MAMAGRACE86's SparkPeople Blog MAMAGRACE86's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I FELL HARD offf the WAGON I am so sad and disappointed with myself for gaining all that hard work to lose in the first place. I am trying once again and I need some help friends. I need to find a way to stick with my low carb & low sodium and activity lifestyle once again. I need to fight for myself. since i fell off i have been put on medication for high blood pressure and diabetes. I am so upset that I have once again failed myself. However, I still believe in myself to know that I can win this battle. I just don't... Wed, 10 Aug 2011 01:53:11 EST today is a CRAZY amazing DAY i am 239.6 and i feel so GREAT ABOUT THAATTT!! LETS GET HEALTHY FOR 2011 and the rest of my life! Wed, 26 Jan 2011 23:11:10 EST Month to Month 12.20.10 <BR> <img src=""> <BR> 1.20.11 <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am just amazed on how much I changed!! Sat, 22 Jan 2011 00:02:23 EST FOODs are my comfort I have a new comfort and that my healthy foods and to come home to find them EATEN by whoever does not care about there HEALTH it just blows my FREAKING MIND!! I AM BEYOND UPSET. IT makes me want to cry cause all I'm trying to give up is like WTF!! I am hungry but i do not want to EAT any of those foods in the house! i just want people to leave my FOOD alone Thu, 13 Jan 2011 13:37:40 EST just comparing my face size taken 10.10. 10 <img src=""> <BR> taken 01.11.11 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> just trying to see if my face is smaller Wed, 12 Jan 2011 03:00:41 EST CHAMIE AND TERRIE <img src=""> <BR> RIP to my loves!! i hope yall are resting now! i will always love you! Sun, 9 Jan 2011 22:07:25 EST Tired... lately I've been feeling tired and less motivated but I never stop eating right. I know if i can't exercise I can at least try to eat better foods. I don't know if I'm depress but I know i feel sad sometimes and angry all the time. I don't know what I am angry about is the problem. I get so hype about something and it can never leave me until the next day. I keep my energy on negative stuff that i feel like all the negative energy comes to me. I need to find a way to center myself to a place ... Sun, 9 Jan 2011 20:46:39 EST In pain... I wouldn't have thought i would be woken up to by my mom telling my dog had passed away. I am so angry, upset, sad and guilty that i couldn't do anything to help him. I am so sad and angry at myself that i took him for granted. He was the most special dog i had not only did he love me unconditionally he knew what i needed when i was upset. I don't know what to do with myself right now. I am crying and I cant sleep the fear of sleeping is with me once again.. the thought of another person or ... Tue, 4 Jan 2011 02:41:06 EST Photos of me right now. this is 2002 . when i lost a lot of weight but not the healthy way. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I want to look like this again but in a healthy way. <BR> <BR> Filipino. 5`1. 250. pre-diabetic. fighting for my life. was bulimic but still fighting. battling depression. <BR> This is how i look now but this is not what i want to look like. <BR> <img src=""> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeo... Sun, 2 Jan 2011 01:19:48 EST Fighting with myself I hate the holiday's....The only reason I say this is because of the great food my family cook. Filipino foods is my weakness because i know rice will be there waiting for me to add some on my plate. Its so hard to give up or even portion my plate when all eyes are on you. They are all trying to figure out what is going on with you and asking to many questions. But anyways back to why I hate it lol. FOOD FOOD FOOD!! Its not like I can tell them to not cook it lmao because that will be a BIG ... Sun, 2 Jan 2011 01:01:17 EST UNknown world for me. Recently I found out that my blood sugar was a higher reading which freaked me out because I never thought I would ever get to this point in my life. I was scared, confused and lost for words but more angry that I done this to myself. That my carefree attitude may have caused me to almost kill myself slowly. I knew I was at risk for hight blood pressure, diabetes, heat attack and many more however, I just brush it off like I was superwoman! I am a rice lover but moreover I am a carb lover bu... Fri, 31 Dec 2010 06:31:05 EST