MACHOL's SparkPeople Blog MACHOL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I feel like I'm in slow motion There is so much I want to do, but my motivation is gone. <BR> <BR> How do I get my motivation back? Where did I leave my motivation? Is it under the bed, or in a stack of papers that I need to go through? <BR> <BR> Where do I find motivation? In a story? In a song? In a movie? In the mailbox? <BR> <BR> I know I'm injecting humor into this blog. It's the hope that if I laugh, I will find my motivation again. <BR> <BR> I hope that you will laugh with me and we both find our motivati... Tue, 11 Feb 2014 16:20:39 EST Unemployed, then employed, again Well, for about 12 days, I was unemployed. <BR> <BR> Now, I'm employed again. <BR> <BR> G-d is good, so I praise Him. <BR> <BR> Now to find something to do until Jan. 6th... Fri, 13 Dec 2013 16:53:31 EST Thank you so much I just wanted to say thanks to everyone who remembered my birthday. Thanks for the well wishes and the Spark goodies! <BR> <BR> It's nice to belong to a community where we have a common goal and can build one another up. <BR> <BR> Hugs to you all!! <em>247</em> Fri, 15 Nov 2013 14:03:34 EST Thank you for the kind words To those of you who sent me condolences regarding Fingers, thank you. <BR> <BR> If you would look at my Sparkpage, you will see a picture of Fingers resting on some pine cones. <BR> <BR> We still miss him. Even Nibbles, our other cat (he's on my Sparkpage, too) misses him. He keeps looking for him. It's so sad. <BR> <BR> I promise that I will talk about something else on my next blog. <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> Sat, 28 Sep 2013 20:32:19 EST Tribute to Fingers. No, I'm not talking about the digits on our hands. <BR> <BR> I'm talking about one of my cats. <BR> <BR> He was fuzzy, and he was furry, and he had a fluffy tail, a little fox-face, and a main like a lion. <BR> <BR> He was so good natured. He was part main coon and was a gentle giant. Because he was part main coon, he had extra digits on his paws (hence the name, Fingers). <BR> <BR> He had gotten sick with tumors and couldn't be operated on for various reasons. Fingers fell asleep toda... Sun, 15 Sep 2013 22:08:47 EST Let's do it again... I did 30 minutes on the eliptical trainer last night before a dinner of baked fish (yum). <BR> <BR> It felt so good and I slept so well last night. <BR> <BR> I want to do it again! <BR> <BR> Maybe add some weight training this time? <BR> <BR> Or should I go slowly? <BR> <BR> <em>38</em> Thu, 22 Aug 2013 09:01:18 EST Tonight, I begin... After getting out of the hospital a week ago, it's time for me to go to the gym. <BR> <BR> It's good that I'm going to the gym because today was not really a good day. <BR> <BR> Well, it started good, then it got stressful. <BR> <BR> I think stress is one of my triggers. <BR> <BR> Yes, it's good for me to go to the gym today. <BR> <BR> Thank you all for your words of encouragement. It really does mean a lot to me. <BR> <BR> <em>304</em> <em>247</em> Wed, 21 Aug 2013 19:16:08 EST Still struggling a bit, but overcoming Still trying to get use to this. <BR> <BR> Diagnoses that are hard to digest, medications that I don't want... <BR> <BR> Maybe, if I get healthy, I can say good-bye to some of these meds? <BR> <BR> Maybe? <em>38</em> Tue, 20 Aug 2013 19:11:02 EST Now, I have to start over again! Just got out of the hospital Thursday with new diagnoses and new medications. <BR> <BR> I don't want to be like this the rest of my life, so, taking care of myself is no longer an option. <BR> <BR> Drinking lots of water now. Tracking my food. Getting some kind of exercise everyday, even if it's a 30 minute stroll (ok, for me, a stroll is 2 miles an hour, but who's counting). <BR> <BR> There are some who say, "I'm going to get healthy if it kills me!" <BR> <BR> I'm here to tell you that... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 00:45:25 EST Why am I here? I'm suppose to be on level, not in a group home...level III in my health and fitness progress. <BR> <BR> I want to get healthy so bad, yet, here I am. <BR> <BR> If I were my own counselor, I would do Motivational Interviewing to discover why I'm still stuck in first geer. <BR> <BR> Any thoughts?... <em>38</em> Sun, 4 Aug 2013 23:35:54 EST Looks like I may be working soon! For the past month, I have been interviewing, trying to take care of myself, and getting reconnected with G-d. <BR> <BR> Now, it looks as if I will be working somewhere starting March 18th. <BR> <BR> My prayer is that I will choose the place where G-d can use me most. <BR> <BR> Also, I pray that I won't put my relationship with G-d or myself back on the back burner again. <BR> <BR> If you have been praying for me, thanks! <em>247</em> Thu, 7 Mar 2013 12:19:54 EST So far, so good I had made a personal goal at the beginning of the week. Since it's been a while since I'd exercised (due to illness), I decided that I would commit to exercising 3 times this week. <BR> <BR> Well, I did 10 minutes of walking on Sunday, 25 minutes on the elliptical trainer Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday, and stretched for 5 minutes on Wednesday. <BR> <BR> Today, I may go dancing! <BR> <BR> Feeling good... Thu, 28 Feb 2013 14:25:56 EST I cry out to You! This morning, while I was listening to my cantor's music on Reverbnation, there was something at the bottom marked "rabbit hole". Naturally, my curious nature wanted to see how far down it went. <BR> <BR> It took me here: <BR> <BR> If you decide to see for yourself what is there, after you get to the site, click on "Baruch Ha Shem". This song reached to the depths of my soul and now it won't let go of me. <BR> <BR> Today, I cry out to G-d to know ... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 11:05:38 EST Starting over again Well, I thought my next place was in Statesville. <BR> <BR> Then, the agency closed down suddenly. <BR> <BR> Now, I have to start all over again. <BR> <BR> There was so much stress in the job that just closed down that I completely ignored myself. <BR> <BR> Now, I get to start over again. <BR> <BR> Of course I have a cold now, but as soon as it's over... <BR> <BR> I GET TO START OVER AGAIN!!! Thu, 7 Feb 2013 22:16:01 EST Well... Here I am again, still in recovery. <BR> <BR> I'm back at work again, trying to get back to seeing my clients again. <BR> <BR> Still not exercising, still not dancing... <BR> <BR> Still coughing, still wheezing... <BR> <BR> So tired of this! Tue, 18 Dec 2012 14:17:50 EST I want to get better! Four days after I turned 50, I came down with pneumonia. <BR> <BR> One week after I finished with my antibiotic, I came down with bronchitis with pleurisy. <BR> <BR> Now, I'm home trying to recover, again. <BR> <BR> Ok now, enough is enough! <BR> <BR> When will I get to work out again? When will I dance again? <BR> <BR> I want to get better! Tue, 4 Dec 2012 22:42:19 EST It was hard! I did my self care plan. <BR> <BR> I was ok until I got to the spiritual part. <BR> <BR> Then I started to cry... <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> This is the very core of what's going on with me. <BR> <BR> If I don't get this part right, I will lose the most important part of me. <BR> <BR> So, what does it profit me if I gain the whole world, and yet, lose my soul... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 23:28:54 EST Another beginning I don't know if I mentioned this before, but... <BR> <BR> My LPC supervisor wants me to write a self-care plan. <BR> <BR> So, included in this plan will be food, rest(sleep), exercise, mental health, diabetic care, and spiritual health. <BR> <BR> Can anyone think of anything else? <BR> <BR> If you had to write a self-care plan, what would you include? <BR> <BR> Of course, Sparkpeople will be a big part of my self-care plan. <BR> <BR> Hugs to you all! <em>247</em> Sun, 25 Nov 2012 11:28:47 EST Trying to get back on track My birthday was great, then... <BR> <BR> I contracted walking pneumonia. <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> It's difficult when you have just enough energy to do small things, except walk more than a few steps. I want to work out, but I'm not strong enough to do it yet. <BR> <BR> I'm still weak and on an antibiotic. <BR> <BR> I need patience. <BR> <BR> Hugs to you all! <em>247</em> Sat, 24 Nov 2012 23:14:56 EST A few days before... Well, in a few days, I will be 50. <BR> <BR> The job has been interesting. I'm being stretched in so many ways that I have never been before in any other job. It's great. It's scary! <BR> <BR> I'm afraid that self care has taken a back seat once again. <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> I can say all day what I need to do, doing it is another thing... <BR> <BR> I did spend 25 minutes (and 1.5 miles) on the elliptical trainer the other day. <BR> <BR> Keep me in your thoughts and prayers. I su... Thu, 8 Nov 2012 07:57:24 EST Seasons of change It's been a season of change for me as the leaves change. <BR> <BR> I have a new job. It's challenging, but I love it. <BR> <BR> After living in the same area for a very long time, I'm looking for another place to live in a new area. <BR> <BR> I'm about to turn 50 in a few weeks. I'm in better shape mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually than I was in my 20's. <BR> <BR> A dear friend of mine answered a text of mine "R U OK?" With "G-d inspired! Molding and shaping! Could ... Sat, 20 Oct 2012 09:51:27 EST A new job Hi everyone, it's been a while... <BR> <BR> I have a new job in another city and another county, which means I will be moving soon. <BR> <BR> My biggest challenge is to be sure that I eat. I'm back to forgetting to eat again which, with type II, has had some nasty consequences. <BR> <BR> I'm thinking about bringing my lunch and sticking it in the fridge, which is healthier and less expensive than going out. Plus I can work through my lunch without a sugar crash. <BR> <BR> What do you th... Sat, 13 Oct 2012 19:44:55 EST What's my next step Tonight, I checked my blood sugar after 2 hours. <BR> <BR> It was 132, which I found out was normal. <BR> <BR> Normal. <BR> <BR> I've always had low blood sugar, now I'm finding out what normal is. <BR> <BR> I need to get back into the gym, or I'll never get my diabetes under control. <BR> <BR> I guess that's my next step. <BR> <BR> This is so new and so overwhelming. <BR> <BR> Hugs to you all. <em>247</em> Sat, 11 Aug 2012 22:34:22 EST It's getting better I went to the podiatrist yesterday. The sore was a blocked sweat duct. He said that my feet look healthy. <BR> <BR> I'm ready to walk, run, and dance again. <BR> <BR> I just need to get through this week with some minor health issues that are making me very tired. <BR> <BR> Thanks for everyone's encouragement with my new diagnosis. <BR> <BR> Hugs to you all! <em>247</em> Wed, 8 Aug 2012 23:40:26 EST It's Official My pancreas has gone to the dark side. <BR> <BR> Seriously, I am no longer hypoglycemic. I am now a type II diabetic. <BR> <BR> What does that mean for me and my weight loss journey? Honestly, at this time, I have no clue. <BR> <BR> I've watched through the years see what diabetes has done to my in-laws and friends. I also know that I don't want to go there. <BR> <BR> There is so much out there regarding diabetes that it makes my head want to explode! <BR> <BR> For right now, I take m... Fri, 3 Aug 2012 17:32:03 EST I'm back and what's next Just got back from a wonderful women's retreat in the mountains of NC. <BR> <BR> I needed this... <BR> <BR> I'm rested, I'm refreshed, and... <BR> <BR> I'm running a 5k on Friday. <BR> <BR> BTW, if you're interested about the retreat, go to <BR> Sun, 6 May 2012 23:03:04 EST I finally did it! It will happen on May 11th. <BR> <BR> It will happen at 7pm. <BR> <BR> It will happen in Uptown Charlotte. <BR> <BR> It is the Right Moves for Youth 5k. <BR> <BR> Paid my money, signed my name, no backing out now. <BR> <BR> Here I go... Tue, 24 Apr 2012 22:23:14 EST Making progress, and then... It was a great Passover with lots of matzah and dancing. Remind me, and I'll post a video (if I'm able). <BR> <BR> I finally hit two miles twice on the elliptical in 35 minutes (yay!) <BR> <BR> I'm on week six of my running for rookies. <BR> <BR> I think I've found a 5k I want to run in (no, haven't signed up yet, I have to kill the chicken in me first) <BR> <BR> And poisoning, again... <BR> <BR> You would think that a veggie burger wouldn't make me sick. I just forget that... Thu, 19 Apr 2012 21:03:41 EST The Holidays If you are celebrating this Sunday, then Happy Easter. <BR> <BR> If you started celebrating today, then Happy Passover. <BR> <BR> If you look at life as a celebration, then Happy You! <BR> <BR> Have a great weekend everyone! <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> Fri, 6 Apr 2012 23:33:12 EST You've got to read this!<BR>012/04/01/what-eating-too-much-sugar-d<BR>oes-to-your-brain/ Mon, 2 Apr 2012 17:40:14 EST Trying different ways of running Last night, my husband and I went walking at the local park. Since there was a school track nearby, I suggested that we walk over there. After one lap, I decided to run. <BR> <BR> Even though I thought my lungs were going to jump out of my chest in the last few yards, I actually made a whole lap. That was .25 mile of running! Like with the captain's chair comment in my last blog, this was a first for me. <BR> <BR> My husband said that he was proud of me. <BR> <BR> I'm a runner! <em>30<... Sun, 1 Apr 2012 11:57:06 EST From frustration to victory Yesterday, I did an ab workout that I haven't done in a very long time. <BR> <BR> Let's just say that I don't like ab workouts, especially the captain's chair because I never can do it... <BR> <BR> ...that is, until yesterday. <BR> <BR> Ok, so I didn't do 3 sets of 12, but I did do 3 sets of 4 and that, to me, is a great accomplishment. <BR> <BR> Just think what I can do when the soreness wears off! <em>211</em> Tue, 27 Mar 2012 23:36:38 EST Frustration! Ok, I'm almost done with my third week of 5k for rookies. I've noticed that my stomach is getting smaller and my clothes feel looser and... <BR> <BR> ...the scale is going up? <BR> <BR> In the words of Charlie Brown, "AAAAGGGGHHHH!!!" <BR> <BR> My husband thinks it's muscle, because he says that he sees the muscle definition in my legs now. <BR> <BR> Anyone go through this and want to give me some help here? Thu, 22 Mar 2012 12:06:04 EST Might change my name I finished week two of my running program today. <BR> <BR> I also decided to run in the afternoon today instead of the evening. <BR> <BR> My body loudly protested, "don't you EVER do this to us again!" <BR> <BR> I may change my name from Machol to Nightrunner. <BR> <BR> Nah, bet someone already has this name... <BR> <BR> Besides, Machol is one of the Hebrew words for dance, and I am a dancer. <BR> <BR> Hugs to you all and good night! <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> Thu, 15 Mar 2012 00:25:47 EST Can I just ramble? Did great last week with my food tracking and exercised at least a little bit everyday. <BR> <BR> I've learned that I need to exercise or I'm going to kill somebody...well, not really, but it's great for stress relief. <BR> <BR> I don't like being sick; it throws off my whole schedule. <BR> <BR> I can do this. <BR> <BR> Thanks for listening to me ramble. <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> Mon, 12 Mar 2012 00:02:28 EST Little steps I can remember when I rejoiced at walking a mile in 30 minutes. <BR> <BR> Tonight, I did 1.56 miles in 30 minutes. <BR> <BR> Of course, I ran some (10 minutes). <BR> <BR> Does that make me a runner? <BR> <BR> Little steps do mean a lot. <BR> <BR> Shabbat Shalom! <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> Fri, 9 Mar 2012 23:35:53 EST Week one (finally) done! I finally did week one of the rookie 5k! <BR> <BR> Now on to week two! <BR> <BR> Slowly, but surely, I'll get to my 5k! <BR> <BR> Now, could someone tell me how I lost 15 lbs in one week? <BR> <BR> Same day, same time, same scale...maybe because I was sick for one day? <BR> <BR> Any takers on this mystery? <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> Tue, 6 Mar 2012 23:41:53 EST How I did (week one) I was on schedule... <BR> ...then I got sick... <BR> Back on schedule tomorrow (if I'm feeling better). <BR> <BR> Next step, new shoes just for running. <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> Sun, 4 Mar 2012 17:54:13 EST I think I found my running plan It's Sparkpeople's 8 week rookie running program. Starts slow, ends with a 5k. <BR> <BR> Yes, I still want to run a 5k before I turn 50. <BR> <BR> Will you wish me much success? I promise to keep you updated on my progress. <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> Sun, 26 Feb 2012 13:53:17 EST How did I do? You may ask... <BR> <BR> ...well... <BR> <BR> ...not 100%, but close. <BR> <BR> So.... <BR> <BR> I do the happy dance anyway! <BR> <BR> Tomorrow, I go for 100% again! Sat, 25 Feb 2012 20:09:00 EST I have decided Many people have asked me, "when you reach your goal, how will you celebrate?". <BR> <BR> I love to dance. <BR> <BR> I will be doing a happy dance!!! <BR> <BR> Now, does anyone want to join me in this happy dance? <BR> <BR> "Let's Dance" <em>335</em> Mon, 20 Feb 2012 20:02:41 EST Cognitive Behavior Therapy I took a class yesterday. <BR> <BR> I found to set a successful goal, you need to start with one goal that you can commit 100% to, then look for a way to succeed and plan for those obstacles that can keep you from your goal. Lastly, celebrate at the end of the week for reaching your goal. <BR> <BR> My goal this week is to be in bed by midnight. I am 100% committed to this. I will have my bed ready by midnight, and, I know that I start playing video games before I go to bed. I will stop ... Sun, 19 Feb 2012 21:13:48 EST I will not give up! I had a good start to a couple of goals from my sparkteams last week. <BR> <BR> This week, my two jobs took over. <BR> If I don't get back to the gym soon, this counselor will be needing services! <BR> <BR> I have fallen down, but I will get back up! <BR> <BR> I refuse to quit! <BR> I refuse to give up! <BR> <BR> I WILL NOT GIVE UP! Thu, 16 Feb 2012 18:46:06 EST Update since the new year... Hi everyone, <BR> <BR> Well, it's past all the holidays and the first month of 2012 is almost over. <BR> <BR> I'm down to two jobs after not being able to work three (not to mention that I was sick the entire month of December). <BR> <BR> I'm teaching dance again. <BR> <BR> Someone from my congregation told me that I looked like I had lost weight. <BR> <BR> It's been a good year so far. <BR> <BR> Maybe I won't wait 2 months to give another update. <BR> <BR> Hugs to you all! <em>247</... Sun, 29 Jan 2012 17:24:30 EST I need you!!! I've taken a third (yes, third) job. <BR> <BR> While I need this job to maintain my license, I don't want to be so busy that I don't: <BR> <BR> 1. Track my food <BR> 2. Track my exercise <BR> 3. Forget that I need my Sparkbuddies <BR> <BR> I need you! <BR> <BR> Keep encouraging me to keep going as I encourage you to keep going, to keep tracking, to keep stepping, to keep sparking! <BR> <BR> Hugs to you all! <em>247</em> Sun, 4 Dec 2011 16:34:06 EST It was a nice birthday. Thanks for the wishes! It's been a busy week, but I wanted to thank all of my spark buddies for the nice birthday wishes. <BR> <BR> I also wanted to thank all of my spark buddies who keep me encouraged to keep trying, to keep moving, to keep sparking! <BR> <BR> I love you all! <em>247</em> <BR> <BR> ...and to those I haven't met yet, well... <BR> <BR> Hugs to you, too! <em>247</em> Thu, 17 Nov 2011 23:27:34 EST It's been a rough week (and a sad day) This week, I reached three weeks without fast food. <BR> <BR> Unfortunately, due to my rough work schedule this week (a lot of late nights), that's where it stopped. <BR> <BR> I've sort of spiraled down from there. Instead of picking up where I left off, I've continued. I know that there are healthy choices at fast food places. Frankly, I've been too depressed and tired to make healthy choices, so I guess I get what I deserve. <BR> <BR> Today, after coming back from work, a cat darted o... Fri, 11 Nov 2011 20:13:33 EST Still the celebrating goes on... We decided to take the entire weekend to celebrate our anniversary. <BR> <BR> Today, he made me a very healthy lunch. Afterward, I showed him how healthy that lunch was on Spark tracker. <BR> <BR> He was impressed! <BR> <BR> There was a time where he didn't like Sparkpeople and actually blocked the site. Now, not only is he supportive, but I think he might actually join. <BR> <BR> Yay! Sun, 6 Nov 2011 15:14:33 EST YIKES!!!! Speaking of yesterday about my food choices... <BR> <BR> Today, that cinnabon cinnamon roll looked so good, so I got it, and I ate it. <BR> <BR> Then, I tracked it. 720 calories in one cinnamon roll! <BR> <BR> I need to see if my Spark food tracker in my smartphone can tell me how many calories is in something before I eat it. <BR> <BR> Going way over on my calories today...YIKES! <BR> <BR> Good news though, today, I've been married for 16 years! <BR> <BR> Might have a fruit cup rather... Fri, 4 Nov 2011 17:50:47 EST Two weeks and counting Well, it's been two weeks without fast food. <BR> <BR> My husband and I did 25 minutes of cardio yesterday. <BR> <BR> I tracked 13000 steps in 6 hours (here's where I shamelessly plug the Sparkteam that I'm leading "Stepping for Health"). <BR> <BR> I'm being careful and really tracking my food and I'm discovering that some of my snack choices, not matter how "healthy", are REALLY high in calories. <BR> <BR> Now, if I could only get over my sleepiness in the afternoon... Thu, 3 Nov 2011 20:28:37 EST