MARATHONMOM26.2's SparkPeople Blog MARATHONMOM26.2's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Did I do that, or was it astronomy? Those of you who know me know that I like logistics. I like to have information, plan for contingencies, anticipate and be prepared for most everything that might happen - I guess its my way of controlling my life. I try not to obsess but that tendency is always there too. <BR> <BR> I don't handle sudden changes very well. I don't like unanticipated glitches and I don't like surprises when it comes to my running. I can adjust and adapt, but I need time to wrap my head around things to do so.... Sat, 6 Apr 2013 22:25:47 EST Fun in the Mud, or The Day the Marines Cheered for Me On June 5th I did my first mud run, at Camp Pendleton Marine Base. This is often referred to as the Grand-Daddy of Mud Runs, taking place for over 30 years (so I've been told... but don't shoot me if I'm wrong!). Its a 10k on dirt roads and over hills (BIG HILLS!), across a lake, through some streams, over walls, through culverts, fire hose spray and a place known as Combat Town. <BR> <BR> Registration for this event opens on January 1st each year and is capped at 6100 entrants. It usually s... Tue, 14 Jun 2011 14:29:55 EST CA Beach Cities, Tiffany necklaces and Pixie Dust... All it took to get me fired up again about running was a little bling-bling incentive. 1 year post-op I started walking again with my running club. Normally I wouldn't have bothered driving out to the club meet-ups so early on a Sunday morning because I couldn't run yet, but they started a walking group to help get people ready for a 5k. Our club is co-sponsoring the local Weight Watchers 5k Challenge on 5/22 and we knew that offering training and guidance to the local WW members would be a g... Mon, 9 May 2011 16:47:26 EST Traveling the Recovery Road: My first HM post-op Today marks a milestone on my road to recovery. Many of you know that I had major foot surgery in March of last year and was told that it would be 2 years before I could run again. I am almost 14 months post-op and today I walked a Half Marathon and lived to tell you about it! <BR> <BR> I have always thought of myself as a very slow walker but a middle-of-the-pack runner. Walking an entire race is not something I'm comfortable doing... but I was feeling desperate to get back out there, and b... Sun, 1 May 2011 23:29:43 EST So happy to be 17 again! No, I'm not really 17 again, although that would be a neat trick, to turn the clock back 33 years... I am, however, back into the 170's on the scale!! You know how everyone celebrates making it back to "one-derland"? Well, I'm back to 17# - and I'm loving it! I have weighed as much as 250 at the worst point so being back to a weight I haven't seen in many years is truly a reason to celebrate. And I am!! <BR> <img src=""> <img src="http://... Sun, 20 Mar 2011 20:48:52 EST 57 miles... virgin territory I'm exhausted. I said on fb I wouldn't whine anymore, but can I please just get some of it out of my system here? I stayed home last night but didn't get much sleep, so at 5:30 this morning I wasn't thrilled that I had committed to this darn bike ride. We had planned to meet at a park about 10 miles down the trail, ride the 35 miles RT to the beach and then when we passed the park anyone who wanted to forgo the "small" 20+ mile leg go get in their car and go home. I planned to be one of those... Sat, 1 Jan 2011 20:19:13 EST Turkey Tri Open Water Swim Recap Yesterday was my first open water race. Two weeks ago I went to the race site and participated in a clinic for the sole purpose of swimming the course once before race day. On that day the water temp was 63 degrees and I swam the 1/2 mile at a very leisurely pace, stopping to verify the course three or four times... and I finished in 24:19. I have been training, both in the pool and in open water, for nearly 2 months in preparation for this race, so I thought not only was I ready, but I felt ... Mon, 29 Nov 2010 16:09:30 EST Isn't it nice to be an Athlete? It's Thanksgiving Day, and its cold and windy outside. We are due at a friend's house at 3 pm but my share of the meal is ready to go as I cooked yesterday. My plan for today was to get in a long bike ride (20 miles) in the morning, eat a healthy breakfast and lunch and then head over for Thanksgiving dinner with a food plan in mind. <BR> <BR> When I awoke at 4 am the winds were howling and I could hear the rain... uh-oh. I went back to sleep thinking I could always go to the gym later. Then... Thu, 25 Nov 2010 17:47:59 EST My Thanksgiving Day "Race Plan" (Because Thanksgiving meals are marathon like!) I am feeling inspired. First, I was tasked by my triathlon coach to come up with a "race plan" for Thanksgiving day so that I don't just go into the holiday with a license to overeat. Then today I read PrincessNurse's blog, "My Thanksgiving Plan of Attack" <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=3801603#c<BR>omments </link> , followed by The Daily Spark blog "8 Ways to Trim the Fat (and Extra Calories) from Thanksgiving Dinner". <link> Tue, 23 Nov 2010 14:50:04 EST My 24 minute mile and new Keens Last Monday I decided that I needed to start walking. Just as I decided to get rid of my boot (walking cast) two weeks prior and switch to running shoes (with mixed results), I decided that if I were ever going to be able to rejoin my running club and at least get out and walk with them then I needed to start walking. So at PT I got the go ahead to walk on the treadmill, on the condition that I held on and unweighted my injured foot at least partially, with each step. <BR> <BR> I really stru... Sat, 31 Jul 2010 15:38:53 EST From Crutches to Cardio - and the battle of the scale I know I haven't been around much this past month (two months??)... Once I got off bed rest and started working I just felt like a hamster on a wheel - always running but never getting anywhere. Then there was the rest of life... daughter returning from Switzerland, son graduating HS, family coming into town, graduation party... you know, life. <BR> <BR> So many of my dear spark friends have popped over to my page to ask me how I'm doing, how my healing is progressing, what's next for me... ... Wed, 23 Jun 2010 15:02:31 EST Two steps forward, one step back... but try not to put any weight on that foot while you're steppin I saw the surgeon yesterday for my 4 week (post cast) checkup. The last couple of days my foot has been aching where my bones were broken so I was glad that I was getting a checkup. The last time I was there I got my hard cast cut off and starting wearing my walking cast (my "boot") and using crutches. I was told at that appointment to start putting weight on my foot, up to my tolerance, while using the crutches. I saw this as progress and had hoped that yesterday's appt. would mean the start... Thu, 20 May 2010 16:53:17 EST Can it really only be 9 weeks post-op?? I feel like I have been recovering from this surgery for-EVER!. I find it hard to believe that its only been 3 weeks since my hard cast came off, because I feel like I'm moving at full speed even though I'm on crutches. Problem is, I don't mean that in a good way... <BR> <BR> I'm definitely making progress, and for that I'm grateful. What I'm most frustrated by is the fact that I'm well enough to go to work, to drive a car, to go to the store (although I need someone to push my grocery cart ... Wed, 12 May 2010 14:47:25 EST Ground Control to Major Tom: Commence Post-op Phase 3 I don't know why I was compelled to name this blog after the Bowie song, but maybe its partly because getting my cast off today was a bit surreal... <BR> <BR> My friend Wendy drove me to the Uber Doc for an 8:15 appt., and we waited over an hour to go back to the cast room. His assistant cut the cast off and then left... more waiting... at 9:50 the Doc came in and started removing my sutures. Snip, pull, snip, pull... WAIT. He hurriedly confers with his assistant in hushed tones and then dis... Wed, 21 Apr 2010 21:33:20 EST Who Me? Why, thank you!! I learned today that I had been selected (elected?) as a Spark People Motivator, in the fitness category. I didn't know whether to be excited or humbled, but in the end I am both. <BR> <BR> I am so excited to be recognized, because I have learned that staying positive and encouraging others is a key component to my own success. Not unlike 12 step programs, where sharing your story is a requirement of continued recovery -- investing into other people's success pays dividends into my own. Hel... Tue, 13 Apr 2010 16:57:56 EST 48 hours of misery yields to 1 minute revelation I not a huge proponent of whining. While I think it has its place every now and again as a means of venting, too much of it is a sure way to drive people away. So I'll be brief - I just endured 48 hours of chronic pain that even Vicodin wouldn't relieve. In an effort to distract myself at 3:30 in the morning I was surfing through SP, reading blogs, motivational spark pages, articles, etc. <BR> <BR> All of a sudden, it hit me. I'm going to be 50 this August. That means in just 4 months! I hav... Fri, 9 Apr 2010 19:57:25 EST 4 weeks post-op Today marks the 1 month mark since my foot surgery; since its 1:35 in the morning, obviously I'm not sleeping much yet but I do feel a lot better than I did 2-3 weeks ago. I got my 3rd cast on yesterday and it is the best one so far, at least as far as casts go LOL. <BR> <BR> This morning I had my son take me to Sam's Club before they opened to the public (business hours). I went to buy a walker with a seat on it, thinking maybe I could return my knee walker and use this one instead... since... Wed, 7 Apr 2010 04:52:26 EST Post-op Phase 1 completed... On to Phase 2 Today is the 17th day after my surgery, significant because it was my first post-op visit to the Doctors. My monster cast came off today and was replaced by a much smaller, albeit tighter, cast. My daughter drove me to the appointment and helped me out, and acted as my photographer (so blame her if the pictures freak you out!) <BR> <BR> Not long after arriving we were taken back to the "Cast Room" and Rosa, the doctor's assistant, started removing the tape and stocking off the top of my cast... Mon, 29 Mar 2010 21:53:13 EST 2 Weeks Post-Op Most everyone I know here on SP already knows that I have had my surgery. I've even posted graphic pics on FB, inspired in part by LIGHTNINGRUNNER's blogs and pics about her surgery. I've just been a bit slow at writing this blog, wondering whether or not I should even bother. In the end I've decided to do it; mostly for myself, so that I can have an outlet for my feelings as well as a record of what I'm going through. <BR> <BR> It's 3 am and I've had about an hour's sleep tonight. Night ti... Thu, 25 Mar 2010 07:03:56 EST Letting go; lessons I've learned on SparkPeople This week has been one of the more stressful weeks in a month of stressful weeks. I don't want to have a pity party of one, but sometimes life is complicated and sometimes its simple and joyous, and lately I've had a lot of the former and far less of the latter! <BR> <BR> The thing I noticed tonight is that in spite of being on the verge of tears multiple times today AND having to bite my tongue rather than start a tirade that might not end, for the first time in a loooong time I didn't eat ... Wed, 10 Mar 2010 22:34:36 EST My first Triathlon - Lessons my Mother never taught me 1. If you wake up at 4;45 a.m. the morning of your first triathlon because it is raining so hard that the windows are rattling, maybe you should just go back to sleep. <BR> <BR> 2. If you wait until race day to sign up and they post on the internet that only 50 spots remain, with registration starting at 3 pm the day before you plan to register, maybe you should just forget about it. <BR> <BR> 3. If you ask a friend who lives closer than you do to try to get you a bib at 6 a.m. when the gat... Sun, 28 Feb 2010 00:38:30 EST Surgery in my future? (Part III) Just an update: <BR> <BR> I officially have a frayed peroneal tendon and synovitis. Translation: I'm not a cripple, but the pain will only get worse if I don't do something about it. <BR> <BR> I have struggled with multiple medical opinions about what course of action to take... Today I decided that yes, I could just repair the tendon and be out of running for 6 months but I think I should go ahead and fix the underlying anatomical deformity that caused the tendon to wear out in the first ... Thu, 11 Feb 2010 19:59:40 EST Sparkfest Surf City and my joy at Competition Exactly one week ago I was on my way to LAX to pick up a Spark friend from the East Coast, one of 4 flying in for the weekend. A bunch of us had been on a team together all last year (some of them were actually on it since 2008) and we had become good friends, chatting daily about our journey's, our struggles and accomplishments. I think that one of the things that drew us all together was our running... so it was exciting to think about meeting for the first time and running a race together.... Thu, 11 Feb 2010 19:53:15 EST Rock 'n Roll AZ and Sparkfest* PHX-2010 [*Thanks to my dear friend SORGIN for coining the phrase "Sparkfest" to describe an informal gathering of SparkFriends, particularly when centered around an athletic event.] <BR> <BR> This past Sunday I ran my 3rd marathon, my first without any race course support. I flew to Phoenix by myself, and while many of my friends from Spark People and my running club were running the 1/2, I didn't know of anyone else running the full. To say I was a little anxious would be an understatement! Add t... Tue, 19 Jan 2010 17:01:19 EST My Sparkversary - a focus on the good! One year ago I joined Spark People. I had joined a weight loss challenge at my gym and was looking for a way to track my food without writing the same thing down over and over again. An internet search for online food trackers brought me here, and for that I will always be grateful! <BR> <BR> In the past year I have lost over 25 pounds and gained so much - self esteem, athleticism, a healthy SUSTAINABLE lifestyle and best of all, some extremely dear friends. I have not yet reached my goal we... Mon, 11 Jan 2010 21:29:51 EST Surgery in my future? (Part II) After many calls to the Doctor's office, many messages left, I finally got a call back today. It seems they wrote my number down wrong, and have been calling without being able to reach me (hello? Don't you check the patient's file when that happens? My number is right there!)... Anyway, I waited all day for the Doctor's call because the secretary said he wanted to speak to me himself... <BR> <BR> Its not good news. <em>198</em> <BR> He says my surgeries are very complex and he will not do... Thu, 7 Jan 2010 20:04:05 EST Surgery in my future? I went to the ortho today, a new guy who specializes in ankles. He came highly recommended by a number of different sources and I was anxious to see what he could do for me. Let me back up a bit here... <BR> <BR> I was born with club feet, my left more severe than my right. My mother didn't have the money or the energy to have me operated on (it would have meant 3 months in casts by the time they did both feet) so she put me in orthopedic shoes for 12 years and hoped for the best. I have kno... Wed, 30 Dec 2009 22:05:24 EST Must be something in the air... Sunday morning I set out to run 20 miles. A year ago that would've been no big deal, but just last week I wrote that I had the worst 5 mile run of my life... so I truly had no idea what this day would bring. <BR> <BR> I went to bed late Saturday night (after swallowing 2 Aleve in hopes of reducing the swelling in my ankle overnight) and planned to get up at 4:30 a.m. I had laid out my clothes, my kinesio tape, my water bottle filled with Accelerade; I had loaded my belt with gu, a baggie of ... Tue, 22 Dec 2009 21:46:41 EST Who knew I'm a Cougar? I don't know whether to be flattered or insulted, but I was called a Cougar Friday night. I was in Vegas with my friend and 2 of her friends from HS. The three of them are in their mid-thirties, which doesn't make me quite old enough to be their mother but certainly old enough to have babysat for them... anyway, we went out to a club at the Palms. Being young beautiful women we were put on the VIP Guest list and whisked right into the club, without having to pay the cover charge. I was thinki... Tue, 8 Dec 2009 00:36:59 EST Lessons in Patience and Humility Six months ago I was writing a blog about how easy my 18 mile run was - Just another Sunday Run Day - and I was on top of the world and confident in my new running successes. I had a series of really good HM races, each one faster than the one before and I dared to dream of even greater success... <BR> <BR> Then I got hurt. Whether or not my injury was brought on by my running or simply made worse by my anatomy I'll never know, and it doesn't matter. I do know that I refused to accept an Rx ... Mon, 23 Nov 2009 00:55:24 EST From Pudgy-Wudgy to Athlete: My Journey When I was about 5 or 6 years old I started putting on weight. A little tummy at first, and then a big roll around my middle, followed soon after by another roll just above the first and some jiggle to my thighs. My family used to lovingly (? I can't believe I just said that - teasingly would be more accurate) call me Pudgy-Wudgy, in part because I loved that rhyme about Fuzzy-Wuzzy the Bear. I would laugh, but inside I was sad. <BR> <BR> From 3rd grade through 9th grade I put on more weigh... Tue, 20 Oct 2009 22:31:04 EST Conquer the Bridge... then Cruise the Beach... This is the theme for the CA Dreamin' Racing Series, comprised of three events (Marathon or Half-Marathon Distance) done in three cities within a specified time frame. This year I started with the Surf City Half Marathon in Huntington Beach in February <img src=""> <BR> I then went up to San Francisco in July <img src=""> <BR> and yesterday I completed the series by running the Long Beach Ha... Mon, 12 Oct 2009 18:30:28 EST I admit it: I'm FAT I started writing this blog half an hour ago, but as I got to the part where I accept the truth about my weight my system froze and I lost the whole thing... Is there a message there? I don't know, but I'm going to face my fear anyway and try to write this again... <BR> <BR> You see, I've been trying to kid myself for a long time. I have known for 30 years that I'm fat. I also know how to lose weight - I've lost HUNDREDS of pounds over the past 30 years, but haven't kept them off. I keep gai... Thu, 1 Oct 2009 20:45:21 EST Disneyland 1/2 Marathon... or, the Race of the Month Most of you know that I have been struggling with knee pain since mid-May. In spite of this I have entered and completed one race per month since the OC 1/2 Marathon on May 3rd. Well not exactly one per month, since I ran both a 1/2 and a full Marathon in May and I skipped August and went on vacation instead, but nearly so since this last one was the first weekend in September. Anyway, these are minor details, right? <BR> <BR> Sunday's race at Disneyland has one of the most impressive (and h... Tue, 8 Sep 2009 02:32:56 EST Home Again I returned last night from a 7 day Alaskan Cruise. While it was fun, I'm sorry to say that it didn't live up to my expectations, and I was a little bit disappointed :( Don't get me wrong, I had a good time, its just that in my head I had built it up to be the best cruise ever... we were on a ship we had sailed on before and had loved; I was going somewhere I'd wanted to go for a very long time; I was with my family, and I was thinner than I've ever been for a cruise! I guess I just thought it... Mon, 24 Aug 2009 14:12:58 EST San Francisco Marathon Race Report Some of my Spark friends have been asking when they're going to see my race report from last Sunday's 1/2 marathon... and I've been avoiding writing it, because I've been struggling with my feelings about this race. I went to SF with trepidation (since I was injured) and determination (since I was injured!) and I spent my entire weekend thinking about my body and the race. Would I be OK? I never doubted that I would finish the race, I just feared what kind of pain I might have to contend with... Sat, 1 Aug 2009 16:20:22 EST You may know me, but I'm still learning about myself... A few days ago I rhetorically asked "Do you know me?" and went on to describe what I imagined would be my experience in the San Francisco 1/2 marathon. My plan was to walk as much as possible and run only when necessary to maintain the minimum pace allowed for finishing - 16 minutes/mile. I'm injured and was told to minimize my running time as it would only slow my healing (or make my injury worse...). <BR> <BR> I learned some truths about myself as a result of this injury and race: <BR> <B... Mon, 27 Jul 2009 15:52:01 EST Do you know me? I'm the walker at the back of the pack. <BR> <BR> I'm the runner-wannabe with the knee brace, ankle wrap and ibuprofen bottle. <BR> <BR> I'm the slow one who keeps thinking "Maybe I should try running?" but know that I really shouldn't, at least not today. <BR> <BR> I'm the one who's blocking your way (Sorry about that!) and hobbling along at a snail's pace. <BR> <BR> I'm the one who's worried that I won't finish before I'm forced off the course. <BR> <BR> But I'm also the one who has ... Thu, 23 Jul 2009 01:18:02 EST 10 p.m. and I've got a confession to make: I hate house cleaning. I don't mean the spring cleaning - attacking the whole house and making it fresh kind of house cleaning, although I'm not a big fan of that either - I mean the everyday, run of the mill dust/vacuum/scrub/mop kind of cleaning. <BR> <BR> I blame it on my mother (Isn't that why mother's exist? To blame for everything wrong in our lives? My kids certainly seem to think so...) because she liked to clean, found it therapeutic, and therefore never really taught me how its don... Thu, 23 Jul 2009 00:52:59 EST My first duathlon and the Angel who found me Today I completed my first duathlon (run, bike, run). It was an all women's event held at and around Disneyland. I entered it about 2 months ago during a moment of insanity; at the time I had only been running but I was lured by the promise of a free ticket to Disneyland... in hindsight I wonder why that even mattered, since I used to be an annual passholder and don't even care to go anymore... but there you go. Offer me a "freebie" and I become a different person. I just love a bargain!! <BR... Mon, 15 Jun 2009 00:40:05 EST 26.2 - Courage to Start, Strength to Endure, Resolve to Finish... It's Monday morning, 22 hours post marathon finish and I'm sitting in my easy chair with ice on my knee, ankle and back, and my medal around my neck. I debated whether or not to put that medal on this morning since I had no plans of leaving the house, but hey - I earned it and I want to remember the glory while I nurse my aches today <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> As you may know, I wasn't sure if I was going to be able to start this marathon, let alone finish it, due to achilles tendonitis. I've be... Mon, 1 Jun 2009 19:51:11 EST "T" minus 2 days and a wake-up T minus 2 days and a wake-up, and I'm having a crisis of confidence. <BR> <BR> I have come full circle since my first (and only) full marathon 14 months ago. I started training for that goal with every intention and belief that I would accomplish it - failure was NOT an option. Although I had anxiety over the ever-increasing training distances and often lay awake all night before a club run wondering if I would be able to keep up with my group, I knew in my heart that I WOULD cross that fin... Thu, 28 May 2009 23:29:30 EST My 5th 1/2 Marathon or 14 down, 36 to go... I was trying to think of an appropriate title for this blog, and I realized that I've been counting races this year, and this is my 4th 1/2 this year, but my 5th in my lifetime. Hard to believe, because it feels like I've been doing them forever, but no. I ran my first 1/2 twenty six years ago and didn't run another until last Labor day. Wow. <BR> <BR> There is no comparison between my first half all those years ago and now. That one was harder than I expected as the first 4 miles or so wer... Tue, 5 May 2009 19:05:59 EST How to run and save a marraige... I guess that's not an entirely accurate name for my current state of affairs since my marriage is pretty solid, but I have started to feel like running, which was a unifying activity for us for the past year and a half is starting to become divisive. You see, I am starting to really blossom as a runner and my husband is barely hanging on until he can stop running. <BR> <BR> In the past my wonderful husband was always faster than I, had more stamina than I and could start and stop a running ... Sun, 19 Apr 2009 17:47:13 EST 18 miles, Just another (Run) Sunday This morning I ran 18 miles and thought nothing of it. That in itself should be cause for celebration, but the truth is that the run was a piece of cake and it gave me plenty of time to think... the real celebration is not that I ran 18 miles, but that I ran 18 miles and thought nothing of it! That I went on with my day the same as if I had done a little 5 mile loop around my neighborhood! No exhaustion, no aches that didn't go away once I stopped running, no limping, gimping or whining. <BR>... Mon, 16 Mar 2009 00:31:23 EST On becoming a Princess... Ok, I admit it. I've always wanted to be Royal. Yes, I even dreamed of Prince Andrew marrying ME when I was a kid (we're the same age), and was truly disappointed when he picked Fergie over me...even though I was already married. So when I heard that Disney was putting on a race for PRINCESSES, I just KNEW I had to participate. There was No Way I could resist earning a Tiara of my very own... I just had to figure out the logistics of making my dream come true. <BR> <BR> And that's when my fa... Wed, 11 Mar 2009 00:02:50 EST Dang It! This is hard work!! I just got back from the gym (where I feel like a fixture since I'm there nearly every day!) and I'm soooo frustrated. I did my cardio for 65 mins and then weighed myself, only to find that I haven't lost anything since last Saturday. I was supposed to lift weights with the trainer after that but we started talking nutrition and she used my session to review my nutrition goals. <BR> <BR> Turns out I've been eating TOO many carbs, too many fat grams, not enough protein and too many calories... Thu, 5 Feb 2009 16:04:47 EST Its a slippery slope and I'm sliding fast! Today was a BORING day at a seminar I didn't really want to be at. Way too much chatting going on, off topic, thereby delaying my return home! The room was cold, the weather was gloomy and the food was high calorie. Yuck! <BR> <BR> I missed the weekly weigh in at the gym this morning. May be just as well after the past few days I had of eating poorly. I need to get back on track, and fast! <BR> <BR> 1. I need to plan, since failing to plan is planning to fail. <BR> <BR> 2. I need to shop, ... Sat, 24 Jan 2009 22:11:00 EST What a day, what a day... I went to bed soooo late last night (blame belongs with me, but honestly, I just HAD to catch up with all my gfs on the daily chat!) and ds wanted me to take him up to the mountains today to go snow boarding. So up at 5 (an ungodly hour after a good night's sleep, but absolutely unfathomable on 4 hours sleep!) and then start packing the car -- laptop, in case I find wi-fi up there, books, snacks, water, blanket, ski jacket, gloves, hat -- and that's just MY stuff -- snowboard, boots, backpack... Fri, 23 Jan 2009 20:22:57 EST One Week Later... I'm one week into this and loving the food tracker, fitness tracker and support of others! I just reread my intro and realized how negative it sounds (boo hoo, poor me, so I have aches and pains - SO WHAT!). <BR> <BR> I'm thrilled to be losing weight and will try to use more of what's available on SP to keep on helping me! Sun, 18 Jan 2009 21:36:07 EST