MAGGIEROSEBOWL's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MAGGIEROSEBOWL MAGGIEROSEBOWL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Non-Scale Signs that You Have Gained Weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860184 When I was losing weight, you couldn't keep me off the scale. I was on that thing every single morning, and sometimes, again at night. I loved to see the numbers dropping. When I started maintenance, I still got on the scale often, maybe not daily, but several times every week. <BR> <BR> Then....when I slipped in the Fall of 2013, I quit hopping on the scale. I didn't want to see what it said. I bought a coat on-line and when it didn't fit, I knew I was in trouble. My size 10 jeans were incr... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 10:35:16 EST Oncologist Report http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5858854 Yesterday we saw Du's oncologist. His plan for Du: WAIT. He never wants to move very fast. I'm not sure about this. He did order more scans, since Du's PSA is not all that reliable. The ironic part about Du's deceivingly low PSA tests, is that the small percentage of men whose PSA is not indicative of their cancer.....their cancer tends to be more aggressive. The doctor wants to make sure we've gotten all the good we can out of the current treatment before moving on to the next one. I can ge... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 15:20:29 EST A Visit To the Oncologist's Office and Holding on to Hope! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5855951 As I have mentioned repeatedly I'm sure, Du's PSA level is continuing to rise. The first spike was noticed in a test from late last November. When we pointed it out to the Oncologist, he decided to check it again, and now after three successive rises, we are to see him Monday. Du went to his office today for one more blood test, I guess to make sure thee results are accurate. As I constantly point out to every doctor, Du's PSA tests aren't very reliable--they are deceptively low, thus the rea... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 17:38:55 EST Life is Hard http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5847796 When I think of all I have gone through in my life, I am amazed that I'm still functioning. Oh, I suppose to most people, my life seems pretty calm, fairly normal and easy, and although I do long for those carefree days before this cancer diagnosis, let's face it, going through life morbidly obese is no picnic. <BR> <BR> When you allow your bad choices to rule life and become morbidly obese, there are so many things you can no longer do, places you can't go, walks you can't take (and in life... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 15:09:37 EST Birthday Party and Turning the Switch to "ON"! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5844197 Yesterday the whole family met for lunch at a local race track bar to celebrate my 64th (that can't be possible!) birthday. Horses don't race there yet, but the owners hope to start it soon. For now they have about a million TVs all showing horse races from all over the country and you can bet on them. In the back is a sort of inside/outside room. I haven't actually been back there, but it's a way to beat the NO-SMOKING ban in our state evidently, because the top of each wall is supposedly "o... Fri, 2 Jan 2015 20:03:52 EST What a Christmas! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5841980 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1633710743.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/3/l235116377.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/5/l753802433.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/7/l477727310.jpg"> <BR> <BR> We celebrated Christmas at our house for three days! I hosted my oldest son and his family on Christmas Eve for our traditional soup supper. His three children had spent the day with us as their day... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 12:39:12 EST Bittersweet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5836356 I had such a bittersweet day yesterday. In one way, it was a GREAT day. I didn't do much, other than some holiday baking. it is all stored in my dining room (out of sight--out of mind, at least that's my plan), and awaiting Christmas Eve and Christmas Day celebrations. Afterwards, it all goes home with my kids, so leftovers will not be around to tempt me. Right now, I am trying to ignore their tantalizing call to me. <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Even as I bustled around my kitchen, making one ... Sun, 21 Dec 2014 13:20:38 EST And Then There Were Two http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5835455 As silly as it is, when every one of my boys moved out (and the oldest two sons moved out a couple times before it was a "final" move), I felt some sadness. And they were all in their late 20's before that final move. I had nothing to feel sad about, and yet change is always hard. <BR> <BR> Chris, my youngest, attempted a move to a College Frat House on campus when he started college in 2004. It was only a few miles from our house, but he only spent one night there, then the next night night... Fri, 19 Dec 2014 13:14:49 EST Five Years of Healthy Living! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5832831 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/1/l313726805.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Five Years Ago Today….I sat in my car in the doctor’s parking lot, sobbing at my steering wheel, not sure what to do next. He had just told me that my EKG seemed to show I’d already had a heart attack. I was 58 years old, over 300 pounds, and completely out of shape. The reason I went to the doctor that day was because any movement at all got my heart racing. I would walk 10 steps to go to the bathroom in the middl... Sun, 14 Dec 2014 12:19:58 EST Happy Birthday Darrell! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5832044 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l65127393.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Wednesday, my friend Ann, who lost her husband in February of 2013 (the week Duane got his Stage 4 Cancer diagnosis--so his death really hit us hard), from lung cancer, messaged me on Facebook, asking if I waned to go to lunch Thursday. "Sure!" I quickly responded. <BR> <BR> We met at 11:30 at HuHot, a Mongolian Buffet/Grill. I was thrilled to see they had little business cards on the table with different food and ... Fri, 12 Dec 2014 17:54:26 EST Family Christmas Dinner http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830177 Sunday night I hosted my brother and his extended family, as well as my own family, for a holiday dinner. It was a full house, there was 18 of us. It's amazing to think about how it all started with just my brother and I! It is a tradition my niece started five years ago. We took turns hosting it for the first four years, then last year, we just stopped. Nobody stepped up to offer to host the dinner, and I was disappointed. So even though it wasn't really my turn, I decided since I had gotten... Tue, 9 Dec 2014 09:09:04 EST Proud of My Son! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827551 Look at my son, Chris, a few short years ago! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1406530210.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I remember this picture. My daughter-in-law took it as we waited with her when she was in the hospital (in labor) before giving birth to my grandson in 2006. <BR> <BR> Here's another picture of the two of us, I'm sure it's some big holiday dinner I'm preparing, but not sure when. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/5/l550716362.jpg"> <BR>... Thu, 4 Dec 2014 12:00:07 EST Reality Comes Crashing In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5826388 i had been lulled into a false sense of security, we had gone so long with good scans, good test results, NO sign of the cancer spreading, I was shocked when Du's latest PSA test in October showed a significant rise. His Urologist (actually his Physician Assistant, I can count on one hand the number of times we've actually seen the urologist in the almost two years since Du's diagnosis, and his monthly (and sometimes more often) visits to his office for treatment) suggested we go off the ONE ... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 11:59:53 EST Early Thanksgiving AND Early Christmas!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5822307 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1538474908.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/2/l828413757.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My youngest son Chris has been on vacation for the past two weeks. He went deer hunting last weekend, but didn't get a deer. He did have a good time hanging out with his buddy and his cousins however. And now I don't have to worry about having freezer space for all that venison, which I don't even like. <BR> <BR> When Chris returned fr... Mon, 24 Nov 2014 13:46:01 EST I'm Falling..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818202 I always feared falling when I was morbidly obese. I just knew I would break a hip or a leg and it would be so embarrassing. I developed a style of walking on slick surfaces, where I would go very slowly and try to put my feet down as flatly and deliberately as possible. I don't remember falling either, so it must have worked. <BR> <BR> Yesterday Du and I went to a Husker Volleyball game. This involves close to a half-mile walk from where we park. It is a good hike and I usually enjoy it. C... Mon, 17 Nov 2014 09:14:39 EST Rachael Ray!!?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5817253 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/2/l224412633.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I had a Facebook message Thursday night from Jessica at the Rachael Ray show who wanted me to call her back regarding a post I had made on Rachael's page. I called as soon as I saw the message, but got her answering machine. I left a message and she called me back Friday morning. <BR> <BR> They had a post on Rachael Ray's Show Facebook page earlier in November, about the "One Thing You Would Wish for Someone Else.... Sat, 15 Nov 2014 12:32:47 EST The Hug http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5816303 Sometimes I wish I could hug him hard enough so he could never leave me. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1631689879.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This is a picture from the Zero Prostate Cancer Run/Walk on October 4. Du and I walked almost the entire distance (3.1 miles) together, but when our boys finished the race (they did the RUN), they came back and walked with us. I wrote about how special both Du and I found that moment. It meant so much to us that they came back and ... Thu, 13 Nov 2014 17:06:12 EST Non-Food Rewards http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5814894 From the beginning of my journey, I have tried to find ways to reward myself for losing weight that do NOT involve food. The family did have a Biggest Loser contest which helped me get to my goal weight back in 2011, and we all went out to dinner at Red Lobster to celebrate at the end. But I always find a way to eat pretty healthy at restaurants. I know I have not had a cheesy biscuit at Red Lobster in almost five years. <BR> <BR> As I just wrote about, when I got below 200 lbs. in November ... Tue, 11 Nov 2014 12:25:55 EST Time With Granddaughter Mia and Friend Beth http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5814175 Beth became my best friend when we were in the 5th grade and she is still my best friend. We don't see each other often, usually only a couple times a year, even though she lives just down the road in Omaha. Saturday, she was in town for a wedding, so came a little early and we spent a couple hours just visiting. It was wonderful! It's like we never quit hanging out--We just pick up where we left off, and there's not much I don't confide in Beth. She is wonderfully sympathetic to all my probl... Mon, 10 Nov 2014 11:05:42 EST Time for a Hair Dye! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5813159 I treated myself to a new hair style back in November of 2010, after I got below 200 pounds. For years I had worn my hair long, grey, straggly, and pulled back from my face, held with a barrette. It was easy and I had long given up trying to keep it colored, as I did for many years in my 30's and early 40's. Since I started graying in my 20's, it was been a battle to keep it covered, and one I was losing. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/0/l30775139.jpg"> <BR> <BR>... Sat, 8 Nov 2014 15:27:59 EST Fear for the Future but Joy in the Present http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5812034 I've had a couple upsetting thoughts over the past few days--Worry that this Christmas might be the last with our family intact--I know son's marriage isn't the greatest, and with Du's health, you just never know. That makes me so sad and scared. Christmas is my favorite time of the year and I work hard to make it nice for my family (and me). I have really cut back on the sweet treats I prepare, of course, but the decorations, presents and music are all still integral parts of Christmas, are ... Thu, 6 Nov 2014 14:14:13 EST Feeling Skinny! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5810761 Today, son and I ended our DietBet, my fourth consecutive one (winner every time!), and his first. We are both winners, and are now waiting to see how much $$ we won. To me, it's never about the money, it's about getting the control back and reversing the gaining trend. As of this morning, I am down to 151.2, only 1.2 lbs. from my happy weight, and down 31 pounds from my 182-lb. regain high. Son is now firmly below 200 lbs., weighing in at 192. This is the first time he has weighed less than ... Tue, 4 Nov 2014 14:40:50 EST Our Perfect Mini Vacation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5808772 As I mentioned, Du and I traveled to Branson earlier this week, and had the BEST time! Du is so good to me, because I know seeing the Lennon Sisters was not on his bucket list, and let's face it, he more than likely has less time than me to cross those bucket list items off his list. But he willingly and sweetly drove me to Branson so I could see those girls that I grew up with. Actually even Janet, the youngest, is five years older than me, but I just remember idolizing them when I was a you... Sat, 1 Nov 2014 15:36:23 EST For The Love of Baseball http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5807754 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2013206277.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My dad was never much of a sports fan, but Mom and I loved the Nebraska Cornhuskers when I was growing up in the 60's, and we would listen to the football games on the radio on Saturdays. As an avid Pep Club member in high school, I also attended every home and away football and basketball game for my Waverly Vikings. <BR> <BR> But when I married Du, I really found out what it was to be a sports fan. The man eats... Thu, 30 Oct 2014 20:03:46 EST Halloween Pictures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5803947 I have a sparkly Halloween shirt, (size 2X) that I bought soon after as I started fitting into clothes from the stores. There was years and years when even a 3X and the occasional 4X you can find in the Plus-Size Departments at stores did not fit me. I ordered 5X's from the catalog, and even then, sometimes the prettiest sweaters and tops only went as high as 4X, which was too snug. So when I started fitting into 3X's at Shopko, etc., I was thrilled. I bought this top in 2010, on my journey ... Fri, 24 Oct 2014 12:04:53 EST Plateaus, Grandkids and Victories! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5802679 My weight has been stuck at 156.6 lbs. for so long. I guess I should be glad it's not going up. I had gotten as low as 154.6 lbs. when my previous diet bet ended, but gained back to 160.6 lbs. before this current diet bet started about a week after that one ended. Not sure where the gain came from. I was careful with my eating, working at getting down to my ultimate 150-lb. goal. I do know I tend to retain water, and if I start releasing some of that water (i.e. visit the bathroom a lot!) I d... Wed, 22 Oct 2014 09:22:27 EST Relief and Joy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5801994 Late yesterday afternoon we got email notice there was a new message on Du's patient portal page. My heart pounded as I got into the portal, not knowing if the message would start a new chapter in our Cancer journey. The letter said his testosterone level was still low--right where they wanted it to be. They are actually taking him off the ONE cancer pill he takes (Casodex), their belief is that sometimes the cancer responds to the withdrawal of the drug, and the PSA drops. They will check h... Tue, 21 Oct 2014 08:58:28 EST A Walk in the Park http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5801432 We got some slightly scary news from Du's PSA test last Monday. His level is up slightly, so we went in Friday and had a testosterone test. If it is also up, they will need to add a pill to the shots he will continue to get, because it indicates the shots are no longer shutting down his testosterone production, which is necessary to keep his tumor from growing. It's scary, in that each treatment only lasts so long before it become ineffective, and when you get to the point where one treatment... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 10:36:46 EST How About Those Royals?!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5798810 As long-time Kansas City Royals, my family has had their share of down years. In the early 80's, the Royals were in contention for a pennant almost every year, but would inevitably get beaten by the Yankees. Might be why I'm not a fan of that team in Pin Stripes! <BR> <BR> In 1985, I was pregnant with my youngest son, and although we didn't get to attend any play-off games, we had been to a regular season KC game earlier that year (we have been to KC for at least one game every year since 19... Wed, 15 Oct 2014 16:08:29 EST Addiction http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5796963 Brooke at http://brookenotonadiet.com/ has once again inspired me in my weight loss attempts. Brooke started out years ago, close to my own starting weight (327 lbs. for her, 328 lbs. for me), and although she is decades younger than me, and used Weight Watchers to lose her weight, I felt a kinship to her. A few months ago Shape Magazine's website asked her to send a before and after picture to feature. They didn't like the bikini shot she sent, since it showed her excess skin that is left ar... Sun, 12 Oct 2014 17:22:23 EST Nightmares http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5795193 I have had recurring nightmares all during my life. As a child, I had a great fear of 'the bomb.' Growing up in the 50's and 60's with the Cold War, we lived in fear of the Russians dropping the big one and wiping out the entire world. I would have flashes (that I could remember) of terror in my sleep, as we knew the bomb was coming, and then would wake up in a cold sweat. Those dreams continued on into my adulthood, I guess it was a very deep-rooted fear. <BR> <BR> I was editor of my high s... Thu, 9 Oct 2014 10:38:14 EST My First Competitive 5K Walk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5793302 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1399294498.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Saw this flyer for a 5K Run/Walk at Du's Urologist's Office a couple months ago. We decided to sign up and invited the family to join us. As you can guess, my middle son, who weighs over 500 lbs., declined, saying he had a golf tournament that day. He is always so busy with "other things." Sometimes it annoys me that his family, and I'm including his immediate family (wife and 5-year-old daughter) also seem to be ... Mon, 6 Oct 2014 10:00:09 EST Another Bar & Grill http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5791853 Last night after bowling we went to yet another bar & grill for dinner. It was important to find a place with TV's, since our KC Royals played the Angels in the first game of the American League Divisional Series (THEY WON!). But food choices at bars aren't all that healthy usually. I know they have a good Philly steak sandwich, then noticed a chicken Philly sandwich. I ordered it, without the cheese, and got a side salad with vinaigrette as my side. When the sandwich came, I dumped the meat... Fri, 3 Oct 2014 16:59:35 EST Diet Betting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5791057 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/5/l856671164.jpg"> <BR> Diet Bet Winner!!! <BR> <BR> Probably a year or so ago I became aware of Diet Bets. It all sounded very complicated, I got the idea you needed a Notary Public to verify your weight, etc., so I decided it was too much bother to mess with, even though I started slipping in my maintenance and knew I could use some motivation to get back on track. <BR> <BR> So when my Internet Friend, Brooke Birmingham at http://brookenoto... Thu, 2 Oct 2014 10:54:13 EST Fun Weekend With Grandkids http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5788926 Son and his wife went to the Cornhusker football game Sat. night, and asked us to watch their three kids. I was glad to accept. I had not seen them since they spent the 6 days with us at the beginning of September while their parents vacationed in NYC. I was missing those little people! <BR> <BR> They arrived in mid afternoon with plans to spend the night. I kept busy with little Noah (he's almost 5 months old), and Du entertained Amber, who's 5, and LOVES her Grandpa Du. Duncan, at 8, enter... Mon, 29 Sep 2014 09:11:46 EST The Innocent Pumpkin that Led to My Regain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5787494 I love Fall. I have lots of Fall decorations, not so much Halloween, but more fall-type, pumpkins, harvest, leaf wreaths, etc. I don't like scary....I like pretty things in golds, and yellows and browns. So yesterday I decided it was time to get out my Fall decorations, which are in two storage containers upstairs. I lugged them downstairs, and started pulling the decorations out, one at a time. It's fun to look at the items after almost a year of having them in storage--you haven't seen them... Fri, 26 Sep 2014 17:17:44 EST Maintenance Isn't Easy, But It's Do-Able!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5786796 I am halfway through Dr. Barbara Berkley's book "Refuse to Regain." It is for Junior Maintainers mostly, those who are in their first year of maintenance. But I identify with so much of what she says, and find myself nodding in agreement at her suggestions of ways to help maintain your weight, even though I am in my fourth year (is that possible?) of maintenance!! <BR> <BR> Dr. Berkley doesn't pussy-foot. She knows how difficult maintenance is and she tells it like it is. It is HARD! Just th... Thu, 25 Sep 2014 12:51:17 EST Pam's Terrible Horrible No-Good Bad Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5785610 Last Thursday was an awful day. I was completely overwhelmed trying to deal with insurance denials, not knowing where to turn and feeling so lost, helpless, and scared. A $40,000 bill has been hanging over our heads all summer, the insurance company is continuing to deny payment of it, even though they paid the very same bill for the very same treatments, two times previously. I was getting no cooperation from the hospital where the charge was from, only repeated promises to "return my call,"... Tue, 23 Sep 2014 16:45:49 EST Completely Falling Apart..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5782448 Cancer is hard. Treatment is super expensive. Fighting with Insurance Companies is frustrating. When cancer didn't depress us or defeat us, the Insurance Company tried to. But we are stronger than they are. <BR> <BR> We have two vital services and bills which they have denied, and I have been fighting with them all summer. It's hard to get an answer and you don't know where to turn. You feel so alone. Finally yesterday, with yet another letter telling us the crucial shots Du gets to strength... Thu, 18 Sep 2014 15:58:15 EST Perception and Judgment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5779677 Yes, I know it is wrong to compare myself with others. But I spent so many years being embarrassed that I was the biggest person in the room, it's hard to stop the visual evaluations today. I try not to judge others, but there is a vague sense of superiority because I seem to have gotten my eating under control and others do not. I always felt inferior to others who seemed to have the ability to maintain a normal weight, so it is not surprising that today I have that same sense of superiority... Sun, 14 Sep 2014 12:56:52 EST Motivation and Determination http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5778715 Motivation and determination are essential to weight loss and maintenance. We can get motivated to lose weight, we can be determined not to regain, but over the years, we grow weary of having to be so vigilant and strong. I am a prime example of this. I started caving into my desires to eat this or that, food which I had long-since denied myself, knowing how it would just justify me making even more bad choices. Funny how the food addict mind operates. A little slip here or there, at least in... Fri, 12 Sep 2014 17:24:48 EST The Mint Green Jeans FIT Again!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777999 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/8/l989170229.jpg"> <BR> <BR> TADA!!! Yes those mint green jeans that have been hanging on my closet door for months to inspire me, FIT me again today! WOOHOO for me!!! The scale showed my hard work this morning. I weighed in at 160.4 lbs.! That is .4 lbs. from my original goal weight of 160, and quite wonderful! If you will recall, when I joined my first Dietbet around June 20, I weighed in at 182.6. OUCH! <BR> <BR> Nothing fit. I felt fat. ... Thu, 11 Sep 2014 14:28:39 EST Yoga Pants http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777260 For so many years I wore those elastic-waisted polyester pants. I had them in many colors--blue, green, purple, brown, grey, and lots of black ones. I never wore anything in a light color, thinking it made me look even bigger than I was. Probably true, but let's face it, at 328 lbs., everything made me look big, because I WAS BIG! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1979499399.jpg"> <BR> My purple pants were in a darker shade. <BR> <BR> A year or so ago, I discove... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 12:24:51 EST Why Doesn't Anyone Notice My Maintenance? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5775929 I know I should be satisfied with myself just because I am still close to my goal weight, after a momentary blip on the regain radar. But sometimes when I see people whom I haven't seen in a while, but HAVE seen since my weight loss, and they say nothing to me, I think that they should say something like, "Wow, you've done a great job at keeping those pounds off." I realize that to a majority of people, maintaining a normal weight is not a big deal. They have done it all their adult lives and... Mon, 8 Sep 2014 14:35:41 EST Lazy Sunday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5775326 After a busy week, today has been super lazy. My husband, Du, has been working his tail off. We have rows of pine trees surrounding our acreage which he planted not long after we moved here in 1992. Unfortunately, many of them are dying now. It's very sad to see these beautiful, quite large now trees dying one after another. It's a disease for which there is no cure that is attacking our Scotch Pines, so he and son Chris work to cut them down, haul the debris down to the burning barrel and bu... Sun, 7 Sep 2014 18:38:37 EST Making Blankets http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5774461 For our anniversary, Du and I had decided not to get each other gifts. But then I got the idea to make one of those "tied blankets" out of fleece fabric. We have two of them, and we love them, although they're a little short to cover you completely when you sit in the recliner and watch TV (which is what we use them for). They're especially short on my taller husband. So I guessed and bought two yards of fabric for each side and found directions on the Internet. It was quite easy and didn't ... Sat, 6 Sep 2014 09:19:34 EST Happy Anniversary To Us! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5773293 Today, Du & I celebrate our 44th Wedding Anniversary. We were just children when we got married. Seriously, Du had turned 18 (legal age in Nebraska) just 8 days previously, and I was just 19. We got married long before it was acceptable for couples to live together sans matrimony. All we knew is that we wanted to be together and we defied the stats against teen marriages and made it. Now I'm just hoping for more time with the love of my life. It would be so fun to celebrate 50 years with this... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 11:18:37 EST Busy Days with Grandchildren http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5772582 As I already repeatedly mentioned, three of my grandchildren, (Duncan, 8; Amber, 5; and Noah, 3 months) spent the last five days and six nights at our house while their parents vacationed in New York City. I know it was a trip they really needed, I haven't heard from them since they got home late Monday night, but I'm hoping it was helpful to them both. It was certainly a wonderful gesture on my son's part to buy his wife such an extravagant trip. And it says a lot to me that he is willing to... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 11:12:11 EST Self Confidence http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5769470 My last blog was all about my insecurities, most of which were a result of my obesity. Today, many of those insecurities are gone. I am not a super confident person by any means, it's just not in my personality, I am more of an introvert, and that is due to my shyness, and lack of self-confidence. But compared to how little self confidence I had before, NOW I am a different person! <BR> <BR> Yesterday I picked up grandson Duncan from his before/after school daycare house. When I walked into ... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 15:45:08 EST Insecurities http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767957 Obesity affects every part of our being. It raises our blood pressure, our blood sugar, and put undue stress on our heart and joints. I was the master of ignoring all this for over 30 years. But the insecurity it caused in my life was harder to ignore. <BR> <BR> I had absolutely no self-confidence. I was afraid to put myself out there, preferring to remain in the corner, hopefully never making a "spectacle" of myself. I thought if I stayed in a corner somewhere, no one would notice me and my... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 09:37:39 EST