MALEXANDER4's SparkPeople Blog MALEXANDER4's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Shaping the new ME <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Each day I wake up with the choice to have a great day or a not so great day. It seems I feel I have more bad days than good. But the truth is I'm harder on myself than I need to be. I'm not doing badly I'm just not doing as good as I could be. So with that said....... <BR> <BR> It is time to SHAPE THE NEW ME. I can't begin to tell you how badly I want this. I can tell ya that I have missed the boat on this a lot... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 07:43:12 EST Today <BR> Every day is a new day - <BR> a day for new beginnings, new dreams, new action - <BR> a day for challenge, adventure, and discovery. <BR> TODAY, what is your goal? <BR> What is your dream? <BR> What action are you taking to further your goals and dreams? <BR> - Jonathan Lockwood Huie <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Michelle. Wed, 9 Jul 2014 07:27:34 EST Trust in YOU <BR> Paul the SparkPeople programmer says: <BR> Wanting and doing are not the same things. Don't say you want something. DO what's necessary to get what you want. <BR> <BR> Oh how often I've wished for healthy living. I want it but do I WANT it? I mean why do we/me continue to do the things that upset our healthy balance day in and day out if health is what we/I want? <BR> <BR> Well I can't speak for you all but for me it is all about the journey. I travel these roads day in and d... Sun, 6 Jul 2014 07:35:21 EST Inspration to share Samantha, SparkPeople community moderator, says: <BR> Believe in your ability to reach your goals and follow through without hesitation <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Just a bit of inspiration to share today. Just keep moving forward one foot in front of the other and soon you... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 06:34:03 EST I may have found my "aha" <BR> Be resolute in your goals, <BR> but flexible in your tactics. <BR> - Jonathan Lockwood Huie <BR> <BR> Today marks one day of great eating. I had an awesome day yesterday. I worked around this house till eleven and then I got a shower and headed to town for groceries. I even bought meals and not junk. My goal was for the meals portion and snacks were not an option. You see snacks is where I fall prey to the overeating syndrome. I will munch my way through a bag of chips, In no time f... Mon, 30 Jun 2014 06:45:38 EST Month ending <img src=""> One step at a time one month at a time. shoot some days it is one minute at a time. But I will get to my goal. It may not be today or tomorrow but if I never give up I will reach it in time. Do I want it to come faster? Well really don't we all? Of course I would like to wake up tomorrow and be at my goal and holding. But I don't see that happening any time soon. Not that I'm not working for it but I don't really honestly give... Sun, 29 Jun 2014 07:30:30 EST Note to self. <img src=""> Starting over, now this I should be a pro at. I have no trouble beginning again, it is the staying true to myself I seem to fail at every time. But this time just feels different. I don't know why, maybe I'm getting older and I know that I don't need to be a size 2 to be happy with myself. I can be happy with me no matter the size of my jeans. I need to learn to love me more and the dieting less. I need a healthy lifestyle a... Fri, 27 Jun 2014 07:07:07 EST One good habit at a time. <BR> Patience, persistence, and perseverance. <BR> A little more each day, a little better each day. <BR> - Jonathan Lockwood Huie <BR> <BR> This morning as I was checking my emails this came up in a post. This is just shouting out for me to listen. We can't all be perfect all the time but we can all take baby steps to help us in our journey. When you feel like you have failed yet again...take a moment to ponder the good that you did that day. Maybe you got your water in, or got some ex... Wed, 25 Jun 2014 06:34:47 EST Finding new strengths <img src=""> It happened I got on those dang old scales and they showed a loss....again. <em>244</em> Not a lot but a loss non the less. I know I know your thinking so what? But hey I've been at this a long time. So long now that I could measure my foods in my sleep. But I still am not at goal. Why you may wonder? Stopping and starting is why. I don't see much happening so I tend to beat myself up and decide maybe this is just not worth... Sun, 22 Jun 2014 09:13:15 EST Sometimes <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Today is another day to get this right. I have the rest of my life to work on me and I intend to make the most of it. Oh I will have setbacks, step ups, and wagons falling on me in that time, but with a lot of persistence I will succeed. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Michelle <em>88</em> Thu, 19 Jun 2014 06:56:06 EST Going in the direction of my dreams. <BR> Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. <BR> Live the life you have imagined. <BR> - Henry David Thoreau <BR> <BR> It seems funny to say this but is that not what we are doing? Going in the direction of our dreams? Even when we fall down we get back up, it may be for a day or a meal but we get back up. Funny how we know what we want but finding out how to get it is the other part of the problem. <BR> <BR> I know what I want, I want to be thin, but isn't that really just a... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 07:03:21 EST Already? Yup I worked all day, went to the gym after work, came home and had a crockpot meal all done but needed to do rice. It seemed at that point it took forever, but instead of munching as I would normally do I put on my suit and got in a quick cool down swim before dinner. Well I ate finally and yup you guessed it that led to gelato, and cheese popcorn. Ok yeah they shouldn't of been in the house. I can see that now and as I laid in bed with a bad belly. <BR> <BR> Ok something to work on. I kn... Tue, 17 Jun 2014 06:48:28 EST Setting new goals to reach Failure is only the opportunity to begin again, this time more wisely. Today is a new day! <BR> <BR> For sure today is my new day. No I haven't slipped and fell yet but I feel like I need a goal to work towards. So today I've decided being a Monday and all is as good a day as any to work on the new me I want to be. I'm down a bit, my clothes are fitting better, and I'm ready to keep on going, but I feel I need something to go to. So with that being said I think today will mark the first day... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 06:47:45 EST Week in review <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Wow this statement is so true. It has been a bit since I've blogged. So lets see if I can catch myself up....I lost almost four pounds last week, but this week I'm up two, so still a win win. I'm still down two. My car has been in the shop for a week, got it out and today I think I'm trading it in. Hubby thinks it is going to begin costing us money regurally. So time for a change. I haven't had a new car in 12 yea... Sat, 14 Jun 2014 06:22:29 EST Stressing and pondering You ever just want to throw in the towel. Throw your hands up and shout "UNCLE"? Well I often want to but I'm not a quitter. Nope, never have been. But if this journey hadn't taught me a few things along the way I probably would just quit. But then what? I'd be overweight and very unhappy. Wait I'm that now. So what would change if I just gave all this up? <BR> <BR> Pondering all of this now but knowing in my heart I won't quit on myself. I have lost a bit but I've gained a bit also. I did ... Sat, 31 May 2014 07:50:47 EST Facing my own reality Your actions become your habits. Don't let yourself make a pattern of slipups or they'll become habits! <BR> <BR> I received this quote this morning in a email. Now this after I have weighed in and I'm up yet again. Why I don't have to wonder. It is because I've taken this journey down a whole new path and it is leading me right into harms way. So as I stepped off the scales with a grimace on my face really I have no one I can blame but me. <BR> <BR> I won't give excuses because I have no... Sat, 10 May 2014 06:50:06 EST Detox for the soul Daily Quote: “You are where you are and what you are because of yourself, nothing else. Nature is neutral. Nature doesn't care. If you do what other successful people do, you will enjoy the same results and rewards that they do. And if you don't, you won't.” <BR> <BR> This quote was off a team page I'm on. It just spoke so loudly to me today. You see I've been struggling for a while now. Oh I pick myself up and move forward for a bit then I slip right back to where I'm at my lowest...motiva... Wed, 30 Apr 2014 09:18:42 EST Happy Easter <img src=""> Happy Easter to all my Spark friends. I hope this new awakening brings you much in new beginnings or continued success. <BR> <BR> I'm so looking forward to a bit more sunshine and just relaxing evenings spent on the porch. I'm also looking forward to changes in me as well as the season. So as I step forward into a new fresh beginning and awaken myself to all the possibilities of the season I also awaken to all the possibil... Sat, 19 Apr 2014 08:20:22 EST Today is a new day or is it? We always have today. A new start, a fresh beginning. Or that is what I like to tell myself each and every time I mess up again. Ok, I know this is a way of life, I healthy journey, I'm just not feeling it. I haven't for quite a while now. Oh I go through the motions, I exercise, I even sweat on occasion, I eat the good foods, I measure sometimes, I even weigh in once a week. But you know what? Nothing changes. In my head or on the scales it is all the same. October I got a fitbit from a frie... Sun, 6 Apr 2014 09:35:25 EST Week #3 and final week of ZP Challenge Well the scales stayed the same. No movement at all. At first I was upset but then I thought heck it could of been a gain. It was my TOM and we all know that means water, no matter how you work it you will have water gain. But the challenge is done. I was a success because I lost two pounds total and for me that is wonderful. So I may not have won in their eyes but in mine I succeeded in completing something. <BR> <BR> I have been having thoughts of just quitting. I mean why bother if the s... Sat, 5 Apr 2014 08:24:44 EST Week #2 Weigh-In <em>104</em> Ok I'm down another 0.4 this week. Bringing my two week total to 2.7 pounds in two weeks. So the ZP Challenge may be what I needed to jump start myself back to good habits. Last week begins now and lets see what that brings. <BR> <BR> Will I continue when it is all over? Well of course. I have a goal to see again and I'm ready to begin shopping in my own closet and wearing some of my favorites again. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Sat, 29 Mar 2014 07:44:57 EST ZP Challenge week 1 weigh-in DOWN 2.3 lbs this week. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Really that is all any of us can do. <BR> <BR> Michelle. <em>250</em> Sat, 22 Mar 2014 07:13:33 EST ZP Challenge: Day 5 update A friend asked me how it was going. So I thought today I would tell you all. It is awesome. I'm four days in. Four days with in my calorie range, four days of exercise, four days of water, and just four days of planning and following. Feeling better? You betcha. <BR> <BR> <img src="">And deciding to try was the hardest part for me. I was down so far I didn't know if I would ever get myself back up. Well I'm not there yet. But four days i... Thu, 20 Mar 2014 07:03:30 EST ZP Challenge: Day 2 "and so it goes" Wave good-bye to old habits! This year it's about becoming the new you! <BR> <BR> <em>248</em> Goal was met for day one. On track and feeling good this morning. I have reset my weight and Spark goals so this time is fresh all around. It is time to stop playing and get serious. <BR> <BR> I really don't know where my mind has been for these last two years. Denial is not just a river in Egypt it is right here in my head and in my home. I'm up to my highest weight ever. What the heck. I al... Mon, 17 Mar 2014 07:26:07 EST Day 1: ZP Challenge/streak <BR> The road to success has many tempting parking places and rest stops. Just keep going! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Ok I must confess.....I have not been doing what is needed to reach any of my goals. Ok yes I exercise daily....but we know from spark and any other site that weight loss is 80/20. That means that without a good diet the exercise is just ;movement. So why am I telling you this yet again? <BR> <BR> Work has t... Sun, 16 Mar 2014 07:42:46 EST Spring is in the air <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I know apples are for fall but this pic just has all the colors of spring in it. I love spring. So much renewal going on. Leaves on the trees, flowers in bloom, and just warmth and sunshine. With everything else being new and refreshed it makes me ready to renew and refresh myself. <BR> <BR> So far this new month has brought such glorious happiness (yup in just the one day) I'm down 1.2 pounds this week. I've fi... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 07:38:43 EST Change is in the air <BR> SparkPeople editor Stepfanie says: <BR> Who you are right now, or at any one moment of your lifetime, does not define who you are as a person. You—and only you--can change your life today. <BR> <BR> As I was going through my email I come across this quote on one of my spark emails. Now it was like someone up above was looking out for me or maybe trying to tell me something. You see I've been slacking on the healthy living lifestyle I want. I have been taking the easy road for qu... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 07:11:05 EST Time for Changes You can't cross the sea merely by <BR> standing and staring at the water. <BR> - Rabindranath Tagore <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Such simple words but they just struck me as a promise this morning. A Vow of sorts to myself. You see I have been walking the line between healthy living and laziness for some time now. I have been going to the gym three times weekly, I exercise at home daily. But it is in the eating I seem to have c... Wed, 26 Feb 2014 07:58:24 EST Weekly Weigh-in <em>41</em> 155.9 up 0.2 but basically stayed the same this week. <BR> <BR> This was one of those weeks I'd rather not redo if I can help it. Not because of food but just plain craziness. My car needed a new tire so I took it to walmart where I work and bought one. the kicker is my car has a key to unlock the hubs....who'd a thought that? Not me that is for sure and it wasn't disclosed to me when I bought the car some six months ago. So anyhow....they can't do it. So I buy the tire becaus... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 08:23:29 EST Slow and Steady? Really!!!!! <img src=""> Well that is probably a good thing because I'm moving at a snails pace, but on the other hand I'm moving. <BR> <BR> <em>362</em> This past week I joined the YMCA here in town. I've been twice so far. I'm actually liking it. I love the strength machines....I know crazy right? But really I do, and I'm enjoying the cardio room. I'm still walking on the weekends with my daughter and I really enjoy that. <BR> <BR> <em>55... Sun, 16 Feb 2014 07:40:52 EST It's time If you run into a wall, don't turn around and give up. <BR> Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it. <BR> - Michael Jordan <BR> <BR> Whatever you can do, or dream you can, Begin it. <BR> Boldness has genius, power and magic in it, Begin it now. <BR> - Johann Wolfgang von Goethe <BR> <BR> It doesn't matter if you try and try and try again, <BR> and fail. <BR> It does matter if you try and fail, and fail to try again. <BR> - Charles Kettering <BR> <BR> <img sr... Sat, 8 Feb 2014 02:16:01 EST Time to weigh in <em>192</em> Ok this week I worked out more, ate on target, and only had two diet colas. What was the outcome you may wonder, or not, but I'm going to tell ya anyways.....I was up by 0.5. But my fat percent was down so I'm actually healthier this week then last. So am I upset over that? Well of course I was to begin with but I told myself I will not allow a number to define me. It is time to move out of the weight range I'm stuck in and see some new territory. <BR> <BR> Toda as I opened m... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 06:37:37 EST Dig a bit deeper When we dig deep we do find our inner strength. <BR> <BR> Instead of thinking, "It hasn't worked before," think, "I'll try again!" <BR> <BR> <em>193</em> Today I'm down 1.9 pounds for a total loss this month of 4 pounds. Why? Because when I was ready to give up and give in to temptation I dug a bit deeper and kept going. Oh I won't lie I was ready to give up. I cried with each step on the scale, I hated me, I was depressed. But I really wanted to see my goal reached. So I stepped back ... Sun, 26 Jan 2014 07:36:44 EST I DON"T WANNA!!!!! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My last blog was about "one more time", but you know what? I'm tired. I don't wanna do this one more time. I hate stepping on those dang scales and seeing a loss so tiny it may as well be nothing. I don't wanna weigh and measure all the dang time, I don't wanna get up early to exercise every morning, I don't wanna, I just don't wanna. ... Sun, 19 Jan 2014 17:04:17 EST Just one more..... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Oh how many times in the past I've wanted to just throw in the towel, and say I quit. But my mind wouldn't let me. It just kept and keeps saying what if....You know what if I do this just one more week, what if I work out one more time, what if what if what if. But it is those what if's that keep me moving forward. Nope I'm not at my goal, I don't see it in my future anytime soon, but I know it will happen. So I ke... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 07:06:38 EST 1/4/2014 New Year/ New Attitude <img src=""> Knowing how many days are left to spring makes me want to work that much harder at reaching my goals. I want to head into this new season with health and being able to finally wear the clothes I have hanging in my closet. I think shopping in my own closet is what I'm looking forward to most. <BR> <BR> So much change in my thinking lately that I know that I will succeed. No maybe about it. I'm ready for this challenge. I'm w... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 08:47:55 EST Here's to new beginnings The beginning of a new season, month or year symbolizes a fresh start. If you've been going down the wrong road, it's a great time to start anew! <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> There is just something about the new year and new beginnings that go hand in hand. It is like we have 365 days of fresh clean slate to work with. I'm glad to say I'm off to a awesome start for my new year and I haven't even stepped on the scale once thi... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 07:16:01 EST 2014 Happy New Year! Don't Wait! <BR> Start on your dreams, your impulses, <BR> your longings, your special occasions today. <BR> Because this is your moment. <BR> - Mary Anne Radmacher <BR> <BR> You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream. <BR> - C. S. Lewis <BR> <BR> Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right. <BR> - Oprah Winfrey <BR> <BR> In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. <BR> It's the life in your years. <BR> - Abraham Lincoln <BR... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 08:07:30 EST And so I begin fresh today Today I will begin fresh. Oh I've been on track but yesterday I was a bit off and Christmas Eve I went way over also. It seems if there is a bunch of good food in one sitting I just have to try it all. Now that is not to say I didn't get a good walk in yesterday for my Christmas present to me. I got 3 miles and it felt awesome. Today I'm going to head out and work for that much again. Funny I was up to over four and now three is tough. It may take a while to get in shape but let me tell ya it... Thu, 26 Dec 2013 08:05:44 EST Merry Christmas 2013 <img src=""> Here we are another Christmas. I began my Spark journey on New Years eve some time ago. I have yet to reach my goal weight, but I've gained many gifts in the forms of friends. I don't think I would be here with each of you still if not for the Spark Friends I have met and kept all these years. Does that mean I've given up on me? Hell no. But it sure makes the journey that much better when your not alone. So today I want to say... Wed, 25 Dec 2013 08:57:39 EST Hey they do move..... The scales that is. they do move in another position besides up. Mine finally got unstuck and moved down almost three pounds this week. What a glorious feeling after seeing them move upwards for so very long. I think I almost heard the angels singing hallelujah as I stepped off. <em>335</em> <BR> <BR> But in all seriousness this has been the worst couple of years. I've gained and gained to a point that I was so ready to throw in the towel. It seemed no matter what I did it wasn't enough... Sun, 15 Dec 2013 07:43:23 EST Why bother???? <img src=""> This is why I keep going. Because today may just be the day that all this clicks. I see so many here on spark making it, succeeding. I just see my weight ticker moving in the wrong direction. Heck truth be told it has been steadily moving in the wrong direction for a very long time now. I seem to get four great days in, then I slip for three. I could call that the 60/40 rule but it is suppose to be the 80/20 rule right? So I... Sat, 14 Dec 2013 07:22:30 EST Just Do It: day 3 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have awoken two mornings in a row with that feeling. Today I begin my day three, which just happens to coincide with Dec. 3rd. There is a reason for that. You see I've kinda been on the outs with myself for oh about two years. But as I was struggling to put on a pair of jeans to wear to a party for my husbands bike club it came very clear to me that it wasn't going to happen. The jeans part that is. Oh I tried, ... Tue, 3 Dec 2013 07:11:21 EST And so it begins.....again.... <img src=""> Well tomorrow is a new month. The last month of the year. Funny some eleven months ago I had decided that I was done with the roller coaster ride and ready to get off. Well I rode that ride all the way to today. Oh I had some losses and a few or more gains, to the point of regaining all that I had worked so hard for just a few years earlier. Well it is what it is. So as this November comes to a end and a new month begins I ha... Sat, 30 Nov 2013 15:50:52 EST Change your thinking and change YOU Don't be your own worst critic. Wipe away those negative thoughts, and be kind to yourself <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Just for today imagine your the YOU you've been working for. Now take that feeling and carry it with you each and every day and you will become that person. <BR> <BR> Michelle. Sat, 23 Nov 2013 07:42:29 EST Changes come in all forms Wake up every day vowing to do one positive action to move you closer to your goal. <BR> <BR> Never underestimate your power to change and improve! You are a good person, with wonderful qualities, and you can reach your goals! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It has taken me many months to learn this. There was a time not so very long ago that I would get upset over the scales. When I had worked so hard and they just climbed high... Mon, 18 Nov 2013 07:21:16 EST Confessions of a chip-o-holic <BR> We hear two voices calling us, <BR> one saying, "Why not?" <BR> and the other, "Why bother?" <BR> - Sydney J. Harris <BR> <BR> Oh I have heard the voices so many times. Most especially when I step on the scales and I have gained a bit. Ok saying a bit is a understatement. I'm back to where I once began and that is with a loss. So why am I telling you this? <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> We all have a past filled with somet... Sat, 9 Nov 2013 07:29:29 EST Today Your actions become your habits. Don't let yourself make a pattern of slipups or they'll become habits! <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I'm taking back the power to control my destiny. Nobody can do this but me. I don't care what the scales show this week I know I did the work. So chin up and move forward....i'm going to get there from here. <BR> <B... Fri, 8 Nov 2013 06:27:22 EST Day by day Really there is no other way to reach our goals then by doing this day by day. Yes you can plan meals, exercise, or rest. You can't however plan how your day is going to turn out. That is up to you. My motto is one pound, one step, one day at a time. I love to walk. I think that is my go to exercise for cardio. I like the open space, the views, the sounds, even the scents of the seasons. So yesterday my daughter and I headed out for a bit of a walk with my grandson. <BR> <BR> <BR> Sport: W... Mon, 4 Nov 2013 07:13:09 EST Moving forward! When you just don't think you can, keep going! Getting through those weak moments is how you become stronger. <BR> <BR> <BR> Positive thinking will let you do everything <BR> better than negative thinking will. <BR> - Zig Ziglar <BR> <BR> <BR> Our lives are defined not by the challenges we encounter, <BR> but by how we respond to those challenges. <BR> - Jonathan Lockwood Huie <BR> <BR> To stay positive, think positive, act positive, and believe positive. <BR> - Jonathan Lockwo... Sun, 3 Nov 2013 07:35:18 EST