MAGA99's SparkPeople Blog MAGA99's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community 32 of 90 Today is our last day here. I thought that I would feel at least a little sad; but no not at all. I'm just looking forward to another chapter. Still got to finish packing up the little odds and ends; just in so much pain that its hard to do anything right now. <BR> This move has really taken alot more of me then I thought; but by the grace of God it's almost over. <BR> <BR> This is a short one today its getting harder and harder type with the pain <BR> <BR> Good day and God Bless Fri, 31 Jul 2015 07:39:39 EST 31 of 90 Went and did the walk thru of the new place; took Lala to see it <BR> <BR> She is nervous about moving where she doesn't know anyone; told her she didnt know anyone when we moved here <BR> <BR> Got help scheduled for 9am on Saturday; God willing it will b a really quick move <BR> <BR> I'm so excited about moving and starting to refocus myself <BR> <BR> God Bless and good night Thu, 30 Jul 2015 20:46:00 EST 30 of 90 Well I did 30 of 90 and this means that I made it 1/3 of the way thru my blog goal <BR> Hubby signed the lease today; will pick up the keys on Friday <BR> I'm so so so looking forward to the next chapter <BR> There is only odds and ends left to pack; this is the annoying part <BR> <BR> Thats it for this blog I'm tired so heading to bed early tonight Wed, 29 Jul 2015 22:21:33 EST 29 of 90 This is our last Tuesday here; thanks be to God <BR> Tomorrow hubby will go tomorrow take the rest of the deposit sign the lease and get the keys <BR> As it is now thru the grace of God we are moving Saturday morning; with the help from several members of my ward <BR> my Lala has mixed feelings about moving but at 10 she will adjust quickly <BR> hubby is so looking forward to it as its at least half of the bike ride he takes now <BR> I'm looking forward to leaving negativity energy behind fro... Tue, 28 Jul 2015 20:46:12 EST 28 of 90 Took the day off today <BR> did some light packing this morning then went to a friends for a PLL season 6 marathon <BR> Lala played with my friends 2 boys in the pool; didnt hear a peep out of them for over 2 hrs fed them then right back outside for them <BR> <BR> tomorrow I will b back to finishing up the packing; I could have been done by now but been in alot of pain so that means lots of breaks <BR> <BR> good night and God Bless <BR> Mon, 27 Jul 2015 21:57:22 EST 27 of 90 TODAY IS THE DAY THAT THE LORD HAS GIVEN LET US REJOICE AND BE GLAD IN IT <BR> <BR> Titus 2 - Teach godliness to men and women <BR> <BR> Romans 12:16 – Live in harmony with one another <BR> <BR> Galatians 6:2 – Bear one another’s burdens <BR> <BR> Colossians 3:13 – Bear with each other and forgive one another <BR> <BR> Hebrews 10:24 – Stir up one another to love and good deeds <BR> <BR> James 5:9 – Don’t bear grudges against one another <BR> <BR> 1 Peter 4:9 – Offer hos... Sun, 26 Jul 2015 19:32:10 EST 26 of 90 Using my 5 senses for dealing with my anxiety; from least effect to most for me <BR> <BR> 1. TASTE – popping a butterscotch candy in my mouth; something about that flavor <BR> 2. SMELL - using a favorite perfume or deodorant that has a calming type smell <BR> 3. HEAR - it's easier for me to go places when I can listen to my scriptures or music <BR> 4. SEE - for me when I feel an attack coming on in a store – I need to see the person that I'm w <BR> 5. TOUCH – this is what works best f... Sat, 25 Jul 2015 21:49:36 EST 25 of 90 Packing packing packing <BR> this is my life these days but its getting done <BR> by doing the packing this week <BR> I will rest next week <BR> then we move <BR> then I will have a week of packing <BR> <BR> may everyone have a Blessed day Fri, 24 Jul 2015 11:05:19 EST 24 of 90 Wednesday <BR> <BR> Feeling motivated; I'm walking everyday. Its a really short distance but I'm leaving the house and walking. I havent weighed myself yet though. <BR> Got to see the new place yesterday; I'm loving it. The trailer I live in now is more like a long apt but the trailer we are moving into is more like a trailer that I'm use to seeing. I'm good with it; the bedrooms are much smaller then here but that means I've got to keep things organized. Hubby is taking the small room which... Thu, 23 Jul 2015 09:01:13 EST 23 of 90 Tuesday <BR> <BR> The living room is completely packed, now to finish the kitchen <BR> Don't know what but I have bites on my legs and one arm from cleaning out a storage area. <BR> Still have to go out down the security deposit to secure the place but feeling good about it <BR> <BR> <BR> My mouth is really been bothering me lately but it's the gum where there is no teeth, really now <BR> <BR> I finally let my Lala get extensions in her hair, she is so funny. She walks around whipping her... Wed, 22 Jul 2015 07:23:31 EST 22 of 90 Yesterday was a pretty day. <BR> I started walking outside again instead of around the house <BR> Got alot of packing done. was Blessed to have people give me boxes and papers. <BR> We got a call that as long as my hubby puts the partial deposit down before anyone is trys to get the place its ours. he is go Wednesday morning. <BR> <BR> I'm finding myself much more focused on my goals of getting more active <BR> <BR> Have a Blessed day <BR> Tue, 21 Jul 2015 09:08:44 EST 21 of 90 this is for yesterday Sunday <BR> <BR> spent the day Praising God and resting <BR> <BR> even though I'm sleeping better thanks to the c-pap the last couple days I'm just exhausted <BR> I think maybe I started to do too many things at one time <BR> <BR> my friend has been here in NC for 12 yrs and she says its the hottest summer that she has dealt with here I know for my breathing it is just horrible <BR> Mon, 20 Jul 2015 19:10:11 EST 20 0f 90 saturday <BR> <BR> didnt do much I'm just exhausted and in so much pain <BR> <BR> Hubby asked why do I take the time to write these everyday. I explained to him, even if I only write one line I'm building a habit. Also for some reason when I know that I'm gonna blog it helps me to focus and be accountable <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>252</em> <em>521</em> <em>306</em> <em>381</em> Sun, 19 Jul 2015 14:22:16 EST 19 of 90 Friday <BR> <BR> I started to really exercise again <em>357</em> <BR> <BR> I'm also noticing that i'm not munching as much as I use to <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> I'm pretty good with my water but trying to do @ least 10 glasses a day <em>274</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> Well time to get back to my sorting / organizing / packing <BR> we're still not sure where we are moving to but we know we're gonna have to move <BR> Prayerfully on Monday we will here about the place that my hubby put an ap... Sat, 18 Jul 2015 20:16:31 EST 18 of 90 Thursday Yesterday <em>248</em> instead of measuring food I'm just monitoring my intake <BR> <BR> Still waiting for my social security appeal <BR> It's official I hate packing; told my hubby that since he only planning to stay for about a yr in the new place (which we still dont know where) I'm not unpacking everything. My allergies and asthma are going crazy right now. Good thing is that I'm getting rid of alot of stuff so that makes my hubby very happy Fri, 17 Jul 2015 13:58:59 EST 17 of 90 <em>521</em> <BR> <BR> spent the day sorting and organizing and to pack <BR> <BR> still working on the food Wed, 15 Jul 2015 23:49:57 EST 16 of 90 sparking daily -- slowly getting more involved <BR> exercising -- mostly packing and cleaning <BR> blogging -- <em>244</em> <BR> measuring food -- gonna focus on caloric intake <BR> <BR> <BR> I'm finding myself to be doing more just for being back to sparking - the accountability is what motivates me. If I continue to stay sparking I'll lose the weight like I did the first time that I was on sparkpeople. But I', not focusing losing the weight I'm focusing on getting active again ... Tue, 14 Jul 2015 21:54:22 EST 15 of 90 sparking daily -- <em>248</em> <BR> exercising -- <em>248</em> <BR> blogging -- <em>248</em> <BR> measuring food -- <em>303</em> I really to figure this one out <BR> <BR> <BR> I spent half of the day in bed and the rest of the day packing. All the important stuff is packed up; my craft supplies. Seriously packing is annoying especially as we still dont know where we are moving to. I've got to just continue to trust God. Tomorrow will b sorting clothes to get rid of stuff. <B... Mon, 13 Jul 2015 21:52:24 EST 14 of 90 Sunday I got out of bed and even went to church <BR> <BR> I'm so glad that I did it was truly a Blessing <BR> <BR> I was watching Christian movies after church and I heard this really neat phrase that I'm gonna try to hold tight to: <BR> YOU ARE WHAT YOU LIMIT YOURSELF TO BE <BR> <BR> it really got me thinking about my health; my weight issues; my marriage; my family and even my friendships <BR> <BR> my health - how much better could my health b if I followed all of my dr advice <BR> my weight ... Sun, 12 Jul 2015 22:57:54 EST 13 of 90 Saturday I spent the entire day in bed <BR> my food for the day was 4 jalapeno peppers <BR> <BR> depression won that one Sun, 12 Jul 2015 22:47:58 EST 12 of 90 Thurs 7/9/15 <BR> <BR> pretty much just spent the day in bed Fri, 10 Jul 2015 00:12:19 EST 11 of 90 wed 7/7/15 <BR> <BR> sparking daily -- exercising --blogging -- measuring food <BR> <BR> minimal everything <BR> feeling drained and stressed Thu, 9 Jul 2015 23:51:07 EST 10 of 90 Tuesday 7/7/15 <BR> <BR> Over a year a go I stopped speaking to a friend it stated gradually; I even deleted her from facebook ( I periodically just delete ppl) Well she had sent me a friend request awhile back and I did except it. I noticed that she did like alot of stuff I posted; so I decided to send her an im telling her that I would like an opportunely to apologize and explain last year. She accepted and we had lunch on Monday. It felt really great to actually talk it out and to realize... Wed, 8 Jul 2015 11:13:29 EST 9 of 90 Monday 7/6/15 <BR> <BR> yesterday was not a good day but I'm not giving up I'm gonna keep refocusing on getting myself back on track to being healthy <BR> <BR> dealing with alot of stress lately but I'm not gonna let it take over again Tue, 7 Jul 2015 22:51:11 EST 8 of 90 Sunday 7/5/15 <BR> <BR> It was a great day I went to church and can home feeling like a ton of weights has been lifted off of my shoulders. Made me realize that if I can stay in a Christ centered life it makes me easier to focus. I can keep my mind right and fight the depression and doubts better. <BR> <BR> I need to work better on my food log I am watching what I eat better and for the most part keeping to one serving size but getting into the food log is a totally different story. But I... Mon, 6 Jul 2015 08:37:04 EST 7 of 90 Sat 7/4/15 <BR> <BR> walked to my brothers for a bbq took about 10/15 minutes. I'm kind of proud of myself for cause my nephew offered to drive up to get me <BR> <BR> Didnt really eat much food (but no I didnt track) <BR> <BR> <BR> I've realized that since I started usin my cpap I am actually sleeping better. It is really awesome that unless i move the wrong way in my sleep I actually sleep for at least 5 hrs straight <BR> <BR> Sun, 5 Jul 2015 22:37:22 EST 6 of 90 Friday 7/3/15 <BR> <BR> sparking daily -- <em>248</em> <BR> exercising -- <em>248</em> <BR> blogging -- <em>248</em> <BR> measuring food <em>230</em> <BR> <BR> I walked again today that makes 2 days in row its been along time since I've been able to do that. Yes my back and legs are yelling at me but a hot soak pain patches and muscle relaxers I should b good. <BR> <BR> God Bless Y'all <BR> Sat, 4 Jul 2015 21:37:54 EST 5 of 90 Thursday; day 5 <BR> <BR> <em>248</em> Fri, 3 Jul 2015 22:19:31 EST 4 of 90 day 4 <BR> <BR> sparking daily -- getting more involved <BR> exercising -- actually walked to the mailbox and back <BR> blogging -- <em>248</em> <BR> measuring food <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> had another mri of my cervical spine down this evening to see how much its changed in 2 years can we say major panic attack <BR> <BR> feeling lonely is not about alone <BR> <BR> Wed, 1 Jul 2015 23:42:44 EST 3 of 90 today is day 3 <BR> <BR> my bronchitis is getting worse instead of better so no exercise today <BR> but I've done some strength training <BR> I did a little sparking <BR> I'm blogging now <BR> and I'm trying to get on the food thing (harder to get back to then I thought it would) <BR> <BR> last night while I was tracking my food <BR> my darling husband had the nerve to ask me if I was gonna keep to it <BR> this hurt so much cause I've lot weight before on sparks <BR> the only time I faile... Mon, 29 Jun 2015 17:30:41 EST 2 of 90 today is day 2 <BR> since its Sunday so no exercise <BR> but this being said <BR> I did spark <BR> I'm blogging <BR> and I'm working on the food thing <BR> <BR> now to keep it going <BR> Sun, 28 Jun 2015 20:52:00 EST 3 mths (1 of 90) I'm finally fully recovered from my surgery in February. <BR> I'm also at my highest weight EVER. <BR> So I've decided that I'm gonna do 3 mth challenges. <BR> My first challenge is to get into a routine. <BR> I've decided to give myself 3 mths, cause I've a few things to get into a routine of. <BR> sparking daily -- exercising --blogging -- measuring food <BR> I figure I focus one 1 thing at a time, if the other things fall in place at the same time awesome but if not its okay cause ... Sat, 27 Jun 2015 18:34:09 EST Why am I still here I seen another blog entitled this and it got me thinking <BR> <BR> Why am I still here or in my case Why did I come back? <BR> <BR> 1. I need the support that I get here on sparks <BR> 2. the friendships <BR> 3. recipes <BR> 4. Accountability <BR> 5. it works <BR> 6. information Thu, 19 Mar 2015 19:07:40 EST Learning I've come to the realization that learning never stops. <BR> As I'm rereading the Bible its as if I'm reading it for the first time and learning <BR> The more test I have done the more I learn about my defencies and why it takes so long for me to heal <BR> The more I deal with ppl the more I learn why I love my solitude <BR> Learning can never stop for when we stop learning then there is nothing left to live Mon, 16 Mar 2015 21:06:53 EST Migraine I've been suffering from lots of migraines lately <BR> <BR> I know it stems from issues with my cervical spine <BR> <BR> lots of sleepness nights Sat, 14 Mar 2015 22:55:02 EST Feeling Run Down been feeling little run down these past few days <BR> but working on my strengthening program <BR> <BR> eating is still an issue as I find myself binge eating <BR> my depression seems to trigger the binging <BR> <BR> everyday is a new day and thanks to my trials and tribulations <BR> i know that I am truly Blessed Thu, 12 Mar 2015 21:52:26 EST Not Cancerous Praise b God. I can not thank him or praise him enough. <BR> <BR> 3 1/2 weeks ago, I had surgery. I had a cyst removed from my left ovary. <BR> I was suppose to have 4 button holes but instead had 3 button holes and a 2 1/2 inch incision. I've been really stressing about this. Today I went and seen the dr who did the surgery. I was informed that although the cyst was the size of an orange; it was NOT cancerous. I am breathing such a sigh of relief. <BR> <BR> All I can do is keep thanki... Tue, 10 Mar 2015 18:28:43 EST Bicycle ride Tonight was the first time I've ridden my bike since sometime last year. <BR> I know it was at least over 6 mths ago. <BR> Its a little hard getting on the bike, <BR> I had to lay it on the ground, <BR> hold onto the railing and step over the bike. <BR> Then I used my cane to pull the bike up. <BR> But once I started riding that bike <BR> It was like I never stopped. <BR> <BR> I'm sore as sin now <BR> and I know that tomorrow <BR> my legs will b yelling at me <BR> but this is so worth i... Sun, 8 Mar 2015 22:41:40 EST 5 things that I love about myself 5 things I love about myself <BR> <BR> 1. I have a testimony of my Lord and savior <BR> 2. my family is a priority in my life <BR> 3. my compassion and empathy for others <BR> 4. adapts easy <BR> 5. willing to try new things <BR> Fri, 6 Mar 2015 23:53:44 EST Up & Down still going thru my old writings <BR> this describes not just my moods but my weight <BR> although I do feel that this is my usual mood <BR> its also my weight story <BR> <BR> UP & DOWN 7/3/13 <BR> up and down - - - upside down  <BR> balloons float away  <BR> worms dig deeper deeper  <BR> up and down - - - upside down  <BR> the sun is bright  <BR> then the darkness overcomes  <BR> up and down - - - upside down  Thu, 5 Mar 2015 22:42:16 EST Trying To I wrote this last year but it does describe how I feel alot of the time <BR> <BR> TRYING TO <BR> <BR> Runaway <BR> but what am I running from <BR> <BR> Stress <BR> it is the life I do not want <BR> <BR> Escape <BR> yet I am my own prisoner <BR> <BR> Stress <BR> I can not control it <BR> <BR> Runaway <BR> if only it really was that easy <BR> <BR> Escape <BR> my mind holds tight to things <BR> <BR> Stress <BR> over thinking is what I am doing <BR> <BR> Escape <BR> but can you ever fro... Wed, 4 Mar 2015 23:02:19 EST Gluten Sensitive A little over a year I found out that I was gluten sensitive. For A while I was doing great. Then I'm not sure even what happened, at first there were the occasional slip ups then I was back to my bad stomach. Now I've put back on the weight that I lost when I first went gluten free. So prayerfully as I reeducate myself I will start losing the weight again. <BR> <em>532</em> <BR> May I be able to find some peace w with my eating habits Tue, 3 Mar 2015 19:12:50 EST I think I can I think I can <BR> I think I can <BR> I think I can <BR> I think I can <BR> <BR> I know I can Mon, 2 Mar 2015 22:56:24 EST where to start decided where to start <BR> I still drink my 8 cups of water a day <BR> not ready to start tracking food yet <BR> so I'm gonna start with walking everyday; yes it will b with y walker but at least Ill be doing something Sun, 1 Mar 2015 22:06:47 EST not easy I didn't think that it would be so hard to restart. Just cant seem to get into a routine. I'm recovering from surgery ( 2 wks ago I had a cyst removed from my ovary ) There has been a few complications but I'm slowly healing. <BR> <BR> So wish me luck Sat, 28 Feb 2015 22:07:10 EST I'm Back I've decided to give sparkpeople another try. <BR> <BR> <BR> I took a break last May didn't expect it to last so long but that's life. <BR> <BR> <BR> My newest granddaughter Serina; my little taco <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Mon, 16 Feb 2015 19:57:26 EST Spark Break I've decided that tomorrow is gonna b my last day on sparks for a while. I'm going to try to come on Spark every Saturday to update my exercise and maybe write a quick blog. <BR> <BR> I'm just having a really hard time of things lately and just feel a disconnect form everybody and everything. <BR> <BR> I appreciate each and everyone of you. I feel very Blessed with the ppl that I've had the pleasure to communicate with on here Fri, 23 May 2014 20:14:38 EST What Have I Done About 3 wks ago my daughter informed me that she is getting married on May 23rd. I know she was planning something for August. My 1st question was are you pregnant (her youngest will b 1 in June); she said no. They just decided to move it up to his birthday since they are just going to the Magistrate. <BR> <BR> When will I learn to just keep my mouth shut. I am now throwing her a bbq reception that evening. I dont have any extra money so what was I thinking. Hubby did finally start working... Tue, 13 May 2014 21:21:59 EST Apex Temple <img src=""> <BR> Yesterday I went to the Temple in Apex, NC. It was a long trip with my back hurting so bad. But I refused to miss the trip. I wasnt able to participate in the baptism or confirmation for the dead. But I was able to watch and feel the spirit. I am so looking forward to being able to do the work for my mother and my grandmothers. <BR> Sun, 11 May 2014 18:05:45 EST May Goals I never got around to setting goals for May so I'm just try to continue what I've been doing <BR> <BR> - to just try to stay focused and on track. <BR> not to good lately <BR> <BR> - work on my garden <BR> <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> - work on a few projects around the house. <BR> <em>248</em> <BR> - go to @ least 1 class a wk @ the gym <BR> or see the trainer <BR> <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> - walk every evening (or morning) <BR> <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> - track my food <B... Sat, 10 May 2014 22:09:03 EST