MAGGIEROSEBOWL's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MAGGIEROSEBOWL MAGGIEROSEBOWL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ NOT back to where I was (yet), but also not where I used to be! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6413233 Duane's dad, Harold, who turned 89 on Monday, is visiting us from Iowa right now. In February, he lost his second wife after a very short illness, so he is alone again (after losing Duane's mother to cancer in 1999), and I have invited him to stay with us whenever he wants for however long he wants. He is in good health, takes no pills, and gets around pretty well. He no longer drives out of the smallish town where he lives in Iowa, so we arrange to get him to our house, to Duane's sister's h... Wed, 20 Sep 2017 14:43:12 EST Okay--Trying Weight Watchers AGAIN! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6410047 So, my starting over on my own didn't work out so well. Now I'm up to 186.8. That hard work of August is out the window, I regained the 5 lbs. I lost during that month, and I've got to STOP gaining and START losing again. <BR> <BR> Yesterday WW, sent me an e-mail offering that on-line trial membership (which I always use), for only $29.95 for 3 months. So after cancelling my last trial membership on Aug. 28, feeling I no longer needed it, as I had regained my FOCUS, I re-joined. The first t... Mon, 11 Sep 2017 12:34:39 EST A Look In The Mirror and Starting Over AGAIN -- Day ONE!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6406146 Yesterday when I woke up, I walked into my bathroom and looked in the mirror. I saw an old woman. A woman, that I felt in that moment, would look old no matter what she weighed. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/59691787-8c14-4168-a9d4-840c5203af32.jpg"> <BR> <BR> At that point, I had a bit of an epiphany. I am healthy now. I have lost over 100 lbs. from my highest, and even though I'm not back at my lowest weight, I feel good. My stats are good: Blood pressure, blo... Thu, 31 Aug 2017 12:56:04 EST Day Ten--Back on Track!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6403499 Every day on track is a victory. I'm not perfect--far from it--but dedicated to staying as true as possible to the WW plan and cutting out most of my snacking. My snacks are healthy and limited these days, and I know it needs to stay that way even after (if?) I get back to my happy weight of 150 lbs. The scale is stuck in the low 180's. Very very frustrating. But I know it will move eventually, at least I hope it does! <BR> <BR> Celebrated my daughter-in-law's birthday last night at the Mex... Thu, 24 Aug 2017 13:43:40 EST Day Eight and Nine--Back on Track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6403080 I guess I've fallen down on my commitment to blog daily for 30 days. The days go by so quickly and before I know it, it's bedtime and I haven't blogged. Oh well. At least I haven't fallen down on staying on track. I keep the snacking down, eat sensible meals, and hopefully the scale will eventually start rewarding me for my good behavior. <BR> <BR> All summer we had been talking about going to a movie. There was one out a while ago with Sam Elliott called "The Hero" that sounded good, but it... Wed, 23 Aug 2017 11:33:21 EST Day Six and Seven--Back on Track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6402495 Too lazy to write yesterday, there wasn't much to write about, other than the scale dipping down to 180.8. Made the goal of being in the 170's before the baby shower next Sat. almost realistic, but--alas--it's probably not to be. Today the scale was back up to 182.2. At least it's a downward trend. There is absolutely no reason for the uptick, however. Sometimes I really HATE my body and mostly the SCALE! <BR> <BR> Today, however, is a different day. Lots happened and lots to write about!! <... Mon, 21 Aug 2017 20:29:26 EST Day Five--Back on Track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6401659 I'm still plugging away here. Yesterday for lunch I had a cheese steak at a local Mexican restaurant, without the bread. I didn't eat any of the chips and salsa either, so I will consider that a win! I made homemade pizza for supper, we rarely get pizza anymore from all the great pizza places around here, since Du can't eat the pepperoni, and what's pizza withoutt pepperoni? So I buy the uncured pepperoni (no nitrates/nitrites) from Whole Foods and make it myself. I put on lots of veggies (gr... Sat, 19 Aug 2017 13:32:33 EST Day Four--Back on Track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6401365 Just heard that BobcatGirl http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_j<BR>ournal_individual.asp?blog_id=6400735 <BR> is trying to lose her pregnancy weight gain and committing to blogging daily. She is so cute and I have loved reading about her original weight loss, her subsequent wedding and then her pregnancy and now her adorable little boy Henry. I wish her nothing but success, and will enjoy once again reading her daily blogs. I really think it helps to stay accountable by blogging more of... Fri, 18 Aug 2017 15:07:13 EST Day Three--Back on Track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6401018 Still hanging in there. No snacking, or only one or two, and just good healthy stuff, nothing like the crackers and cookies I was sneaking. Yesterday I had a bag of Annie's organic fruit snacks (70 calories), and a banana. <BR> <BR> Lunch yesterday was the bacon and tomato sandwich (200 calories) and dinner was two tacos with homemade flour tortillas (delicious--and pretty easy to make--who knew?). I go light on the hamburger in my taco and don't use cheese at all, so they're not too bad. I... Thu, 17 Aug 2017 15:54:26 EST Day Two--Back on Track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6400602 Maybe if I blog every day I can stay on track. Right now, right here, I am committing to blogging daily for the next 30 days. Last summer, Barb at OneKidsMom (at http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage.asp?id=O<BR>NEKIDSMOM) posted a list of blog topics that took me 30 days to complete, and the summer ended with me being back at goal weight, so I'm going to try this again. Speaking of Barb at OneKidsMom, she is such an inspiration, routinely running and even competing in triathlons, in her early 6... Wed, 16 Aug 2017 14:02:58 EST One Day Back on Track! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6400217 I made it through Monday, and didn't over-eat. GO ME!! I am so proud of myself. After three months of following WW carefully, rarely going over my allotted daily points, and losing 25 pounds, last week was not good. Not good at all!! <BR> <BR> I think it was that wedding reception/brunch that got it started last Saturday (8/5). There was pastries, donuts, rolls and all kinds of good food to eat. I resisted it all! Then Sunday when we went to Chili's to celebrate oldest son's 45th birthday, s... Tue, 15 Aug 2017 14:28:17 EST Family http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6399822 If you've read any of my blogs over the past seven plus years, you know how much I love my family. They are the most important thing in my life, even more important than losing/maintaining weight, and that's pretty important!! <BR> <BR> I'm a collector of pretty things--mainly Willow Tree figurines and Precious Moments. The Willow Tree figurines are lovely, and quite a bit more reasonable than the Precious Moments. But I will admit there's something awfully special about those Precious Mom... Mon, 14 Aug 2017 15:05:24 EST I Slipped....But Back on Track Now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6398312 I was so proud of resisting temptation all weekend, first the wedding brunch/reception pastries, then the multitude of bowls full of chips and salsa at the Mexican restaurant while celebrating my son's birthday with the family on Sunday. But it must have weakened me. It's like I can only stand so much temptation and then I slip. I hate that about myself. And I KNOW.....that once I slip...it is really difficult to get my focus back. So I really try not to slip even a little bit. <BR> <BR> Wit... Thu, 10 Aug 2017 14:49:08 EST Temptation Resisted http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6397076 I am proud of myself this morning. Over the weekend I was faced with some circumstances that required more than my usual restraint. We went to a friend's daughter's wedding Saturday morning, and brunch was served at the reception. When we walked in the door of the reception hall, we were greeted with a table loaded with rolls and donuts. I walked right past and found a place to sit down where everyone around us was eating those sugar and cream-filled delicacies. Even Du did not eat any, he's ... Mon, 7 Aug 2017 12:35:42 EST Heading Down the Homestretch! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6394685 I am in the last of six weeks of my StepBet. And I'm still alive and in competition to get my money back!!! Even though my goal was only 7,324 for four active days each week, and 9,324 for two stretch days per week, with ONE rest day each week, I have managed to get in at least 10K steps EVERY SINGLE DAY since I began the bet on June 25. And that has not happened easily. I have had to consciously find ways to get more steps in, and I won't lie. Most of them have come from doing laps inside of... Tue, 1 Aug 2017 12:44:23 EST Sir Paul McCartney--Baby I'm Amazed! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6391522 I mentioned in an earlier blog that my son bought my husband and I tickets to see Paul McCartney in concert as a thank-you for house-sitting when he had a couple repairman coming while he was away at work. WOW! What a nice thing for him to do. He had heard me lamenting that I had not gone to see Sir Paul when he gave a concert here in Lincoln three years ago. After it was over, I heard so many good things about that concert and while I was never a huge Beatles fan, I did appreciate their musi... Mon, 24 Jul 2017 16:14:54 EST I Cheated--At Church!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6391049 I had been so dedicated to getting my 10K steps in every single day, going over and above my StepBet goals. So far, I haven't had too much of a problem getting all my steps in, but now I also want to get that 250 steps per hour (between 9-5). I have a 6-day streak of doing that. But this morning as we were getting ready for church, I wondered if I would be able to get in my 250 steps during that 10:00 hour. Church runs from 10-11, and of course we get there early (before 10), and usually get... Sun, 23 Jul 2017 13:37:58 EST NSV's! I had forgotten about those! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6390201 In my original weight loss journey (back in 2009-11), I had lots of NSV's, and loved them: Things like fitting into an airline seat and not needing a seatbelt extender, being able to walk long distances, going to the doctor without the dread of seeing my weight on the scale, etc. etc. <BR> <BR> Over the long term, I began to take these huge victories for granted. This was my life now, and it was easy to forget my life BWL (before weight loss), which was so very limited by my size. <BR> <BR>... Fri, 21 Jul 2017 11:25:21 EST 20-Day Streak http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6388216 Since I joined the StepBet back on June 26, I've hit 10K steps every day! That's 20 days in a row, beating my old record (set last July-August) of 18 days in a row. It hasn't happened without a lot of conscientious effort on my part. I have made more laps around my house than I care to count, I go shopping at the big stores and get as many steps as I can, we have gone to special events simply to get steps in, and Du supports me "every step of the way." Literally! <BR> <BR> I did a comparison... Sun, 16 Jul 2017 17:20:14 EST WHY Am I Doing This? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6386099 As I was trudging around my house for about the 1000th lap of the day, (exaggerating....but close!) I wondered, "Why am I doing this?" Why is it so important for me to get 10K steps every single day? Why is it so important that I drop this weight and get back to 150 lbs.? It took some thinking but I realized there was LOTS of reasons: <BR> <BR> Ten Reasons Why I Am Doing This: <BR> <BR> 1. Walking is the mildest form of exercise, but about all that I am capable of. Sometimes even walking s... Tue, 11 Jul 2017 14:23:02 EST Trying to Ride Out This Plateau http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6384835 About the time I decided to "ramp up" my weight-loss efforts and started my 11-day streak of 10K steps/day, I weighed in at 189.2. Now this was a nice loss and I was so excited to be back in the 180's, but ever since then, I have not lost an ounce. In fact the scale went back up into the 190's and considering how I've been eating (really really well!), and all those steps, why is the scale not dropping like a lead balloon? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/ff404a73-d... Sat, 8 Jul 2017 12:27:54 EST Still Streaking! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6383250 A week ago Monday I joined a StepBet. It has really helped motivate me. My goal was set at less than what I've been getting, plus I get a rest day every week. BUT.....I've decided to try to get 10K steps every single day between now and Aug. 6, when it ends. It'll be interesting to see if my weight responds accordingly. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/407898f0-d0fe-4787-9540-8a2901e1bde5.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Once again today I weighed in at 189.2, which has stayed the... Tue, 4 Jul 2017 13:22:55 EST My Ramped UP Efforts Are WORKING!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6382009 Happy News this morning: Scale reads 189.2 lbs.! Hello 180's. On my original loss (and each of my previous two losses of a minor regain), I have looked forward to getting into a new decade on the scale. I've set a new interim goal for myself. We are having a baby shower for my daughter-in-law Jordan on Aug. 26, and I want to be in the 160's by then. That gives me almost two months to lose 20 pounds. I think I can do it! I also want to lose another 2.2 pounds in the next week so that I can hi... Sat, 1 Jul 2017 11:21:00 EST Hit 10K Steps THREE DAYS IN A ROW!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6381234 Since joining the StepBet Monday, I've been really working to get in more steps. And....along with the added activity....is a new incentive to eat better. So far it's going quite well, although the scale is not going down much. Tuesday morning I was down to 191.2! WOW! I was thrilled. And then Wed. morning back up to 193. This morning 192.6, so I guess it's a downward trend, and if I didn't weight every single day I wouldn't notice the fluctuations as much. Hey--At least I'm no longer at 196,... Thu, 29 Jun 2017 12:15:09 EST Ramping Up My Efforts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6380350 After being back on the wagon for seven weeks, and having some success, but not as much as I'd like, I decided to join a StepBet Sunday. Over the weekend, I ate too much, and was not happy with myself. I got some steps in hitting my 6,000 goal both days, but you and I both know, you can't exercise away a bad diet, and I wouldn't exactly call 6,000 steps/day a LOT of exercise. <BR> <BR> The StepBet set my goals for me--based on my past Fitbet recorded steps. It set 7,321 for me for four days ... Tue, 27 Jun 2017 11:01:19 EST Relay for Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6379920 Saturday we participated in the American Cancer Society's Relay for Life. It seemed like participation was down this year compared to last year, but we enjoy the camaraderie and the fact that there are so many survivors every year--that is encouraging for everyone! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/2a14567c-c82a-4c01-a338-dba7063667ec.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Duane and I got down there pretty early, before the opening ceremony at 6 pm, but the rest of the family soon showed ... Mon, 26 Jun 2017 12:07:07 EST Apple Butter! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6378790 When we stopped at Kimmel Orchard in Nebraska City Monday, after taking grandson to his summer camp, I picked up some juice-sweetened apple butter. Apple butter might be one of my favorite things in the world, and I had selected a regular jar (sweetened with sugar) of apple butter before finding this one! <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/9a3065d8-8bdf-4ad4-843f-5c99347bf7d9.jpg"> <BR> And it only has 15 calories per tablespoon! <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople... Fri, 23 Jun 2017 13:52:56 EST Summer Camp http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6378336 Monday afternoon Du and I drove our oldest grandson, Duncan (11) to Nebraska City (about 50 miles south of Lincoln) for a week-long Summer Camp. This is a camp sponsored by the Nebraska Center for the Education of Children Who are Blind or Visually Impaired (NCECBVI) http://www.ncecbvi.org/ <BR> <BR> Duncan has albinism, which also affects sight in addition to the melanin which is missing in his (very white) hair. He is legally blind, but functions quite well, he simply holds things very clo... Thu, 22 Jun 2017 12:14:53 EST Father's Day Celebration http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6377104 We hosted the family for a barbecue yesterday. Great food, great family, great fun! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/1c74153d-5150-4c41-a09f-873dcece2158.JPG"> <BR> Oldest son Mark with his wife and three gorgeous kids. It was also their 12th wedding anniversary yesterday! Happy Anniversary to my wonderful kids! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/7353950a-51ac-43f4-a99c-1b600bb9b30a.JPG"> <BR> The family at the dinner table. Middle son Brad... Mon, 19 Jun 2017 14:56:57 EST This and That on a Saturday Morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6376349 It's been a busy week, starring with the horrible news from my beautiful sister-in-law last Monday. She has pancreatic cancer, what a shock. We are still in disbelief, and have been texting her several tines a day asking how the various appointments are going and tell her, she is in my thoughts constantly. She has also had a busy week, she had a port put in her chest (for chemo), had a Pet scan, talked to the doctor afterwards, and is now definitely in better spirits. Her doctor was very pos... Sat, 17 Jun 2017 17:09:43 EST Cancer Really Really Sucks! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6374806 Yesterday I got a text from Du's sister, Karen. Karen is the one I wrote about in my blog a couple days ago. She is two years younger than Du (62), was born without hip sockets and walks with a decided limp, but is a wonderful, kind person and I have always loved her. Since I had no sisters, I considered her more like a sister than a sister-in-law and we have been very close through the years. We are only three years apart in age, knew each other in high school, and she basically raised my ol... Tue, 13 Jun 2017 21:10:01 EST More on Addictions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6374179 In my new People magazine is an article by the first wife/significant other (?) and daughter of Lamar Odom, ex-professional basketball player, who famously battles an addiction to drugs. He almost died from a drug overdose a couple years ago and of course estranged wife Khloe Kardashian rushed to his side. I'm guessing for her, it was all about the publicity. Lamar was fighting for his life, suffered multiple strokes and two heart attacks. He did survive, and I'm not sure where his recovery i... Mon, 12 Jun 2017 12:17:56 EST Baby Gender Reveal Party http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6373687 Life has changed since I had my babies. Not only do couples find out ahead of time the sex of the baby they are expecting, but they hold Gender Reveal parties, with ingenious ways to reveal the sex, not only to the party-goers, but to themselves. YES, it is a secret to everyone but the technician who does the ultrasound. She put the results in a sealed envelope last week, and handed it to my son and his wife (Chris & Jordan), who had ordered a "kit" from Amazon--two softballs--one with pink d... Sun, 11 Jun 2017 10:32:36 EST Just Peachy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6372244 I am really picky about peaches. I LOVE a good peach, but do not like peaches that are bruised, too soft, mushy or TOO hard. I bought three peaches at the grocery store and since fruit is UNLIMITED on WW, I am eating my first one right now. It is delicious. I did cut off a couple soft spots, but it is so full of peach taste and juicy. I LOVE peaches!! <BR> <BR> That blog title describes my life right now. Since Du's altered and much more positive diagnosis from the cancer specialist in April... Wed, 7 Jun 2017 19:28:57 EST Down 11 Pounds since I started back on May 6!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6370342 Weight Watchers seems to have been the kick in the butt I needed to get back on track. I had done okay since I decided I needed to lose this weight on May 6 (I remember, it was the day AFTER my 3-year-old grandson Noah's birthday dinner. We even went out with friends the night of May 6. I had the steak and grains meal at Applebee's, it's less than 550 calories as I recall. But until I joined WW on Monday, I was kind of half-heartedly on board the "healthy train." WW gave me a real impetus and... Sat, 3 Jun 2017 13:12:39 EST Day 3 of Weight Watchers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6369455 I'm feeling focused and strong since joining WW. I wasn't sure whether it would work to get me motivated again, like it did last summer, but so far, so good. The scale dropped to 198.2 yesterday, but back up to 199.8 this morning. I'm pretty sure it's water weight, the first day of being back on track for some reason leads to peeing a lot, and a quick weight loss. Those trips to the bathroom slowed down yesterday and the scale went up a tad. I am confident that THIS time (how many times have ... Thu, 1 Jun 2017 11:11:36 EST Back to the Beginning! I joined WW AGAIN! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6368572 Okay, it's been a week since I posted and I'm struggling again. I didn't do too badly, eating-wise, except for Sunday when we were invited to son's house for a Memorial Day barbecue. I overate, but got right back on the wagon yesterday. In fact--I joined Weight Watchers. I got an e-mail with a 45% off deal, and joined for 3-months on-line for just over $40. Well worth it, if it helps me regain my FOCUS. I CAN DO THIS. I've done it before and I shall do it again. This morning on my FB memories... Tue, 30 May 2017 12:57:05 EST Day 18 -- Working to Regain that FOCUS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6365618 I know I obsess about my focus, but it's what I call my drive to lose weight. I HAVE to have it, and it needs to be strong, I NEED to obsess over it, and it's the only thing that works for me. I'm working to get it back. I got to thinking if I lose it again completely, and gain another 50 lbs., I'll be at 250 pounds and have 100 lbs. to lose again. I'm not doing that!!! <BR> <BR> I didn't have the world's greatest "diet" meals yesterday, but I didn't snack, so there's that. And today I'm fee... Tue, 23 May 2017 12:14:17 EST Day 17 -- Focus Fading Just A Little http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6365191 I need to work hard to get that extreme Focus I need to lose this regain BACK. It's essential, and over the weekend I lost it a little. No major binges, but some snacking occurred and meals weren't the greatest either. Then this morning: the scale showed an uptick, back up to 200.0 lbs. So it's back to work for me, trying to remember the many reasons why I'm doing this and struggling to get that level of FOCUS that I need, back again. <BR> <BR> Katie at Runs for Cookies http://www.runsforco... Mon, 22 May 2017 12:59:59 EST Day 15 -- Two Weeks of Focus http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6364373 Two weeks ago I started back on my journey. The biggest change--NO snacking. I found a half a bag of granola here in the drawer by my computer yesterday. Out in the trash it went. Too much temptation. Granola is one of those supposedly healthy treats, but I checked before tossing: 220 calories in 3/4 of a cup. And I wouldn't stop at 3/4 cup either. I know me. I'd finish the whole bag. Can't believe I left half a bag from my binge-filled days, actually. I found an empty box of crackers behind ... Sat, 20 May 2017 13:27:24 EST Day 14 -- Interim Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6363933 During my first weight loss, the major one, when I lost 178 lbs. I set several interim goals. I had some close friends getting married in June of that year and promised myself I would be in the 240's by then. I made it, but only one person at the wedding even noticed my weight loss. I was a tad disappointed, but it wouldn't be long before the whole world noticed, and it was worth the wait/weight. I also hoped to be down in the 220's by the time I celebrated my 40th wedding anniversary in Sept... Fri, 19 May 2017 11:09:09 EST Day 13---Feeling FOCUSED, a necessity for me on this journey http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6363523 This time, I didn't join any Diet Bets, nor did I enroll in WW on-line (although I've considered doing both), but I still feel focused, determined and motivated. FOCUS is my most important need, it is crucial to staying on this journey, and I don't know where it comes from. If I did, I'd bottle it, and sell it and get rich! I guess at this point, anyhow, I don't need any outside help, other than Spark and blogging to keep that focus, so for now I'm content to do it this way. <BR> <BR> I don'... Thu, 18 May 2017 11:17:24 EST Day 12--Snacking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6363115 I'm going to write about snacking, but FIRST: I'm back in ONE-derland as of this morning. The scale said 199.4. I was thinking it might, because (TMI warning) I was doing a lot of peeing yesterday. I think because I'm eating better, I'm consuming less salt, thus less water retention. I just hope it doesn't tick up tomorrow. But patience is a virtue, and I know eventually the scale WILL go down, if I keep doing what I'm doing. <BR> <BR> When I first got into ONE-derland back in November of 20... Wed, 17 May 2017 12:11:55 EST Day 11 -- Forgetfulness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6362675 Yesterday I thought of a great topic to blog about today, but unfortunately, over night I forgot what it was. Argh!! It was some great insight I had. You'd think I'd learn to write it down immediately and not trust myself to remember anything. Perhaps I will remember someday... <BR> <BR> Had a good, quiet day yesterday. It was hot and windy in Nebraska, so no pickleball, but I did get the wash done and the plants all watered. We got everything planted before the kids came out for Mother's Da... Tue, 16 May 2017 11:35:27 EST Day 10--I KNOW I can do THIS! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6362249 When I was in the middle of my feeding frenzy, I didn't know how to get my focus back. But you know what? I had it all along! Just like Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz, it was inside of me all the time. <BR> <BR> With my weight loss success in the past, I know I can do it again, and that helps a lot. I also know how easy it is to lose my way, so I fight every day to stay FOCUSED and TRUE. I realize that small slips can lead to falling all the way down that mountain and I refuse to do that. <BR> ... Mon, 15 May 2017 12:29:47 EST Day Seven--Feeling Really Good! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6360971 I didn't have an excellent eating day yesterday. While Du was gone to Arizona for Spring Training, I bought some pizza rolls and ate them during my feeding frenzy/binge period. I remember reading Valerie Bertinelli's autobiography (her first one, I think) and she talked about how eating pizza rolls led to her weight gain. I used to eat them quite a bit but haven't eaten them in years, probably seven and a half, the length of time I've been on this journey. I know they're high calories and sin... Fri, 12 May 2017 09:57:58 EST Day Six--Feeling FOCUSED http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6360621 Five days completed back on track and still feeling focused. That is BIG! <BR> <BR> If you read yesterday's blog you're probably thinking I'm crazy. I think I mentioned that we were going to the Prostate Cancer Support group last night, and couldn't go to them anytime but summer because of Du's Thursday night league bowling. In retirement, I have found it tough to keep track of what day it is. Without work to keep the days of the week in order, both Du and I have discovered we often don't kn... Thu, 11 May 2017 11:46:42 EST Day Five--Still Plugging Away! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6360140 I loved all the supportive and helpful comments on yesterday's blog. One that really struck home with me was from Tish, she suggested I once again become a Daily Sparker. Last year during my last re-loss, I joined a 30-day blog challenge, during which you were given a daily topic. I liked doing that, and this year, I think I will make my challenge to blog daily, counting up the days since I've been back on track. As you see this is Day Five! I think coming here daily might be key to staying F... Wed, 10 May 2017 11:15:21 EST Day Four--What Makes One Attempt Work, When So Many Failed? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6359711 I have often pondered this question. I had been morbidly obese (300+ lbs.) for over 30 years, then one December day in 2011 after visiting the doctor for a pounding heart and having him tell me that "it appears as if you've already had a heart attack," I immediately began living a healthier lifestyle. Now I know the doctor's words had much to do with me finally getting serious about losing weight, but to be honest this was NOT the first time I had visited the dr. for what I worried was a hear... Tue, 9 May 2017 11:01:30 EST Day Three--Still Focused http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6359302 This morning is the start of my third day back on track, and I still feel focused and DETERMINED! I think those pictures that showed up on my Facebook memories Saturday, from our trip around the Midwest five years ago, got me motivated more than seeing pictures of me when I weighed over 300 pounds. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/adc66544-9419-4acd-807b-c8757a300973.JPG"> <BR> At a Civil War Battlefield site near Springfield, Mo, May 2012. <BR> <BR> I love how small I w... Mon, 8 May 2017 12:59:19 EST