants to have a hot dog and a hot pretzel for lunch today and it's kind of a ritual so I'm going with it. This is a lifestyle change so I have to throw out the rules once in a while. Have a great day I know I will! Thu, 22 Jan 2015 09:40:53 EST One day fast http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5858079 I tried a one day fast yesterday. I had a snack of grapes at 10:00 PM Saturday night and went to bed. Sunday I drank nothing but water the whole day and then at 10:00 PM Sunday night I had a small meal of fruit and a grilled chicken wrap. I don't feel any different really but the point was to try to let my stomach "heal". <BR> <BR> I'm back on a plan today. I had turkey bacon, scrambled eggs with veggies and fresh fruit for breakfast with a cup of hot cocoa. SO good! I'm going to do my be... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 16:43:21 EST Non scale victory http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5856818 i went to the movies tonight with my friend. I packed a container with frozen grapes and brought a bottle of water. My friend had a big soda and nachos and even though those nachos smelled amazing I was perfectly content with my grapes. I ate them one at a time and chewed each one thirty times. I had some left over when I left the theater. I'm feeling pretty good right now. :-) Sun, 18 Jan 2015 00:44:48 EST Mini rant http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5856544 It really annoys me when people look at me and assume that I have an uncontrollable relationship with food. I am not a food addict. My weight is not the result of a food addiction. Look I like food and the wrong foods at that but I get so sick of people looking at me with that slanted head, furrowed brow BS concern on their faces and say things like "I know I know food addiction is a really tough thing" when I just told them about my plan which has nothing to do with addiction. <BR> <BR> I ... Sat, 17 Jan 2015 16:09:47 EST Whoa http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5855995 I am extremely obese. There is no way around it, that is my reality. I'm so heavy that my doctor said that no matter how hard I work at it I will not be able to lose weight without surgery. As much as I like him I do not agree with him and am going to work very hard to prove him wrong. I only have a couple more months here so I don't see the need to change doctors until I get to New York but were I staying here I would definitely move on. There is a Nurse Practitioner there however who is sup... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 19:34:39 EST