MARIELAMS's SparkPeople Blog MARIELAMS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community once again here I come I've made the decision to get back to it. I am miserable. I have been struggling with post partum depression since I had my baby 9 months ago. Same thing happened to me when I had my son. I haven't lost my baby weight and I'm the biggest I have ever been. I can't keep doing this to myself. I need to change NOW. For my sanity. I ready for a change. I'm ready to feel comfortable around others. I'm ready to be happy. I'm ready to be healthy. Sun, 11 Aug 2013 22:32:17 EST I wont live by a number It's been 3 weeks since I started working out and I haven't weighed myself....and wont do it. <BR> <BR> WhY? because I've been doing Insanity/zumba and I know Im probably losing inches instead of weight (i should say losing fat and gaining muscle). BUt I don't want to live by a number. I want to live by how good i feel, how much energy I have. And I've felt so good these last 3 weeks!!!! <BR> <BR> I feel my stomach is smaller, my arms are more defined...and I feel I smile more. I'm happy, ... Thu, 24 Nov 2011 13:42:56 EST new opportunity My job has opened up 3 positions for a different job within the office. I applied. I passed phase 1, having the qualifications, phase 2 a bit of test, and yesterday they did the last part...the interview. <BR> <BR> They have a couple more interviews to do and then decision will be made. I'm so nervous! I really want to this position! I just keep praying that the best thing for me is what happens. Hopefully by the end of the week I have an answer. Wish me luck. Wed, 13 Jul 2011 12:45:11 EST I'm feeling it I work from Sunday-Thursday. Sundays are casual wear days. Yesterday I wore jeans to work, jeans that I hadn't worn in a while because they were so tight. The scale tells me i've lost 3 lbs, and those jeans are definitely showing results! <BR> <BR> They are still a bit tight but I can now breathe. And that was 2 weeks of working out 5x a week. <BR> <BR> I'm ready for week 3. Can't wait until I can fit in my 2009's size 6 jeans that are in my closet! :D <em>9</em> Mon, 11 Jul 2011 04:26:32 EST I am my inspiration.... About 3 yrs ago when I first started my "fitness" journey, I had inspirational pictures. Pictures of magazine cut outs or famous women that I wanted to look like. By 2009 I had reached 155 lbs and a couple rounds of p90x. I was loving my results. Then for some reason life hit me and I stopped. <BR> <BR> I have gained some of that weight back....actually most of it. But you know what? I have different inspirational pictures. This time they are my own. I can't believe I am looking at my pictu... Wed, 6 Jul 2011 03:31:34 EST I got a gym membership!!! I have to start by saying I am a penny pincher. So joining the gym was a hard decision but I don't regret. <BR> <BR> This is ladies gym that I joined, I'll be taking zumba classes, spinning and probably pole dancing!!!! I still have to think about that one. <BR> <BR> Turns out I am not 173 like my scale said...i am actually 176 :*(. THat is what the gym scale said. They measure you and weigh you every month. So I'm excited! I will lose at least 6 of those by next month. That is my goal.... Sun, 30 Jan 2011 14:41:00 EST insanity week 1 complete So i just finished my 6th workout, my first week of insanity is complete. I wanted to take a picture so you can see how sweaty I am, so I did but my bathroom is yellow and for some reason makes me look all fresh! Anyway...I weighed myself, and I have not lost an ounce, at least that what it tells me, but I look at myself and feel much better. I've been doing southbeach diet phase 1, well i did mess up a couple of times this week but not too bad. Overall I think I did great. <BR> <BR> Since ... Sat, 28 Aug 2010 17:26:26 EST insanity day 2 needless to kicked my butt. i couldn't do all the exercises. But I did my best. That is all I am going to type. I'm still shaky.... <BR> <BR> btw im loving it. Tue, 24 Aug 2010 12:00:21 EST insanity day 2 needless to kicked my butt. i couldn't do all the exercises. But I did my best. That is all I am going to type. I'm still shaky.... <BR> <BR> btw im loving it. Tue, 24 Aug 2010 12:00:20 EST day 1 Insanity Fit Test kicked my butt....I have to do this test about every 2 weeks to check my progress. Here are my results: <BR> <BR> SWITCH KICKS: 77 <BR> JACK SQUATS: 39 <BR> POWER KNEES: 60 <BR> POWER JUMPS: 13 <BR> GLOBE JUMPS: 7 <BR> SUICIDE JUMPS: 8 <BR> PUSH UP JACKS: 8 <BR> LOW PRANK OBLIQUE: 51 <BR> <BR> We'll see how much I improve! This is me after the workout...i'm so sweaty and shaky...and it's only 25 mins!!! oh god I don't want to even think about how I'll end up tomorrow with the real... Mon, 23 Aug 2010 12:01:03 EST yesterday's wake up call I woke up yesterday with the worst migraine I've had in was horrible. I got ready to work but I knew I wasn't going to make it. I called in. <BR> <BR> But that is good news I think. Last year when I was fit, I hardly ever got migraines or sick for that matter. I have a confession, these last months have been a roller-coaster for me, I've been depressed for a while and I just can't figure out why anymore. I dont want to seek a doctor to be put on medication. Just a personal choi... Mon, 23 Aug 2010 10:59:13 EST P90X LEAN WK 3 DAY 25 Ok... I know I've been MIA. <BR> <BR> BUt here I am! <BR> Sorry everyone! It's still costing me to adjust to my new life schedule so I don't log in as much as I would like too. <BR> <BR> Anyway...first of all confession. I missed about a week and half of workout. I know bad. I guess it was all the work and driving and me trying to get the workout going after getting back from work. Well, let me tell you that didn't work out. So, I've switched gears. <BR> <BR> This week I started week 3, a... Thu, 18 Feb 2010 13:08:51 EST P90x Lean Wk 1 Day 11 HELLO EVERYONE! <BR> <BR> well, yesterday was a long day for me! I was so tired when I got home from work that I didn't even workout or cooked dinner. I had Special K for dinner. Thrusday & Saturdays are my days off. So today I was able to get up, have a healthy breakfast (scrambled egg w/1 turkey bacon slice, 1 W.wheat pancake, and like a cup and half of steamed veggies) and get my workout done early. <BR> <BR> I did Shoulders & Arms and 20 mins of Zumba. Right when I was finishing up with... Thu, 4 Feb 2010 19:00:36 EST p90x Lean Wk 1 Day 9 WOW!!! <BR> <BR> I know I missed yesterday's blog, but as some of you know, I got a new job (YEAY!!) Anyway, my schedule is definitely NOT like it used to be. LOTS of changes, but of course for good. So it has been hard to set up my schedule. Yesterday I wasn't able to do my COre Synergistics workout, but I did it today, well half of it, then 20 mins of zumba so over all about 50 mins. I think that is pretty good (considering)! <BR> <BR> Anyway, my plan is to workout early in the morning s... Wed, 3 Feb 2010 00:06:05 EST P90x Lean Wk 1 Day 6 TOday: Abs & Legs/Back <BR> <BR> First of all let met say this, it's been months since I've done this workout. NEedless to say, I couldn't do all the moves/reps. But that is okay. I know I will get better with time. <BR> <BR> I did get through the ab workout, or at least most of it. Which is something I am proud, I mean this is one of the workouts I really "dislike" doing. Today I felt really good when I woke up. I felt leaner. I don't know if I've lost anymore than the 1 lb I logged yeste... Sat, 30 Jan 2010 15:13:49 EST p90x Lean Wk 1 Day 5 Kenpo was tonight! <BR> <BR> I was looking forward to it all day! I got caught up doing some home stuff, then grocery shopping, then while putting away all the produce, I realized I had a bag of spinach there looking not so fresh. <BR> <BR> So I decided to do a cream of spinach with it. And of course I've never made cream of spinach before, so it took me a while. Before I knew it it was 10:30 pm. <BR> <BR> It didn't matter, I was already in my workout clothes so I just headed to my bed ro... Sat, 30 Jan 2010 01:17:26 EST P90X Lean Wk 1 Day 4 Today was fun! First of all, I only had like 3 loads of laundry to do. And the last one, hubby helped me put away. No mopping, or anything :D! And also hubby did the workout with me. He is doing p90x also but he's going at his one routine. He also runs (like 2 hours like 3x week) so he uses p90x as his strength training. <BR> <BR> So today we did Shoulder's and Arms. I love it! I think it's my favorite of the weights videos from p90x. I am sincerely too lazy to do the ab workout today. :S.... Fri, 29 Jan 2010 00:55:35 EST P90X Lean Wk 1 Day 3 Today I didn't work out. BUt I don't feel bad about it. I got home around 1 pm. And since I got home, I cleaned, cleaned, and cleaned some more. I only sat down for lunch, for dinner, and for banking i had to do. Probably like 20 mins each. <BR> <BR> My back hurts, I am so tired. It's not the same cleaning a 2 bd apartment to a 4 bedroom house. Let me tell you....its QUITE a difference! And my home is all tile, so sweeping and mopping all the way thru! <BR> <BR> Also did some laundry....(s... Wed, 27 Jan 2010 23:48:46 EST P90X Lean Wk 1 Day 2 CARDIO X TODAY! <BR> <BR> Wow, it was fuN! I love it because it has a little bit of everything. THe Yoga was killing though! I am so out of shape but not giving up! After I finished the 45 min. of Cardio, I decided to do a bit of zumba, I couldn't finish the 20 min. I did like 12 mins of it. But hey, it was all extra. <BR> <BR> I figured I would try to blog everyday. This will keep me on check. Tomorrow is a new day. I'll be lifting weight tomorrow. I haven't done that in SO long!!! Tue, 26 Jan 2010 22:32:11 EST P90X Lean Wk 1 Day 1 Today was my first of P90X Lean. I didn't feel like working out. Stress and problems, bills, etc....all that stuff came to my mind. But then I opened my SP and I had a comment with a wonderful quote from SPOTLIGHTANGEL. And it opened my eyes. <BR> <BR> Everything is in my hands. Whether I decide to fail or succeed. Today I decided to succeed. After reading her comment I got up, and changed clothes and started my workout. <BR> <BR> My first workout was Core Synergistics. It used to be a g... Mon, 25 Jan 2010 22:39:48 EST SORRY!!! Can somebody tell me why I am not getting any notifications of comments or anything?!?!?! I can't figure it out. <BR> <BR> anyways....sorry! I was MIA. I don't know if I mentioned but I left to Mexico City for my BF university graduation on the 13th. Well, just 4 days before, my hubby got sick! I had to take him to the ER. he was running a fever all day long, the highest I recorded on my thermometer was 102.8. He was starting to hallucinate. It was very scary. I didn't know what to do. My pa... Fri, 22 Jan 2010 12:25:24 EST TOo excited not to blog! So finished my 2nd day of working out in this brand new year!!! <BR> <BR> Today I did some Core Synergistics from P90x. LoVe it! I am so energized! I didn't do all the exercises, and I didn't have the same resistance as I did before but heck at least I am trying and I all sweaty! Hopefully I'll build up my strength soon! <BR> <BR> Here is a pic of me, all excited to be back. I love how pics sometimes make you look better than you actually are lol. Anyways...sorry for the no make up :D <BR>... Tue, 5 Jan 2010 23:23:31 EST I feel like throwing up I just made myself one of those quick chocolate cake in a cup. The one you make in a microwave...I don't know, I figured it was better than actually baking a whole cake and having way too much temptation laying around. I feel yucky... I think it is definitely a 2 serving cake. I feel stuffed. <BR> <BR> I'm going for a nap then workout time! Tue, 5 Jan 2010 18:51:16 EST This one is going to be ugly. I've been thinking about the few times I've tried to come back on SP and how hard it has been for some weird reason that I don't quite still get. So in attempts to make this year the best it can be and to keep me on track on my weight loss, I decided to take pictures. <BR> <BR> Like the title states, this is going to be ugly. I am so upset. I decided to put them in a collage and not show my face. For some reason that seems to help me tolerate them a bit more. So! Here I am! <BR> <BR> The ... Tue, 5 Jan 2010 00:51:25 EST This is Zumba!! So I decided to get back on the for those of you that don't know what zumba is, this is it. I do videos at home rather than paying to go to the gym.'s been a long time since I'd done zumba so I'm not that coordinated, so don't laugh. Plus the video is slowwww... Tue, 3 Nov 2009 13:18:00 EST There is something about wedding cakes... That I just love. It's like they are this piece of dessert which is delicious (most of the time lol) and it's also this piece of art that was so delicately made. Maybe it's just me cuz' I make them, but I find them so, beautiful! I love that show Ace of cakes, but most of the time I don't like their cakes. If it's a tiered cake, love it. If its a monkey playing a piano while roller blading...I don't. It's like for me a wedding cake is round or square and looks like a cake. Just weird me. I gu... Tue, 20 Oct 2009 13:05:59 EST Good news! ((and a bit of a vent)) GOod news is...I am right on schedule with my wedding cake due tomorrow. Last even I did was crazy (the 15th bday one) I had TONS of things to do and bake and I hardly slept for 2 days. Anyways... I planned better this time. No sleepless nights for this wedding.. <BR> <BR> Anyway...The bigger good news is that I got a call for a job interview!!!!!!! YEAHHHHHH~~~~ <em>244</em> <em>236</em> <em>244</em> <em>236</em> <em>244</em> <em>236</em> <BR> <BR> So it's not a job,(YET) but at lea... Fri, 16 Oct 2009 11:33:48 EST such a bad mother!! all about me! I was my son's bday last friday! The day we closed on the house! Since we were all so busy and stuff we couldn't throw a bday party for him, but my MIL made some delicious carne asada and we had dinner at her house to celebrate my son's 3rd bday and of course the new house. I made a small cake for him, here are the pics! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> This pic was my son's idea! We took like 4 of these because that's how he wanted them L... Fri, 9 Oct 2009 12:06:04 EST A much needed update! Times have been crazy around here! I can't believe it's almost 2 months since my last blog! <BR> <BR> But anyway here is the huge update! <BR> <BR> I'm still at my current job....(bummer) but I keep applying EVERYWHERE lol, so hopefully I get a call soon. The latest update on my father... We went to see the specialist and they didn't not order surgery. He prescribed my father 1 shot of cortisone each week for 3 weeks to help with the swelling so the body can heal itself. Turns out his dis... Fri, 9 Oct 2009 11:49:32 EST If you've been wondering about.. well I'm still alive! <BR> <BR> Ok. So I was at home a couple of weeks ago and I realized how much I hate my job. Seriously! It's not what I want. Now or ever. I am thankful for the opportunity to work here for almost 4 years, but I think my time has come up. So, I started job searching. Then, I realized, if I quit my job, I won't have a place to live (I get free apartment & utilities with my job). <BR> <BR> Hubby has been talking about getting a house. I always said no because I really d... Wed, 19 Aug 2009 16:32:19 EST Reward for me!!!! I decided to reward myself today. Even though I don't physically have my reward yet, but it has been ordered!! <BR> <BR> I had 2 books from an accounting class I took about 3 semesters ago laying around in my room. I was going to trash them since they don't use that edition at my college bookstore anymore so they wouldn't take them. So I found this website (there are several outhere), that you can sell back your books. They tell you how much they'll send you and you get this pre paid postage... Fri, 7 Aug 2009 13:30:21 EST Zuchinni & Muffin comentor on my blog missing!!! I've lost you! Okay, so I am looking at my commentsand I was responding to them, and somehow deleted one of them. I can't remember your user name. But you mentioned baking zuchinni bread and muffins! <BR> <BR> Please if you are out there please respond. I wont be an idiot trying to manage 6 screens at a time and delete your comment again. I was going to ask your for your zuchinni bread recipe! lol (for my parents I swear...ok ok... I was going to try it just a bit THEN, all to my parents.) ... Thu, 6 Aug 2009 13:23:44 EST totally ashamed. I made some whole wheat snickerdoodle cookies really good, low cal about 70 each. WELL.... I kind of ate a lot. I mean.... a lot! <em>29</em> <em>198</em> <BR> <em>495</em> <BR> <BR> Like... 10. I don't know I was just mad at life or something I don't know. But I attacked the cookies. For lunch and dinner I had a healthy minestrone soup I made. So I don't feel bad about lunch or dinner, just those cookies...arrghh.. <BR> <BR> Oh well, so instead of doing strength training (p90x) I did ... Thu, 6 Aug 2009 01:22:53 EST Sunday....yawn... I was this close to making a video blog....yeah...I didn't know what to say, maybe some other time lol. <BR> <BR> Anyway, today was the last day to do my online course final, and like the good procrastinator that I am, I just finished it, 30 mins. before it was due! :D Hey! At least I did do it! <BR> <BR> Today was a very chill Sunday. One good exciting thing that happened was, I made my own pizza!!! Yup, scratch crust, scratch sauce! It was a whole wheat pizza thin crust topped with lots a... Mon, 3 Aug 2009 02:18:37 EST Is it me???? So I've been trying to make a habit of taking vitamins. I am really bad at remembering to take pills, that is why I don't take birth control pills, but that is a whole different story! <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> I am taking Equate Women's One Daily (walmart brand). And every time I take them, my stomach starts feeling all queezy. Today I had ceral for breakfast, and like 2 hours later an apple. Right after the apple I took my vitamin. My stomach started hurting, then I knew...I had to throw up... Fri, 31 Jul 2009 13:48:03 EST Still in a one piece... My hubby's sister is in town for a whole week. So that means alot f munching and family gatherings during the week. She is married with 4 kids so when ever she is here, we have a lot of fun! Anyway...we decided to take the kids to the pool today. And well, yesterday I decided to go check out some bathing suits. i didn't have much time so I only stopped at walmart lol. <BR> <BR> Yeah... I still don't feel good with a 2 piece! I feel bad, I was doing so good a couple of months ago, I had som... Tue, 28 Jul 2009 15:00:24 EST So what did I wear to the pool? Remember I told you guys I was going to take a short nap, then workout, then the pool? <BR> <BR> We'll I took a very long naP! Hubby didn't wake me up. So as soon as I got up we got ready and went to the pool. We were there for less than an hour because they were closing early!!! (and I took too long of a nap... oops) <BR> <BR> ANyway...So I decided on my old one piece. It was big on me. Specially on my boobs, but it was wearable. I felt comfortable. I didn't feel the need to cover up. So ... Thu, 23 Jul 2009 12:56:52 EST Mango cupcake with a side of pool Today is super hot, like it has been lately. So...we are going to the public pool. I don't even know how to swim, but at least I'll cool off and get some sun. I'm gonna take a nap (short one), do my workout, and then head out to the pool. <BR> <BR> I didn't work out on Monday ( I had really bad cramps), but we did yesterday! :D So I don't want to mess up the rest of the week. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I was feeling adventurous so I decided on a unique cupcake recipe. I made some Mango cup cakes... Wed, 22 Jul 2009 17:15:37 EST Anniversary cupcake Yesterday, like I mentioned before was my wedding anniversary. I had no plans for baking a big cake, I wanted cupcakes. Lately I've been really excited about cupcakes. So I wanted to try something new, and I made this S'mores cupcake recipe I found a couple weeks ago. <BR> <BR> It was delicious. Just had 1 1/2. My parents loved them and my hubby did too. So that is what counts! My hubby had like 4! <BR> <BR> We went for lunch (steak, veggies, and mashed potatoes, I didn't finish the potato... Fri, 17 Jul 2009 12:07:16 EST I'm back.... THe weekend was fun. A very long drive but well worth it. I always enjoy going to my sis's house during this time of the year because it's monsoon season..but for some reason the last couple of years the rain just seems to run away from me. Yeah...not funny. You see, were I live, it hardly EVER rains. And I love rain. A few days before we got there my brother in law told us they had a huge storm, they were without electricity for like 5hours! I was excited. When we got there...clouds started ... Thu, 16 Jul 2009 02:15:46 EST Thank you I want to thank everyone from the bottom of my heart. I am in terrible worry about my dad. He is my hero and seeing him like this kills me. He is a strong man and I know he will pull through no matter what. The hardest thing is, that of my siblings I'm the one that lives closer. My sister has been here for 2 weeks to help my mom out. I'm taking her back tomorrow, she lives like 5 hours away. I have to be strong for my dad and for my mom. My mom is a very strong woman but also worries so much ... Thu, 9 Jul 2009 13:50:52 EST Bad news from my Dad's doc... Today my dad finally had his doctor's appointment (remember he went to the ER on 6/23/09). The MRI, cat scan and a bunch of other tests results were handed to his doctor. Turns out he has 2 discs that have slipped. That is what is causing him so much pain. The doctor doesn't think he has a hernia, he thinks that what he feels is the pressure from the slipped discs. But there's more. The doctor sees a mass in between these 2 discs. He doesn't think it is cancer, but my dad has to see a specia... Wed, 8 Jul 2009 14:53:28 EST Good MOnday! I wasn't as good a I wanted in regards to food, but I have done a lot worse! I completed my ab routine and my chest and back. I had more endurance this time around. My hubby is really getting results fast! I am so jealous! Men get ripped way more easy than women, but he also runs and I don't so of course that helps too. <BR> <BR> Anyway...not much to say today, I'm tired. I have to take a shower and I might go grocery shopping. Maybe.... <BR> <BR> Good night! Mon, 6 Jul 2009 23:43:58 EST Happy Independence Day! hello everyone! <BR> Hope you all have a great holiday! I still don't know exactly what my plans for the afternoon will be. I know we'll be going for sushi for lunch with my BIL. So I was a good girl and got up and did my workout! I burned 539 calories!!! <BR> <BR> ok everyone.. no cake pic today.... I think I'll take a break today...of I do something it will be something quick no cool decorations. <BR> <BR> Anyway... Have a great day! <BR> <BR> <em>232</em> <em>283</em> <em>232</em> ... Sat, 4 Jul 2009 14:28:51 EST AAAHH!! Attack of the frozen cupcakes! I've been attacked by them!.... I'll explain.. I made different types of cakes, in case I have people ask me for a tasting (like for a wedding or big orders like that). I made Red Velvet (my favorite), lemon, almond, pecan...etc... I wrap each cupcake really good in saran wrap, unfrosted of course, then put in a large container with a tight lid on it, stick them in the freezer, defrost as needed. <BR> <BR> Well the red velvet cupcake was calling my name. HEre I am putting my workout shoes on... Sat, 4 Jul 2009 00:32:12 EST The weekend is here... Every office seems to be closed for today and some even MOnday! But no me, nope. I have to remain open. So here I am at work, with nothing much to do. I finished most of this week's homework for my online course. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was my Dad's birthday. Since we were planing on having a big party and that couldn't be done since he is home injured, well we had a small dinner party for him last night. We made turkey lasagna with lowfat cottage cheese <em>211</em> , big green salad, and gar... Fri, 3 Jul 2009 13:58:47 EST I'm ON the wagon! I'm so glad I came back! During the day I am exhausted with work, school (taking 2 summer college courses!), my parents, life....etc...but as soon as I hit play on those p90x dvds... i am pumped and ready to get sweaty and work my butt off! I hope this lasts... forever! <BR> <BR> ANyway...Thanks for all the support. Guess what.. I am planning my next ink adventure. Some of you may know, I got 3 tattoos. I love them, I can just get my whole back covered, if I had the guts to lol, it hurts. Bu... Thu, 2 Jul 2009 02:13:28 EST Grabbing onto Wagon's rail! Yup, that is how I feel. I'm reaching and getting on that wagon. <BR> <BR> As some of you are aware, I've been dealing with stress in regards to my parents. They are both sick, my dad had to be taken to the hospital twice last week. It's been tough on me. I am a very serious, non-emotion showing type of person. WHich is worse, because I am completely worried/sad and upset but I just "act" strong to others. So, it's been really stressful lately. And I need something to get myself into my zon... Mon, 29 Jun 2009 13:28:43 EST Very sick...again... I have come to the conclusion that I need vitamins! I got sick....again! It seems like it was just yesterday that I got sick! <BR> <BR> I started feeling my throat hurting on Saturday it was really bad....Sunday....fever... Finally I decided to take some stronger meds so I sent my hubby across the border to get me something. So I started taking 2 kinds of meds. I was in pain, my whole body was in pain. My back, my arms, my hands....everything was hurting. With the meds my throa... Fri, 5 Jun 2009 01:09:41 EST Grad- Cake... I made one of my favorites. I've been good this week and today so I'm celebrating with a slice of cake, of course one that I made. I think I'll have a piece before grad and not after. Here it is: <BR> <BR> Dark Chocolate cake with Chocolate Fudge Buttercream & Sugared Strawberries...... <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Now... I got to go clean up and get ready... I hav... Fri, 15 May 2009 17:55:07 EST