MAJORLY_SHAY's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MAJORLY%5FSHAY MAJORLY_SHAY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Last question of the week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5278691 Anything else you would like to share with your Team? <BR> <BR> <em>283</em> <em>283</em> <em>304</em> <em>243</em> <em>243</em> <BR> <BR> I am not only shocked, but thoroughly amazed at the wonderful support I have received so far with this challenge. Each and everyone of you deserve a pat on the back, not just for being good teammates, but fantastically kind people. I hope each and everyone of you make you're 5% challenge, and realize how much you have earned it! <BR> <... Fri, 8 Mar 2013 10:26:41 EST Questions for the Challenge! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5277352 5) What can you improve upon? <BR> I could improve upon where and how I gather recipes. <BR> I definitely don't use all the resources I could. <BR> <BR> 6) Do you need some motivation or advice? Ask for it! <BR> <BR> Currently I'm still sick with a nasty cough, so I haven't been exercising actively. But I'm still losing weight regularly. I have been only eating food that I've been cooking. I'm concerned the weight dropping off is muscle weight. I'm just concerned that the sick weight I'v... Thu, 7 Mar 2013 11:45:39 EST Running behind: Questions for Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5273926 1) What new habit you wish to develop? <BR> I honestly wish I could develop one in which I automatically think of things I need to to get dinner started. Like thawing what ever needs to be thawed and so forth. <BR> <BR> 2) How will you do that? <BR> Frankly I'm hoping to do it with strategically placing sticky notes around my house. <BR> <BR> 3) What are you doing to encourage yourself and keep on track? <BR> I'm trying to take "take out" off the menu. My diet goals for this challenge we... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 08:29:17 EST Sorry, Weekend, Challenge, Updates http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5255959 So, first off, I wanted to say I'm sorry for not updating you all after I posted my last blog which was rather whiney I'll admit. <BR> <BR> SO what's going on: A few spark friends sent me links to awesome challenge groups, and I currently have joined the Winter to Spring 5% Challenge group and am on team FIRECRACKER! I'm excited because there's a very evident goal of being 5% lighter by April 20th (May be off on the date). I do well with goals in short view, considering my first successful ... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 09:46:48 EST Seriously need support, help, a kick in the butt http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5245051 (whining) : Yesterday we did my husband's and my Valentines day since we'll both be working. <BR> Today, I'm back up to 230. Ugghhhh! I know I shouldn't weigh in everyday, but fig newton guys! I thought I was being careful. So much for that. I always do this when I first start out, it's like I'm purposely sabotaging myself. Why?? Maybe I really don't want change. Maybe I want to be lazy forever. <BR> <BR> Truth be told, I would love to go down 50 lbs. I would love to be 180 again. Why is it... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 12:00:41 EST My first day back running... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5237106 The sidewalk doesn't care you've been gone since September. Your running shoes don't ask where have you been. Nothing notices you've been gone. The air is crisp as your feet hit the ground. A private concert plays in my ears, following each step. Keeping my heart beat steady, keeping my feet steady. I know why I started running to begin with. I start slow. I start walking, then jogging. I stop every three minutes. Trying not to overdo it. But it feels good. I missed it. I missed running. <BR>... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 12:16:26 EST New goals, and Realizations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5235548 So I had reached my first mini goal which I made it a weekly one and got the headphones I wanted. They're a little funky to be honest with you guys, but they don't physically put my ears in pain like the ear buds ones did. So yay for new head phones! <BR> <BR> My new goal is a month goal, and that is to work out 6 days a week. For this goal my reward is a pair of converse which I have been wanting for a couple months now. Call me a shoe freak if you want, but honestly I really just want to ... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 10:35:57 EST I miss having friends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5228719 Pretty much any military wife or wife who has ever had to pick up and leave all that she's known relates to that. I miss my best friend I grew up with more than anything. It's crazy ridiculous how fiercely I miss her some days. But today, quite frankly, I miss all of my friends. Even the ones I've only hung out with a few times. I miss having friends I could call up and say " Do you want to go to the movies, or go get a coffee and catch up?" Most of them are having babies now and 95% of me is... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 12:16:35 EST Work, Cravings? Tmi http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5227718 <BR> So today at work we had to do inventory, and for anyone who hasn't had the privilege to work in retail, pretty much meant a day of wearing comfy clothes, counting and annoyance. I actually ate out for lunch having Chinese. Butterfly shrimp, and fried rice. And I even had a mountain dew. I know, naughty, naughty Shay. Frankly I think I did well for my calories for all except for the soda. I had less fried rice than I wanted, and kept putting my fork down between bites to give my stoma... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 20:14:52 EST Your Fitness Evolved and Heart Rate monitor http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5224276 So since it's still too cold for me to start running again (I know, many northerners must think I'm a pansy) but anywho I 've been using the Kinect fitness game "Your Fitness Evolved 2012" which in the most part I find it to be fantastic. The only issue I've found is it to count calories burned completely incorrectly. I used my heart rate monitor yesterday with it. The game said I burned 7 calories in the warm up, while my heart rate monitor said 31. So Ive been getting chipped in calories bu... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 11:33:44 EST I'm back.... From outer space? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5220109 So, I fell off the face of the earth it seemed. I stopped coming online, I stopped weighing in, I stopped caring what I was eating. I stopped trying. There's really not much else I can say, that you haven't all heard before. <BR> <BR> But that isn't the point is it? Everyone's been there, the point now is to realize your mistake pick up the pieces and keep moving on. You're either in it or your not. Not much else to it. I have a new motivation now (something I've always lacked) and I'm pr... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 12:28:58 EST Needing to find it again... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5092971 <BR> <BR> I've probably slipped down to the furthest I could or care to. I have completely stopped exercising, completely quit tracking. I've discovered more and more about myself and what I need in life though. <BR> <BR> My biggest problem with exercising and eating healthy is probably those of the average. I hate to cook. I hate to get up and attempt to cook. I do not have cooking skills, and with most "Healthy" recipes my food is edible at best. I think I'd be much more inclined to c... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 17:01:41 EST I feel... lost http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5043663 I don't know what's been going on this past month but my emotions have been super crazy. Like I was on TOM the whole time. I cried about simple things, I was horny all the time and then I was super easy to anger. I don't know what's wrong with me. I have a doctor's appt on the 13th to see if somethings jacked with my hormones cause frankly I still feel all over the place. <BR> <BR> I'm writing this because I feel like enjoyment of a good workout is gone, that enjoyment of another healthy m... Tue, 4 Sep 2012 09:27:32 EST Dear Exercise Short Shorts, and Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5034400 Dear Designers of Womens Exercise Clothes, <BR> <BR> I honestly believe we needed to have this moment to discuss what you design, versus what I need. As a 21 almost 22 year old woman, I understand you think that I maybe one of those woman who feel that if my ass isn't jiggling out of my exercise shorts, than by golly they are just not cute enough for me. I'm writing this to tell you, your wrong. Oh so wrong. I am sick of not being able to buy cute exercise clothes, and for a while there ... Tue, 28 Aug 2012 09:51:53 EST Day 1 of 30 Day Shred http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5030357 I just thought I'd give my thoughts of my first day of the 30 day shred with Jillian Michaels: <BR> <BR> I'll begin with cutting out all the curse words and F yous and you lying bleep bleep bleeep. It was harder than I suspected. When I read about it from my friend PASKALINI and her blog (http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage.asp?id=<BR>PASKALINI) I honestly knew it'd be difficult. But I seriously have been needing a good kick in the butt. I've been bored with my routine, and even have been get... Sat, 25 Aug 2012 10:21:52 EST My first 5k http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5023085 It was 15 minutes until 8. The running started at 8, and I was feeling nervous. The red number sheet safety pinned to my shirt reads "595". I honestly don't know what to think, other what I imagine what other people think about: How fast I'll run, how long the track is, whether it was smart that I ran the day before. <BR> The fifteen minutes went by quickly, and we were in the streets. The firing gun went off. The runners started. I started. I started too fast, I'm running faster than I kn... Mon, 20 Aug 2012 10:15:30 EST When the going gets tough, the tough keep going http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5019081 Have you ever sat down and asked, "Why am I doing this?" Really sat down and thought about this. We've always promised "I will lose weight!" "I will get serious about it." But you never actually say, "I will get to a healthy weight, even if I'm not skinny," or "I'm going to dedicate myself to becoming healthy." But it's not as easy as words, it's not as easy as just doing. Because this is a battle. We can all pretend it's easy. You can say "You have all the tools, why can't you lose the weigh... Fri, 17 Aug 2012 08:02:10 EST 4 miles one day, 2.9 the next http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5004783 Let's start this with yesterday: <BR> <BR> Yesterday I was determined to do a 5k. Everytime I had decided to stop and go home, I always found a way to go a little further. <BR> "Oh let's go down this street." "Well I could just finish this street instead." " I'll just run end to end on this street." But I kept pushing for more and more. At the end of it, I finally came home and tracked it. At first I thought I had ran a 10K (cause I'm a dunderhead who is bad at paying attention to small d... Tue, 7 Aug 2012 10:11:57 EST Dear Matthew: A letter to my husband http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4997502 Dear Matt, <BR> <BR> I'm sure you've noticed, but I've been lacking motivation. I'm lacking motivation to work out, to make an effort. I'm still eating right and getting in a minimum amount of exercise, but it's no where near what I have been. I've been doing everything else at full speed and I know you know that. As we start looking at overseas bases, and we both know the stresses of work, money, and of course our little arguements every now and again. <BR> <BR> But this letter isn't a... Thu, 2 Aug 2012 07:35:18 EST 50 Questions! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4989538 Stolen from a Spark friend. <BR> 1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? <BR> Nope <BR> <BR> 2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? <BR> Couple of days ago. <BR> <BR> 3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? <BR> Sometimes <BR> <BR> 4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? <BR> Turkey <BR> <BR> 5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? <BR> I want some. <BR> <BR> 6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? <BR> I am not sure. <BR> <BR> 7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? <BR> Yes. Maybe alittle too much <BR> ... Fri, 27 Jul 2012 16:00:27 EST What's been happening and New Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4988576 So one of my co-workers has put in his 2 weeks notice. Which means I need to find another job, NOW. As my status says, I missed work on Wednesday. I know what your thinking, "what dunderhead just forgets she has work??" Well I work for the on base theater, and our usual work schedule is only Saturday, and Sunday. I've been working the past few Wednesday's for our summer time kids movie special, and I'll be honest- I spaced it. I didn't even remember it was Wednesday. It didn't cross my mind ... Thu, 26 Jul 2012 22:52:27 EST Still sick and some vacation photos! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4977578 So, as the title suggests, I'm still sick. Which I noticed something, and I wanted to share it with you guys, and wanted to know what you thought. <BR> <BR> When I left for vacation, I was 223 lbs, and was pretty proud of it. Then I went on vacation and made both good, and bad choices as far as food goes. Come back, 227 lbs. Okay, fair enough, 4 lbs is the least I deserve for my bad choices I figure. Well then my allergies go from a level 5 on the miserable scale to an 8. <BR> <BR> <img ... Thu, 19 Jul 2012 10:31:58 EST Post-Vacation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4970576 So here's the run down of my vacation: <BR> <BR> We took off from Wichita Falls, stopped in Dallas and finally got to St. Louis. Around 12 o'clock at night. I had slept mostly onthe 2nd flight so was rather chipper to be finally landed. We unfortunately had to take a taxi to get to the Grandparent's house, and unfortunately this boob of a taxi driver expected us to give him directions. That was fun. But we made it there, and went to bed. I ran 4 of the days before the lake trip, and lemme te... Sat, 14 Jul 2012 22:20:39 EST WooHOO (WARNING: braggy brag pants blog) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4948759 Scale victory: <BR> <BR> 223 this morning. 223! It's like a symphony. I want to print out a banner, and hang it outside. <BR> "Umm.. what's 223?" askes random passerby <BR> "It's my weight," I'd respond proudly, looking at the number with admiration. It sounds silly, and I know it's not 120, or even 160, but let me tell you, today I could've screamed it from my roof top without any regrets. Without the embarassment, why? Because I am getting better. It's getting better. My hard work is pa... Sat, 30 Jun 2012 10:20:07 EST Jogging, And Tightness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4946028 We'll start with tightness, as of recently each morning I've been getting up, my body is tight. Movements are difficult to do in the legs, and especially the ankles. I don't know if I'm not doing enough stretches after running, either way, I've been struggling getting everything to move in the morning. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l204423507.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Now, Jogging (AKA Granny shuffling): <BR> Today, I did not want to do it. I just didn't want to. SO I d... Thu, 28 Jun 2012 10:35:42 EST So far... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4942386 Right now, I've got a few rain clouds over head. I won't go into details but right now I'm trying to transfer from my job due to a hostile work enviroment, and then being told today that I can't transfer and that I have to comfort my boss about it. Which frankly, I feel like I'm definitely going to lose my job. If I worked for someone who wasn't trying to cheat me hours, or be overly rude to me, I'd love my job. <BR> <BR> Then there's the family trip, and Matthew's 2 twin brothers turning t... Mon, 25 Jun 2012 22:19:20 EST Run 3, Walk 2, and Randomness... Extreme random. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4936097 I'm sorry it's so LONG! I just didn't want to edit *cries!* <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l117321878.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l14619449.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/8/l285435868.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/2/l527335870.jpg"> <BR> Thu, 21 Jun 2012 11:08:26 EST Cause I love to make you Smile, Smile SMILE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4932221 I've been trying not to turn into a blog monster, and holding back this past weekend. It always feels like life's an emotional rollercoaster in which a crazy persons at the controls. But when it finally comes to a stop, I always feel a bit better, either about myself, or whatever the situation was. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/7/l978966180.jpg"> <BR> <BR> So first offs: I can run an entire minute without feeling winded! AH! I'm so proud of that! This week is 3 minu... Mon, 18 Jun 2012 21:24:55 EST CAN'T DO IT?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4927882 So my husband has always wanted to do one of those obstacle races, right? Well I walk in and he's playing on the computer looking at something called the spartan race. He sees me and closes the screen. <BR> "What's that?" I asked. He goes on telling me how I don't like it, and I'm not into that sort of thing. And how it'll depress me. (Normally when he wanted to do exercises before I would feel bad cause I can't keep up with him). Well it turns out it's an obstacle course, and that he didn'... Fri, 15 Jun 2012 14:22:10 EST Today: Thoughts, Triumphs, Falls http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4925588 Triumphs first: walk/jog went fantastic this morning. And went over 20 minutes (was going to do 20, did 30 instead!) Despite feeling like it was super easy one minute, and dying the next, I think it's something I really could get into. I enjoyed even doing my granny shuffle (the slow slow jog) and music helped make the time go by easily. If anything, there's a 5k in october, and if I do good, I can be ready to actually RUN it this time, instead of watching all the runners! I'm going to do it ... Wed, 13 Jun 2012 23:13:04 EST 10 Good Reasons To Do My Workout TODAY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4921901 1. I've finally gotten into the 220's (229 lbs today) but I'm still 9 lbs away from 210s. And I sure as daisies am not 160 lbs!!! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/6/l760928715.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/1/l514381875.jpg"> <BR> 2. If the zombie apocalypse happened tomorrow, today's workout will have me be more prepared than an entire day of sitting on my fanny will! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/0/l707624763.jpg"> <B... Mon, 11 Jun 2012 15:33:10 EST Dear Future Shay http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4917801 I just wanted to write to see how we're doing after the weight loss journey is done. Did it take long? Are you happy with your success, or do you want to lose more? According to our BMI were suppose to be 140, but I know we're going for 160. Do you still obsess over the scale? <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/7/l670326684.jpg"> <BR> <BR> If we are, I suggest you take a glance back to where we were before. Is Matt happy your finally as active as he is? Have you been fight... Fri, 8 Jun 2012 13:39:37 EST Just inspirtational pictures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4916737 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/9/l694384308.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/9/l594961744.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/8/l880313469.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/0/l606690685.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/8/l38505352.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/0/l500455132.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l194165072.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.s... Thu, 7 Jun 2012 19:17:06 EST Plateau AGAIN! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4914600 Computer shut off and my blog went away, so vlogged to make it easier! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/1/l910663197.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/6/l861301020.jpg">a <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/7/l875862552.jpg"> <BR> Wed, 6 Jun 2012 10:59:45 EST So much....energy? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4911932 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/0/l908620010.jpg"> <BR> So lemme give you a run down of my workout today: <BR> 7:00- Qi Chong- 10 minutes which was very calming! Not used to the slow motions, but tried my best! <BR> 10:00 - 35 minutes of elliptical, hill climbing. I literally pounded THROUGH IT! I did feel tired, but not enough to stop! My legs no longer feel like jelly which is AWESOME <BR> 10:37 ish (took a few minutes to get a chair): 10 minutes Step by Step Strength train... Mon, 4 Jun 2012 17:26:28 EST My legs look fantastic? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4910286 As I was putting the dog into the crate today, I saw it. <BR> "Baby, my legs look fantastic!" I commented excitedly to my husband without hesitation. AND THEY DO! They look shapely, muscular (and actually, in a kind of feminine way!) and athletic! I even flexed, and tighten the muscle and it felt good. My legs feel stronger then they were. And as I looked at them all day (wearing shorts) I realized I was admiring apart of MY body. There's something I like. I like my muscle legs. Sure, in th... Sun, 3 Jun 2012 17:28:30 EST Ahh..June! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4907763 So it's the beginning of the month which means I'm lethargic, exhausted, sore, easily irritable, pretty much not how I usually am!! Probably because of good old TOM. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/1/l310197423.jpg"> <BR> <BR> But ANYWHO- I did my 50 minutes of elliptical straight today, which felt good despite how drowsy I've been lately! I had gone grocery shopping this morning with my planned grocery list, which turned out more expensive than I care for- but if I w... Fri, 1 Jun 2012 16:57:57 EST Vlog-no I didn't type that wrong... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4905652 This is a video blog for the Done being the FAT GIRL challenge by AngelWendyMama. This will probably be the only one I ever post, wanted to say sorry in advance if anything I say offends you- I tend to chatter, and I mix up my words a lot. Umm... Enjoy. I know it's long! SORRY! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/2/l820844967.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/4/l646731949.jpg"> Thu, 31 May 2012 10:40:40 EST 1 lb lost- 1 lb away from my goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4903867 This is a big deal to me. Months before I rejoined spark, I wanted to lose weight but it just kept jumping back onto me it seemed. I'm estatic. My ACTUAL weigh in this morning was all zeros (sorta lol.) 230.0 . It feels fantastic, especially since I had a high calorie dessert last night (dinner didn't fill me.) This makes me 1 lb aways to get under 230 back into the 220s!! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l12957552.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I know I may seem too happy ove... Wed, 30 May 2012 08:02:11 EST Not as good as I hoped but... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4902974 I got in 35 minutes on the elliptical before crashing and burning. Honestly, yesterday I did 35 minutes and felt so good I pushed forward to 50 minutes. I figured today I would be fine to do 50 minutes, and set the machine for just that. Only thing is, I kept yawning. But I know today I just want a reason not to do 15 minutes more. I've been procrastinating since noon. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/4/l544913994.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I know I need to stay motivated, to stay... Tue, 29 May 2012 15:01:35 EST 2lbs DOWN! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4900962 I can not even begin to tell you how excited, elated or dancing up and down waking up the whole NEIGHBORHOOD! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/8/l987201276.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I've finally broken the 233- 234 plateau I've been sitting on the fence with for the past 3 WEEKS I've been at this!! And boy does it feel AMAZING! I don't care if it's only two lbs, F*ck I DON'T CARE IF IT'S ONLY WATER WEIGHT, PEOPLE!!! <BR> <BR> You wanna know why? Because now I KNOW it's possible. ... Mon, 28 May 2012 10:06:16 EST You know what... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4900309 You know what picture I hate? Absolutely hate? <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/8/l280204547.jpg"> <BR> <BR> As a child, like many I didn't have the best life growing up. Most've the time, if I couldn't find something to eat, I didn't eat. People didn't make meals for me. Once when I made myself two sandwiches, my ex stepfather and my brother scoffed at me- asking if I was the king of an african country. Two frikkin peanut butter sandwichs. My favorite food growing up? ... Sun, 27 May 2012 19:29:31 EST Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4898763 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/9/l494253150.jpg"> <BR> <BR> That's going to be me. One day, I will look back and say to myself " I did that. I lost that weight, I overcame a mountain. A mountain of self doubt, and self loathing. A mountain of hate and despair. And on the other side I found the one person I've been searching for my whole life. The me I've dreamed of being since I was a child." <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/6/l863579228.jpg"> <BR... Sat, 26 May 2012 11:33:10 EST Ugh... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4895102 I did all my work outs today, I've logged all my food. Spark setting actually told me I was doing too MUCH! I hate the fact that when I dedicate myself to weightloss, I burn out. I've already past my mark, 2 weeks is usually how long it takes. It's been two weeks and 4 days. I just want to make a bad decision, but I don't want to move my cheat meal up to today. I rather keep it on Saturday. <BR> I'm excited about my goals, but right now I feel so stagnant. So motivated to do something, bu... Wed, 23 May 2012 19:35:03 EST Figured out what my goals are!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4894456 You can't go on a roadtrip with only one destination! You gotta have pit stops, and side trips! And it's gotta be a collection of awesome! So here's my list of goals!!! <BR> <BR> Be under 230 before: July 1st 2012! I've been dancing on 233 for the past 2 months, and I feel I can totally DIVE under the 230 line before the upcoming family vacation. I also believe that if I dedicate myself that this is optainable! I'm excited just saying it! <BR> How will I reward myself for being attained: A n... Wed, 23 May 2012 11:28:44 EST Almost didn't do it today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4893354 After a random work day during the week, which was hectic, annoying and frankly exhausting- I missed my morning walk. I decided a well cooked and calorie counted breakfast was more important that the usual 45 minute 2 mile walk. As I've been reading, diet is 80% of the battle. <BR> <BR> So I got home, and nuked a 200-something calorie sandwich, and did my strength training excercises. I was feeling pretty good, but felt like I could be doing MORE. I had missed my cardio for the day, and was... Tue, 22 May 2012 17:40:02 EST Lots and Lots of things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4891466 First things first: Got an elliptical, basic but amazing and working. I'm super excited about using it in less than 20 minutes. I'm hoping to go for 60 minutes. My hubby and I got it from his supervisor, for 100 bucks. <BR> <BR> Next: Discouraged, I was hoping to try the It Works body wraps, informed that they help with those who are working out and dieting, almost like a jump start. I've read a few peoples posting and almost everyone believes wraps are money wasters. But I'me concerned bec... Mon, 21 May 2012 14:21:06 EST