LYDDIECAT's SparkPeople Blog LYDDIECAT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Reflecting back and looking forward. Wow...2015 is right around the corner, which means that I've been here at SP for close to three years. I remember feeling exhilarated when I joined back in 2012, like this was "the answer" to all my issues with my body, losing weight, and feeling good about myself. I read articles, added Spark friends, spun the wheel, logged my food and exercise. I began losing weight relatively quickly. I lost about 9 pounds in three months, which was right in line with my goals. <BR> <BR> After a few month... Tue, 30 Dec 2014 18:55:10 EST Trusting and investing in myself I've been noticing some changes in my body lately. Pants and shirts that were too tight are fitting again. I can pull my yoga pants up smoothly over my hips instead of needing to tug on them. I have an easier time getting up from the floor (I am a preschool teacher, so I am on the floor a lot). I have a lot more endurance for walking, trampoline jumping, and working out on the Gazelle. I'm really happy about this progress! <BR> <BR> Right now, I am retaining a bunch of water, like I always... Sun, 16 Mar 2014 19:08:38 EST I'm done with self-hatred, because I'm awesome and I deserve better. It's been about 10 weeks since I've started this latest effort to make some positive changes in my life. I'm feeling really good about the progress I've made, not just on the scale and in the mirror, but in my head. I remember writing a blog post a few months ago about having a hard time being nice to myself, but I am finding that a lot easier now. I've been thinking about things that I like about my body and my personality, instead of constantly criticizing myself and wishing I was differen... Sat, 8 Mar 2014 11:25:25 EST 750 minutes :) My fitness goal for February was 600 minutes...just logged another 15, which brings my total this month to 750 minutes!! Go, me! Fri, 28 Feb 2014 17:25:58 EST Sick, but not defeated! I got sick this week, for the first time in months. It's some kind of chest-cold virus thing with lots of congestion, nose-blowing, sneezing, and now coughing. I felt bad enough to call off work on Tuesday, went back yesterday and regretted it (especially since my co-teacher was not in because her son got sick), and today we are off because of snow. While I appreciate the extra day to rest up, I am getting anxious to get back to exercising again. I've done some slow walking and a little ST t... Thu, 13 Feb 2014 14:29:01 EST My new sneakers are rocking my world. New sneakers! Finally, a pair of shoes that don't kill my feet, so I can actually WALK again! I am loving it. The ball of my foot on the right is pain-free, and the plantar fasciitis flare-up on my left foot is getting better. Hallelujah. I have really weird feet. I have had no luck finding a comfortable pair of women's sneakers. First of all, I have really big feet, size 11, which some stores don't even carry. And second, My feet are wide across the toe, but narrow in the heel. I could not... Sat, 8 Feb 2014 19:17:05 EST My new sneakers are rocking my world. New sneakers! Finally, a pair of shoes that don't kill my feet, so I can actually WALK again! I am loving it. The ball of my foot on the right is pain-free, and the plantar fasciitis flare-up on my left foot is getting better. Hallelujah. I have really weird feet. I have had no luck finding a comfortable pair of women's sneakers. First of all, I have really big feet, size 11, which some stores don't even carry. And second, My feet are wide across the toe, but narrow in the heel. I could not... Sat, 8 Feb 2014 19:17:04 EST Progress and an emotional dump (This is a long one. Read at your own risk.) I weighed in this morning and was surprised to see another pound gone. I have reached my first goal, to have my weight below 260! It feels good to see those numbers drop. Today I was at 259.4 and my next goal is to be below 250. Right now, I am losing faster than the goal I had set (250 by mid-April), but I know that weight loss is not like a math problem. I am going to treat my body with love and respect, and the weight will come off when it comes off. <BR> <BR> I lost about 7 pounds in... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 10:50:35 EST 500 fitness minutes! Yay, me! Yay! I hit 500 fitness minutes tonight! My original goal for the month was 300, but when I passed that, I decided to go for 500. I'm proud of myself. I haven't done 500 minutes in a looooooong time, so it feels really good to have met my goal. I also like how my legs are feeling these days; they feel stronger and lighter. I am also amazed that I am having no issues with the ball of my foot and my plantar fasciitis seems to be getting better on my other foot. I think that the trampoline jum... Mon, 27 Jan 2014 21:11:09 EST Check in :) I know it's not all about the scale, but, boy, did it feel good to step on this morning and see that I am down 5 pounds! It was just such a nice surprise. I am setting short-term weight goals for myself, because long-term is too overwhelming. My first goal is to be below 250; this morning I weighed in at 261, so I feel like I am well on my way. I have 465 exercise minutes this month; my original goal had been 300. Buying the mini-trampoline was a great investment! <BR> <BR> I definitely n... Sun, 26 Jan 2014 14:30:16 EST Thoughts, reflections, and progress I've definitely become more able to control my compulsion to eat while I am fixing myself meals or snacks. And I'm not talking about just snacking a little bit on some veggies or snitching a little pinch of cheese. I'm talking EATING - like some crackers and cheese or a big ole chunk of turkey - before I had even touched my meal. Now that I'm aware of it, I catch myself starting to do it a lot. Usually, it's not too hard to stop myself. After all, I know I'm going to be eating within minutes... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 18:07:38 EST I ate some crap and my body knows it. There is a bright side, however. Yeah, I ate some crap today, namely, a processed chicken patty sandwich that the kids in my class were eating for lunch. I was sooo hungry and it was hot and crispy and it looked good. I thought about not eating it, but I really wanted it. I told myself that if I wanted it that badly, to go ahead and eat it and see how it made me feel. <BR> <BR> It made me feel awful. Not guilty, but physically uncomfortable. First, I noticed that I ate it too fast, and it was the kind of food that was easy... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 19:38:13 EST My new podcast obsession and a shift in my thinking My husband bought me an iPod for Christmas and I am in love with it! I love listening to podcasts, especially when I am doing things I don't particularly enjoy, like housework and driving. I downloaded lots of podcasts about health and weight-loss stories, and I've been listening to them quite a lot for the past couple of weeks. I have noticed that hearing all the positive messages is encouraging me to have more faith in my ability to change my health and get my body (and mind!) in better sh... Wed, 8 Jan 2014 19:36:47 EST I've noticed a bad habit I've just become aware of a very bad habit that I've dubbed "pre-eating." When I'm making something to eat, or serving myself something, I have a terrible habit of eating part of whatever food I'm preparing. Then I go ahead and eat the portion I had planned on in the first place, rather than subtract the amount I have already eaten. I find myself doing this A LOT, and I have probably been doing it for a long, long time. If I am mindlessly eating this extra food, multiple times a day, that's a... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 14:34:26 EST I CAN! I've been in a self-pity shame spiral lately, and I'm getting sick of it. I posted in November about working on making better choices. Unfortunately, I didn't work very hard at it. Instead, I chose to sit around, eat a bunch of crap, drink too much, and complain about how awful I look and feel. I have not been making good choices, for the most part. <BR> <BR> I woke up in the middle of the night last week with a random pain in my abdomen, probably because of the position I was sleeping in.... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 18:01:20 EST Being nice to myself, continued This weekend, I bought shirts. I know, not exactly earth-shattering news, but it's not something I normally do. I tend to acquire new clothes haphazardly, at a thrift store, or at some massive clearance sale. They tend to be plain, scoop-neck or v-neck t-shirts, usually in bright colors, but really kind of boring. I have been wearing the same bunch of scoop-neck T-shirts for more than a year, and they are getting old and sad and worn-out. <BR> <BR> Lately I have been feeling embarrassed wh... Mon, 11 Nov 2013 14:28:13 EST I made some good choices today Today I did something that I have been avoiding for weeks: I took a 20 minute walk and did 25 wall push-ups. I have NOT been getting my exercise minutes in at all during the past month and a half or so. I had a really bad pain flare-up in the ball of my right foot and Achilles pain in my left ankle and I just got tired and discouraged and I gave up for awhile. Right now, the idea of actually losing weight seems impossible; what does seem possible is making healthy choices. I can drink water, ... Sun, 10 Nov 2013 21:41:32 EST Chugging along The #backontrack challenge here at SP has proven to be the kick in the bum that I needed to get myself together. I've done well with exercise this month; I've been taking advantage of the relatively low humidity and I've been taking walks every day. I have to take two walks, because my dog likes to walk, but he is so old and slow that he can only go about half a mile at a time. So I walk him his slow, pokey half mile, enjoying his company and letting him sniff and pee all he wants (he's earne... Wed, 7 Aug 2013 20:12:28 EST Ch-ch-ch-ch-cha-aanges I've been here at Spark for a year and a half, and I have learned a lot and made some positive changes in my habits: <BR> *I drink 8-10 glasses of water on most days. <BR> *I exercise at least 10 minutes a day most days. <BR> *I wear a pedometer that encourages me to move more. <BR> *I take vitamin supplements. <BR> *I am more mindful of eating whole foods and less inclined to eat processed ones. <BR> *I have lowered my blood pressure to the point where I no longer need medication. <BR> ... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 12:06:42 EST Here I am. Again. Starting over. Again. Boy, oh boy, here I am, saying it again: it's time to start over. Once again, I've let my bad habits creep back and negative thinking take over. I even found myself thinking things like, "I'm just one of those people who can't lose weight, so I may as well just do whatever I want." Yikes. <BR> <BR> This getting healthy thing sure is a long, winding, bumpy road. <BR> <BR> This has been my get-back-on-track week, and I have done well, so far. It's not so hard to start over, because I ... Wed, 31 Jul 2013 19:37:56 EST PMS, flagging motivation, and other joys... I've been kind of a slug since my school year ended a week ago. It was like I was so relieved at the prospect of a break that I just flopped down on the ground and stayed there, practically immobile, for a week. I have not made significant progress toward the goals I set for myself last month, and, for a few days, I let myself get unmotivated by this. I did the whole, "Why am I so lazy? I'm going to be fat forever and there's nothing I can do about it, so I might as well eat 17 bags of chips... Thu, 23 May 2013 12:28:07 EST Interesting article I just read an interesting article on Huff Post and just wanted to share the link: <link><BR>eller-/weight-loss-tips_b_3163015.html<BR>?utm_hp_ref=health-and-fitness&ir=Heal<BR>th%20and%20Fitness </link> Sat, 27 Apr 2013 16:19:38 EST Starting O-o-ver I hope the title of this blog gives you a John Lennon earworm for the rest of the day. <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> I got a bit derailed by the stomach flu this month. I caught a bad, three-day bug that messed up my 10-minute fitness streak. <em>234</em> On day three of the bug, my stupid period arrived, adding insult to injury. I got very stressed out about missing three days of work (two of which were unpaid), because I teach Head Start and my little friends have a hard time when there... Sat, 27 Apr 2013 10:50:08 EST In like a lamb and out like a freakin LION :) Yes, I know the expression is the other way around, but the title of this blog describes my fitness minutes for March. Ever since last August, my monthly fitness minutes have occasionally hit the 500 minute mark. I went through a giant sluggish period this winter, when all I wanted to do was sleep and eat. Bleh. I decided to do the Streak into Spring challenge, which involved getting at least 10 minutes of fitness in from March 1 until the first day of spring, March 20. I did the challenge ... Sun, 31 Mar 2013 16:08:16 EST Happy 1 Year Sparkversary to me! Wow...I have been here at SP for one year today! I remember the day I joined so clearly: it was a Saturday morning and I woke up feeling terrible about myself, my body, and my health. I stepped on the scale, gasped when I saw my weight nearing 260 pounds, and nearly cried. I told myself that it was no longer a choice, but that I HAD to start losing weight. I went out to the living room, fired up my laptop and googled some weight loss programs I had heard about, but they all cost a lot of mo... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 09:57:35 EST Up with veggies, down with nuggets! I need to get a handle on how I'm eating. I'm eating portions that are too big, and I'm not eating enough fruits and vegetables. The freggie thing is ridiculous, because I love vegetables. I'm just being lazy about planning my meals and snacks and packing my lunches for work. Part of the problem is that I am not giving myself enough time in the morning to get lunch ready, so there are days when I don't pack anything and end up eating the same lunch my students are having that day (which is ... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 10:30:23 EST SparkCoach ftw! Once again, my daily SparkCoach challenge, coupled with my goal of 500 monthly fitness minutes, got me off my butt today! In between jobs today, I decided to get in 10 minutes of informal, low-impact aerobics, so I did a little Leslie Sansone-Chris Freytag-Amy Dixon mash-up while catching up on a little Barefoot Contessa (I am a Food Network JUNKIE). My SparkCoach challenge today was to do at least 60 minutes of high intensity exercise during my normal workout, so I did a 90 second jog. T... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 18:50:44 EST An unexpected (and oh-so-convenient) NSV I got married about a year and a half ago, six months before discovering SP, which means that I was about 10 pounds heavier and several inches larger than I am now. I had a very laid-back wedding, which involved my maid of honor and I running to Wal-Mart before the ceremony, to get a power cord to run my husbands amplifier (he's a musician). Anyway, I had forgotten to bring a change of underwear, and I really felt like getting married was a momentous, new underwear occasion, so I bought a fe... Thu, 7 Feb 2013 19:45:10 EST TGFSP (Thank Goodness for Spark People) I kicked some fitness butt today. By the time I got home from job #1 , I had 7000+ steps. I had about an hour and 20 minutes before leaving for job #2, so I took a break, ate a snack, sat on my stability ball and Sparked for a bit. I noticed that I had 49 fitness minutes to go before hitting 500 in January. I also realized that today is the 30th, which meant that I had three choices: <BR> 1. Continue to sit in front of the computer. <BR> 2. Take a power nap. <BR> 3. Bust out at least 20 m... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 18:56:42 EST Stability ball! My new favorite thing is my stability ball. After spending what seemed like a lifetime blowing the stinkin' thing up, I am enjoying learning how to use it. I also like to sit on it when I'm at the computer. I find that my posture is a lot better than when I am in a chair. <BR> <BR> This morning we have been having sleet and freezing rain, so school was cancelled (what a nice thing to happen on a Monday!). I decided that I have been way too lazy lately, so I got my butt in gear and did an Am... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 12:13:02 EST I sparked my coworkers! Yesterday a couple of my coworkers called and asked if I wanted to go to lunch with them at a nearby Mexican restaurant. Since we do not have children in class on Fridays, we get a bit of time to have lunch (Monday-Thursday we eat with our students, which is definitely NOT a lunch break!). Anyway, when they called, they asked me if I wanted them to come pick me up. The restaurant is just on the next block, so I said no thanks, I would walk and meet them there. A few seconds later, they calle... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 13:31:19 EST Refocusing January 3 will mark my 10 month Sparkiversary. I'm really, really glad I found this site. I have made many changes and attempted many challenges that I would not have tried on my own. I haven't come even close to losing the amount of weight I originally thought I would have lost by this time, but that doesn't make me feel like a failure. Do I feel like I could have made better choices about food, water, sleep, and exercise? Absolutely. I have made many, many missteps during the past 10 mont... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 15:53:57 EST The Free LyddieCat Super Happy Aerobic Walking Show I'm feeling proud of myself because I got my rear in gear and did a couple of short, fun, fast walking workouts when I got home from work today. About halfway through, I realized that it was getting dark out, and my living room curtains were open. I have a picture window that looks out onto a busy street with a traffic light nearby, and there is often a line of traffic outside my house, waiting for the light to change. As I hustled and huffed and puffed with Amy Dixon, I realized that my li... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 17:13:43 EST Starting this week off RIGHT! I just finished a Coach Nicole 15 minute strength video. It kicked my butt, thus illustrating to me, once again, how badly I need to be doing ST. I only got one ST mini-session in last week. I procrastinated, ending up getting sick at the end of the week, and bailed on it. Now that I am feeling better, I decided that a better strategy would be to get one session in early in the week. I joined the 10 minute daily exercise challenge, hoping to light a fire under myself. I do not want to fall ... Sun, 2 Dec 2012 17:21:15 EST My dog walks sloooooowly I love my dog, but he is not the speediest walking partner. He is old and achy and walks pretty darn slow. He still loves to walk, however, so I take him with me for 20 minutes or so a day. That's about his max; if we go too far, he will plant his feet and turn his head toward home, telling me, "Okay Mom, I'm like, getting close to 90 in dog years and I can't take much more!" Sometimes I get frustrated that he can't walk fast any more, but then I think about how nice it is to spend time wi... Wed, 28 Nov 2012 19:13:37 EST I like my shadow. I just posted on NillaPepsi's blog the other day about how one of my current NSV's is liking the way my shadow looks. I go on a lot of afternoon walks and lately I have been noticing that my shadow looks a lot better than it used to. I have a much more defined waist than I did a year ago. Progress! <BR> <BR> My new affinity for my shadow has motivated me to make some new goals for November. Yes, I realize the month is half over, but I'm not a linear thinker, so that doesn't bother me. <BR> ... Mon, 12 Nov 2012 12:16:26 EST 8 month SparkVersary and 10 pounds lost :) I finally hit one of my weight loss goals today: 10 pounds lost! I feel so proud of myself. It has taken me a long time to lose it (8 months to the day since I have joined SP), but that's fine with me. Over the past 8 months, I have been learning about myself and my attitudes toward food, exercise, weight loss, my health, and my appearance. This morning, when I logged my current weight, my first thought was, "I can't believe it took this long to drop 10 pounds. Other people have lost 10 pou... Sat, 3 Nov 2012 10:12:32 EST Superstorm Lyddie It's grey and bleak and rainy in the aftermath of Sandy. We were very fortunate in my town (Chambersburg, PA) and escaped with some flooding and power outages. I know that some people had to evacuate their homes and there are still closed roads and downed trees, but it could have been much, much worse. I am expecting that schools will reopen tomorrow, as long as there is power. <BR> <BR> I took advantage of having another day off, got my butt in gear, and worked out. YAY!!! I was full of... Tue, 30 Oct 2012 11:21:50 EST Motivation! I've been venting a lot here about the stress I'm going through with my job, Well, I am starting to feel better (and so are all of you, since you don't have to suffer through another "Wah! Poor me" blog) <em>211</em> My co teacher's last day is Friday, and some other teachers and I are taking her to Pizza Hut (her choice) for lunch. AND, I received some very good news about my new co-teacher: she will be a friend of mine, and she is transferring to me from another classroom. YAY! We h... Sat, 27 Oct 2012 20:03:25 EST I hate insomnia (and I'm not too crazy about sore feet, either). Grumpy blog. I am feeling very frustrated with my foot. I had been having pain in my right foot during the late spring/summer when my shoes wore out and I continued to try to work out in them (dumb, yes.) I changed shoes, changed insoles, replaced insoles, rested the foot, babied the foot, and the foot seemed to get better. I woke up in the middle of the night last night (I have been having some anxiety-related insomnia lately...I'll get to the cause of that in a minute) with pain in the ball of my foot.... Wed, 17 Oct 2012 18:35:40 EST Where I am in October I've been trying to get myself back into the healthy-eating and exercising groove lately. The beginning of the school year really threw me for a loop. Since I joined SP last March, this is the first beginning-of-the-school time that I have experienced, and I was unprepared for how off-track I would get. I was just SO TIRED and stressed and running in every direction. Along with teaching full-time, I work part-time at the library 2 nights a week and I have class one night a week (I'm in gr... Sun, 14 Oct 2012 15:32:01 EST Scales are temperamental beasts; hooray for measuring tape! I have been suspicious of my digital scale for months, not because it consistently displays a number in the 200's when I'd much rather see one in the 100's, but because it has seemed crazily inconsistent. Sometimes I will weigh myself, see a weight that seems way too high or low, step off, get back on, and then see a completely different number. Because of this weird scale, I bought a regular old-timey mechanical one with a dial at a thrift store. I wasn't sure of its accuracy either, since i... Sun, 23 Sep 2012 09:01:00 EST Met a mini-goal today :) This morning I was looking in my closet for something to wear to church and came across a very cute denim skirt that I had bought at Goodwill last year, but had never worn because it was too tight across the stomach and hips. I had a vague idea that it might fit me "sometime," but I don't know if I ever really believed I would fit into it. I saw it today and thought, "oh, what the heck. I'll try it on, but it's probably too small." <BR> <BR> Well, it wasn't too small. It fit! I looked in ... Sun, 16 Sep 2012 17:24:32 EST Welcome, weekend! I made it to another weekend - yay! And the first two weeks of school are under my belt; things should start getting a bit easier soon. <BR> <BR> I had a cool NSV this week: I put on a pair of capris that I've had since last spring that used to be snug and they zipped right up! I also noticed that they stayed up better while I was walking around; this spring and summer I was constantly yanking them up because my belly kept working its way over the waistband and pushing them down (gross!)... Sat, 8 Sep 2012 08:15:37 EST Ho.Ly. Moly! Tomorrow is the last day of school this week for my little preschool students and all I can say is...WOW, I AM EXHUSTED! I always forget how incredibly demanding the beginning of the year is; the children are so young and most have never been in school or a group setting before and they have no idea how to get what they need without hitting, screaming, pushing, crying, etc. Everybody needs everything RIGHT NOW and no one knows how to wait yet. Whew. Today was the first day I had time to e... Wed, 5 Sep 2012 19:18:28 EST Measurements, hamstrings, and the first day of school Down another pound this morning...yay! It feels good to see the numbers going down, rather than up. I am trying not to get too hung up on the scale, however. I measured myself last week and found that since March, I have lost 4.5 inches from my waist and 1.5 inches from my neck. Wow. That is so motivating for me! I am also noticing that my formerly too-tight shirts fit nicely and the shirts that used to fit are now getting too big. Very cool. <BR> <BR> I slipped in the shower yesterday and... Sun, 26 Aug 2012 08:18:07 EST Pilates is kicking my @** Pilates. Holy Smokes. I feel like a wet ball of dough tonight after doing a half hour of pilates over the weekend and 20 minutes after work today. It makes me realize how crazy out of shape I am! My abs, legs, arms, and shoulders are definitely feeling it. Whew. <BR> <BR> I read a Spark article last night about journaling, and it recommended taking 5 minutes before bed each night to reflect on your day and to write down at least five positive things about yourself. Even if it's something l... Mon, 20 Aug 2012 20:51:02 EST Feeling good about how far I've come (Thanks DARKLIGHT31:) DARKLIGHT31 posted this on her blog today: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I loved it! I have been feeling kinda down on myself lately because of being so lax with my eating and fitness while I was in Maine. If it had been a short vacation, I don't think it would have done much damage, but 7 weeks is a long time, and now I have learned what happens when you let yourself go crazy for that long! It sucks to have to lose the same 9 poun... Mon, 13 Aug 2012 20:42:36 EST Stress, cramps, and backaches...oh my! I'm feeling stressed and overwhelmed at the moment. Here's what's getting to me: <BR> <BR> 1. Stupid hormones -- During the past year or so, my cycle has been getting more and more erratic. I used to be pretty regular, but the closer I got to 40, the less regular I've become. The fact that I'm getting older doesn't bother me, it is the physical feelings that are driving me crazy. Some months I just have a period and it's fine; other months I skip my period and then before I finally get it, ... Fri, 10 Aug 2012 14:13:02 EST Operation Back On the Bandwagon -- part 2 My friends from Maine left yesterday and we had a wonderful weekend! Good thing we lost our car at the airport on Wednesday, because that contributed to my highest step count of the week! This week is my last week of summer vacation before heading back to work next week (I teach Head Start). My fun-filled weekend was also food-filled and beer-filled, so I am getting myself back on track before work next week. Here's the plan: <BR> <BR> 1. Track my food this week. I have been reaaaaaalll... Mon, 6 Aug 2012 11:33:49 EST