MAMADWARF's SparkPeople Blog MAMADWARF's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community It's been a few weeks So for the last few weeks I have been tracking my food. It is amazing how much just being aware does for what you put in your mouth. I KNOW this works because I have done it before so I dont know why it surprises me. But it feels good to be making progress. <BR> <BR> I am in a LOT of physical pain. Today, I cried about 10 times just while I was in the office and feeling sorry for myself. I finally quit fighting it, went into the bathroom and let loose for a few minutes and got back to my da... Mon, 9 Feb 2015 22:54:08 EST Since I've been gone... Hey friends and stangers! Coming up on my 5 year sparkaversay in March! its shocking how much time has gone by! Let's recap Jan's roller coaster ride ok? Buckle up! The first year I lost 50 pounds, lowered all my health numbers, got off diabetic medicine and was very motivated and was walking 2-3 miles a day with my hubby and sweet dog, stitchy. The next year, I lost 20 pounds and felt fabulous. I was inspiring people and myself on a daily basis. I was happy. The 3rd year, things started goi... Wed, 28 Jan 2015 23:22:12 EST nothing fancy, just saying hi Happy thanksgiving everyone. I just wanted to take a minute and say hello and hope you're having a good holiday. I'm 4 weeks post knee replacement and its going well! Looking forward to moving more and gaining some strength back. I hope you and yours are all well and happy! Love jan Thu, 27 Nov 2014 22:18:08 EST October blog remember when I had sunday check in's every week??? dang, me too! Its been awhile ! I do have some updates. <BR> <BR> I am having knee replacement on October 21 and my whole reason is so I can start moving again. I am going to take the opportunity to reboot my eating and excercise program so i can get healthy again. I will keep you posted on that. <BR> <BR> My family situation is beginning to settle down, thank goodness. I am still sad but not crying every day so PROGRESS. kady and art are... Mon, 13 Oct 2014 23:10:38 EST October blog remember when I had sunday check in's every week??? dang, me too! Its been awhile ! I do have some updates. <BR> <BR> I am having knee replacement on October 21 and my whole reason is so I can start moving again. I am going to take the opportunity to reboot my eating and excercise program so i can get healthy again. I will keep you posted on that. <BR> <BR> My family situation is beginning to settle down, thank goodness. I am still sad but not crying every day so PROGRESS. kady and art are... Mon, 13 Oct 2014 23:10:31 EST I am here today. Hello everyone. I know my attendance here has been sporadic. When I last checked in, my daughter had gotten married in May, we went on vacation and I was trying to dig myself out of this hole I was in. <BR> <BR> Let me first say that I love sparkpeople and everyone here. I want to be here, I want to continue my goals. I will never leave, at least not for long. This is still home for me and always will be. <BR> <BR> I have had some serious issues that I have only told a few people about. <... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 23:28:21 EST shift of thinking... So, last week, I was all rainbows and butterflies and happy, right? I was eating well, felt good, had a great weekend. <BR> <BR> Got on the scale this am, looking for my 2 lb reward...NOPE! Gained a half a pound....I literally laughed out loud! <BR> <BR> Which brings me to this. <BR> <BR> I felt better last week. <BR> I ate better last week. <BR> I moved more last week. <BR> <BR> Is any of that diminished because I didn't lose any weight according to the scale? <BR> Heck no. It just mean... Tue, 17 Jun 2014 00:06:17 EST Victory over orange slices! Today my sister brought me over my favorite candy... Those sugary orange candies? I said thanks and put them in a baggy in my cupboard. <BR> <BR> Then I cut up my watermelon and bagged that up along with some chicken to take to the races today. We will be gone all day so I wanted to be prepared and not eat crap at the racetrack. <BR> <BR> I even had to go get ice and I got hubby some m and m's and I didn't eat any!!! <BR> <BR> Yea, me!!!!!!! Sat, 14 Jun 2014 16:10:40 EST 4 dang good days This is the end of my 4th day. I can't tell you why I am doing things right or well, I can only tell you that I am. I am not trying. I am DOING! I am planning my meals and sticking to it. Every morning, I say I'm going to do something and then I do it. I have eaten salad for lunch and liked it. I have had fresh strawberries and pineapple to snack on and been satisfied. I added zucchini to my pasta tonight because I knew I needed more veggies. You know what? <BR> <BR> I am proud of myself. I... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 21:00:30 EST the last few days Well, kids, the last few days have been pretty good. <BR> <BR> I'm planning, tracking, eating well and it feels good. <BR> <BR> I'm shaky, but standing. <BR> I'm taking it day by day, but I feel like I'm building momentum. <BR> I'm not ready for any of this but I'm doing it anyway. <BR> <BR> The things I used to do routinely, are foreign now, but I'm getting my memory back. <BR> <BR> Thank you for all your support and for still being here yourselves! <BR> <BR> As each day passes, I know... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 10:52:12 EST facing facts Hello my friends. This morning, after returning from vacation, I weighed myself and logged it. It wasn't pretty but it is what it is. <BR> <BR> It is a starting point, as is this blog. <BR> <BR> I'm unhappy with my physical self. So today, I am going to log my food, drink plenty of water, eat all my meals at home and I'm going to do a 10 minute work out video. These are Things I can do today. So I will. <BR> <BR> Here I go. Mon, 9 Jun 2014 10:15:03 EST Here is the Wedding blog and the beginning of getting MY LIFE back OMG, you guys. I do a lot of crazy stuff but when I throw a wedding for 300 people, it may be over my pay grade. It was EXHAUSTING. It has been a week and I am still not over it yet. Meanwhile, the daughter and new son in law, are coming home tonight from MAUI. Where is my vacation??? Oh that would be starting Thursday for 10 days when we go to Utah, my favorite place with my favorite people. Now that this is over, and they are working on starting their own lives, and I am learning to let go... Mon, 26 May 2014 23:31:42 EST may day Hello my friends! I'm here, I'm OK, I think of you often. <BR> <BR> I'm up to my ears in wedding mania for my daughter. We have 13 days until I can live a normal life. I just want you to know that I'm OK. I'm not tracking, or walking or eating right but I'm drinking water and eating OK.... <BR> <BR> I love you guys and because I'm not as active right now, don't give up n me. You're my touch stone. I need you. <BR> <BR> Pictures will come after the wedding! Sun, 4 May 2014 16:00:21 EST i know you know The good news is my shorts from last summer fit. The bad news is my shorts from last summer fit. <BR> <BR> People in the outside world would not know what I was talking about but I know you know! <BR> <BR> Today I tracked my food and made concious decicions about what I ate and stayed in range. <BR> <BR> So I'm back to one step at a time. Or 5 minutes at a time. Either way I got through the day. And I need to get that flat fixed on the bus so I can get back on my comeback tour Tue, 18 Mar 2014 21:14:18 EST Am I OK? My friend, RAMONA, just sent me a goodie with the simple words that she hopes I am ok. <BR> <BR> Thank you for that. <BR> <BR> AM I OK? <BR> <BR> I guess I dont spend a lot of time thinking about that. My days have been soooo busy with work (we have a roofing company that has been super busy and which I am grateful for) and we are doing a lot of work for a solar company (so its practically a merger) and upgrading our internet presence etc. I am still busy with dr's visits, (why am I bleedi... Mon, 24 Feb 2014 15:05:51 EST sunday check in 2-2-14 hello my people! How was this week for you? Any GOOD news? Tell me one goal for this month? <BR> <BR> My goal is to get below 260 and if all works well, below 255. <BR> <BR> I had some physical issues this weekend but will call Dr. Monday and see how to deal with that. I also have my mammogram scheduled...Do you or did you recently do that for yourself? You guys? Are you taking care of yourself too? <BR> <BR> I am one day at a time right now. Things are a bit unsettled but nothing unmanage... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 23:27:22 EST Sunday check in 1-26-14 So? How was your week? What do you have to look forward to this week? What are you gonna do for YOU? <BR> <BR> For my mental health, Franks and I are gonna go play with our friends for a few days down near Mesquite Nevada. It should be a good stress reliever! <BR> <BR> On the bad side, my dear sweet Stitchy dog, tore a ligament in her knee. She will be OK with a few weeks of rest and meds, we hope. So she will stay home with my daughter and rest while we are gone. I will be back on Friday, ... Sun, 26 Jan 2014 23:10:18 EST life on the road is tough A few weeks into my comeback tour and I have of had a hard week. Lesson 1: Failure to plan means setup to fail. <BR> <BR> One of the things that has worked well for me is to plan my meals. That went out the window when my 28 year old daughter moved back in for a few weeks. She brings my granddog bulldog, Cortez and her boyfriend whom I like but it is extra chaos. She has happily wanted to cook for us and in that, I am not in control which leads to extra calories. Plus, she got my baking gene... Sat, 25 Jan 2014 12:52:19 EST how did you do? sunday check in 1-19-14 So how did last week go? I did good with my cooking goal, and will do it again this week. Had pizza today but didn't eat too much. so I'm moving more, walking better and doing on. <BR> <BR> My goal for this week is cooking Sunday through Thursday, meal planning and walk at least 3 times this week, <BR> <BR> What are you gonna do??? Sun, 19 Jan 2014 23:17:23 EST SUNDAY check in 1-12-14 SO? how did you do last week? You are going to tell me something you are proud of or something that went right! No regrets, no BUTS, none of that nonsense! This Tour does not stop for that! <BR> <BR> Moving forward OK to next week, tell me ONE goal that you KNOW you can manage! <BR> <BR> Mine is cooking Sunday through Thursday. I have my meals planned and am ready to take in the week. (Oh yea, I lost 2 pounds last week...woot!) Sun, 12 Jan 2014 18:27:48 EST What made you proud this week? Hope you have all had a fantastic week so far! I want you to be thinking of your VIP access status and come up with at least ONE thing that made you proud of yourself this week. Don't worry! You have until SUNDAY to come up with something! <BR> <BR> I, however, will jump the gun and mention that I planned my meals this week, stayed with my ranges every single day, even under stressed and chaotic circumstances and am feeling really good. My back is healing, I am starting to walk again and th... Thu, 9 Jan 2014 17:55:55 EST Jan's wild and wonderful comeback tour, 2014! Well, my friends, I know you have missed the magic that is MAMADWARF! I have missed it, too! So, due to POPULAR demand (key on POP since it is the sound my jeans buttons make most of the time these days!), I am BACK! <BR> <BR> Let's have a little Q and A, shall we? <BR> <BR> Q. Why should I buy a ticket to your show? <BR> A. First of all, it is very affordable! WELL worth the price of admission! Just a word of encouragement, a sweet little spark goodie, maybe a link to a favorite recipe. An... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 19:07:03 EST Medical update MY Biopsy came back CLEAN! NO CANCER! NO MORE SURGERIES! woooohooo! <BR> <BR> And my back which has kept me down for weeks, barely able to stand or walk for more than a few minutes, I had an epidural for my back today and I'm doing physical therapy so I'm on my way to recovery! <BR> <BR> Looking forward to my SPARKPEOPLE COME BACK TOUR! ARE YOU READY TO ROCK!? I will be back at it in a few days. Love you all and thank you for your care and support and never giving up on me. Jan Fri, 27 Dec 2013 23:30:37 EST i fell into the trap You know the one. Where we tell ourselves that we are tired of all this. Screw it, I will eat what I want, when I want. That I don't care. <BR> <BR> Then, you get that wake up call. That moment when: <BR> <BR> Your blood work shows you are diabetic again. Remember how proud you were that you beat it 2 years ago? <BR> <BR> When you are scared to get on the scale, because you KNOW, YOU KNOW what you weigh and you're scared to face it. <BR> <BR> When your body is falling apart and you can ba... Wed, 11 Dec 2013 00:00:14 EST i learned something today It is no surprise to anyone who knows me that I LOVE cookies. Like, uncontrollably. I can never eat just one. One leads to a total sugar binge. I baked cookies yesterday. I guess I still felt the need for comfort. But today,I put them all in the freezer except for 2 for franks lunch. And I realized that just because things have been one way, I don't have to ALWAYS be that way. Why did it take me so long to realize that and fall into that head trap? Its dumb. I ate one cookie today. One. <BR> ... Mon, 18 Nov 2013 23:34:50 EST i got some upsetting news (very personal, feel free to skip) OK this is what's going on. You may recall my bitching about menopause for the last year or so. Well, I had a period after a year and mentioned it to my Dr. They were concerned and so, I had ultrasound on tuesday and today I had my biopsy. So when my dr. came in room, I asked what Ultrasound said and she looked it up. She said "jesus christ" under her breathe while she was looking at it so I took that as things were not looking too good. She is a new dr. just met her last week but I like her ... Fri, 15 Nov 2013 21:43:26 EST This made me cry, not in a bad way I would love for you all to watch this short video. It is a new york artist who literally strips away negativity about her body. It is beautiful. Truly. Let me know what you think. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>t-like-katy-perrys-roar-before-you-wil<BR>l-1461879323 </link> Wed, 13 Nov 2013 13:52:30 EST I am Jealous <BR> My sister in law, who was my partner in weight loss failure for YEARS, got lapband surgery. I was against it, gently told her why and then supported her decision. I understand why she wanted to do it. She weighed more than me, has unsuccessfully been on every weight loss plan and diet (except for spark people) and never could lose or keep off any significant weigh. <BR> <BR> I get that. We ALL get that. she eats a cup of food 3 times a day. There are many things she cannot have like br... Sun, 10 Nov 2013 10:43:04 EST what happened? I got tired of tracking, planning, thinking about food, what I COULD have, what I SHOULD have, all of it. So I checked in occasionally, walked a bit sometimes, ate what I wanted when I wanted it. And you know what? Most of the habits I formed here in the last 3 years stuck with me but some didn't. I gained weight (shocker!) And I missed my friends here. I had a good sparky reach out and last week, every day, we focused on what good things we did for ourselves. We wrote to each other every day... Wed, 6 Nov 2013 11:19:38 EST Because it has been awhile, PICTURES!!! SO we did a photo shoot. My daughter, Kady, is the photographer. Here is a picture of Frank, Stitchy and I. I love it. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> And here is a picture of my daughter, Kady and Her fiance, Artie. These are their engagement Pictures and they are getting married May 17, 2014. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> and the real THEM: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 23:21:58 EST Close one It was a cool september morning, with the promise of rain hanging in the air. The woman had many things on her mind, many chores to do, but was feeling positive and was ready to get to work. As she entered her kitchen, she made a mental list of the thing yet to do. She began her first task, to make a lemon cake, something she had done many times and was confident in her abilities. As she measured the ingredients, added them together in the bowl and sprinkled it with love, she hummed a happy l... Sat, 21 Sep 2013 13:15:10 EST Whats going on with me I have been super stressed. We have a lot of work (good thing) but it requires alot of office work and scheduling and rescheduling since we are in construction, things never seem to be ready when they are supposed to be. <BR> <BR> Our BIG annual racing event is coming next week. The one where I cook for 300 people for 3 days? This year, its only two days so I'm glad about that! Pulled pork loin Friday and Fri tip on Saturday. There's a lot of office work invlolved in that too with entries, p... Thu, 19 Sep 2013 11:05:45 EST Hey Jan...Remember when Remember when you were planning dinner at a restaurant, you would go on the website and plan a meal and track it before you even went there? And you stuck to it? And felt good? And proud? <BR> <BR> Well how about tomorrow when you go to Outback Steakhouse, you do it again? You know, you can get that awesome sirloin with the veggies that you like? You can have that crispy cold salad while everyone else eats that's gross, oily friend onion and you can even have a couple pieces of that delicio... Thu, 12 Sep 2013 23:14:34 EST 4 days 4 pounds The nice part about getting back on track is dropping a few pounds helps me stay motivated to keep going. I need the reward of seeing progress during my first few shaky days of eating under control and walking. <BR> <BR> So that means next week will be a lot slower but I will still be making day a time.. <BR> <BR> Thanks for your support guys!!! Thu, 12 Sep 2013 11:32:55 EST Im a meerkat MY animal tarot today is the meerkat...see below. <BR> <BR> Today's card is the Meerkat: Get support from a trusted group of like-minded friends <BR> <BR> You have a lot on your plate. You deal with things every day that not everyone deals with, and sometimes you need to talk about it; discuss it with someone who will not judge you and knows exactly what you are talking about. It's not always easy to find someone who 'gets' you like that, so when you find the ones that you can talk to easil... Mon, 9 Sep 2013 10:59:46 EST update on knees Hi guys...I went to my orthopedic surgeon and there's good news and bad. Good first! <BR> My replaced knee which has been hurting and never did before, is fine. He thinks because my (bad news) right knee is so bad, bone on bone, that I am putting more weight on my left leg, overcompensating. I am relieved replaced knee is OK, just stressed. <BR> The OTHER knee is bad, however I am not ready to do the replacement (I still remember how awful the other one was!) So he gave me a kenalog injectio... Fri, 30 Aug 2013 11:17:29 EST whats happening Hi guys...I'm still here. Just wanted to let you know I'm here. I'm not telling you any of this to complain just to let you know what's happening. I've been having a lot of knee pain and back pain. That makes me not want to excericise and then I eat like crap. I'm gong to my Dr. Tomorrow so I will see what he says about the knees. <BR> <BR> I'm still here, logging in, hit and miss with tracking but I'm not giving up. Thanks for loving me, cheering for me and checking on me. I'm not great but... Thu, 29 Aug 2013 00:40:09 EST repeat <BR> This is a blog I won a popular blog award from a while back... <BR> <BR> Read it. Live it <BR> <BR><BR>_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4444040 Mon, 5 Aug 2013 11:33:40 EST home again So now we are back from 5 days of camping. I'm exhausted. I need a vacation! We probably had 40 people and 20 of them were between 20-26 years old and man, those kids can eat! A lot of the kids offered to help cook and set and and clean but I did do most of the cooking etc... it was a lot of darn work!!!! <BR> <BR> It was fun though. Now, the clean up begins. I'm going to enlist KD To start cleaning stuff since I have to work today. <BR> <BR> My eating wasn't bad this week but again, the dr... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 11:18:03 EST hmmmmmm Today I planned my meals as I've been doing for the last few weeks. Had breakfast, had lunch and then my day went crazy. I had so much to do to get ready to leave to go on vacation tomorrow... and it was HOT and on top of that, I was having annoying hot flashes so I'm sweating like a freak,in the car, in the grocery store, etc. Just sooo annoying! <BR> <BR> It was getting late so the chicken I was going to cook got left in frig and I had picked up a rotisserie chicken and some fried chicke... Thu, 25 Jul 2013 00:33:49 EST another weekend update I'm doing well staying on track, planning my meals, and moving more. <BR> <BR> Friday, we want to CHILI's for dinner which I love because I can have steak and brocolli for 360 calories! Then we came home and watched movies. <BR> <BR> Saturday, frank worked on race cars and I grocery shopped and cooked ALL Day! Then we went to see world war intense! But I liked it a lot. <BR> <BR> I made meatloaf, marinated steaks, made chicken cordon blue for a lunch visit with franks grandma today... Sun, 21 Jul 2013 20:07:27 EST weekend update Hey guys, happy Monday! I had a good weekend... <BR> FRiday is date night for Frank and I so we went to our fave little Mexican restaurant. I had chips and salsa and a chicken salad, no cheese, no fried shell, then we went to movies and saw Pacific Rim (no popcorn) and I stayed in my ranges . <BR> <BR> Saturday, we went to the races and watched our friends. I had gone to the farmers market and got fresh strawberries and nectarines so I took those with us and got TOGOS sandwiches for lunch an... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 10:52:48 EST welll, damn! I have been following my plan, tracking and planning my meals, staying at about 1400 calories, walking in evenings and I did one of my 2 scheduled 10 minute Kickboxing videos so far this week. <BR> <BR> I weighed in today and I lost 6 pounds! I know that a lot of that was bloat from the weekend but at least 2 pounds of that is true weight loss so I'm stoked. I'm moving on with my plan and just taking it day by day. Its a nice boost to see the numbers going down instead of up! Yeah, ME! Thu, 11 Jul 2013 11:46:37 EST how am i doing? I'm doing pretty well actually. Monday went OK, stayed under 1400 calories and wrestled with hunger but stuck to the plan. <BR> Tuesday, did better, stuck to the plan then KAdy came in with ice cream and she brought me a small scoop of sinless raspberry sorbet. I could have put it in the frezer for today and I did consider that but then I chose to eat it. I was still within my food range but it did put me over my 1400 goal I set for myself but not by much so I'm OK with that. <BR> <BR> I wal... Wed, 10 Jul 2013 11:37:42 EST And.......Begin Today is Monday. You know how we ALL love to start stuff on Monday, like its magic. Well let's see what I have up my sleeve! <BR> <BR> I am not recommitting, resetting or getting back to it. I am just continuing on this lifelong journey/battle for health. <BR> <BR> Basically, I am going to knock it off. All those little justifications, excuses, reasons, bites, drinks, lazines... all the stuff that has been getting in my way. <BR> <BR> I am going to weigh in on Mondays and Thursdays for now... Mon, 8 Jul 2013 11:00:51 EST yea, but seriously... You may have missed me lately ( I mean, I HOPE you did!). First I was the on vacation then came home and played catch up with work then I got SO sick with bronchitis and a sinus infection that totally kicked my ass now this is a holiday week with family coming, lots of events and 7 days of over 105 degree heat. <BR> <BR> I haven't been eating well. <BR> I haven't been exercising. <BR> I have gained weight. <BR> My blood work came back that my cholesterol is high again. <BR> <BR> <BR> These... Fri, 5 Jul 2013 11:18:03 EST im sick I have bronchitis and sinus infection. Meh... I feel crappy and I'm hungry. Dangerous combo! Why can't I be the type who loses their appetitie? <BR> <BR> Anyway, wanted you to know I'm here, I'm recovering and I'm getting better now that I have meds. <BR> <BR> Hope you are all OK! Mon, 24 Jun 2013 22:53:11 EST 2 weeks is a long damn time! Just got home today and boy am I glad!!! I want to sleep in my own bed, eat my own food and walk my dog! I'm anxious to get back to my healthy lifestyle. My o lay question is whether I should weigh in or wait a week... <BR> <BR> Hope you are all OK...what's been happening!!??? I missed you all! Sun, 16 Jun 2013 23:32:26 EST Rough Week It all started with that stupid doughnut eating situation last weekend. Then Saturday night, KADY had an an engagement party at a local bar. We went to dinner with friends first, then went and had drinks. Her band was playing and my plan was to dance for hours! About the second song in, I got a message. 2 of our fellow racers were killed ina racing incident. I went outside to verify the truth and it was confirmed. We were not REAL close but we saw these 2 several times a year and they truly w... Fri, 31 May 2013 10:25:41 EST So Far this weekend UPDATED Heading into the weekend, we went to see Fast and Furious 6... really GOOD! <BR> <BR> Ate at the mall, had Chinese food (white rice, brown is not an option) and orange chicken. I could have made a different choice but I had wiggle room and I haven't eaten it in months so I got that and enjoyed it!! We shared some popcorn later so today is sodium relocation day!!! <BR> <BR> My girl came home from work (works for a bakery). With FRESH Doughnuts! So that is what I had for breakfast. I had one... Sat, 25 May 2013 12:19:33 EST