MAGGIEROSEBOWL's SparkPeople Blog MAGGIEROSEBOWL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Going for a Walk on a Cooler Night I correspond regularly (via e-mail) with a cousin of Du's dad's. I think she puts out a generic e-mail, then personalizes it to several relatives, but I always send her a personal reply, with lots of pictures. I like to write, so I enjoy our correspondence. She and her husband are in their 80's, and in pretty good shape. Of course it helps that she is a tiny little woman, without an ounce of fat on her. She takes twice daily 1-mile walks, in all seasons and encourages her husband to do the sa... Fri, 24 Jun 2016 10:35:04 EST Trivia I have always loved trivia, starting when I was just a kid, and would watch the Art Fleming version of Jeopardy with my Mom. It was fun to see if you know any of the answers (questions), before the contestants. I still watch Jeopardy every day and enjoy the quick pace of this particular game show. When the board game Trivial Pursuit was popular in the 1980s, Du and I were huge fans, owned several versions of the game and would always try to talk our kids and friends into playing with us. Then... Thu, 23 Jun 2016 15:27:54 EST Wearing those old clothes again.. This morning I decided it was time to try on the top I bought for the Fourth of July back when I was at my goal weight. I remember it was a little snug across my belly, but was hopeful it would look "okay." My belly got big when I gained weight this time--even Du noticed. I've never had a huge stomach, even at my heaviest, it wasn't enormous (big yes, but other parts of my body--hips, butt, legs, were even bigger, so the stomach didn't stick out so badly), but I have been wondering if I will ... Tue, 21 Jun 2016 15:39:39 EST LOG in that food BEFORE you EAT IT!!! (Lesson Learned) After our great Father's Day celebration/barbecue yesterday, Du and I were talking about middle son this morning. Physically, his weight is really started to be a problem for him. He sat in Du's recliner yesterday (even with the cancer in Du's hips making it hard for him to get up out of a chair, he felt like his son would have an easier time sitting and getting out of his recliner, so my extremely considerate Du sat on the couch while we watched baseball after lunch), and still struggled mig... Mon, 20 Jun 2016 11:27:23 EST Relay for Life Yesterday, Du and I spent the day in downtown Lincoln at the American Cancer Society's Relay for life. We both got free-shirts, and free dinner (Runzas, which we brought home with us), and had a great time. I had bought a luminaria in honor of Duane's fight, and we found it right away. Then we found three more luminarias with his name on it. One of the volunteers, who was in charge of the Relay, was an old friend of ours, we had run into her last weekend at the Cancer Survivor's Day dinner, a... Sun, 19 Jun 2016 19:50:41 EST Feeling Successful Again! It was a long period of feeling like a failure. After maintaining my 178-lb. loss for nearly three years (from 2011-2014), (and feeling so good about myself) I had a regain back in 2014, but managed to get it turned around and lost the 33 lbs. I had regained by Christmas that year. So what happened? I immediately regained all 33 pounds, plus 20 more, over the next 10 months, and floundered aimlessly, trying in vain to get back on track, and failing in attempt after attempt. For over a year I ... Sat, 18 Jun 2016 12:32:35 EST Good News From the Doctor Today was my appt. with my primary care physician (he's actually a PA), to get a new scrip for my Xarelto. The ER doc gave me 15 mg. tablets to take twice a day for the first 21 days, with instructions to see my doctor for a new scrip in the meantime. <BR> <BR> I wanted to be below 170 at my weigh-in before the appt. today. This was one of my interim goals, at first it was my goal to be below 170 before my pre-op physical, which I had to cancel, since surgery was cancelled, so then I change... Fri, 17 Jun 2016 17:11:27 EST Joy and Horror I was all set to write a blog today about the joys of losing weight. And then Orlando happened. Such horror. But let's start with the JOY! <BR> <BR> I was unprepared for how good it feels to be normal sized, it had been so many years since I was anywhere close to average sized. I spent my entire adult life morbidly obese. I panicked over the thought of doctor appointments (that awful scale), riding in strange cars (seltbelts that didn't fit), airplane trips (seatbelts again), restaurant boot... Wed, 15 Jun 2016 14:07:55 EST Bowling with Granddaughter Amber I don't have much to write about today. Last night was bowling night (for Du) with 6-year-old granddaughter Amber. Every year for the last three years, Du has bowled in a summer league with grandson Duncan. This year, it is his sister Amber who is now old enough to bowl in a summer league with her Grandpa Du. That little girl is such a delight. She's a people-pleaser like her Grandma Pam and I simply adore her. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Tue, 14 Jun 2016 11:18:52 EST National Cancer Survivor's Day Celebration We had seen an ad in the newspaper for a National Cancer Day's Celebration being held at a local church and Du signed us up to go. It included free dinner and some great speakers, plus so many people who are surviving, which is encouraging. I think it's been good for Duane to reach out to others in the cancer community, I think it makes him feel as if he's not alone. I can offer support, but as one of the speakers last night said, she has been in the passenger seat during cancer battles of re... Mon, 13 Jun 2016 12:05:13 EST A Late Night We had a quiet Saturday at home yesterday--I ate more than usual, using up ALL my WW points, which is unusual for me, at least lately. Then the scale read 169.4 this morning, so I guess changing it up might have helped. Someone suggested that perhaps I was eating too little. I know Chris & Heidi Powell (of Extreme Weight Loss Challenge, or whatever it's called) do a carb change-up diet, not sure how it looks, but I know they have high carb days and low carb days. Yesterday was definitely a hi... Sun, 12 Jun 2016 15:02:55 EST Dinner With Old Friends Last night we had our summer dinner with old friends. Years ago we started having dinner together at Christmas time, it used to involve our children (starting when my now 43-year old son was only 2) and we'd get each others kid's presents, and we'd have a big dinner at someone's house, we'd take turns each year hosting it. Then when our kids grew up, we continued the dinner tradition for a few years, but decided making a big dinner for just the four of us was dumb, so now we go out to eat. As... Sat, 11 Jun 2016 14:28:41 EST Prostate Cancer Support Group Report Last night was our first visit to a monthly Prostate Support Group meeting at the local hospital. I found it very interesting, enlightening, and encouraging. Most men had their wives with them, but the men, as you can imagine did most of the talking. The group was on average 15 years older than Du and I, some as much as 20 years older than Du. The group last night consisted of everyone going around and giving a little history of their prostate cancer, which one of the members told us after th... Fri, 10 Jun 2016 11:01:35 EST Nitty Gritty of Prostate Cancer This morning was Du's monthly appointment at his Urologist's office. Oh, he never (and I do mean NEVER) sees the actual Urologist (doctor). Every three months, we are "allowed" a visit with the Urologist's PA, but at his monthly appointments, we see a nurse or today it was a CMA (Certified Medical Assistant). That's fine, but sometimes I wonder who is sicker than <BR> Du (he's terminal) that the doctor considers important enough for him to see. I shouldn't be that way, but I am not a fan of ... Thu, 9 Jun 2016 16:16:21 EST A Book? Mary at Mewhenrysmama<BR>EWHENRYSMAMA commented on yesterday's blog I wrote about onion rings, suggesting it could be the title of my book about maintenance: "Life Without Onion Rings." I like it! I have long dreamed of writing a weight-loss memoir, but when I sit down to do it, it's much harder than I anticipated. I have written a few drafts, but they're much too short to qualify as a book. Mary suggested I start taking notes as I negotiate this lat... Wed, 8 Jun 2016 15:21:05 EST Life Without Onion Rings I am a member of Katie's Runs for Cookies Wednesday Weigh-In Facebook page. There is so much good support there and also people who struggle and need help. A girl wrote today of how she was trying to be so good at the restaurant, then the waitress brought her a piece of chocolate cake because they had been so slow to serve her. NO! I can't tell you how many times this has happened to me. You hate to insult the lovely server, who is just trying to be nice by bringing you extra food or dessert ... Tue, 7 Jun 2016 17:59:28 EST The Life of a Food Addict Although son and I joined the 3-month on-line version of WW at the end of April, I'm afraid he's not FOCUSED like I am right now. I know it's hard to find that focus, and I'm so happy I did it. I struggled getting that focus back for 16 months, from Jan. of 2015 through April of 2016, as I regained over 50 lbs., and he's struggling now to find his. His fiancee is not focused either, or even interested in trying to lose weight herself or help him at all by cooking lighter. I sure hope that wed... Mon, 6 Jun 2016 12:49:55 EST Four Times Stepping on the Scale--Four Different Weights Do any of you do this? Hop on the scale and see the weight, then hop back on and see if it will go down? I'm guilty. When the scale gives me a reading I'm not crazy about--as in 174 (a lousy 1.2 lb. loss in 9 days of really really being good while on vacation), last Tue. morning, and I get back on, it perpetually says the same thing. Over and over. I know I've lost weight. I can tell it in how my clothes are fitting better. As I gained weight over the last several years (this isn't the first ... Sun, 5 Jun 2016 11:38:22 EST UHOH--A Blood Clot! I noticed on our way home from vacation Monday, my right lower calf started hurting. I really wouldn't have thought much about it, we did a lot of walking, not an enormous amount, but more steps than I usually get in every day. But in the back of my mind, due to the knee surgery in Feb., I thought, "I wonder if it's a blood clot." I had pretty much obsessed over a clot possibility in the weeks after surgery, made sure to do just as I was told, including wearing the compression stockings for t... Fri, 3 Jun 2016 15:35:21 EST Back From Vacation and FRUSTRATED Spent the last nine days on the road, touring the Black Hills, Yellowstone and the Grand Tetons, and Rocky Mountain National Park. What a wonderful trip, so many beautiful sights to see, mountains, waterfalls, steaming geysers, wildlife. We both enjoyed ourselves thoroughly, and even Juno, our Bulldog (who went along with us) had a great time. She is a good traveler, content to spend hours in the car, sleeping in the back seat as we traveled several thousand miles in a short time frame. <BR>... Tue, 31 May 2016 22:07:40 EST NO MORE STEAMED BROCCOLI!!! This morning we headed to the cemetery with a new urn we bought for my parent's grave. It's about 10 miles out of town in the small town where I was raised, Waverly, Nebraska. I love driving around town, reminiscing about my childhood, which was so happy, and seeing how it has changed and in so many ways, stayed the same. The cemetery itself is very interesting, filled with names of people I knew growing up. This of course is very sad, but it is a beautiful place too. A classmate of mine who ... Fri, 20 May 2016 02:17:20 EST Time Marches On This morning when I woke up in a bed full of pets (both cat and dog spent the night with us, which is rare, mostly because I usually don't allow it--must have had a weak moment last night), I realized how lucky I am, and how I wish I could just freeze this moment in time. <BR> <BR> I am so happy Du's scans are still showing no cancer growth. But I also know that won't last forever. I try not to let that temper my happiness however, and choose to enjoy and appreciate this moment in time. <BR>... Wed, 18 May 2016 09:37:48 EST Cross Barbra Off my Bucket List I read the other day that Barbra Streisand is planning a short tour this summer to promote a new album she will be putting out before the end of the year. She rarely gives concerts, and I had long ago given up on the idea of ever getting to see her live. I have seen all of her wonderful movies, I own all (most) of her albums, and a DVD of one of her wonderful concerts. I listen and watch them over and over. I absolutely adore her, and have ever since Du & I went to see her in "Funny Girl," in... Tue, 17 May 2016 14:59:02 EST Are We Misplacing our Weight Loss/Maintenance Recognition It is so easy to praise someone who has dropped a noticeable amount of weight. You can see it, easily, and it is usually very becoming, especially when a weight loss becomes noticeable to a casual observer. I love my before and after picture: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Actually I LOVE all before and after pictures. They are motivational and inspire me in my daily battle. If someone published a book comprised only... Mon, 16 May 2016 14:31:06 EST Fighting Temptation: It Never Gets Easier I'm going to count this weekend as a victory. I had a minor slip or two, but overall, I did well. And better yet, I still feel committed to my journey. If I had let myself go overboard (as I was tempted to do), I would have lost my way and gone off track yet again. So I'm proud of myself. <BR> <BR> We went out of town (200 miles north) to our youngest nephew's high school graduation Saturday morning. I knew it would be a weekend full of temptation, restaurant eating and graduation cake with ... Sun, 15 May 2016 18:49:34 EST Me and Weight Watchers--35 Years Later Back in 1979 and into 1981, I embarked on a weight loss attempt which resulted in a 100-lb. loss. Since I had started at 273 lbs., I never reached my goal weight (This last time was the very first time I ever hit a goal weight!), but towards the end of that attempt, I joined WW as a last ditch attempt to get to goal. I probably was not in a good place, as far as my "mindset" to give WW my full efforts, and once again, never made goal. I had also joined back in 1973, with a friend. At that tim... Wed, 11 May 2016 14:22:49 EST Life is "Practically" Perfect Right Now Late last week, I was outside enjoying all the beautiful flowers Du and I have planted and looking forward to both a birthday party celebration with my youngest grandson for his 2nd birthday, a Mother's Day dinner at my house, and our upcoming Yellowstone vacation, as well as my recent change in mindset and re-found ability to get back on track (thanks to WW this time), when I realized things are practically perfect for me. At least right now. Maybe I appreciate this practically perfect time ... Tue, 10 May 2016 16:13:02 EST Challenges Met! Friday night was our birthday party celebration at a local Italian Buffet for youngest grandson's second birthday. It was such fun, and little Noah was so sweet and cute. After not seeing either Du or I for a month and a half, he ran to both of us and absolutely clung to Du--He loves Du--And the feeling is mutual. I was afraid he would have forgotten us! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.spar... Mon, 9 May 2016 10:16:10 EST Scale Not Cooperating I don't know that I remember during my original 178-lb. loss, being frustrated with the scale as I got around the point I am now. But it goes down and then back up, before I finally see a loss again and it frustrates me. I got down to 179 lbs. two days ago, then I was back up to 181 yesterday and 180 today. I have been logging my food on the WW app religiously, and never ever go over my points for the day. I'm only in my second week but I also have not been using my activity or extra weekly p... Fri, 6 May 2016 10:33:27 EST More Biggest Loser Failure Fall-Out I am actually happy to see all the publicity the Biggest Loser study has been getting. It calls attention to a huge health epidemic in this country--Obesity--and perhaps will lead to all of us getting more help in dealing with a food addiction. Yes, it was discouraging to hear how many people had regained. But didn't we already know that? We know the stats, only 5-10% of people maintain a weight loss. Why should the BL group be any better, in fact they could be worse, because of the manner in... Thu, 5 May 2016 08:57:35 EST Ring Re-Sizing Saga When I got my engagement right almost 46 years ago, I loved it. I also loved the wedding ring we chose, it was designed to look like a flower with small diamonds circling around the engagement solitaire stone. Unfortunately, the flower part of the wedding ring eventually broke off. I put it away, thinking someday I would get it fixed, and somehow lost it. For our 20th anniversary Christmas, Du got me a new wedding band, and of course it needed to be made bigger. Plus my original ring would no... Tue, 3 May 2016 11:24:13 EST Maintenance is TOUGH! Saw a couple articles on Katie's Runs for Cookies Wednesday Weigh In Facebook page about weight loss maintenance. They are encouraging and discouraging all at the same time. <BR> The first one is about a study of former Biggest Loser contestants (most of whom have regained at least part of their weight): <BR><BR>/biggest-loser-weight-loss.html?smid=f<BR>b-nytimes&smtyp=cur&_r=0 <BR> I am glad to see that there is more research going into the very impor... Mon, 2 May 2016 13:32:10 EST I Feel Like A Success Story I know I'm struggling with another regain, and that makes me feel like a failure. But I'm still only 20 lbs. from that original goal weight (160) and 30 pounds from that happy weight where I stayed for close to three years (150). I'm really feeling like I can get back there this time after over a year of failed attempts. WW is keeping me motivated, as is Katie's Runs for Cookies Wednesday Weight In Facebook group and her 8-Week Summer Challenge. It's been a week now, I started cutting way bac... Sun, 1 May 2016 14:18:51 EST I found "The Dress!" Since the first of the year I have been searching for a dress to wear to my son's wedding in October. I am extremely picky, because I have so many figure flaws (bad upper arms, bad legs, fat muffin-top tummy, etc.) that I want to hide as much as possible. I would spend hours looking at mother-of-the-bride dresses on the Internet. (Technically I am mother-of-the-groom, but they don't have dresses called that, mothers of sons always get short-changed, don't we? I just re-thought that and realiz... Thu, 28 Apr 2016 17:51:29 EST I DID IT! I have been talking about doing it for years. Today I DID IT! Last night my son texted me that he had joined Weight Watchers, and here I thought he was backing out, but once I heard he was on board, I went ahead and joined on-line for the next 3 months. I logged my breakfast and was kinda depressed to see that a serving of the cereal I like (admittedly not a particularly healthy one), was 5 points per serving. I might have to find something better to have for breakfast. I hate to use up too m... Tue, 26 Apr 2016 12:13:17 EST Different Kinds of Losses It has been a tough week. I heard of a classmate who died recently. I had lost contact with her after high school, but on Facebook, you can reconnect with some of those people, so I had "friended" her and although she didn't post as often as I do, it was fun to know she was still out there in the world. Then a close friend of hers posted that this high school classmate was in the hospital, not doing well, suffering from congestive heart failure. Yesterday, I heard she had died. It's hard to a... Sun, 24 Apr 2016 14:53:56 EST The Weight Loss Mindset You can call it many different things: Mindset, motivation, inspiration, determination, Mojo.....but it all boils down to having that DESIRE to lose weight and keep it off. That desire has to be more important than just about everything else in your life. It has to be a top priority, and with me at least, almost an obsession. I realize there are more important things, but let's face it, without our health, we don't have much. My Du's health has been taken from him, through no fault of his own... Fri, 22 Apr 2016 14:58:09 EST Interim Goals Are Important! I remember on my initial weight loss, I set several interim goals. Getting down to 160 lbs. was just too overwhelming, when I weighed 328 lbs. Of course, when I first started my weight loss journey, I set no actual weight goal at all, other than trying to regain some health, which I knew I was destroying with my obesity. But as I saw the pounds come off, I decided I wanted to weigh less than 200 lbs. by my 60th birthday, which was on Jan. 1, 2011. I made that goal with a couple months to spar... Fri, 15 Apr 2016 13:48:50 EST Judgmental I was pleased today because when I weighed in for the Runs for Cookies Wed. Weigh In Facebook group, I had not gained. I also did not lose, but after the horrible (eating-wise) week I had....No gain is a real victory. I stayed at 186.4. Still 36 pounds to get to that elusive 150 pounds. I am determined to get there by October 8 (son's wedding day)! <BR> <BR> I started to get in that snacking habit again. I thought I had that permanently under control. I have learned after over six years on t... Wed, 13 Apr 2016 18:31:06 EST Not Giving Up! I know I've written about this before. In the past when I've lost weight (and never actually hit my goal weight), once I got close to where I wanted to be, I just quit. And once the scale started moving the other way, I just gave up and said, "It just doesn't matter how much I weigh now that I'm fat again." But now I have realized that weighing 328 is not the same as weighing 200. BIG DIFFERENCE. So even though the scale topped out (hopefully) last Oct. at 203 lbs., I didn't give up this time... Thu, 31 Mar 2016 11:24:48 EST Physical Therapy HURTS! After my knee replacement surgery four weeks ago today, I immediately started physical therapy (PT). I was determined to do everything I was asked, in order to completely re-hab my knee. And I really, really try. But man, bending my knee hurts worse than anything I've ever experienced. I started going to PT three days a week, but after my follow-up visit with the doctor two weeks after surgery, he said my bending was NOT good enough, and recommended I go to PT five times the following week. T... Thu, 24 Mar 2016 17:59:53 EST It's Been A While I'm still here, plugging away at this 40-50 lbs. I need to lose. Actually, as of this morning, it's only 37.8 pounds and that is a major deal. The scale is moving in the right direction (187.8 lbs.), showing a 16 pound loss from my high of 203 lbs. last October. Horrors! I left ONE-derland and decided at that point, "Enough is enough!" A 16-pound loss isn't very good for five months of trying to lose weight, but it's so much better than if I had GAINED 16 pounds. I've had ups and downs, but n... Mon, 21 Mar 2016 10:57:07 EST Wedding Dress Shopping My son's fiancee Jordan is so very thoughtful. She realizes that I have three sons, and was not involved much in the planning of the older two sons' weddings, so when she planned a trip to go dress shopping, she invited me. I had the best time. We went to a small town about 60 miles south of Lincoln, where a lady has a wedding dress shop that Jordan had read about on Facebook. It was a nice little shop, and supposedly her prices are quite a bit more reasonable. It took some planning on Jordan... Tue, 2 Feb 2016 14:20:56 EST Everybody Is Different I think this is a fact that is too often forgotten. I remember listening to a CD of a Barbra Streisand concert and she talked about how "Marvelous" it is that we're all so different, and about how "wouldn't it be boring if we were all the SAME?" <BR> <BR> Too often we forget this basic fact of humanity when it comes to weight loss. What might work for me or someone else, probably won't work on everybody. So even though I've been successful at losing a large amount of weight, I wouldn't begin... Thu, 28 Jan 2016 15:58:31 EST Cancer Research and a Political Rant Ahead (Warning) In our cancer battle, all we really have is hope. Doctors never mentioned a cure or gave us any reason to hope for one--only treatment to extend life. We hope Du can beat the stats, as we are getting way too close to that average 4.5 year life expectancy after this diagnosis (3 years next month) that we were told about. Of course, we also hold out hope that research will develop new treatments and even maybe a CURE FOR CANCER. That's why when I heard what President Obama had to say last night... Wed, 13 Jan 2016 10:34:00 EST Getting Over Christmas Christmas is still alive at my house, at least in the fact that all my decorations are still up. I am always slow to take it down, and it seems this year, it tears at my heart more than usual, as I wonder where I will be next year when it's time to decorate for the holidays again. Will it still be in the house I love, will Du still be up and about and able to help me, will he still be putting out some of his outside decorations, will he still be here with me????? <BR> <BR> Nobody can tell yo... Tue, 12 Jan 2016 11:28:25 EST 65 On Jan. 1, I turned 65. That's a significant number. I am actually somewhat relieved to reach this age, as it means I can get Medicare. While Du worked, I was on his insurance, but his sick leave runs out this month, and he will have to go on COBRA, (he's only 63) which is a substantially higher premium than Medicare, which with my supplemental and a drug coverage plan is still only around $200/month, plus my total deductible and stop loss is less than $150 for the ENTIRE YEAR. So there is th... Wed, 6 Jan 2016 11:13:10 EST A New Year and a New Start Over Okay, after another falling off track over the holidays, I AM BACK! Youngest son, Chris and I joined another Diet Bet starting 1/4. Diet Bets helped me in 2014, when I lost my 35 lb. regain. This time it's 45 lbs. YIKES! How does this happen? I went through almost all of 2015, gaining weight. But I did lose abut 12 pounds before Thanksgiving, and only managed to regain about 5 lbs. of it back over Christmas, staying below the 200-lb. mark (barely). Of course for my Diet Bet picture and weight... Tue, 5 Jan 2016 11:21:37 EST Still Plugging Away It's been over a month since I blogged. But I didn't give up. NO! I will never give up. After a pretty good month from about the end of Oct. to the end of Nov. I lost 12 lbs. Lately, however, I've been struggling as I try to avoid the Christmas goodies I'm making with the excuse that they are for the grandkids when they're here over the holidays. So as of now, no more goodies! I hope I haven't gained back too many of those 12 pounds, cause they were super hard to drop! <BR> <BR> My review of... Mon, 21 Dec 2015 13:05:50 EST The Nitty Gritty of Morbid Obesity Living 30 years in a morbidly obese (over 300 lb.) body, revealed to me the many inconveniences and actual horrifying reality of succumbing to an addiction. I consider myself as much an addict as anyone who is addicted to drugs or cigarettes. I obsess over food, I crave it, I think about it all the time. And when I shut myself off from having all I desire, the cravings become almost overwhelming. But then I tell myself I am stronger than my appetite. And I AM! <BR> <BR> And I also think abou... Sun, 15 Nov 2015 13:36:47 EST