MAGGIEROSEBOWL's SparkPeople Blog MAGGIEROSEBOWL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I Cheated--At Church!! I had been so dedicated to getting my 10K steps in every single day, going over and above my StepBet goals. So far, I haven't had too much of a problem getting all my steps in, but now I also want to get that 250 steps per hour (between 9-5). I have a 6-day streak of doing that. But this morning as we were getting ready for church, I wondered if I would be able to get in my 250 steps during that 10:00 hour. Church runs from 10-11, and of course we get there early (before 10), and usually get... Sun, 23 Jul 2017 13:37:58 EST NSV's! I had forgotten about those! In my original weight loss journey (back in 2009-11), I had lots of NSV's, and loved them: Things like fitting into an airline seat and not needing a seatbelt extender, being able to walk long distances, going to the doctor without the dread of seeing my weight on the scale, etc. etc. <BR> <BR> Over the long term, I began to take these huge victories for granted. This was my life now, and it was easy to forget my life BWL (before weight loss), which was so very limited by my size. <BR> <BR>... Fri, 21 Jul 2017 11:25:21 EST 20-Day Streak Since I joined the StepBet back on June 26, I've hit 10K steps every day! That's 20 days in a row, beating my old record (set last July-August) of 18 days in a row. It hasn't happened without a lot of conscientious effort on my part. I have made more laps around my house than I care to count, I go shopping at the big stores and get as many steps as I can, we have gone to special events simply to get steps in, and Du supports me "every step of the way." Literally! <BR> <BR> I did a comparison... Sun, 16 Jul 2017 17:20:14 EST WHY Am I Doing This? As I was trudging around my house for about the 1000th lap of the day, (exaggerating....but close!) I wondered, "Why am I doing this?" Why is it so important for me to get 10K steps every single day? Why is it so important that I drop this weight and get back to 150 lbs.? It took some thinking but I realized there was LOTS of reasons: <BR> <BR> Ten Reasons Why I Am Doing This: <BR> <BR> 1. Walking is the mildest form of exercise, but about all that I am capable of. Sometimes even walking s... Tue, 11 Jul 2017 14:23:02 EST Trying to Ride Out This Plateau About the time I decided to "ramp up" my weight-loss efforts and started my 11-day streak of 10K steps/day, I weighed in at 189.2. Now this was a nice loss and I was so excited to be back in the 180's, but ever since then, I have not lost an ounce. In fact the scale went back up into the 190's and considering how I've been eating (really really well!), and all those steps, why is the scale not dropping like a lead balloon? <BR> <BR> <img src=" Sat, 8 Jul 2017 12:27:54 EST Still Streaking! A week ago Monday I joined a StepBet. It has really helped motivate me. My goal was set at less than what I've been getting, plus I get a rest day every week. BUT.....I've decided to try to get 10K steps every single day between now and Aug. 6, when it ends. It'll be interesting to see if my weight responds accordingly. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Once again today I weighed in at 189.2, which has stayed the... Tue, 4 Jul 2017 13:22:55 EST My Ramped UP Efforts Are WORKING!!! Happy News this morning: Scale reads 189.2 lbs.! Hello 180's. On my original loss (and each of my previous two losses of a minor regain), I have looked forward to getting into a new decade on the scale. I've set a new interim goal for myself. We are having a baby shower for my daughter-in-law Jordan on Aug. 26, and I want to be in the 160's by then. That gives me almost two months to lose 20 pounds. I think I can do it! I also want to lose another 2.2 pounds in the next week so that I can hi... Sat, 1 Jul 2017 11:21:00 EST Hit 10K Steps THREE DAYS IN A ROW!!! Since joining the StepBet Monday, I've been really working to get in more steps. And....along with the added a new incentive to eat better. So far it's going quite well, although the scale is not going down much. Tuesday morning I was down to 191.2! WOW! I was thrilled. And then Wed. morning back up to 193. This morning 192.6, so I guess it's a downward trend, and if I didn't weight every single day I wouldn't notice the fluctuations as much. Hey--At least I'm no longer at 196,... Thu, 29 Jun 2017 12:15:09 EST Ramping Up My Efforts After being back on the wagon for seven weeks, and having some success, but not as much as I'd like, I decided to join a StepBet Sunday. Over the weekend, I ate too much, and was not happy with myself. I got some steps in hitting my 6,000 goal both days, but you and I both know, you can't exercise away a bad diet, and I wouldn't exactly call 6,000 steps/day a LOT of exercise. <BR> <BR> The StepBet set my goals for me--based on my past Fitbet recorded steps. It set 7,321 for me for four days ... Tue, 27 Jun 2017 11:01:19 EST Relay for Life Saturday we participated in the American Cancer Society's Relay for Life. It seemed like participation was down this year compared to last year, but we enjoy the camaraderie and the fact that there are so many survivors every year--that is encouraging for everyone! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Duane and I got down there pretty early, before the opening ceremony at 6 pm, but the rest of the family soon showed ... Mon, 26 Jun 2017 12:07:07 EST Apple Butter! When we stopped at Kimmel Orchard in Nebraska City Monday, after taking grandson to his summer camp, I picked up some juice-sweetened apple butter. Apple butter might be one of my favorite things in the world, and I had selected a regular jar (sweetened with sugar) of apple butter before finding this one! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> And it only has 15 calories per tablespoon! <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople... Fri, 23 Jun 2017 13:52:56 EST Summer Camp Monday afternoon Du and I drove our oldest grandson, Duncan (11) to Nebraska City (about 50 miles south of Lincoln) for a week-long Summer Camp. This is a camp sponsored by the Nebraska Center for the Education of Children Who are Blind or Visually Impaired (NCECBVI) <BR> <BR> Duncan has albinism, which also affects sight in addition to the melanin which is missing in his (very white) hair. He is legally blind, but functions quite well, he simply holds things very clo... Thu, 22 Jun 2017 12:14:53 EST Father's Day Celebration We hosted the family for a barbecue yesterday. Great food, great family, great fun! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Oldest son Mark with his wife and three gorgeous kids. It was also their 12th wedding anniversary yesterday! Happy Anniversary to my wonderful kids! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> The family at the dinner table. Middle son Brad... Mon, 19 Jun 2017 14:56:57 EST This and That on a Saturday Morning It's been a busy week, starring with the horrible news from my beautiful sister-in-law last Monday. She has pancreatic cancer, what a shock. We are still in disbelief, and have been texting her several tines a day asking how the various appointments are going and tell her, she is in my thoughts constantly. She has also had a busy week, she had a port put in her chest (for chemo), had a Pet scan, talked to the doctor afterwards, and is now definitely in better spirits. Her doctor was very pos... Sat, 17 Jun 2017 17:09:43 EST Cancer Really Really Sucks! Yesterday I got a text from Du's sister, Karen. Karen is the one I wrote about in my blog a couple days ago. She is two years younger than Du (62), was born without hip sockets and walks with a decided limp, but is a wonderful, kind person and I have always loved her. Since I had no sisters, I considered her more like a sister than a sister-in-law and we have been very close through the years. We are only three years apart in age, knew each other in high school, and she basically raised my ol... Tue, 13 Jun 2017 21:10:01 EST More on Addictions In my new People magazine is an article by the first wife/significant other (?) and daughter of Lamar Odom, ex-professional basketball player, who famously battles an addiction to drugs. He almost died from a drug overdose a couple years ago and of course estranged wife Khloe Kardashian rushed to his side. I'm guessing for her, it was all about the publicity. Lamar was fighting for his life, suffered multiple strokes and two heart attacks. He did survive, and I'm not sure where his recovery i... Mon, 12 Jun 2017 12:17:56 EST Baby Gender Reveal Party Life has changed since I had my babies. Not only do couples find out ahead of time the sex of the baby they are expecting, but they hold Gender Reveal parties, with ingenious ways to reveal the sex, not only to the party-goers, but to themselves. YES, it is a secret to everyone but the technician who does the ultrasound. She put the results in a sealed envelope last week, and handed it to my son and his wife (Chris & Jordan), who had ordered a "kit" from Amazon--two softballs--one with pink d... Sun, 11 Jun 2017 10:32:36 EST Just Peachy I am really picky about peaches. I LOVE a good peach, but do not like peaches that are bruised, too soft, mushy or TOO hard. I bought three peaches at the grocery store and since fruit is UNLIMITED on WW, I am eating my first one right now. It is delicious. I did cut off a couple soft spots, but it is so full of peach taste and juicy. I LOVE peaches!! <BR> <BR> That blog title describes my life right now. Since Du's altered and much more positive diagnosis from the cancer specialist in April... Wed, 7 Jun 2017 19:28:57 EST Down 11 Pounds since I started back on May 6!! Weight Watchers seems to have been the kick in the butt I needed to get back on track. I had done okay since I decided I needed to lose this weight on May 6 (I remember, it was the day AFTER my 3-year-old grandson Noah's birthday dinner. We even went out with friends the night of May 6. I had the steak and grains meal at Applebee's, it's less than 550 calories as I recall. But until I joined WW on Monday, I was kind of half-heartedly on board the "healthy train." WW gave me a real impetus and... Sat, 3 Jun 2017 13:12:39 EST Day 3 of Weight Watchers I'm feeling focused and strong since joining WW. I wasn't sure whether it would work to get me motivated again, like it did last summer, but so far, so good. The scale dropped to 198.2 yesterday, but back up to 199.8 this morning. I'm pretty sure it's water weight, the first day of being back on track for some reason leads to peeing a lot, and a quick weight loss. Those trips to the bathroom slowed down yesterday and the scale went up a tad. I am confident that THIS time (how many times have ... Thu, 1 Jun 2017 11:11:36 EST Back to the Beginning! I joined WW AGAIN! Okay, it's been a week since I posted and I'm struggling again. I didn't do too badly, eating-wise, except for Sunday when we were invited to son's house for a Memorial Day barbecue. I overate, but got right back on the wagon yesterday. In fact--I joined Weight Watchers. I got an e-mail with a 45% off deal, and joined for 3-months on-line for just over $40. Well worth it, if it helps me regain my FOCUS. I CAN DO THIS. I've done it before and I shall do it again. This morning on my FB memories... Tue, 30 May 2017 12:57:05 EST Day 18 -- Working to Regain that FOCUS I know I obsess about my focus, but it's what I call my drive to lose weight. I HAVE to have it, and it needs to be strong, I NEED to obsess over it, and it's the only thing that works for me. I'm working to get it back. I got to thinking if I lose it again completely, and gain another 50 lbs., I'll be at 250 pounds and have 100 lbs. to lose again. I'm not doing that!!! <BR> <BR> I didn't have the world's greatest "diet" meals yesterday, but I didn't snack, so there's that. And today I'm fee... Tue, 23 May 2017 12:14:17 EST Day 17 -- Focus Fading Just A Little I need to work hard to get that extreme Focus I need to lose this regain BACK. It's essential, and over the weekend I lost it a little. No major binges, but some snacking occurred and meals weren't the greatest either. Then this morning: the scale showed an uptick, back up to 200.0 lbs. So it's back to work for me, trying to remember the many reasons why I'm doing this and struggling to get that level of FOCUS that I need, back again. <BR> <BR> Katie at Runs for Cookies http://www.runsforco... Mon, 22 May 2017 12:59:59 EST Day 15 -- Two Weeks of Focus Two weeks ago I started back on my journey. The biggest change--NO snacking. I found a half a bag of granola here in the drawer by my computer yesterday. Out in the trash it went. Too much temptation. Granola is one of those supposedly healthy treats, but I checked before tossing: 220 calories in 3/4 of a cup. And I wouldn't stop at 3/4 cup either. I know me. I'd finish the whole bag. Can't believe I left half a bag from my binge-filled days, actually. I found an empty box of crackers behind ... Sat, 20 May 2017 13:27:24 EST Day 14 -- Interim Goals During my first weight loss, the major one, when I lost 178 lbs. I set several interim goals. I had some close friends getting married in June of that year and promised myself I would be in the 240's by then. I made it, but only one person at the wedding even noticed my weight loss. I was a tad disappointed, but it wouldn't be long before the whole world noticed, and it was worth the wait/weight. I also hoped to be down in the 220's by the time I celebrated my 40th wedding anniversary in Sept... Fri, 19 May 2017 11:09:09 EST Day 13---Feeling FOCUSED, a necessity for me on this journey This time, I didn't join any Diet Bets, nor did I enroll in WW on-line (although I've considered doing both), but I still feel focused, determined and motivated. FOCUS is my most important need, it is crucial to staying on this journey, and I don't know where it comes from. If I did, I'd bottle it, and sell it and get rich! I guess at this point, anyhow, I don't need any outside help, other than Spark and blogging to keep that focus, so for now I'm content to do it this way. <BR> <BR> I don'... Thu, 18 May 2017 11:17:24 EST Day 12--Snacking I'm going to write about snacking, but FIRST: I'm back in ONE-derland as of this morning. The scale said 199.4. I was thinking it might, because (TMI warning) I was doing a lot of peeing yesterday. I think because I'm eating better, I'm consuming less salt, thus less water retention. I just hope it doesn't tick up tomorrow. But patience is a virtue, and I know eventually the scale WILL go down, if I keep doing what I'm doing. <BR> <BR> When I first got into ONE-derland back in November of 20... Wed, 17 May 2017 12:11:55 EST Day 11 -- Forgetfulness Yesterday I thought of a great topic to blog about today, but unfortunately, over night I forgot what it was. Argh!! It was some great insight I had. You'd think I'd learn to write it down immediately and not trust myself to remember anything. Perhaps I will remember someday... <BR> <BR> Had a good, quiet day yesterday. It was hot and windy in Nebraska, so no pickleball, but I did get the wash done and the plants all watered. We got everything planted before the kids came out for Mother's Da... Tue, 16 May 2017 11:35:27 EST Day 10--I KNOW I can do THIS! When I was in the middle of my feeding frenzy, I didn't know how to get my focus back. But you know what? I had it all along! Just like Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz, it was inside of me all the time. <BR> <BR> With my weight loss success in the past, I know I can do it again, and that helps a lot. I also know how easy it is to lose my way, so I fight every day to stay FOCUSED and TRUE. I realize that small slips can lead to falling all the way down that mountain and I refuse to do that. <BR> ... Mon, 15 May 2017 12:29:47 EST Day Seven--Feeling Really Good! I didn't have an excellent eating day yesterday. While Du was gone to Arizona for Spring Training, I bought some pizza rolls and ate them during my feeding frenzy/binge period. I remember reading Valerie Bertinelli's autobiography (her first one, I think) and she talked about how eating pizza rolls led to her weight gain. I used to eat them quite a bit but haven't eaten them in years, probably seven and a half, the length of time I've been on this journey. I know they're high calories and sin... Fri, 12 May 2017 09:57:58 EST Day Six--Feeling FOCUSED Five days completed back on track and still feeling focused. That is BIG! <BR> <BR> If you read yesterday's blog you're probably thinking I'm crazy. I think I mentioned that we were going to the Prostate Cancer Support group last night, and couldn't go to them anytime but summer because of Du's Thursday night league bowling. In retirement, I have found it tough to keep track of what day it is. Without work to keep the days of the week in order, both Du and I have discovered we often don't kn... Thu, 11 May 2017 11:46:42 EST Day Five--Still Plugging Away! I loved all the supportive and helpful comments on yesterday's blog. One that really struck home with me was from Tish, she suggested I once again become a Daily Sparker. Last year during my last re-loss, I joined a 30-day blog challenge, during which you were given a daily topic. I liked doing that, and this year, I think I will make my challenge to blog daily, counting up the days since I've been back on track. As you see this is Day Five! I think coming here daily might be key to staying F... Wed, 10 May 2017 11:15:21 EST Day Four--What Makes One Attempt Work, When So Many Failed? I have often pondered this question. I had been morbidly obese (300+ lbs.) for over 30 years, then one December day in 2011 after visiting the doctor for a pounding heart and having him tell me that "it appears as if you've already had a heart attack," I immediately began living a healthier lifestyle. Now I know the doctor's words had much to do with me finally getting serious about losing weight, but to be honest this was NOT the first time I had visited the dr. for what I worried was a hear... Tue, 9 May 2017 11:01:30 EST Day Three--Still Focused This morning is the start of my third day back on track, and I still feel focused and DETERMINED! I think those pictures that showed up on my Facebook memories Saturday, from our trip around the Midwest five years ago, got me motivated more than seeing pictures of me when I weighed over 300 pounds. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> At a Civil War Battlefield site near Springfield, Mo, May 2012. <BR> <BR> I love how small I w... Mon, 8 May 2017 12:59:19 EST Still Struggling If anyone is still reading my pathetic blogs, it would be a miracle. I have struggled so much in the past months, since Christmas. I've been on a feeding frenzy, stuffing anything and everything in my mouth, with my clothes quickly becoming too tight and the scale going up up up! <BR> <BR> Was just checking out my Facebook memories from five years ago. We took a trip around the Midwest: Branson, St. Louis, and Memphis (Graceland!). Good times! I want that body back! <BR> <img src="http://p... Sat, 6 May 2017 15:30:28 EST HOPE--What a Great Word! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is a picture of the shelf in my living room. My sons got me the Willow Tree figurine for our 40th anniversary a few years ago--I had requested this particular one and really love it. I bought the "Miracles Happen" almost four years ago to the day at the Cancer Treatment Center of America (CTCA) gift shop near Chicago. We had travelled there for a second opinion when Du's Urologist gave ... Mon, 17 Apr 2017 10:56:05 EST Two Days On.....One Day Off This is the story of my life especially when I try to get back on track, to regain my focus. I don't seem to be able to do it all at once, I have to get back into it slowly. I had a great day on Monday, three meals, a snack of fruit and I came in at around 1,200 calories. Tuesday was okay, 1,500 calories, still not bad. Wednesday I had a minor binge and didn't bother to figure out how many calories. I finished an entire bag of those baked Ritz cracker crisps, that are brand new. They are deli... Thu, 6 Apr 2017 11:25:19 EST I'd be DEAD! If I was a drug addict, instead of a food addict, I'm pretty sure I would not be alive to write this blog today. I went so far off the rails, binging, in the last several months, and especially the last couple of weeks, had it been narcotics that I was binging on instead of food, I would be DEAD. I'm beginning to understand how those famous people you read about, who have died from a drug overdose after going through rehab and staying clean for a while. <BR> <BR> After over seven years on th... Sun, 2 Apr 2017 10:11:07 EST Perspective Yesterday I watched a couple episodes of my 600-lb. Life on TLC. Those shows really intrigue me. The first episode was a "Where Are They Now," show with two women who had lost so much weight (over 400 lbs. as I recall, one had lost over 500 lbs.!) and they were both going through skin removal surgery. I assume that is part of the deal when they sign on with TLC to have their surgery (they all have WLS with a surgeon in Houston), because it appears few of these people have actual jobs. And eve... Thu, 2 Feb 2017 11:10:45 EST Procrastinating I hate procrastinating, yet I am a champion at it. I like to be done with things, back in the days when I worked I really hated long drawn-out projects. I want to attack something and be done with it, as I used to say, "Get it off my desk!" <BR> <BR> Today, I am still guilty of procrastinating. I took on a BIG project, with a group of friends from my high school graduating class of 1969 last fall. We met at a small restaurant in my hometown (about 15 miles from where I live today), and deci... Tue, 24 Jan 2017 12:18:33 EST Oh The Places You'll Go! With thanks to Dr. Seuss for my blog title today, it occurred to me yesterday as I was putting away Christmas decorations and getting my photos back out on display, that I've done SO MANY wonderful things in the years since I've been on this journey. The pictures tell the story! <BR> <BR> My very first excursion in celebration of my weight loss was a journey to the middle of nowhere Nebraska (Ashton) to have my picture taken for inclusion in a Taste of Home Diet Cookbook in June of 2011. The... Thu, 19 Jan 2017 12:21:07 EST Seven Years Ago..... This morning I bundled up (two scarfs, boots, three sweaters, etc.) to head out my driveway and get my newspaper on a snowy -5 degree Nebraska morning. I thought back seven years ago to 2010, when I had just started on my journey to get healthier. I actually began on Dec. 14, 2009, and was almost a month into it by this time seven years ago. Seven years. That's a long time. You'd think some of the things I've been doing (for the most part) would be more of a habit, and they are somewhat, but ... Fri, 6 Jan 2017 12:11:21 EST A Good Day, Then a Bad Day The days when I keep my snacking under control are "good days," while those times when I seem to constantly need something in my mouth to chew on are "bad days." I'm a slow starter, but hopefully soon I will be having more good days than bad ones. Wish me luck. <BR> <BR> In reading my People Magazine this week, I came across a couple quotes from and about people that made me sad. First of all, there was a story about George Michael who passed away unexpectedly in December. He had been consid... Wed, 4 Jan 2017 11:15:22 EST 2016 Recap I think Du and I did up the year right! We crossed off some items from our Bucket Lists, tried to be more active, both dropped some weight, and got our youngest son (the last one!) married off to a wonderful girl. And most importantly, we are still ALIVE!!! That is MUCH to be grateful for! <BR> <BR> I finally had that long put-off knee surgery in late February. The physical therapy was the most painful thing I have ever endured (and I have birthed three BIG boys, had multiple root canals, an... Mon, 2 Jan 2017 09:43:53 EST Back in the 160's! After weighing in at 174.4 on Thursday morning, I was happy to see 171.4 yesterday morning, and even happier this morning to see 168.4. It's just that first weight drop, mostly water weight, when you get back on track. I know it will slow down considerably now, but I'm going to enjoy this quick drop and feel grateful that my body is responding so well. It certainly responded (in reverse) when I was over-eating, by gaining rapidly! <BR> <BR> However, I know I still have almost 20 pounds to lo... Sat, 31 Dec 2016 12:31:21 EST DIET: Did I EAT That????? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Saw this on Facebook just now. It pretty much sums up the month of December for me. I just saw my last blog from Dec. 6, where I report that the scale read 154 pounds which was my pre-Thanksgiving weight. I am ashamed to admit that this morning, when I finally made myself get on that scale it read 174 pounds. HOW DID I DO THAT, in just a little over 3 weeks? WHY did I do that? And HOW can I... Thu, 29 Dec 2016 16:31:10 EST Somehow, I've returned to my pre-Thanksgiving Binge Weight!!! This morning, the scale once again was back at 154.4! WOOHOO!! Go me!! I haven't been great, but finally all the Thanksgiving desserts and treats are pretty much gone and nothing is left in the house to tempt me, and I won't lie....I have looked for something to binge on. I am a firm believer, if you resist the temptation to buy it at the grocery store, you only have to resist that temptation ONCE and not repeatedly, as you have to do once it's in your cupboard. <BR> <BR> I enjoyed Spark's c... Tue, 6 Dec 2016 13:17:38 EST A Four-Day Binge = SEVEN POUNDS!!! You might ask--WHAT was she thinking? The answer is: I was NOT thinking, I was too busy stuffing my face. How does this happen? I was SO focused and self-disciplined, starting in late April until son Chris's wedding on Oct. 8. I was thrilled to be back at my happy weight of 150 lbs. and determined to stay there this time. <BR> <BR> I did okay for over a month. I wasn't at 150 lbs., but not much over, fluctuating between 152 and 154 since the wedding. And I was happy with that. Then I started... Tue, 29 Nov 2016 15:19:42 EST Still Here...Still Fighting....Still Hoping I have never been so worried about a Presidential election, and I'll be honest, the outcome was my biggest fear. Now, all I have left is HOPE that things will work and it will be better than I had imagined. So far, it seems to be okay, I'm just hoping these big changes aren't all BAD, and won't destroy the life we have built for ourselves. Last night I went to a Husker Volleyball game (they won and are still ranked #1 in the country--GO BIG RED!), and the singing of the National Anthem befor... Thu, 10 Nov 2016 17:46:07 EST Sympathy and Obsession My friend, Jon, who was inducted into the Joy Bauer Fit Club on the Today Show before I was, recently posted an article on Facebook. I don't actually know Jon in person, but he reached out to me via Joy because since his appearance on TV, he moved to Lincoln (where I live). I know he is currently struggling with a regain/relapse, and I can certainly relate to that. Here is the intro he wrote to the link he shared: <BR> <BR> "I could say all sorts of things about this article. Kind of ironic ... Sat, 5 Nov 2016 11:48:37 EST