MAGGIEROSEBOWL's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MAGGIEROSEBOWL MAGGIEROSEBOWL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ For The Love of Baseball http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5807754 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2013206277.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My dad was never much of a sports fan, but Mom and I loved the Nebraska Cornhuskers when I was growing up in the 60's, and we would listen to the football games on the radio on Saturdays. As an avid Pep Club member in high school, I also attended every home and away football and basketball game for my Waverly Vikings. <BR> <BR> But when I married Du, I really found out what it was to be a sports fan. The man eats... Thu, 30 Oct 2014 20:03:46 EST Halloween Pictures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5803947 I have a sparkly Halloween shirt, (size 2X) that I bought soon after as I started fitting into clothes from the stores. There was years and years when even a 3X and the occasional 4X you can find in the Plus-Size Departments at stores did not fit me. I ordered 5X's from the catalog, and even then, sometimes the prettiest sweaters and tops only went as high as 4X, which was too snug. So when I started fitting into 3X's at Shopko, etc., I was thrilled. I bought this top in 2010, on my journey ... Fri, 24 Oct 2014 12:04:53 EST Plateaus, Grandkids and Victories! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5802679 My weight has been stuck at 156.6 lbs. for so long. I guess I should be glad it's not going up. I had gotten as low as 154.6 lbs. when my previous diet bet ended, but gained back to 160.6 lbs. before this current diet bet started about a week after that one ended. Not sure where the gain came from. I was careful with my eating, working at getting down to my ultimate 150-lb. goal. I do know I tend to retain water, and if I start releasing some of that water (i.e. visit the bathroom a lot!) I d... Wed, 22 Oct 2014 09:22:27 EST Relief and Joy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5801994 Late yesterday afternoon we got email notice there was a new message on Du's patient portal page. My heart pounded as I got into the portal, not knowing if the message would start a new chapter in our Cancer journey. The letter said his testosterone level was still low--right where they wanted it to be. They are actually taking him off the ONE cancer pill he takes (Casodex), their belief is that sometimes the cancer responds to the withdrawal of the drug, and the PSA drops. They will check h... Tue, 21 Oct 2014 08:58:28 EST A Walk in the Park http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5801432 We got some slightly scary news from Du's PSA test last Monday. His level is up slightly, so we went in Friday and had a testosterone test. If it is also up, they will need to add a pill to the shots he will continue to get, because it indicates the shots are no longer shutting down his testosterone production, which is necessary to keep his tumor from growing. It's scary, in that each treatment only lasts so long before it become ineffective, and when you get to the point where one treatment... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 10:36:46 EST How About Those Royals?!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5798810 As long-time Kansas City Royals, my family has had their share of down years. In the early 80's, the Royals were in contention for a pennant almost every year, but would inevitably get beaten by the Yankees. Might be why I'm not a fan of that team in Pin Stripes! <BR> <BR> In 1985, I was pregnant with my youngest son, and although we didn't get to attend any play-off games, we had been to a regular season KC game earlier that year (we have been to KC for at least one game every year since 19... Wed, 15 Oct 2014 16:08:29 EST Addiction http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5796963 Brooke at http://brookenotonadiet.com/ has once again inspired me in my weight loss attempts. Brooke started out years ago, close to my own starting weight (327 lbs. for her, 328 lbs. for me), and although she is decades younger than me, and used Weight Watchers to lose her weight, I felt a kinship to her. A few months ago Shape Magazine's website asked her to send a before and after picture to feature. They didn't like the bikini shot she sent, since it showed her excess skin that is left ar... Sun, 12 Oct 2014 17:22:23 EST Nightmares http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5795193 I have had recurring nightmares all during my life. As a child, I had a great fear of 'the bomb.' Growing up in the 50's and 60's with the Cold War, we lived in fear of the Russians dropping the big one and wiping out the entire world. I would have flashes (that I could remember) of terror in my sleep, as we knew the bomb was coming, and then would wake up in a cold sweat. Those dreams continued on into my adulthood, I guess it was a very deep-rooted fear. <BR> <BR> I was editor of my high s... Thu, 9 Oct 2014 10:38:14 EST My First Competitive 5K Walk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5793302 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1399294498.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Saw this flyer for a 5K Run/Walk at Du's Urologist's Office a couple months ago. We decided to sign up and invited the family to join us. As you can guess, my middle son, who weighs over 500 lbs., declined, saying he had a golf tournament that day. He is always so busy with "other things." Sometimes it annoys me that his family, and I'm including his immediate family (wife and 5-year-old daughter) also seem to be ... Mon, 6 Oct 2014 10:00:09 EST Another Bar & Grill http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5791853 Last night after bowling we went to yet another bar & grill for dinner. It was important to find a place with TV's, since our KC Royals played the Angels in the first game of the American League Divisional Series (THEY WON!). But food choices at bars aren't all that healthy usually. I know they have a good Philly steak sandwich, then noticed a chicken Philly sandwich. I ordered it, without the cheese, and got a side salad with vinaigrette as my side. When the sandwich came, I dumped the meat... Fri, 3 Oct 2014 16:59:35 EST Diet Betting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5791057 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/5/l856671164.jpg"> <BR> Diet Bet Winner!!! <BR> <BR> Probably a year or so ago I became aware of Diet Bets. It all sounded very complicated, I got the idea you needed a Notary Public to verify your weight, etc., so I decided it was too much bother to mess with, even though I started slipping in my maintenance and knew I could use some motivation to get back on track. <BR> <BR> So when my Internet Friend, Brooke Birmingham at http://brookenoto... Thu, 2 Oct 2014 10:54:13 EST Fun Weekend With Grandkids http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5788926 Son and his wife went to the Cornhusker football game Sat. night, and asked us to watch their three kids. I was glad to accept. I had not seen them since they spent the 6 days with us at the beginning of September while their parents vacationed in NYC. I was missing those little people! <BR> <BR> They arrived in mid afternoon with plans to spend the night. I kept busy with little Noah (he's almost 5 months old), and Du entertained Amber, who's 5, and LOVES her Grandpa Du. Duncan, at 8, enter... Mon, 29 Sep 2014 09:11:46 EST The Innocent Pumpkin that Led to My Regain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5787494 I love Fall. I have lots of Fall decorations, not so much Halloween, but more fall-type, pumpkins, harvest, leaf wreaths, etc. I don't like scary....I like pretty things in golds, and yellows and browns. So yesterday I decided it was time to get out my Fall decorations, which are in two storage containers upstairs. I lugged them downstairs, and started pulling the decorations out, one at a time. It's fun to look at the items after almost a year of having them in storage--you haven't seen them... Fri, 26 Sep 2014 17:17:44 EST Maintenance Isn't Easy, But It's Do-Able!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5786796 I am halfway through Dr. Barbara Berkley's book "Refuse to Regain." It is for Junior Maintainers mostly, those who are in their first year of maintenance. But I identify with so much of what she says, and find myself nodding in agreement at her suggestions of ways to help maintain your weight, even though I am in my fourth year (is that possible?) of maintenance!! <BR> <BR> Dr. Berkley doesn't pussy-foot. She knows how difficult maintenance is and she tells it like it is. It is HARD! Just th... Thu, 25 Sep 2014 12:51:17 EST Pam's Terrible Horrible No-Good Bad Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5785610 Last Thursday was an awful day. I was completely overwhelmed trying to deal with insurance denials, not knowing where to turn and feeling so lost, helpless, and scared. A $40,000 bill has been hanging over our heads all summer, the insurance company is continuing to deny payment of it, even though they paid the very same bill for the very same treatments, two times previously. I was getting no cooperation from the hospital where the charge was from, only repeated promises to "return my call,"... Tue, 23 Sep 2014 16:45:49 EST Completely Falling Apart..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5782448 Cancer is hard. Treatment is super expensive. Fighting with Insurance Companies is frustrating. When cancer didn't depress us or defeat us, the Insurance Company tried to. But we are stronger than they are. <BR> <BR> We have two vital services and bills which they have denied, and I have been fighting with them all summer. It's hard to get an answer and you don't know where to turn. You feel so alone. Finally yesterday, with yet another letter telling us the crucial shots Du gets to strength... Thu, 18 Sep 2014 15:58:15 EST Perception and Judgment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5779677 Yes, I know it is wrong to compare myself with others. But I spent so many years being embarrassed that I was the biggest person in the room, it's hard to stop the visual evaluations today. I try not to judge others, but there is a vague sense of superiority because I seem to have gotten my eating under control and others do not. I always felt inferior to others who seemed to have the ability to maintain a normal weight, so it is not surprising that today I have that same sense of superiority... Sun, 14 Sep 2014 12:56:52 EST Motivation and Determination http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5778715 Motivation and determination are essential to weight loss and maintenance. We can get motivated to lose weight, we can be determined not to regain, but over the years, we grow weary of having to be so vigilant and strong. I am a prime example of this. I started caving into my desires to eat this or that, food which I had long-since denied myself, knowing how it would just justify me making even more bad choices. Funny how the food addict mind operates. A little slip here or there, at least in... Fri, 12 Sep 2014 17:24:48 EST The Mint Green Jeans FIT Again!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777999 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/8/l989170229.jpg"> <BR> <BR> TADA!!! Yes those mint green jeans that have been hanging on my closet door for months to inspire me, FIT me again today! WOOHOO for me!!! The scale showed my hard work this morning. I weighed in at 160.4 lbs.! That is .4 lbs. from my original goal weight of 160, and quite wonderful! If you will recall, when I joined my first Dietbet around June 20, I weighed in at 182.6. OUCH! <BR> <BR> Nothing fit. I felt fat. ... Thu, 11 Sep 2014 14:28:39 EST Yoga Pants http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777260 For so many years I wore those elastic-waisted polyester pants. I had them in many colors--blue, green, purple, brown, grey, and lots of black ones. I never wore anything in a light color, thinking it made me look even bigger than I was. Probably true, but let's face it, at 328 lbs., everything made me look big, because I WAS BIG! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1979499399.jpg"> <BR> My purple pants were in a darker shade. <BR> <BR> A year or so ago, I discove... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 12:24:51 EST Why Doesn't Anyone Notice My Maintenance? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5775929 I know I should be satisfied with myself just because I am still close to my goal weight, after a momentary blip on the regain radar. But sometimes when I see people whom I haven't seen in a while, but HAVE seen since my weight loss, and they say nothing to me, I think that they should say something like, "Wow, you've done a great job at keeping those pounds off." I realize that to a majority of people, maintaining a normal weight is not a big deal. They have done it all their adult lives and... Mon, 8 Sep 2014 14:35:41 EST Lazy Sunday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5775326 After a busy week, today has been super lazy. My husband, Du, has been working his tail off. We have rows of pine trees surrounding our acreage which he planted not long after we moved here in 1992. Unfortunately, many of them are dying now. It's very sad to see these beautiful, quite large now trees dying one after another. It's a disease for which there is no cure that is attacking our Scotch Pines, so he and son Chris work to cut them down, haul the debris down to the burning barrel and bu... Sun, 7 Sep 2014 18:38:37 EST Making Blankets http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5774461 For our anniversary, Du and I had decided not to get each other gifts. But then I got the idea to make one of those "tied blankets" out of fleece fabric. We have two of them, and we love them, although they're a little short to cover you completely when you sit in the recliner and watch TV (which is what we use them for). They're especially short on my taller husband. So I guessed and bought two yards of fabric for each side and found directions on the Internet. It was quite easy and didn't ... Sat, 6 Sep 2014 09:19:34 EST Happy Anniversary To Us! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5773293 Today, Du & I celebrate our 44th Wedding Anniversary. We were just children when we got married. Seriously, Du had turned 18 (legal age in Nebraska) just 8 days previously, and I was just 19. We got married long before it was acceptable for couples to live together sans matrimony. All we knew is that we wanted to be together and we defied the stats against teen marriages and made it. Now I'm just hoping for more time with the love of my life. It would be so fun to celebrate 50 years with this... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 11:18:37 EST Busy Days with Grandchildren http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5772582 As I already repeatedly mentioned, three of my grandchildren, (Duncan, 8; Amber, 5; and Noah, 3 months) spent the last five days and six nights at our house while their parents vacationed in New York City. I know it was a trip they really needed, I haven't heard from them since they got home late Monday night, but I'm hoping it was helpful to them both. It was certainly a wonderful gesture on my son's part to buy his wife such an extravagant trip. And it says a lot to me that he is willing to... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 11:12:11 EST Self Confidence http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5769470 My last blog was all about my insecurities, most of which were a result of my obesity. Today, many of those insecurities are gone. I am not a super confident person by any means, it's just not in my personality, I am more of an introvert, and that is due to my shyness, and lack of self-confidence. But compared to how little self confidence I had before, NOW I am a different person! <BR> <BR> Yesterday I picked up grandson Duncan from his before/after school daycare house. When I walked into ... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 15:45:08 EST Insecurities http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767957 Obesity affects every part of our being. It raises our blood pressure, our blood sugar, and put undue stress on our heart and joints. I was the master of ignoring all this for over 30 years. But the insecurity it caused in my life was harder to ignore. <BR> <BR> I had absolutely no self-confidence. I was afraid to put myself out there, preferring to remain in the corner, hopefully never making a "spectacle" of myself. I thought if I stayed in a corner somewhere, no one would notice me and my... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 09:37:39 EST Insulin Pumps and Birthday Parties http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5766655 Granddaughter Mia's 5th Birthday Party was yesterday. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/0/l508937164.jpg"> <BR> Noah & I <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2038317956.jpg"> <BR> My three youngest grandkids & I. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1649787798.jpg"> <BR> The birthday cake of which I did not partake! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1956934280.jpg"> <BR> My son, daughter... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 10:38:09 EST Old Friends are GOLD http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5764623 Tonight was a cancer benefit dinner, that Du & I had signed up to attend a while back. You know Du thought it was important, since he gave up his first night of League Bowling to attend. I had contacted some dear old friends to join us. We have drifted apart over the years, after being close for many years when we were all young-marrieds, but I knew from her Christmas card, that she has been diagosed with and undergoing treatment for breast cancer, and sure enough, they were happy to donate t... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 00:28:32 EST It's Exciting Again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5763516 I remember when I finally bought a scale, almost four months into my weight-loss/getting healthy journey, back in March 2010, and got on it for the first time. I had been to the cardiologist for a heart check-up (my heart was fine) in January, and was a little disappointed that I was still over 300 lbs. (304 to be exact). In December when my family practice physician assistant had told me "The EKG seems to show you've already had a heart attack," I had weighed in at about 310 lbs. Later on in... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 10:47:40 EST Kindness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5762263 I have been treated with much kindness throughout my life. Sure there are the stinkers in there who have been mean for no reason, and I have discovered my way to deal with this is to simply write them out of my life. If you can't be kind, I really have no use for you, it just hurts me too much. <BR> <BR> And so it goes with Spark. In over 5 years here, I have never encountered such a mean spirited comment as I did the other day from a so-called caring friend. I quickly deleted her nasty comm... Mon, 18 Aug 2014 16:16:40 EST Feeling Better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5761469 I had been stuck in the 171's for over a week. Despite eating right, and walking as much as I could (for three days in a row I got over 10,000 steps--my knees hurt all night--but I DID IT!), the scale would NOT go down. I joined Chris & Heidi Powell's Diet Bet just after my previous Diet Bet had ended July 21. I barely made my 7.4 pound goal during that first Bet, but I got there! So this month started better. I was more motivated and much more self-disciplined. No Fourth of July holiday in t... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 14:11:44 EST Some Good Things in My Life, as I Try to Find Balance. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5760611 First of all, I am staying strong in my commitment to lose the weight I gained over the last six months. In the last almost 60 days, I have dropped 14 of the 32 pounds I gained, and feel so good to have my weight loss/maintenance mojo back. It truly takes constant vigilance and obsession with eating right and moving more and that's where I am at once again. So that is ONE good thing in my life. <BR> <BR> My Du is responding to his cancer treatment. That is another GOOD thing in my life. His ... Sat, 16 Aug 2014 00:08:09 EST So Hard To Understand http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5758126 Like everyone else, today I am asking WHY? Robin Williams came to prominence when my children were young. We enjoyed Mork & Mindy, and because my oldest son is Mark, when we got our Siamese Cat in 1979, we named her Mindy, so that at our house we would have "Mark & Mindy." I even got Mark a pair of those infamous striped suspenders like Mork wore on the show. For Halloween that year, my middle son wore a "Mork" costume. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/2/l428968528.jpg"> ... Tue, 12 Aug 2014 09:03:31 EST SLOOOOOOOOOOOWLY It Comes Back Off http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5757408 Why does it always seem to take longer to lose weight than it does to gain it? I realize it's just a matter of perception, and probably inaccurate, but I swear it was easier to lose 178 pounds, than it has been to take off these 30 pounds I put back on. <BR> <BR> Around June 20, I joined a Diet Bet. In 30 days, I barely lost my 7.2 pounds to make the 4% loss required to get my money back. I started the next Diet Bet immediately, and so far, have lost 5.2 pounds. I need to lose another 1.8 po... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 09:09:23 EST Learning My Neighborhood http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5754348 Do you remember as a kid, back when we used to play outside ALL THE TIME, you knew every nook and cranny of your neighborhood. You knew the alleys, the streets, the stores, the ditches and culverts, as well as all the parks and great places to play. We moved to a new house when I was 11, and I don't think I ever learned a neighborhood that intimately after the house I lived in from ages 4-11. I remember Summer nights that went on forever, when all the neighbor kids would be out, and we would ... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 11:45:54 EST Sometimes Life Gets Hard, Very Hard http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5753566 I am dealing with the terminal diagnosis of my husband. He is doing well right now, other than some minor problems, and his recent scan results have been very good. The other day I posted on FB that I was busy planning our 50th Wedding Anniversary Celebration on Sept. 4, 2020. My dream is to make that milestone. When I lost weight, that was my goal, to live a good long life, well into retirement, with Du by my side. But our reality is always there, and it scares me to death and I worry about ... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 11:01:40 EST Get Over Yourself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5752010 Sean over at http://losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com/2<BR>014/08/august-1st-2014-its-living.html<BR>#comment-form <BR> wrote today about heading to the pool for a swim. He was ready to do it, even though he had some apprehension. I will be interested in what he has to say tomorrow about "baring it all" at a public pool. <BR> <BR> I have struggled with this forever, even before I was morbidly obese. While I was obese I never for one instant even considered putting on a swimming suit to wear... Sun, 3 Aug 2014 01:04:51 EST Making Salsa http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5749617 I made homemade salsa this morning. We had just enough tomatoes from our garden to make a batch. I can smell it simmering on the stove top. It smells delicious! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/5/l955511479.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My only problem with salsa is the dilemma---WHAT to eat with it? I love chips with salsa, especially when served before your meal at a restaurant. I always try to pre-determine my chip limit, so I don't overdo. I won't say I'm always successful at stic... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 11:28:17 EST LOVING Life! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5748108 I have read blogs by others who complain that life as a thin person was not what they expected. They found that people were no nicer to them, they didn't feel any different, and were no happier than before. <BR> <BR> I DISAGREE! I LOVE living in this world as a normal-sized person. Oh sure, now I'm 20 pounds too heavy, but that is nothing compared to that almost 180 extra pounds I used to carry around! Perhaps it was because I was so super morbidly obese, and that obesity affected every face... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 10:00:48 EST Four Ways to Get Your Weight-Loss MOJO Back!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5746377 All if takes for me to be tempted to eat something I shouldn't is just read about it, anywhere...in a blog, in a book, in the newspaper, magazine. If I see it on TV, I really want it. It doesn't take much for me to be tempted to eat "forbidden fruit." <BR> <BR> As I enter my second Diet Bet, I feel like I've got my MOJO back. There for a while, I had lost control. I would think about what I was doing, and justify it by telling myself, "I can't stop." But I know I could stop, and I have stop... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 12:37:13 EST A Cacaphony of Entertainment Choices http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5745686 I like food that has a wide variety of flavors. There was a movie a while back that Barbra Streisand directed, produced and starred in called, "The Mirror has Two Faces." <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/4/l744858945.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I think I'm one of the few people that LOVED that movie. I also like the song from that movie (I Finally Found Someone-- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r7I-cNLXMx<BR>I), of course that's no surprise since I am a huge STREISAND FAN! To see he... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 12:06:07 EST Did I Look Like That??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744344 I'm watching Brandy's episode on EWL from last Tuesday right now. Just saw her initial weigh-in. When I saw her with just a sports bra on and her enormous stomach, I thought to myself, "She must weight close to 400 lbs." But the scale said 329 lbs. My starting weight was 328 lbs. I never thought I was that fat, but then I see pictures like this and I know I was. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1836878350.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have my "fat" picture on the fridge for motiv... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 15:44:32 EST 100 Happy Days -- The Conclusion (Days 98-100) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5743280 Day 98: We live just southwest of Lincoln, Nebraska, on an acreage. It is a nice place to live, we have neighbors, but they aren't close, since we all have three acres. Juno has lots of room to run, and Du loves playing farmer in the garden and yard. We both love the peace and quiet out here in the countryside. We also both know that moving off the acreage is in our future, with his cancer, he isn't going to be able to take care of this yard forever. But we are putting it off, because neither... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 09:16:49 EST 100 Happy Days -- Day 97 (And ANGER at Myself!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5740225 Day 97 -- This little guy is just so adorable. At the Bowling Alley Monday night, I was feeding him, and when he was done, I remembered that when his big brother was about that age, I used to take his hands and make him clap, and he would smile, So I tried it with Noah and it worked! His smile really lights up the room, and my life. This little guy makes me so happy every single day! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1125249711.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I was thinking about my b... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 16:09:08 EST 100 Happy Days -- Day 96 (A Very Happy Day Indeed!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5739255 Yesterday in my e-mail was a note that a message was waiting for us in the Patient Portal at Du's Urologist. I was happy to see this message! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1417485473.jpg"> <BR> <BR> We are now 17 months into the initial treatment for advanced prostate cancer, which consists of shots to eliminate testosterone, which stops the spread of the cancer temporarily. The average time this treatment is effective is 18 months, so to hear that it is still work... Tue, 15 Jul 2014 10:19:33 EST 100 Happy Days -- Days 91-95 (and FEAR rears its ugly head) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5738596 Oh My Goodness--My 100 Days of Happy is almost over. I have enjoyed it--mostly. Sometimes I struggled a little to find something unique to be happy about. I always can find something to be happy about in my retirement, but I tried to find something new and different each day. I have kept a calendar by my computer, and each day list my "Happy" for the day so as not to repeat. I realize, I used my Bulldog Juno repeatedly, but she is just so darned cute and makes me so happy, it was hard not to.... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 11:38:27 EST 100 Happy Days -- Days 89 and 90, Plus Staying Obsessed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735332 Someone posted something on Facebook the other day about how being obsessed leads to success. It got me to thinking about how important obsession is in the weight loss game. I slowly became more and more obsessed back when I lost 178 pounds, each day finding more methods to fuel the obsession--Sparkpeople, Weight Loss memoirs, Low-Calorie Recipe Websites, Weight Watcher Magazine, and Weight Loss Blogs. There is so much available today to help up along the way. I just wish there was more suppo... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 12:21:33 EST Reading the Fine Print http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5734821 Du and I went to Ruby Tuesday for lunch today. I always order the sliced sirloin Petite Lunch Plate, it comes with delicious mashed potatoes and steamed broccoli, for a grand total of 360 calories. I love it, and although the portion of steak and potatoes is quite small, it's pretty good for a lunch. I try to fill up on the broccoli, which while edible, is not my favorite veggie! <em>43</em> <BR> <BR> So today, they had a new promotional menu, and I saw they had a new appetizer called "T... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 20:11:47 EST 100 Happy Days -- Days 83-88 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5733742 What a busy weekend! It was such fun, and yet it's a relief that it's all over. We hosted a group of friends and family on the Fourth for our annual party. Since we took the pool down, it was necessary to find other entertainment for the kids (we had 12 children here, 11 of them were aged four and under), so Chris (youngest son) and I went out on Wed. and bought a trampoline. Du & I spent that day and the next one putting it all together. Du did the bulk of the work and instruction-interpreti... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 11:01:13 EST