LWADE1963's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LWADE1963 LWADE1963's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ My starting over blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6229918 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/c87ea900-72a5-40ca-a1ee-6cbb6e5d7b00.jpg"> This is Sunday- beg of sept. I have once again, wasted a whole month by being wishy washy with my eating. I have so many great tools. But I must utilize them. I need to think before I eat!! I need to plan ahead!! I am so close to being a diabetic. I have several months before going back to dr and I want to be successful!! I want to show some pounds came off. This is my start over blog. My n... Sun, 4 Sep 2016 10:11:39 EST Feelin great http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6142234 Been exercising and eating better. Sun is finally out. 2 days till weekend. <BR> <BR> Feelin great Thu, 14 Apr 2016 13:36:16 EST Joined spark coach http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6140712 I need a little umph to get back in my groove, so I joined spark coach. <BR> <BR> I have always been successful when I apply all the things that spark offers. It holds me accountable <BR> <BR> Weight watchers just don't work for me. I am not sure why. I like the idea of weight watchers. I like the community support. But I just can't stick with it. <BR> <BR> Have a great day Tue, 12 Apr 2016 12:40:07 EST New year- new chances http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6057580 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/327840fe-1092-4d65-8b97-cb663c4d823a.jpg"> There is something refreshing about starting anew. Starting with a clean slate. Forgetting all the mistakes from yesterday. I am not making "resolutions". I am making commitments. Positive commitments to be a positive better person this year 2015 was not a good year for me. I had a lot of emotional trauma This year- I am committing to change. I am going to listen to myself more. Take time for me ... Sat, 2 Jan 2016 00:23:46 EST Has it really been 3 months????? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6036967 Wow. It's been a long time since I blogged. I guess life got really crazy and that's when I stopped <BR> <BR> My mom is in asst living facility now. All the problems I had with her was due to her getting dementia. My bad sister is now my good sister. My good sister is now my bad sister. Long story- don't even ask <BR> <BR> We moved closer to town which I love. I have a pool that I can't use until June cause it's so cold <BR> <BR> I joined anytime fitness. I just found out they have some pe... Tue, 24 Nov 2015 00:02:46 EST Sugar craving challenge day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5986765 Didn't do so good on the quiz. This week I am gonna read an article about sugar every morning. Also read some blogs I am gonn think about what I am eating instead of just putting it in my mouth Get rid of obvious sugar like candy bars And start walking again. Got to get rid of this sugar Sat, 29 Aug 2015 09:39:21 EST Sugar http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5985079 I think I am sweet enough I need to get rid of this sugar. The last 2 nights after work I have stopped at store and just bought ton of junk. Are most of it on way home. I need to get this in control and be more aware Suggestions? Wed, 26 Aug 2015 10:37:24 EST Ahh!! Welcome august http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5971395 I am so glad it's august. The last month of summer. Almost the beginning of my favorite season - autumn I am still moving forward. It is still a struggle trying to figure out why my mom doesn't seem to care about me. I am still going to therapy which is helping a lot. I am figuring out slowly that the problem is her- not me. I am a very loving person. We have decided I must move fwd without mom in my life. Ok. I am going thru stages of grief. I have finally just accepted it and I am mo... Mon, 3 Aug 2015 11:55:19 EST Different this time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5956392 So why is this time different after spending tons on money on ww and not following thru? <BR> <BR> I have walked away from 3 poisonous relationships in my family. I am seeing a therapist. Have seen her off and on since 2002. She made me realize that my mom and I have always had these problems. Now my sister and brother are with her. Lying about me, lying to cops bout me , false accusations. Basically humiliating me. So I am done. I walked away. It has been 1 week since I blocked them all <BR... Mon, 6 Jul 2015 12:48:02 EST Beginning of a sparktastic week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5949203 Hello friends <BR> <BR> I continue to improve. Sundays are hard but I am starting to plan some things to do on Sundays that will help get my mind off things. <BR> <BR> Last night my mind would just not shut off. My therapist told me to think of things I have wanted to do but have forgot about due to my time all being eaten up by my constant pursuit and approval of mom. I am to think of friends I forgot about,etc so mind was a whirlwind of activity. Finally got to sleep at 2:30 am <BR> <B... Mon, 22 Jun 2015 13:03:01 EST A work in progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5947240 I am feeling much better today- not terrific, but better <BR> <BR> I have been keeping up with my excercise. I am not as good as I want to be, but I am doing my weight lifting 3 times a week. Still trying to up my cardio. I actually have gone up with my strength. We have an Olympic weight bench at home. The bar is around 45 lbs. when we first got it several months ago, I cld not lift it, no way. I mainly like to do squats with it I cld not do that until today. And today I did 3 sets of squa... Thu, 18 Jun 2015 13:12:38 EST Stupid effexor http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5946708 I increased my med per dr instruction. The first week was great. The second week, and I am assuming it took this long to get in my system, I feel like a zombie. I am nervous and feel nothing. I hate this. I have decided to go back to my original dose and supplement it with xanax. Only once in a while cause I hate that stuff too I am thankful for my effexor. It has helped me in past and I may be on it forever. But my thought is this- you can't just increase your meds every time you have a pro... Wed, 17 Jun 2015 14:14:06 EST Finally some light in my darkness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5943431 I am so excited that I start my therapy today. I have cut off 3 toxic relationships as most of you know. My mom, sister, brother. <BR> <BR> Th dr increased my effexor a little, which has helped me tremendously. I actually found myself talking and laughing at work yesterday. That was first time sinc this whole thing started <BR> <BR> I have been to my therapist off and on thru the years so she is familiar with my life. I am really looking fwd to growing and finally letting go <BR> <BR> I... Thu, 11 Jun 2015 10:55:49 EST Creating habits and update on situation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5937544 Glad a new month is upon me. <BR> <BR> May was not a good month. <BR> <BR> I had to say goodbye to my mom, sister, and brother. Not that they had died and left the world, but for me, they are gone. I had to say goodbye to them cause it's a negative, volatile situation that I just can't take anymore. Peace of mind is more important <BR> <BR> My situation with them got to the point that they made up lies bout me and called cops and said I was harassing them. Of course they had no proof b... Sun, 31 May 2015 23:11:33 EST Walls are up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5927524 I love blogging. I need to do it more often. The spark community is so supportive. <BR> <BR> A few things on my mind. I started talking to my mom, bought her Mother's Day gift. But I got to be honest, I just don't feel welcome when I go down. She clearly was tired and didn't ant me down on Mother's Day. It was evening time and she had spent the whole day with who me and my other sister call "the golden child". So I am distancing myself from situation. I not mad, I just have my walls up so ... Wed, 13 May 2015 12:30:58 EST Felling of rejection from my senior mom http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5923054 A lot has happened since my last blog. I found out my mom has been lying about me to my sister. Of course, my sister believes her. She believes all bad things about me. My mom is 78. This is not a new behavior. It's just the first time she has done it to me. <BR> <BR> So me, being the confrontational person I am, confronted my mom. Of course she denied it and played stupid. Now, she won't tAlk to me, answer phone calls or anything and as punishment, she is telling everyone she is scared ... Tue, 5 May 2015 12:11:19 EST Accountability even on bad days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5895526 I am writing this blog today so I can keep myself accountable. Everyday will not be a great feel good do everything right kind of day. <BR> <BR> I had plans to meet a friend at 11 for lunch/coffee. I didn't get up early enough to excercise before I left If I don't do it when I get up, I usually don't do it. <BR> <BR> I didn't eat before I left either . I figured I would get coffee and eat when I got home. I did great until she offered to buy me a smoothie. The lady working there sai... Wed, 18 Mar 2015 21:41:20 EST Jillian Michael beginner shred- my new workout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5894862 Today I started my new workout- jillian michaels beginner 30 day shred It is really great. So low impact and doable. I highly recommend it to beginner excercise rx or those that are just too out of shape to excercise. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was so easy o get my steps in. It was beautiful out and I went for 2 walks. Today, on the other hand, cold and really really cold. Ni only got 5000 steps. <BR> <BR> Still working on learning to trust myself. I have been setting small achievable daily ... Tue, 17 Mar 2015 21:08:30 EST No one ever said it would be easy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5887091 I have been really annoyed all day. <BR> <BR> It started this morning when I remembered that I had gotten up and had a sandwich thin with jelly last night . The day before I had a great idea of taking a clementine to bed with me. Why is it that I forgot about it and wandered in the kitchen again? Why do we always crave something that isn't good for us? <BR> <BR> Ok. It could have been worse. I could have had a lot of other things on top of that. I was still in my calorie range. But I... Wed, 4 Mar 2015 19:22:09 EST More to the journey than eating and excercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5886274 I am learning more about myself during this journey . I thought it was as simple as calorie in and calories out. <BR> <BR> I was recently listening to some short videos from a great website called"half size me". It was about self trust. I never realized I had this problem. As I think about it and , i am speakling mostly about diet and excercise, I never do what I say, I never stick with a program, I am always changing my mind about which program to be on. I guess you could say that I a... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 13:34:41 EST Great day to be alive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5875373 I had an awesome day!! <BR> <BR> I rejoined the ymca and upgraded so I can go to any ymca in area. This opens up a whole new world of different group classes! <BR> <BR> I also bought the new wireless beats and love them! <BR> <BR> Went to book store( one of my fav places to go). Relaxed with books and magazines <BR> <BR> I just really feel like I have a new fire and passion inside. I used to love going to gym but life got in way and I quit going. I kept saying I will workout at home ... Fri, 13 Feb 2015 23:09:38 EST Peanut butter whips. Oh my!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5874449 I am still struggling with nightime eating I quit eating reg peanut butter cause every time my hubby would open jar he would get on me accuse me of eating a ton of it. Whether I did or not, I would get the blAme. So I decided to get my own peanut butter. Peanut butter whips that is. It's less fat and oh so good This worked for a while until I started getting up around 2 am and eating it So this morning, I threw it in trash. It's really stopping my weight loss. I am really struggling with ... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 10:53:53 EST a complete day of no sugar http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5826432 i am so excited!! <BR> <BR> i dont think i have ever had a complete day of no sugar. yesterday was my first day. i feel so successful. <BR> <BR> the hardest time was at work. there is a guy that brings a pack of cookies everyday for everyone. sometimes they are so good---like mint oreo---yum!!! <BR> <BR> i didnt even walk past them. if i dont know what kind there is, i will be better off. success!!! <BR> <BR> the other hard time is when i got home. i had almonds and a greek yog... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 13:30:38 EST welcome to december http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5825821 wow i cant believe i have not blogged in a month!! <BR> <BR> i do so much better when i am blogging and active in my spark community <BR> <BR> so what do i have planned for this month? <BR> <BR> i started the no sugar challenge on spark. it might be a stupid month to start this, but i just dont want to get out of control this month. <BR> <BR> i also started the 100 day challenge. what am i focusing on for this challenge? just staying away from sugar. i will lose weight if i can get t... Mon, 1 Dec 2014 13:29:42 EST An http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5808681 I had 3 fabulous on plan days. <BR> <BR> Are in calorie range and excercised. Felt terrific <BR> <BR> So why did this happen? Must be just a lesson for me to learn <BR> <BR> Today at work they are getting pizza and chicken. So you know that "all or nothing" thinking. I figure I may as we'll have some cookies at my moms before work. It's gonna be a junk food kind of day anyway. <BR> <BR> I ate about 7 chips ahoy. Why did I keep eating? I paid attention to my feelings while I was eati... Sat, 1 Nov 2014 12:55:42 EST time to be positive about life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5806972 its time to focus on the positive <BR> <BR> today i feel good. <BR> <BR> my problem with hubby being gone at night is improving. thanks for all your comments and help. <BR> the hardest part is the night after i get home, but on a positive note, i am getting to bed earlier and sleeping better. i am excercising more during day and cooking more healthy meals. i am visiting my mom more. i have many more positive things to come. <BR> <BR> my excercise for the day was supposed to be fo... Wed, 29 Oct 2014 12:46:05 EST facing my fears day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5805643 <BR> <BR> Monday, October 27, 2014 <BR> okay so this is my first day of my journey by myself. <BR> <BR> my dh got home this morning and went to bed. so it is just me. i wont see him until sunday. <BR> <BR> man oh man. i hate this. i feel so scared and hopeless. <BR> <BR> i know i should not have put my full trust in my dh and gotten used to him being there when i got up and when i got home from work.there was no me time. but i was ok with that at the time. but it wasnt healthy... Mon, 27 Oct 2014 11:12:07 EST the process of change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5805640 let me start by saying today was just a sad day for me. i have had a lot of sad days lately thank goodness for my spark friends <BR> <BR> i guess i have a lot of fears, as do we all. <BR> <BR> my sister died 2 years ago. she would always come over for trick or treat and sit with me and we would hand out candy. last year we were moving so it wasnt quite so sad. <BR> this year, it was just me. well, me and my husband, but mostly just me. <BR> i went shopping before handing out candy ... Mon, 27 Oct 2014 11:11:05 EST so disappointed with myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5802491 had a really bad day at work. <BR> <BR> there is a woman i work with and i just cant get along with her. we had to go in supervisor office and had a knock down drag out argument. i have to figure out a way to survive the day and not let her get to me. i dont like turmoil in the workplace. with that said, i also will not do all the work and let a co worker take advantage of me. <BR> <BR> so after work, i had 2 donuts. i know i can do better than that. i am very disappointed with mys... Tue, 21 Oct 2014 23:47:54 EST my journey continues..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5802149 its been over a week since i have blogged. <BR> <BR> i got a little discouraged but thanks to support, i am doing much better. <BR> <BR> yesterday, i increased my excercise to 60 minutes . i started t-25, which is very challenging. they do have a person that you can follow that does low impact. that is what i am doing. it is very doable. i am gonna follow her all the way throught the alpha and then i am gonna do it again and increase intesity. <BR> <BR> i also am still doing c25k... Tue, 21 Oct 2014 12:46:01 EST re motivated recharge---a constant process http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5795272 i want to thank everyone for the enormous responds to my last blog about my husband. since then, things are pretty much the same. <BR> <BR> i need to be consistent in order to prove to him that these are lasting changes. i really belive that once he sees that i am consistent with excercise and eating right, he might jump on board or at least be more supportive <BR> <BR> in other news, i have been getting my 10,000 steps a day by walking before work and at work, i walk a lot. if i had t... Thu, 9 Oct 2014 12:49:22 EST my negative husband at it again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5786147 i love my husband,. i really do. but sometimes i wonder how we survivied 30 years of marriage. <BR> <BR> he has made negative comments before about how you cant be sexy after 50. but this morning, i was trying to be positive and eat better and you know, the whole excercise thing, etc. <BR> <BR> he looked at me and said, you know, at our age it is really pointless to start eating right. the damage has been done. <BR> <BR> this really ticked me off. i am only 52, he is 57. i hope... Wed, 24 Sep 2014 13:03:37 EST update on my progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5781651 LOVE THE FALL WEATHER!!! <BR> <BR> the cool weather and leaves changing colors <BR> <BR> walks in the park, sitting outside, bonfires, and the good mood that i am in constantly because i can breathe outside!! <BR> <BR> <BR> i have been doing fairly well. the scale is down. i <BR> i am not eliminating grains, but i have cut back. i didnt buy any bread at the store and no ice cream, cookies or candy. biggest problem is the cookies at work. but i dont give up if i give in. i just immed... Wed, 17 Sep 2014 12:55:45 EST blew it allready on day 2!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5768125 yesterday i blew it with my no grains or sugar <BR> <BR> here is the funny thing---- <BR> <BR> i did good until i got to work. someone brought in my favorite mint oreos. someone else brought in zuccinni bread and lemon muffins. <BR> <BR> i told myself to just stay away. i thought about going to the bathroom and blogging for a minute so i could reach out to the community. <BR> <BR> still, i told myself- lisa, you can do this. <BR> <BR> the operator on the line where the bread was ... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 13:36:30 EST Day 2 of no grains http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767392 Day 2 of no grains. At one point yesterday I didn't think I could make it. I was dizzy and felt awful. I got thru it. <BR> <BR> Here are some good things from yesterday <BR> 1. Had smoothie and salad before work <BR> 2. No cookies at work <BR> 3. Ate good all day <BR> <BR> Tue, 26 Aug 2014 13:22:31 EST weekly challenge reminder http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5763206 S - SUBSTITUTE an unhealthy choice, with a healthy one. (i.e. replace soda with water) <BR> U - USE A FOOD TRACKER on SP, paper, or a journal, and stay within your calorie range. <BR> M - ME TIME: Make yourself a priority, schedule at least 10 min for YOU! <BR> M - MAKE A POST on the team wall, and do your best to make it original. <BR> E - EXERCISE: Your choice! What do you need to work on? <BR> R - REACH OUT: We’ve had a lot of new Sparkers join our team so let's reach out and get to know e... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 22:17:39 EST foods that are death to your metabolism http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5761775 i just read a really interesting article on skinny mom. i will try to post a link to it. i have to blog about this not only for other people info, but so i will remember it. <BR> <BR> metabolism death foods- <BR> <BR> 1. whole grains- possibly the #1 offender when it comes to ruining your metabolism....it has gluten, which causes inflammation in the body, starch, that turns into sugar quickly. the article suggests eating fruit and veggies and sprouted whole grain bread. instead of wh... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 23:42:28 EST my daily successes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5760329 i started out today by getting up a little later than i like too. i work afternoons and i got up at 10:30. thats ok tho. <BR> <BR> i am gonna start listing my positive things everyday that i do or i could say obstacles that i overcome. obstacles that are keeping me from my goal. i have read other people that do this and the last few days i just started thinking. some days i cant think of a single positive thing that i did. i give in to craving, dont excercise. i know its not like th... Fri, 15 Aug 2014 13:43:21 EST 30 day shred--my way http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755722 <BR> <BR> Friday, August 08, 2014 <BR> i have been off work for 2 days in order to give my knee a break. the dr says there is nothing wrong, just some swelling from my acl. <BR> <BR> so today i got up with a new confidence that i am going to tackle this problem. <BR> <BR> i got new orthotics. they say you should replace them every 6 mo to a year. i got new shoes also. <BR> <BR> today i started my day with a delicious smoothie. i need to write it down so i will remember it. <BR> <... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 11:34:53 EST i feel great~~~~ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5753614 i am doing so great!!! <BR> <BR> i am still on my facebook pause. i jump on my home computer before or after work and check a few of my favorite websites that i have on facebook. i love not having it on my phone. i am more conversational with people and pay more attention to the surrounding around me. <BR> <BR> i have been tracking my food and trying to keep my protein intake up and it is making all the difference. i dont seem as hungry and i seem more satisfied. i am making myself ... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 12:20:32 EST Facebook pause http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5743478 I have decided, after much thought, that I am taking a Facebook pause. I am realizing that I am spending way way too much time on this. <BR> It is a lot harder than I thought. This is idle time that I could be doing something more productive. <BR> This is only my first day but so far, I have made dinner, exercise, read bible. <BR> I have been listening to my half size podcast, and it is what Heather suggests. <BR> This is gonna open a whole new world where I am more active. <BR> Mon, 21 Jul 2014 13:41:10 EST Happy 4th of july http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5731899 Independence day!! A day to be thankful for the freedom we have living in this great country! <BR> <BR> I have joined the"half size me"community. If you don't know what it is it is a great podcast and community of people that weightless and getting healthy as their goal. Heather is a great leader who has lost 130 lbs I urge everyone to check it out <BR> She was blogging about how she turned her life around on 4th of July. She used independence day as her day to break free from things in he... Fri, 4 Jul 2014 11:26:36 EST another day of negative thoughts is teaching me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5731657 my second day of observations and i statements. i think it is time to take action on these things'' <BR> i have tried to be positive today but it just didnt work so well. <BR> <BR> you know what, that is ok. i am reading a lot of blogs from people to help inspire me and help motivate me. <BR> <BR> my first blog was a turnaround for me. it is time to start taking action. i need to take action and get this done. i am important enough that i need to do what ever i need to do to stay m... Fri, 4 Jul 2014 00:59:35 EST observations about myself--need help http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5731000 i really paid attention to myself today...my thoughts and actions a i was going about my day. these are some of the thoughts that i had regarding my negative self. i must work on these <BR> <BR> 1. my husband wanting to know why i dont want sex anymore...at first i didnt tell him but eventually i realized it wasnt fair for him to not know how horrible i felt about my body. i told him i have gained weight and didnt feel sexy. i needed to lose some weight to feel sexy again. <BR> <BR> 2.... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 01:13:59 EST i am in control of me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5730671 i read a great article on my 100 day challenge group that puppies4me posted. it was about making "I" statements. so i need to start this because i have not been doing so well with excercise and eating. i doing better with the eating part than the excercise tho. <BR> <BR> i have not put excercise at the top of my list. i have put it on back burner. i need to do this first thing in the morning. i feel better about myself when i excercise and tone up. i <BR> i have been wanting to do ... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 15:12:13 EST can I survive 2 more days? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5727154 2 more days till a week off. I feel like a slow moving turtle seeing the finish line but it will never get here. <BR> <BR> Haven't been feeling so good. I take effexor and I took some benadryl for about 4 nights. I think the phenaldrymaine in it contradicts my effexor. After doing research found out a cream Dr gives me for my feet also causes problems. <BR> Try asking a pharmacist or Dr if they cause problems and the answer will be"no" I been on the medication for a long time and I know ... Fri, 27 Jun 2014 13:32:44 EST gonna change my grumpy attitude http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5719105 i have a lady at work that is lazy. just plain lazy. always trying to skate by, while i pick up the slack. i work in a factory and i dont mind hard work. i just dont like it when someone else takes easy route making me pick up slack and always do hard work. <BR> in past few days, i have really let this get to me. i go to work, immediatly get in bad mood, and am grumpy all day. <BR> <BR> i dont like being like this. i like to be happy. so starting today, ,my new mantra is: i cant c... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 12:43:43 EST havent given up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716506 so hello to everyone that reads my blog <BR> <BR> i havent given up on my health and wellness challenge that i previously blogged about. sorry i havent blogged lately but i am gonna start doing this at least every other day cause i feel so much better when i do. <BR> <BR> i am still in process of giving up sugar and processed food. i still have days when a binge starts by eating a candy bar but i can say that they are few and fat between,. i feel so much better when i stay away from suga... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 12:49:15 EST health and wellness phase one http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5696405 how many phases does my new health and wellness challenge have? i am not really sure yet. i do know that if i research and read article every day about health and wellness, i tend to be more active at applying these principals to my life. it motivates me to keep going. so this is first. every day, find an article( which is not hard cause spark has tons of them) and blog and apply it to my life. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1460839711.jpg"> <BR> <BR> 1. ... Fri, 16 May 2014 12:29:07 EST healthy habits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5684036 i love spark people!! let me say that first <BR> <BR> the hardest healthy habit for me to stick with is nightime eating and excercising <BR> <BR> my goal for may is to track every day and excercise, even if its just a walk. i need to stay in my calorie limit, which when i get home from work at 11 pm, i can look and see how many calories i have left i also am gonna plan better for snacks <BR> <BR> today is off to a great start i started a day early <BR> <BR> i also am trying to d... Wed, 30 Apr 2014 12:49:07 EST