MAGA99's SparkPeople Blog MAGA99's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community 51 of 90 I'm so backed up with Sparkpeople and emails. <BR> Both my internet and laptop has been acting up. <BR> <BR> They seem to both now be fixed; so I'm back to sparking <BR> <BR> It's late so . . . <BR> good night and God-Bless Tue, 1 Sep 2015 23:37:15 EST 50 of 90 Having trouble getting my pics from my phone to my laptop <BR> so the pics will have to be on another blog <BR> <BR> still not unpacked all the way <BR> its just hard when I'm in pain all the time <BR> <BR> Lala started school; she is now a 5th grader <BR> <BR> trying to exercise a little more <BR> it's just trying to find ways not too b in so much pain <BR> <BR> God Bless Wed, 26 Aug 2015 21:04:53 EST 49 of 90 Really tired but I'm already a blog behind; so just a quick one. <BR> <BR> My son and his family were down from Jersey for the weekend; it was great. My dil and I even did crafts Saturday night while the guys went to the store with my sons daughter Skyann and our Lala. We made color glass. i will post pic tomorrow of the grands and our craft <BR> <BR> good night and God Bless <BR> Sun, 23 Aug 2015 22:54:31 EST 48 of 90 My internet has been acting up for the last few days but so far today we good <BR> <BR> I've been so truly Blessed: <BR> I finally got approved for my disability <BR> I get to see my son and his family after 3 years <BR> Hubby may b getting a promotion at work <BR> Hubby is beginning to realize the God is the answer <BR> I've lost 6 pounds <BR> this are just a few <BR> <BR> I can not Praise God enough <BR> <BR> good night and God Bless Fri, 21 Aug 2015 22:28:18 EST 47 of 90 Still not able to excise much so my main focus has been on changing m eating habits. It's not easy to eat right when you have to cook all your food in the microwave and your on a really really tight food budget. This being said though I've lost 6 lbs since my last weigh in. <BR> <BR> I now want to try to push my exercise a little more as I'm seeing progress it helps me to b motivated <BR> <BR> My 2 yr old grand is staying with me for a cpl days. Saturday for the first time ever ALL 5 of gra... Wed, 19 Aug 2015 23:22:37 EST 46 of 90 I wrote out my blog went to post it and my internet went out <BR> I'm too tired to type up another one so this is it for today <BR> <BR> good night and God Bless Tue, 18 Aug 2015 23:21:53 EST 45 of 90 HALF WAY POINT <BR> YEAAAAAAAAAH <BR> Well I'm half way thru my 90 blogs <BR> <BR> Now its time to start a regular exercise program for me. I found some chair exercises on youtube that I'm gonna try. Figure I'll start with 2 days a week and grow from there. Don't wanna do to much and back rail myself again. <BR> <BR> I have a really bad habit of overdoing things when I have a good day. I plan to set 2 days for exercising and do it regardless I've how I'm feeling. Tuesdays and Thursdays ar... Mon, 17 Aug 2015 21:59:17 EST 44 of 90 I wrote this a little over 2 yrs ago <BR> <BR> UP & DOWN 7/3/13 <BR> up and down - - - upside down  <BR> balloons float away  <BR> worms dig deeper deeper  <BR> up and down - - - upside down  <BR> the sun is bright  <BR> then the darkness overcomes  <BR> up and down - - - upside down  Sun, 16 Aug 2015 23:48:49 EST 43 of 90 I'm exhausted, in pain and I have kankles for ankles. but I feel great about the accomplishments that God helped me thru today. <BR> <BR> Walked as a family just over a mile and a half <BR> School shopping is done <BR> Weekly food shopping done ahead of schedule <BR> The homework area and the craft area in the kitchen are set up <BR> Actually hung up curtains in the living room <BR> Got caught up with laundry <BR> <BR> Hubby was such a Blessing with helping get everything done. It bothers ... Sat, 15 Aug 2015 23:52:57 EST 42 of 90 well the energy didnt last but I'm thinking our eating habits and my non-vitamins may have alot to do with my energy levels this cooking in a microwave is not healthy eating <BR> <BR> <BR> I read a blog earlier and my response really has me thinking of the changes that I need to make <BR> <BR> when I first joined spark I was able to lose weight I actually lost over 75 pounds which i have now gained back plus some <BR> <BR> but I've come to realize some of my issues: <BR> - on the days ... Fri, 14 Aug 2015 12:53:14 EST 41 of 90 Feeling a little more energized today <BR> <BR> prayerfully this is just the first of many days to come <BR> <BR> not much to say so everyone be blessed <BR> Thu, 13 Aug 2015 20:37:32 EST 40 of 90 pretty much slept thru another day <BR> I'm just always tired <BR> my meds are starting to get really low; praying the insurance gets fixed soon <BR> <BR> planning to try to see the meteor shower tonight; my Lala is driving me crazy about it but its cloudy here so we'll see what happens <BR> <BR> counting down till Lala goes back to school 12 days and a wake up <BR> <BR> this cooking in a microwave is driving me nuts; I want some baked chicken and roasted veggies <BR> <BR> I restarted my ... Wed, 12 Aug 2015 22:06:12 EST 39 of 90 I do believe that I have AADD <BR> Adult Attention Deficient Disorder <BR> <BR> I seriously can not stay focused this started a little over 4 yrs ago (shortly after my back surgery) and its getting worse <BR> I find it so hard to stay focused or to stay on track with anything that I'm working on or should I say trying to work on <BR> I lose track of my thoughts and I need to b doing more then one thing at a time <BR> <BR> well just some rambling <BR> <BR> I'm waiting for my niece and her ... Mon, 10 Aug 2015 22:50:01 EST 38 of 90 sometimes I'm not sure why I even keep writing these blogs <BR> but I did make a commitment to myself to write 90 blogs and I'm doing it <BR> <BR> we've been in our new home 1 week today <BR> I love this place it's cozy although negative ppl prefer to call it small <BR> <BR> still working on unpacking its not easy trying to figure out where to put things <BR> <BR> good night and God Bless <BR> Sat, 8 Aug 2015 22:53:47 EST 37 of 90 Battling depression is not an easy thing <BR> sometimes it just comes on for no reason <BR> this time its kind of weird <BR> it's not that I'm depressed well at least not the way I'm use to <BR> I'm just drained and feeling empty <BR> don't wanna do anything <BR> I've so much to do but no energy to do anything <BR> trying so hard to keep a positive outlook <BR> but . . . <BR> <BR> good night and God Bless Fri, 7 Aug 2015 22:23:33 EST 36 of 90 another nothing day <BR> spent most of the day resting <BR> in alot of pain and feeling drained <BR> <BR> good night and God Bless Thu, 6 Aug 2015 21:32:52 EST 35 of 90 gonna have to take a break from unpacking it just hurts sooo much <BR> <BR> Prayerfully my insurance issues are fixed soon <BR> <BR> we will be microwaving food for at least a mth as this trailer has a gas stove and the tank is not only empty but not even hooked up and we didnt figure this into our finances for this mth <BR> <BR> another short blog as it hurts to type these days <BR> <BR> good day and God Bless Wed, 5 Aug 2015 10:02:29 EST 34 of 90 Not much to say this evening <BR> In alot of pain; so not doing much of anything <BR> This move has taken alot out of me mentally and physically <BR> Spiritually I'm in a truly Blessed place <BR> <BR> good night and God Bless Mon, 3 Aug 2015 22:06:15 EST 33 of 90 we moved yesterday so I'm a day behind on my blogging <BR> <BR> I was Blessed to have several members of my church show up to help <BR> <BR> it only took them a little over an hr to move everything from one place to the other <BR> <BR> gonna rest today then onto the unpacking Sun, 2 Aug 2015 18:10:41 EST 32 of 90 Today is our last day here. I thought that I would feel at least a little sad; but no not at all. I'm just looking forward to another chapter. Still got to finish packing up the little odds and ends; just in so much pain that its hard to do anything right now. <BR> This move has really taken alot more of me then I thought; but by the grace of God it's almost over. <BR> <BR> This is a short one today its getting harder and harder type with the pain <BR> <BR> Good day and God Bless Fri, 31 Jul 2015 07:39:39 EST 31 of 90 Went and did the walk thru of the new place; took Lala to see it <BR> <BR> She is nervous about moving where she doesn't know anyone; told her she didnt know anyone when we moved here <BR> <BR> Got help scheduled for 9am on Saturday; God willing it will b a really quick move <BR> <BR> I'm so excited about moving and starting to refocus myself <BR> <BR> God Bless and good night Thu, 30 Jul 2015 20:46:00 EST 30 of 90 Well I did 30 of 90 and this means that I made it 1/3 of the way thru my blog goal <BR> Hubby signed the lease today; will pick up the keys on Friday <BR> I'm so so so looking forward to the next chapter <BR> There is only odds and ends left to pack; this is the annoying part <BR> <BR> Thats it for this blog I'm tired so heading to bed early tonight Wed, 29 Jul 2015 22:21:33 EST 29 of 90 This is our last Tuesday here; thanks be to God <BR> Tomorrow hubby will go tomorrow take the rest of the deposit sign the lease and get the keys <BR> As it is now thru the grace of God we are moving Saturday morning; with the help from several members of my ward <BR> my Lala has mixed feelings about moving but at 10 she will adjust quickly <BR> hubby is so looking forward to it as its at least half of the bike ride he takes now <BR> I'm looking forward to leaving negativity energy behind fro... Tue, 28 Jul 2015 20:46:12 EST 28 of 90 Took the day off today <BR> did some light packing this morning then went to a friends for a PLL season 6 marathon <BR> Lala played with my friends 2 boys in the pool; didnt hear a peep out of them for over 2 hrs fed them then right back outside for them <BR> <BR> tomorrow I will b back to finishing up the packing; I could have been done by now but been in alot of pain so that means lots of breaks <BR> <BR> good night and God Bless <BR> Mon, 27 Jul 2015 21:57:22 EST 27 of 90 TODAY IS THE DAY THAT THE LORD HAS GIVEN LET US REJOICE AND BE GLAD IN IT <BR> <BR> Titus 2 - Teach godliness to men and women <BR> <BR> Romans 12:16 – Live in harmony with one another <BR> <BR> Galatians 6:2 – Bear one another’s burdens <BR> <BR> Colossians 3:13 – Bear with each other and forgive one another <BR> <BR> Hebrews 10:24 – Stir up one another to love and good deeds <BR> <BR> James 5:9 – Don’t bear grudges against one another <BR> <BR> 1 Peter 4:9 – Offer hos... Sun, 26 Jul 2015 19:32:10 EST 26 of 90 Using my 5 senses for dealing with my anxiety; from least effect to most for me <BR> <BR> 1. TASTE – popping a butterscotch candy in my mouth; something about that flavor <BR> 2. SMELL - using a favorite perfume or deodorant that has a calming type smell <BR> 3. HEAR - it's easier for me to go places when I can listen to my scriptures or music <BR> 4. SEE - for me when I feel an attack coming on in a store – I need to see the person that I'm w <BR> 5. TOUCH – this is what works best f... Sat, 25 Jul 2015 21:49:36 EST 25 of 90 Packing packing packing <BR> this is my life these days but its getting done <BR> by doing the packing this week <BR> I will rest next week <BR> then we move <BR> then I will have a week of packing <BR> <BR> may everyone have a Blessed day Fri, 24 Jul 2015 11:05:19 EST 24 of 90 Wednesday <BR> <BR> Feeling motivated; I'm walking everyday. Its a really short distance but I'm leaving the house and walking. I havent weighed myself yet though. <BR> Got to see the new place yesterday; I'm loving it. The trailer I live in now is more like a long apt but the trailer we are moving into is more like a trailer that I'm use to seeing. I'm good with it; the bedrooms are much smaller then here but that means I've got to keep things organized. Hubby is taking the small room which... Thu, 23 Jul 2015 09:01:13 EST 23 of 90 Tuesday <BR> <BR> The living room is completely packed, now to finish the kitchen <BR> Don't know what but I have bites on my legs and one arm from cleaning out a storage area. <BR> Still have to go out down the security deposit to secure the place but feeling good about it <BR> <BR> <BR> My mouth is really been bothering me lately but it's the gum where there is no teeth, really now <BR> <BR> I finally let my Lala get extensions in her hair, she is so funny. She walks around whipping her... Wed, 22 Jul 2015 07:23:31 EST 22 of 90 Yesterday was a pretty day. <BR> I started walking outside again instead of around the house <BR> Got alot of packing done. was Blessed to have people give me boxes and papers. <BR> We got a call that as long as my hubby puts the partial deposit down before anyone is trys to get the place its ours. he is go Wednesday morning. <BR> <BR> I'm finding myself much more focused on my goals of getting more active <BR> <BR> Have a Blessed day <BR> Tue, 21 Jul 2015 09:08:44 EST 21 of 90 this is for yesterday Sunday <BR> <BR> spent the day Praising God and resting <BR> <BR> even though I'm sleeping better thanks to the c-pap the last couple days I'm just exhausted <BR> I think maybe I started to do too many things at one time <BR> <BR> my friend has been here in NC for 12 yrs and she says its the hottest summer that she has dealt with here I know for my breathing it is just horrible <BR> Mon, 20 Jul 2015 19:10:11 EST 20 0f 90 saturday <BR> <BR> didnt do much I'm just exhausted and in so much pain <BR> <BR> Hubby asked why do I take the time to write these everyday. I explained to him, even if I only write one line I'm building a habit. Also for some reason when I know that I'm gonna blog it helps me to focus and be accountable <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>252</em> <em>521</em> <em>306</em> <em>381</em> Sun, 19 Jul 2015 14:22:16 EST 19 of 90 Friday <BR> <BR> I started to really exercise again <em>357</em> <BR> <BR> I'm also noticing that i'm not munching as much as I use to <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> I'm pretty good with my water but trying to do @ least 10 glasses a day <em>274</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> Well time to get back to my sorting / organizing / packing <BR> we're still not sure where we are moving to but we know we're gonna have to move <BR> Prayerfully on Monday we will here about the place that my hubby put an ap... Sat, 18 Jul 2015 20:16:31 EST 18 of 90 Thursday Yesterday <em>248</em> instead of measuring food I'm just monitoring my intake <BR> <BR> Still waiting for my social security appeal <BR> It's official I hate packing; told my hubby that since he only planning to stay for about a yr in the new place (which we still dont know where) I'm not unpacking everything. My allergies and asthma are going crazy right now. Good thing is that I'm getting rid of alot of stuff so that makes my hubby very happy Fri, 17 Jul 2015 13:58:59 EST 17 of 90 <em>521</em> <BR> <BR> spent the day sorting and organizing and to pack <BR> <BR> still working on the food Wed, 15 Jul 2015 23:49:57 EST 16 of 90 sparking daily -- slowly getting more involved <BR> exercising -- mostly packing and cleaning <BR> blogging -- <em>244</em> <BR> measuring food -- gonna focus on caloric intake <BR> <BR> <BR> I'm finding myself to be doing more just for being back to sparking - the accountability is what motivates me. If I continue to stay sparking I'll lose the weight like I did the first time that I was on sparkpeople. But I', not focusing losing the weight I'm focusing on getting active again ... Tue, 14 Jul 2015 21:54:22 EST 15 of 90 sparking daily -- <em>248</em> <BR> exercising -- <em>248</em> <BR> blogging -- <em>248</em> <BR> measuring food -- <em>303</em> I really to figure this one out <BR> <BR> <BR> I spent half of the day in bed and the rest of the day packing. All the important stuff is packed up; my craft supplies. Seriously packing is annoying especially as we still dont know where we are moving to. I've got to just continue to trust God. Tomorrow will b sorting clothes to get rid of stuff. <B... Mon, 13 Jul 2015 21:52:24 EST 14 of 90 Sunday I got out of bed and even went to church <BR> <BR> I'm so glad that I did it was truly a Blessing <BR> <BR> I was watching Christian movies after church and I heard this really neat phrase that I'm gonna try to hold tight to: <BR> YOU ARE WHAT YOU LIMIT YOURSELF TO BE <BR> <BR> it really got me thinking about my health; my weight issues; my marriage; my family and even my friendships <BR> <BR> my health - how much better could my health b if I followed all of my dr advice <BR> my weight ... Sun, 12 Jul 2015 22:57:54 EST 13 of 90 Saturday I spent the entire day in bed <BR> my food for the day was 4 jalapeno peppers <BR> <BR> depression won that one Sun, 12 Jul 2015 22:47:58 EST 12 of 90 Thurs 7/9/15 <BR> <BR> pretty much just spent the day in bed Fri, 10 Jul 2015 00:12:19 EST 11 of 90 wed 7/7/15 <BR> <BR> sparking daily -- exercising --blogging -- measuring food <BR> <BR> minimal everything <BR> feeling drained and stressed Thu, 9 Jul 2015 23:51:07 EST 10 of 90 Tuesday 7/7/15 <BR> <BR> Over a year a go I stopped speaking to a friend it stated gradually; I even deleted her from facebook ( I periodically just delete ppl) Well she had sent me a friend request awhile back and I did except it. I noticed that she did like alot of stuff I posted; so I decided to send her an im telling her that I would like an opportunely to apologize and explain last year. She accepted and we had lunch on Monday. It felt really great to actually talk it out and to realize... Wed, 8 Jul 2015 11:13:29 EST 9 of 90 Monday 7/6/15 <BR> <BR> yesterday was not a good day but I'm not giving up I'm gonna keep refocusing on getting myself back on track to being healthy <BR> <BR> dealing with alot of stress lately but I'm not gonna let it take over again Tue, 7 Jul 2015 22:51:11 EST 8 of 90 Sunday 7/5/15 <BR> <BR> It was a great day I went to church and can home feeling like a ton of weights has been lifted off of my shoulders. Made me realize that if I can stay in a Christ centered life it makes me easier to focus. I can keep my mind right and fight the depression and doubts better. <BR> <BR> I need to work better on my food log I am watching what I eat better and for the most part keeping to one serving size but getting into the food log is a totally different story. But I... Mon, 6 Jul 2015 08:37:04 EST 7 of 90 Sat 7/4/15 <BR> <BR> walked to my brothers for a bbq took about 10/15 minutes. I'm kind of proud of myself for cause my nephew offered to drive up to get me <BR> <BR> Didnt really eat much food (but no I didnt track) <BR> <BR> <BR> I've realized that since I started usin my cpap I am actually sleeping better. It is really awesome that unless i move the wrong way in my sleep I actually sleep for at least 5 hrs straight <BR> <BR> Sun, 5 Jul 2015 22:37:22 EST 6 of 90 Friday 7/3/15 <BR> <BR> sparking daily -- <em>248</em> <BR> exercising -- <em>248</em> <BR> blogging -- <em>248</em> <BR> measuring food <em>230</em> <BR> <BR> I walked again today that makes 2 days in row its been along time since I've been able to do that. Yes my back and legs are yelling at me but a hot soak pain patches and muscle relaxers I should b good. <BR> <BR> God Bless Y'all <BR> Sat, 4 Jul 2015 21:37:54 EST 5 of 90 Thursday; day 5 <BR> <BR> <em>248</em> Fri, 3 Jul 2015 22:19:31 EST 4 of 90 day 4 <BR> <BR> sparking daily -- getting more involved <BR> exercising -- actually walked to the mailbox and back <BR> blogging -- <em>248</em> <BR> measuring food <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> had another mri of my cervical spine down this evening to see how much its changed in 2 years can we say major panic attack <BR> <BR> feeling lonely is not about alone <BR> <BR> Wed, 1 Jul 2015 23:42:44 EST 3 of 90 today is day 3 <BR> <BR> my bronchitis is getting worse instead of better so no exercise today <BR> but I've done some strength training <BR> I did a little sparking <BR> I'm blogging now <BR> and I'm trying to get on the food thing (harder to get back to then I thought it would) <BR> <BR> last night while I was tracking my food <BR> my darling husband had the nerve to ask me if I was gonna keep to it <BR> this hurt so much cause I've lot weight before on sparks <BR> the only time I faile... Mon, 29 Jun 2015 17:30:41 EST 2 of 90 today is day 2 <BR> since its Sunday so no exercise <BR> but this being said <BR> I did spark <BR> I'm blogging <BR> and I'm working on the food thing <BR> <BR> now to keep it going <BR> Sun, 28 Jun 2015 20:52:00 EST