MACEWOMAN's SparkPeople Blog MACEWOMAN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger! A little more than a year ago, I decided I'd had enough and it was time to take control of my life. My weight had skyrocketed and my energy and fitness had plummeted. I'd gained at least 50 pounds in one year and was gasping for breath climbing the stairs to my bedroom. Definitely time to make some serious changes. <BR> I started looking online for a way to track my food, exercises and hopefully, weight lost. So many sites do this, but some charge and others weren't quite what I wanted or... Fri, 23 Sep 2011 13:53:13 EST Aunt update My aunt came through the surgery yesterday with flying colors. The doctor was very pleased with the results and said she was doing great. The doctor said it was cancer but she thinks that they got it all. Since there wasn't time with her being under for so long to remove the lymph nodes as well, she will have to have some radiation, but the doctor was very optimistic about all of it. <BR> <BR> I got to see her for a while last night and while she's pale and has a sore throat from the brea... Fri, 15 Apr 2011 10:23:46 EST A little help here, please. My aunt is going into the hospital today for surgery tomorrow. She is like so many of us in my family and is seriously overweight with the accompanying bad health to make matters worse. She's gotten progressively less mobile and therefore gotten more fragile/feeble. The doctors say the cancer is well contained and if she makes it through the surgery she should be cancer-free. But she is in such bad health that the fear is that there will be complications during and right after the surgery... Wed, 13 Apr 2011 10:28:08 EST Went blonde and no one noticed?!? I think all of the changes I've made in the last few months have blown out the circuits in my coworkers' abilities to notice anything new. I've been wanting to dye my hair, so last night I finally got the stuff and stayed up late doing it. Hmmm, not one person has mentioned it today. Not even a "what have you done to your hair!" comment. <BR> I do believe the guys have reached saturation point. They've been so good about commenting and supporting my efforts to lose weight. They've grabbe... Mon, 21 Feb 2011 13:33:53 EST Why am I doing this? In preparation for the start of the 2011 Winter-1 5% Challenge, we were given an assignment: <BR> <BR> "Today's assignment is to list all the reasons you want to lose weight. What do you want to change? How do you want to look? How do you want to feel? What things will you be able to do in the future with a slimmer healthier body? And list all the OTHER things that you want to change!" <BR> <BR> On the surface this looks so simple. Of course, there are the "right" reasons. You know the on... Thu, 17 Feb 2011 15:40:10 EST Attitude shift I've been watching the scale, checking myself out in the mirror, and noticing the ways my clothes fit and I can see the changes physically. Those 60 pounds are never to be seen again. I can even say that without adding the usual, I hope, to the end. <BR> I'm doing a lot more moving at work. Shakin' my booty and doing a lot more smiling. Isn't it amazing how much your attitude changes when you take some control of your life? Even if the weight loss isn't going well I'm still smiling, beca... Thu, 20 Jan 2011 13:29:43 EST Happy Dancing all around! Dragged myself out of bed this morning and went to the gym alone. I was so warm and cozy in my bed that I didn't really want to go, but I know how good I feel physically and mentally when I leave the gym. I'm still fighting my way through Week 3 of C25K and it's still winning. But I'm still plugging along, so it isn't a failure on my part. I had a couple of rough patches, but I think I noticed some progress (please, Lord, let that be true and not all in my head). <BR> When I got home from the... Fri, 10 Dec 2010 11:21:52 EST Who you looking at? Since I joined the gym in June and really started to exercise and lose weight, I've felt like I have a much higher level of self-esteem then I've had in years. I'm dancing around the office and working out with very little self consciousness. Well, except for this one guy. He's a personal trainer that works out of the Y I go to. I always seem to catch him looking at me or catch his eye. Now I know he isn't "checking me out"; I'm at least 20 years older and definitely NOT looking my best... Wed, 10 Nov 2010 13:00:32 EST Look at me! I'm proud of the weight I've already lost and even prouder of the level of fitness I've achieved in the last 3 months. But I've surprised myself with the way I now feel about my body. I've always hated to wear clothes that are form-fitting, but recently I've started wearing clothes that fit. They aren't tight but you can, oh my, see my shape. It's still big, because I've only lost 36.5 pounds of the 140 pounds I really want to lose. But from the way I act and dress, you'd think I'd alre... Sun, 31 Oct 2010 13:29:54 EST Vacations are dangerous! I spent all of last week on a much needed vacation. I knew there were going to be some serious food issues, since I was going on a 7 day cruise (WooHoo me!). Boy howdy were there ever. There is entirely too much food on a cruise ship, but it is soooo good. <BR> Well, I'm back on dry land this week. I've lost my sea legs, still have my good vacation mood, and almost lost the weight I gained while gone. That first step on the scale on Monday morning just about made me pass out. 5 days lat... Fri, 15 Oct 2010 15:13:01 EST It's all about the portions I went to a cafeteria style restaurant yesterday for lunch and had an illuminating lesson in portion amounts. I debated over the 5oz or 8oz chopped steak and then it occurred to me that a serving size for most meat is only 4oz. I went with the smaller serving size. Then she handed the plate to me with the teeny tiny little pitiful piece of meat on it. It looked so sad and lonely and small with its sliced pickle (why?) on top. I got my little dish of plain mashed potatoes, which has alwa... Sun, 19 Sep 2010 14:27:29 EST Success I don't really have much to say today, so I thought I'd post one of my favorite quotes. <BR> <BR> "Success is never a destination - it's a journey" -Satenig St. Marie <BR> Thu, 16 Sep 2010 21:52:20 EST You're so NOT helping! How can someone that is working out with you and that knows the time you're putting into getting healthy and losing weight be someone that is putting down your hard work? I would think those people would try their best to build you up. I don't want to be lied to, by any means, but an honest assessment of my efforts without making light of them does work for me. I guess this just highlights that I have to be constantly vigilant in how much I let what others say affect me; even those people ... Wed, 15 Sep 2010 12:08:39 EST Color me shocked, I'm really doing this When I was a kid I loved to run through the woods. I'd chase the dogs or the cows and jump over trees and creeks. I thought that was the best feeling in the world and then I became a big girl and stopped doing that. That was foolish of me and I've wasted a lot of time thinking I couldn't be a runner because I was a "big girl". Well, today I started the C25K training program. I'm not pretty out there and I can't run all of the running intervals. But I'm running for the first time in over... Mon, 13 Sep 2010 20:43:50 EST I don't need no stinkin' goals Let me just go ahead and say it. I suck at making firm goals. Oh, I have vague goals that I keep in my head that I try and meet, but I rarely write them down. I realize now that that allows me to not reach my goals and not be let down or embarrassed. <BR> Then I join SP and everywhere you look there is an article or blog about setting goals and reaching goals. The wonder and usefulness of writing your goals down. I understand that doing this holds me to a level of accountability but ev... Sun, 12 Sep 2010 11:06:48 EST