LYNDSAY81283's SparkPeople Blog LYNDSAY81283's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Yesterday's Appointment This afternoon I had a scheduled appointment for a consult on getting smart lipo. First off I haven't lost one pound since being on sparkpeople, working out religiously, and eating healthy which is just frustrating and reaffirmed why I was having a consult on getting smart lipo. It's going to cost me $3,000.00 to do my arms in inner thighs, $5,000.00 if I decide to do my abdomen as well. I felt so shallow and a bit disappointed in myself that it had come to this; lipo, but when I saw that I s... Wed, 15 Jul 2009 08:06:46 EST Not giving up Okay, so I had lost 5 lbs finally about two weeks ago and then yesterday I weigh myself at the gym and the 5 lbs is back!! It was so heart breaking, but I'm promising myself that I'm not going to give up no matter what. I just can't figure out what I'm doing so wrong though... I know that the last two weekends I have gone out and had a few drinks and probably ate a little too much, but I hit the gym hard and I eat pretty good... I hate being so consumed in what I look like, food intake and ex... Tue, 2 Jun 2009 13:34:01 EST So Fustrated Here goes... The last couple weeks I haven't gone to the gym between packing, moving, cleaning, work, school, etc. I've felt like I've had literally no time to myself, time, for the gym, time for cooking and it's making so depressed not too mention I haven't been feeling very well being stressed out makes my IBS spiral out of control... Then to top it all off I went to the doctors yesterday and once again my weight has fluctuated a pretty significant amount since just 3 weeks ago, it's crazy ... Thu, 12 Feb 2009 08:47:14 EST Today is a new day I've been thinking a lot since my last blog entry and I'm starting to think that I really need to stop concentrating on what my weight is and focus on the good like I eat healthy and I excerise regularly. Why do we constantly beat ourselves up? I've been doing it for so many years now; I'm my own worst enemy. I think I need to take all that time I was wasting on what I look like, how much I weigh, how many calories I'm eating, etc. and put it more positively. I need to accept myself for the p... Thu, 16 Oct 2008 10:57:59 EST Tough Times Okay, so I went to the doctor's yesterday and I lost 4lbs., I wasn't really too surprised because I've only eating on average 700 calories a day and burning 500+ at the gym. I swear if I eat over 1,000 calories a day I start to gain weight, it's horrible and I really don't know what to do... I'm always consumed with what I'm eating, how many calories it has, how much fat, etc. It's consuming my life and it's been like this all my life. As a young kid I was overweight and got picked on then ag... Thu, 9 Oct 2008 08:55:42 EST