MAMACHAE74's SparkPeople Blog MAMACHAE74's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Lessons learning My hours at work have changed and I get off at 1 am ish and find that I am very hungry after work. Over the past two weeks I have been craving sugar and have been eating candy and drinking soda. I have stopped the candy and soda but I cannot get these things off my mind. I know this is an addiction because most of my day is spent thinking about how and when I can get these things. I find this behavior very odd for me because I am not a big candy eater nor am I a soda drinker but now all o... Thu, 25 Sep 2014 16:24:42 EST ebbs and flows Life is really full of ebbs and flows. Today flowed. Wed, 17 Sep 2014 05:26:42 EST busy but still going at it I have not bllogged in a few weeks but I am still going at it. I have started some marathon training but not with a marathon in mind. The idea is to get back out there to test the waters to see if I am mentally prepared and to physically prepare for long distance running. I am happy that I have gotten through my first 8 miles on Friday and survived it! It was difficult because it has been over two years since I last ran so much, but I am excited about it. I would love to find some athlet... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 03:34:40 EST still going at it but a tad bit slower I think I may have started off with a little too much exercising for the past week I have slowed it down to just walking because I was literallly exhausted. Now that I am feeling a bit more perky I will be getting back into it hard and heavy tomorrow:) <BR> I am grateful that I had a break through today in regards to being a better person. I have learned so much about me. <BR> I am grateful to see people for who they are so that I won't continue to look to me for the things that they do. <B... Tue, 17 Jun 2014 01:38:16 EST todayI am exhausted but I am still pushing through Today was my first day bac at work after a very long weekend and things felt a little weird but I made it through. I think it was the fact that I missed a few days and that weird feeling of needing to acclimate to the environment again. Through it all I am really grateful that my meeting got cancelled because I really was not focused on the topic. My hubby had a great day and I was thankful for that because it put a smile on my face to hear a day that was not filled with stress for him. I ... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 22:15:13 EST still going at it, just a little slow right now I committed to28 days of exercise to create a healthy habit. I am still going at it just a little slow down for this week so that I can have enough time to get through finals. They are a doozy to say the least. However, I must admit that I am a little stressed, but I am still grateful!! I am grateful to have been blessed with another day to do things right and forgive myself when I need to. I am grateful that I am in my last week of the quarter and I am getting through my finals. I am g... Tue, 10 Jun 2014 02:32:41 EST Okay now I remember why I stopped using Spark! I have been trying all day to get the spark page to load and it has been so slow or no response at all. This reminded me of why I quit using spark people a long time ago. It is easier to log in a handwritten journal. Anyway, although the site is quite annoying at times, I still am on my streak this is the 18th day of 28! I am more than halfway through and I am so grateful that I have been sticking to it. The weather here has been hot and I am having a difficult time sleeping at night eve... Sun, 8 Jun 2014 03:19:12 EST the 17th day day 17 of 28 and yep I am still at it although today I was feeling like quite the lazy person. I still got in a workout. I counted the walking up and down stairs and around running errands today. Even though I was lazy today I am still grateful that I woke up and started the day, was able to get some homework done and although I ate freely I still felt good about how I am doing in my new lifestyle. I am also glad to know that with improvement there are ups and downs and not to set unreali... Sat, 7 Jun 2014 01:05:33 EST day 16 and still pushing through with a smile on my face i am more than halfway through of my start to a new attitude and new way of living and I am absolutely loving it!!!! I am so grateful today to have had enough energy to get my circuit training in prior to me going to work! Today was a light day so I did not do much more cardio outside of the circuit training and my muscles are whispering hallelujah:). <BR> I am grateful for the sunshine today because I needed a pick me up about half way through my work day. I am grateful for baby powder bec... Thu, 5 Jun 2014 23:57:27 EST day 15 of 28 and still pushing forward Okay this is day 15 of my 28 day commitment to create good habits as I journey through this life with a new attitude and mindset and I must say it is working. Although I have been waking up the past two days exhausted, I still must exercise or else it will nag at me until I do. I love it! I am only 15 days in and it seems like I have created a good habit. One thing that I would like my husband and I to get used to doing is spending quality time together without going out and spending mone... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 11:00:32 EST Day 14 halfway...humpday!!! Today I am grateful that I have a caring husband who thinks about me enough to cook me dinner as he knew I was physically and mentally spent after work today. As a matter of fact I woke up spent. My gym workout yesterday depleted me. I am grateful that I have learned to appreciate each day that is afforded me. I am grateful that I make it a point everyday to be a better person. <BR> <BR> Having had a tiring day, I am still happy that I mustered up enough energy to get three miles in. It... Tue, 3 Jun 2014 22:13:07 EST day 13 of 28 here is my list of things that I am particularly grateful for: <BR> 1. waking up today <BR> 2. going to the gym with my husband and getting in a killer workout <BR> 3. an argument that did not end poorly <BR> <BR> More to come later. Mon, 2 Jun 2014 22:15:36 EST Day 12 of 28 and feeling ready as ever Let me start with my gratitude log for the day: <BR> 1. i am very grateful that i started this 28 day commitment to myself. It is the best thing that I could have done. <BR> 2. I am grateful that I spent my time with my husband this week. <BR> 3. I am also grateful that he was open enough to let me know that he needed me to spend more time with me. <BR> 4. I am grateful that I am continuing to learn about me an dhow to be a better wife, friend, sister and better serve God. <BR> <BR> O... Sun, 1 Jun 2014 23:20:35 EST day 11 of 28 This morning I woke up and almost talked myself right out of running. I wanted to think up an excuse to break my commitment but I just could not. For this I am thankful. Which reminds me here are the things that I am thankful for: <BR> <BR> 1. waking up and getting out and running 5K this am <BR> 2. making good choices for breakfast <BR> 3. having a loving convo with my husband <BR> 4. having a husband that is on this journey with me <BR> <BR> I am really thankful for so many things and ... Sat, 31 May 2014 15:18:52 EST day 10 of 28 Planning my exercise and i know I will get it done, but I am bloggin early because I know I will forget to do so. I am happy about today. I live to wake up everyday to understand how to continue to be better and be a positive influence. I am starting to be honest with myself about what I will put up with and what I won't put up with and I am feeling pretty darn good about it. <BR> <BR> Today I am grateful for: <BR> 1. Waking up and not going into work today so that I could nurse my migrai... Fri, 30 May 2014 14:28:48 EST day 9 of 28 and still keeping it moving:) Today is a great day. I got in 7 miles, cooked breakfast for the hubby, cleaned the kitchen, mopped the floor and had a light morning discussion with my husband (which he hates). I am staying committed to myself and it is feeling pretty darn good! I don't know why I did not decide to do this earlier! <BR> Today I am grateful for: <BR> 1. I woke up with a song of Jesus on my heart and mind <BR> 2. I made it through 7 miles even though I was trying to talk myself out of exercising at mile 2 <... Thu, 29 May 2014 10:53:50 EST day 8 of 28 and still going strong. In fact I feel like I am in another realm:) Yes I forgot to blog yesterday which is a bummer! However I am not going to dwell on that because what is important is that I am on my 8 day streak for staying committed to myself. It feels really good to get back to me because for so long I felt like it was my duty to give so much of me and it didn't matter if I didn't get anything in return. Well, at least that is what I was telling myself. The truth is that I had taught myself all these years that I was not important enough to put mysel... Wed, 28 May 2014 11:11:35 EST day 6 of 28 Memorial day 2014 I cannot believe that i made it through the day without eating junk today. I am so proud of myself. While I am here I may as well list those things that I am grateful for. <BR> 1. I am grateful that I had enough sense today to think through my fake hunger. <BR> 2. I am grateful that I had a chance to talk to my husband about our healthy futures together. <BR> 3. i am grateful that I decided to start focusing more on my homework so that I don't fail my classes. <BR> <BR> I am very happy wit... Mon, 26 May 2014 03:21:34 EST My commitment day 5/28 I think this is the 5th day for my 28 day straight commitment for exercising. I did it first thing this morning before my day gets too hectic. I am struggling with eating because I am very hungry and have not yet mastered not eating so much when I sit down to eat. For breakfast I consumed a whopping 1,087 calories and I know it is because of the choice that I made. <BR> <BR> What I am grateful for: <BR> I am grateful to have completed 2 out of 3 assignments that are due tonight by 9pm. ... Sun, 25 May 2014 12:20:18 EST 28 is day #4 of 28 I have made a commitment to myself to exercise every day for the next 28 days straight. Today was day 4/28 and I am feeling really good about it. I also found a plan called The Fra Way on FB and have joined that group to follow that exercise plan and to get tips. Coming in June I will be making progress towards running my first marathon in October 2015. I am very excited about this journey and after reading past blog posts I am glad that I took time off to get centered so that I can be su... Sat, 24 May 2014 03:28:37 EST Love and Happiness...yes it does exist! Today I found my way back to the Spark pages and I am glad that I did. Over the months that I have been away, I have had the chance to learn about myself. All that I have learned has me back Sparking again and I am happy about it. Although my progress has been stagnant, I have gotten back to the me and that feels so good! I am ready to continue on this journey that I have started and I plan on sticking with it. I expect that there will be bad days and good days and I look forward to ever... Sat, 24 May 2014 03:20:24 EST Consistency and Goals I have wittled down the number of sites that I am part of so that I don't get tired of logging, however I have found that a handwritten journal is the best. Having said that I have set the following goals for this week (July 14-21 2013): <BR> <BR> Goal 1: <BR> Blog at least once a week. <BR> <BR> Goal 2: <BR> Log at least 3 times a week (food and exercise). <BR> <BR> Goal 3: <BR> Lose a minimum of 1 pound this week. <BR> <BR> My Monthly Goal is as follows: <BR> Lose at least 4 pounds thi... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 01:53:54 EST Figuring it all out Still figuring it all out. Working on the calories, trying to eat more to see if that is why my weight loss is non existent. Still a bit irritated. I ate whatever I wanted to this week and I don't feel guilty about it. I have had more energy too. Wed, 10 Apr 2013 01:02:18 EST Why make assumptions? I really am discouraged by the lack of information that is available for those of us that are doing all the "right" things but are not seeing progress. I don't care what anyone says...for me I want to see the scale move in the "loss" direction. I have come to believe that the changes that are suggested are cookie cutter and do not apply to me. I get the same suggestions over and over and I always wonder when I read the suggestions...why do people that offer these suggestions assume that th... Sun, 7 Apr 2013 17:33:15 EST REally tired of not losing weight!!! I am really discouraged this week. I am tired of not losing weight and not seeing progress. I have made so many changes and it has been 4 months without any results that keep me motivated. I have not dropped any more inches and as a matter of fact my stomach is pouchier. I do not want to read about salt intake, and watching the junk, because I am pretty darn good with my diet. I am in a bad mood about this whole lifestyle change because I am not so sure that it is for the better, I mean ... Thu, 4 Apr 2013 22:02:15 EST slightly irritated but still motivated:/ I join challenges because I think they would be fun. Then after I join them and realize how much logging is required I get irritated but because I am hard wired to complete what I start, I see the challenges through begrudgingly. On the flip side, although my weight has not changed since November, I am still motivated to continue exercising and eating more healthy. I used to snack three times a day, eating 100-150 calorie snacks and now I have cut back on those. The snacks I used to eat, ... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 21:51:04 EST Food, Food, Food I don't mind planning my meals and eating healthy because I know the benefits. I don't mind giving up sweet snacks and grabbing a vegetable instead, or even a piece of fruit because I know that it is beneficial for me. What I do mind is worrying about whether or not I'm consuming enough nutrients, keeping track of the different types of foods I should eat and learning that the things I am consuming may not be good choices. Apparently some fruits should be avoided because of the sugar conte... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 23:34:44 EST Still in it to win it I really hate it when people think that their diet plan is the best plan, sometimes I want to tell them to just shut up! I don't let it deter me, because I know how to stand in my own truth. My truth is although I am not losing the pounds that I thought or expected, I know to continue to do my exercises and not become obsessive with it and to continue eating well rounded meals and not obsess over that either. I am still in it to win it, win the battle of the bulge, win by preventing issues... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 23:21:55 EST 6 weeks round 2 Well, I am starting yet another 6 week challenge. The last 6 week challenge that I completed ended pretty well, it got me looking at food differently and I began to make smarter choices. I also learned that deprivation leads to binges and undoes all the hard work done previously. This round, I am incorporating more fruits and veggies and upping my protein intake. I have increased the amount that I am running and I will need these to keep me healthy. I do not believe in that whole carbo l... Sun, 24 Mar 2013 23:10:25 EST What do you love? I sat around today, while working on a power point presentation, and thought about how I often say "Oooh I just love...(fill in the blank)". I noticed that most of the things I claim to just looove were material things and food. Not so much people. It made me wonder, how many other people are like this. I really think that the lack of connecting with people is a problem. Gotta change this... Thu, 21 Mar 2013 22:24:21 EST Bad Week or Not Bad Week I guess it depends on how I decide to look at this week. I honestly don't consider it a bad week. I have been consuming more salty junk foods though (cheetos, baked lays). I noticed that I have had these at least twice this week, so I am making a conscious decision to pay attention to snacking while I am bored at work. So my plan goes like this...pack more veggies and when I want to reach for the chips I won't. After reviewing my diary, I think that I am eating these things because I am ... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 22:46:28 EST Tired today Today, I was so tired because I did not sleep well last night. I woke up off and on for hours and did not get a good rest. When I got home today, I crashed, first thing and woke up later to get my things together for tomorrow. tomorrow I am going to make sure that I do not drink coffee or soda, no chips or crackers all of the things that make me exhausted later in the evening. I'm just tired of being tired. Mon, 11 Mar 2013 23:05:48 EST Hitting a bump in the road is just an opportunity to soar! I have thought about the saying that I hear so often from people, "when you hit a bump in the road you just pick yourself up". This is good advice, but I know that hitting a bump is also a chance to soar. The saying implicates that you always fall when hitting a bump, and I don't think this is the case. So, the next time you hit a bump, pretend you are on a bike...imagine yourself standing up and pulling the front of the bike towards you and soar! Use that bump as a catapult! That is all... Sat, 9 Mar 2013 18:31:01 EST A Little of This and a Little of That:) Yesterday I was in a dark place not feeling good about my job, not feeling good about my workout, just blah. I looked at my eating for the past few weeks and I really think it is because I am not eating enough. I am upping my caloric intake to 2000 minimum/day. Today was much better and I actually got 6.2 miles in before starting work. I am pretty excited about my first 10K coming up this Saturday, so I have been pretty diligent about sticking to a regular run routine, no matter how hard.... Thu, 7 Mar 2013 23:03:28 EST In A Bad Space, But Sticking To It:) Today started off good, but the mood changed midday for me. I think that being in an office and working alone is starting to get to me. I love working on my own, but sometimes the isolation makes me feel disconnected and I am one of those people that needs to be connected for me to thrive. I am a nurturer and need to nurture people but I don't have that type of job. Today, I felt like I was not up to par and there is a lack of confidence by others for me to take on bigger assignments. I ... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 21:45:08 EST Today Was Better Than I Anticipated I got up this morning, did a little stretching and said my morning prayer. I got dressed and could not find my keys. I ended up leaving my home 15 minutes later than usual, very irritated at myself for misplacing my keys. I got to work and was feeling a little tired, this is not unusual, but I forced myself to get on that treadmill and I really did not want to, I just could not find a good enough reason not too. So I started my Nike Plus app, and once I heard the voice prompt "starting wo... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 21:39:59 EST Tired and Overeating Being tired and overeating...this is a vicious cycle and I recognized today that I started this cycle when I woke up this morning to go to work, I felt like I did not get enough sleep, but I kept on getting dressed so I can make my long commute. When I got to the gym, I was so tired but I got in some good stretching and did my IT band workout, a boot camp video and some other weight exercises. I fought sleep most of the day at work, making for a long work day. At about noon, I drank some c... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 22:16:09 EST A Much Needed Rest Day:) So I did not hit my goal of running 30 miles this week, however I am not down about it. After yesterday's run I found a blister on my foot. So I decided to take it slow today and get back out there tomorrow. I enjoyed spending time with my husband, as I always do, and I enjoyed our fatty dinner without gorging. I am feeling pretty good about having a rest day now, I used to feel like I had to do something everyday no matter how my body was feeling, I would just push through it. Now, I kn... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 22:43:29 EST Mama Chae's Adventures in Running:) Today I went on a 6 mile run, but the plan was to get in 10 or 11. At 2.78 miles into the run a little chihuahua came running up to me and started running with me. Now, I am not an animal lover, but this little doggie seemed like he/she needed something and I was compelled to stop. I went to knock on the door of the house where I seen the dog running away from, and there was no answer. So, I picked up the dog, and to my surprise he/she let me and was not scared, did not pee and embraced m... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 02:05:21 EST Four months and only 3 pounds...Grrrrr! So...I weighed in today after two weeks and I have not lost any weight. I started the shred diet 6 weeks ago to get my portion sizes under control and basically to learn how to eat properly and I have lost only 3 pounds in the 6 weeks. My husband says I look smaller, so I continue to exercise 5 days a week and eating healthy. I have been working out for 5 days/week a total of 4 months now doing cardio workouts for 50-65 minutes (the variation was determined by the number of miles I had sch... Fri, 1 Mar 2013 23:13:24 EST Been doing this for a while, just not here...continued Since I have recovered from my injury, I have been back running again:). This has made me feel pretty good and although I am having a hard time losing weight, I know that I am losing inches. I am hoping to lose the 20 I gained plus 10 by October. I usually use MFP, but this site has more resources and seems to be more friendly, although I have a hard time finding things on my start page. I am training on my own now, for the upcoming marathon in october. My mileage has gradually increased... Thu, 28 Feb 2013 14:42:17 EST Been doing this for a while, just not here...continued Since I have recovered from my injury, I have been back running again:). This has made me feel pretty good and although I am having a hard time losing weight, I know that I am losing inches. I am hoping to lose the 20 I gained plus 10 by October. I usually use MFP, but this site has more resources and seems to be more friendly, although I have a hard time finding things on my start page. I am training on my own now, for the upcoming marathon in october. My mileage has gradually increased... Thu, 28 Feb 2013 14:42:16 EST Been doing this for a while, just not here Well I started my journey of getting back into shape last year around this time when I started training for my first marathon. I was excited and then I found out that I had a stress fracture with serious IT band issues that put me out of commission for 4 months. During that time I gained 20 pounds. I figured it was because of the decrease in my running activity. I was sad to miss my chance to run my first marathon in 2012, and I realized that the training was not adequate for me. This is when... Thu, 28 Feb 2013 09:52:17 EST