LWADE1963's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=LWADE1963 LWADE1963's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Why why why http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6442114 They had cookies at work yesterday. I was determined to not have any So what happened? I took just one. Got that sweet succulent taste of sugar on my lips and so I decided to have another. After all, I didn't have any lunch. Well one turned into two and two turned into- I allready screwed up so I may as well have more. Too many cookies later, my stomache hurt and I just had a blah feeling. Why oh why do I do this? I know I have to get rid of sweets but I always sabotage. Tmr i... Thu, 21 Dec 2017 10:37:47 EST Ahhh. Christmas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6441599 I am finally beginning to get things ready for Christmas. Hello. I am lisa wade. I haven't been around for a while. I have been trying to do weight watchers for about a year. How many failed attempts does it take to convince me that this diet isn't right for me. I like the community at spark. So I am coming back to stay because I need success. More about that in another post tho. Work at 2 pm today. I have ran all day getting gift cards, presents, haircut, and stocking up on healthy fo... Tue, 19 Dec 2017 13:04:23 EST Welcome to october http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6417078 I love fresh beginnings. The start of a new month A fresh start on my journey of weight loss and change I am wanting to lose 5 lbs by end of October. I have my 4 month checkup and need my numbers to be down so I do t have to start metformin. I am gonna do it and I am gonna be successful Sun, 1 Oct 2017 21:39:46 EST Things I love http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6400803 1. Half size me community 2. Eating healthy 2. Sparkpeople article, blogging, and sp friends 4. Weight watchers meetings, coaching, and connect 5. Walking and lifting weights 6. My doggies 7. A massage 8. God 9.friends 10. Drinking coffee on swing in morning while listening to birds Thu, 17 Aug 2017 01:40:08 EST Things I need to improve http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6400801 Things I want to improve 1. Drink more tea 2. More time outside with flowers 3. Sign up for 5k 4. More time playing with dogs 5. More time at gym 6. Less tv 7. Find out my passions and things that make me tick- then go for it 8. Spend more time with friends 9. Develop inner confidence and self trust 10. Spend more time with God and go to church Thu, 17 Aug 2017 01:36:07 EST Oh boy, do I need help with this http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6399982 I have been gone way way too long. I have not progressed at all. As a matter of fact, I am now borderline diabetic sugar is borderline, high Triglycerides, fatty liver. The dr has given me until end of October to get my numbers down before he puts me on metformin. At first, I panicked. I joined a gym and signed up for some personal training. The gym promotes a ketogenic diet. So I tried that and had diahrea 7-8 times a day. When I confronted the person that signed me up, she totalled i... Tue, 15 Aug 2017 00:09:46 EST i am back and more pumped up than ever http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6311781 i havent been on spark for a while and havent blogged for even longer <BR> <BR> so i have been playing around with weight watchers for a while now. i love the support and community but for me, its that all or nothing thinking that is preventing it from working for me. i am not sure if i will continue with it plus track calories a few days a week or just track calories every day. <BR> <BR> but i do know one thing. i am pumped up i am reading some of my old blogs from 2014 and i actually ... Mon, 6 Feb 2017 12:43:24 EST strategies for why i cant stick with healthy eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5580803 one of the big reason is my love of peanut butter. i know you can eat it if you portion it out. i just cant do that. i love it. i love it on sandwiches and by the spoonful---i am going to just not eat it. i might have it one day a week on weekends. <BR> <BR> another reason is i eat too much after work at 11 pm-- i am sticking to 200 calories after work. i am gonna do crossword puzzles, blog, or just go to sleep. <BR> <BR> i have joined gym and that is increasing my motivation. <BR> ... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 13:36:13 EST my plan for the coming new year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5579409 this is the first day of new year challenge. a blank slate. a chance to start again. i want this year to be full of accomplishments for me. i dont just want to sit around. i want to set goals and reach them. <BR> <BR> i love spark people for giving me the guidance and support i need to do this. the motivation here is awesome. <BR> <BR> i have on my bucket list for this year to run a 5k. i plan on completing my c25k. i will be doing it at home mostly until weather gets nice. i w... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 12:30:45 EST motivation--from 5% challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5578136 i have a lot of reasons for wanting to lose weight. being thinner is a definete reason but not on top of the list <BR> <BR> the main reason would be for my health. my dr told me my triglycerides are high. he told me this about a year ago. i just cant seem to eat right for any length of time for it to make a difference. so i have labeled this "the year of change" i am scared to death i will get diabetes, or die of heart attack, or have to go on cholesterol meds. <BR> <BR> so that is ... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 15:22:34 EST again????? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5565704 i am once again on the right track. i have come to realize that the road to success has a lot of failures. the difference is getting back up and keeping on versus quitting and not trying. <BR> i choose to keep trying and get rid of things that dont work. <BR> <BR> i have started several streaks. peanut butter is a weakness. i can no longer control it. i have to just get rid of it. i will be using pb2 for a taste of peanut butter. <BR> <BR> i also have come to realize that certai... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 13:26:43 EST encouragment from spark friends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5534916 all the support i received from yesterdays blog about my husband saying after 50 you could not be sexy really gave me some motivation. <BR> <BR> as i was thinking about this, i realized that this is one reason i am afraid to lose weight. i am afraid that i will feel sexy and my husband will not realize that i am alive and sexy.. we had problems in the past when i lost weight. when i lose weight, i want to do things and feel alive. my husband is like a bump on a log . i love him, dont g... Thu, 7 Nov 2013 12:57:16 EST getting my sexy back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5533957 <BR> <BR> i havent blogged in quite a while. i thought this topic is a good place to start. it is helping me to become motivated to see this through this time <BR> <BR> i am 50, almost 51. my husband is 57. i had on a pair of jogging shorts this morning and said to him , i know these are sexy arent they? and then i laughed. <BR> <BR> he replied back to me, well, at our age it doesnt even matter. sexy is gone and not coming back. <BR> <BR> that really irritated me. i believe you ... Wed, 6 Nov 2013 13:25:19 EST i really love this great website and the people http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5531997 i have flubbed up big time but it is never too late to start living a healthy life. i will learn from mistakes of the past month <BR> <BR> i have ate practically everything bad in sight. a bunch of junk food, havent excercised, havent really cared. <BR> <BR> it all started when i decided to go off effexor ( my anti deppressant) if you know anything about this drug, it is great and really will help with anxiety. but what the dr doesnt tell you is that once you are on it, you will go ... Mon, 4 Nov 2013 13:35:25 EST its the weekend, after all http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5491173 in past weekends, i dont have a plan. <BR> <BR> i dont have to excercise, after all, its the weekend <BR> <BR> i dont have to track food. after all, its the weekend <BR> <BR> WRONG!!!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/5/l452126287.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> this weekend is different. i am gonna track <em>370</em> <em>267</em> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1236041386.jpg"> <BR> <BR> i am gonna start my saturday morning ... Fri, 20 Sep 2013 13:34:45 EST favorite fall food- a & i challenge blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5490229 awww fall!! <BR> <BR> i love this season. the changing colors of leaves, the chilly days and nights, bonfires, pumpkins, and fall comfort foods <BR> <BR> one of my favorite foods this time of year is pumpkin coffee and pumpkin muffins. luckily, i have a healthy way of making the muffins. i use spice mix, can of pumpkin, and 2 egg whites. i also love homemade vegetable soup and i am planning on making more soups this year. <BR> <BR> i love the cool weather so i can jog outside. i j... Thu, 19 Sep 2013 13:05:16 EST wake up, workout, be happy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5474627 a new week has begun. i am glad cause i did really horrible over the weekend. gained a few pounds due to past, pizza, etc. thank goodness this is a journey and i can learn from my mistakes. i will not let this keep me off track <BR> <BR> went to 2 barb-b-q yesterday and they both were great. one of the barb-b-q was a reunion of sorts between part of my family and myself. after my sister died in nov, my sister and brother and i quit talking to each other due to some stupid stuff. i rec... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 12:50:19 EST everything is sunny http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5453682 Things turned out OK yesterday. <BR> <BR> My union president called my boss and asked what was going on. My boss literally had honey dripping from his lips. So things are good <BR> <BR> Its a nice cool day in Ohio so I am going to drink my coffee and go for a jog. My training and eating right is gonna get serious cause I want to do the turkey trot in Nov. It will be my first 5k that I have signed up for. <BR> <BR> Have a great day Tue, 13 Aug 2013 08:24:13 EST a nervous wreck http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5452795 I had a week off work last week. I went in on Wed night to file a grievance. I was told I was not allowed on company premises while I am off work. I really want aware of that. The boss knew I was coming in but he might deny that now. <BR> I go back to work today and I am a nervous wreck wondering if they are gonna fire me. I have a really good job making good money. I always do things on up and up to avoid these situations. <BR> <BR> So I am sitting here at noon wishing it was 3 so I cou... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 11:56:49 EST another re-start--hey, life happens http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5443054 it has been a while since i have blogged and i always feel better when i do. <BR> <BR> i am officially on vacation now. i have a whole week off. just me. no hubby or son. i love them both dearly, but this is gonna be so nice to have every evening to myself. they both work afternoons. <BR> <BR> i am using this week to get back on track. that is why i love spark peoples new get back on track challenge. i used to think that when i had to take time to focus on getting back on track ... Sat, 3 Aug 2013 09:08:20 EST another on plan day-- did i say that?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5424248 i have had another day of staying on plan. i am becoming more aware of the foods i put in my body and the way they make me feel. <BR> <BR> i have got on some weight watchers threads and am following the beck diet solution. it is awesome for helping you to deal with your emotions and helping you control your eating. the message boards are a tremendous help. other people are writing in and saying things that help them. i have wrote down some of the quotes and read them before i get off wo... Wed, 17 Jul 2013 13:30:26 EST a not so good week so far--need support http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5393411 not doing so good this week. <BR> <BR> i am so aggravatted with myself. <BR> <BR> did so good last week. i did everything right and by the end of the week, i was exhausted. <BR> <BR> sat i decided to treat myself but i didnt track anything sat or sunday. <BR> <BR> i went to 2 parties and said no to cake and a lot of other goodies. i ended up haveing an ice cream cone early in the day and 2 donuts in the evening. i guess that might have been too much of a treat. <BR> <BR> sund... Tue, 18 Jun 2013 12:17:51 EST a huge non scale victory http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5388068 yesterday i had an awesome non scale victory. <BR> <BR> i am not sure my dr thought so, but i did <BR> <BR> normal triglyceride level is 150. 3 months ago, mine was 425. yesterday visit it was 345. i know that is still bad, but i have been trying a little harder the last 3 months. <BR> i thought that was great because i am trying even harder now. i know in 3 months, it is gonna be normal. <BR> <BR> i am reading and concentrating on eating right and excercise and getting all the i... Thu, 13 Jun 2013 13:35:50 EST what an awesome start to tuesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5385850 my first great thing that happened today-- i got up at 9 am --right when the alarm went off. i have been wanting to do this cause i want to take some 10 am classes at the ymca <BR> <BR> 2. another great thing- i had the courage to go to the class at the ymca. it was high low aerobics--things like kickboxing, and then they would do weights, and then up the intesity again and then weights. the only thing i didnt do was wear a sports bra. those babies get heavy. next time, i will wear a s... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 12:57:29 EST a new week!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5384576 i havent blogged in about a week. <BR> <BR> last week was a bad week nutriionally. why oh why do we do this to ourselves?? <BR> <BR> i was psyched to stay on track but my emotions of a bad day at work or frustrated with my hubby or just a bad day took over. but, i am not giving up the fight. <BR> <BR> i am back on track and more motivated than ever. <BR> <BR> i am learning from my mistakes and i wont make them again. <BR> <BR> i love how eating right feels. i love being a good e... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 12:59:11 EST another epiphany http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5378011 need to do a quick blog before i go to work <BR> <BR> over the weekend i was shopping and found a really cute pair of shorts. i wear a 12 or 14 in shorts. however, in shirts, i have faced the fact that i need to go to plus size due to the fact that i am wide.( my dad, God rest is soul, would call me wide clyde). <BR> <BR> so as i was looking for a pretty purple top, i couldnt find one. so i started going to other stores. my husband was looking in sears at the tools ( dont all men). ... Tue, 4 Jun 2013 13:36:47 EST another lesson learned in eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5375722 i have several things to blog about. thats one for today and one for tomorrow . i find myself getting hooked on this sight. when something happens or i have a thought , i think about blogging and sharing it with my spark friends <BR> <BR> i had an epitamy. this is my weigh loss journey. i can join 100's of gyms and weight loss places. but until i figure out what works for me and i do it, nothing else will work. weight watchers can tell me to eat so many points, ymca can tell me what... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 15:48:11 EST things that make me smile http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5372057 -spending time with my mom who is 76 <BR> <BR> having coffee with my husband- he makes me laugh <BR> <BR> walking my shih tzu, luci <BR> <BR> watching my moms 3 shih tzus play with each other in the yard- this is a big one. i love love this <BR> <BR> friday at 10 pm knowing that in 30 min it will be the weekend <BR> <BR> meditating on how good God is to me <BR> <BR> Wed, 29 May 2013 23:44:46 EST i need help asap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5334179 thank you to everyone who responded to yesterday post. <BR> <BR> today, i have a problem. it is turning into a major problem. <BR> <BR> i am good all day and when i go to bed, i am right where i want to be at my calorie range and everything else. after starting to go to sleep, i wake up and i am sleep eating. that is similiar to sleep walking except you eat and dont remember it. <BR> <BR> i dont remember going into the kithcen last night and finishing off the ice cream, eating a gra... Wed, 24 Apr 2013 13:18:01 EST a reality check http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5291822 saturday i had a huge reality check. <BR> <BR> i was tired of not having anything nice to wear. i have 1 pair of jeans that fit me. i just keep waiting for the others to fit me. since i was going to a birthday party, i thought this would be the perfect opportunity to get something. <BR> <BR> REALITY CHECK i have graduated to plus sizes. <BR> <BR> that was a tough one. i managed to get in a size 14 pants and a 1x shirt. this is embarrassing. i didnt want my husband to know. som... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 00:07:45 EST can you say awesome http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5286623 a really quick blog cause i have to leave in 5 min. <BR> <BR> i am so proud pof myself. today, i got up late but didnt want to skip my workout. i figured i wld just be sitting watching tv anyway so i went downstairs and did 30 day shred. my mom visited for a short time and when she left, i thought, i dont want all this adreniline going to waste. so i went back downstairs and did c25k wk 6 day 1. <BR> <BR> <BR> i am off to a great start today Thu, 14 Mar 2013 14:02:09 EST a great excercise and diet plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5285287 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1548051995.jpg"> <BR> Wednesday, March 13, 2013 <BR> i started off the day on a positive note. <BR> <BR> i did couch to 5 k week 5 day 3. i really didnt think i could do it. a 20 min jog without stopping. i let the music take over and it was great. i am really excited to keep running. i think i found a new passion. <BR> <BR> tmr is jillian michael's day. 30 day shred day 2. she has to have her own day. i cannot combine it with c2... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 13:11:11 EST what can i improve upon and do i need any help or advice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5279565 my challenge was to not snack so much at night. <BR> <BR> i am actually making great strides in this probelm. someone had suggested to have a string cheese before bed. so right before bed, i have a string cheese and i lay a bag of grapes out. last night, i came in the kitchen several times, and acually snacked on the grapes. and do you know what my husband had the nerve to do? he layed out half bag of girl scout peanut butter cookies. he layed them right by my grapes. was he trying ... Fri, 8 Mar 2013 23:27:52 EST how i am doing day by day with my challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5274394 my challenge was to have 1 or 2 small snacks after work <BR> <BR> how i am doing day by day <BR> <BR> i am still struggling but doing better. last night i came home from work literally starving. i stood and thought about what i wanted. i even opened a container of yogurt and said, no i dont really want that. i went with my old standy-peanut butter and jelly sandwich. but instead of scooping out a ton of peanut butter, i measured a tbs. man, i gotta tell you, i was going way over that ... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 13:29:48 EST spark challenge ---eat every 3-4 hours http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5274361 my spark challenge is to eat every 3-4 hrs. and record how i liked it. <BR> <BR> i normally do this all the time. i just get too hungry if i wait longer. what i am finding that is working for me is to much on carrots, celery, cup up apple, or grapes. i work afternoons. i take a combination with me to work in a baggie. between 2:30 and 6:30, i munch on them and it is working out quite nicely, <BR> <BR> what i need to do, and i will chanllenge myself to do this, is to follow the same routi... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 13:08:14 EST ideas for encouragement --- please read--really good ideas here http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5271811 these are some things i do when i want to encourage myself, which seems to happen every weekend. <BR> <BR> i get on spark and read blogs <BR> i comment on other peoples blogs. <BR> read spark articles <BR> read quotes and ideas on spark website <BR> play with my cute little dog <BR> look at an excercise or fitness magazine <BR> excercise <BR> read bible or uplifting book-- like a joyce meyer book <BR> listen to uplifting songs- like spark people workout mixes <BR> <BR> notice a common them... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 21:56:03 EST what am i doing to encourage myself and stay on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5271772 well today, i have done nothing. no excercise, not a good day of eating, but i am paying for it now. i am just having a lot of stomache problems and feel yucky. but i am not giving up. this is a journey and i will have days like this. <BR> <BR> so in general, what am i doing to encourage myself? <BR> <BR> i did not buy any granola bars or low fat ice cream to snack on after work. instead, i will sop at speedway or sheetz. they have healthy snacks and i will buy 1 serving so that w... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 21:25:43 EST what habit do i want to change and a plan to change it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5270215 this week challenge is blogging. <BR> <BR> what new habit do i want to develop? <BR> <BR> i really would like to get into a habit of just having 1 or 2 small snacks after work. i usually go crazy and consume about 400 calories after work. this is really sabatoging my effort at losing weight. <BR> <BR> most of the time, my calories are ok but i dont want to consume that much before bed. even if you consume 400 calories of healthy food ( which i do plenty of times) , it is still calor... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 19:54:13 EST lesson 2 snack on veggies and fruit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5264696 today was weigh in day. <BR> <BR> i have lost 2.4 lbs in 2 weeks. i also started measuring myself. it doesnt look very good. but it has motivated me to move more and get rid of these inches. <BR> <BR> one lesson i have learned and a habit i have formed is to snack on veggies. i have a pretty good routine going if i must say so. <BR> i have a fruit for breakfast, 1 cup of veggies for lunch (which is 2 servings), i snack on carrots and celery and grapes in the afternoon until dinner so i ... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 12:41:50 EST todays challenge -get rid of bread http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5256146 i am still having trouble with eating at night. i go to bed and get sleepy and can barely remember getting up and eating. <BR> <BR> today, i am gonna throw my loaf of bread out. i am the only one in house that eats bread. i love love bread. in the trash it is going. <BR> <BR> also, i need to quit looking at the scale. if i start concentrating on other things like fitness and how i feel, i will do better. i just get tired of what seems like always eating right and doing the right ... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 11:59:26 EST lesson #1- commit to track your food all of it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5254868 well another monday and i ready to start a healthy week. no horrible mindless snacking at night after work. i find myself just getting bigger and bigger. today my size 14 shorts were tight. <BR> <BR> i got up and did my treadmill for 30 min on incline and then did a 20 min workout. then i spent the next hour in kitchen making dinner and prepping for week ahead and today <BR> <BR> today i have spagetti with homemade marinara and ground turkey. looks pretty good <BR> <BR> i will leave ... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 12:38:42 EST new goals and plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5251041 Had a little down time the last 3 days but i am feelin better and ready to get back on track. I think i am just gonna concentrate on healthy food, eliminate sugar, etc. I feel like this is a good longterm goal. <BR> <BR> I al ready to join the ymca again too. I have my at hone gym i working on but i lije going to y a couple days a week. <BR> <BR> If i take my focus on the foods i cant have and concentrate on what i can have, then it will stick <BR> <BR> Weight lifting and running. That ... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 00:15:10 EST my feb goals for kisses challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5240962 my feb goals. i am posting this a little late, but never the less, these are my goals. <BR> <BR> lose 5 lbs- that is a reasonable amount <BR> <BR> do my c25k 3 days a week <BR> <BR> do strenth traiining 2 times a week <BR> <BR> blog at least 4 times a week <BR> <BR> get active in chat on kisses blog Wed, 6 Feb 2013 23:52:59 EST finally, on track for good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5205720 got my treadmill put together today. i also lay some tiles on floor. i need to get 5 more packages of tile, my excercise bench. and a bigger mirror. some of other smaller items also. so excited about my new workout room <BR> <BR> so far, i have stayed on track. only had 1/2 of a donut for sweets. the true test is tonigt it is like i sleep walk. i am almost asleep, i wake up and go get something fattening. it can even be a few slices of bread. but it is really derailing me. this has ... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 21:22:32 EST a new day, a new opportunity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5202246 i am trying to wean myself off my ambien. slept without one last nite. of course, i had a xanax instead. but hey, i was taking both. i have had a lot of issues with different things since my sister died. but that is another blog. <BR> <BR> today, i want to say that i joined planet fitness. i even excercised for 45 min. id 30 min on arc trainer and started my couch to 5k i will be putting my treadmill together this weekend. and i am going to start my weight training. i got an excer... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 13:44:18 EST fitness resolutions for 2013- among other things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5181460 so it is time to post some fitness resolutions for the following year i am not gonna say that i will be at my goal weight-even tho it is only 30-40 lbs. i am gonna say that i have some fitness goals and a few other goals that i am gonna concentrate on <BR> <BR> --do some form of excercise every day for at least 10 min. <BR> <BR> --go through couch to 5k again and really concentrate on getting it done. <BR> <BR> --go through 30 day shred <BR> <BR> --pray and read bible every day <BR> ... Sun, 30 Dec 2012 22:03:45 EST focusing on positive things- harder than i thought http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5172056 my challenge today is to focus on 3 positive things that i have done. wow this is harder than i thought <BR> <BR> 1. even tho i dont feel like, i put up more christmas decorations. <BR> <BR> 2. i called about the overcharge for mikey. my son is 24 and i should have made him do it, but i like doing stuff like that and trying to teach him the importance of not believing every bill you get <BR> <BR> 3. swept the floor before i went to work <BR> <BR> 4. gonna wear my santa hat to work... Thu, 20 Dec 2012 12:55:36 EST positive changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5166912 how do people stay motivated for the long haul? i read blogs of people that lose a lot of weight and i just cant figure out how they motivate themselves on a daily basis. <BR> <BR> i guess to start out, i am gonna concentrate of the way i feel after i eat certain foods. the effect these foods have on my energy level. that way, instead of telling myself that i have to eat this or that cause i am suppose to, i can say, i eat that cause it makes me feel better. <BR> <BR> i will also conce... Fri, 14 Dec 2012 23:32:53 EST being consistent will get me to my goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5163257 i have made some progress. <BR> <BR> i thought of 2 long term goals. i broke it down to med goals and even further to small goals. i hope i am doing this right. <BR> <BR> i joined planet fitness but was gonna cancel and keep going to ymca. i decided to go and give it a try before cancelling. i really loved it. i do not agree with all the snacks and bowls of tootsie rolls. that kinda defeats the purpose. not to mention, all the grimy hands that dip in the bread and dip. and who k... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 12:58:00 EST need help setting goals- in order to get out of mood http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5162159 i am struggling with a lot of feelings right now. i am really in a funk. my sister died a week before thanksgiving and it is making me realize how short life is. right now, i feel like a failure. i dont see anything through. i am 50 and 190 lbs. i need to lose weight and i need to follow through on excercise. i want to live the rest of my life fulfilled and excited. i dont want to sit on sidelines and watch life pass me by on couch. <BR> <BR> problem is, i dont know where to start. ... Mon, 10 Dec 2012 12:45:35 EST