MANATEELVR's SparkPeople Blog MANATEELVR's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community back in onederland!! It's been so long since I've seen a 1 in front of my weight I forgot how good it felt. It's amazing what one little ounce can do for your ego! Now on to my next goal which is to fit into my old clothes that have been collecting dust for over 2 years now. I have about 10-15 lbs for that. One outfit is now hanging outside the closet for inspiration. Onward and (down)ward. No more up! Fri, 12 Mar 2010 08:33:14 EST back from vacation & fatter than ever! Wow! I didn't realize a person could gain so much weight on vacation. It doesn't help when you are kind of forced to eat out every night for two weeks. Even if you make good choices sometimes, the food at a restaurant is not prepared the way you would have done in at home. I don't even want to share what I weigh on this site I'm so embarrassed. I'm right back to where I started 2 years ago. GGRRR!!! How did I let this happen? I'm not in the mindset to lose either, which is really scar... Sat, 26 Jul 2008 11:01:12 EST I'm going on vacation I'm going to Georgia for 2 weeks to see my Sis, her kids and hubby. I'm so excited! I haven't been to Georgia in about 8 years. I'll talk to everyone when I get back. Tue, 8 Jul 2008 12:13:50 EST I got a promotion! <BR> After 9 1/2 years at the bank, I finally got a Asst. Manager position. It took a lot of hard work and proving myself to people, but I did it. More money, more recognition, more responsibility. I can't wait! I am so excited to start my new job. Maybe things are looking up now. My husband and I have struggled so much for the past 4 years. My kids have had to miss different things to participate in because we didn't have money to spare. I hope this is the beginning of good things t... Sat, 28 Jun 2008 19:51:46 EST gotta lose weight!! It just hit me that I'm going to Georgia in 2 months and I need to lose some weight before then. I don't want to look huge at the beach. I don't want to be uncomfortable in the airplane. I'm going to try and lose 15 lbs. by July 4th, I'm leaving for Georgia on the 8th. We are visiting my sis and her family, who I haven't seen in years. I saw my sis at Christmas when my mom passed away, but she couldn't bring the kids with her, it was too expensive. So I am excited! But I have to get m... Tue, 6 May 2008 09:25:15 EST wish me luck I'm going to my second weigh-in at WW tomorrow. I feel like I'm doing well, but I think my scale at home is conspiring against me. Hopefully he didn't throw in with the WW scale. I was able to fit into a work outfit that I haven't worn in a few months, and it wasn't too tight so I must be doing something right! Fri, 25 Apr 2008 19:37:40 EST back to life Well, the initial shock of the past few weeks is starting to wear off. Thanks to all my spark friends who commented to me or sent me well wishes in a spark mail. Now it is time to try and focus back on life. My mom was very overweight and did not take care of herself as she should have. A lot of people don't, including me. Which is why I started here. Somewhere down the line I lost focus and motivation, and even though my mother is gone, I can't seem to get myself together and learn fro... Thu, 10 Jan 2008 08:20:09 EST It's just not fair... Why is life so cruel sometimes? Why does tragedy come in waves like high tide, one right on top of the other? I ask these questions as I sit here thinking about the loses my family has just suffered over this holiday season. <BR> <BR> On Christmas Eve, my husband received a phone call from his brother in Brazil that his mother had passed away in the morning. Obviously devastated because he could not be there for her or his family at that moment, we started making plans for him to fly the... Mon, 31 Dec 2007 11:26:08 EST Our trip into NYC 11/17 The kids and I went to the city yesterday with my youngest son's class. We went to the Metropolitan Museum of Art, Grand Central Station, through Central Park and The New York Public Library. What a trip! We did a lot of walking and spent about 2-3 hours in the museum on a scavenger hunt created by his teacher. they followed a book they were reading about an adventure in NY. What an amazing teacher he has. It's not often you find one that cares so much. This was put together completely... Sun, 18 Nov 2007 09:41:38 EST too busy for me I have been so busy lately with work and the kids and their activities, drs. appts., etc... I'm getting to the"stop the world I want to get off" feeling. I am so overwhelmed, I don't have any time for me. The next two days I have a Board of Ed meeting to attend because my son is getting an award ( I am VERY proud of him for that!) But then we have to go to his basketball practice after that. Friday I have to take the same son to his standing social worker appt. and then off to basketball ... Wed, 14 Nov 2007 20:54:41 EST I'm sooo tired! My husband started a new job recently and had to be there at 5:45 am today. Why do I have to suffer for this? It's his job but I'm up first because he is impossible to wake up. So I was up at 4:15 am. And I'm still up because my son had to wake up at 5:40 am to get ready for school. He is in HS, 10th grade. It is too early in the morning. I was going to exercise, but decided against it since I was up against my will. Thank heavens my husband doesn't have to wake up every morning this e... Mon, 29 Oct 2007 06:14:36 EST spoiling myself I spoiled myself today. I went to the dentist and got a good cleaning. Then I went to the hair cutters and got a new cut and color. I'm no longer a blond, not even close anymore. The kids love it! My husband hasn't seen it yet. Then I went and got a mani & pedi. Boy are they going to be surprised when I walk into work tomorrow. My son didn't even recognize me when I went to go pick him up. I just needed a change. Did you ever need a change to renew yourself? That's what I needed. I... Tue, 23 Oct 2007 17:47:55 EST exercising again Thanks to my friend Kim on the challenge boards I'm excited to try and incorporate exercise into my routine again. I find that when I exercise, I'm less likely to have a bad food day. I will try and remember that I woke up early and sweat today before I eat that piece of cake on the kitchen counter. I might even throw it away. My main goal is to stay inspired which is my downfall. Hopefully I'll keep this going . Sun, 21 Oct 2007 09:58:47 EST stuck in the house today Ryan has strep throat so I am home today because he is still contagious. He is feeling better at least, and he no longer has a fever. He was miserable yesterday, I felt so bad for him. <BR> <BR> We wanted to go pumpkin picking today, but we will have to wait until tomorrow. Luckily, tomorrow will be better weather than today(even though today is beautiful). The Jets game isn't until 4 and the way they're doing anyway, I'm not rushing home to watch them. I will wear my jersey anyway. G... Sat, 20 Oct 2007 13:26:41 EST gluing my mouth shut! Ok, why is it that you can do so well for a long string of days, and then one bump and BOOM, straight to mickey D's. Which by the way I am convinced is lacing the food with addicting meat juice! GRRR! I am so mad at myself for giving in again. Why is it so difficult to stay on track for longer than a week? Because then of course, once you blow fighting the mickey d. temptation you convince yourself (too easily mind you)that the rest of the day is shot to you know where, and you might as ... Fri, 19 Oct 2007 22:00:50 EST starting over(again!) Well, I am going to try and be serious about losing weight again. My clothes are getting tight and I'm not looking like I did 6 months ago. What a dummy! Food has entirely too much power. I wish I were as adamant about exercise as I am about who gets the last cookie. Let's go Donna. Get your butt off the couch, throw a way the damn cookie and go for a walk!! Sun, 14 Oct 2007 09:58:15 EST headache(day 2) OMG. I feel like my brain is going to explode out of my head. I haven't had a headache like this in months! It's a beautiful day outside and if my meds don't kick in soon, I'm going to miss it. The sad thing is I've learned to cope w/the pain and throbbing. So I will probably go about my business in pain and not enjoy the day I've been blessed with. Oh well, such is life. Sat, 29 Sep 2007 10:07:15 EST I missed my scale About a month and a half ago my scale broke and I decided to wait before buying a new one. I was going to try and measure myself and record my progress that way instead of relying on the numbers. Well, guess what? It didn't work. I've gained back 8 lbs since then. It's amazing how powerful the scale can be. <BR> <BR> What I've learned about myself is that I need that dopey scale. It really does keep me honest. I am more conscious about what I'm eating and drinking. And how much. I... Sun, 23 Sep 2007 09:40:26 EST Take a hint When am I going to get it? I just called my "friend" because I wanted to see if she was coming over for the football game w/ her family like we used to do. She hosted the first game and I was calling to make sure she was coming for this weekend. We take turns going over each others house every week. I haven't heard from her so I figured I would just check. Well apparently she made plans to go apple picking with other neighbors and have those people come over for football afterwards. Now... Sun, 16 Sep 2007 11:44:50 EST I started a new challenge If anyone is interested, I started a new challenge on the message boards under challenges. It's called measure up instead of weigh in. Please check it out. I'm trying a new angle on tracking my weight loss to see if I can jump start it again. <BR> <BR> Thanks, <BR> Donna Thu, 30 Aug 2007 14:41:49 EST they broke my scale Well, they did it. Those kids of mine. They were fooling around in the bathroom and broke my scale. Now what do I do? I know you shouldn't weigh yourself everyday, but for me it's very motivating to see my weight go down every few days. Even if it's just an ounce or two. I'm going to have to buy a new one and am very tempted to make them give me the money for it. KIDS!!! Sun, 12 Aug 2007 10:57:11 EST recommitting to myself 7/15 So I went to Fashion Bug to buy some tank tops yesterday and I had to buy 22/24 instead of 18/20, which I started to fit into at the end of 2006. I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror while I was shopping and rediscovered my double chin, which I also hadn't seen since 2006. What happened to me? What went wrong? I could blame it on lack of willpower(bad excuse) or boredom (even worse excuse) or even stress that my life and financial struggles are very prominent in my life right now. ... Sun, 15 Jul 2007 11:04:50 EST starting over(again) That's it. enough bulls**t, enough excuses. Enough negotiating w/ myself that I will be better tomorrow. This IS my tomorrow. I need to get myself back on track and stop pushing it off. I was doing so well, I don't know what happened. One day turned into a week then a month, ect........... It's like I get possessed after 6pm and lose all self control. I need to get out of the house and walk, or read or something to take my mind off eating. It's not even a food issue, it's an eating ... Mon, 25 Jun 2007 21:54:42 EST struggling Well it's time to admit that I am really struggling right now. I hit a wall, and I can't get away from it. The day starts out well and then goes downhill. It's amazing how fast your old habits can creep back in. Like they hibernate or something, just waiting for when you're vunerable, then they attack. Without warning or provication. It's so hard to fight them. I need help, and I don't know where to go besides here. Maybe just getting it off my chest is enough? I don't know, but I am... Sun, 11 Mar 2007 09:32:17 EST countdown to wedding 3/23/2007 My dh's friend is getting married, and I have a new motivation. I want to buy a dress in the size 16 & under section of the clothing store. It's one month a way and I'm almost to that point anyway. I really need to add more exercise to my daily routine. It's the only way. No more exuses!! Sun, 18 Feb 2007 12:35:49 EST Achy legs My legs hurt so much yesterday. I couldn't walk without feeling pain. I tried to think if I did anything out of the ordinary to cause it, but I didn't. today they are better, but they still ache. This is the way I started yesterday. It feels like they are trying to cramp up, but never actually do. Almost like what a charlie horse feels like. I took some Motrin and it seemed to help. If it happens today, I am going to the doctor. I have been having problems and aches with my hip, an... Sun, 18 Feb 2007 11:35:30 EST I ordered "The Bean" I ordered "the bean" exercise equiptment today. I am very excited about this because I live upstairs, and this is something I can do w/o disturbing my neighbor. It's been so cold, and I want to start walking again. I am one of those people who once they get cold, can't warm up. So I have been hesitant to do it. I should just go out there and try it and see what happens. I am stuck, and I know it's from lack of exercise. When I get the bean, I am going to start measuring myself to see i... Sat, 10 Feb 2007 13:54:07 EST I'm sooo tired!! I am so tired! I'm working these two jobs right now because I have to and it's really getting to me. I have no energy at the end of the day when I actually do have off from both. Today we went to the movies, mall & food shopping(i probably should clean, but right now it's more important that I spend time with the kids when i get a chance) Anyway, when we came home, I crashed. i could not drag myself off the couch, I hate feeling this way. I wish things would get better and my dh gets t... Sun, 28 Jan 2007 20:50:36 EST daily rant 12/10/06 :) well, well, well, let the weekend get the best of me again. I think I should just lock myself in a closet until Monday morning. Either that or glue my lips together. I was much better this week than I have been in the past month, but not good enough to maintain a loss. Getting my tree today with the kids. hubby does not get into this. He's not coming again. I wish he would, but I know if I try to wait for him to come home early from the restaurant both me and the kids will be dissapoin... Sun, 10 Dec 2006 11:31:27 EST losing willpower(big time) what a rotten week! I swear I haven't been this off track since before I started spark people. I am actually starting to feel fat again, which is not good. I need to find my motivation. This will not work for me to be above 200 lb mark. I swore to myself that that number would never show up on my scale again. Get yourself to gether girl and stop eating everything in the house. Wake up and smell the salad!!!! Sun, 3 Dec 2006 09:57:16 EST progress and sadness 11/12/06 Well, it's been two weeks since I've blogged. Been very busy w/ the 2 jobs. I'm hoping to get a raise in December w/ my primary job, then I can leave the other one. I'm down over 2 lbs from when I reset my goals, but I could be more. today is a very sad day for me. Today would have benn my father's 79th birthday. He passed away 7 years ago and I still miss him so much. To make matters worse, I have to go to a funeral today for my bf's grandmother who passed on Thurday. I have to go fo... Sun, 12 Nov 2006 08:40:56 EST working two jobs Okay, this working two jobs thing is starting to take a toll on me both physically and emotionally. Physical is obvious, it's alot. Some days I am working 13 hours a day. I don't see my kids as much as I used to and I miss them. I guess that's part of the emotional side. My diet is suffering, too. Sometimes I don't have enough time between jobs to prepare dinner and eat it. I eat when I get home, usually around 10:30 p.m., or I get something from outside, which is never a good thing. ... Sun, 29 Oct 2006 14:15:50 EST One more pound! I have one more pound before I reach mini goal number two. To lose 30 pounds by my 35th birthday. i was trying for 35 at 35, but I knew that would be very hard, and with working two jobs right now, not too easy. I didn't want to set myself up to fail. I know I can do this!! Sat, 30 Sep 2006 09:55:55 EST working two jobs stink I started to work two jobs in the middle of August. I am absolutely exhausted at night. It's been very hard to stick to my routine, but so far I have not gone over in calories. I obviously can't exercise like I used to. I walk when I get a break at my second job. I'm working in a supermarket for the 2nd job, so when I do go on break, I always buy a piece of fruit. This way when I go home, I'm not looking for a snack. I think I can keep it up. It's becoming easier everyday to adapt to ... Wed, 30 Aug 2006 23:57:44 EST grrrr hormones suck!!! Thu, 13 Jul 2006 18:47:17 EST party I went to a bbq/b-day party today, did not overdo it, i tried to stay as true as i could to the plan Sat, 8 Jul 2006 22:37:10 EST 7/7 shopped all day, i wonder how long we walked for. I tracked my food for tomorrow already. 1522 calories for today, NO CHEATING!!!!! Fri, 7 Jul 2006 23:06:31 EST (no title) total calories today 1423 <BR> did not go over, i'm very proud of myself Mon, 3 Jul 2006 22:21:49 EST