LWADE1963's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LWADE1963 LWADE1963's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Great day to be alive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5875373 I had an awesome day!! <BR> <BR> I rejoined the ymca and upgraded so I can go to any ymca in area. This opens up a whole new world of different group classes! <BR> <BR> I also bought the new wireless beats and love them! <BR> <BR> Went to book store( one of my fav places to go). Relaxed with books and magazines <BR> <BR> I just really feel like I have a new fire and passion inside. I used to love going to gym but life got in way and I quit going. I kept saying I will workout at home ... Fri, 13 Feb 2015 23:09:38 EST Peanut butter whips. Oh my!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5874449 I am still struggling with nightime eating I quit eating reg peanut butter cause every time my hubby would open jar he would get on me accuse me of eating a ton of it. Whether I did or not, I would get the blAme. So I decided to get my own peanut butter. Peanut butter whips that is. It's less fat and oh so good This worked for a while until I started getting up around 2 am and eating it So this morning, I threw it in trash. It's really stopping my weight loss. I am really struggling with ... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 10:53:53 EST a complete day of no sugar http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5826432 i am so excited!! <BR> <BR> i dont think i have ever had a complete day of no sugar. yesterday was my first day. i feel so successful. <BR> <BR> the hardest time was at work. there is a guy that brings a pack of cookies everyday for everyone. sometimes they are so good---like mint oreo---yum!!! <BR> <BR> i didnt even walk past them. if i dont know what kind there is, i will be better off. success!!! <BR> <BR> the other hard time is when i got home. i had almonds and a greek yog... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 13:30:38 EST welcome to december http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5825821 wow i cant believe i have not blogged in a month!! <BR> <BR> i do so much better when i am blogging and active in my spark community <BR> <BR> so what do i have planned for this month? <BR> <BR> i started the no sugar challenge on spark. it might be a stupid month to start this, but i just dont want to get out of control this month. <BR> <BR> i also started the 100 day challenge. what am i focusing on for this challenge? just staying away from sugar. i will lose weight if i can get t... Mon, 1 Dec 2014 13:29:42 EST An http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5808681 I had 3 fabulous on plan days. <BR> <BR> Are in calorie range and excercised. Felt terrific <BR> <BR> So why did this happen? Must be just a lesson for me to learn <BR> <BR> Today at work they are getting pizza and chicken. So you know that "all or nothing" thinking. I figure I may as we'll have some cookies at my moms before work. It's gonna be a junk food kind of day anyway. <BR> <BR> I ate about 7 chips ahoy. Why did I keep eating? I paid attention to my feelings while I was eati... Sat, 1 Nov 2014 12:55:42 EST time to be positive about life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5806972 its time to focus on the positive <BR> <BR> today i feel good. <BR> <BR> my problem with hubby being gone at night is improving. thanks for all your comments and help. <BR> the hardest part is the night after i get home, but on a positive note, i am getting to bed earlier and sleeping better. i am excercising more during day and cooking more healthy meals. i am visiting my mom more. i have many more positive things to come. <BR> <BR> my excercise for the day was supposed to be fo... Wed, 29 Oct 2014 12:46:05 EST facing my fears day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5805643 <BR> <BR> Monday, October 27, 2014 <BR> okay so this is my first day of my journey by myself. <BR> <BR> my dh got home this morning and went to bed. so it is just me. i wont see him until sunday. <BR> <BR> man oh man. i hate this. i feel so scared and hopeless. <BR> <BR> i know i should not have put my full trust in my dh and gotten used to him being there when i got up and when i got home from work.there was no me time. but i was ok with that at the time. but it wasnt healthy... Mon, 27 Oct 2014 11:12:07 EST the process of change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5805640 let me start by saying today was just a sad day for me. i have had a lot of sad days lately thank goodness for my spark friends <BR> <BR> i guess i have a lot of fears, as do we all. <BR> <BR> my sister died 2 years ago. she would always come over for trick or treat and sit with me and we would hand out candy. last year we were moving so it wasnt quite so sad. <BR> this year, it was just me. well, me and my husband, but mostly just me. <BR> i went shopping before handing out candy ... Mon, 27 Oct 2014 11:11:05 EST so disappointed with myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5802491 had a really bad day at work. <BR> <BR> there is a woman i work with and i just cant get along with her. we had to go in supervisor office and had a knock down drag out argument. i have to figure out a way to survive the day and not let her get to me. i dont like turmoil in the workplace. with that said, i also will not do all the work and let a co worker take advantage of me. <BR> <BR> so after work, i had 2 donuts. i know i can do better than that. i am very disappointed with mys... Tue, 21 Oct 2014 23:47:54 EST my journey continues..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5802149 its been over a week since i have blogged. <BR> <BR> i got a little discouraged but thanks to support, i am doing much better. <BR> <BR> yesterday, i increased my excercise to 60 minutes . i started t-25, which is very challenging. they do have a person that you can follow that does low impact. that is what i am doing. it is very doable. i am gonna follow her all the way throught the alpha and then i am gonna do it again and increase intesity. <BR> <BR> i also am still doing c25k... Tue, 21 Oct 2014 12:46:01 EST re motivated recharge---a constant process http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5795272 i want to thank everyone for the enormous responds to my last blog about my husband. since then, things are pretty much the same. <BR> <BR> i need to be consistent in order to prove to him that these are lasting changes. i really belive that once he sees that i am consistent with excercise and eating right, he might jump on board or at least be more supportive <BR> <BR> in other news, i have been getting my 10,000 steps a day by walking before work and at work, i walk a lot. if i had t... Thu, 9 Oct 2014 12:49:22 EST my negative husband at it again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5786147 i love my husband,. i really do. but sometimes i wonder how we survivied 30 years of marriage. <BR> <BR> he has made negative comments before about how you cant be sexy after 50. but this morning, i was trying to be positive and eat better and you know, the whole excercise thing, etc. <BR> <BR> he looked at me and said, you know, at our age it is really pointless to start eating right. the damage has been done. <BR> <BR> this really ticked me off. i am only 52, he is 57. i hope... Wed, 24 Sep 2014 13:03:37 EST update on my progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5781651 LOVE THE FALL WEATHER!!! <BR> <BR> the cool weather and leaves changing colors <BR> <BR> walks in the park, sitting outside, bonfires, and the good mood that i am in constantly because i can breathe outside!! <BR> <BR> <BR> i have been doing fairly well. the scale is down. i <BR> i am not eliminating grains, but i have cut back. i didnt buy any bread at the store and no ice cream, cookies or candy. biggest problem is the cookies at work. but i dont give up if i give in. i just immed... Wed, 17 Sep 2014 12:55:45 EST blew it allready on day 2!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5768125 yesterday i blew it with my no grains or sugar <BR> <BR> here is the funny thing---- <BR> <BR> i did good until i got to work. someone brought in my favorite mint oreos. someone else brought in zuccinni bread and lemon muffins. <BR> <BR> i told myself to just stay away. i thought about going to the bathroom and blogging for a minute so i could reach out to the community. <BR> <BR> still, i told myself- lisa, you can do this. <BR> <BR> the operator on the line where the bread was ... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 13:36:30 EST Day 2 of no grains http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767392 Day 2 of no grains. At one point yesterday I didn't think I could make it. I was dizzy and felt awful. I got thru it. <BR> <BR> Here are some good things from yesterday <BR> 1. Had smoothie and salad before work <BR> 2. No cookies at work <BR> 3. Ate good all day <BR> <BR> Tue, 26 Aug 2014 13:22:31 EST weekly challenge reminder http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5763206 S - SUBSTITUTE an unhealthy choice, with a healthy one. (i.e. replace soda with water) <BR> U - USE A FOOD TRACKER on SP, paper, or a journal, and stay within your calorie range. <BR> M - ME TIME: Make yourself a priority, schedule at least 10 min for YOU! <BR> M - MAKE A POST on the team wall, and do your best to make it original. <BR> E - EXERCISE: Your choice! What do you need to work on? <BR> R - REACH OUT: We’ve had a lot of new Sparkers join our team so let's reach out and get to know e... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 22:17:39 EST foods that are death to your metabolism http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5761775 i just read a really interesting article on skinny mom. i will try to post a link to it. i have to blog about this not only for other people info, but so i will remember it. <BR> <BR> metabolism death foods- <BR> <BR> 1. whole grains- possibly the #1 offender when it comes to ruining your metabolism....it has gluten, which causes inflammation in the body, starch, that turns into sugar quickly. the article suggests eating fruit and veggies and sprouted whole grain bread. instead of wh... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 23:42:28 EST my daily successes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5760329 i started out today by getting up a little later than i like too. i work afternoons and i got up at 10:30. thats ok tho. <BR> <BR> i am gonna start listing my positive things everyday that i do or i could say obstacles that i overcome. obstacles that are keeping me from my goal. i have read other people that do this and the last few days i just started thinking. some days i cant think of a single positive thing that i did. i give in to craving, dont excercise. i know its not like th... Fri, 15 Aug 2014 13:43:21 EST 30 day shred--my way http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755722 <BR> <BR> Friday, August 08, 2014 <BR> i have been off work for 2 days in order to give my knee a break. the dr says there is nothing wrong, just some swelling from my acl. <BR> <BR> so today i got up with a new confidence that i am going to tackle this problem. <BR> <BR> i got new orthotics. they say you should replace them every 6 mo to a year. i got new shoes also. <BR> <BR> today i started my day with a delicious smoothie. i need to write it down so i will remember it. <BR> <... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 11:34:53 EST i feel great~~~~ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5753614 i am doing so great!!! <BR> <BR> i am still on my facebook pause. i jump on my home computer before or after work and check a few of my favorite websites that i have on facebook. i love not having it on my phone. i am more conversational with people and pay more attention to the surrounding around me. <BR> <BR> i have been tracking my food and trying to keep my protein intake up and it is making all the difference. i dont seem as hungry and i seem more satisfied. i am making myself ... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 12:20:32 EST Facebook pause http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5743478 I have decided, after much thought, that I am taking a Facebook pause. I am realizing that I am spending way way too much time on this. <BR> It is a lot harder than I thought. This is idle time that I could be doing something more productive. <BR> This is only my first day but so far, I have made dinner, exercise, read bible. <BR> I have been listening to my half size podcast, and it is what Heather suggests. <BR> This is gonna open a whole new world where I am more active. <BR> Mon, 21 Jul 2014 13:41:10 EST Happy 4th of july http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5731899 Independence day!! A day to be thankful for the freedom we have living in this great country! <BR> <BR> I have joined the"half size me"community. If you don't know what it is it is a great podcast and community of people that weightless and getting healthy as their goal. Heather is a great leader who has lost 130 lbs I urge everyone to check it out <BR> She was blogging about how she turned her life around on 4th of July. She used independence day as her day to break free from things in he... Fri, 4 Jul 2014 11:26:36 EST another day of negative thoughts is teaching me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5731657 my second day of observations and i statements. i think it is time to take action on these things'' <BR> i have tried to be positive today but it just didnt work so well. <BR> <BR> you know what, that is ok. i am reading a lot of blogs from people to help inspire me and help motivate me. <BR> <BR> my first blog was a turnaround for me. it is time to start taking action. i need to take action and get this done. i am important enough that i need to do what ever i need to do to stay m... Fri, 4 Jul 2014 00:59:35 EST observations about myself--need help http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5731000 i really paid attention to myself today...my thoughts and actions a i was going about my day. these are some of the thoughts that i had regarding my negative self. i must work on these <BR> <BR> 1. my husband wanting to know why i dont want sex anymore...at first i didnt tell him but eventually i realized it wasnt fair for him to not know how horrible i felt about my body. i told him i have gained weight and didnt feel sexy. i needed to lose some weight to feel sexy again. <BR> <BR> 2.... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 01:13:59 EST i am in control of me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5730671 i read a great article on my 100 day challenge group that puppies4me posted. it was about making "I" statements. so i need to start this because i have not been doing so well with excercise and eating. i doing better with the eating part than the excercise tho. <BR> <BR> i have not put excercise at the top of my list. i have put it on back burner. i need to do this first thing in the morning. i feel better about myself when i excercise and tone up. i <BR> i have been wanting to do ... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 15:12:13 EST can I survive 2 more days? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5727154 2 more days till a week off. I feel like a slow moving turtle seeing the finish line but it will never get here. <BR> <BR> Haven't been feeling so good. I take effexor and I took some benadryl for about 4 nights. I think the phenaldrymaine in it contradicts my effexor. After doing research found out a cream Dr gives me for my feet also causes problems. <BR> Try asking a pharmacist or Dr if they cause problems and the answer will be"no" I been on the medication for a long time and I know ... Fri, 27 Jun 2014 13:32:44 EST gonna change my grumpy attitude http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5719105 i have a lady at work that is lazy. just plain lazy. always trying to skate by, while i pick up the slack. i work in a factory and i dont mind hard work. i just dont like it when someone else takes easy route making me pick up slack and always do hard work. <BR> in past few days, i have really let this get to me. i go to work, immediatly get in bad mood, and am grumpy all day. <BR> <BR> i dont like being like this. i like to be happy. so starting today, ,my new mantra is: i cant c... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 12:43:43 EST havent given up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716506 so hello to everyone that reads my blog <BR> <BR> i havent given up on my health and wellness challenge that i previously blogged about. sorry i havent blogged lately but i am gonna start doing this at least every other day cause i feel so much better when i do. <BR> <BR> i am still in process of giving up sugar and processed food. i still have days when a binge starts by eating a candy bar but i can say that they are few and fat between,. i feel so much better when i stay away from suga... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 12:49:15 EST health and wellness phase one http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5696405 how many phases does my new health and wellness challenge have? i am not really sure yet. i do know that if i research and read article every day about health and wellness, i tend to be more active at applying these principals to my life. it motivates me to keep going. so this is first. every day, find an article( which is not hard cause spark has tons of them) and blog and apply it to my life. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1460839711.jpg"> <BR> <BR> 1. ... Fri, 16 May 2014 12:29:07 EST healthy habits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5684036 i love spark people!! let me say that first <BR> <BR> the hardest healthy habit for me to stick with is nightime eating and excercising <BR> <BR> my goal for may is to track every day and excercise, even if its just a walk. i need to stay in my calorie limit, which when i get home from work at 11 pm, i can look and see how many calories i have left i also am gonna plan better for snacks <BR> <BR> today is off to a great start i started a day early <BR> <BR> i also am trying to d... Wed, 30 Apr 2014 12:49:07 EST active and healthy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5677907 being active and healthy feels so good. i believe it is Joyce Meyer that says "fake it till you make it" that is what i am doing. every day i try to add more and more activity or healthy habits to my life. <BR> <BR> yesterday i walked my dog up 2 really steep hills. 30 min walk. today i walked my moms 2 dogs--just a nice easy walk. i am eating healthy and staying in my calorie range. <BR> <BR> they say to have a plan. my plan for tmr is walk my dog and doing a workout dvd. i have... Tue, 22 Apr 2014 12:51:46 EST 3 positive things i did today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5661773 Took a walk 2 days in a row-yesterday 11,000 steps and 13 flights stairs!! <BR> <BR> Fixed healthy lunch and dinner <BR> <BR> Visited my mom <BR> <BR> Sometimes its hard to think of positive things that you do each day. But if you know you are going to write itdown, it becomes a challenge that you think on all day Tue, 1 Apr 2014 13:00:13 EST 3 good things i did today for my health http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5657254 1. Ate more than enough protein to meet my daily quota <BR> <BR> 2. Chose healthy snacks all day <BR> <BR> 3. Read my scripture of the day Wed, 26 Mar 2014 18:54:21 EST review of march goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5652369 as i look back on my goals i set for march, i have made improvement but still need more improvement., my activity is still not real good. i got to do better. <BR> been going to church and spending time with God. <BR> <BR> i still have a few weeks left and i will do better. <BR> <BR> my challenge lately has been that my son moved out. he is 24 so it is time. but i got to be honest. i am going through empty nest syndrome. i have cried several time and have felt like i am in the o zone... Thu, 20 Mar 2014 11:41:16 EST in one word, motivated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5644533 Hello spark friends. I am starting another 6 day workweek which i am very tired of. But i will keep on trucking cause i have no choice <BR> In one word, today i feel motivated. Motivated to keep eating right and to keep excercising more, and to keep on praising my Lord and savior, Jesus Christ. <BR> I am getting my praise songs on my phone in anticiaption of nicer weather and long walks with my puppy. I love to praise my Lord while i am walking. My mind gets totally off walking and i dont ... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 13:56:46 EST march goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5636922 gonna work on my nighttime eating. i have lost a lit control in this dept <BR> <BR> increase excercise to 30 min 6 days a week. i have improved in this category but i still need more improvement <BR> <BR> decrease my sugar and sweets. once again, i have made progress but have slipped back a little into old habits <BR> <BR> stay on plan and in calorie ranges every day. this includes limiting processed foods and eating healthy <BR> <BR> increase my jogging and walking times and speeds. a c... Sat, 1 Mar 2014 13:09:00 EST feeling enthused http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5635301 I am feeling very enthusiastic bout my weight loss goals and program. A step at a time and i will get there <BR> <BR> I an feeling stronger and empowered. Hubby sees my new way if eating and excercising and asked if i feel didnt. Its only been 4 days so maybe its in my head. But yeah, i feel great physically and mentally Thu, 27 Feb 2014 13:12:57 EST back on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5634447 Back on track and feelin great. Did an old tae bo tape today. It was a lot easier 25 yrs agobut i got thru it. <BR> <BR> Now i must decide- continue tae bo, turbo fire, or 30 day shred. Any opinions? Wed, 26 Feb 2014 14:28:11 EST checking in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5618621 so it is sat and i have to work again. so thankful for my job but so tired of working 6 days <BR> <BR> i did c25k today. week 2 day 3. and i even made a new recipe. i made buffalo chicken mac and cheese. it is ok. i had to substitute cottage cheese for yogurt. i think it is pretty good. not sure if i would make it again tho. <BR> <BR> had a healthy breadfast and just finished my berry green smoothie <BR> <BR> not much else going on. just wanted to blog for a minute and check in so... Sat, 8 Feb 2014 12:40:57 EST consistency http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5616968 i need to remember to be consistent. <BR> <BR> the scale was up a lb this morning. i was doing better when i weighed myself 2 times per week. dont know why it was up but i need to be consistent. dont get off track on weekends. i need to count calories and track them. just eating certain healthy foods without countin calories doesnt work for me. at least not yet. i can eat 500 calories worth of healthy foods when i dont count. <BR> <BR> today is a fresh start from yesterday. i am ... Thu, 6 Feb 2014 13:51:00 EST some rules to live by http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5589167 <BR> i found these rules on someones message post. i thought i would share them <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Don’t half-ass anything. Give fully and deliberately to work and rest. <BR> <BR> <BR> Examine every choice in the context of your goals. <BR> <BR> <BR> Spend the energy before your body saves it. <BR> <BR> <BR> Make each calorie worth it. <BR> <BR> <BR> Hunger is ok <BR> <BR> <BR> Push harder <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Think bigger. <BR> <BR> ... Fri, 10 Jan 2014 12:03:03 EST winter challenge goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5589071 194-9.7=184.3 <BR> <BR> this is my 5% goal for the winter challenge <BR> <BR> i can do this <BR> Fri, 10 Jan 2014 10:49:16 EST i need support spark friends. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5581920 my spark friends: <BR> <BR> i feel like i can be honest with you and you will not judge me and berate me. i was having such positive thinking the past 2 days and even yesterday up until bed i did really well. <BR> <BR> i have a rather personal medical problem right now that is too embarrassing to discuss. it is not deadly, just a problem that could have been prevented if i would have been smart 10 yrs ago., now i must suffer a little due to my stupidity. so, as i was going to bed, i c... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 13:14:37 EST strategies for why i cant stick with healthy eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5580803 one of the big reason is my love of peanut butter. i know you can eat it if you portion it out. i just cant do that. i love it. i love it on sandwiches and by the spoonful---i am going to just not eat it. i might have it one day a week on weekends. <BR> <BR> another reason is i eat too much after work at 11 pm-- i am sticking to 200 calories after work. i am gonna do crossword puzzles, blog, or just go to sleep. <BR> <BR> i have joined gym and that is increasing my motivation. <BR> ... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 13:36:13 EST my plan for the coming new year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5579409 this is the first day of new year challenge. a blank slate. a chance to start again. i want this year to be full of accomplishments for me. i dont just want to sit around. i want to set goals and reach them. <BR> <BR> i love spark people for giving me the guidance and support i need to do this. the motivation here is awesome. <BR> <BR> i have on my bucket list for this year to run a 5k. i plan on completing my c25k. i will be doing it at home mostly until weather gets nice. i w... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 12:30:45 EST motivation--from 5% challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5578136 i have a lot of reasons for wanting to lose weight. being thinner is a definete reason but not on top of the list <BR> <BR> the main reason would be for my health. my dr told me my triglycerides are high. he told me this about a year ago. i just cant seem to eat right for any length of time for it to make a difference. so i have labeled this "the year of change" i am scared to death i will get diabetes, or die of heart attack, or have to go on cholesterol meds. <BR> <BR> so that is ... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 15:22:34 EST again????? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5565704 i am once again on the right track. i have come to realize that the road to success has a lot of failures. the difference is getting back up and keeping on versus quitting and not trying. <BR> i choose to keep trying and get rid of things that dont work. <BR> <BR> i have started several streaks. peanut butter is a weakness. i can no longer control it. i have to just get rid of it. i will be using pb2 for a taste of peanut butter. <BR> <BR> i also have come to realize that certai... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 13:26:43 EST encouragment from spark friends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5534916 all the support i received from yesterdays blog about my husband saying after 50 you could not be sexy really gave me some motivation. <BR> <BR> as i was thinking about this, i realized that this is one reason i am afraid to lose weight. i am afraid that i will feel sexy and my husband will not realize that i am alive and sexy.. we had problems in the past when i lost weight. when i lose weight, i want to do things and feel alive. my husband is like a bump on a log . i love him, dont g... Thu, 7 Nov 2013 12:57:16 EST getting my sexy back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5533957 <BR> <BR> i havent blogged in quite a while. i thought this topic is a good place to start. it is helping me to become motivated to see this through this time <BR> <BR> i am 50, almost 51. my husband is 57. i had on a pair of jogging shorts this morning and said to him , i know these are sexy arent they? and then i laughed. <BR> <BR> he replied back to me, well, at our age it doesnt even matter. sexy is gone and not coming back. <BR> <BR> that really irritated me. i believe you ... Wed, 6 Nov 2013 13:25:19 EST i really love this great website and the people http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5531997 i have flubbed up big time but it is never too late to start living a healthy life. i will learn from mistakes of the past month <BR> <BR> i have ate practically everything bad in sight. a bunch of junk food, havent excercised, havent really cared. <BR> <BR> it all started when i decided to go off effexor ( my anti deppressant) if you know anything about this drug, it is great and really will help with anxiety. but what the dr doesnt tell you is that once you are on it, you will go ... Mon, 4 Nov 2013 13:35:25 EST