MAGGIEROSEBOWL's SparkPeople Blog MAGGIEROSEBOWL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Ten Pounds Down When I compare the 10 pounds I've just lost to the 178-lb. loss I originally had, it doesn't seem like much. But I feel really PROUD of myself, because of how I've been struggling! On April 11, the scale said 227.2. OUCH! I lost 9 pounds quickly, before going off track last weekend and putting 8 pounds back on. DOUBLE OUCH! But I got back on track Monday and the scale read 226 lbs. that day Today, I'm down to 217.2, so from the original 227.2, I'm down 10 pounds. That's my story--and I'm stic... Sun, 29 Apr 2018 11:57:07 EST Now To Make It Through The Weekend I can do this! Last weekend, I went off track. This weekend will be even more difficult, as we are headed to Columbus, Nebraska, a town north of here where Duane is bowling in a tournament. They bowl at 1:30 and 7:30, so we will leave home by 11, and won't be home until 11 tonight (it's about two hours away). It will be a long day at the bowling center, and I thought about staying home. I know Juno (Bulldog) would appreciate that, but it will be an even longer day here alone all day, so I thi... Sat, 28 Apr 2018 10:37:23 EST What I Have Learned After Eight Years on this Journey It would be easy to say I haven't learned a darned thing along my way towards hitting my goal weight, then rebounding so many times I've lost track now. But then again I think I've learned quite a bit about myself, about what makes me binge and what helps keep me on track. <BR> <BR> Duane's words the other day "Like YOU an walk!?" continue to stick with me. Sometimes words can help more than the speaker knows. My doctor, back in 2009, told me, "The EKG seems to show you've already had a hea... Thu, 26 Apr 2018 12:47:25 EST Looking Forward to Looser Instead of Perpetually "Tighter" Clothes! I'm starting Day 3 of being back on track after a brief relapse over the weekend. It's amazing how fast I can gain. But then, right now I'm losing that fast too. Two pounds per day for the first two days anyhow. I know it will slow down, but it's fun to see the scale drop rapidly at first. <BR> <BR> After months of my clothes getting tighter and finally breaking down and buying some things in bigger sizes, I am really looking forward to going the other way and having my clothes get looser an... Wed, 25 Apr 2018 11:54:57 EST A Good First Week, and a Bad Weekend! I did okay for that first week back on track, losing 8 pounds, but then I slipped again for the next four days, and this morning I'm only showing a one-pound loss from that April 11 starting day. But then I guess it's better than a gain!? <BR> <BR> When I said in my last blog that I had been on an 18-month binge (From Oct 2016 through now), I totally forgot that 4-month period last summer (between the first of May through the end of August--when I lost my way again) when I lost 35 lbs. I don... Mon, 23 Apr 2018 11:40:41 EST Celebrating "Maintenance" Anniversaries I had a lot of comments on my Spark page congratulating me for my 7-year anniversary of hitting goal. It's hard to imagine feeling any guiltier for NOT maintaining your weight loss, and then nice people say nice things to you about doing so. NO, folks, I am NOT at goal. I haven't been at my real goal since my son's wedding in October of 2016. I say real goal because I like weighing 150 lbs., but when I hit goal on April 15, 2011, that goal was 160 lbs. Right now, I'd settle for that. I'd sett... Tue, 17 Apr 2018 12:24:57 EST Falling and Getting Back up AGAIN I know everyone is sick of hearing about my "starting over" attempts. But here I go again. I know if I keep on at the pace I was on, I would soon weigh 328 pounds again. Sometimes I forget all the humiliation of weighing so much, and then I am reminded: not fitting into chairs, unable to go to volleyball games (seats are too tight, walking so far is too difficult), fear of going to the doctor (the inevitable lectures about weight loss), and so many other things that I hated about being FAT. ... Thu, 15 Mar 2018 14:58:40 EST Once Again, I feel myself slipping I hate that feeling of being out of control. I was jut thinking, "I just have no control over my eating." And then I realized "YES YOU DO!" Only I am in control of my eating decisions and I certainly have the ability to say NO. <BR> <BR> Since it's the first of a new month (March!) I've decided to commit to some changes. NO MORE SNACKING. That is my problem area. I will limit myself to one snack in the afternoon or evening, and a healthy one--coming in at 100 calories or less. It is good to ... Thu, 1 Mar 2018 13:05:02 EST The Scale Finally Moved--Happy Valentine's Day To Me!! It didn't move much, but after two solid weeks of being 211.something, I'll take it. This morning: 210.8. FINALLY! Down from 211 lbs. Now to work on getting back to ONE-derland. Had a wonderful day yesterday. Today might be a challenge. Youngest son, Chris's 32nd birthday is today, and rather than fight the crowds on Valentine's Day, and try to go out to eat at a restaurant, as we have done many times before, he is picking up pizza and barbecued wings and we're all going to celebrate at our h... Wed, 14 Feb 2018 13:02:48 EST Toothache and Scale Frustration After a whole week of eating right, and NO binging, the scale shows that I've GAINED .8 lbs. That's POINT eight, not EIGHT. Somebody misinterpreted my saying I had lost .6 pounds the other day to say SIX pounds. NOPE. On January 31, after ONE week of being back on track I weighed 211.6. That was a 10-lb. loss in ONE week, and I was so thrilled. However, knowing the scale would quit moving that quickly very soon, I decided to only weigh weekly, so as not to be frustrated. However, the one-week... Sat, 10 Feb 2018 11:33:21 EST Weighing Daily--Not All I Had Hoped For--But More Motivating The scale this morning was exactly the same as yesterday: 211.0! There I put it out there. I am well into 200-ville and I am not happy about it. But it's better than the 221 lbs. I weighed on Jan. 24, and for that I am grateful. I was hopeful the scale might show a slight loss. I was super well-behaved yesterday, I improvised a Mexican lasagna for lunch. It was delicious, layers of tortillas, hamburger, cheese, etc. Once again--food tastes so good, because I'm not constantly stuffed. I'm actu... Thu, 8 Feb 2018 13:39:05 EST Back to Daily Weighing I made it one week. But I knew the scale was not going to be kind because I had a couple bad days over the weekend. Or as someone suggested I call it, a couple days when I went off track. I'm not bad or good, I'm always good. At least that's what my commenter said. And like to think I'm a good person, I'm just an addict and that leads to bad behavior from time to time. I caught Duane's cold and unlike most people being sick does not rob me of my appetite. I did sleep a lot. We both had flu s... Wed, 7 Feb 2018 12:02:03 EST Staying Away From The Scale I'm a daily weigher, at least when I'm on track, and not binging like crazy. When I get in one of those binging phases, I avoid the scale like the plague, sometimes for months. And then when I get back on finally, I am horrified and motivated to get back to work. <BR> <BR> Last week I lost 10 lbs. in my first 7 days on track. It was so motivating to see that scale drop pounds every day. So when I weighed in on Wed. 1/31, and saw the scale at 211, representing that 10 lbs. gone, (yes, if you... Fri, 2 Feb 2018 16:07:26 EST Going Cold Turkey A week ago today I started over for the umpteenth time. I basically have gone cold turkey, forgoing snacking other than an occasional piece of fruit. My cupboards are finally empty of the sugary, carby sweet snacks I had been buying so that has helped. I was wondering where that phrase "cold turkey" came from? I know most people use it to refer to stopping a smoking habit.. But I think it also applies here. I would sit in my kitchen reading the newspaper, doing the daily puzzles, and raid my ... Wed, 31 Jan 2018 20:29:18 EST Day 3 I've started over so many times lately. I almost hate to jinx it by posting here, but felt a need to reconnect with Spark to keep me going a little longer than I've been able to stay on track lately. <BR> <BR> I won't lie. I went off the rails in a big way! Started in late August, when I made all sorts of goodies for my daughter-in-law's baby shower which I co-hosted with my other daughter-in-law. And that was after a summer where I lost 25 lbs., starting the day after grandson Noah's 3rd bi... Fri, 26 Jan 2018 14:27:42 EST An Update Several people have been asking me to update. My Spark friends are worried about me, and they should be. Here I sit, with a significant regain (67 lbs. last time I got on the scale), and struggling AGAIN! But every day there is new hope and I will never ever give up. Once I get all of these Christmas treats out of my house, it'll be easier. I was trying to eat my way through all of it, but finally decided it's just time to TOSS it. Because every bite I eat is that much more I will have to RE-... Tue, 9 Jan 2018 12:44:45 EST NOT back to where I was (yet), but also not where I used to be! Duane's dad, Harold, who turned 89 on Monday, is visiting us from Iowa right now. In February, he lost his second wife after a very short illness, so he is alone again (after losing Duane's mother to cancer in 1999), and I have invited him to stay with us whenever he wants for however long he wants. He is in good health, takes no pills, and gets around pretty well. He no longer drives out of the smallish town where he lives in Iowa, so we arrange to get him to our house, to Duane's sister's h... Wed, 20 Sep 2017 14:43:12 EST Okay--Trying Weight Watchers AGAIN! So, my starting over on my own didn't work out so well. Now I'm up to 186.8. That hard work of August is out the window, I regained the 5 lbs. I lost during that month, and I've got to STOP gaining and START losing again. <BR> <BR> Yesterday WW, sent me an e-mail offering that on-line trial membership (which I always use), for only $29.95 for 3 months. So after cancelling my last trial membership on Aug. 28, feeling I no longer needed it, as I had regained my FOCUS, I re-joined. The first t... Mon, 11 Sep 2017 12:34:39 EST A Look In The Mirror and Starting Over AGAIN -- Day ONE!! Yesterday when I woke up, I walked into my bathroom and looked in the mirror. I saw an old woman. A woman, that I felt in that moment, would look old no matter what she weighed. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> At that point, I had a bit of an epiphany. I am healthy now. I have lost over 100 lbs. from my highest, and even though I'm not back at my lowest weight, I feel good. My stats are good: Blood pressure, blo... Thu, 31 Aug 2017 12:56:04 EST Day Ten--Back on Track!! Every day on track is a victory. I'm not perfect--far from it--but dedicated to staying as true as possible to the WW plan and cutting out most of my snacking. My snacks are healthy and limited these days, and I know it needs to stay that way even after (if?) I get back to my happy weight of 150 lbs. The scale is stuck in the low 180's. Very very frustrating. But I know it will move eventually, at least I hope it does! <BR> <BR> Celebrated my daughter-in-law's birthday last night at the Mex... Thu, 24 Aug 2017 13:43:40 EST Day Eight and Nine--Back on Track I guess I've fallen down on my commitment to blog daily for 30 days. The days go by so quickly and before I know it, it's bedtime and I haven't blogged. Oh well. At least I haven't fallen down on staying on track. I keep the snacking down, eat sensible meals, and hopefully the scale will eventually start rewarding me for my good behavior. <BR> <BR> All summer we had been talking about going to a movie. There was one out a while ago with Sam Elliott called "The Hero" that sounded good, but it... Wed, 23 Aug 2017 11:33:21 EST Day Six and Seven--Back on Track Too lazy to write yesterday, there wasn't much to write about, other than the scale dipping down to 180.8. Made the goal of being in the 170's before the baby shower next Sat. almost realistic, but--alas--it's probably not to be. Today the scale was back up to 182.2. At least it's a downward trend. There is absolutely no reason for the uptick, however. Sometimes I really HATE my body and mostly the SCALE! <BR> <BR> Today, however, is a different day. Lots happened and lots to write about!! <... Mon, 21 Aug 2017 20:29:26 EST Day Five--Back on Track I'm still plugging away here. Yesterday for lunch I had a cheese steak at a local Mexican restaurant, without the bread. I didn't eat any of the chips and salsa either, so I will consider that a win! I made homemade pizza for supper, we rarely get pizza anymore from all the great pizza places around here, since Du can't eat the pepperoni, and what's pizza withoutt pepperoni? So I buy the uncured pepperoni (no nitrates/nitrites) from Whole Foods and make it myself. I put on lots of veggies (gr... Sat, 19 Aug 2017 13:32:33 EST Day Four--Back on Track Just heard that BobcatGirl<BR>ournal_individual.asp?blog_id=6400735 <BR> is trying to lose her pregnancy weight gain and committing to blogging daily. She is so cute and I have loved reading about her original weight loss, her subsequent wedding and then her pregnancy and now her adorable little boy Henry. I wish her nothing but success, and will enjoy once again reading her daily blogs. I really think it helps to stay accountable by blogging more of... Fri, 18 Aug 2017 15:07:13 EST Day Three--Back on Track Still hanging in there. No snacking, or only one or two, and just good healthy stuff, nothing like the crackers and cookies I was sneaking. Yesterday I had a bag of Annie's organic fruit snacks (70 calories), and a banana. <BR> <BR> Lunch yesterday was the bacon and tomato sandwich (200 calories) and dinner was two tacos with homemade flour tortillas (delicious--and pretty easy to make--who knew?). I go light on the hamburger in my taco and don't use cheese at all, so they're not too bad. I... Thu, 17 Aug 2017 15:54:26 EST Day Two--Back on Track Maybe if I blog every day I can stay on track. Right now, right here, I am committing to blogging daily for the next 30 days. Last summer, Barb at OneKidsMom (at<BR>NEKIDSMOM) posted a list of blog topics that took me 30 days to complete, and the summer ended with me being back at goal weight, so I'm going to try this again. Speaking of Barb at OneKidsMom, she is such an inspiration, routinely running and even competing in triathlons, in her early 6... Wed, 16 Aug 2017 14:02:58 EST One Day Back on Track! I made it through Monday, and didn't over-eat. GO ME!! I am so proud of myself. After three months of following WW carefully, rarely going over my allotted daily points, and losing 25 pounds, last week was not good. Not good at all!! <BR> <BR> I think it was that wedding reception/brunch that got it started last Saturday (8/5). There was pastries, donuts, rolls and all kinds of good food to eat. I resisted it all! Then Sunday when we went to Chili's to celebrate oldest son's 45th birthday, s... Tue, 15 Aug 2017 14:28:17 EST Family If you've read any of my blogs over the past seven plus years, you know how much I love my family. They are the most important thing in my life, even more important than losing/maintaining weight, and that's pretty important!! <BR> <BR> I'm a collector of pretty things--mainly Willow Tree figurines and Precious Moments. The Willow Tree figurines are lovely, and quite a bit more reasonable than the Precious Moments. But I will admit there's something awfully special about those Precious Mom... Mon, 14 Aug 2017 15:05:24 EST I Slipped....But Back on Track Now I was so proud of resisting temptation all weekend, first the wedding brunch/reception pastries, then the multitude of bowls full of chips and salsa at the Mexican restaurant while celebrating my son's birthday with the family on Sunday. But it must have weakened me. It's like I can only stand so much temptation and then I slip. I hate that about myself. And I KNOW.....that once I is really difficult to get my focus back. So I really try not to slip even a little bit. <BR> <BR> Wit... Thu, 10 Aug 2017 14:49:08 EST Temptation Resisted I am proud of myself this morning. Over the weekend I was faced with some circumstances that required more than my usual restraint. We went to a friend's daughter's wedding Saturday morning, and brunch was served at the reception. When we walked in the door of the reception hall, we were greeted with a table loaded with rolls and donuts. I walked right past and found a place to sit down where everyone around us was eating those sugar and cream-filled delicacies. Even Du did not eat any, he's ... Mon, 7 Aug 2017 12:35:42 EST Heading Down the Homestretch! I am in the last of six weeks of my StepBet. And I'm still alive and in competition to get my money back!!! Even though my goal was only 7,324 for four active days each week, and 9,324 for two stretch days per week, with ONE rest day each week, I have managed to get in at least 10K steps EVERY SINGLE DAY since I began the bet on June 25. And that has not happened easily. I have had to consciously find ways to get more steps in, and I won't lie. Most of them have come from doing laps inside of... Tue, 1 Aug 2017 12:44:23 EST Sir Paul McCartney--Baby I'm Amazed! I mentioned in an earlier blog that my son bought my husband and I tickets to see Paul McCartney in concert as a thank-you for house-sitting when he had a couple repairman coming while he was away at work. WOW! What a nice thing for him to do. He had heard me lamenting that I had not gone to see Sir Paul when he gave a concert here in Lincoln three years ago. After it was over, I heard so many good things about that concert and while I was never a huge Beatles fan, I did appreciate their musi... Mon, 24 Jul 2017 16:14:54 EST I Cheated--At Church!! I had been so dedicated to getting my 10K steps in every single day, going over and above my StepBet goals. So far, I haven't had too much of a problem getting all my steps in, but now I also want to get that 250 steps per hour (between 9-5). I have a 6-day streak of doing that. But this morning as we were getting ready for church, I wondered if I would be able to get in my 250 steps during that 10:00 hour. Church runs from 10-11, and of course we get there early (before 10), and usually get... Sun, 23 Jul 2017 13:37:58 EST NSV's! I had forgotten about those! In my original weight loss journey (back in 2009-11), I had lots of NSV's, and loved them: Things like fitting into an airline seat and not needing a seatbelt extender, being able to walk long distances, going to the doctor without the dread of seeing my weight on the scale, etc. etc. <BR> <BR> Over the long term, I began to take these huge victories for granted. This was my life now, and it was easy to forget my life BWL (before weight loss), which was so very limited by my size. <BR> <BR>... Fri, 21 Jul 2017 11:25:21 EST 20-Day Streak Since I joined the StepBet back on June 26, I've hit 10K steps every day! That's 20 days in a row, beating my old record (set last July-August) of 18 days in a row. It hasn't happened without a lot of conscientious effort on my part. I have made more laps around my house than I care to count, I go shopping at the big stores and get as many steps as I can, we have gone to special events simply to get steps in, and Du supports me "every step of the way." Literally! <BR> <BR> I did a comparison... Sun, 16 Jul 2017 17:20:14 EST WHY Am I Doing This? As I was trudging around my house for about the 1000th lap of the day, (exaggerating....but close!) I wondered, "Why am I doing this?" Why is it so important for me to get 10K steps every single day? Why is it so important that I drop this weight and get back to 150 lbs.? It took some thinking but I realized there was LOTS of reasons: <BR> <BR> Ten Reasons Why I Am Doing This: <BR> <BR> 1. Walking is the mildest form of exercise, but about all that I am capable of. Sometimes even walking s... Tue, 11 Jul 2017 14:23:02 EST Trying to Ride Out This Plateau About the time I decided to "ramp up" my weight-loss efforts and started my 11-day streak of 10K steps/day, I weighed in at 189.2. Now this was a nice loss and I was so excited to be back in the 180's, but ever since then, I have not lost an ounce. In fact the scale went back up into the 190's and considering how I've been eating (really really well!), and all those steps, why is the scale not dropping like a lead balloon? <BR> <BR> <img src=" Sat, 8 Jul 2017 12:27:54 EST Still Streaking! A week ago Monday I joined a StepBet. It has really helped motivate me. My goal was set at less than what I've been getting, plus I get a rest day every week. BUT.....I've decided to try to get 10K steps every single day between now and Aug. 6, when it ends. It'll be interesting to see if my weight responds accordingly. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Once again today I weighed in at 189.2, which has stayed the... Tue, 4 Jul 2017 13:22:55 EST My Ramped UP Efforts Are WORKING!!! Happy News this morning: Scale reads 189.2 lbs.! Hello 180's. On my original loss (and each of my previous two losses of a minor regain), I have looked forward to getting into a new decade on the scale. I've set a new interim goal for myself. We are having a baby shower for my daughter-in-law Jordan on Aug. 26, and I want to be in the 160's by then. That gives me almost two months to lose 20 pounds. I think I can do it! I also want to lose another 2.2 pounds in the next week so that I can hi... Sat, 1 Jul 2017 11:21:00 EST Hit 10K Steps THREE DAYS IN A ROW!!! Since joining the StepBet Monday, I've been really working to get in more steps. And....along with the added a new incentive to eat better. So far it's going quite well, although the scale is not going down much. Tuesday morning I was down to 191.2! WOW! I was thrilled. And then Wed. morning back up to 193. This morning 192.6, so I guess it's a downward trend, and if I didn't weight every single day I wouldn't notice the fluctuations as much. Hey--At least I'm no longer at 196,... Thu, 29 Jun 2017 12:15:09 EST Ramping Up My Efforts After being back on the wagon for seven weeks, and having some success, but not as much as I'd like, I decided to join a StepBet Sunday. Over the weekend, I ate too much, and was not happy with myself. I got some steps in hitting my 6,000 goal both days, but you and I both know, you can't exercise away a bad diet, and I wouldn't exactly call 6,000 steps/day a LOT of exercise. <BR> <BR> The StepBet set my goals for me--based on my past Fitbet recorded steps. It set 7,321 for me for four days ... Tue, 27 Jun 2017 11:01:19 EST Relay for Life Saturday we participated in the American Cancer Society's Relay for Life. It seemed like participation was down this year compared to last year, but we enjoy the camaraderie and the fact that there are so many survivors every year--that is encouraging for everyone! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Duane and I got down there pretty early, before the opening ceremony at 6 pm, but the rest of the family soon showed ... Mon, 26 Jun 2017 12:07:07 EST Apple Butter! When we stopped at Kimmel Orchard in Nebraska City Monday, after taking grandson to his summer camp, I picked up some juice-sweetened apple butter. Apple butter might be one of my favorite things in the world, and I had selected a regular jar (sweetened with sugar) of apple butter before finding this one! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> And it only has 15 calories per tablespoon! <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople... Fri, 23 Jun 2017 13:52:56 EST Summer Camp Monday afternoon Du and I drove our oldest grandson, Duncan (11) to Nebraska City (about 50 miles south of Lincoln) for a week-long Summer Camp. This is a camp sponsored by the Nebraska Center for the Education of Children Who are Blind or Visually Impaired (NCECBVI) <BR> <BR> Duncan has albinism, which also affects sight in addition to the melanin which is missing in his (very white) hair. He is legally blind, but functions quite well, he simply holds things very clo... Thu, 22 Jun 2017 12:14:53 EST Father's Day Celebration We hosted the family for a barbecue yesterday. Great food, great family, great fun! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Oldest son Mark with his wife and three gorgeous kids. It was also their 12th wedding anniversary yesterday! Happy Anniversary to my wonderful kids! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> The family at the dinner table. Middle son Brad... Mon, 19 Jun 2017 14:56:57 EST This and That on a Saturday Morning It's been a busy week, starring with the horrible news from my beautiful sister-in-law last Monday. She has pancreatic cancer, what a shock. We are still in disbelief, and have been texting her several tines a day asking how the various appointments are going and tell her, she is in my thoughts constantly. She has also had a busy week, she had a port put in her chest (for chemo), had a Pet scan, talked to the doctor afterwards, and is now definitely in better spirits. Her doctor was very pos... Sat, 17 Jun 2017 17:09:43 EST Cancer Really Really Sucks! Yesterday I got a text from Du's sister, Karen. Karen is the one I wrote about in my blog a couple days ago. She is two years younger than Du (62), was born without hip sockets and walks with a decided limp, but is a wonderful, kind person and I have always loved her. Since I had no sisters, I considered her more like a sister than a sister-in-law and we have been very close through the years. We are only three years apart in age, knew each other in high school, and she basically raised my ol... Tue, 13 Jun 2017 21:10:01 EST More on Addictions In my new People magazine is an article by the first wife/significant other (?) and daughter of Lamar Odom, ex-professional basketball player, who famously battles an addiction to drugs. He almost died from a drug overdose a couple years ago and of course estranged wife Khloe Kardashian rushed to his side. I'm guessing for her, it was all about the publicity. Lamar was fighting for his life, suffered multiple strokes and two heart attacks. He did survive, and I'm not sure where his recovery i... Mon, 12 Jun 2017 12:17:56 EST Baby Gender Reveal Party Life has changed since I had my babies. Not only do couples find out ahead of time the sex of the baby they are expecting, but they hold Gender Reveal parties, with ingenious ways to reveal the sex, not only to the party-goers, but to themselves. YES, it is a secret to everyone but the technician who does the ultrasound. She put the results in a sealed envelope last week, and handed it to my son and his wife (Chris & Jordan), who had ordered a "kit" from Amazon--two softballs--one with pink d... Sun, 11 Jun 2017 10:32:36 EST Just Peachy I am really picky about peaches. I LOVE a good peach, but do not like peaches that are bruised, too soft, mushy or TOO hard. I bought three peaches at the grocery store and since fruit is UNLIMITED on WW, I am eating my first one right now. It is delicious. I did cut off a couple soft spots, but it is so full of peach taste and juicy. I LOVE peaches!! <BR> <BR> That blog title describes my life right now. Since Du's altered and much more positive diagnosis from the cancer specialist in April... Wed, 7 Jun 2017 19:28:57 EST