MARGOLIS's SparkPeople Blog MARGOLIS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Crunch time I got very frustrated back in February. I was tired of eating really healthy and not seeing a ton of change on the scale. I wanted (and still want) to go to the gym on a near daily basis, but the baby is still horrible in the child watch and I don’t always have someone available at home to watch her so I can exercise. Now that the weather is getting better I’m able to do some stuff outside. <BR> <BR> My brother’s wedding is in about three weeks. I ordered my dress back when I was really mot... Fri, 18 Apr 2014 11:30:54 EST Nonsense I've fallen away from the plan already. I've been really sporadic in my tracking over the last two weeks. I was still eating fairly well and my weight has been between 253 and 256. It's good that I haven't gained, but that means that in the whole month of February I've lost about one pound. Its so depressing to me that I have so little to show for the restraint that I've shown (most of the time). <BR> <BR> I'm a little depressed that I can't get to the gym to work out. Emmy has really done ... Thu, 27 Feb 2014 10:24:06 EST Plugging along I'm still here and going strong. I finally broke through to the 250s and have been hanging out between 255-257. Gym time has been scant this week between having to work and the snow that we've gotten in NY this week. It snowed Monday and Wednesday and we're due another storm this weekend. I know I should do a home-based work out on the days I can't get to the Y, but I'm not motivated to sweat with the oldies in the living room here. I just feel like it isn't worth the time. Which I know is si... Fri, 7 Feb 2014 09:22:48 EST Gift to myself My birthday is in three weeks, give or take. My husband has been asking me what I want. Initially I said I wanted all of the Harry Potter movies. (Don't judge me!) I like to put them on for background noise when I'm doing stuff during the day. I was able to record most of them on the DVR last week, and to be very honest, I don't think I could figure out how to play the DVDs if I did get them. So the DVR thing is working out just fine. <BR> <BR> I have plenty of jewelry, most that I can't we... Wed, 29 Jan 2014 21:49:54 EST Frustrated So I'm three weeks into my healthy eating campaign. I'm eating nutritious, whole foods. I'm staying in calorie ranges. As of last week, I had lost just about 11 pounds. This past week I'm about 1.5-2 pounds heavier. I weigh myself every day, so I'm sure some people will wag their fingers and say that's my problem, but keeping a close eye on it every day keeps me on track. <BR> <BR> I just want to scream when I see that I haven't lost anything this week and I feel like I've been working. So.... Tue, 28 Jan 2014 09:32:25 EST Keeping it fresh Two weeks and going strong! I've lost 11.2 pounds so far through a lot of healthy eating and a little bit of exercise. <BR> <BR> I am most thrilled with all of the good food I've been eating. I really don't feel deprived or like I'm missing anything. You really *can* lose weight and eat well. I think one of the things that has made me successful is eating a good breakfast. In my previous life of just grabbing whatever, I ate a lot of carb-y starchy stuff-waffles, bagels, English muffins (pl... Wed, 22 Jan 2014 17:14:49 EST So many changes So its been less than two weeks since I started the healthy eating plan 2014. I've lost about 10 pounds so far (yay) and I've seen a lot of other changes as well. My skin has cleared up a bunch, my knees don't throb when I stand up, I don't walk stooped like an old woman because my back is stiff and even my cycle has changed. <BR> <BR> I stopped taking birth control a couple of years ago for health and moral reasons and have been sticking to tracking my signs of fertility to be all in touch... Sun, 19 Jan 2014 12:05:04 EST Mama's kitchen I've been doing a lot of cooking since we started our healthy eating campaign. I got a lot of tasty new things at the grocery store today- spaghetti squash, broccoli rabe and some cut of pork that looks like it will be great in the crock pot. <BR> <BR> I made some homemade meatballs today as well, using ground turkey, chicken and beef. My husband likes to have pasta and meatballs and I'm just not super thrilled with the taste of the frozen ones that we usually buy. They just don't taste lik... Fri, 17 Jan 2014 23:08:38 EST losing I weigh myself every morning because I feel like it keeps me more on track. I was 264 this morning, so I'm down 5.2 pounds from last week. I'm pretty proud of that amount of progress over seven days. <BR> <BR> <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> Wed, 15 Jan 2014 22:18:09 EST working it out I've been doing really well with tracking my food consistently and honestly. I've been within my calorie range and I've been doing my best to get the right types of foods in my diet during the day. I haven't been so good at exercising though. Every time I wanted to go to the gym, there was a reason I couldn't get there. Most of them are lame, but sometimes I feel like its not worth starting WW3 with my husband over it. We're technically on this weight loss journey together, but it seems more ... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 23:00:10 EST work success I worked today, which I know isn't much different than most people with it being a Monday and all. I just don't work that much (by choice). I was able to do really well today. I woke up early enough to make breakfast at home. Scrambled eggs and an English muffin with jam and I got my dunkin donuts coffee on the way in this morning- medium instead of large. <BR> <BR> Around mid- morning a lovely lady brought in a box of crumb muffins, a box of chocolate chip cookies and a basket of fresh fru... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 22:47:22 EST Challenges My 2014 comeback has been coming up roses for me so far. I've been eating well, I've been moving and I've seen the results of my hard work on the scale. This weekend is proving to be a challenge. <BR> <BR> We went out for dinner at the hibachi place for my brother's birthday last night. Lean meats, veggies, a little bit of rice...not too terrible, until you watch them throw slabs of butter on top of everything. It tasted lovely...but eating so much fatty food after I've been "on-plan" for a... Sun, 12 Jan 2014 09:49:22 EST First month recap I re-started my SP program on December 10th. Even though I neglected to track or make 100% healthy choices for a couple of weeks around Christmas, I am proud to report that I am seven pounds lighter than I was just one month ago! <BR> <BR> I'm thrilled with my progress so far, especially given that it wasn't a continuous effort. I've proven to myself that I can fall...and get back up again. That is a greater success than knowing the numbers on the scale are lower. Fri, 10 Jan 2014 14:55:55 EST Follow up Christmas was wonderful for the family this year. I always like spending time with everyone and the more hectic and kid-filled that it is, the more I love it. My husband is the complete opposite, having grown up as an only child. He doesn't love the craziness of my family as much as I do. <BR> <BR> I got a little lax with tracking and purposeful exercise between our weekend away right before Christmas, Christmas and the new year. I did still try to make good choices for food and portion siz... Thu, 9 Jan 2014 12:06:10 EST Re-entry So my hubby and I went to the doctor last week. Mostly to establish ourselves with a new primary care doctor, but also because we need help. We talk a big talk about needing to lose weight, but never follow through with the actions to achieve that goal. Being the glutton for punishment that I am, I decided that I needed to start tracking and eating better NOW, rather than waiting until after the holidays and the cookie extravaganza that the next week will be. So I've been back here on SP for ... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 23:27:25 EST The years fly by So its been, what, four years since I was last active on this site? <BR> <BR> So much has changed, and so much has stayed the same. <BR> <BR> The changes: <BR> <BR> I'm married now. I met a nice young fella a few months after my last post. He's a big kinda guy too. <BR> <BR> I'm a mama! I had my sweet baby girl in September 2012. She is on the verge of walking, but she crawls faster than I can follow her most days. <BR> <BR> The same (or a little worse): <BR> <BR> I'm no thinner th... Sat, 20 Jul 2013 18:01:38 EST Fierce I'm feeling like I could take on a gang of young thugs. <BR> <BR> I probably couldn't, but I always feel so good and so strong when I get out of the pool. <BR> <BR> Ahhhh..... <BR> <BR> I did more than I thought I would today. I haven't swum regularly in over four years, so I know my endurance really isn't there, not to mention that I'm 60 pounds heavier than when I swam in college. Meh. In any case, I swam two miles (3300 yards) in just under two hours. I did a lot of easy swimming, jus... Sat, 1 Aug 2009 13:21:57 EST Sidelined.... ...or I would be if I wasn't as motivated as I am. I'm really excited about all of the gym time I've put in recently. My body, however, is protesting. <BR> <BR> Loudly. <BR> <BR> If I even look in the direction of the treadmill, my shins scream in protest, cramping and siezing like little epileptic muscles. Therefore, I do not run. <BR> <BR> In the very small window of time, three weeks ago mind you, that I did get to yawg, I pulled a muscle in my left side. That spasms every time I get ou... Thu, 30 Jul 2009 22:23:22 EST Success!!!! So on my front page there I stated that my goal was to hit the gym 10 times a month, to get my money's worth...I did it! Got home from the gym a little bit ago, and it was my tenth trip there this month, AND I still have a few days in July to work with! <BR> <BR> I knew that I needed to set a low goal for myself, like only 10 days in the month, to get myself motivated to leave the house and get there. I took off after the third time there. Outside of the gym I've started walking around the p... Wed, 29 Jul 2009 12:24:52 EST Long Weekend I hate my boss because she's a wretched bitch with a nasty attitude, but I like her because I seem to be her golden child. I'm still on orientation for my nursing job, like 20 other people she schedules, but I'm just about the only one who has had every weekend off since we started. (C- if you read this- I love you man!) <BR> <BR> I don't mind working weekends. I've done it since I was 16, a long 11 years ago. I don't remember what its like to have every weekend off. Now that I do for the su... Tue, 28 Jul 2009 07:40:55 EST I know I'm not the only one... We all do it. Set goals for important times in our life. A wedding. Class reunion. Cruise to Jamiaca. <BR> <BR> Seven years ago today I started dating the most amazing man. I thought the sun shone out of his ass, and did for 2 1/2 years, even after he repeatedly broke my little college girl heart. He never cheated or anything like that, but due to a series of events that I put in place, I got hurt over and over and over. I take full responsibility for the whole mess and I look back and I kno... Fri, 24 Jul 2009 16:13:28 EST What a night... Work last night could have been a little bit better, but let me tell you about MOTIVATION. <BR> <BR> Dear Lord! I know I'm not the thinnest thing around, but I really have a hard time understanding how people get SOOOOO big that they can't wipe themselves after using the bathroom. <BR> <BR> I know thats mean spirited and unkind and the whole deal, but last I checked, YOU weren't the one in up to your ELBOW wiping the mess up. Thu, 23 Jul 2009 18:56:51 EST Full Circle So I just read over my blog entries from the last time I was active here, just about two years ago. I could seriously change 2007 to 2009 and everything would still be just about the same. <BR> <BR> Whats different: <BR> <BR> I've graduated! I'm a real, live nurse now, making a real, live nurses paycheck! <BR> <BR> I'm single! I ended up engaged to the guy I was dating back in 07, but he didn't support me when I needed it most. Like when I was on Weight Watchers for our wedding (I lost 39 ... Wed, 22 Jul 2009 19:29:58 EST Whirlwind It was a helluva weekend. I went to a birthday party Saturday night and started out very good. Just one beer, only pretzels, not potato chips and a hamburger. I was supposed to work that night, but I was irresponsible and got drunk. I called out and things only went down hill from there. Long story short, I ate more after that, but within two hours everything was gone. As one friend put it, it looked like I drank a rainbow that night. Ahem. <BR> <BR> Suffice it to say- I'm never drinking ag... Mon, 25 Jun 2007 20:05:51 EST Status Quo I know I shouldn't be so impatient, but I find myself boiling over because I haven't seen any movement on the scale. I know its not that important-and it has only been a couple of days. But-URGH! (How much worse would it be f I did see movement, but just in the wrong direction?!) <BR> <BR> I'm feeling pretty good right now though. Had a nice high protein breakfast at an hour normally reserved for lunch. I have plans to meet my fella out for the afternoon and hopefully things will go as smoot... Thu, 21 Jun 2007 13:03:48 EST This is kickin your ass Had a helluva day. Work was an absolute nightmare. Hospital with 300+ patients and none of the computers work. This is what the administration calls planned downtime for maintenance. I call it Hell. Tomayto/tomahto. It sucked any way you slice it. <BR> <BR> I left work totally lethargic and not interested in going to the gym. I hit the cell phone place, ran some errands and drank my AM DD coffee (milk, not cream, with splenda). The caffeine gave me just enough of a push to get into the gym ... Wed, 20 Jun 2007 15:41:46 EST Ch-ch-ch-changes I've decided to truly embrace this whole following the calorie recommendations and in true form to attain that goal I had not one, but two! open faced s'mores this afternoon. <BR> <BR> And I don't feel bad about it at all. They were damn good. <BR> <BR> I definitely notice changes now, even though its only been a week. In the past I would have either denied myself the pleasure, or totally gone overboard and had about six of them and not just two. Today I had just the two I initially made a... Tue, 19 Jun 2007 14:56:12 EST Satisfaction I'm working on getting more calories in during the day. Its a little hard though when I sleep most of the normal eating hours. <BR> <BR> In the past I've had a terrible problem with eating in that I never listened to my bodys signals that I was full. I'm trying to be more in tune now and stop when I first feel full. Its working out rather well, but I'm not getting enough of what I need. After my salad I felt full, but I ate a big bowl of watermelon anyhow because I know I'm not going to mak... Mon, 18 Jun 2007 13:49:05 EST Missteps I see that I've been eating less than the recommended calories. Once upon a time, that would have been good. But now, I know that I need those extra 300 calories or whatever to keep myself going. I've been going to the gym when I get out of work at 8 am and I find myself falling asleep on the bike or on the elliptical. Don't ask me how I do it, but I do. To make matters worse, I live 40 minutes away from the gym, so its not like I have a quick trip hime, then sleep. Its a struggle. I'm also g... Sun, 17 Jun 2007 18:32:00 EST Hopeful The past few days have been hectic, as they will be for the rest of the summer. I've been keeping up thoug-making smart choices and exercising even if I only have a little time-some is better than none, right? <BR> <BR> I know a lot of my success, shortlived as it is, is due to the fact that I keep a little journal with me at all times. Its easy for me toforget what I ate and when, so having this little book to write niblets down in has really helped me to keep track of things. Looking over... Sat, 16 Jun 2007 13:53:11 EST One step forward So I made it through the first day. Thats good. <BR> <BR> I popped some blisters. Thats bad. I've been going to the podiatrist for foot pain, but every time I bring up the blisters he just tells me to wear different socks. wtf. I pay you a crapload of money every week. The least you could do is humor me and just look at the damn things. <BR> <BR> I won't be walkig me-thinks. I do have weight training scheduled for today though, so I think it all worked out ok. Tue, 12 Jun 2007 10:28:19 EST Recap Its been less than a day, but I'm feeling better about this stuff. I actually followed the things on the sparkpoints page-I wrote down some motivators and made the collages. I have everything in a little book that I can use to track my progress, write down notes and the like. <BR> <BR> I am definitely a boredom eater. Or a "I don't have anything better to do, so hey! Lets fill this gaping maw" eater. I was pretty good most of the day, but after getting home from my marathon walk (about seve... Mon, 11 Jun 2007 19:58:20 EST So good at being bad I waffle on my dedication to losing weight. I can do it. I can't. I can do it. I can't. I HAVE to. I can't. <BR> <BR> I've been walking a lot with a classmate (my first Sullivan county friend!) which has sort of been my stepping stone into more activity and thought on really doing this. Walking led to the gym again, where I've just been doing the bike, since my toes are on strike (three blisters on one foot). Long story short, I weighed myself there on their super duper scale, and I was jus... Mon, 11 Jun 2007 12:53:08 EST Stopping by I remember why I don't do these online things too much anymore-sometimes they're so much of a hassle and so time consuming that I spend more time logging in what I've done and what I've eaten than the doing or eating! <BR> <BR> Its been a couple of days. I've still eaten some bad stuff, but Rome wasn't built in a day, ya know. <BR> <BR> I DID start the Couch to 5K program again though. Its something I (and many others) found on the net. I started it ages ago but stopped because I was ruini... Sun, 20 May 2007 15:39:38 EST Starting Over My semester ended yesterday, so I figure I should find something other than studying to occupy my time. I started the day out with some M&M's for breakfast-not the best, I know, but they had almonds, so I think protein! I know thats not the best way to start off my new and healthy self, but its a process, not a moment in time. <BR> <BR> I went for a long walk with my sister and a friend though. We went about two miles, which isn't as much as I wanted to do, but I know I have a tendency to ge... Wed, 16 May 2007 13:37:15 EST